Shiur Torah #98 Tzdaka Got Me Time, Yirat Shamayim Saved Me @The Lighthouse Project (Florida)

welcome everybody music welcome to another night at Lighthouse project my name is Michael um tonight we are fortunate to have youron real band with us tonight um how I found out about youron Ren is kind of interesting I'm very involved obviously I'm always as running the lighthouse project you're always looking to find out new Talent or new people out there that are spreading message the message to to make the Shuba and to get back to Hashem and and teaching people how to get connected to God and somehow some way I stumbled into uh one of his classes through a WhatsApp group that I was somehow included in Hashem helped me and connected me and I was blown away by the first class that I heard of his which is this class you're going to he tonight is the lecture on how he became bouba and the story is amazing um and as you'll see what I mean and it's truly inspiring so um we're very happy to have you here I'm happy to be here and um also we're very excited at we trying to make also the lighthouse project at home for yon he gives a lot of Jas every single day on social media and I'm sure that we'll have something that we can do you can set up and you be connected uh to him and he'll be coming here ZM about twice a month to be getting classes as well so we really want make this a home for him and to inspire as many people as you can and Z keeps spreading the word about all this also there's CDs in the front if you guys are interested with his classes or RAB Yi another very influential uh Torah teacher and also just for the people that are new that have never been here before we do this every Wednesday and Thursday night we have multiple teachers that come here uh on those nights and uhem we're going now a year and a half straight and uh we we urge you to let keep spreading the word keep letting people know about what we're doing here um so we can bring mashiach immediately amen thank you very much thank you for having me thank you for Michael and this uh amazing organization you know today when we live in what kazal calls Alik which is the world of Lies it's becoming more and more difficult to find pure Souls that actually want to get people back to Hashem people spend their whole life like I did which we'll go into in a few moments chasing money chasing women chasing Pride chasing all types of cavod chasing chasing chasing at the end of a life we realize that we're just chasing our own tail and we've got nothing so when you find someone that has a pure intention that's looking for nothing other than to bring back Jews to Hashem it's special my story is an interesting one we've we've spread it around the world we have a uh a YouTube page uh Facebook group with a several thousand people uh we just came back uh just came back from a tour in uh New York where I lived for 25 years and uh we did lectures every single night different places uh before that we did something uh we did 40 days in Israel lectures uh lecture after lecture and the the amazing thing about each lecture is that you're finding pure Souls each time sometimes you have somebody over there says Ah not for me once in a while you get one of those you have to well you know at the end of the day can't convince everyone but most times you're you find people that are looking for the truth they're looking for the truth they're looking for a purpose they're looking for a reason of why Hashem even put him here sometimes you even find someone who doesn't believe in Hashem born Jewish lived in Israel so it's not like they lived in some uh ancient town that no one's ever heard of lived in Israel but wasn't convinced God created everything I was fortunate enough to meet someone like that about a year ago came to one of my classes one of the other students convinced him to come [Music] and to make a long story short within about three classes three shim each one usually about two hours he was convinced God created the world he was convinced God is real he was also convinced the Torah is real there's only one question left what does the Torah say now that we know that hasem is real we know that this Torah is real because you can prove that scientifically you can prove that logically you can Pro prove that in a rational way in a scientific way in any way you want just need a little bit of time once you know it's real then you have to find out what it says and this is one of the problems that I see and I don't think I'm the first one to ever mention it that one of the biggest problems we have in the entire world but more more so in the western world than we do in the uh in Israel is that we spend too much time worrying about people's feelings we are politically correct too often too often the guy tells you he's dying and he needs to have a surg says yeah but it's going to hurt okay but if I don't have the surgery I'm going to die yeah but it's going to hurt for a few weeks yes but if I don't have the surgery I'm going to die but it's going to hurt it's completely irrational but that's what we do with people we know what Hashem said we know exactly what he said he wrote us a love letter it's called a Toral we know exactly what he said it's not a theory it's not maybe did maybe he didn't he wrote us a love letter we called the Torah gave us exact instructions what Shabbat means gave us exact instructions of what kosher means exact instructions what intermarriage is to him even at the times of Abu before we got the written T we got exact instructions of what we're allowed to do and what we're not allowed to do but you have many people that know a lot more Torah than I could ever know that feel too bad for people and don't want to tell them so what ends up happening with this guy is that after three classes that he found out the truth he started doing CH about two months ago he had a kosher Orthodox wedding with a very hard to find these days the first student I had in Florida came to this youu was the first student it was just me and him and God God showed up too he's always there he shows up and I told him listen I don't know what you know I don't know what you don't know I'm never going to judge you and if I ever tell you my opinion you'll know it's my opinion but 99% of what I say is God's opinion has nothing to do with me I didn't write it don't complain to me he didn't ask me for permission of whether I agree with it or not this is what God Said you do what you want because at least you'll know he said fine after the third lecture there's a few more people in the crowd he says what do you mean you can't drive to beet on chabbat and I told him what do you mean you can't drive on Shabbat he goes yes but I'm going to beet I said yes but you can't you're obligated to keep Shabbat you're not obligated to go to besset which means that if you have to drive to besset you're not allowed to go to besset this is a unfortunate reality that many Jews do not know so he tells me next well why hasn't anyone told me and I told him well how long have you been going to beet he says years 25 years I've been going to an orthodox Shool and no one has ever told me I'm not allowed to drive to besset on Shabbat I knew I'm not allowed to drive to them allall but I didn't know I not allowed to drive that's it so you see May okay may part of the fault obviously is his is his don't get me wrong he's not completely Innocent but at the same token how do you not have one Shabbat lecture in 25 years to tell somebody not allowed to drive on Shabbat anyone who read even the basic meaning of the Tor knows you're not let to drive on Shabbat nothing changed doesn't change Torah doesn't change the same T we got in Mount sunai is the same thing we have today people don't know why because of political correctness if we tell people that they're not allowed to drive on Shabbat maybe they're not going to come maybe they're going to be offended maybe they're not going to like us anymore maybe they're not going to give us so the good news here is that I'm not politically correct as you can see already I was never politically correct which got me into a little bit of trouble in the business world but we did all right I came to the United States with my family when I was 10 years old which is about 26 years ago in uh Israel we learned a little bit of Torah little Basics but how much can you possibly learn by the time you're 10 years old as soon as we landed in the United States we officially became go why we didn't really think it was a big deal to go to Yesa big deal enough to go pay for it so we went to public school why go are nice people hasm created 7 billion of them sure they're good so we went to public school what's the big deal little do we know that when you go to public school when you surround yourself with people that don't have the same belief system you do you adopt their belief system and little by little you leave God or you create a new God which many people do yes I believe in God okay so do you keep Shabbat you keep do you keep kosher no no no no no I don't keep any of those things but I believe in God so which God do you believe in because my God says you have to do all those things goes no no no listen God he's very kind to me but uh he doesn't give me enough money so I have to work on Shabbat I said oh that's a different God it's not the same God cuz my God's not limited my God can give you enough p in one hour in one second so you have a different God I didn't know I had a different God so I went to public school I was considered in the secular studies I took college courses in High School I played football I wanted to become a football player I want to become a psychiatrist I wanted to become a model I want to become everything but observant in tah I went to Bingham to University after the end of the uh first semester we had a break and I realized that uh College may not be for me even though I had 3.9 GPA it was very good but I saw most of the time that I was spending in college is a waste of time in general College is very good if you have a specific aim if you're going to be a doctor you need to go to college you're going to be a lawyer you need to go to college going be an accountant you need some type of degree I was a professional salesman you don't need to degree for a professional salesman so I thought I wanted to be a psychiatrist but after two semesters of uh learning biology and all types of things like that I realized that I'm going to have to spend another seven or eight years doing this and I didn't want to but during the break of the first semester to the second we had a long break and my father had one of his crazy ideas he saw this Rabbi and told him listen take my son to man it's a bunch of religious people maybe you could learn something over there so I went to man they scared the hell out of me I decided I'm going to start keeping some MIT that was take one I kept mitv I kept Shabbat I wor came back to college from being a party boy to being this little religious guy everyone goes out on Friday nights I'm sitting at home in my dorm room and uh this kept on for about a year and a half after a year and a half you stop learning you stop caring you start leaving so little by little I start I started dropping mitv seemed fine God understood that's what I thought I got into the business world I became a stock broker in The Brokerage world there's an enormous amount of success to be to be had if you're able to speak really well if you're able to work really really long hours and if you get lucky once in a while at least if you believe in luck so I worked for the first 3 years I paid my dues I worked for other people made them Rich the most I made was maybe about $1,200 a month they made somewhere in neb to $50 or $100,000 a month off of my work it's a good deal after 3 years the uh I went to this new firm and the the partner I had decided that uh paying me is out of the question so despite us having a deal of him having to pay me a few thousand every month he decided to give me a check for $81 12 cents for two months worth of work and I asked them what what is this this new partnership was supposed to be a fair partnership I told you the last place wasn't fair this is why I came here blah blah blah he said uh yeah so what do you want I said yeah you agreed to give me $2,200 a month I'm going to bring in the clients you're going to develop them we're both going to become rich he says yeah that sounds fine but do we have a contract contract what contract you just promised don't you have a word I work off of contracts said uh so I got my first lesson I went to the the manager of the office I told him that uh this is happening he didn't really care too much and I told him listen I don't want any Partners I just want to go on my own I want to develop my own clients he said okay listen I'm going to think about it and I'll get back to you after my vacation to me that was like an eternity so he came back from his vacation he said you know what why should I give you the opportunity to go on your own why should I give you the opportunity to build your own clients I said said well listen I work harder than everybody else I'm ambitious why not said well listen you're going to have to pay me $4,000 a month just to show up you have to pay for rent you have to pay for the phone you have to pay for the secretary you have to pay for this and that and this and that and make sure that I make money I said okay fine I'll pay you he says do you have any money I said absolutely not I have about $1,500 left in my bank I don't have the $4,000 says how you going to pay me I said I have no idea but I'll do it because if I go somewhere else I'll have to start this whole journey all over again going to waste another two or three years of my life he says okay so what is what are your intentions here what are your intentions here and I said to buy you out that was naive young and kind of cute I'm telling this guy that's in the business for almost 20 years that I want to buy him out he found it amusing he said okay fine go ahead 2 Days Later September 11th happens not exactly an ideal time to develop a book of clients but for me when you don't really know when you're ignorant It's usually the best you they call beginner luck for me listen the whole world was losing it's my opportunity so I started calling people initially people thought I was crazy how could you tell us to invest in a market where everything is going down on a daily basis I said listen this is the opportunity you buy one everyone's selling a few people listened for the first few months it was very difficult so difficult that every single dollar that I had went to this very nice office manager all the way to the point that I had to borrow a dollar from this guy Demitri every single day so I could buy coffee and a dut and that was my food for the day live off of a dut and coffee for 6 months you start losing some weight but you save some money though once in a while would buy myself some uh kosher baloney cuz it was a $169 and Kmart I remember these prices I'm telling you I lived off of this stuff so the first six months were very difficult but all this time I'm gathering clients I'm the only guy that's actually buying investing all this money into this company there was a good company company called Nexel things were developing [Music] then after about 6 months I make my first $5,000 to me was all the money in the world like wow I actually kept $5,000 I was already rich I bought myself a green suit I have no idea why they likeed [Music] green and things were great the next month I made almost $8,000 the next month I made about 12 the next month I made 14 by November of 2002 so about approximately a year after I started I made $117,000 in a month I broke the office record but then the last day of the month was a Friday and this guy Michael that sat across from me he said what are you doing I said I'm working says yes it's 5:00 go home go party you just made more money than the rest of the office did for the last year I said why what do I what am I going to do home so party and I said why said cuz you made a lot of money said yes but Monday is a new month that was my mentality it was supposed to work I worked so it's supposed to work it wasn't a surprise it was great actually having money bought my parents a house they could stop renting but it was supposed to work next month I made $60,000 next month I made about 180 by the August of 2003 I became the number three top producing broker in the entire country for this company that had about 5,000 people with an average career of about 20 years I'm only in the business for a couple of years eventually the uh office manager gets a call from the CEO of the company he says who's this guy that keeps making all this money he said well he works really hard he picks good stocks says does he have Insider information and he says I don't think he even knows what Insider information is he says well how is he making money for everyone if all the rest of us are losing he says I don't know he just works hard when I when I heard this kind of rubbed me the wrong way said okay it's time for me to go so I started my own company and started hiring people analysts Brokers assistants made my first million dollars said I have enough money to do it and June never likes to work for anyone but then money really started coming in a bad month became $150 to $200,000 a good month would be half a million dollars or more all this time I'm giving some money away whoever needs money comes to my office I ask them how much their problem cost they tell me how much I give them a check they go away we have a good partnership I usually don't have much time for people because I want to go back on the phone and make money anyy scan anyone that has a problem would come to me many of those people many of them weree black and white said they were religious said they were very religious and would come to the office and convince us to give some once in a while late once in the blue to give us a for about 3 minutes and a door was always open this continued for the next 15 years the 15 years that I had my office I had a few offices people treated my office like an open door policy people would come in I would give money sometimes they would say sometimes sometimes they would just say thank you and walk away once in a while one of the Jewish guys in the office would lay that was it that was the relationship we had they had a problem I'd write a check very simple one problem they didn't care that according to Al I was screwing up according to God my wasn't going to help me too much in the next World it was only going to buy me more time here buy me more time here to do chuva when said he didn't mean mean that if you just give a bunch of money everything's okay you could violate Shabbat eat non kosher intermar marry non jeu which is the silent Holocaust that's happening in our generation unfortunately he didn't say that you could just give money and everything's okay donate AET you could drive on Shabbat we have a permission from someone you didn't mean that when he said says the number one explains it in that it's going to you're not going to die in an unusual way okay nice I don't think anyone really cares if they die in unusual and unusual way they just want to live the second part is that it's just going to give you an opportunity to live longer even though technically we make enough sins sometimes in each in one day that according to God's laws and according to his signature which is emit truth shouldn't have even survived the week so that that $1 you gave the homeless guy could have saved you the $500 you gave to the K saved you the th000 Bucks you bought on Aliyah in beet you thought that getting cavod from everyone was the was the biggest Joy no it just saved your life that's why every day in our we say the Tree of Life is for its supporters and the supporters are the ones that are benef are benefiting from it what does it mean the supporters are benefiting from it isn't the is isn't the tree tree is another uh word for sadik someone that's dedicating his life for Tora isn't the righteous person the one that should say thank you why is the investor in the righteous person supposed to is benefiting say because hasem he's going to give them P anyway he doesn't need you to give them money but you can be a vessel they're going to get P anyway even though it looks like you're the only option trust and believe you're not which means that when you give the only one that really benefits is the one that gives because they officially become a partner with hasem they become the vessel so all this time I'm giving eventually I donate the seph we have one written in Jerusalem had plenty of money so the price tag was irrelevant I just told him just get one that was the best one and get it here as soon as possible and everything was fine the nice religious people say it was very nice they show up to the party for the SE I didn't really care too much I almost didn't show up I just thought it was nice to have a SE I told my told me no it's a big Mitzvah you should show up said okay fine I'll come it was worth it but no one's telling me anything no one's telling me that by the way you're in trouble not once now why do I keep mentioning this because if you don't know how are you going to fix it how are you supposed to fix it now in today's generation we have this strategy of being politically correct and easily and slowly bringing people back to hm in a nice way I'm here to tell you it doesn't work some nice yes you have to be nice some jokes hopefully I remember a joke during a year so everybody could laugh usually the jokes are about myself but in general you still have to know the truth if I just tell you you know the stories of the righteous people it's all wonderful I tell you the and and the BET mikdash and all the that are completely irrelevant to our generation it's not going to change your life if I tell you what God said about what we need to do now that may change your life if you're not doing it like I didn't you'll see okay I have to fix it so now if this nice strategy was supposed to work I always ask myself when was it supposed to work so if we do the math an average of three times per week is how many times they came to to my office at least three times a week 15 years but let's just do one once a week once a week every week for 10 years to make the math simple that's 52 times for 10 years 520 times which means they had 520 tries someone had 520 possibilities to tell me that if I don't keep Shabbat according to Al I'm not considered Jewish 520 times so if it didn't work after 520 times when was it supposed to work I'm the failed experiment I'm the one that showed that it doesn't work in our generation most people that I tell them this like what where does it say that Z the written Torah the oral Torah any any book that talks about Shabbat if you have y in this in this besset just open the first couple of pages first two pages three pages you'll see it you'll see much worse things than that they say what is the consequence of not keeping Shabbat I told them that last night sh they almost had a heart attack so if they didn't tell me for 10 years when are they going to tell me we need to know so I thought that oh maybe they were trying to be nice to me maybe they were afraid I wasn't going to listen afraid also afraid to lose it which means they made a decision for me when someone doesn't tell you something because they think that you're not going to listen or they think that maybe there's a risk what ends up happening is that they make the decision for you and that's not fair so after doing cha which we'll get back to now I decided that the only way to do it is the same way we did business we tell people the truth you decide for yourself so now I listen to things from time to time but in general lived a very secular life to the point that my wife was not Jewish this and I didn't really see much of a problem with it when people would tell me don't you want Jewish kids I said well if she wants to be Jewish she could be Jewish I'm not going to make her do something I'm not doing not a hypocrite if she wants to do it she'll do it the funny thing is my wife always wanted me to be religious I've no idea why but later on I find out that she was a tadika from the start so when rabbis didn't tell me the truth Hashem had to the only problem when Hashem speaks it hurts so in May of 2006 I reached the top of the world I made $1.6 million in a month was the best year of my career and I thought that I should take a vacation for about I think it was about a month to Las Vegas go play some cards with the best poker players in the world life was good came back from vacation and everything started going downhill Deal started going south client started leaving a few friends weren't exactly friendly but I said okay this is just a trend I made enough money that I could buy more friends like I bought the first few I didn't listen I didn't get the first sign send you signs we're not Moses so he doesn't speak to us out of a bush so anyone's waiting for him like I did he doesn't speak he speaks to you in different ways November 18th of 2006 I decided to have an elective surgery for something that was bothering me approximately once per year meaning I did not have to have the surgery they tell me that it's a simple surgery I have it in the morning I leave in a few hours I go home I relax maybe a little uncomfortable for a couple of days but no big deal the surgeon says I have over 20 years of experience in this I do approximately three to five surgeries per day it's like a machine said okay fine doesn't seem like a big deal only problem is that when I went to the surgery I was healthy when I came out of the surgery I was sick but not sick like I had a headache sick like I couldn't stop screaming from pain because it felt like someone took a knife and continued to cut me open over and over and over and over again and it wouldn't stop and it kept giving me more and more morphine and my body rejected it it didn't work after a few hours of screaming and asking my wife and my mom to kill me eventually the morphine actually worked they told my uh they told them that they actually gave me the most amount of morphine legally allowed which most people would die from but apparently my body had a high tolerance even though I never took drugs in my life and I said okay maybe now that he calm down we should send him home I was excited that I was actually not screaming I said fine let's go home we picked up a shua sandwich on the way home ate it at the house had an apartment in uh New York City said good night to everyone it was a uh Adventure I saw a small piece of hell but good night it's been real I went to sleep I thought it was over I woke up 45 minutes later and eventually the morphine woke the the morphine wore off not good I woke up worse than I woke up the first time screaming yelling begging for Mercy begging for someone to kill me begging for anything just get this to stop only problem is this time it didn't stop for 62 days for 62 days the most amount of consecutive sleep that I got was approximately 15 minutes and when you don't sleep for a while your body starts failing Blood starts coming out of unusual places start peeing blood blood comes out of your eyes get get infections everywhere start dying from what till this day I don't know after about two months of screaming and yelling hasem had mercy on me and gave me another shot instead of taking 50 to 60 pain killers a day only I went down to 20 became somewhat normal started going back to work even though I wasn't really productive it would take me approximately 30 minutes to get from here to where Michael is even though an average person can walk from you know in 30 seconds it's 26y old that couldn't move still no chuba the religious people still didn't tell me they told me no you'll have because of the you're giving said yeah I'll give more thear didn't help me 9 months later I wake up and I have pain in my leg said maybe I pulled the muscle while I was sleeping maybe I really was running in my dream only problem is that by the next morning I had to go to the Intensive Care Unit because I was in an immense amount of pain everywhere I go to Intensive Care Unit they have an Emergen emergency surgery they tell me that I have an internal infection between two muscles that if I didn't show up at that moment and I would have waited maybe even another hour or two it would have exploded went into my blood system and I would have died instantly so you're very lucky Mr ruven I couldn't say thank you because there was a lot of morphine in my body and it continued to be in the Intensive Care Unit for the next two weeks right next to the dying people their screams challenge my scream sometimes I was louder sometimes they were not fun still know Chua went back to the office went back to the business World went back to giving Saka even though was losing money now cuz when you don't work this people turn into vultures when they see that you're not exactly as strong as you were just a few months ago they take advantage they start stealing they start doing things that they wanted to do all along but they couldn't but now that you can't defend yourself why not so my friends all of my friends with the exception of one who didn't work with me turn into enemies some of them didn't even call to say are you still alive everyone knew my situation still no Chua still no care still thinking it's just a phase three 3 months later another pain another Intensive Care Unit another surgery another few weeks of hell and this continued for the next seven years but it just got to the point where it happened every month and then eventually every week but everyone just kept telling me give maybe that's going to help nothing about Shabbat nothing about the fact that I'm married to a non-jew that doesn't matter God doesn't care you give to the everything's going to be fine it got to a point where I wasn't able to walk anymore I had to use a cane my body was failing and my life turned into a living hell I was in pain 24 hours a day I lost most of my money in a very very short period of time I would eventually lose the rest the fame and fortune was irrelevant because it was non-existent everything was collapsing under me eventually my mom told me that she went to these different rabbis and she prayed for me I said yeah thank you very much but I don't think it's going to help same rabbis come to my office and it got to a point where I had such a dislike to religious people that when my mom said she would give me blessing I said IMA please stop blessing me God hates me and usually things get worse after that so God has to show you he loves you but he shows you in a different way so when things got really really bad Hashem delivered on his promise and he said that I don't give to anyone a test that they can't pass I got to that point I got to a point where I became suicidal the only reason I stayed around was because I didn't want my wife my wife's life to be ruined or my mom my brothers and my father are great but no one cried more than that those two I got to a point where I said you know what maybe I should start being nice to people because I have to plan a way out of here there's no way I can continue living here for the rest of my life I got to my end one day my mom noticed that obviously I'm acting strange and she decided to call this phone book she has that she gathered names of rabbis from all over the world to ask for a blessing she has really really strong amuna so she calls rabbis from all over the world for almost two hours no one answers the phone today not one soul is answering the phone for almost 2 hours eventually a woman in Israel answers the phone my my mom is excited she finally got someone on the phone he says can I speak to Rabbi so and so he says I'm sorry you dialed the wrong phone number as any hysterical mom would do she breaks down she breaks down on the phone to this strange woman she got to her end and then hasem shows us who he really is the woman says do my mom was child says how do you know my name who are you says I'm your niece Pina how did I reach you I don't even have your phone number we've never spoken on the phone I dialed a wrong phone number in a different country and I reached not only a person that is related to me but actually recognized my voice and we find out later just a few seconds later is the only person that can help if someone doesn't believe in God at this point they start so Pina asked my mom why are you crying she says because my son is dying everyone knows he's suffering but it's getting worse and worse I need to speak to a rabbi that's going to give him a blessing do something P something so why don't you speak to my brother R big he's also so very connected to Raad lives a couple of buildings away he's one of his Tom call him she speak to me of course I'll speak to you you're the uh ant from America so she calls RAB FR R FR is a ni like the sadik that he is but he finds out she called and he calls her back and she tells him the story now at this point I didn't know that Ephraim even existed we've never met when I left Israel he was maybe 2 years old he's much younger than I am I didn't know he existed never spoke to him didn't know anything about him my mom speaks to him and fr asks does he speak Hebrew he says yeah yeah he speaks a little bit of Hebrew goes oh so want I just can I just call him and she says no he's not going to talk to you barely talks to us and at that very moment I decided to call my mother for the first time in probably a year or two I would see her from time to time but I would never call generally the only calls I would have is business calls calling my mom wasn't part of the equation but at that moment I decided you know what maybe I should be nice to my mom because I'm going to plan my way out of this world so let me just call my mom and see how she's doing she answers the phone is hysterical Rob FR was on the other line she said speak to him speak to him I said to who FR I said why are you crying she said just speak to him he can help you I said why is fryan making you cry she says no he's not making me cry just speak to him he can help you I said okay just have anyone you want to call me just stop crying so R FR calls me and he gives me a really interesting story in Tor Genesis about Judah and Tamal the interesting relationship they had where Judah initially married tamalika to his first son a ER did not want to bring children to the world he wanted to keep his wife pretty so instead of bringing kids to the world he would waste his seed Hashem says that's the disgusting so he killed him so then Judah said I want to make a mitvah so I'm going to marry my second son since there's no kids Onan I marry him to this sadika Onan also didn't want to ruin her beauty and he also didn't want to bring kids to the world because they would have in essence be his brother's kids so he wasted seed shm said that that's disgusting so he killed him too too so then Tamal says okay I still need to marry someone you have a third son Judah was kind of scared he already killed two of my sons he didn't know his sons were rash he didn't know his sons were Wicked he thought there was something's wrong with the girl he said okay listen let him grow up a little bit and then I'll call you go back to your father's husband go go back to your father's house she goes back to the father's house but little by little realizes that there's no plan of marrying the third son and then she has a dream she has a prophecy to was a prophet and the prophecy tells her that the Messiah is going to come from Judah mhia is going to come from Judah if you knew that mashia is going to come through one way you want to you want to have the piece of it I want to say mashia is my son so see did the unthinkable she pretended to be a prostitute by covering our face interestingly the Muslims thinks that's a good think that's a good thing in the old days when you cover your face that was a sign that you were a prostitute it is that's what happens when you just pick and choose whichever meets what you want from the Torah so she pretended to be a prostitute Hashem wanted this to happen that's why he gave her the prophecy he influenced Judah Beyond his free choice to do something that was not Kosher and to go with this prostitute but lat later he finds out that his daughter-in-law is pregnant how could she be pregnant no one's been with her the only thing that it could possibly mean according to is that she has been with a non-jew and according to the Torah that we have at that time which was the oral Torah if someone is desecrating aem's Name by inter Maring in that time they have to die there's no repentance Torah gives us an opportunity to repent nowm became a little more lenient in that time so he says okay so burn her but then right before they burn her she says can I speak to Judah for a second he comes to her and he says yes and she shows him his his ring his underwear and his stick because that was the price that the prostitute requested she really requested some sheep but he didn't have sheep with him you don't just carry sheep in your pocket says okay I'll just so give me something and I'll give you and I'll take the Sheep when you come back says okay fine so he gave her these three things but when he came back or actually sent his friend back he couldn't find this prostitute so now when the time came she shows to Judah hey who do these belong to do you know she didn't say hey by the way you Wicked person you're telling me that I'm you're going to kill me you should die look what you did this is yours no she didn't do that from there the tells us that it's better for a person to jump into a fire than to embarrass someone in public we learned this from Tamar Tamar did not want to embarrass Judah she just wanted to have the Messiah come from her but she wanted to give Judah a choice something that most Jews are not being given she wanted him to decide for himself you're either going to be a man of Truth Or Not Judah of course was a man of Truth admitted satam many says she's right she did the right thing it's my [Music] children and from there we know that one of the two sons they had is the lineage of the mashiah I thought the story was wonderful and he tells me I asked him why does the mashah come from such a strange thing he says to me well you know hasem also promised in the same Torah that once the Messiah comes the first thing he's going to do he's going to slaughter the Satan so the Satan knows that that's the his Dooms Day he's going to do everything he possibly can to interfere with the Messiah coming so if you look at the entire lineage of the mhia it's all strange whether it's the site of Ruth which came from the incest between lot and his two daughters or it's David with Beva a Ruth a convert what the mhia couldn't come from a natural born Jew ah but we find out that a a convert is actually considered higher than a natural born Jew according to Hashem some kilot don't agree but I think hashem's right he did all of this in essence to fool the yet I I thought it was an amazing story so I started asking questions and for the first time in my life I'm getting answers but not the kind of answers that Hey listen you like it yes no I ask a question he gives me an answer with a page number a book an author the year was written on the spot but the best part about it is you know because at this time I'm still even though my health is deteriorating my business is deteriorating my go is very high so when I ask him a question he makes my gav even higher he says oh what such a good question you know that Rabbi so and so asked the same question 852 years ago I said of course that's the same question as me what do you mean who was not going to ask the same question as me so then I ask another question he says that's such a great question you know Rabbi so and so asked this question 315 years ago in this book on this page I'm like how do you know the page number like I don't know I just know the page number so I asked another question another I just start creating questions I just want to see when he's going to get something without having an answer he has an answer for everything we speak for an hour and 40 minutes it was an amazing conversation the next week Thursday 4:00 he calls me same thing questions and answers 3 hours next week Thursday 4:00 5 hours next week Thursday four o'clock seven hours and that's the way it continues every Thursday at 4 o'clock an average of six to 7 hours in some cases even longer of questions and answers now when you've looked for qu for for answers your entire life and you finally get answers I never did drugs as I told you but if there was a high that was it and all of a sudden the pain that I'm suffering with doesn't matter money is running out of my door it doesn't matter matter Thursday my world stops rest of the week is terrible but Thursday the week stops r f is calling me everyone knows do not bother me don't call me don't write me don't even expect me to respond I have with r FR and that's the way it started for the first 9 months he gives me every answer to every question that I didn't even know I had and eventually I find out I ask him how do you know all those answers you actually learn all this stuff cuz I asked him questions about science business marriage fruits anything and he had exact explanation said how do you know this stuff said I didn't I said what do you mean you didn't said I never studied any of those things that you asked me I never cared about those questions so how did you know said I would pray before the conversation that I would even know the questions let alone the answers this is what's called special assistance from the one above this is what you get when you try to do kiru when people ask me how is it that you just left Wall Street just a few years ago me I officially closed my business about 2 years ago and now you're giving lectures for a couple of years you have verses you know this you know that I know nothing I prepare no lecture all I know is what Hashem tells me I study I study a lot I try to help a lot of people but zero is deserved by me why because hm said he said this in the book of Jeremiah says if you do chuva this is obviously the English version if you do chuva I'll always accept you you'll stand next to me but if you bring back a wicked person and make him a you make a precious person or a a holy person a righteous person from a wicked person you'll be like my mouth explains what does it mean you'll be like my mouth one part of the explanation is you'll have it'll give you special Torah another part kazal says when a the sages asked hashm what does it mean Hashem responded I created the Heaven and the Earth and I can bring back someone from the dead you will be able to I haven't brought anyone from the dead yet but the point here is that when he told me he didn't know the questions let alone the answers it was unfathomable for me what do you mean you didn't know the questions what do you mean you didn't study this how do you know this stuff I thought I was smart this guy's out of this world so continued studying and little by little he G me gave me more and more of the truth it was only years later that I find out why he specifically chose that story about Judah and Tamar I just thought I just thought that he wanted to tell me about the Messiah I didn't know that he knew that I was married to a non-jew so now I'm starting to study and I tell him listen it's great but uh maybe I should uh maybe we should study for longer he said yes you have to study every day said no no I don't have time for every day just maybe we should study for 8 hours instead of seven says no no no says you have to study for at least 15 minutes every day said 15 minutes we study for 7 hours on Thursday says yes but I rather you cancel the seven hours and replace it with 15 minutes a day just like your body needs to eat every day so does your soul but if you starve your body the whole week and say listen I'm going to eat once a week it's not enough you won't survive you need Torah every day your soul needs to eat I said okay fine I I guess you're serious I'll study 15 minutes a day I started studying 15 minutes turned into a half hour hour and longer little by little I'm losing interest in the business World cuz I'm finding answers but then eventually he calls me and he says listen I just found this K it was a completely not a k but he wanted to give me in a nice way says I found this thing in aor and you have to listen I said what says said that someone that's intermarried is going to lose all of their money and health and blah blah and so on and so forth first two I already got a shock what do you mean he doesn't know what he's talking about this what is he think he's who you think he is he wasn't thinking about me when he wrote that in the zar little do I know be May about this if I eventually grow to be just this foot Nails be be a miracle so I told him how could it be the only reason I'm still here is because of this lovely woman the only thing she cares about is to make me happy she doesn't care about money she doesn't care about anything nothing how could something so right be so wrong how could it be he says that's what he said so I said okay well I have to find out so I started learning more and more about inter marriage the K wasn't really a k was common knowledge it wasn't just in the zor it was in the gar it was in the written Torah it's in it's in practically every single book written by Sage was not a k i was a k for me I just didn't know how bad so now I realize that there's a problem but the only thing is with inter marriage is that you can't just tell someone to stop believing hey you you believe in a stop believe in B just doesn't happen that way if you have a pre-existing belief you can't just stop so what do you do you start learning about their belief and to find out what's wrong with it if they should stop I always thought that Christianity was second best I just thought it was just a remix that's what I would call it they took Judaism and they added something to it you know like the rappers did or the hip-hop guys did with the old music they made it into new songs same thing i' make fun of it once in a while but I thought it was nonsensical I just I didn't think it was fake I started watching lectures I started watching debates Rabbi tovia singer I thought it was amazing I introduced it to my wife she says no he speaks too fast I can't write down what he says I have to look it up I can't do it I said okay fine continued studying but I got I became obsessive I would study till 3 4 5 6 7:00 in the morning 2 days in a row I had to find the truth I knew the Torah was true but I had to find out if this thing is true eventually I see a recommended lecture online called a debate by Rabbi ysep mizi I watched this debate and it was like an atomic bomb fell on my head I've officially discovered that not only is Christianity not second best it's fake it's completely man-made if you look at every single page and I'm not exaggerating every single page of the New Testament you will find an error simple example if you have a book that claims to be a continuation of the first book that means that the second book has to agree with the first book they cannot cont contradict each other which means that the first book can be right without the second book being right but the second book can never be right with the first book being wrong so it says that yov came down to Egypt with 70 people it says it in multiple places in the Book of Genesis as well as in uh Exodus 70 people New Testament says 75 what God forgot five where do the other five come from it also has the wrong address for the wrong City you can verify this just go there it's still there so you start seeing one mistake after another after another after another and offici you realize oh what this has turned into this is turned into life risk this is idol worship this is bad I have to get her out of it forget about me I have to save her so I try to introduce her to this debate she watched the first part it's a three-part lecture about 3 and 1 half hours or so she watches the first part at the end of it she says the rabbi is arrogant and the professor the Christian Professor that teaches pastors and um Reverend and so on is an idiot so the Jew is an arrogant and the Christians you know is an idiot wasn't exactly the response that I was expecting I debate with her for another week just to convince her to watch part two she watches part two few questions a little bit of uh oh but the rabbi is still arrogant and the Christian's still a part three never not watching part three why not can't take it I'll find out on my own so we have to find other ways we continue studying and I realized that there's no way that I can leave her and there's no way she's going to leave me so I start praying to Hashem when you have no choice start praying to Hashem but if you want to pray and actually get some answers start crying doesn't like people that cry he wants to give them what they want like you with your babies so you start crying you start praying you start doing what he wants start keeping Shabbat start keeping kosher start acting like a human being kind of hard in this generation but you have to and I continue and continue and continue and eventually I discover another video It's called Torah and science same Rabbi Rabbi ysf mizaki so I tell listen we like science we're reading this book by Rabbi zamir Cohen we read a couple of pages on Shabbat here and there let's let's watch this Torah and science it's 4 hours three parts again says it's the same arrogant guy says yes the same arogant guy but has to be good by the way later on she becomes his number one fan and has watched every single lecture he's ever made which is Thousands thousands of lectures says fine let's watch part one watch part one at the end of part one our heads are literally coming out of my our bodies Blown Away everything changed we are now 100% certain that Torah is not only from God it's is as Divine as it can be there's information in the Torah scientific information in the Torah that could not have been brought to mankind by mankind it had to be from God simple example God says that you're only allowed to eat a fish that's kosher Kosher fish is a fish that has fins and scales they have to have fins and scales fine there's over 40,000 different types of fish in the world over 2 million species eat the ones with fins and scales seems simple enough but here's a scientific knowledge God says there are going to be some fish that have fins but no scales but you will never find even a single fish that just have scales and no fins this might not seem like a big deal at first Until you realize that this could not be from a human being what do you mean that cannot be a fish with just scales that means you have to know every single fish that ever existed or ever will exist including mutation including altering nature including scientific experiments how you going to know about any fish you live in a desert Moses where's the nearest beach and to this day no one's ever found a fish which just scales and no one ever will and then God says also in order to eat a kosher animal it has to have these two signs has to redigested food its food and it has to have split hoves out of all the species in the world there are several that have these two signs the Sheep the cow deer believe it or not the giraffe those are Kosher animals but there are only four out of all of creation to just have one sign it's either they have two signs or nothing except four four have one sign the pig the herrings the rabbit and the camel those four don't be fooled by them because they have one sign they're still not kosher at the beginning it says okay hasm doesn't like camels he doesn't like pigs he doesn't like the rabbits no is telling you I control nature he's telling you if you found a fifth animal just another one just number five one more animal out of two million species that we know of that as a single sign there's an error in the Torah if there's one error in the Torah it's officially not divine all of Jud Judaism goes into the garbage no one's ever found the fifth animal and nobody never will why because the one who created them is the one that gave him those signs so our heads are blown away we watch part one we see this is information that's unreal it's maybe 2:00 in the morning we're excited we're going to watch part two part two doesn't work I have a little bit of a scratch I have to read a book from the beginning to the end but I don't mean beginning like page one I mean like when they say the credits thank you to my wife and my uh publishing house and the Board of Trustees R by David Feinstein and like everything I have to read the whole book I'm the guy they wrote it for so to skip from part one to part three was like for me it was like a sacrifice like what do you mean part two doesn't work we have to find that one that works I look for an hour an hour and a half I can't find a part two that works so I said okay listen we're already into it let's just watch part three part three is unbelievable even more than part one at the end of it my wife tells me listen I always knew the Torah was real but now even more so I know there's problems with Christianity but I need a sign I need a sign from Hashem that I'm allowed to change I told yes but we learned that you're allowed not only allowed to convert you'll be considered even higher than a Jew a natural born Jew that's why in our amida in our amida there's actually a section in prayer somewhere here I'll tell you in a second where you say you bless you go in an order of significance may all your mercy come to the sadim the ones that haven't sinned the pious the remainder of your nation of the House of Israel which is means like the the highest level the the major the remnant of your Scholars the ones that go to the the ones that are dedicating their life to learn Torah and to those who convert righteously and us us is last Why Us is last because we're the least we're not Moses we're not Abraham we're not the sages we barely even want to keep kosha today so us but you if you notice right before us it comes the righteous converts why does a Torah like righteous converts so much because they had a choice they didn't have to convert they could just keep the seven laws of Noah Anda it's not the samea but it's a very very good one definitely better than this world they have an option but if you see a righteous convert which one of my students that converted recently is in the crowd today if she wants to introduce herself to you you'd be privileged a righteous convert unbelievable they love AEM and willing to give everything for it we don't even want to go to be because it's too far and it's hot outside so that's why the gar says that a righteous convert can sometimes be like a skin disease for the Jewish Nation why a skin disease why a skin disease why righteous convert hm loves them Jews love them why what's the problem says because if the Jew is not righteous enough and the righteous convert is righteous makes the Jew the Natural Born Jew look like he's taking what hasem gave him for granted doesn't look too good annoying like a skin disease come on you had to go to besset at 6:00 in the morning you couldn't go to a normal Manan at 8:30 so my wife wants a sign generally not allowed to ask Hashem for signs but sometimes sometimes you get desperate and you pray a prayer that you wouldn't pray you wouldn't pray normally my wife at that point realized that things can't stay the same meaning we can't stay together under these circumstances but she's not willing to leave she knows I'm not going to leave but if we stay the same I'm going to get an she doesn't want me to go there so she prays to hem an interesting prayer that until this day I still I'm still baffled by it says hem either give me a sign or kill me cuz I won't let him to go to Gom because I can't leave so that's what she prays her prayer has a VIP treatment mine can barely reach the ceiling she gets an answer the next day she wakes up bad mood I'm as excited as can be because I look throughout the entire night without sleeping I finally found part two that works I completely ignore her bad mood and I toally found part two you want to watch we don't have to go to work today let's just watch part two he says fine let's just watch part two in part two RAB y mrai talks about Torah codes Torah codes for anyone who doesn't know is a very very interesting part of the Torah it's knowledge we've had since the beginning but we've only been able to use it over the last generation or so because we needed computers in the old days they were much much smarter than us so they were able to do the stuff in their head today even with a computer we're still not 100% sure of what we're finding but Torah codes will show you Secrets within the Torah they were already there obviously before we knew what we're looking for only thing is with Tor you need to know what you're looking for so for example in the Torah it says where is more if the Torah is divine the gar asks if the Torah is divine where is morai in the Torah if the Torah is divine it's have everything not just what was written during the time of Moses or King David or Solomon but things that happen even after so the gar says you'll find Mori in a sentence that starts with m which talks about the incense offering M doesn't seem like much until you start using Torah codes what Torah codes are is that you have to have if you look for a specific word for example morai you look for morai in the Torah obviously you're not going to find morai because there's no character named Mor in the five books of Moses or even the tanak so you have to use equal mathematical skips between each letter so for example if you want to find the word Moses other than the obvious so you look for if we use English just for hypothetical example you look for the m and then it would have to skip an equal amount of letters before the next letter so for example if it's m and then o well let's say it would be 50 letters and then if you to get to the S would also have to be 50 letters and then again to the E also 50 letters and then to the next s also 50 letters meaning that it would have to be an equal mathematical skip between each one of the letters not just random skip because if it's just random skip you can find anything but if you see that there's an equal mathematical skip then you that there's a pattern it it has type of some type of intelligent design behind it especially when you consider the fact that there are over 300,000 letters in the Torah now when the skip is very small it shows the significance of it but when you look for M and you actually type the word more it actually starts with the m the the me for but the that the computer came up with is 12,196 letters later and the D is another 12,196 letters later and the is another 12,196 letters later seems like ah 12,000 ah this is not this is this is random you could find the same thing in Harry Potter until you find out the 12,196 is the exact number of letters that are inside meat EST that was written after the Torah was written Hashem shows you who he is same thing with Estelle same thing with a still 12,196 characters or letters same thing so we see this part two and then RAB mrai goes to this section of seph Deuteronomy anyone that just reads the literal verse could already see that there's something to it but Torah codes takes it to a different level in chapter 4: 27 it says hem will scatter you amongst the N amongst the people and you will be left few in number among the Nations where hasem will lead you meaning after all the sins we've made hasm is going to scatter us to the four corners of the world and over there we're going to work make become worse there you will serve Gods the handiwork of man so we did bad now we're getting worse but what kind of man-made Gods what kind of handiwork of man the handiwork of man of wood and stone which do not see and do not hear and do not eat and do not smell I anyone thinks about the two leading religions other than Judaism sounds kind of familiar Christianity is symbolized by the wooden cross a handy Mak handywork of man of wood Islam is symbolized by the stone in Mecca big Square Stone they all pray to that's why when they pray even though they fight us for Jerusalem they pray they pray against Jerusalem they pray towards Mecca God of stone but this could be coincidence this could just sound nice my own translation or maybe RAB mra's translation until you go to Torah codes and you look for the names of these false gods when you look for the name Mecca Mecca first word is which is AEM scatter you have the hey you count 49 letters you get to the count 49 letters you get to the me you have the word Mecca inside the same verse inside the verse that said the god of stone then you look for the name of our fellow heretic Jew JC interestingly enough he's also in this verse he's also in this verse likelihood of it being a chance zero same place that Hashem said that one day you're going to worship false gods he also gives you their name to me this was pretty cool I saw some Torah codes before this movie but this was very cool for her this was the sign she converted on the spot took everything covering hair learning everything needed for conversion within a matter of a few months we finished conversion she was already ready willing and able we made sure that everything is closer so the same day she converted that morning we had our and kushim later that night 3 days later we went to Israel and started a new life started doing what Hashem said stop listening to the politically correct world and the more Torah you learn the interesting part is is the less material you care about and you start noticing what's wrong with the world we live in eventually I got to the point where I realized you know what okay hasm gave me talent I could speak maybe I could teach a little bit I don't know that much but I'll try to teach so I started teaching inet 5 10 15 minutes people reacted to it in a very positive way eventually we moved to Florida about 2 and a half years ago or so we moved to Florida I said you know what let me start a class at my house I had one student that same student that I told you about that didn't know he's not allowed to drive to besset on Shabbat it was just me and him and God and the second week just to show you how hasem Works after the first year I didn't tape anything I just was just me and a guy few days later my father went to the hospital he had a uh pneumonia had to have a surgery and to make him happy I said hey Dad you know you always you wanted me to speak you like when I speak and I started a Shure in my house and he was in really bad condition he says listen can you do me a favor and tape it can you video it and send me the video I said yeah sure I'll video it I don't have a video camera so I'll just use my iPad so I use my iPad you know your dad's in the hospital you do whatever you want for him even without but nonetheless you go to the extra mile so I record the second one but then I'm trying to figure out how am I going to send it to him it's 3 gigabytes you can't send that over email so I think about think about a you know what let me just put it on YouTube and then he can just have the link so you presses the link he likes it a lot but then I find out a few days later that 60 70 other people watch the same thing too and started making comments so all right so let's record next week she are also next thing you know people are making more comments she just start recording more shoers and then people start calling to ask me to come to their place and start giving Sho and then people start changing their life and start doing chuva then people want to ask me how to convert and how to do this and how to do that and all of a sudden everything just changed and I started realizing that yeah this fun that I have I'm just going to run it as small as possible to maintain but I really just want to spend my time learning Torah because Hashem needs more Jews he has enough businessmen so I spend more and more of my time learning more and more of my time teaching and then hasem wants me to get one step higher when he loves you he gives you nice tests usually they don't seem too nice if you remember when you read about abrah ainu abrah ainu was he's a big deal he went through 10 tests not one of them any one of us in this room could withstand but he went through 10 of them after the 10th test after the 10th one Hashem said something very interesting so right now AB is being given the test to kill his son for God God said I want your son to be a sacrifice for me in so many words he doesn't ask any questions he's not like us say oh can you show me a source in a Tor that says this God says AB does he wakes up really early the next morning takes his son to the mountain and right when he's about to slaughter his son God says do not stretch out your hand against the lad nor do anything to him for now oh don't don't nor do do anything to him so stop great for now I know that you are a God-fearing man since you have not withheld your son your only one from me so after 10 tests jumping into a fire just to avoid idol worship leaving his parents' home into a town he didn't even know existed one after another and eventually kill your own son and he says don't do it because now I know you fear me that's the highest compliment Abu got during his life now I know you fear me why you didn't know first nine tests now you know I fear you yes why because is a very very big compliment people in our generation think that is a negative thing no I don't want to fear God I want to love him kazal has news for you and me kazal says the highest level of the highest level there's levels of the first level is just fearing of punishment I don't want to go to have a million surgeries like this guy that's the highest level that's the lowest level of of fear of hem you just fear of punishment the high level of fear of hem is fear like a relationship between a husband and a wife I don't want the relationship to get hurt I'm not scared that my wife's going to beat me up I'm not scared that my husband is going to yell at me I just don't want to tarnish the relationship that's why I'm not going to do XYZ so when you start fearing hurting the relationship with hem that is the highest level of that's not love kazal says it's the beginning of Love meaning the highest level of fear of Hashem is just the beginning stages of loving him so anyone that's trying to skip fearing hem you have to skip abah ainu first it's not possible K says that a connection with hasem that's only based on fear is an incomplete connection but a connection nonetheless a connection with AEM that's only based on love is no connection at all because it cannot exist you cannot love something when you don't know what it is and if you knew even a little bit about God of course you're going to fear him so to finish off I'll give you the most important musar scale that we can get from this converting becoming more righteous trying to become more righteous trying to teach trying to recruit more Jews in a best way I know how to which is the same way that Hashem did it just repeating what he says and not skipping the other half of the Torah that nobody wants to read Hashem told us that in order for us to connect to him we have to fear Him and any time we question that he gave us a test when we left Egypt after all of the plagues and punishments and how he destroyed the biggest civilization in the world and turned to Slaves into the Masters still had a saf still had problems with their they weren't sure can you show me a source in the Torah that it says this where does it say this Rabbi where does it say this weren't sure they saw Miracles like we see every day but because God's not speaking to us from a burning bush we're not sure you don't need to look too far to find a miracle you could look just in a mirror you have the best camcorder that ever existed it's called your eyes it remembers everything it always stays clean it always protects itself without you pressing any buttons it expands it contracts exactly when it needs to and it's thinner than a balloon if it was actually a technology it would be Priceless if someone that was a multi-millionaire lost one of his eyes he'd give every single penny he has just to get another one so everyone here is a multi-millionaire because you have two eyes if you heard about Steve Jobs before he died wasn't exactly the most righteous man but he was very rich before he died he had cancer and somehow he skipped the line and got a liver transplant got himself a few more years until Hashem decided that's enough but the interesting thing is that he had at least 10 billion at least 10 billion it's a lot of money got him to skip the line got to get a little bit more time how much is it worth after you're in a grave nothing the reality of it is that if you see his letter what he wrote before he died he tells everyone how much now he realizes that all of his Ambitions and all of the money and all of the success that he has is worthless and he should have been more spiritual and closer to this creator that people talk about when a man want is about to meet his maker they start fearing him we don't need to wait for that CU hasm already wrote it for us a few times it's all over our prayer it's all over it's right after the Exodus when we left Egypt we had a problem with we thought that the Miracles were given so we got to yam got to the Sea of reeds the angel of MIT which his name is MIT actually says to hasem why should you split the ocean for these and not split it for my uh Egyptians okay I know my Egyptians are worshiping idols but the N also worshiped Idol just a week ago so hasem didn't split the ocean we got there nothing happened then looked behind and they see the Egyptians they get scared Moses starts crying to Hashem because the people are crying they're petrified some of them want to commit suicide some of them want to fight until death and some of them want to go back to being slaves no one knows what's going on everyone is scared and petrified Moses cries to Hashem Hashem says what are you screaming to me for move forward what do you mean move forward where am I going to move Shem is telling him I can't split the ocean for you you've used up your credit your MIT to get here but according to my stamp of a according to my tah you've used it all up right now it's an even balance which means that you have to do something to show me you believe not just tell me you believe stop just kissing the mza and the seph Tora and start reading what it says and do it show me your move forward so from the tribe of Judah says if Hashem brought us all the way here obviously there's a reason I have to show him I belief so he walks into the water all the way into the water pass his nose and that's when Hashem splits the ocean why he showed Hima but after we split the ocean he killed the Egyptians the Egyptian bodies show up it says this on that day this is Exodus 14:30 on that day Hashem saved Israel from the hand of Egypt and Israel saw the Egyptians dead on the seashore Israel saw the hand of Hashem that Hashem inflicted upon Egypt and the people revered Hashem and they had faith in hem and in Moses his servant anyone that prays knows we read this every day what's the big deal this is your four steps to it says here meaning and Israel saw what do they saw what finally they saw something they didn't see a hand there's no hm doesn't have a a body or any image of a body or anything like that they notice that hasem hand is involved in everything they find finally recognized aem's significance if we want to believe in him first we have to know what he is how significant he is how he's in control of everything the molecules in our body the proteins that need to fold in a precise way in ourselves our parasa our marriage our love life our happiness our everything notice he exists that's what they did they saw the great hand that hasm inflicted upon Egypt so what happened as soon as we notice him immediately once we notice that Hashem exists and we realize that he's in control of everything the very next word is and the people revered AEM immediately when you know that Hashem is real you have to be scared if you're not scared of something wrong with you it's not a fear like you're scared of a monster under your bed when you're 6 years old it's a respectful fear it's a holy fear it's a fear of the almighty he's the king of all Kings if you have fear of hem you'll act accordingly if you don't you'll also act accordingly who steals the one that has no fear the one who doesn't think he's going to get caught no thief in the world thinks he's going to get caught who cheats the one who doesn't get think he's going to get caught Who Lies the one who doesn't think he's going to get caught which means that anyone that's doing anything wrong doesn't think there's a God that's watching everything they may say they believe in their heart but their actions speak different because if they really believed in my God the same God that created everything he watches everything he's not limited he cares about whether you do he cares about whether you do K he cares about whether you show up to the Manan he cares about whether you learn to off 15 minutes or 16 minutes he cares about everything that's why he wrote it if he didn't want you to know it he put it in a mystical book that most people don't even know how to read called the Z the cabala Centers do not teach the Z by the way they teach heresy nonsense people that learn zor have to know the entire written or Tora practically by heart to even qualify to learn Z why did hasm put it there cuz that's for special people that qualify average people us he gave us everything we need to know once we know he's real when we pay attention that he's in control of everything we'll stop stealing we'll stop violating we'll start becoming more like human beings we won't yell at people because we know that hasm doesn't like anger we start becoming better people and then it says after we fear Him what happens next after they saw his hand after they finally recognize that he exists they immediately became scared then you can say then you can say yes now they have now they believe in him you can't have belief in something you don't even know once you have the fear then you can start talking about and once you have the it says and they believed in him and in Moses his servant why was it so significant forem to have us believe in Moses's servant because another name for Moses that everyone knows him by including the go is mosu Moses our Rabbi once we notice the hand of God then we fear him once we fear him then we can have amuna in him at all times once we know that he's real and we have amuna in him at all times then we're going to start listening to the sages that gave us the explanation of what Hashem said we're going to start listen listening to our holy rabbis that actually tell us the truth not the ones that just wants to come this is one of the most important parts that any Jew needs to know and that's why it's inside your knew that we need to learn this every day not just once a year during so they put it in the prayer the most Jews still do if they're observant because they know amuna is something you have to work on when you have nothing else matters finalize my story when Hashem wanted me to just focus on this and focus on getting people to come back to to him he wanted to make sure I have no distractions so that little business that I had left little fund that I have he took that too he says now you're not going to just tell people about amuna now you're going to live on amuna Miracle for miracle month to month you have no idea where is coming from because we don't charge for lectures we don't ask people for donations unless they want to on their own be you know by themselves and you have zero left except the debt and bankruptcy you just declared you can't just teach people stuff you have to live it why we're at the end of days there's not that much time left we all have to do chba and it's better you listen to me from my story than Hashem talked to you cuz I'm a little funny he doesn't joke around any questions [Music] [Applause]