Shlomo Carlebach - Kabbalah & Laws of The Four Species of Sukkot - Demonstration Teaching 1994

Okay, let's learn a few minutes about doodle finesse. And it's really not important that I should we should learn all the laws how they have to look like because we hopefully because you don't buy it on a Chinese marketplace. You buy it in Jewish books and they will tell you what it is. What is important that um mas you have to have it mas you have to and I want you to know sometimes during the year there come moments when I want to do something and um I say to myself I don't have the strength why didn't you buy a lot of NASA if you would have bought it you would have had the strength cuz the strongest strongest soul energy and um it's unbelievable is like is mish engraved engraved in our hearts but for the for a beautiful okay now let me tell you just one more thing which is very important the has a shape of the heart the luliff has a shape of the spine Hadasa has the shape of an eye and the has a shape of lips. Okay. But all the rabbits with very strong god forbid somebody has a bit spine trouble. Ah you better get yourself a good ruler this year. Right. And you know it's so well you know it's not so simple. You see for us the physical and the mental and spiritual are three different worlds. It's not true. It's only one word. There's one God and everything is the same. Right? If you have a good lul you fix your spine. You have trouble with your eyes get kosher. Right? And whenever you talk you lie get yourself good arobas. Right? You know what it is? We always think we going to we are going to an opthalmologist and he tells you your eyes are good. You don't need glasses. That's all it takes to look. You can have the best eyes in the world and you have perverted eyes. You don't even know what's going on, right? I could swear that 90% of the children of the world, the parents never seen them. Literally never seen them. I don't want to go so far to say that 95% of married couples are husbands never seen the wife and the wife never seen the husband. You know, John, sit down. You know it takes to unto them. You know the way a cow looks at a human being. The cow always sees you, right? But she doesn't know who you are. I can look at the person like a cow. And maybe a cow knows more than we think, right? [cough and clears throat] But the spine is very important. But even more so the heart. And here I want to tell you something unbelievable. Really really I'm begging you. The most important thing by an esk is to buy an es without any blemish. You know you know the way they rate this. An estri which has a blemish cost less. An est which has mish absolutely no blemish cost more. So then I can go and buy myself an essic for $10. It's full of blemishes, a little bit white, a little bit green, a little yellow, and I walk on an but it affects your heart. I don't want to say anything badly. Won't you know something he would take before and he would buy an a full of blemishes mish full of blemishes and then he would keep it in his in the little uh bag for the talisium keeper would keep it marish next to him and Then after him keeper would take out the had no more blemishes right also because the is your heart and if our heart is not so good yet it's our biggest chance I know a lot of people want to save money and then they go one hour before yont to the east side and get very cheap because all the good ones are sold and then you buy a little cute little one. Someone came last year was bragging. He got an Sing for $5. All right. What good is it? And I want you to know something awesome. It says and take for yourself in. But you know, everyone in the Torah is very special. And if you really translate it, it says take it. for your own good. It's good for you, right? I don't take a vitamin pill in order to to save somebody else's life. Not much own life. What do you want to say? So, how about not if you're being stingy, but how about if you really can't afford to give and tell you what you do. So the buy the best ethic you can get but then I'm sure in sure there'll be someone who has a gout ethic. So you should yeah you know like like in all the big rebels you know in or even the rabbit benches on this and then everybody wants to bench on the rebric. Can I ask you something about that? Obviously the rep is on a different level. But if you lend let's say your esrog to somebody who let's say mamish they have a lot of stuff. Does it does it affect you because you're saying on the one hand this is so personal. This is yours. You know you you give it to somebody who maybe they don't like you and then they give it back to you and it's like you don't even realize you're working with something else. But if you would do a mitra to give someone a good essay says when you do a mit nothing wrong is happening to it but it's only helping the other person wouldn't be fair. Mhm. I have a good essay analytic to report it. You know, then God pays me off by making my ruining my essay. The only thing is I don't say anything bad. But most people really they were asking before you bench on my ass wash your hands. Wash your hands. cuz some people come from the street and it's dirty and then holding the you know it's not fair and also you know you have to hold the tight but not don't press in you know I remember one time I gave my to somebody and he he meant well he was holding like this and then basically I always buy too good a dragon because other people ask me can I bench genuine, right? And the way it looks usually after is not so good anymore. So, God could have told me, "Take an apple, take an orange, take a pear, and a peach." What do you want to say to me? You remember what we were? You promise or you just holding back this week? You remember what we were learning? You know everything in the world everything in the world humanly speaking you know God has so to speak you know it says Hashem God's light has garments because God's light cannot shine into me the way it is so it has to be covered right that means the way God gives life to the world the way God gives life to a peach to an orange is by so many garments right from from heaven until it reaches the cute little pichula is a a lot of garments. Those four species receive life from God without garments. Mama is straight from heaven for that. You know what I realized after Kipper? I want to receive life from God directly without cover. I don't want it to be covered all the time. You know most of the time there are so many covers so many layers you know sometimes you see people the way they relate to each other it's a v two million covers right and suddenly you see people mama talk to each other straight right covers right like the blankets in the uh the blankets Yes. Give what's your first give out. You got it. Okay, just one more thing. I hope I hope some of you most of you maybe if you can come here be good because it's a special art how to sh the lulaf and sad enough in most shoes a cousin they should live long and happy I would pay them off to go to Bermuda but like m they they don't know how to sh mish don't know but besides everything else the first thing is you hold the mulaf in your right Because I I make the B over the Lula because the Lulaf is the most prominent and also if you remember we're learning it because basically sukus is a holiday of oneness right oneness with God oneness between the four species on everything in the world and the most most most oneness is the lulaf Lulu is how do you say in good English? Uh how do you say lulf in English? Palm. Palm tree. Palmer. You know the leaves they're so close to each other. Awesome. You can't. In fact, they're so close. It's always two together. Have you ever opened a lulaf? It's always two leaves. And you remember learning it the oneness of hey brother Sammy the oneness of the is if you remember the is the only fruit which hangs on the tree all year summer and winter means you know most fruit can only bear summer winter you get frightened so it's mish one but lulf is the strongest so I hold the lulaf in my right hand and Then you know when you when you shock the Lulf you have to hold the essence of the Lulf together. So when you make the blessing but the moment you hold them together you going to fulfill the mitzvah basically. So what we do we hold the lulf in the right hand we hold the but we're not putting it together yet. So first you say the blessing and then you hold it together and then you shock it a little bit and then begins but then there's something very special the most special thing in the world is nanuim and in case you're not here for sukus I want you to watch me for one second oh do me a favor give me just your lula for one second but don't take it out just let me just give them a Well, okay. Imagine I have the essay here in my hand and I'm holding it like this, right? Shock a little bit like the leaves should choke a little bit. Okay. Now and this is according to the great cabal it says mish you see what it is we get higher higher higher and the high priest you know the we were learning it the clouds of glory of the suk is is the smoke of the incense in the holy of holiest that means on your keeper when the high priest would bring an incense in the holy of holies and the smoke would come out right the smoke would come out and it's the clouds of glory for every Jew surrounding me you see holiest have a little holiness inside holy of holiest is like I completely surrounded by it okay so here I'm holding it then I begin on the right side you know and I without making fun. You know, you know what most people do for [laughter] and then they go, but then they don't know where to go. They think, "Ah, let's go." Meo, [laughter] what? Can I make fun for a second? Yeah. I was, it's a sad story. I was in a show a few years ago. I was saying kadesh and a rabbi was doing just what you were trying to do. He got up and I wanted to teach them how to do a little. I swear to you, this is what he did. Said, "Okay, you take it in your hand and you go 1 2 3 1 2 3 1 2 3." And then he says, "Don't shake it too hard cuz you may break it. Don't shake it too long because you overdo it. I thought I was watching a Jen Fonda exercise. It was just I swear to you I mean it was such a story and he was standing up there like 200 people in the room and he was heartbreaking aerobics aerobic 98% don't know how to how to shake little I don't know why cuz obviously it's so high cannot do it. Okay but if you can come here super good. Okay. So, what happened there? Why do you shake? Why did you hear? Because he has to realize. First of all, you wake up your own heart. You're always asleep, right? You know, it means I'm asleep that I don't know what I'm doing, right? We all sleep walkers. Then also not only wake up from asleep, wake up the inside. The inside of us is asleep always. So how is shaking is waking you up. That's it. A holy rabbi is new. The toilet says when you shake it, mish wakes something up inside. You see? Yeah. You have to realize the toilet is 2,000% believed. You know, I cannot prove it to you. See, if I if you were to ask me, can I prove to you that there's one God? I can't. And I won't. I'm not interested because anything I can prove to you that this is Coca-Cola and this is a bagel. But anything which is deeper than that, if it needs proving, it's really not good. Right, Revie? Yeah. Scuba divers. Yeah. In the old time, scuba diving didn't have the radio connection, right? So he went down to the bottom and the ship on top. How do you see they were signaling? He knows that he needs help or he needs something. Used to be a cord attached to him and all he had to do just shake the cord and up there and see [laughter] I scuba dive and we still do that. Maybe like an antenna is attracting electrical energy. Yeah, maybe. I'm I'm sure it's true. Not maybe. I'm sure it is. Yeah. You see what it is? Everything holy has two million ways of explaining it. You know, like it's an open field. But anyway, so you hold it. Okay. Then you go right. Really, mish you know the first thing you have to the right side is love. Mameish. We don't know how to love. We don't know whom to love. We don't know when to love. It's so completely So this is fixing your right side and then you don't you have to bring it to your heart. Want you to know I mention you Stephy Neva took him 7 hours to choke the river nonstop. Who was this? The son of the head. Oh. Oh yeah. Okay. Otherwise we'll make it fast. You do this three times for long as long as you want to as long as you feel you need to fix it. Then comes the left side. Left side is stren always basically in this. The right side is consciousness and the left side is unconsciousness. Go. But you know, don't listen to the rabbi. Don't make it too long. Make as long as you can. Then most people don't see what's in front of them. So you go in front, right? And also I don't know where to go. Why don't you show me the way, right? Show me where to go again. Three times. And I'm making it short now. Okay. But then this is the most awesome mish to connect myself to above. This is mush, you know. And don't be ashamed that some people shock you like this. Why aren't you lifting hand? Why didn't you do it? Right m. And then something else that other people are connected to above and have good ideas but never comes down to reality. So mish mish mish go mish mish nearly lying on the floor right mish mish down you know [cough] shuffle down. Yeah. Yeah. You try it at most. Yeah. You okay? There's whatever you can do. You know, you once made a very big point that is saying be careful that you don't you don't uh go so far down because the point is you don't want to lose the connection between Yeah. Okay. Whatever it is. I don't remember, but I'm sure it was good. Whatever whatever it was in my head. And then again the bag has millions of minis again. First of all, it's my past, right? I want to lift up my past also. You know, and you know something else? I don't ever ever want to disconnect myself from someone I met yesterday. My yesterdays awesome. Right. We today we always think okay you know there is a thing which is a little bit pagan to me two words is to surrender surrender it's emissive pagan word I don't surrender I just grow up have you ever s heard a a mother saying to a baby I don't want you to wear diapers anymore because surren surrender. I'm order. I don't need it anymore. Right? We don't have to surrender anything. You just hopefully you grew up and you realize that you're not selling yourself for lollipops anymore. This is the best and also something else. So you see I don't and then say give up, let go. There is such a thing as letting go. But then there's something so much deeper. Don't let go on anything, but put it in the right place, right? You know, I I don't put I once saw Jackie Gleason with Gal. He was top, you know, his girlfriend was coming to visit him. He wants to clean up. So, and and the kitchen is so dirty. He doesn't know what to do with himself. So he puts the butter under his pillow and his pajamas he puts in the fridge there and you know it's I mean he was a super genius to make people laugh. I mean it's crazy right? You have to know butter and fridge pajamas under the pillow. You know it is when there are certain things today you understand you have to know exactly where to put it. What's with my past? I have to know where to put it. I don't disconnect myself from anything. Could you show again how you did the back? How did the turn around? Not completely. Maybe you know some people like you. Yeah. Can you can I turn around? Imagine I'll see on the street and go hey. Okay. Turns around. That's how you don't get somebody in the eye with If you don't or at least if you don't turn around 100% but 70% you know I I what should you should you be facing a certain way when you start I'm sorry what should you be facing right start miss let's assume you know where it Should take a break. Want to take a break? 5 minutes. Okay. Okay. I guess I don't even have to tell you what to start saying. As much as we have to be careful what we talk about in the suk, you have to be about two million times more careful cuz suk is you know you don't walk into the holy holy temple and and and talk to each other if it's not important. Okay. I have to learn it's not so simple. Okay. Sukis everybody knows it's a continuation of the high priest coin going into the holy of holies. And you know our wouldn't be more beautiful if the suka is really mamish stationary just to show that I am mamish a Jew forever would be beautiful right why is it temporary okay this is so deep you know that most of us lost our choice. We don't We are so accustomed and to our mistakes. We're so accustomed. Hey, brother. How you doing, brother? What you trying to do? We are so accustomed in doing I'm accustomed whenever someone steps in my toes, I blow up. I'm accustomed when dinner is not served six, I get angry at my wife. If my children talk during the meal, I yell at them. I'm accustom. Forget it. Can't help it. I'm accustomed being an idiot. So the ishm says stationary means that you can't move. The problem is that we can't even move. We want to, we can't. We're so addicted to it. And it gets so deep into us, we can't even move anymore. And here I want you to say something very deep. Anything you cannot move is paganism. Deep. What is what is a pagan god? Nothing wrong with a pagan god. The only thing is the god can't move. Right? What is the deepest depths of our belief? You know what praying means? This is the deepest depth that even if God God decided this person is sick, I can move God. I can move God humanly speaking, right? I mean it's not I'm just using words not as simple as it sounds, right? I can move God, right? What what are you praying for the Messiah to come? I said, listen, God knows when the Messiah is coming. It means I with my prayers I can move God. It's awesome right? If you remember the holy temple is the essence of prayer. What's the deepest depths of prayer? The deepest depths of prayer is and you know it's it's very simple. You know when you watch people those who are so paganized in their own life they don't know how to pray. And then the people embassy heen right who can move anytime but there's something else I could be religious on a pagan level I keep shabas I keep yontiff I put on film I have y what's all those people who can't move because they're already accustomed to religion they can't stand somebody who does a little bit different because you're in my way, right? But the person was I have choice every second and um I I told I told some of you you know like have you ever seen those big hos those great rabbis the mamish addicted to to their honor you know when when when they walk in you have to get Or when you talk to them, you have to talk to them like uh not direct would they would they maybe you know so you don't think most sense that a person has to he has to be careful with his honor you know you don't can make yourself a fool someone told me two people were walking on the east side there was and raen It's like your mom is the greatest in the world. No, she was okay. And there was a black woman carrying something and she couldn't make it. Really, it was heartbreaking. So says, "Let's go and help her." So she says to you know, it's not an honor of the tora. So went by himself and helped her, right? You know what that means? Sure. You have to know exactly when to move and not to move, right? You know, like when she was a cousin who walks on the street, he has to have a black hat and black tie and they walk straight. Can't you move sometimes? Now is not the time to look for your honor. Here's someone who needs your help. And I'm just took it as a stupid example. So says what is sukus? Sukus is and I tell you something you know imagine God forbid what is the most terrible sickness in the world if a person is paralyzed right what is one of the most heartbreaking things in the world right's getting better somebody has polio right out should never happen to anybody need a good doctor Inside inside Dr. He says we are so young that God forgave me but I can't help it. I can't move. So what an coin did in the holy of holy years it became temporary again and temporary is a very bad translation. I can move right. I'm completely free again. Wow. I'm not addicted to anything anymore. But it has to be real deep. Right? Say holy is deep but holy of holy is that it reaches in order to get you out of you being paralyzed spiritually has to be the deepest mama said deepest awesome tongue. So your friends means sukus in the deepest deepest way is reaching him deep is is the deepest right. What's the visual about? You know, I can do chu all year long, but what can I do? I have an excuse to God. I'm sorry. I couldn't help it. And it's a good excuse. Really is. But what you need is a holy of holies. You need honor crime. Okay. What is this the deepest? Would you open your eyes? What did Avonino give us over? You know what most people think? the greatest thing I'm giving over to my children, they should do the same thing. And basically, I really want my children to be the same thing. I want my children to be Jewish. I want my children to be this. But I don't want my children to be stationary can't move. Right? And you see with the deepest depth, the deepest secret of life is to be completely m I'm holding on to it, but I'm not frozen. What's a all about? What was the first sign that Aroina entered the covenant with God? God is talking to him, right? Suddenly he sees three pagans who look hungry. So he says to God, "I'm sorry, God. I know you want to talk to me. I got to take care of those three pagans. Take us." Right? Imagine I would have the deepest God relation sitting here. Wow. Should be videoed, right? And then God is speaking to me, right? And let's say not fake. I really would know God is talking to me, right? Say listen brother especially a pagan and everything you know and it's hard to car you know. Can you switch so fast? Can you suddenly tell God, "I'm sorry, God. I have to take care of the three people because you have time." They're not unbelievable flexibility, right? On one hand, I hate Sud, right? They're the lowest. When you hear God wants to destroy them, I switch. I'm praying for them. It's awesome. I want you to know something awesome which is not to be believed. You know the Egyptians drowned in the Red Sea. Do you know who didn't drown? Pharaoh. Cuz Moshe gave him his hand and got him out because he was good to Moshe when he was a baby. I mean, can you imagine the switch? Pharaoh, the lowest creep in the world. But at that moment he was good to me. I have to be thankful to him. This awesome not being frozen. You know how deep this is to know every split second. What am I supposed to do now? Because this is the holy of holiest. Holy means I always know what to do. The holy of holiest is I can at this moment I can switch right not being paralyzed. So you know the in the suka we inviting all our mothers and fathers because most pe why do why do so many people rebel against their parents right? Because what my parents gave me was frozen. A frozen god, frozen goodness, frozen Yiddish. I don't want to be frozen, right? Parents have something to freeze you. But after a comes back from the holy of holiest only then can I take the heritage from a venu is mish completely open. You have to know when to be good, not to be so good. Is strength. You have to know when to be strong. Jakino is beauty. Beauty is when you know exactly when and how. Right. So in the suk in the suku we invite our holy mothers and holy fathers because suddenly you realize you know what it is. I tell you the hardest thing for young people it's better but let's say 10 years ago the hardest thing the hardest thing for young people Jewish young people was in Germany because on one hand the Germans killed 6 million Jews right on the other hand they go to school and then they see some German kids are wonderful kids right so how do you handle it. They don't know how to handle it. Why? Because their parents, you know, I tell you something awesome without saying anything too bad. It's a long long story. I met this whole group, a church group came to my concert and then they met me again at night and I see a Jewish girl with them name is Esther. And then someone spoke to her pri Israel. You know what else to come to with a church group? You know, it's going to to the Eskimos with a French group. I mean, what's going on there? So, she says, "I hear the truth. My parents are survivors." Never. Heartbreaking. I'm not judging. My parents told me the essence of Yiddish is to hate going. Never. They don't keep Shabas. They don't keep yipper. They keep nothing. And they told her the essence of Yiddish was to hate going. So she says I didn't know any better, right? They never sent me to synagogue. They forbid me to have. So I really thought that's what it is. So one day I passed by the church and the first time I heard that there's religion has to do with love is in church. I came. It's a long story with her. I don't have three new members that she came a lot of times Friday night after that. Then sadly enough, she moved back to San Francisco to take her up again. She's the first time I heard by Jewish people lovers. Then I came to your concert tonight as much. You know what that means? In Germany, those kids the parents don't tell them about Yiddish. Most of them, right? Most of them keep anything. The only thing they keep is hinging the coin, right? But it doesn't go this way either, right? [clears throat] You know, when we went to Poland, right? All the people against the stationary, you know, they killed 6 million Jews. Forget it. What do you what are you frozen? You have to know when and how on. So you hear friends the deepest steps you know left me not a frozen goodness left me mish because the deepest goodness if I know when you have to know when left me strength you have to know when strength doesn't mean I have a little assertiveness training and each time someone steps on my toe I blow up right that's what it Don't let anybody Don't let anybody you know says what we say in the prayers let me be like the earth you know what's so special about the earth everybody is stepping on the earth and the earth never blows up it's anti assertiveness but kaval you know how much is growing in the earth because let's you know what it is if I'm a small creep someone steps on I blow up. Why? Why doesn't the earth blow up? The earth doesn't blow up because you're not taking anything away from me. You step on me. So if [clears throat] I walk on the earth, I make it none earth. It's good. The earth wants to be stepped on. So you make a way. How are all the ways in the world? Because people were walking on it, right? It's unbelievable. Okay. So, so remember this is the deepest depths and I tell you something else which is so deep you know just remember this you know blessing everyone with children you know all the parents the deepest heritage we have that we giving over to our children you have to serve God every second to know what God wants of There is no [clears throat] someone told me who told it to me. Someone told me but I gave a talk to San Francisco a long time ago. So he told me that he remembers I said the only principles which you have the only principle you have is that they know principles that they are no principles. I don't know you know ask me right okay one more very very important thing you know wish we' have no we still have time a little bit sukus is is a holiday of aron coin because because from the holy of holiest and everybody knows this is really I'm begging you friends the second night of sukus is the greatest night of the In the holy temple, the young priests would go down to me to the mikvah of the good and there they would draw water and the next morning this water would be poured over the altar. All all year long you only pour wine over the altar and this few days of sukus water and the joy was awesome. And the gamos says who whoever has not seen the joy of drawing the water has never seen joy. And here again nor tell me did we learn this last year or we didn't or we did. So why don't you tell me a little bit before I say everything wrong. like a valve. What? Okay, I begin and when I say it wrong, you stop me. [laughter] You never know. You see, every year we are in a different space. I don't know what I said last year. I think we we're learning it. First of all, the Israelit asked whenever there is a yumptive, you're supposed to have a feast. But sim with the drawing of the water was all night and there's no mention of a feast. The only thing with the say that nobody slept and the says that we were sleeping on his on each other's shoulders and also something awesome every yont all the Jews are singing and dancing with the only the sadikim only the holy people would dance crazy and all of Israel would stand and clap hands and it was the greatest joy in the In a nutshell, in a nutshell that the beginning of the end of the end of the world is I'm only happy when something good is happening to me. I'm not happy when something good happens to somebody else. Imagine call me up hopefully soon telling can you believe it I bought a number and I want $2 million right out right so I will say I'm so happy right what will I think inside God you have nobody else to give $2 million a year I'm first right how long is he begging you for $2 million a few years I'm begging you much longer And God, you know what I would do with $2 million? You know, he's going to do [clears throat] someone tell me about $100 million. Yeah, good. Okay. You know, it's all I'm still first, right? God, you made a mistake. [snorts] I'm not going to tell three. I'll smile at I'm so happy, right? I mean, take the world. Most people got engaged. I was first. Why didn't she marry me? Right? All the stuff, right? You know what the lowest what the highest is? If a person can reach the level mamish to be happy when something happens to another person not to be believed. Huh? No, that's something else. If I'm happy with what I have, this is a high level. We are talking about being happy when something happens to another person, not to me. Maybe that's what she means. Maybe she's interpreting it. Oh, you mean somebody else's. Pretty good. I appoint you chief rabbi of the world. His portion means the person, but she says maybe it meant reading somebody else's portion. I am rich and I am happy. Everybody else happiness. It's a good time. But the thing is when do we do it right? So the night for this is the second night of sukas and this is what it is. Thank you so much. about him. You know what it is? Um, and I have to make it very fast. Imagine we'll hear a voice from heaven. Only the holy people should get up to dance. So, who would get up to dance? Nobody. As much as I think I'm holy and I really should get up, but it doesn't look nice. I'm waiting for another invitation. You know, but that what I'm sure you remember knowing and his daughter got married. He announced anybody who ever sinned should not dare to get up to dance. Wait. So Haley Lakers, one of the last pupils of the Hollywood, still alive, got up, start dancing like crazy. And you know what he said? So you don't want anybody to dance. There has to be dancing, right? So anybody get up. Everybody get up. God bless you. See the real holy person is not concerned if he's dancing with somebody else. There has to be dancing. It's sukus night, right? So the halfholy people don't get up to dance. They announce only sadikim should dance. Right? Now the real sadikim says ah you don't want anybody to dance. Who cares? I'm getting up to dance, right? But you know the greatest miracle is that all of Israel is clapping and they're so happy that they are still holy people in the world. Listen to this. Why do we have to sleep? Why we have to eat? You know, if you would have eaten the tree of life, maybe we would eat only on Shabbat. Zurkush says if he would have eaten the tree of life he would have not have to eat three times. Why do we eat three times or four times because there's death in the world? In the moment I stop eating I'm already on the way out because if if I keep on not eating you can die from hunger right? If you would live forever I eat chabas I eat once a year right? Who cares? So that night there was so much life in the air. You know sleeping is 160 years of death, right? That night was so much life in the air. We didn't have to eat and we didn't have to sleep. And you see I want you to know Leori Elijah the prophet is in the sh of is in the sh of of of not of a right not of a without getting around the depths are the first ones who walked into the holy of holies that what's the holy of holiest you know what death is frozen the more you're alive, the more you can move, right? What's the sign of a living person that can move? Right? So, Eliovi is the one who is utmost moving, right? He's moving between heaven and earth. moving from one generation to the other. When when the high priest would walk into the holy of holies, he would say, "Honor Hashem, honor Hashem, honor." So the up says, "Honor about right that's so simple okay so here it says why is the joy with water that's I'm sure no remembers okay that's what I was going to say you said you talked a lot about water and cleansing and the process through which we make wine so what's the difference between wine and Water wine. You have to work hard to make it wine. The more you touch it, the more you work in it, the better the wine is. Water is only good when it's fresh. So all year long I'm thinking I have to become wine, work hard, and change from a grape to I don't know what and change again and change again and maybe then I'll be okay. What is