Shnayim Yomi - Shemot - D'var Torah

foreign [Music] I shall be what I shall be there are so many different layers of understanding these words what this is shall be what I shall be but I just would like with the few minutes that we have together to explore one very relevant understanding of the way that this energy manifests in our own lives you know a lot of people think that serving Hashem is one element of Our Lives which is associated with a Shas Aliyah which means growth oriented things are going well and we're learning properly and we're davening properly and we're doing everything that we're supposed to be doing and we're able to maintain a focus on the big picture messila shashar and first parrot what are we supposed to be doing in life that's serving Hashem but on the off days on the down days on the in between days when I feel that I'm in a Shas urida or in the Muslim when I'm not feeling that same sense of closeness to Hashem I'm out I'm burnt out I'm out of the game and maybe in a day or two or next week or next month or sometimes next year I'll pull myself up and I'll re-enter the arena of avodashem of one of his most famous teachings to our above in the Moran the Glorious sixth lesson in liquite over there teaches the it's not true he says there are two different stages of avadas Hashem and both of them are equally important and crucial for a complete and healthy experience of serving Hashem in this world and they are referred to as Bucky biratsai being an expert in running and bhakib being an expert in returning neposak teaches in the beginning of teaches he saw these angels running to and fro running and returning like lightning flashes butman says each of us have those experiences as well all of us have the days and nights of The Human Experience the summers in the winters the running the times of Aliyah when we feel that we're connected and we're able to meet our standards and then we have times of urida we have times of the amazina when we feel that we've fallen and we've slipped and we're unable to hold on and we're not living the lives that we know we could and should be living that's called show you that's called returning says we need to be as much of an over Hashem in the times of shaiv and the times of urida as we need to be in the times of Aliyah and it's a little bit of a different avoida but there's an avoida there too is not a semi-circle with only a half quadrant of when we're doing right and we're serving Hashem properly avadis Hashem is a whole circle it contains the times of Aliyah and it also encompasses the times of eurita there are times when we need to serve Hashem in a different way than when we need to be serving Hashem in a time of Aliyah when everything is going right and that's going to happen that all of us have our bad days all of us have the times that we're not as plugged in that we're not able to live up to the standards that we've set for ourselves that the terror demands of us all of us have that experience says there's an avoida there too if we need to learn how to be an expert in a time of returning and what is that expertise says there are two kinds of expertise an expertise of the times of Aliyah as well as an expertise peace in the times of urida the expertise in the times of Aliyah is to not grow stagnant not to be satisfied with the levels that we've reached rabbin achman says a person needs to always constantly be saying no matter what kind of level we think we've attained and how great we may be doing push further there's further to go there's more to travel or I mean Osman sees this reflected in saying even if I rise to the greatest Heights of Heaven you're still distant sham there's more that I can achieve there's greater distances that I can still travel I haven't gotten there yet there's always greater madriguez Hashem is infinite growing close to Hashem is infinite and there's always a greater madrega to push to but the second half of that continues that even when I sink to the deepest depths of gehennam I need to know that a Kurdish for who is there I need to know know that there's no such thing as despair there's no such thing as having fallen out of service of Hashem of being too detached from him to hold on to him again and to begin the climb to begin to return and chew but there's no such thing who is there too says being an expert in a time of having sunk down Into the Depths where we feel disconnected and we can't believe how distant we've become from Hashem don't give up be a bakkie beshive reveal hashem's glory in that place by not giving up by expressing your right Zone even though it's challenging and even though it's difficult and even though the yatesahar is trying to convince us there's no way we can come back be a bucket Hashem I'm not giving up I realize you're here in this place too and if this is where I am there's an avoida here for me this is also part of being a Jew this is also part of revealing your glory in the world which is the ultimate purpose of our Buddhist Hashem it's not for me Hashem it's for you and if this is the situation you put me in there's an avoida here and maybe this we can find reflected in these two aspects of saying to moisture there are two ways of experiencing Hashem in our lives there's the Ikea when things are going well and we say there's more to be there's more to get to there's more to reach there's more to attain there are greater levels to strive for I haven't gotten there yet but who says even when you sink down into the depth there too you can find the ability to say I'm hopeful I can still become I have not gotten so stuck in the filth that I'm unable to extricate myself like we've been learning throughout the series of this week's videos we haven't gotten to the place where we're in Avid essentially we're essentially free this is all part of a process and I can stand up from here so that's the point of this as it relates to Freedom don't get locked in don't get locked in not on the side of doing so much good that you think you're already there that's also a locked in that's also an owl that's also a lack on the regulus and the regliant of being accustomed to acting in a certain way this is my Shabbos and I'm happy with it no ekia go higher and certainly don't get locked into the experience of of thinking that you're in Eureka there's no way out who's there in the depth of the pain and the depth of the Gahanna that we might be experiencing from there you can connect to him there's always an ability to make a new start there's always the chance to dig deeper beyond the surface to extricate that who that point that's hidden the who you really are the real who inside the true identity and from there we can stand up and make a new beginning I also have the ability to be to become to unfold my potential a Jew is never stuck a Jew is never ever stuck you who D starts with a u the yid always hints to something that goes on forever that you'd always points to the Future Yahoo we are always it and we are always Jews we are always Bene Bahari Israel we always have the ability to locate Hashem and to connect him both in ekia which is in a time of Aliyah and Asher in a time of eurita we should be to understand this potential that we have never ever to become stagnant never to set limitations on ourselves not in Aliyah and not in a time if you read the not to be a power not to live on the surface to dig deeper and to find the strength to stand up and to move and to proceed and to walk and to grow ever closer to our courage what a privilege it is to be among those that are serious about like I said it seems like a small thing it's a big big great tremendous thing we're accomplishing and thank you to shine yomi for making this possible and for bringing schneid Mikka to life with these videos what a privilege to be connected to this group of Hashem wishing everybody the most beautiful Shabbos up ahead this thank you so much for learning with me [Music]