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when Yitkak had become old and his eyes dim from seeing that he summoned Asa of his older son and said to him my son and he said to him here I am I've aged don't know when I'm going to die and uh bring me uh food that I can bench you on this idea that Cavinu became old and his eyes dim from seeing Rashi offers three interpretations source two one from the smoke of the insect and said that Asov's wives offered to their idols. We're not touching that today. Two, when Yitkak laid bound on the altar at the Aada, the ministering angels leapt over him. The tears fell into his eyes and dimmed them. And three, this was the way that ensured that Jacob would get the braha because he wouldn't know who he's blessing. Right? This is classic and we're going to see more interpretations uh in a in a in a minute. So the question that we're going to ask ourselves today source number three is this is the experience a father is ready to give his child at the Andria, which is ultimately why we're here on planet Earth. Why are they crying? This is the ultimate, right? The tears don't make sense. When they saw this was such an incredible experience, they're crying. This is a time of time of joy. Oh, >> so you could answer the tears of happiness. That's an approach. And then we're all going to leave. But I drove here for an hour, so I am staying. You live nearby. You can leave. I'm staying. Other questions that we're going to touch on, and each of these questions deserve its own space. I want to just touch on them. In source number four, Rev Desler, how could it be that Jizak prefer Asov to Yakov? Further, how why is it that Hashem wanted that Jacob should obtain the blessing by deceit rather than in a straightforward manner? Like this is crazy. Just given the braha the way it should be. What? Given like why was he given the braha this way? And further finally the end of source 4 when Jacobu comes in Pik tells us he smelled the smell of his clothing and Rashi tells us that Rayaken the smell of Ganaden entered within parentheses here. This is a parenthesis. What was the smell of Ganaden that he smelled? So Kazelle tell us it was tapin the smell of the apples of the field based on this theor point out that there's an inan to eat apples Friday night that apples are the ray tapin Friday night is the time of this higher level of ganeden it's this time of braha you will find many people midnight. Any of you here have a midnight te compot on Friday night? Yeah, I have some people raising their head. This is and this firm say now hold on tight to this. >> It is a school for a for wealth because it's a braha. And I will tell you personally in my life, this is a personal story that uh when I saw this many years ago, I saw this piece. I started serving apples Friday night. And my members of my family were a little bit um like imma, everything you read, you're going to what >> pera >> perosa. And I held my ground and I said, you know, this is a core issue here and even though it may not be appealing to you, I it is uh it is what I'm going to do. And I want you to know, and this is this is a true story. >> A few months later, without requesting it, my boss doubled my salary. >> They have stopped making fun of me. Now they serve apples [laughter] in their homes. >> What' you say? >> It took him a few months. You know what? Some people are not we for braha right away. It's it's my limitation, not his. What's the connection between this? >> It's again the smell of the apples. >> Why does it translate into why perfka? I don't know. But you know what? I'm not asking and I and I I'm okay with it. [laughter] Okay. That had nothing to do with anything. I can see you walk out of here. What did you learn today? Apples. She spoke about apples. I don't know what else she spoke about, but that's what I walked away with. Okay. And if anyone wants to see the source inside, I don't I don't mind showing it to them if you have uh critical people at home. Um, okay. I knew where I was. I I'm back on the program. Rashi tells us, "Don't read it. Read it. Bogdav, the traitors." And he tells the story of this famous trader Yoseph Mashra who uh went in at the time of the said to him go in to the B mikdash a Jew and take whatever you want and he comes out with what the minora and they said uh it's not appropriate for a simple person to have the minora go back in and take something else out and he said I angered my creator once I'm going to anger him again and he was tortured to death and died on keshashem and when yak when yitzkavu sense that traitors like this were going to come out of this caliber of chuva he says you're worthy of what you're worthy of the braha how does this all fit in so again each of these questions is a sheer in its own right but we're going to touch on them okay my friends there are three levels today hashem again I preface it with what I prefaced it last week just like last week we didn't speak about suru even though we were speaking about suru we are speaking about jitskavu but I am not speaking about jetskavu which means who am I to even speak about someone of such a great caliber uh one of the kadoshim whatever we're saying is just for us to be able to have a medium of growth and learning but in no way am I making sense okay good [cough and clears throat] in migill source five assurum it's user to stare at a person who's a Russia a wicked person and if you do your eyes will become dim and this is because We learned this from Yutsakavinu because he had this relationship with Asa who was an Adam Russia. He was pretty bad. Yeah. Um he uh his eyes became dim. Then the gumra goes on and says if we can turn off our phones that would be helpful. That wasn't the gum. That was me. Yeah. There's another reason why his eyes became dim and that is you got you can't take the curse of a simple person lightly and this is in its own right when he found out that Sur Mayu was really married and not a brother and sister he said to her I'm giving you the covering of the eyes which say was a curse that just like you duped me, you will be duped. And that's why's eyes were dimmed. Not Yoseph of Yoseph Salans in source number 6A and 6B. The two are they work together, which means I'm on the bracket of 6A bottom of the page. Haditu really known the rishious the wickedness of Asov, he would be staring at him. Why didn't he know the riches of Asov? Was because of what? because he was under the curse of Avi and he really thought that what he was a sadic and it's a mida just like aime thought they were husband and wife and not what I mean they were brother and sister not husband and wife so too thought that as was really a bigger sadic than he was and because of this curse he wasn't able to see the truth and so to speak his eyes were blinded. Therefore, he did stare at his son and therefore this was the repercussion. Now I want to add here a piece in source number eight and I'm going to preface this piece as well. We all of us sitting here are under western mindset. Western mindset means that we need to be able to understand something, figure it out, have it make sense, and if it doesn't, we say what? >> We discard it. We discard it. Like, oh, come on. Do you know what I mean by that? So, here is an example of this. I'm going to say something and you're going to say to me, please. And I'm going to say to you, open yourselves up and step out of Western mindset. And we're going to see this more than once today. Ready? Source eight. When the says you can't stare at the demon in Adam and I will tell you there are people who when they look at the news will be careful not to look at pictures of kamas members. >> Yes ma'am. >> The forc. >> Wow. Right. Again, the the forcing these to look them in the eye. There is something about it. Thank you for sharing. The marsh explains a commentator on the gum. Why aren't you supposed to look at them? This is here goes aluma on the Russia is a a force of impurity and he says it will impact you. You know in our day and age of COVID we can appreciate this more like there is something called in the physical world um um infection. I'm looking for uh contagious. Yeah, things that are contagious. Do I see this uh these molecules flying around here? I don't. Yeah. Pregnant women not going to the zoo is an excellent example. 100% 100%. Listen closely. When we look at our eyes, our eyes aren't the ones that are seeing [snorts] double underline. Just like a window takes in the rays of sun. I will never say that the window itself emits sunlight. It doesn't. It's just a what? A medium with which to give over the sunlight. Likewise we say what really sees our head our mind. You know how they say the windows the eyes are the windows of the soul. It's our our mind that's seeing. It's our mind that's apprehending and our eyes are just that medium. And therefore he says when a person stares at an it's going to affect you on a spiritual level and he says this is what if somebody says to themselves where did I get these strange thoughts from like I'm suddenly thinking about things I never thought about before or have desires for things I never had desires about. All right. Question amuna. Ask yourself what were you or who were you looking at most recently and you have no idea how that can what affect you. Now I am not saying to you don't walk out of here saying okay stay in bed all day put the covers over your head. What I am saying is that we can choose what we look at and how we look at it. And even if you see something, it doesn't mean you have to what? >> Stare at it. >> What' you say? >> I can't see without my glasses. I can't hear. Yeah. >> Oh, you're saying the relationship is different. Now I'm back to you. You're As Yeah. Yeah. How could as look at look at his own son? Yeah. Yeah. It's it's it's a hard time with this. Yeah. I agree with you. Yeah. >> Is known as right in some ways >> Jacob is Yeah. >> projected his own holiness. >> Beautiful. We're gonna get to that. You're 100% correct. You're 100% correct. You're You got it. That's from Tesla. I'm gonna ask you to hold, but you're right. Yeah. Would loss of hearing more impactful? >> Would loss of hearing be more impactful than eyesight? Your question is an excellent question and it's a complicated question because the dimension of seeing and the dimension of hearing are very different. Um uh yeah, they're very different. We are more impacted with sometimes with what we see even though with what we hear is more. It's interesting. I'll just make mention of this and I'm gonna leave this and I'm leaving this. I'm not I'm almost leaving this. I'm not yet leaving this. The garra in Talmud Bavi will say tashma come and hear. The garra will say come and see. >> That's an interesting distinction. The gullus is to hear and Israel is to see. What you make of it I'm leaving to you but the the question is good. Okay. Yes. >> Rabbi says that when one hears it is a process multiple process. So your brain has to take in what you need to put on your glasses and then you need to put it together but it's right there immediate. It's in front of you even though it's an interpretive process as well but so that could also be >> I play here. Good. I'm just going to make mention because I I want to move here in 10 and 11 that if that is the case with seeing someone who's a Russia flip it over when you see a of the kadusha and you see that you know with little kids in a in a crib they often put uh pictures of sadikim right because this is what impacts you and he says even more so if it's sadik looks at you what an impact it has on you and who you are and and this is an important idea is when you bring your children grandchildren great grandchildren socos to sadikim you you know, they're saying they're three years old. What are they gaining? The answer is a lot. And it's interesting is that on the Sunday class, somebody was saying that they remember Bry was saying that she remembers when she was three or four years old, her father bringing her to Rebbitson Pal's mother. And he said to the children, he says, "I want you to look at the face of the Shina." And we're talking about many years later, we're not giving away ages here. Many years later, she says she still remembers that face and what an impact it made on her. So, it's never too young to bring children to see what this is what creates your sham. This is what creates that that feeling of wow, there's something bigger and better. Okay, I finished that parenthesis. Now, I'm back to the program. There's another aspect of of being blinded and bribery that Asov did to Yakov and that's source 12 and that's the p that says the surv from Miami Infinity of Torah bribery blinds the eyes of the righteous the medish explains the gifts of food that Asa brought to Yitzk blinded him to Asaf's true character and he lost his physical vision as well so Ravik here says something very special he says what type type of bribery are we talking about here? To go over a judge and say, "Here's $1,000. Make sure you judge my case appropriately." Hopefully, no judge would what? Any judge worth their salt would what? >> Would not take it. So, what type of bribe are we talking about? Listen to what he says here. It's a case I'm on the end of 12 where the guy says, "Look, this case is very important to me, and I care very deeply about making sure your verdict is correct. If I'm really in the right, then I want to make sure I win. And if I'm wrong, they certainly want to rule against me because the truth is so important to me. I'd like to pay you so you can devote your time to really studying my case. Now, what happens at that moment? Let's flip the page um the next page and then we'll find out what happens. By professing his commitment to the truth, the litigant portrays himself as a righteous man. Unlike an effort to corrupt a judge, which would likely result in judge throwing the book at him, here the judge will subconsciously begin to reason this guy must be right. Why? Because he really cares about justice and truth. That is why this type of bribe is so insiduous as to be capable of blinding a judge to the truth. It's also why Asav's bribes were so successful in misleading his father. Asa presented himself to Aavino as a man of virtue and piety, a pretense accepted and that ultimately cost him his ability to see. So we're saying here a little bit different than the original medish even though I'm going to get back to this of Rashi that Yitakavinu was blinded by his sons through bribery. But it's a different type of bribery than we would normally understand. What's the message for us? That's what I want to speak about for a few minutes because if we don't bring it to our lives then we're very limited and that is says Mishk in the bracket source 14. One of the greatest impedments for us to come close to Hashem. Shalom. You know what our biggest problem is? We don't introspect enough. We don't ask ourselves enough, why did I do what I did? What could I have done? What should have I done? We have to know ourselves. And that when we do certain things, we have to be able as, as I often like to say, name it to tame it. That if I know what is going on within me, then I can what? I can control it. I know that this is anger right now. And I know that you trigger me. Oh, okay. I still may get angry, but at least I know I have what to what to work with. I'm aware of myself. So many of us just go through life on a what an automatic pilot. And we never ask ourselves, what could I have done differently? You know the example that I like to give which is a practical example is being on the phone when you're checking out let's say barol y whatever and you're not using the machine you're using a person what you're basically doing is treating the person like a what like a machine so at the end of my day when I look back I say you know what I really didn't treat this person correctly you know what I'm going to try to go back another day and daffa even if it's a longer line go to am I making sense this person and say good morning try to compliment them whatever it is I've thought about it I'm using this as a metaphor yeah it's not just a checkout lady it's it's life so we don't check out and we're present we try uh the circle aster We're blinded by [clears throat] ourselves. And uh and he says in 15, this is not just like major. We have to constantly work on ourselves. and he says, "This is a brahaloy. I always have a an inn to uh promote. If anyone still doesn't have this, this is found in in this book." And and if you haven't, then you know, I'm sure you've given out to every one of your friends. Now, make new friends. Um shaloo. We say every morning. Why do we say every morning? Either we're born as a yid or I decide at a certain point in my life I'll become Jewish. Why do we say it every morning? And the answer is the Look at yourself. Has any goes kite entered into me? Have I been affected by the world around me? In what way? In my language, you have your finger on the pulse. And most of the time, it's like that type of bribery RW was talking about. It's insiduous. We don't even know it's what it's entered into us. And uh and he says if a person is at this level of being really you know conscious of oneself it's so much easier to nip it in the bud than if one is allows it to to tarry. This is basically idea in source number 18 of the misar of zeros the concept of watchfulness that man must be careful in his deeds and his dealings. In other words, he should contemplate his deeds and his ways to see if they're good or not. He must be extremely cautious at all times and take her actions seriously. How are we to achieve this? Well, consider the behavior of a person carrying a priceless crystal ball, well aware that dropping it would mean the destruction of a false small fortune when exercises maximum caution avoids unnecessary risk. Contrast his behavior with that of a person holding a worthless trinket. The latter will hardly take his burden as seriously as the former. By the same token, when we stroll down a quiet street, we feel little need for special precautions. But when we navigate a tight rope where fools moves moves means injury, mutilation, or death, the caution level skyrockets. Anyone here ever been on a tight rope? I have a little secret to tell you. Our whole lives are [clears throat] what? A tight rope? >> What' you say? Kesher mode and and we all know here we all know here whether we've done it or we've experienced it one comment one can hurt somebody. Do you know what I mean? We're walking a tightroppe. We don't know the people in front of us. We don't know what's triggering them. We don't know how one thing we say. So clearly we don't know, we can't. But when we do know, and when we should be, let me try to say this one more time because I really want to get this through. I'm going to try one more time. We are responsible for our actions. Do we take this responsibility and accountability seriously? everything we say, everything we do and people watch us and we have to live up to that. Now he takes this one step further and he says in this life this is Ravakovillo in the asterisk there is no place for instinctive or impulsive movement when we run we must know why we're running man's not animal actions must be controlled rather than spontaneous they must be carefully checked and double checked. Are they good? Are they bad? What are where are they leading us? You ever watch little kids? You'll have this one little kid. We're talking about five, six years old. They're going to start running and then you have all of their little buddies what run after them. Where are they running to? The answer is nowhere. So then they stop and they start to giggle and everyone else stops and they start to giggle. Right? Because you know the kids are thinking they're running somewhere and they're running where? Nowhere. The problem is when we never grow up. >> Was this too harsh? a little bit. Oh, >> it's real. It is real. It is. It's It's important that we have to awareness, understanding, analysis, control. These are the ingredients of life properly lived intellectually, no one could disagree. 28. When we live this type of awareness, we gain on the bottom of this page another level. When you're living this way, you're able to also access the kaduca around you. You're able to take in and watch people who are doing amazing things and say what I want to be like them. I want to learn from them. So living a life of awareness on the one hand means that we have to be more careful of our own lives. And living a life of awareness means that we're able to take in from around us such amazing qualities such great things that we become a different person. And the example that he gives the end of this page in 21 on the next page is the idea of this individual who went into the basa mdash. The punovich asks in the asterisk in 21. I don't get it. He goes into the basa mdash and he takes out a minora. So if he's on this level to walk into the base of Mikdash, has no convulion to take out the minora. So how does he change so suddenly to say no no no I'm not going back in. And to be ready to be tortured to death and the answer is somebody tell me >> very good. Excellent. Exactly. When he walked we're okay. >> That's okay. when he walked into the base of Mikdash that impacted him he when he went in there that changed him as a person and that experience of being in the made him a what a different person he says I can't go back in now >> the minor itself is that enlightenment and light and yeah this is what it's about you do you understand That do you know how much kaduca is around us? Do you know how much we can take in from places and people that we can become different people? Ashenu this is amazing. We have to be open for it. We have to want it. We have to be ready for it. Now I'll just add one more nakuda here and then we'll end this first level and that's rabbi friend. When we're talking about negos and bias he says in source number 24 in the language of Torah literature this kind of hidden agenda is called ngia subjectivity subconscious forces are constantly at work in our minds and heart steering us in directions not necessarily of our conscious choosing. And this is what I want us to understand. So when I say yes, I have to be aware and control and not just run nowhere. And I have to be, you know, again, mindful of the decisions that I make. At the same time, realize that we're all under a bias and a guillos. were incessantly swayed by considerations of financial gain, personal honor, love, hate, resentments, envy, ambition, and even if we're weren't aware that it's happening by their constant probing of the underlying mo motivations of the people in the Torah, the Torah is letting us know NIOS always affects behavior. Every decision we make, everything that we do, this is intense today, is instigate. Well, it's intense every week, so I can't say that. It's instigated by reasons within reasons. You're the one coming back. I have to come back. You don't have to. Instigated by reasons within reasons and motives within motives. But often we don't realize it. Bribery blinds the eyes of the wise. We're in a constant state of being bribed by our subconscious, which seeks to gain advantage of which we're not even aware of. And he says, "Sometimes you hear people say, "Look, I admit I'm not no gay. I'm biased, but I'm telling you that this information I'm giving you is pure and simple truth. I can assure you, my friends, that what? It's everything but they themselves won't recognize the pure and simple truth." They were staring them in the face. The measure of personal greatness is the extent of a person's ability to rise above his hidden agendas. How do you do this? notes in 25. A three-prong solution. One, learn muser that you're able to see something and objectively think about it. Two, having a mentor. And three, a good friend who's able to say, "What were you thinking?" You know, this is really what was drawing you. Now, let's go back to our original medish. And I went to the next page 27 back to Yrau. Why was he so affected by Asaf? Why wasn't he able to see and make this calculation? Why didn't he say to again I'm not talking about Jitzk but I am talking about why wasn't he able to say is he really who he seems to be? Why wasn't he able to probe deeper? The answer is the tears at the aa. Listen to Rav Schwab's 27. The medish is based on a pusk in Yeshaya. The puss says, "Angels cried out openly. Messengers of peace wept bitterly." That's the puss that they learn it from. The second half of the puss, messengers of peace, wept bitterly is the key to understanding this mysterious medish. Like all angels, these messengers of peace messenger angels were created to fill one mission only. Thus, one can afford that these angels of mercy were the personification of shalom, intensely compassionate, incapable of looking critically at any event. When these angels saw the aeta, they cried. Their tears and manifestation of their extreme compassion fell into Yakrainu's eyes, changing his worldview. So it's not literally that the tears fell into his eyes, but that he was influenced by the angels. It became that of these messengers of peace and mercy showing only good in others. This is why Yakov's old age was became incapable of seeing any fault in Asub and was prepared to bless him despite his shortcomings. He was blinded. He was blinded to only see the what? The good. So that's one understanding of that medish that the angels impacted him to only see good and when you only see good you're not even open to what that critical eye of saying is there another part to this and that was from the yeah Right. Right. So again, Ravaria Lavina who saw Tammy >> I'm repeating it. Ravaria Lavina who saw a Talmid who wasn't wearing a keepa and and the Talmid was feeling a little bit uh uncomfortable and Rabari said, "I'm short. I can't see the top of your head." Right? So that's having a good eye. That's the good eye. And at the same time, you know, everything is in balance. Byu, it was to the extreme because the angels of peace only saw positivity. That's level one. Level two is the Shere. No, no, no. Let's look at this totally different, my friends. They're not crying about the per se. They're crying about themselves. They're crying how we can't reach this level. Wow. What a human being can achieve. involved and we can never achieve this. What was the tears? What impact did it have onu? It was the tears that showed this is the purpose of this world to madim and that the more that you struggle and the more that you you know like the and you're able to give up the greater you are. And hence you understand why when he saw prophetically these traitors he says they should be blessed because that was the message of the angels. And now we can appreciate why he loved more loved as more. Why? Because as was a person of struggle. He was a person of struggle. This is Ravesa which you mentioned before. Here we go. Of course knew both of his children. He was but what else did he know? He knew that Jacob was a sadik of complete inwardness. He doesn't need braha. He is able to manage on his own. Who needs braha? Who needs help? The underdog needs help. Right? You don't have tutoring for a kid who's flying in school. You have tutoring for a kid who's what? Who's struggling? Yik knew that Asv was different than Yakov in 31. He knew that ASV was an outward person. He believed, however, that Asov, like Yeitzak himself, was engaged in a continual battle with the lower external aspects of his character. What he did not know was that Asov had of his own free will virtually extinguished that spark. And this is the idea the zoro speaks about of matzah mean adminoitu saw in asav a real reflection of what of themsself and he saw in him. Wow. Just like I learned by the aada the tears of the angels that what is so beloved to hashem which the angels can't reach is when we struggle down here. I want to bless Asa because this is a personification of one who who struggles. Now why this is so important my friends is going back to what I began with today. Western civilization is very into the end product. And you know, I remember when my kids were were younger, they would read these books and they would say, "Ema, why do all the books have to end happily after? They all get married. They all get better. They all have whatever. It's the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Why can't any of these books be real life?" Do you hear the question? Not that none of them are, but you know what I'm talking about. Because in the western culture when you struggle there's something what? Something wrong with you? You're a failure. You mean you haven't achieved 14 letters after your name by the age of 12? I mean like hello. Okay. A little bit. And Yiddish kite and this is very important. Yiddish kite. It's not about the final result. That's it. You hit the word. It's about process. Because you know what the final result is? What? >> It's It's not only irrelevant. It's even more than that. >> It's not in your control. It's never in your control. We all know this. We've invested in something with all of our being and then it turned out to be It could be a a banana cake. It doesn't have to be anything. So, uh, have any of you made a cake and spent a lot of time on it and then didn't come out? Yeah, of course. And I use that as a metaphor. You know, I say this personally in a very deep sincere way. Preparing the shirim is can't find a good word to describe it. Brutal. >> That's a good word. Brutal is a good word. [clears throat] It's It's really It's hard. It's really hard. It's really hard. I'm not complaining. This wasn't complaint. It was just reality. I need to do with Desmaya and a lot of it, all of it, the best I can. How a she will come out, I don't know. And that's all. Will people be able to hear it? How will they be able to hear it? They'll like it. They won't like it. They'll grow. They won't grow. Not in my hand. And you know what, my friends? I have a little secret to tell you. When you're able to step out of trying to be in control of the results, you're living a much, you want to give me the word healthier, happier, what word are you going to use? >> Calmer life. because I'm not in control. And I have a little secret to tell you parathetically. We are not in control of >> anything. >> And I just Yes, ma'am. >> I just wanted to say something yesterday and >> this and this was an act of God. >> What What is not an act of God? Everything is Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Just this is it. This is it. This is where it's at, right? I just taught this piece yesterday. [clears throat] I can't tell you where, but I just taught this yesterday of maybe more than once where Mosenu was by the and Hashem asked him, "What's in your hand?" And he answered, "A mata, a staff." And Raikki has such a beautiful piece in your hayam and he says, "You think what's in your hand is a staff. A staff is a symbol of control of leadership, right? You know what's in your hand? Mate as nitia. The only thing in your hand is how you respond to life situations. What happens to you, nothing is in your control. The only thing is in your control is your response to what happens in life. Now why I'm bringing this here my friends is the following rabbi friend again listen to your messages once wrote to him about his frustrations in the spiritual realm I'm in 33 did I say that I'm tired I try so hard but I don't see myself getting any better I don't see growth it's such a difficult struggle never give up wrote back that's what it's all about the battles the struggles that's what sadi what do you think the public means that sadi gets up even No, he falls. No is teaching the way to rise is through repeated falls. You become a sadic by falling down and rising. You grow from the experience to become a better person. Growth comes from struggle. It's not automatic. You can't coast and grow. You got to fight to grow. You got to struggle to grow. You may lose the battles, but you're going to win the war. And here the very famous piece of ravutner sats he bemoaned these biographies that describes sadikim as being perfect from >> from day one. They did nagasar by age one and they learned all mishayas by age five. They never fought with their brothers and sisters. They wrote the first safer by age of 10. Like this isn't real. This isn't realistic. And and we know that, you know, certain books have been banned because they painted a what a real picture and and they got banned. But the real picture is something that I can what I can relate to that I did fight with my brother and sisters. I confess who didn't listen to this shot. It's a galdic shot in 34. We say this is one of the in our chauffeur in Russ not too early for rash puk says vaner 34 and those who are lost in the land of usher will come prophets about messianic times and those who are displaced in the land of Egypt. So ask coins who's farther removed one who's lost or one who's displaced. So obviously the one who's displaced is closer than the one who's lost. So why is the one who's lost in usher is he coming back the usher he's coming back first before the tribe and he says what's the difference and again this is a metaphor the land of usher and the land of Egypt were different. Usher was a country of rocky sear ararid hills where farmers had to struggle and scrape to being forth the bounty of the lamb. But Egypt was a bread basket. You planted in the Rome uh l rich rich lome of the Nile River overflowed. You'd harvest it. If you're lost in the land of Usher, declares the prophet. If your life has been a spiritual struggle, if it's been a spiritual battle, if you've had to fight your Yates, it'll be easier to bring you back even if you lost the battle. But if you're in the land of Egypt, if you did not struggle against the Yates, it will hard will be harder to bring you back. And my friends, this is so true of the world we're living in today. We are in the in the land of pleasures. It's hard to bring her back. And the [clears throat] katuim are an example of this, too. Struggle brings people back. Now, my friends, we're up to the third level, which is my favorite. I always leave it for the last. Not always. Sometimes. Here we go. See, that was self-reflection. Was I telling the truth? Not always. I have to correct myself. Oh, she stopped talking out loud. Here we go. Where was I? Third level. Now I know where I am. First level. The tears of the angels blinded him from only seeing good message for our lives. We are all affected by bribery. And we have to try to peel away the layers. Why did I say this? Introspect. Live a life of awareness. Be careful who we see. both ways and how kaduca can impact me in such an amazing way too the tears of the angels were their own frustration why can't we grow to this extent people are so special that humans with struggle can be able to overcome their struggles and reach the levels of aa the levels of sacrifice how come we can't do that Three is revolski. Here we go. 35. What is sight? To better understand the terrorist concept of blindness, let's examine the faculty of sight. Solume is teaching us the ability. The wise man has eyes in his head while the fool walks blindly. Seeing is the essence of his wisdom. And that's the difference between animals that can see and respond, but they're limited to what they're wired. Humans have the ability to both physically and rationally see in double squiggly. He can see based on the present situation what the future holds in store and plan accordingly. Determine his future through the power of sight which makes him godlike. So what is special about sight that we have the ability to foresee and to plan and to understand like you know we say I see what you're saying which is really I was I I understand what you're saying. But my friends, there's a higher level and that is man and cattle are saved by God. Rabbi Elazar Yehuda said in the name of Ra, this refers to people who possess full wisdom yet depreciate themselves to the level of cattle. What does this mean? Although he's very wise, he abdicates his wisdom in the face of Hashem's wisdom. He does not do this because he believes his own wisdom to be deficient or because he would rather not have to think. No, he recognizes when he has stretched himself to the limits of his own wisdom. >> What' you say? >> He's then able to give it over to the shalom. A rau found Hashem. Next page 38 was the next step by being ready to be offered as a sacrifice. The antithesis of any conclusion at which a person could arrive with his own wisdom became the paradigm of denigrating. Denigrated is a hard word oneself to a level of cattle in the face of Hashem's wisdom. He stood on top of Arainu's intellectual shoulders and saw what is above that Hashem's wisdom. This is the meaning of Yesu's blindness. After the aada the light by which he was being led was vastly superior to his own and his own eyesight quote unquote retired. This is the meaning of Rash's explanation. The tears of the angel decllet blindness. Tears are an expression of something that's beyond comprehension and grasp such as joy or grief that cannot be expressed in words. Although angels are the ultimate beings of comprehension, the AA was such an incomprehensible act that even they could only respond with tears. For Yetra, however, personal comprehension was no longer relevant. His blindness was neither a punishment nor a handicap, but rather an elevation to a higher plane of reliance on Hashem's vision rather than of his own. What was the greatness of Yetrau? He was able to abdicate his own mindset to a higher will. And this is hard, my friends, because again going back to we like to be in control. But there are some things in life that we have to be able to step back and say, I just don't what? >> I don't get it. And I give it, as you said correctly, I give it over. I know God's wisdom is greater than mine. Now I can appreciate why he was so taken by those traitors because what did those traitors represent? It wasn't about their own mindset. They were able to move to a dimension that's what chuva is beyond the human comprehension. Now we can appreciate 40. The brahas of Yitizak were meant to come to Yakov through events that mirrored this attribute of Yitzk. Almost paradoxically, had these events been pre-planned and executed as per the plan, they would be somewhat lacking this quality of giving it over to God, Yakov's braha came about totally because of Hashem's overriding human vision and planning. You're calling it trickery. I'm calling it what? Hashem's orchestration of this world which goes above and beyond our understanding. That's why when when when whenabu hears that your brother came in trickery everyone understand it. He says he should be blessed because now I know it was really Hashem who's orchestrating this. He moved into the dimension of yeetsu confir confirms the braha precisely because it did not conform to the plan he had in mind and that's what's clearly result of hashem's wisdom and this we can appreciate the medish that says in 41 that in the we have kohani so on the typo level you have the word co in both cases in the context of the aa we will go until here means our activities and actions can only take us up to this point. From here onwards, it's all Hashem's doing. And that's the starting point for Berkus Kohanim. A person is obligated to give his wisdom and his abilities to his utmost. But at the point which his effort reached their limits, that's when Braha takes off. And we so often block braha because we think finish my sentence. We think we can what? >> We can solve this on our own. You know, God, if I run into problems, I'll I'll I'll give you a call. What is real braha about? Being able to understand that I am limited and that Hashem is the one who benches me. To really reach this level of giving oneself over, it's very hard. Is where comes in. There's a cipher that I highly recommend. It's in Hebrew and in English. The English is here. It's called becoming a balon. Rabbi Abra. The missing Abraov part is missing. Um it's a safer I would not learn on your own. I would learn after you finish the rise of Aspire. Yeah, obviously. Um or while you're learning that. Yeah, I've won track mind. Yeah. Um it's a incredible safer and it's about this struggle that we have based on the of how do you become a bal and he says here 42 and 43 he says here like you know I don't know if people here take buses a lot of you take buses you have kaf where you know when the what is it when the buses are going to come >> move it move it >> oh move it now you have move it [clears throat] oh we're ready to move it this is it. >> Do you see how we like to have every moment of our lives what in [clears throat] our hands and and every moment of my life is going to be exactly what measured becoming a bab means that you know what I hate to break the news to you sometimes the buses don't show up. Did you ever experience that? The third level is about abdicating our wisdom to a higher wisdom. The tears are about it's being incomprehensible. I don't get it. That's the message of the the of Yat's blindness. He wasn't blind. Remember we spoke about a few weeks ago there's no such thing as darkness. It's light that's obscured. Yetsraina wasn't blind. He was able to see a different dimension of light. He was able to see the light of clarity of Hashem running the show. That's the highest level of light. It wasn't blindness. Now I want to end with a piece from the Moshe and well this will end where he quotes here a very famous idea who says if you like a look at the the language of the medish the medish says at that hour the heavens opened and the angels saw the and they cried. Why did the heavens have to open? Couldn't the angels see it from where? in the heavens like why did the heavens have to open and he says very profoundly he says in heaven everything is clear the only way the angels could cry was if the heavens are opened from our perspective but from the perspective of heaven there are no tears and that's our challenge to live this aspect going back to last week kulan shoving leovva to live this aspect of heaven on earth and being able to understand my job is just mate la to be able to respond but everything that happens in my life every moment is being orchestrated by the rebellion to blow.