Vayimaen (וימאן) - R’ YY Jacobson - Shalsheles

[Music] Rabbi Jonathan saak Alam  once wrote the Hebrew language   doesn't have a word for ambivalence but  it does have a musical note for it shal   shalis the musical note of shalis  is found only four times [Music] in explains that the shalis represents a  state of ambivalence emotional paralysis   I don't have the fortitude the Courage  the clarity to be able to forge ahead   with decisive unwavering commitment I  am stuck that's why the sh looks like   a zigzag I go here but then I go back and I  go here and I go back and I hesitate and I   procrastinate and that's what the word shalis  means I'm chained by something I'm chained I'm   stuck in all four instances with the tah uses  the musical note of there is that state of ambivalence [Music] refuses to surrender to succumb to the  incessant pleas and demands of P's wife   to be with him and describes in yum  how she dressed up every day three   different ways and how she offered him  the greatest rewards and then threatened   him with the most heinous punishments and  torture refuses and there's a shus there you hear the musical note I'm like ready okay go  move forward you're reflecting now make a decision no refused but it did not come  without profound struggle did   not come without a profound battle as  the describes quotes it according to   one opinion almost surrendered to  for his wife and yet at the last moment he managed to take the courageous  step forward and abstain from that moment   we all have to realize there are moments  in life when we are stuck in that chalas   when there are chains of Temptation that  threaten to hold me down that threaten to   divorce me from my vision from my soul that  threaten to overwhelm me that shall shal us   is normal it's part of the fabric of the human  psyche and it's such a moment where you have to   be able to have that vision and that Clarity  of knowing what is healthy what is unhealthy   what is productive what is destructive what  has brought you benefit before and what has   brought disaster and wre havoc in your  life before and then have the courage to [Music] say [Music]