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Wow. Huh? >> Okay. >> Hi. How are you? >> You going to play it or you just going to walk around to look cool? >> I lost my >> It's also good. >> The wind. >> It's a thing. It's a thing to wear now. You should know. >> No, you're right. >> It's It's You're much more in if you're wearing No, I'm being serious. I'm I'm I'm going slightly bold. I'm not It's too late for me, but it's a trend. I would It's a real It's a trend. It's definitely something. >> Yeah. >> Mainly for >> mainly for for somebody >> somebody was telling me today a guy was all over. I I don't know why. It was a guy had a bug in his bonnet today. me like I I was I was in America was coming out of like the I was part of and the guy says humbling me about BB and what on what like where where does it say on my like where does it say on my LinkedIn that I'm endorsed to be like a like a defense for BB he goes yeah BB thing he said oh you and people like you you love BB and I what are you talking about I don't even I don't know anything about me he goes BB shrimp synink I said, "Okay, come the [ __ ] at Iran." I said like, "Okay." I'm like I said I I said you speak Lashinhara and I use the F word like I don't know like I'm like as as like I don't know this guy didn't have mil yesterday and this guy over here I don't know what he does on his on his incognito browser. What what what do you what's your problem? >> VPN VPN >> that's what I'm saying. So, okay. So, he wears a keepa and he wears tat and guy wears. >> No, I don't do either. Now, we did chuba. We don't do any of those things >> right now. >> Okay. So, what was I saying? Yeah. Okay. You don't have to worry. You don't have to wear to play. >> And if you play a niggan, you get into less trouble than if you say something. So, >> you say you said both of one. >> No. Ah, no. I'll tell you. I'll tell you my son. It was Rashashana. My first time in Oman. Rashana. birthday today. >> Ra's birthday. Oh, >> so my first time on Rashash. My first time on Rashashana. It was in Rafi. It was it was the second day of Rashashana. I was walking around the afternoon like totally like I don't know what you know coming or going a little bit thrown off from the whole experience. the total from experience and um no it was it was it was not it was three day a sharp stat walking shabas afternoon I bump into my res he was walking down he was walking from where we used where he was staying used to mik or he was walking to the mikvah and I passed >> this is repugl yeah but yeah ex yeah and he asked me he looked at me and goes no and I said ani I said I don't know what is going on. He said there's a fine line right between between being somebody who is right on the edge even on the edge there's a gashar there's a gashar but there's nothing to be afraid of there's no there's nothing to be afraid of all these things one time ra time said >> how is it possible that in thank you is is is saying all the stuff on theos about all of his struggles and all of his difficulties and all of his and all of his hardships and all of his embarrassing moments. How could you talk so openly? It's not it's a person who's like such an important sush he he said if not for my no one would know who I was. How could you speak so openly? So NS said I don't know what do I care what you think. I I already said it to I already said it to I'm already I I clean the tashb. Everything is fresh and clean. So I'm not not worried about you. I'm not afraid. >> Nothing to be afraid of. >> Nothing to be afraid. >> I'm in water. I'll make a bra. Thank you. I love high. I am Yeah. D. Yeah. Hey, >> thank you. Thank you for uh putting this together. Thank you. >> Thank you. Thank you for help. Thank you for getting me out of the house. >> Yeah, you have that. Everybody's uh hunkered down. Family or hopefully with hopefully with people that you love. Hopefully in a place that's safe, it's comfortable. A year ago, almost a little bit more than a no less than a year ago was June. That was the last uh the beginning like you said, right? This is the the beginning of the continuation. Not sure exactly, but um our daughter Ahuba got married right in the middle of that uh in the beginning of that I ran of that first Iran that that schlap um Shabas Kal like the war. It was Thursday night early Friday morning. That was a shabas kala shabas. We sat together Kafak Aron and and Non the two brother two sons-in-law the men we've made the women stay inside and said okay the men are going to go outside and pretend like we're going to make decisions I was like I said I'm like okay what do we do guys are we having a wedding to get married on Monday she was going to get married on Monday anyways they decided they wanted to get married they she went upstairs her was keeping calm like on steroids So I'm like we're all sitting there waiting like what do they want? I told her anything you guys want is fine with us. She said came down you know little makeup uh you know those tears and she said we want to get married you know you don't push off a wedding and whatever we'll get married here in the house or whatever whatever it is you know all shabas was it was sirens all shabas were in the mad. Okay. So, we made a couple phone calls. It was a very good simmon that I said to him, you know, I called uh called future. It was a John Gallas legend. And um he said, "Listen, whatever the kids, I'm like, we'll pull something off. It'll be great. You know, it'll just be us. It'll be whatever. It's the kids and Hashem. It's whatever. Keep the main thing the main thing." It was very encouraging that his first phone call was not but was with Frank to make sure that he'd have good by the wedding. That was a you know we love that was a big thing for us. Anyways, it was beautiful wedding. It was small but and beautiful. And then Shvas we had just our family pizza wine. One night we had across the street at our at our neighbors you know and invited a couple over and everybody was kind of like you know only people who were like a walking distance to their mam. It's pretty intense, you know. And one of those games you play at Sher Bro, you know those games? They like put a bunch of stuff in a bag and then everybody passes the bag around, you take it out and then you know those game like you pull out a corkcrew, you pull out a whatever a bag of peanuts or you pull out a whatever a sock and you have to like make up some blessing some braha something about the kala to wish them well. You know this game. >> Yeah. So that's what that's what they did at the chev went around the table. So we were at our neighbor's house and um and uh it was inside the bag. It was up to Aon. You hear it? You see it? And Aaron pulled out a uh bottle of beer, a corona, a cap from a corona and they give a bra. Now keep in mind everybody was you know even more than now it was like super intense. Everybody was imagining war with Iran means there's going to be, you know, all the gates of hell are going to open. It's going to be, you know, the end of it all. And Aron, if I could if I could say Aron said, you know, people are saying that the that this wedding and that this braos and this whole simka and this whole tufa is like corona vibes. Remember corona vibes, everybody? Co vibes. And everyone's like, "Yeah, co vibes of course." You know, it's like small family. gave everybody looking isolating or together just now made and he said this is not corona vibes these are gula vibes co was a time of illness of fear was a reaction it was a time of being frail co vibes was sick this is not co vibes and corona vibes we're holding by goula vibes >> hey I walked into fight. Yeah. So I said if a person feels the fukk, you don't feel the do of of gula, that's really how you know you're the fukkay. >> No, no, no. That's It's gula vibes. It's goula vibes. >> Does anybody can quick have a little bit more of a as opposed to like a TED talk? >> No. Does anybody I I heard today some uh who who has the is there anybody who has a sense that um our uh our brothers our sisters are in >> something changed over here. >> Y >> big discussion about that. >> Yeah. >> What? >> They're freaking out. Well, there's no duffel bags coming. There's no underwear. Is not sending underwear now. There's not underpants and >> and socks and boots and whatever. >> I'll be I'll be honest. There there's there's there's a a very someone was very dear to me was called yesterday and said you know h how could we be mameitus on such a large portion of the population of the just not they're not it's not they're not part of the not at least you know you felt after some like there was something world jewelry auo even that even MKY they're posting everybody singing a all over the world whatever you know there's something there's a is that is that is does anybody feel that >> Bernie Sanders is talking about Israel a lot that's co vibes though >> he's thinking about Israel >> it's true he's talking about the md's checking invite ids IDs Israel dementia, you know. >> Yeah. >> Going crazy. >> Yeah. So, I just want I want to just share something. It's it's B Nissan which is um which is a Y in our family for our family B Nissan. It's also the day after's birthday. And um I feel like there's a when you have a birthday a new force comes into the world. I don't know if Rabbin Aman said it or if like Oprah or Gandhi, but it's some meme that's always around like the day you were born is the day that Hashem decided the world can't exist without you. I think it's a a common song for thank you Hashem also, >> but whoever said it, I don't know whoever said it, they say the shame, you know, you know, I don't know. It's true though. meaning there it's true and and birthday is an opportunity for us to kind of re assert ourselves in the world and say like I'm here for a reason and um I think they say it about the about the said thankful to Hashem every day that we're born after I have to be thankful we have to be thankful every day that we were born the time and place and be alive in the time and place that we are and to be alive in the world when ready came and and set things in motion There's not the the the family and friends, you know, there was like there were packages coming, there were messages, there was a sense of solidarity, a sense of togetherness, a sense of of of something. Yeah. Support >> wake him up. >> Huh? >> Have to wake him up. >> So, so there's something definitely something. You have to know first things first. >> You have to know you have to just know something. This is just like a statement. Da. What's mo consciousness. Consciousness. What else? It also means it also means object. >> Oh, that's later says connects it. It's true. Mo consciousness, a mindset, a mentality, a way of seeing the world, which really begins with a way of seeing ourselves, right? There's mo the godless. We're we're we're familiar with that term, which is an expanded consciousness. And there's moatnos, which is a sense of constriction, which is when a person feels like they're in a mar stalk. And then there's being freedom and you feel open and there's there's a there's a there's something free and untethered. It's moas when things are going when there's a flow when there's a a do right when there's a good rhythm things are going and then there's you just feel like you want to hide in a corner crawl up into a bowl you're stuck like you can't breathe and you feel like ah you know I woke up like a mench you know I went to sleep like a mench I didn't eat like a bag of bomba at 4 in the morning woke up but a mikvah got a little air, you know, exercise, took a walk, went to shul dav and saw some learned like a like a person get some grounding, some sunlight, whatever your hub, whatever your hubman tells you to do to feel godless, you know, some deliberate cold exposure or or some deliberate, you know, Torah exposure, something godless, things are knocking, things are clicking, they're like I things are together, things are happening, right? Then I could feel open and I feel like I'm moving is when I feel like I'm stuck like like the opposite of all those things. In the same way, any any ability to have like a mindset or a consciousness that connects to holiness, that tethers to light, that tethers toward growth, toward movement, toward toward meaning like anybody who's able to like breathe or say something meaningful or put on fill and you know hang a muzza on their door that says this is a Jewish home like they're drawing that mindset and that ability that strength like there it's like an extension cord almost >> hang a sign that says Mashiach on your front >> exactly because I was wondering where the house was I saw it during uh during during the first world war when the razatal of cook was was literally stuck in London And there was no like repatriation, you know, flights to go through whatever. He was in London. He was there. He was invited by Israel to speak by the Cana Gadola and and and literally was stuck there and um in the bombard the aerial bombardment of of of Britain. So he was in bomb shelter and there's there's some very beautiful there's some very beautiful moments that came out from that m to the there was some really powerful moments and some very powerful teachings and some very powerful insight used to say he just he would he would literally like turn toward Israel and just say Hashem send your light whenever there was bombing overhead. He understood that there was something bigger going on than just whatever they were at that moment engaged in and stuck in and being acted upon. He was he was taking control of of a situation facing forward. The Rabatal put out the a very very powerful safer there called Roshim is which is Musad which is founded on the olive base and goes through you know a cabalistic understanding so to speak of the primordial building blocks of creation according to the olive base. Other words in in a state of chaos where the world was upside down. He tried to make sed by by breaking it down to days right like the like at the end of Pes Mashia surah when we tell the story of of Bent's journey to Isel they got stuck on the way so to speak in Istanbul with the cannibals and with his daughter and the whole story there were all the secrets of the universe were in these stories. Basha forgot all of his Torah. He cried out to to Herz, you know, do you know anything? He said, "I don't know anything." The cannibals were like, you know, stoking the flames and he just said, "If you know anything, he said I know olive base." He said olive base say olive. He said, "Alive and the balsh said olive and then bay." And the bump and and said bay and in that way like and restored order like kind of brought creation back to its you know to its starting point with a reset. So that's what the Rabat was doing when he was in he was restoring kind of like the default setting of creation by saying that like he feels like there's chaos and like this no but this order here is and in this small little countress which ultimately became like was was given as a school to Jewish soldiers during the war because when we feel like the world is unraveling and and everything is dark so there's a thing called olive days which are letters light. This is like the theod of of all of creation. It's how Hashem is acting in the world, right? There's like the we have we break it down. We have we have like the stepping stones. We have we have such a thingove a big thing, right? >> Zafik is the main thing is the main thing is the main thing Shabbat. That's where between six and we're like literally now starting six going to seven that the whole all of history is going all creation is going from six to seven. It's a it's it's a stickicky thing but the person who brought it out is but really there's something very deep taking place there. So when when that safer when when those teachings of came to Israel was the of and ultimately took over in America were learning the safer and they're like this can't be that Cook brought this out of England like there's no way this came from London not saying bad there's no way you met you ever meet anybody from London these guys so wound and when they get unwound it goes so far No, like he said it's not possible. It doesn't make sense that such a thing came from because soap said to him said no you're right he didn't write this in in like what do you mean he wrote it in London? He said he had a he had the he was completely tethered to the rhythm of the land of Israel and was drawing from the from the the consciousness from the from the wisdom that comes that emerges here. Meaning this is meaning whatever is taking place there the best talk about the greatest of the generation when say something that hits that resonates he's drawing from here from from us from where we are intellect and applied intellect right wisdom ideas which which which you know means a recognition that like we've We've we've maxed out on what there is to say and what there is to like understand about it so that there's a systems upload and there's like a new consciousness that emerges like the root of it all. There's like a new beginning, a new wisdom, a new consciousness that that comes here. And every single Jew has the ability to tap into what's happening here. Every single person Michael Raport is to tap into the Israel could tap into the Israel or the opposite is true over a Jew could be init and be stuck in the conceptia of Gul and still be naming yeshivas after cities that were destroyed by the Nazis thinking that that's going to be the future. It starts from a holy place of wanting he it's not the way forward or thinking that really we should just be like we were in Vienna or we want to recreate you know Beverly Hills over here. These are the mo of arts that are that don't have application that don't fit. You see they don't get rooted here. They don't it doesn't work because it's not natural. Even though there's there's right there is something there that's drawing from here. Somebody who is who's who so to speak undermines or creates a blemish in in the way that God's honor is projected in the world. The honor of Hashem, our hope, our identity is bound up. The honor of the Jewish people and the honor of Hashem is the honor of the land of Israel. Hashem's cover radiates here when someone's int it's it's a it's a so I think it's very hard in I'm not upset with my brothers and sisters and my cousins and friends and America at all not upset with them maybe sometimes heartbroken and sometimes disappointed and sometimes waiting and yearning but I just have it must be so hard to be sitting there like watching this take place. No. Okay. Whatever. >> All the jokes aside, we have anti Okay. I have anti-semitism too. Okay. >> I have not on the anti-semitism. Not not on any of that. Not on any of the external variables. And the reason why perhaps they don't know how to react to this to this shag is because something different is taking place here. This last couple of of of movements, right? And and we know very well about the we know very well about the lacking and very well about the shortcomings and very well about the the stuckness and the defensiveness that we still are trying to break out of, but we're we're shaking free of it. when when when the state of Israel when when the yoshit is are perceived in a in a deeper way as the ones who are setting the tone in a proactive way defending ourselves standing up for ourselves eradicating evil and it doesn't matter what restaurant they ate in moz shabas but on Sunday morning when the prime minister is wearing fillin or says and the and the majority of Jewish people in the land of Israel want traditional language and language of faith and symbols of faith and the trappings of of tradition and faith and airplanes. Brook Avenue often refers to the Brookview neighborhood in Waco, Texas >> with a symbol of the state with the symbol of the Jews with the symbol of with the symbol of of the Jews which is a kishem >> flying over flying over Lebanon over Syria to Iraq to Iran and doing this for three weeks. It's so past that at this point the even even over here where you're of where this is the language that you're that that you're speaking and and the the wells from which we're drinking. It's so big and it's so beyond our ability to to really fathom how big of an this is. What a covet this is. This is this is this we are it's an unbelievable thing and I'm just I'm just dabbing all the time and I'm all the time saying let's have let's be big. This is such a moment. It's it's not a drill. This is what not just we've been waiting for. This is what our parents and grandparents and great-grandparents even if they didn't know this is the moment that they've been waiting for. And I and I understand why my brothers and sisters in America don't know how to deal with it because they're used to kupat mayor balan and and sending duffel bags of boots here and buying is bonds and karen cay at pushkas and and and taking care of us and uncle Sam watching out for us. But now but now we're standing up here with a little bit of self-respect with a little bit of self-expression with a little bit of cover. maintain. It's almost like the Jews of don't know how to handle that. Balan didn't write about that. Balan is writing about it the other way. It's not just cherry tomatoes and it's not just technology and unicorn startups and it's not just about you know uh Israel being a a leader in all those an import and an export in finance yao points out this per capita there's more organ donation in the state of Israel today than any other country in the world Meaning means is not just like we're we're sending you we have good airplanes and we have and we have you know good technology. We are meant to lead to be leaders, moral leaders, to be like the mdal or of the world to to speak about a big picture, a big vision. It's it's starting to happen. We see like the we see like the the waking up of it around. If we connect the dots a little bit, we'll understand why and don't know what to do with it. It's not the Jew that we recognize. This is not the way. This is not the way that we're used to seeing this. the first time in Jewish history right after the six day war there was this moment also there was this opportunity also it felt like that that's the way if you read and you hear and you speak to people that's the way it felt also a little bit right I was I wasn't there physically but that's the way people talk about it was a local boy over here from the neighborhood literally he was exiled in in in tash in 1948 from spent his whole life coming back to this place to to this part of Israel to your neighborhood to come back and to build. He was an ish golot. He was besides for being a brilliant and a and a a teacher real mor. He was a he was a poet and a balagina and he was a a visionary and he loved loved talking to children and he was a he was a member of kess who could speak to uh to the heads of state. Most of all was a person of incredible ems and confidence. He was like the of like I think of when I think of I think of like try to think of Yeshua and K. imagined with he was in the 55th battalion that ran across Harab in the six day war and they're running and he turned he turned to one of the fellows that with him and he said we're this is the army of David like this is it this is it and they said the cotel's this way and they were running to the cotel they're running across they said they're almost at the cotel the coel's here the coel When they got to the hotel, he broke down in tears. He broke down in tears. >> He said, >> he said all this time were running saying, "Where's the kotel? Where's the kel and all those pictures of blong chauffeur? The kottow the kotadikim and the soldiers at the kel said the kotel is not the thing. It's not the storyd there was a moment there was a gates were open and we we said I missed it. I missed it. I was so focused on the kotel or or the Iranian targets. Did we get this guy, this Russia, that Russia? Did we get this guy? Did we get that guy? Every single time they say, "Oh, they killed another one." It said it's not a pisto. It's okay. It's good. It's it's it's okay. It's decent news. But the guy that's next to him and his brother-in-law and his uncle and his son and his daughter and they're not also part they al that's a little peace. That's it's good. We're going to make it to the mdash. We have a message for the world. We have we have haga for the world. We have mo and we have consciousness of a gate that has to open a channel for the entire world to draw from here. Not just for us, for Hashem. Hashem's covered. Barry Wax was telling me his son goes down. They have a siren and everybody runs the sirens. His son, they're living in Ramla. They're there. Settlers. They're settlers in occupied territory of Ramla. He runs down. He runs three doors down to to to the closest mikl. He gets there and there and there's inside the ml. We have a lot. There's a lot yet to do. Thorns in our eyes. There's so much yet to do. We can't allow we can't allow the the the promise of something great that's right in front of our eyes to blind us from something which is beyond like beyond our wildest imaginations like gula vibes are are wonderful and so good are the the biggest in America don't know how to handle us they're trying sitting trying to figure out like how do we relate to Israel is we're not neb anymore we're not mim we're beginning to shake off all this dust this nari we're standing up it's a new thing looking around half of us knew each other in here half of us at least we crossed paths at some point or another at some point of our gilgal somewhere along the way like we were we were there realize what this is Benny or Benny Eisner was uh visiting sh Benny Eisner is that you know that name >> should say that name needs to be said more. I got to make a new new version. You know, everybody has their we have Gordon. We have Benur. Hello. It's a different world over here. Go explain to somebody over there that do cook is flipping out blowing his brains over Gordon. He's talking about about in his hands. Amuna's hand. Go explain to somebody in Flatbush. Go explain to somebody in Englewood. I'm not saying bad. Go explain to somebody in Melbourne or London or Paris or the five towns. Somebody sitting in is go explain to them. Go explain to them this phenomenon. Go explain. Make any sense. Go explain. coex the biggest mashia right now in in the biggest mash is is >> we had go explain what like what happens like gets in front of people go explain what's happening that the that the song of redemption is happening go explain what's happening in go explain what's happening in this community to us Bimal. It's so it's so natural. It's so rooted. It's so new and it's so different. It's standing in 30 years ago. And he looked out the window and uh he saw that there were some like cranes, bulldozers, some cranes, and he turned he said what's maz. So it was like the old base meal of him if anybody knows what that was. looking out toward like you know where like they said oh there's going to be there's a planned city there there's a new urban center called Modí they're naming it Modin because of the valley you know this is where you know whatever this is where the battles were the name Modin but it was the first tractors the first bulldozers the first cranes over there so then he said no no no so it was like a couple of our said no this it's it's it's going to be a city that like it's actually like it was one of Israel's first planned city. Like talk about urban planning. It's like a real city. There's going to be the train. There's going to be a train here. This is 30 years ago. So he said that's not what it is. Zo. And they're like, okay, but but that is a king. What do you see? I said I see tractors. He said ga. >> What do you see? What do you see? Look around. Look around. Look around at the Look around at your friends, at your neighbors, look at your families, look at your loved ones, look at your community. Look at what's happening. What do we see? We see a war with Iran. You see this, you see that Gulan when Kanat went to America to to raise a few bucks in the mid70s, he went to go form for to go to to to build Jewish homes and to build centers. He was in a in a in a in a in a city in a Jewish city. So meeting with like of that city and a few a few community leaders through and through whatever different organizations that are all you know and um and he's talking about plans you know not talking about uh not talking small talking about contiguous settlement and and and he's talking about gula and I heard him and they said listen we're a little extended now we have a lot of different projects working on lots of things and you know there's m important stuff real things whatever he walked out and he was totally he was totally deflated spoke to another great builder of the Jewish people of Ket I call I spoke to Keta today I try every few days just to call people the big people just to hear I want to hear I just I want to attach I want to attach to that tether Ketza he built Betel Right. He built a city in Israel. Sparked the revolution building in he was left for dead. Leg was blown off and he was left for dead. Ariel Shaon had his hoot at the but he didn't leave him behind. And um he ended up building and building and building. There's one time when Ketler was parathetically was ra was was trying to raise a few bucks for big dell and were heming and ho in Long Island. He saw that he wasn't getting anywhere with them. So he like reached under the table, pulled up his pant leg, unscrewed his leg, slammed his prothetic leg on the table and said, "This is what I gave for the Jewish people. What are you willing to give?" came you saw there's very nice buildings was he came back there and he said him they're not they're not with us they're not with us and he wrote this in his journal days of gul of Mashiach are big days. We just were too small to see how big these days are. So, the good news is the good news is that this was this was this is written this he said that at a different time. He said that at a different time. I I I would I I would I would beg to differ. We're not small people. We're not. We're people with infinite capacity from mo of from mo to godless. To be healthy, to be big, to be awake, to be aware, to be alive. How do we know? Look around. We're here. We're here and this is happening. Azour that um that we have the belief in ourselves, the confidence to know that we have a message for the world, for our brothers, for our sisters, for our siblings, for our loved ones, for our family, for all of for the entire world and believe and know doesn't say here's my opinion. He says no know this we have a choice. We have an obligation. We we we're obliged. We have a to maintain mo of which are mo of mo of of optimism mo of kadusha mo of self-confidence mo of of drawing from the future of facing toward the light the windows of the bdash just to be open and expansive and it's hard it's not that it's not challenging the kids are home and and there different takote but it's not co vibes it's not corona vibes this is gula vibes these are these are this is this is this is a totally different thing and and I don't want to even say to be worthy of these days we are worthy of these days we are because they're happening and we're not we're not and and and if we are look at our kids and look at our kids' friends they're not we have no right to We've given too much. We've come too far. We have to know the best is yet to come. We look around. What do we see? We see the Oh yeah. B. God. Every day our name. Open the immen. In every victory, we may Every day, every day. Every day. Every day. Every day. There is something Every day. Every day. Every day. I love >> one one one one word of chuva. One word of cha there was I just want to give him a car for we say we begin with a sed we say we make we lay out and we kind of say like here is what the map is the charting like here's the here's the system here the steps whatever instability there's in the world this seder Right. But the goal here is not a means toward the goal. We got this that matzah. It's all part of it. There's all parts of it. The same way there's like a sevenfront war. Those are all parts of it. The same way like Iran is part of it and and Gaza is part of it and lo part of it and this is part of not part of it but part of it. The it is the it is like that's it. Like that's the goal. That's where we're heading. That's where we're drawing from. So there's there's a letter and it's it's online but also I put it in the Hag in the in the Hag letter from Golden. If you haven't seen it, it's it's it's it's worthwhile. I feel like I'm living my whole entire life. It's worthwhile to be had been alive for almost half a century just to have shared that letter one with one person like just for my kids to have read that letter last year on on Pesak night together. Golden wrote this incredible letter. I'm not going to read it now. I'm not whatever I have it to read. It's a letter that he wrote to his kala about his dreams. It was a pesaf letter that he wrote. It was about his dreams to like to to be big and to tether to the big story and to see the big picture. It's it's unbelievable to be to be to be free to be free to be an ever hashem to be alive to be someone who's somebody who's not stuck. It's just it's it's it's it's it's um I want to just I want to share the corrective aspect of of this letter here without being too too narcissist. I put that letter in the Hagada. I knew that's I mean I was reading that throughout the year from the war after had that letter folded up as long as it was I think Sivan Raher was the first one to put it out into the universe. I had it I printed out and I had it like a round. It was just a round for for a while for a few years. He was he was right after the se the what they call the ceasefire. I don't remember what the operation was called protective shield or whatever. All these I don't now they have good names for the they have good names good Jewish names for these wars but then it was like sounds like deodorant. I don't know what each one is cutting edge protective shield. I don't know whatever perspirant less filling tastes great. I don't know. Narisha names but >> mostly that's why they didn't give us another seven. Each one was a seven. So they deserve to have stupid names. But but but uh but but Jewish blood was spilled and there was mysterious nephesh and dire golden orange after this were were killed by jihadists and and dragged into tunnels and for for more than a decade terrible begging for Jewish dead Jews to come be able to be buried. And when I put this letter inside the Hagada Pesak last year, came out last year around now, right after Purim Bengal, Guler did a thing and um actually this is the culmination of it all was with you and um came home from Shivat like I don't know 10 12 nights of pushing product and giving and getting people together. It was really beautiful. It was really really strong. It was meaningful and it was um validating and it was inspiring and you know it was over the over the two weeks and a couple thousand people. It was really meaningful. It was very special. Bumped a lot of books. It was it was great. Especially the last night was here. >> Elio Leeman was there. Schlommo and Benji. It was a beautiful night. It was really very meaningful. It felt like the most natural and appropriate night, the most comfortable home game because this is it, right? This is the goal. I got home and I felt so good. Felt so good. And um and it's funny like from the time that I'd gotten Hag in my hands after midnight, I hadn't really opened it up and looked at it. So I did. This is a real thing. That night I opened it up. I was slipping through it. I'm like, it's pretty good. No, I was feeling good. No, it was feeling good. I was feeling good and um and then I got to um Hadar Golden's the part at the end take away little and I saw Hadar Golden's my heart broke open and I looked at it and I was just remembering the whole point of this just to try to help us myself and the family and all of us kind of attach ourselves to the bigger picture. And I and I and I read it and if I'm telling you it was the most heartbreaking, deflating feeling that I had that I could remember. Almost like, you know, you have this great moment where you get up in front of people and everything's great and kill it and you realize your fly was open the whole time. like pots the rice are like a loser like what a like or he had like a something like a bo I don't know something on your cheek something that like like but but a million times deeper than that because I read it and I wrote there operation whatever it was the year the month golden sha taken ceasefire and I wrote that um as this is going to print were deting and yearning that their families should have closure to be brought is it came out time and that was that you know a lot of good Jewish people had and that's what I put into the world right that's my contribution to the world but this letter about the big picture right about about living about being Three this year or Sha did a unbelievable operation body was retrieved and brought home for Israel went to Levia and then at the end of all this whatever they callotar golden is anybody by by the byar golden so I went I took my two of my kids out of school we went to Hadar Golden's Levia I felt like I've been living with this person, thinking about him. We went to to Levia and when I sat in my car right before I drove home, I um I sent an email to Mosaica publisher and said you have to update the you have to update the you know the thing before it goes to reprinting. It caught it just in time that he was brought to Kuras. And she said, "But you already corrected it." She's like, "You know, you made a correction." I said, "No, I know, but you know what happened?" Because what I realized that night after coming home from Shirat and I opened up the Haga and looked through it a little bit I realized that I was stuck in the smallest concepts because there's no that's that's to come to the family should have closure days of Messiah great days and small people that was small because that's not the feel of a person who's living tethered to we're waiting We're waiting for Msiah. We're waiting for the Biking for to make a bargain over a dead Jew says parents can sleep at night. So when we put out in Hebrew now it's fixed. We should be we should be to the whole thing to the entire the whole thing to not be self-limiting even when we're talking that I want to be big I want to be big I want to be even in there we could be small they could be a like when came to Israel and he said there was cotton of cotton and he lost all of his mo before he came into Israel and he and he's met this a very friendly the Arab there and we can coexist with and we can go to the shook and shop with them and have and whatever and go to the hotel and the Arab brings you an extra pie. He said more suffering from that that he did from the biggest jihadist the biggest enemies because there's a there's a selfing the self something so small we we're not even able we have to dive in over it beg please master of the world shalom I don't want to just be big in the way that I think that I could be big I don't want to just be the biggest version of myself that I imagine with my consciousness and my intellect and my abilities and my history and my f I want big on your terms with your metrics infinite big open up my lips and my mouth to sing your praise but not my lips how how big can I open my mouth how many songs could I sing but did like this like he's standing on the beach on the shoreline he's standing in in in in Gazen we're standing there in he's standing on the beach we're standing looking out into the ocean from admatesh And you see where the ocean meets the sky. There's no boundaries. There's no limits in the ocean. Where does the ocean end and the sky begin? It's infinite. It goes forever. Open me up as big as you know that I can be. Bigger than I think that I can be. Because I think I'm being big and I'm writing about Jews having is I don't even know how big I can be. And so I'm asking Hashem and has bothered us this all the time. And I'm asking of my I'm begging God for my children, for our family, and for all of us to be able to be bigger than we could possibly imagine, mamish than we could possibly. And for the gula and for the Yeshua to be more than we could ever imagine, more than any yet has ever possibly dreamed vitam. Amen. Higher. I am Yeah. The whole >> Yeah. Enjoy, bro. I higher higher higher.