Shavuot: An Encounter with G-d - Rabbi Yehudah Silver

okay good evening everyone a friend of mine told me number of years ago that there was a rabbi in Washington DC who on Yom Kippur called Nidrei night to gave a magnificent sermon and in the audience there happened to be one of the top producers of the news networks in America I think it was NBC or something like that so after the Kol Nidre Russia the producer was very very impressed and he was like he said to him it was just an amazing speech he said but do you think you could cut it down to about 15 minutes so he set them so the wheels started turning he says all the nightly news I'll be on television he said yeah I think I might be able to cut it down to 15 minutes and then he said well do you think you could cut it down to ten or maybe five says oh that's going to be difficult but yeah I think I can do it he said so why didn't you I don't believe there any producers here this evening right so I might take a little bit longer than the five or ten minutes in many respects the night of schwas which is almost upon us is the most elevated and exalted night of the entire year it is brought in the name of the IRAs all surrounding the rocker that whatever we can attain whenever we can achieve in spiritual growth we can achieve it as a result of what's taking place on Troost night the Torah when it speaks about the you mean tow beam so it has a special name for your mean tow beam the name is Medina my mo heed the word mode is the same as the same shortish as the word Yad destiny because the mathy Mar that which are bringing us to our destiny the moa team are the vehicles by which we can travel to attain what the almighty originally wanted and it's a time the same word mode has the meaning of meeting Calle Lucien I am Yaakov built-in Oh Otto is it possible that two people can walk together if they haven't met so the concept of mode is meeting and under more a team we have an encounter with a college Baraka every single one of us and the mode has a opportunity to have an encounter with a college boy who and we can thereby move toad towards our destiny and that's why it's called by the way regarding as well because its movement towards we're moving somewhere the yontiff is not my rabbit running live rock or a foot they used to say hey Jews should never say that another young toughest past but a rather and that Jew has to say that I have acquired another young tip the young tip is supposed to be the mechanism by which I can reach what the ultimate destiny of Claudius royal is now there's a superficial sense of time that people normally have and that time continues from a past long gone and it continues to flow to a future that we can't see and we can't even anticipate that's time time is flowing it's moving it keeps on going my grandfather's the front of the rock I used to always say said it in Yiddish but I'll say it in English my grandfather used to say he says I don't mind that time is flying he says but why does it have to schlep me along with it you know that's the sense that we have in terms of time so time is not just this flow but rather rough here's brother who was the son-in-law of the Alta from Kellum was also a nephew and he said that we have to understand that were travelers through time that our relationship with time is that we are going through time and when every year when an event comes around that took place thousands of years ago it's not an anniversary that we're celebrating but rather what we're reliving and we have the ability to plug in to the aura plug into the energy plug into the accomplishments that the miracles that originally establish the yom tov we can experience that when we come to this date in the in time it brings us step by step every jump if one step closer to our destiny and if that's the case well we have to make sure that we take advantage of what the yontiff has to offer they tell over a story about a fellow who was travelling by train in the Anna got to Minsk and he wanted to make sure that he got to Mintz he says listen I want to go to Mintz but I don't want to go to Pinsk so you make sure I'm very very tired that when I get to Minsk you'll wake me up and you'll you'll get me off the train so that I can be in Minsk where I have to be so he goes to sleep of course and sure enough when the train stops he looks out the window and what does he see Pinsk not Minsk since wait a minute I got all excited very angry at the conductor they started yelling at him screaming at him how could you do this to me I told you I need to be a Minsk and not in Pince and Here I am and Pinsk and the guys standing there stoic it doesn't make any movement nothing doesn't affect him all his yelling and screaming he says don't what's the matter with you don't you understand what I did he said sure I understand but it comes to nothing compared to what the guy I through often minced it to me our job is to make sure not to sleep through the station we're travelling and easy on him Toby my stations in time and we have to make sure not to sleep through the station so Shavua says man ATandT or a thing it was the time the Torah was given to cloudy throw on schwas we received the Torah and we had a face-to-face encounter with a Kurdish Morocco and while we were there while we stood at the foot of the mountain from Rosh Chodesh even on Moshe Rabbeinu tells us that the whole process from leaving the tribe was to get to this point in time and that we had to prepare for that moment when I could have swore who would give us the Torah so just as Claudius well had to prepare as they were leaving the tribe and they were coming closer to my mat rc9 we too have to prepare we have to get ready you can't just fall into the hunt if somehow our avodah on the night of Schwartz is to complete the preparation that we've put in up until this point however we have a problem because in reality we're faced with a very complicated and perplexing dilemma because you see on the one hand we're living in the best of times the best of times to be Jewish probably the best time to be Jewish since the urban abayas we're living in that period of time today where people can live their lives as true Jews without too much distraction without too much persecution and so on we're free of the persecution and in most countries in most countries Jews are free to live their lives and acquire everything that they possibly could want both spiritually and materially it's an amazing time it's a wonderful time to be Jewish but on the other hand we're living in one of the worst times in the world to be Jewish and the very essence of what it means to be Jews is being challenged I say we're living in the best of times what's the best of times what does it mean I'll tell you the best of times means that there are more people learning Torah today then the were before the war or perhaps in any other time since the Corbyn the day schools are proliferating you shiver gadot lows are opening every other day you're Shiva katanas throughout the entire world people are studying Torah seminaries for women I'm mushrooming every other week there's another seminary opening up that's yummy how many thousands of Jews are studying DAF Yomi that never ever happened before and formal and informal study groups are constantly taking place know kinds of : there are coal aleem in the daytime Carly leave in the nighttime there's an air of Shabbos kollel Nicola Lamar again sprouting forth and there are so many programs designed to help people learn to read and courage both young and old although some Bonnie fathers and sons and children are studying constantly it's amazing the kind of growth there is in limited era it's a nest niggler we realized it for a moment that this is a miracle and open miracle let me ask you a question imagine if all the databases of all the or most of the great universities the databases were totally wiped out and most of the professors were killed and many of the students were executed how long do you think Harvard Yale Princeton the Sorbonne Oxford Cambridge all of these great universities how long do you think it would take to reconstruct that information how many hundreds of years hundreds and hundreds of years to reconstruct all of that information that went down as a result of destroying the databases now isn't this what happened to the Jewish people a mere 60 years ago seventy years ago all the receivers in Europe were destroyed most of the rebellion were murdered certainly the talmidim would destroy certainly the comedian stop learning people when they came to America after the war they thought that's it it's all over it's not going to be possible to rebuild and here we are today when we take a look and we see how much taller is being learned and how much this information has been increasing constantly and what about about true vermouth Mandir 'fl beautiful about chuva movement well years ago there was the word bout rumor wasn't even exist in so many organizations so many individuals have dedicated their lives to reach out to the unaffiliated what a time what a beautiful time and even those not only are not affiliate but even those who are anti and are angry we can reach out to them too for them to see the beauty and the truth the wonder of Torah and you describe a famous story about a fella who was studying in or some air he and a fellow another fellow went to visit one of the big rabbim in the angola this was a number of years ago in the early years and this fella was studying it wasn't about jouvert so when they came to the to meet the Rebbe in the Rebbe essen we're learning so the first one who was about Julie said I'm learning and or some may ask and it's a great experience and it's wonderful and he says in you he says I'm learning you know subject oh but I'm not about to ver so the Rebbe said to him excuse me and why not and why not you think about truth is only for the people sitting and dissing off square it's for us for us translation of Hebrew texts think about it how much is available in English and in French and in Spanish and it's ye that's special for you in South Africa but it's an every language every language you have so many wonderful soir in 60 years ago such a thing wasn't possible they didn't have it and as a result of that all this wonderful wisdom wasn't available to the common person unless you're head of your Shiva background or at a school background you couldn't the language you couldn't deal with the language today also even with the translations it's difficult but imagine what it was like when there was no translations available and believe me as dangerous and horrible as many of the things on the internet is for us you have to know that if the internet is proven to be a fantastic tool to reach out to the unaffiliated to give them serum to give them information to expose secular Jews to you describe so this amazing time and don't think for a moment when you think about it to be a shomer Shabbos you know what it is today to be a shomer Shabbos it's easy but years ago we lost some of our brightest young people because their parents couldn't hold down a job and even for Shabbos and they were immediately fired right I know if people who have 52 jobs a year they would go to work on Sunday and they couldn't and Friday they were let go because they weren't coming in on Shabbos now what happened to their kids so there were some people who were mostly nefesh for Shabbos so where are their kids like we lost their kids that's the whole Lost Generation in America and they asked for much of Einstein they said to him why is it these men and women were mostly nefesh for keeping Shabbos and their kids are lost he said I'll explain it to you because when they came home after being fired for the tenth time that year they'd come back and they'd sit down and they'd say I as a chef Eric's design I used oh how tough it is to be Jewish you think the kids want to be part of that they didn't understand it and it was tough and who want to be part of something tough they didn't want it and that's why we lost them today we're so fortunate we have an opportunity to work at any job at any vocation that we desire and still remain a Sharma Shabbos servant Jews are prominent in every single field of endeavor academic professional business and even an orthodox shomer Shabbos Jew yeah was nominated to be the vice president of the United States of America and heard of what a wonderful time and we're organized Oh are we organized we have all kinds of organizations to help us with religious life we have Hatzolah we have zakah we have all these wonderful guested organizations you know you mocking you know what a macaque is yeah wonderful where we would be today without agra math we have goo mapping for everything from screwdrivers cookers pacifiers to dummies I mean you got it all open up the phone book in Bnei Brak you know what you'll find 24 pages full of goo mocking what a wonderful people we are and Crescent organizations to help people to provide financial help educational direction medical advice family counseling and support all of this is happening in the world today Jewishly religiously then Cassius you can go anywhere today and find kosher food I mean you know they have kosher safaris in Africa they have cruises that take you to Alaska it's all kosher from sushi to pizza whatever you want it's all there I once said that you know it's very easy they kosher eyes the world though now what about the robe initially lama now what about the replenish Allah my friends were in the worst time possible to be a Jew we're living through some very very difficult times there was more assimilation today than there was almost an any other time in our history intermarriage in the United States is rampant the latest Pew study puts the figure over sixty-one percent of Jews are intermarrying in the United States of America and that's up from 43 percent in the 90s and 17 percent in the 70s sixty-one percent and in some cities like Denver Colorado it's 90 percent according to in Europe to the rabbinical council center of Europe 80 percent of European Jews assimilated intermarry and 85 percent don't even go to Africa into a shoe they have no affiliation whatsoever with the Jewish community we lost more Jews to assimilation and intermarriage since the Holocaust than we did during the Holocaust but allow Romero so I may allow the former chief rabbi the father of the current chief rabbi of Israel in night in 2001 he was speaking United States and he said like this of the approximately six million Jews in the United States about two thirds or four million do not identify themselves as Jews or maintain affiliation in the synagogue in the 56 years since the end of World War two the Jewish population of United States has remained pretty much static at six million but had intermarriage and not overtaken that community there would now be 36 million Jews in the United States of America a net loss of 30 million Jews that's five times more than were killed in the Holocaust we lost into marriage and we know the problems with drug abuse were used losing our young people we've lost the ability to communicate with them the morals and values of society have have plummeted extra nama Klee and the Jewish community isn't far behind so many of our Jewish people students I caught up in all these horrible organizations like BDS and J Street they're only there to delegitimize Israel which is which is the connection that every Jew has in his heart to this land when these things are happening their abundance Elohim is talking to each and every one of us so that being the case if this is our state if this is the statement of the Jewish nation today here in Israel and whose Lords how are we going to prepare for shoes how do we overcome this and be able to to somehow absorb the beauty and the wonder and the erroneous when all of this negativity is around us you know every Jew no matter where he where he maybe feels the pain of every single man woman and child who was murdered just because he was Jewish and the way the nations of the world deal with us the lies that they perpetrate it defies logic we know that it doesn't make any sense yet we assume business as usual no major changes are taking place not personally and not nationally and if we do care and if it really bothers us why aren't we changing why isn't there something happening why don't we see something within the community and within ourselves somehow we're not grasping the message that I could have shabari who was trying to communicate to us I remember after 9/11 so a Rebbe of mine said is that an amazing thing during the Intifada where thousands of Jews were either murdered or I were hurt so terribly he said you know at the world was thinking that oh that's happening in Israel Hashem is speaking in Russian our qodesh he said after 9/11 now our shame is speaking in English so why aren't we listening we understand what's happening why aren't we listening why don't we hear the message well I would like to posit that we only hear what we want to hear and we disregard the rest a man hears what he wants to hear and he disregards the rest our ears may hear but it doesn't enter into our awareness and we don't take it into our very being our to the essence of our soul you know cuz I'll tell us that when I could borrow who was prepared to offer the Torah to class well he went to all the nations of the world when he offered them the Torah now we thought to myself you know something isn't right because when he went to you smile he said max eBay they said what's written in your Torah so God said you can't be your adultery is prohibitive hibbett Oh No says you smell no no that's not for me I can't live with I mean I had this is this is who I am he went to a sub n a sub said max eBay and they were the prototype of all the nations what's written in the Torah and a sub says he has I'll say that Hashem said lawsuit soccer can't murder I can't existence out murder I mean you know to the the greatest soldier the greatest killer is the greatest hero in the world always was he says I can't live with it so I thought to myself you know that's pretty unfair that's very unfair it's not nice why did I Shem tell them they asked what's in your Torah so the one thing he told them was the one thing he knew they couldn't fulfill why didn't tell them all the beautiful things tell them about Shabbos about Chand Kish care you know all the good stuff the family together I'm good you're shalt me cuz I mean give them give him something positive also talk about the family the values are none the one thing he told them was the one thing he knew they wouldn't be able to accept you know I remember many years ago I was giving a lecture on tuba shot and until we start to talk about potential and growth and all these very nice things and all of a sudden guy in the back raises his hands like I asked a question I said sure and he says to me according to what you're saying how do you explain the Holocaust now you know I nothing to do with what I was talking about right so I told them it's a very good question and it's amazing you know what why don't we discuss it after the lecture right or once a lady came over to me in the middle of a Hanukkah lecture where I was talking about you know Hanukkah and and all the the the wonder of Taurus about pay and all the great things that accomplished on Hanukkah and she said rabbi Cassio yes she raises and she says tell me why is it that every morning a man makes a broker shallow asani esure thank you God for not making me a woman I mean what does that have to do with Hanukkah right but the answer is of course a man here's what they want to hear and they disregard the rest that poor man was a Holocaust survivor and that's all he had on his mind he saw me standing there he thought about his brother hats go and his brother Shmuel and the sister Yenta and so on this lady naira Bach did she have a life she had such a miserable life husband that was driving her crazy so she says why did we make a British low Sonny show I said maybe that was the reason but anyway the point is that people hear what they want to hear and they disregard the rest what if when I share more for the Torah to the Jews instead of saying massive and Ishmael we said max eBay what's written in your Torah imagine if I sham answered us well you can't have an all cash no tax business in the basement I don't know and burl Parker Stamford Hill or something like that the whole world would have been different he didn't do that to us we said NASA vanish man so the answer to all this is that hackers whoa who told them all the wonderful things about Torah he told them what it means to be a Jew he told them about the beauty but the only thing they heard was lawsuits are the only thing they heard was listen up in low signal that's what they heard because a man hears what he wants to hear in this week the rest now let's go back to Kabul or Satara and see how this all fits into our avodah to what we need to do since the second day of Pesach we've been counting day after day after day after day we've been counting the days till Kabbalah cetera to receive the Torah we've been counting the days until we had given Tina when I could borrow who revealed himself to us before he gave the Aceros a dubrow's before he revealed himself he told Moshe Rabbeinu to whom he wants to give the Torah what is the character what is such a person looks like that's ready to receive the Torah Moshe a loyal Elohim Moshe went up on the mountain valley crashing a love and a Shem called him to him in a higher lay Marco say my little bass yeah consecutively so this is what you should tell them Henry's immature City Limits Ryan you saw what I did you experienced it Boyer says come out confined ashari my carriage on the wings of eagles volvió semi lie and I brought you to me the I thought now in Sharm oh ah Tisch mu B Kohli if you listen to my voice which Martha miss breezy and you'll keep my covenant hear my voice you know what you'll be a mom not as Cohen indigo colors this is the people the first thing that I could borrow who says is I taught you teach my in Shamu I teach my bucoli listen to my voice it doesn't say do my missus it doesn't say tissue ailments loss I it says tissue s coyly what does that mean our hearts have to hear in the transmission of Torah what it is Hashem wants from us we have to hear the Col not the words we have to hear you know what a coal is a coal is the sound of a voice when someone yells help doesn't have to say much you know that when he's saying if he says help it's different story all together here the coal when Abram was told to listen to Sora to throw your oil out of their home to protect your truck what is he saying Cole I shared tow Mary let Oso snobby Cola listen to her listen listen to what's behind it listen to the sounds what is she really saying cuz I'll tell us it's a Gomorrah and sanhedrin Turner a bug on leash ma su novia macaroni hi guys hari Malaki nice tile guru how Kurdish then brother Curtis disappeared apple became even so I died in Wisconsin Tabasco there's such a thing as a Basque oh now what is a Pascal so tysonis on the spot you know what he says the bicycle is a bicycle is a color the Hydra like an echo and echo somebody's talking out there and we hear it over here it's an echo what is this echo says we're Southwark a Cohen such a beautiful thing you know what that go is you're walking down the street you hear two people talking there has nothing to do with you nothing you don't even know them and they say one word and that triggers something in your head are they tada no how could walk was talking to you that's a bicycle when it relates to you what somehow it touches you what somebody else has said in something really not even talking to you but it's an echo give you a toy a beautiful story there were two brothers verbs or and rubella Melek they were both rabbits the baby Melek was a rare bear who was big strong husky fellow and ROVs Usha was a diminutive kind of a fella very short and very weak and so on they were both walking along the street and all of a sudden there was a non Jew who had a wagon full of hay and as they were walking as he was driving the wagon hit something turned over and all the hey fella so of course whose fault is it the two Jews so he got out of the wagon he started no yelling at them it's all your fault pick up the hay pick up de selva Bailey Melek when I had me started picking up de Porres ooh she was so weak he couldn't lift up one of the bales of hay they were heavy so the guy said to him so why aren't you picking up the hay you said well I can't so the guy said to him it's not that you can't you don't want to and resister started to cry turned his brother he said rabbi we may look do you hear what this dastan Jew is saying to me do you hear it he said the hey the last day of my college boy whose name your cave of K the last a which represents coverage from I am in this world it's on the floor it's being trampled who should pick up the hay and so she says but I can't because both who sang to him but so should you have to want to if you want to you'll be able to do it he heard it he heard the message by the word hay is an English word it's also a Yiddish word and that's what the hay that's how they refer to the the hay is hey and he said the hay the letter hay is on the floor sucia why aren't you picking it up there were two people one who listened the one who didn't listen who didn't listen fella by the name of Balaam builder Marussia wants to curse Klaus rail he gets out his donkey and he starts riding to curse Klaus rail and what happens the donkey stops he hits him once he hits him twice he kicks him he does well okay and then all of a sudden the donkey starts talking to him that's how he did so what does he do he proceeds to answer the donkey now let me ask you a question if you're going on the 38 and there's a lots of traffic right these days under 38 and all of a sudden your car stops start it looks like what happened never okay right this car stopped broken so you go out to pick up the hood you pick the tires yeah I don't know you look around your putter you listen and nothing and then all of a sudden your car starts to talk to you are you going to have a conversation with your car what are you having a conversation with a donkey for Billa don't you realize Hashem is talking to you and saying don't go oh no you're having a whole discussion intellectual discussion yeah with a donkey that was Billa there was a man who did listen and his name was Ruby Akiva you see Rabbi Akiva for the first 40 years of his life he was an ignoramus he didn't know an Aleph in the base and then he had a ghost learn with children to learn out of base and what made him turn to want to learn so he's sitting by a brook and he sees water dripping anorak he sees that it bores a beautiful symmetrical hole on through the rock says rebbi akiva if water which is so soft could have such an impression I'm my anorak imagine what Torah which is like strong and powerful what could it have I'm I the impression it can make on my heart and then rub Akiva goes to study Torah I'll ask you a question that first itty-bitty teeny-weenie drop that fell on that rock first time any long time ago did it leave an impression on the rock no you don't think so huh well my Rebbe rebelled up yawns okay methodical Aroha used to say of course it had to have an impression you know why because if the first drop did not have an impression then the second drop would be a first drop and first drops have no impression you'd never get a whole it had to have an impression maybe you've ever so slight but that's what Murray Akiva was trying to teach us Rabbi Akiva was trying to teach us this man rebbi akiva who all of our tour today extend some really I keep if it wouldn't be for every Akiva we would all have no connection to Torah everything we have is coming from rebbi akiva because i'll say that when moshe rabbeinu came up to show meiyan and he saw kurdish baku riding crowns on the letters he said what was this what is the crown it's a zone years to come there'll be a man who will be able to extract pie of hollow hills from those crowns so he said if that's the case why are you giving torah to me give the Torah to Rabbi Akiva and so are it says that Hazara Kaddish says that Rabbi Akiva when the hakuro who showed all the Mauritian the older generations and the leaders of those generations he showed him rebbi akiva he said Oh finally one man who's eight Surat Adam he has the quality of the destiny of the world this is the man very Akiva reached the destiny of all mankind he reached that ultimate destiny that I could achieve or who wanted for all of us he reached it he did it by observing a little bit of water on Iraq without a talking donkey you didn't need that let me share with you another story if I may I don't know if the story is true telling you right now from the beginning but my daughter told me about it and she's read it in the book but it doesn't really matter the message is clear story goes that there was a poetry contest in England you realize that only in England can you have a poetry contest and that people from all over the country and there were five finalists these five finalists they come to a big hall in London and they're going to choose the best one of all of them the winner so they all read a poem the poem that they had to read was the 23rd psalm which is Hashem Rho u lo s or God is my shepherd I shall not lack anything so they all read the poem and of course there was this one fella that stood out from all of them they all clapped and gave him a round of applause that were lasted for five minutes his diction was magnificent his words came out like music and he was the clear winner and everybody was happy fine in the back of the room there was a fella who started raising his hand and waving so I have to first describe to you what he looked like you had this big round black hat a long black coat and a long white beard and he's waving his hands so they're you know they're English so they called on him and they said yes and he says like this I want to read the poem whoops I want to read the poem so these guys didn't know what to do with this Jew so their figure they're gonna have some fun so they bring him up and he gets up on the stage and he starts reading Hashem Rahil oh yeah so and by the time he finished the second sentence everybody was crying everybody that's cry and the young fellows that won the award that everybody clapped for goes over to this old shoe and he says them you know by right the prize is yours not mine because when I read it yeah everybody applauded but when you read it everybody cried what do you know that I don't know and he said to him like this young man you read a poem about the Shepherd I know the Shepherd I live with the Shepherd day in and day out there's a difference between knowing about a sham and hearing about Hashem and bringing him into your life and connected to it you see we can go to show it's a wonderful thing we can davon every day three times a day and do Mitsos and put in that feeling and learn Torah but if we're not doing it in order to can make a connection to hear the cold if we're not doing it to hear what I could as well who wants from us if we're not doing it to connect that cottage borrow who then we're missing the entire essence of what it means to reach the destiny of a Jew it's a total different way of life Rosh M is not just it's something that your heart and your mind connects to that you want to be connected with and that he's real in your life no the Shepherd not just hear about it across with one last point the Gemara wants to understand the interpretation of this puzzle all maravilla dharmaraj might deceive me hurry sure how come the oven as those are maja of the hearts who is this wise man who understands tell me why was Eric cease to roil destroyed why was there a urban why did we lose it and the gomorrah says this question was asked to the coming to the navi him tell him I love him and they couldn't answer the question until I could borrow who answers a las Lomas Razia share no sati the mean.they fursuit my Tori that I gave to them below Shamu buco leave Aloha who bow they didn't listen to my cold remember that goal below so they are more ask what's the difference they didn't hear the voice and they didn't follow the words it's the same thing answers the Gemara that when it says they didn't hear my voice you know what it means shallow bear who bite or a cleaver they didn't make the burka cetera they didn't say vehicle cetera and that's why Erik's his role was destroyed that's why we lost the based on English because they didn't make a broker before they learn Torah the Gomorrah itself said it was because of murder about Zara idol worship Gila riots immorality what is this a shadow Muhammad SAW says the morale an amazing thing of course the the Aaron C surround the base I'm English was destroyed because of these terrible are various but what brought them to do these are favors how did they come to do these have arrows they came to do those a very shallow bear who bite Iraqi law now that can't be that every one of us we wake up in the morning we make because our Torah that's that's part of the you think these great people didn't say Rebecca's are tired there would come either how come him and Sadiq him of course they said the brother but when they said the brother there was one thing missing they said the broader but they didn't use the broker to attach themselves sorrow when they said the broker something was missing what was missing use to connect to him and bring him into your life in a real sense rebbi akiva became rebbi akiva because he desired to have this connection to the truth this connection to Kadesh Marku this connection to the beret olam he listened to messages that every day and we have it every day in our lives every day whatever is happening we have a message from a Kurdish Moro so if we're trying to prepare ourselves for the yontiff of shoeless for Kabbalah cetera for our encounter with a college bar who next matsuri Shabbos that night where we can accomplish the world where we can achieve everything if we want to prepare ourselves we have to begin to look at the messages hear the messages and hear the coal the derrick of Rabbi Akiva after you know we don't have anything other than Rabbi Akiva what did rebbi akiva do he looked at the rock he looked at the water he understood what was going on finished that's all it took but he recognized that even the smallest the smallest of energy a little drop of water can have an enormous effect as long as there's consistency if it's drop after drop after drop after drop derek abbring Akiva for Kabbalah cetera is our terror he's our guide and the mute session if we pay attention to the messages then we too will be so eager to attain a bit of the light and the ending Zohar and this XIV of Torah that will be communicated on the night of shoes it's with non-stop consistency that we too will be able to plug in to this young tip and stand at nine MIT has seen I what we're doing is reenacting my man harshly night and then perhaps because we need it so desperately and if we really want it then Hashem will fulfill the prayer that we say every single Shabbos and every single young Turkish a new boom in Soho the same cocaine uber Soros fo give us our share our place our part in the Torah so that we too we too can have the essence and the light and the beauty and the wonder of what Hashem gave to us by connecting to him through our study of Torah to our performance of Mitsos and recognizing that a la Emilia showing we have no one else nothing else Allah Allah my inhaler you may know there's no question that will lead us to the coming of Messiah and to be building the base I'm English where we'll all be able to come together Bhima Kabul upon him asiya condense separately not together but dance dance with the simcha with the joy of recognizing that we have finally come to our destiny to our destination I mean