Shaarei Teshuva: Shaar 1:10 - Have Pity on your Soul

this torah class is brought to you by torahanytime.com okay good evening rabbi so we're learning uh we're learning the first ingredient of chuva we mentioned that even though there are three main ingredients of chuva but nevertheless the cuinto beneath to do a complete shiva you have to put into the mix 20 ingredients now we said again there are three primary ingredients and that is you have to regret what you did you have to confess what you did and you have to stop doing the aveira however ravenna like inchuva to laundry and just like laundry you could stick the shirt into the washing machine put a little detergent the children's going to come out nevertheless to get the shirt as wide as when you bought it you need to put in bleach and the stronger the detergent and perhaps the hotter the water the wider the shirt will be and it's the same thing with chuva the more ingredients in the chuva the better the more pristine than ashama will become so now we're learning the first ingredient the first ingredient is regret and we learned the first aspect of regret the first aspect of regret is basically to say to yourself that what i did was bad for me it was bad for my body what kind of excuse the expression it was stupid it was plain stupid just do an was it worth it i'm endangering my health i'm dangering my finances just because i didn't have vera it was not worth it it was not a it was not a wise trade-off and basically to come to realization that i'm ashamed of myself that's that it was a really dumb thing to do that's hara that's the most that's the first step of chuba to really to be disappointed in yourself that what you did was just not why it wasn't smart you find when adam marie shine ate from the trees the plastic says about him their eyes were opened the yay dookie room of him and they realized they were they were unclothed so the maduro chance now they realize they're unclothed even a five-year-old kid knows even someone who's blind knows when they're clothed and they're not closed why did it take eating the it's hadas for other where he needed like tremendous insight to recognize that he was not clothed says amerish they realized that they had one myth all god told them and now they were empty and their financial and they felt so ashamed and embarrassed and they felt worthless that's the feeling of karata you feel that you sometimes a person does something that's dumb and you say you kick yourself what did i do how could i be so foolish that's the first level of kharata okay now a little bit of a higher level is not only to realize how foolish you've been to your own body but to realize how foolish you've been to your neshama we're on the fourth line on page 14. my creator blew into my nostril a living spirit that has intellectual capacity the toy vasech it has the ability to comprehend so god gave me a neshama is a sophisticated entity it has to recognize hashem uh to fear god the limb shall go to rule over the physical desires the hotel and all of its products kaiser himself listen very carefully the same way man rules over beast men could take a cow and say cow tie him up milk the cow ride the cow slaughter the cow man could do whatever he wants any animal man could trap any animal man as you know even though the lion is the king of the animal king no man rules all the beasts so the same way god gave man dominion over the animals god gave the neshama dominion over other in other words you have eyes the eyes want to look at certain things but the seiko says wait a second you gotta curb your desire the the the mouth wants to eat the mouth wants to talk so but the neshama has been given the ability to rule over the body the same way the body is given the ability to rule over all the animals why did god do that may i share yakra because whatever is more precious in the eyes of hashem is more honorable god considers man more precious than animal and therefore man has been given the distinction to rule over the animals so too what is the most distinguished part of man than a shama so therefore since the neshama is most beloved to god it's given the distinction to rule over the body so let's think about the father the creator of the universe the wisest being the most powerful being the kindest being gave me in hashama for the purpose of ruling over my body and i messed up i went against the plan of the creator of the universe here god endowed me with like we said on shamas with something that is similar to him right god god didn't just give me a sophisticated computer the neshama is so multifaceted so supreme so majestic it's almost indescribable it's almost like god himself so god gave us lowly beings this um amazing treasure it's invaluable and look we ruined it we we spoiled the plan and if this is what we're created for and i did the opposite god gave me a shama to control my animal instincts and i allowed the my animal instincts to get the better of me now when i don't like when this guy what this guy's doing or if i'm jealous of somebody i'll bandmate them i'll let my animal instincts get the better of me when i want to look at something i'll do whatever i want whenever i want to eat something i'll eat it so here god gave me an ashama to curb my desires and i foiled his plan so you know what a person's reaction should be lama lee so what am i alive for here god went through the effort to to plan what [Music] he set out he had this whole plan and i messed up his plan so the the feeling should be i blew it that's harata i blew it kenyan shinema adam toyami dark now he's bringing out from this pasta mishlai that when a person goes on the wrong path they call reform you're as good as dead i mean a person who allows the animal instincts to get the better of him so he's basically so a wasted project so wasted that's the feeling person should have he blew it he blew it ah another dimension another dimension is um i didn't even do like an animal so again the first level of karate is let's say a person doesn't have era what's a good avira we could think of so the first thing is what am i doing why would i do something that was was it really worth it to say one nonsensical word now i'm putting my health in danger it's not it's not a wise trade-off number two is care god gave me in a shama he has a whole plan for creation god endowed me he made me more elevated than an animal and look what i did i messed up i messed up and number three finally i have not even acted like an animal i'm not even as successful as an animal a pig in the farm is fulfilling his role in this universe more than i am why not i'm lower than him because kia da shark because at least the ox knows who his master is allah right like the nobody says the donkey knows the trough of the owner i'm not even like a dog a dog at least knows the owner a dog knows his master and i sort of ignore my master and i sent my soul free from his master says very poetically sufi i tasted my honey the honey is the supposed allure of the avira vinh i forgot what the end will be it goes out i robbed the hamas i shred on the poor the lawyers and i did not think about the fact that one day it will all come to an end that yeah maybe at the time i'll eat my honey i'll do the avira which is ary of lesato which is sweet at the time but one day it comes to an end that one day my my neshama will forsake the body and all the body will have is some earth some dust maybe a worm maybe a maggot maybe another type of bug and that will be the lot of my body this is the concept of karate is i blew it i blew it not just okay you're right i was wrong i did up here i didn't no it's not enough for a person to say i made a mistake there should be the first ingredient of chuva is a certain feeling of it bothers you what you did why does it bother you could be on many levels it was dumb it wasn't worth it you feel unworthy you feel like you you you messed up but a certain feeling of regret not enough just a feeling of wrong yeah i made a mistake like uh you know you take a test and i got a 99 yeah this one i made a mistake you're right teacher i made a mistake no that's not hara karate is not just an acknowledgement that you're wrong harata is a certain feeling that you blew it you feel bad about it it's this idea that we've just explained who are sure deeper you're me allah that in his time there was this illness this predicament that people did not regret what they did this is ingredient number one of chuva this is ingredient number one to cleanse your neshama from the effects of an alvera and the first step to coming closer to hashem you've just experienced another torah class brought to you by torahanytime.com