Simcha #12 - Is Your Yiddishkeit Pleasurable? How do you know?

we're on page on page 123 in the maya medieval towards the bottom of the page um that ebba said i want to recap that there are three things when a person dies that are necessary one is to say the words clearly to articulate the words and to say them and to say them out of course with your mouth number two is to understand not only the meaning of the words but to understand the depth the depth within the words the deep concept within the words and there ever gave us an example and the third thing he says is to have to have a pleasure a thai look from the meditation a reflection that you just reflected on so the words bring along a meditation reflection upon of a godly nate of godly godly concept and from that if you understand it well you will experience a tinuk and he gave us an example of the verse um which is from him and we say every day in the hall of lucas and the rabbit gave us it gave a brief hasidic explanation of what those words mean if you look into tehillim you won't see this explanation that it ever gives here you'll see the literal meaning but if you want to see what it means it's it's here and in other discourses and then it says that this this this idea the cashier let's go now or one two three four five six seven seven lines from the bottom the fourth word on the on the on the on the line the cash when a person says these words clearly and articularly and he hears the idea in his in he he he he not only does he hear it with his mouth his ears but it penetrates his mind and his heart and he now gets this idea he has taino he has real pleasure i gave you the muscle yesterday of my own experience the other night that when you when i you know here i am you know 60 years and uh saying you know krishna shall beat them for many years it never dawned on me so when an idea dawns on you and you understand it and you understand it in its full breath and length you have real pleasure from once you say that and think about it where does it come from it's and where does the comprehension come from he says they don't come from the same source although as they express themselves and manifest themselves they come together in other words when you're saying the words and when you are understanding the words and you then you feel a pleasure so the pleasure comes at the time when you understand the idea nevertheless my show where do they come from they don't come from the same source the kashin massacre and he meditates upon it well with depth of mind harihou missana galicus he has tainog pleasure from godliness nevertheless again they come from specific different sources so in other words he's just he basically said the same thing twice using different words the experience of taino comes together and while you understand the godly concept in in this discussion but what's the origin of the two the origin comes from two different places within the soul the reason is because this is the way it's in their source okay this is a little capitalistic he's giving us the what i call the pipelines of of the way god operates of picabola it says there that understanding it's carved out hotspot it's it's carved out in its very source the shinish edition it sources what we call from the external vessels of turn the page i'll summarize soon of which world of the world of vasilis there are four worlds and asia each world has what we call oros and caleb lights and vessels energies and receptacles so what we're saying is that where does hasaga come from comprehension come from the oh the external part of the kingdom of chakra you have wisdom you have you have deep recessed wisdom maybe you could use the word subconscious wisdom and then you have conscious wisdom understanding comprehension comes from the external part of the wisdom what we call in kabbalah limb the external of the vessels the hot tiger continuing the page in the text vahatai no comparatively speaking pleasure shar shail and milo ysi its source is much greater he doesn't give us the exact address where we can find this pleasure all he says is that it's much greater so we'll leave it at that we won't now probe where does taino find itself where is its source i'm sorry though says that because there's a difference where they come from therefore also below on earth in our affairs when he has pleasure from reflecting on on a godly concept what does it do it awakens panimiyus the very inner and essential pleasure of above of heaven in other words it's a trigger emotion the way we are that's what we come communicate to others being in this case we are in a mode of tainook it causes hashem to express tainook so in other words when you use khachma your your your seiko your intelligence to comprehend god you're tapping into the external of god and god's going to get reciprocate with his exterior now believe me that's that's pretty good but it's not the essence whereas when you experience tainook when and if you experience taino you will cause hashem to reciprocate with his title to you and this could be my friends a difference between why at times we we we ask hashem for something and we get a response but the response is limited or better said the response is not what we wanted and the answer is why is that because we only touched the exterior of god so he gave us back an exterior an external experience if we touch the essence the top vis-a-vis we have pleasure real taina of godliness and god he will most definitely respond with taina to us so it goes back to the age-old issue don't blame anyone else including god blame yourself the way you are that's the response you get that's what we're saying here and we have to we always try to bring it down to our level so what should one be working towards says that without saying it openly so far is can you say i have pleasure from going to shul i really get pleasure from going to show could you say that when you go into a hot bath a hot bath a hot tub a hot tub someone's yoni someone's yoni you gotta put on your mute you got to put on your music all right so when someone goes into a a nice sauna a nice bigfoot nice hot bath they say ah right that's gosh miss that's physical okay do we say that when we go into a show when we open the sitter and we're about to start dabbing do we say ah and i don't mean just saying it do we feel it when we do a mitzvah any mitzvah avi do we feel pleasure real pleasure in that mitzvah or we don't but we we do it we like doing it you know it's all nice and fine and dandy but it's not thai nuke so that's what we look that's what we're looking at yes yes go ahead so and maybe it may be you know like the case of saying uh you know you say tomatoes i said models but when a person um is doing a mitzvah or dominating or learning torah whatever he's doing if if a person is doing it with enjoyment with simha isn't that automatically that he's doing it through pleasure i mean no no no way oh no turn no way and and i'm not saying it shouldn't be done that way that's that's a beginning and a very important beginning but that's not yet proof that he's doing it with tainook that that's what we're discussing here in other words is his simcha is the simha yani is it is it is it really is it really simcha in other words what is simcha that's what we're talking about there is simcha that outwardly is simcha but inside it's not yet the simcha because you don't have the tainuk let's let's try to give an example let's give an example to try to bring this down to our our our life um when you're in shul and you're dancing and you're sinking and you're dead right you have simcha the question is when you walk outside are you dancing still in the street or singing in the street and feeling the high from the davening and the proof is when you go to eat the previous rabbit our author writes but he said this in in a talk he said right after you you dive in shabbos you finish eleno you should make kiddus right away why to see if your davening was real or not because if and we've discussed this if you make kiddish and you run to the food and you you eat like you know all like a fresher and all that a glutton it shows that the davening didn't really touch you because it cannot be that you should love god and love the chunk the same way it doesn't work i'm sorry i don't want to elaborate we've spoken about this so many times and you see you see people who are more or less if they hashem the way they eat whether they're hungry or they're not the way they go about the food it's the proof is in the pudding so here here during davening you were chuckling away and you were dancing and you were into it and everything that caught in the foods right in front of you you make kiddish and all of a sudden it's like you didn't die so what does that show you that even when you doubting it it wasn't tainuk you can't have time from both you can't now so you're saying wait a minute that means i have to avert goshnias the whole derek of the balcenter was to use gashmi's of course and that's why the gemara says that the student i forget of which rabbi either stayed in the closet or crept under his bed when this rabbi was being intimate with his wife it's a pretty vulgar story and graphic story for the gamer to share and what's the explanation he couldn't experience and understand how is it that such a mitzvah of intimacy can really be for for god it's so gashmious and it's so physical that it's for the body how can it be experienced for god and he knew that if it's a mitzvah of hashem it is for hashem so he needed to learn that from his rebbe from his teacher now his teacher would never let him into the bedroom so he had to hide he wasn't avoir he wasn't a filthy old man he was exotic he was a very holy person he wanted to see how is it possible to make gusmius to use gas mias for but coming completely from taino for hashem and the same as i use just kind of maybe the most extreme example but the same as in every other mitzvah you talk about art and your wife say that if tonkin levine you know can you draw a picture of a woman that's without clothing and say that's for god i can't most people can't i asked this question 25 years ago i asked this question mute yourself johnny please mute yourself and he i asked him the question 40 years ago when i was in los angeles and he invited me to his house and i saw the big the big dark picture of the frida kadaba but then i saw also some some of those other pictures and well i could tell you what he told me and he hasn't gotten anything so you know he says if you'll be an artist then you'll understand that moishe is an artist but he's actually the artist he says you'll appreciate that it's not the the nudity in the physical sense that is special but rather it's the it's the what it the higher and more refined art that's coming through my point is that it i'm just showing you and the same is true with in subjects of study can you study sciences and and philosophy when it discusses also heresy apostasy how do you reconcile the two well that ebba when he was asked a question about his attendance at university that one there were various explanations