Shnayim Yomi - Chukat - Balak - Shishi - #6- Rabbi Leiby Burnham - Live Like a Zero, Die Like a Hero

We're now up to the sixth aliyah of this double para of kukas balak and in it we read one of the beautiful nvas that bum gives about the Jewish people and who could count the dust of and to count the seed of the of let me die the death of the upright and my afterlife should be like him. Of course, Bum is a Balta. All he wants is to be involved in Tya, but he wants to go out living like he wants to die like a hero, live like a fool. Right? So, I want to die the most. I want to die the death of the upright, but I don't want to live that way. I want to live like a bala my whole life, but then go out like a like a like an uprighteous one. Now the son used to say over that his father would say that this puk is a hint to why because what bum was going to what Balik was saying is that why don't we count the Jewish people we know that when you count the Jewish people by number it causes a plague right we saw that byl it happens so balik says why don't we just count the Jewish people and then we could create a plague on them and bum says no no no maf who can count the dust of yakov what does he The Jewish people, we have a concept that sadikim are considered alive even after they die. So how many Jews are there? It's impossible to count because there's all the Jews that are walking around, but there's also all the Jews that are in the dust that are still considered live and part of our nation. So therefore, we cannot count them. And therefore, Bum is saying, I want to be like them, too. I want to be like a nation that is going to come back with mem that lives on past the grave and ultimately of course that's not what's going to happen to him. We know what happens to the garam in in Brahos says that he's boiling in a pot of very hot stuff in in in Shamayim. But this was his goal and we know that we want to live like that righteous in our lifetimes to continue on living and to come back with in the future. We want our futures to be like that.