Shaarei Teshuva: Shaar 1:4 - The Dog Who Returns to Its Vomit

this torah class is brought to you by torahanytime.com okay good evening we're learning uh and uh robyno yoino mentioned that the importance when a person doesn't have error nobody is perfect human beings slip the importance of doing shiva immediately because if somebody delays doing shiva in a way you compound the sin because it's bad enough that a person violated the will of hashem but not repenting is a is a statement it's a declaration you're not afraid of hashem the person knows that if that if a person sins hashem could punish so by not doing chuva right away it's like saying i'm not afraid about what could happen so it actually compounds the average okay now we're up to a new point dalid three lines from the bottom furthermore his boy named hamas think about the evil of someone who delays doing shiva kiravahi it's very great it's it's a bad thing to delay doing shiva why this is a very this is like a psychological point because had the person not delayed but rather shove but instead he he repented immediately nena he groaned the mural slave with a bitter heart the rugs are by quaking of a dog am i worrying in other words let's imagine for a moment if right after person sin let's say a person spoke lashinara and right afterwards he really felt bad about it his heart was bitter he worried about what could happen to him the dolph and his eyes dripped of worry so imagine if a person as soon as he didn't have really really truly felt bad and repented the next time the yet sahara tries to get you to do the aveira you're going to think twice before you do the avira because you're going to remember the feeling that you had the reaction you had after the first time you slipped and that will defend you from the into heart getting you to do that vera again so keith gashel you're throwing and you remember your past experience of christ hamariros of how bitter you were saying you're not going to drink that bitter bitter pill again now there's let's see if they're not there everyone doesn't have hair if you really felt bad about it the first time and you made up not to do it again so the next time the isara comes you stand the fighting chance to withstand the itara because you're going to tell yourself i don't want to do it again i remember very clearly how i felt the first time kamai shanema this is like what says and this is actually part of apostate rig zoo tremble and don't sin what does that mean that means a novel explanation of this pasta can tell him rigazu quake they hit staru and be pained because that you sinned in the past and this way you won't sin again meaning it's very important after you sin it to to think and introspect and and allow yourself to feel bad about what you did and this way that will prevent you from repeating now says this is just more of a grammatical thing why why am i explaining the pasta wigs referring to sinning and doing chuva well because the pasta before earlier on in that herac it was talking about sinning and therefore saying if you want to prevent yourself from sinning rig zoo feel bad that you sinned and this way you won't do it again see the next paragraph let's say a person says okay i wasted time i wasted away my day i worry about it when yom kippur comes so let's say months pass when a person delays doing same sin comes again guess what you're easy pray for the asahara yes sir we'll just get you to do it again what's stopping yourself from for making you repeat you pull them like sure you can fall but still your fallen is trapped the same way you fell the first time so in other words if you don't stop and do chuva right away you are easy pray for the sahara than the second time and then says and if you repeat the sin the second time the second aveira is worse than the first step of iran others here let's say a guy he speaks in hara and he just goes on his merry way he doesn't really stop to think about how bad it was the next day the author said hey let's try again with this guy so it's makes you meet the same person brings up the same topic of conversation and just going to speak the same thing why wouldn't i mean why wouldn't he do it no why would he change if he didn't do chew yet why would he change obviously he did he knows it's wrong he knows it's wrong he knows it's wrong he knows he's going to be punished but if he doesn't actively repent and regret his the you're right he will do it again but reverend jonah says here's the thing if he does it again the second half error is worse than the first other why because the first time you didn't realize how vulnerable you are the second time you should have known look how vulnerable you are the answer got you to do it so you should have been more on guard and if you repeat it not only did you violate hashem's will hashem says look you don't even value my commands because you realize how vulnerable you saw how easy pray you were for the sahara then the salah then your evil will really rise before hashem he may raise just the first time you didn't realize how powerful he is like this every time let's say you walk down a certain street and there's something tempting to look at so fine you walk down the street and you succumb you look so now what does that teach you that teaches you you're very vulnerable to the itsahara so what should a person do they should regret they did that and they shouldn't walk down that street they should take a different route but what if they have no other no other route so then if they properly regretted what they did the first time that should that should motivate them not to repeat but if they do repeat they're going to be held much more accountable because hashem's going to going to say the first time you looked you didn't realize how vulnerable you were to yet but now that you look the first time you saw how easy it was for ether to get you then you should have been more careful maybe but everybody's has yet so everybody's gets around but you have to learn from past experience how vulnerable you are so the first time at least you have a little bit of an excuse you didn't really realize that yet you didn't think the ital would suddenly come on but once you saw how weak you are bashar governor you should have seen that you are vulnerable and thereby the luscious eight says and to think of schemes and techniques hashem to increase your fear of god not to succumb now that you know what kind of opponent sahara is it's like this you know you're playing you know that before you're playing in uh you're playing in a game you're playing a basketball against a guy so the first time you see this guy he's two he's a foot shorter than you you know you see him practicing he he's missing every other shot so you don't really take him seriously and you don't give it your own he beats you in a one-on-one so now now you know that this guy has game oh this guy's the next time you play him you're gonna you're gonna make sure you don't leave him open for the free shot same thing with the atari once you see he beat you that requires greater effort the next time and that's the importance of doing chubb immediately because if you don't yes i was going to get you another time and the next time you're going to be held more liable to so the second is right after prison doesn't have air he's required to increase his years hashem will happily allow to place the fear of god upon him analogous to the following and we'll end with this one like a dog that returns to its vomit kissil is showing up the ivaldo a fool repeats his mistake right everyone makes mistakes the fool is the one who repeats the mistake why is a fool repeating a mistake like a dog that returns to his vomit and peyura that meaning is like this dogs do not eat fine food dogs do not dine in you know five star restaurants dog eats garbage and as disgusting as the food of a dog is what's even more disgusting is when it vomits its food so for a dog to go back and eat what it vomited out bad enough and had to eat it the first time she's going to eat what it vomited out that's completely repulsive same thing with a fool he doesn't have error that's disgusting but to repeat it repeating in aveira is even more disgusting so it's very important to remember that any of era that we find ourselves repeating we have more of a obligation to try to be careful because let's say if a person doesn't have arrow once it's a hal but some okay everybody succumbs to ysr but once you see how vulnerable you are to repeat it again now unfortunately once you repeat it it becomes easier to repeat a third time because there's a rule iguamara says that when you repeat navera psychologically you convince yourself it's not so bad so anyhow there a person repeats often the only way a person could deal with the fact that they're constantly doing the wrong thing is if they convince themselves it's not really us or it's only a human then you do it again it's not even a humra just a thing better not to do the more a person repeats in havera psychologically a person rationalizes that's not even a problem but a person has to nip it in the bud and when we do an average then it's important to do chuva immediately and this way sahara won't be able to get us another time you've just experienced another torah class brought to you by torahanytime.com