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Small steps to become Torah observant - it took me a year and a half to become fully observant
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It took me a year and a half to become fully Torah observant. one step after the other. one mitzvah at a time....slowly slowly till you reach the top See the whole story at http://www.alonanava.com Alon Anava shares his near-death experience in depth. A must see video if you are interested in life after death. After his clinical death, Alon experienced a reality that is both frightening and hopeful. Alon was truly given a second chance. See what Alon has done with a second chance. This experience led Alon down a completely different path, allowing him to truly choose life - eternal life.
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it was almost impossible for me to
become religious i was like what am i
i'm gonna now become one of these weird
people
and i can't do this anymore and i can't
do this anymore i can't do that anymore
it was like
i had this block in my mind i was like
okay i'll do the basics i'll do the
feeling i'll do the meat and dairy thing
and i'll do
i'll do the little easy things but don't
start giving you know all these big
things jabbas
and i can't do this anymore and now it
was very hard in my mind i was like i'm
not gonna go to the beach anymore i'm
gonna go
out with girls and it was this weird
thing
no now the thing is that i slowly slowly
started taking another mitzvah and
another mitzvah
and the whole year and a half that i was
in chicago it felt like hashem is
holding my hand telling me no
you're normal everything's fine just do
what you need to do
and every time i would add another
mitzvah another mitzvah but i would only
do what
is very very easy and whatever you know
kind of makes sense
like for example one time i read in the
sidoo in the in the fair book that
you know in the small print that when
you leave the bathroom you have to wash
your hands three times
with this funny looking cup and then you
have to sell bra
so i was like okay that's easy i'll do
that so i went and bought this cup and
every time i would leave the bathroom i
would wash my hands three times and say
the brah
shariat and i thought i thought i'm like
the sadiq of their generation i thought
i'm like a rebbe i was like no
nobody's in froome like me that washes
their hands now i'm the only one who
does it
but literally my mind thought that i'm
so frum
and the funniest thing is one time my
friend lizzie came came to visit me and
he stole the cup and he's like oh i see
you doing tilapia
i told him you know what i do
every time i leave the bathroom i wash
my hands and i say brah
he's like ah that's nothing you know you
know the real religious people do
they go to sleep and they put a bucket
next to their bed and they put this cup
of water next to their bed
and when they wake up in the morning
they only put their food on the ground
and they wash their hands
and i was like what what kind of a
lunatic will do that
so you know whatever didn't fit well in
my mind it was like these
crazy religious people they're making up
all sorts of things but whatever fit in
my mind well
okay that'll do whatever that whatever
doesn't bother me i'll do
and as the year and a half went i added
another thing and another thing
at some point i knew i have to keep
shabbat i didn't know how i
you know i knew i'm not allowed to work
i'm not allowed to do this but i i was
kind of bargaining i was like i don't
want to do this i don't do that
and at the time i was a very heavy
smoker
and i remember that about 10 years
before this whole thing happened i met
this guy
who was trying to do me to tell him on
me and he was telling me you know
there's a god there's you having a
shaman in your body and he was trying to
macarthur me and everything that he told
me i was like
you know i was like disqualifying every
little thing that he said
an hour and a half he was trying to
somehow
make me to understand anything at the
end he gave up
and right before he gave up he told me
listen on shabbat you're not allowed to
light fire
and on shabbat you're not allowed to
extinguish fire so if you must smoke
on shabbat and you smoke about 50-60
cigarettes so at least don't turn out
the cigarette
so if you smoke 50 or 60 cigarettes a
day so you have 50 lessons
i was like what that's your religion
you're telling me not to turn out
cigarettes tell me not to kill tell me
not to steal
you're telling me not to turn out
cigarettes i thought the guy's like a
lunatic
10 years later when i had to figure out
how i'm keeping shabbat i was like
wait a minute i just found the loophole
i'm gonna finish the cigarette and
instead of turning it out i'll
just throw it in the ashrae like this
guy said and i keep shabbos
so i would smoke my cigarette finish the
cigarette put in the ashtray and in my
mind
i keep shabbos somebody would ask me
yeah i keep shabbat yeah but i just saw
you drive
oh driving is okay i don't turn out my
cigarettes
and in my mind i keep shabbos and that
was my shabbos
and that for me was a big thing you know
leave every time to remember not to turn
out the cigarettes and if i would turn
out the secret by mistake we'll be like
oh
now they're gonna barbecue me again oh
mom that's it for me
and that's how we went for a couple
months until one time a friend told me
no shabbat you have to do kidus i was
like kiddush why
i'll do that but i was mahathir every
time i had the opportunity to do a
mitzvah i was like
at least i'm doing it all the way now i
lived in the very southern part of
chicago now in a suburb
i used to drive 60 miles exactly 58
miles from where i lived to the north
part to buy kosher wine
and every shabbos would come i would set
the table nice put a nice
suit on make a meal then do kid issue i
bought a fancy cup
and i do the whole thing and then i
would finish my meal and go out to a
movie
and one time a friend a friend comes to
visit me and i tell him it's shabbat we
gotta do kidus
okay so we do the whole thing and i do
kids the whole ceremony
and then we get dressed and we go out to
a club and on the way back from the club
four o'clock in the morning my friend
tells me you know
you're kind of making a joke out of the
whole thing i told him why
he tells me because either you're
religious and you keep shabbat then you
do your kidus
or you're not but you cannot do kidus
and then go out to a club it's like
you're making a joke so i told you no no
let me explain to you
if you go out now to a playground and
you see like a nine-year-old boy running
up and down and jumping on the ladders
and everything
nobody gets excited because all the
nine-year-olds do the same thing
but if you see like 11-month old baby
take a step
everybody's like wow look he walked
everybody pulls out their phone taking a
million pictures
because he did one step so i told him
you know what
that's how i am in hashem's eyes you
know what happened right now
you know what happens when i stand and i
do kiddish i'll tell you what happens
hashem calls all his angels and he tells
them come come come come look look look
look at my little son what he did down
there look what he did he drove 60 miles
to buy kosher wine
58. he could have bought the
a wine here in the corner store he drove
58 miles to buy kosher wine
and he put in a nice suit and it set the
table
and he stood for two minutes he stopped
his day to say thank you for creating
the world and thank you for this wine
and he drank the wine and he made a
whole deal out of the whole thing
and he stopped his life for five minutes
to acknowledge that i exist
that's what hashem sees i'm this baby
that can only do one step
i cannot do more than one step i do one
step and i fall and in hashem's eyes
this step
is everything he totally ignores right
now everything around me because he
knows i can't handle it
and the whole year and a half that's how
i was i was like i can be from
i can i can only handle this amount and
that's it that's my capacity
i cannot do another thing and every time
i would add another part another part