Shnayim Yomi - Bamidbar - D'var Torah

[Music] hi everyone rabbi yaakov moskowitz here and this has been such an unbelievable week traveling through parshas by midbar together with all of you and i know personally that i have gained so much from this schneiem yomi program as a whole and especially being able to participate over the course of this week and i really hope that all of you have enjoyed as well i saw an incredible incredible vart that was so inspiring to me that i feel i have to share with you you know the madrish at the beginning of this week's parsha talks about the time during yermia hanavi and he says that during that time period khali straw sunk so low that they felt that they were so distant from hakuras baruch they did so many of veros that they just could not do tuba hashem is not going to accept arachuva we're so far from hashem and then yermia responds to them with the words of akanesh baruch who he says am i am i viewed as a desert to khali israel he says emery is my paleo am i am i viewed as a dark land to kali israel what do you mean why are they saying that we've become separated from you hakurasu and that we can no longer come back to you and the madrid explains what was hashem saying hashem was saying am i a desert to claudia stroll because look at what happened during the time period of the desert i gave you so much i love you i cared for you so much i provided the month for you i gave you the anani how covered protecting you there was climate control in the desert all of the incredible miracles that you experienced look at all of that that i did for you so that shows how much i love you and in turn i love you so much now as well and my rosh hashivar of heraklibu and zatzal what's the connection i mean during the time period of the yetia's mitsrayam during the time period when they were in the desert kalyan was on a totally different level and then hashem was doing hashem was doing nissan for them then hashem was providing for them then but how does that prove to me that hashem loves me and hashem cares about me now during the time period of year mia during this time period they sunk so low that's exactly what they were saying they were so bad such rashayan that they felt that they didn't deserve those miracles so what is hashem telling them by going back to the time period of the midbar and he answered so beautifully he said you know why because during the time period of the midbar when hashem provided them with all of those miracles with the mud with the ananeja kavod everything that they experienced they didn't deserve that then yes they were on a higher level but hashem went so far above and beyond gave of himself to them so much you know why not because they deserved it but because hashem loves them because hashem loves claudius like a father to a son and that love is unconditional and it doesn't make a difference whatever what level you are on hashem felt that i am going to go above and beyond and do everything for you you know why because i love you unconditionally and yermio was telling them that that same thing applies right now even though you sunk so low and there's so many of varus and you truly feel that you're so distant from kurdish baruch you have to realize that hakunas bar who loves you and he loves you unconditionally and hashem is willing to go to the nth degree to give to you to care about you and of course what he wants is for you to come back you know i heard a story a number of years ago it's an old story about a boy who had rebelled against his parents and he ran away from home and his parents were sending him letters begging him to come back but he said no way he sent them back i'm not coming back home i'm done i'm finished i left you people over and after some time the parents decided to give up and that was it he's gone well as time went on this boy he started struggling financially he wasn't able to make ends meet and it was getting worse and worse and he realized that who do i have to turn to i have nobody he thought you know what maybe i should go back to my parents no way i'm not going back to my parents they're not gonna they're not gonna take me back look at what i did to them i rebelled against them i told them i'm not coming back they asked me to come back i rejected them no way but as time continues it's just getting worse and worse and he decides you know what this is what i'm going to do i'm going to send him a letter and in the letter he writes to them how much he wants to come back but he totally understands if they don't want him back he says listen i'm going to come back but if you don't want me then i totally understand but listen let's make up a sign amongst ourselves if you want me to come back please put a white sheet on the tree that's in front of the house and when i come to the house if i see the white sheet i'll know that that means you want me to come in but if the sheet isn't there i'll know that i should just turn around and go back and i won't have to suffer any embarrassment he sends the letter and a few weeks later the date that he's supposed to go he heads back home and when he gets off at the train station he starts heading to his house to his house and his heart is pounding because he doesn't know what's going to happen is the sheet going to be there or is it not going to be there and as he approaches and the sweat is pouring down his forehead do my parents would really want me are they going to take me back or not and he comes up the block and he sees his house in the distance and not only is there a sheet hanging from the tree but there are hundreds of white sheets hanging from the tree and the message was so clear we love you we love you unconditionally it doesn't matter what you do it doesn't matter if you rebel it doesn't matter what happens we are there for you and we love you and we will go to the nth degree for you and all we want is for you to come back and that's the message that hakura's bar who gives to claud israel and that's the message we need to take with us as we continue on in safer by midbar to recognize that our kurdish borough who loves me how kaddish bar who loves me unconditionally and as we travel through safer bamidbar let's keep this lesson in mind that hakutashbar who loves me and i could borrow who loves me unconditionally no matter what i do no matter what a virus i may commit no matter how many mitzvahs i said that i'm going to take on and i just didn't do it hakurasbara who loves me and he wants to have a relationship with me all he wants is for us to be close to each other [Music] you