Shaarei Teshuva 1:25 and 26 with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] it's [Music] welcome back everybody to the charlie chuva kabora not just for women really the only ones that are alive are all women but anybody watching no restrictions so we're happy that you've joined us we are in actually still shar aleph in the beginning uh we're in paragraph 25. it's actually quite long and i only began to delve into it last week so if you want to go back you can also check out the playlist in other words if you go to yblunet.com and go to the playlist you can go to the sharitruba playlist and watch it from the beginning or at least choose last week's and review so i want to do it more justice first i welcome everybody and we wish you a foolish layman to everybody anybody who's feeling a little bit off they should all feel great um so let's begin again with chapter 25 we are going to investigate a very interesting mishna uh a mishna for sure uh it's actually the first mishna of perciavo chapter four but before we do that we're going to go into michael and we're going to read pretty much uh i'm not going to say the whole thing of chapter six but we'll start with the verses six and seven then we're going to go back to three and four and then we're going to forward to verse eight and in that order okay so let's become familiar with the idea that the the the robina yonah wants to get across to us his main idea in in paragraph 25 is that at least in the beginning is that um he actually brings scriptural proof that the process of trueva demands that a person have a certain sense of modesty we'll call it sanua okay and he translated basically as someone should avoid receiving honor for his good deeds ex actually these are the the words in the shock and arc in the very first halacha of the that the way of the tsaddikim the way of the righteous are to yes not get involved in fights with everybody around them but not to be embarrassed about serving god and do it modestly right we talked about this a little bit when you get stuck at an airport right how are you going to pray as a jew which it's filling on right you had to leave home before daybreak just to make an airplane uh ride that you know you have to board at 7 00 am or 6 30 a.m so you have to dive in the airport so for men anyway this is not really a problem for women well you know women of course like to pray and they can do it without villain of course and do it a little bit more uh modestly but in the meantime let's focus now on this idea of avoiding honor or um especially for your good deeds okay so he begins like this so this whole idea of serving god with modesty but this is all part of chuva believe it or not it's like an icker it's a prime part of doing chuva so we're gonna see the words of michael now it's chapter six we're going to read six and seven and we have to go slow the question is asked with what shall i approach hashem so the hebrew is how am i supposed to move forward in my relationship with god how can i come close to god and it sounds like the answer is already there is the word ikov is from bent over bowing it's a hum an act of humility of being humble so he translates humble myself before god on high le lo que maram marome is in the heights i'm going to bow or humble myself before god on manu the algae now it's still part of like a question should i bring come close through all these offerings such as olos all those are burnt offerings a gully mercaths vinay shana meaning less than a year old they would probably be the most i'm not going to say most expensive but they're certainly the most popular and they're like you know veal veal you know good to eat then then the question is will hashem be appeased am i going to make like this razon am i going to have an atonement through thousands of rams right the hebrews like this hashem or the rivervotes nakhla shaman or tens of thousands of rivers of oil the oil is used in the menacos in the flower offerings is this how i'm going to find my my atonement that's a great question shall i give over my first born to a tone from my defiance now they're going to see there's two different types of sin so in in hebrew um attained the kure pishi peshi is uh we're gonna we're gonna see that that is a more severe type of sin okay it's more like intent intended to sin so i'm gonna give over my firstborn to atone for my sin of defiance or the fruit of my belly for the sin of my soul pre-bit knee the fruit of my stomach to serve as a um [Music] an atonement for my soul for the sin of my soul so the the name the ravino yon explains it's going to be like two separate questions are being asked and we have to look at it carefully so when it begins by saying then hashem how am i supposed to come close to hashem the person is asking themselves with all my sins i have so many sins i'm sorry go back reverse how can i come close to hashem because he has done so much for me right he is and we're going to see verses 4 and 5 in mira that it discusses all the kindnesses that hashem has done for us so this idea follows that idea how am i supposed to come close to him i owe him everything and i'll never be able to pay right it's just amazing he provides everything for us from the moment we were conceived and of course the time we were born and king david has um several different um praises of hallelujahs all through his life cycle of what hashem has done for him he was so in touch with the hashem we will discuss at another time but i just want you to know he he brings down the idea that while he was in his mother's womb he wasn't poisoned you know with toxins things were filtered out you know through i don't know if it's the umbilical cord but he was able to er to eat and to drink and to whatever you know could be nourished uh wholeheartedly while he was in the womb and something very interesting that he says that about this idea when he sucks when he's suckling and he's nursing that he's so grateful that hashem placed he placed his mouth next to the breast which is by the beena by the heart by this understanding pure place as opposed to animals who i don't know i mean i haven't seen too many animals lately but you know they have nipples all the way down their body and you know let's say take a cow cal is a better example the cow where is its whatever you call these the others they're down by the dirty part of his body you know you watch those national geographics and the cavs are like looking up and they're sucking by the we call it the turkish you know the nasty part of the body and and how grateful that he was that he got to suckle from with a heart right where his mother's heart was i mean just think about it right what kindness that hashem provides and david goes through his whole life we'll talk about another time but in the meantime we can go shortly let's uh let's i want i want to skip to it but i don't want to skip i'm going to go in order let me just finish this line and then we'll talk about it shortly so he says like this ki lamala because he mentioned earlier meaning verse four and five the parasha hashem so let's now take a look at verse four and five just to get a better idea it says in four for i brought you up from the land of egypt and redeemed you from the house of bondage hashem is talking about the hasid and we'll see clearly at the end of five where he actually spells it out but isn't that amazing this is our relationship with god he took us out of such a decrepit place such as egypt and we were in bondage and he's the one who removed us and he sent us moses iron and miriam thank god right they had leaders my people here now do you remember what balak and bilaam schemed they schemed to not only you know cause us to sin but to actually curse us and hashem turned billam's words around and he turned the whole scheme around right he protected us in the desert and they schemed and what bilum son of aur answered him and all the events from him to gilgal you can go through it unbelievable that hashem did for us in order to recognize the righteous acts of hashem look in here in the hebrew laman in order we should recognize the um the kindness the kindness that hashem did for us okay having that in mind that first verses four and five talk about the the kindnesses now we understand why he's asking the prophet is asking on behalf of our people how am i supposed to come close to you and you've done all this for me and yet i sinned i went against so now we're gonna talk about the second part because the fact is that i sinned so i have to come with humility as let's go with the verse when we go back to the beginning where it says this idea of of bending myself before this god on high is one of the many sins that i that i committed so how am i supposed to tone for them that's the question right when i'm supposed to bring all these kerbanos and all this oil as we described in verse six and seven so it does say it does mention elokai marom right the the passage says it mentions specifically god on high lohoros to teach us or instruct us and to inform us of what kama rui how fitting it is for someone to be submissive or humble before one right because he has defiled the himra like the word in um ben sora omora right more is to to be um rebelling to rebel he used the word defiled the will of the elevated one who is elevated so when we realize this is what we've done how we're supposed to come close to hashem through corbanos we know what they think hashem wants our kurbanos we saw we can we'll get to it i'm going to go through some of these verses in in the tanakh itself shortly but uh he's you know he rebukes the people what do you think hashem wants your corbanos he doesn't want your cabanas he wants your heart he wants your he wants you to change he wants you to become a better person so the prophet now raises two he's speaking about these two questions what is the first question shall i approach him with these ola offerings or with their calves in the first year or right part of the same question will shem be appeased by thousands of rams and tens of thousands of streams of oil i share akad manu behem al-rov khasad the idea is what you think that if i approach him with these offerings as some kind of gesture of appreciation for his kindness that's that's going to be enough that's going to make me bring come closer we already know that that that's not really what he wants and what about the other side attained bakuri pishi what if i give my own son my firstborn son wanted to atone for my sins or as we also spoke about the irregular uh pre-betting another child a regular child who's going to um you know if you give him a sacrifice that will atone for your lesser sins because the bahora is more precious and that's related to the pashi the intentional sins and the khattos are the in the uh the unintentional sins so you give a regular child for that so he comes now to discuss the second question how am i supposed to humble myself uh in front of the mini bow before the the god who's on high and this is what he means when he says aten bakuri peshi i'm going to give my firstborn on account of my more severe sins again like this is a bending over another act of humility or submission in order to receive atonement for my sins here otsempeshi now once i come or in order to show i think it means really to recognize once i'm doing this when i'm bringing all these carbons um or in this case by bending over i am showing how severe my intentional sin was again he's using the word pescia's defiance but it's the more severe of the sins kirilla take the kuribakorbin it would certainly make sense to give my more important son my firstborn son over as an offering to atone for my defiance kirav mahod because the sin is very great the the actions that i did were very great and the ki atsum and they're very strong he used the word severe well the prophet continued pre-bitne right he's he said well i'm going to give over my regular fruit of the belly meaning a regular son a child to tone for the transgression of my soul it's a question so his kir al hapesha bikuri the al-khattas pre-bitly he mentions both these ideas the firstborn and the regular uh fruit of the womb i think there's an underwear called fruit of the loom but fruit of the womb um in order to atone for the lesser sin ki hamerid merit is rebelliousness so pasha is the more severe sin it's done the hakis to anger hashem it's done out of full knowledge and well you know full knowledge of what you're doing that's called pressure that's an act of rebellion and it happens to be in the gamora and yuma discusses the difference between the khattas the hat what in other words pasha is more severe now i want to stop here for a second because i want to go and really understand these verses the verse as well before we go on so we're in chapter six and i want to go to verse four and five and i want to show you some of the commentary on this i mentioned the prophet is showing you the goodness that hashem had done for us that he brought us up out of land of egypt and he redeemed us from the house of bondage right that in egypt nobody ever escaped it was like the iron curtain like i know that we know that means like in east germany you couldn't get from east germany to west germany or we we uh picketed we protested for those who were around uh in the i was young in the 70s and the 80s maybe even into the 90s there was a lot of protests to try to save a soviet jewry there was an iron curtain i think in the early 90s they were maybe the late 80s they were finally let out or in in in slovene in groups but it was very difficult you basically had to be put into the gulag and become a national international personality in order to get out and i'm sure it was not that comfortable so interestingly enough me based on vadim because that's the words that are used from the house of slavery house of bondage this is for sure referring to egypt no question the place where we were slaves and when it says i sent moses i sent moses to miriam they taught us the torah right those three pillars the sister and brothers aaron would atone for their sins right because he was the high priest and so moses taught the law our own atoned for their sins and miriam instructed the women so what what what a what a great hasid and he sent them the three of them with tidings of redemption while we were still in bondage this is according to the radak and this would help relieve our anguish knowing at least in the last year that we were getting out what about my people here now with balak the king of moab scheme and what bilaam the son of born answered him you know so the prophet is reminding them of all the kindness that god bestowed upon his nation you know that bilum and balak they wanted to destroy us and we were not destroyed they both were destroyed right our enemies were destroyed we survived right what is the famous expression how do you sum up judaism it's really not nice but how do you sum up judaism in in like one sentence right they tried to kill us we won now let's eat several celebrate meat so we do a lot of eating there's no question about it and we hopefully will continue to do a lot more celebration celebrating and um offshore in the ismat of the mashiach and we're finally out of this horrible exile and all of our fast days will turn into feast days as prophesized so of course they wanted to meaning bill and mimbala wanted to curse the jewish people they wanted to curse israel but good but what did hashem do he changed it he could only bless us right if they couldn't they couldn't curse us as um where is this verse oh so there's a verse in numbers 20 to 12. actually it might be 23 8 i think it's 23 8. it says how can i how can i curse if god has not cursed them in other words god was not interested in cursing us keep this in mind billam could not curse us if god was not interested in cursing us so there's another idea god wasn't even angry with us he couldn't even invoke the anger he also says how can i bring anger if hashem is not angry same verse so we know that this is the hashem is not angry what happened in sheep team we were involved in idolatry and immorality you know sexual immorality and 24 000 people died in a plague but you know a lot more could have died and we could have been destroyed and yet we weren't so that is a what happened in gilgal and so that's an interesting thing what happened in gilgal was that's when we came in the day we came into eretz israel we celebrated we we offered up kerbatos to hashem and in other words many people are not aware that in in the book of joshua chapter 8 where the blessings and curses are taking place actually took place on the first day that we went into land of israel right in our minds maybe in in uh sunday school whenever we were kids we thought okay they crossed the jordan river and they went right to jericho and seven days they went around and then the walls came tumbling down that happened after the first thing we did is we went to shechem to mal griezmann mount avail and did a whole sacrifice to a shaman wrote the torah in 70 languages and took oaths and promises to upkeep the torah and then we went to gilgal and it repeated the same thing that was in shechem the first day it actually was all one 24-hour period the same day so this was a miracle when we came to israel we traversed over 60 miles in one day how do we have time to write the tone to 70 languages i don't know but it said it's a miracle and that's what happened um okay what about the calves in their first year oh so that was that was all part of versus four and five okay ah the last part where it talks about laman hashem in order to know to recognize and to be cognizant of the kind acts of god that god did all this to us so that we could we could have the opportunity to realize all the goodness that he performed for us okay this is what he's talking about he extended himself to us and the people who should recall through as i mentioned the old tradition already some of the things that happen and that which is written in the torah as righteous acts of god these are uh kind acts of god so now we have a better idea of the deshem did for us how we supposed to come close to hashem now i have to find where i left off i got lost here we are now the roberto yoda continues and he's going to help us answer the questions that this proves you need to humble yourself humbling yourself is prime is such an important part of chuva yes but how do we serve hashem as i mentioned the very first halal in the ark says sir walk in right this is this plastic we're going to read now shortly you have to walk humbly with your god don't start fights with other jews so important right if it is a matter of personal personality chemistry don't get involved if it's serving hashem then you have permission to stand up and fight the battles for god but when someone is attacking you personally the suggestion is let it roll off your back be a vatran right don't don't get in fights with people that are attacking you personally but when they're fighting over godly issues you have to stand up for them okay let's go on he says this is the response the prophet had asked the questions but his response is in verse eight his response is in verse eight let me just pull it up here he has told you oh man what is good and what the lord demands of you but to do justice to love love and kindness and to walk discreetly with your god the hebrew is hats walk humbly with your god this is what god wants from you right so we're going to go through it each one mishpat to do to actually love doing kindness to walk humbly with your lord okay so now that we saw the verse you know what maybe i will actually go through the commentary as well okay he's told you a man what is good so this is the answer to the question how do i approach hashem how am i supposed to approach hashem god informed the nation long ago through the prophet samuel and this is it in first samuel chapter 15 verse 22 that he's not interested in your in your curb buttons he wants your heart he wants you to change he's not interested in insincere offerings obviously if he tells you to make an offering you have to bring the offering i think a lot of people read that verse wrong it doesn't mean don't bring them it means don't bring them without your heart okay if you're supposed to bring it you bring it not that he doesn't want it and therefore don't bring it right i think there's a group of people like that somewhere in the world right but that's the wrong way no he wants you to bring it but he's not interested in it that's not what he wants he wants you to come close that's the whole concept of corban the word crave to come close right we can talk about it another time but there's different opinions of what how do the corbados affect atonement right atonement is removing the barriers that you have without your relation with hashem so on a more on a simple level i think it's the ramban who basically says that you're supposed to feel as if that animal when you watch it go to the process of being slaughtered and dying in the blood and all the different details that that's what really you deserve but hashem and his kindness has allowed this to be killed instead of you but the main everyone agrees the word kurubun is related to the khareth to come close and that's the goal that's the ultimate goal in in in bringing any of these things when he says only to do justice so we're talking about many of the laws many of the laws that have to do between uh man and man being adam but not only right mainly nisque mammon but also arrios laws of immorality what does it mean to love kindness to love doing kindness these are acts of benevolence and kindness one should always try to be more kind to others one should strive to strive for the welfare of one's people and to be diligent in his efforts for the betterment of his neighbor whether rich or poor is among those stringent essential demands of a person and this is by the way a quote from the charity charity however one must realize it's not enough to simply do acts of kindness as the khufat zhaim who wrote a book called it says you actually have to love doing the kindness don't just do the act love doing the kindness get electrified get get get get high on it you know what i mean like get that adrenaline going just love it have a love relationship with the acts of kindness i'm being totally serious now this is important to walk humbly what does it mean to walk humbly with your god fear god in a discreet manner fulfill his commandments in an unassuming manner privately without great publicity do not perform them only for the sake of gaining honor for there is nothing dearer to god than one who is humble and that's what we're talking about um okay so let's go back into the charity and he says like this the last idea we just read verse 8 right that there this is the most nifkar this is the most choice this is the most desirable thing to do like we said to do justice love kindness walk modestly with god that's much more desirable than all the offerings whether they're completely burnt up offerings as always are or monaco's which are the flower offerings and then you would have thousands of streams of oil the kadembo as hashem al khasidav in order to approach hashem because you're appreciating his kindness what's the best thing you can do is act like god and i'm totally serious what is god he strict justice on one hand but on the other hand he's full of mercy so what is the torah the torah is an instruction manual that's what it is the word are teachers it is an instruction manual how do you know if you want to like read what they call crib notes you have um like an essay that would basically describe what the book is how would you describe the torah the torah begins with hasid it ends with the like the book ends and therefore that teaches us that everything in between is it what did god do he clean in my opinion it says he clothed he clothed him but i i like the idea the fact that he brought him his wife right how much has it is it to bring people together right that's i think that's the ultimate but that's not the example given the example given is that he clothed the naked okay so he clothed the naked it's after the sin meaning after he already met his wife and it ends with god burying moshe who buried moshe god himself so begins with him doing by clothing the naked and ends with a hesitantness of burying the dead nobody's ever going to thank you for it so everything in between is about so if we're supposed to we want to approach hashem to show our appreciation for his kindness and it says and the the prophet concludes with this idea of walking modesty so with this phrase he's actually answering the second question because how shall one humble himself before god who is on high to atone for his sins so this is why we're trying to say this is what he's trying that humility this this bending over this modesty part is actually part and parcel of the true process because he says both these ideas of submissiveness and humility it's a primary this is the primary means of how to express it to get too close to hashem he's telling you serve hashem with modesty that's what god wants not drawing attention to yourself and not trying to seek attention from anybody else but actually trying to avoid attention can you try to get that through your head it's like it's make it a game if you have to do a resident and try to figure out every way that nobody would know can you figure can you try to figure that out listen it's uh i'm not i'm not saying it's a game this is real life but it's it's a voda it's it's how we serve hashem ki what's his word this actually shows your it it proves it it instructs he used the word demonstrate this demonstrates if you're looking to avoid recognition it demonstrates that you've humbled yourself and that's what god wants that's what god wants shalom it shows that you're not interested you don't desire you're not mode you're not desiring honor for what you've done because of your honorable deeds but rather you perform them purely in order just to obey his command can you imagine now i want to go through this mission of perkins but i don't think we're there yet we're not going to be there until the end of this page it's just a short paragraph but i think it's very very instructive so ravina yona adds an element to the requirement of this humbleness that he hopes that we achieve afk alhamalos right these are different attributes one should not take pride i shall learn if god doesn't want them why are you taking pride at your we're talking about the people who are created god does not take pride in them so all the different attributes aside from the ones we're about to describe you should not you shouldn't be trying to seek let's say like that so he gives two examples but we're going to bring a mishna shortly he says oyshe of the gevorah wealth and strength right i know i know certain men they're very much interested in in working out trust me working out is good and staying healthy but they make it it's like it's like um it's like it's like a vodazara you know when it comes to let's say sports certain sports i think i think there's a time and a place to exercise and be excited about a hometown or maybe you know there's an art there is an art to certain sports okay but to me to be so engulfed encompassed their whole life i mean can you imagine i know people they remembered every stat right who was the uh mvp of this year who hit the most home runs of a certain year all the if they only put their head into learning right torah imagine the genius okay or oh share like wealth there's nothing wrong with being wealthy it's what you do with it and and the the kindest people that i know who are wealthy are very modest the ones that are not so modest it doesn't uh fare well for their their character but i'm not the judge so he says basically comes down to this that all forms of wisdom other than contemplating and knowing hashem is is basically a waste of time now what does that mean there are see we're coming up to hanukkah there are actually six major branches of wisdom that have nothing to do with torah when i say nothing to do torah i don't really mean that i mean that they may they seem to not have anything to do with torah you know when it comes to biology or astronomy and chemistry and biology and mathematics these are all things can you imagine like the villenegon was a master mathematician the the ramban was a doctor there's not only is nothing wrong but if you're pursuing these for that for itself there is something wrong with it but if you're pursuing them to enhance your knowledge of god your knowledge of the world where you can carry the torah further where you can get deeper insights into the torah call it kavod that's exactly what hashem wants because they're branches like the menorah those six branches of wisdom surround the torah they they add to the light of the torah so there's nothing wrong in fact it's a great thing to do right but as long as it's focused on elevating the the central flame which is the torah and we're gonna go into this verse in jeremiah now this verse in jeremiah is what a famous perkial vote chapter 4 missionary 1 is based on it says in jeremiah 9 23 thus says hashem let not the wise man glorify himself with his wisdom right you have a wise person and he makes well you know i gotta i don't know how many letters i have after my name oh you have to call me doctor you have to call me professor people can get a little bit uh wound up i'm not saying it's not right i'm just saying i know some people that are they really get wind up about it and let not the strong man glorify himself with his strength so we have someone who's wise with something who's strong and let that not the rich man glorify himself with his wealth right so a wealthy person for the only for only this may one glorify himself what contemplating knowing me because what were you created for are you aware of what you were created for to serve hashem to think about hashem to come close to hashem so i want to read two comments one on that particular last line contemplating and knowing god this does not mean you're not allowed to seek a claim for knowing hashem roberto jones stated above the requirement of humbling oneself demands that one avoid honor for what he does in hashem's service rather it means that one may take personal pride in contemplating knowing hashem can you imagine how many balichuva whatever it does you have to be belchuva but you know you've dedicated a lot of time and you've made the right choice and you should be proud of the choices you made being joyful regarding one's achievements in this area is itself a way of serving god because it propels you this joy that you you feel that you experience by knowing you made the right choices propel you to even greater heights however with respect to wealth and the like even taking personal pride is wrong since these are things that hashem does not desire of a person now we're we are i'm sure we're all familiar with the mishna in perkiavo it's on the very bottom of this page and but i want to read some things from the commentary on this but we'll start with the mystery first who is a wise man right it's somebody who's humble believe it or not because it's one who learns from every person who's a strong man one who vanquishes who overcomes conquers his evil inclination he's strong who's a rich man someone who's happy with his lot so now romero yonah notes in this commentary this mission is pattern after the verse we have here our verse said let not the wise man glory himself with his wisdom we know that it's obviously talking about who is a wise man someone who learns from everybody and not let the strong man glorify himself with his strength we know that's talking about the person who is able to overcome his yes or no because what if you have all the muscles in the world but you give in to your vote you give in to your base desires that you're weakling and let not the rich man glorify himself with his wealth we know that's the person who is somehow happy with his lot one should not glorify himself with intellectual knowledge physical strength or material wealth because all these are admired only in this world but lack intrinsic value however when one learns from every person he is truly a wise man now i'm going to relate this to this to this parsha because we do know that yaakov lived with lavon for 20 years he was away for 22 years took him a year and a half two years to get to return but he was with this evil person and did he learn from him you know there are things you can learn from evil people too passion right you can learn there's quite a lot you can learn hopefully it won't rub off the the negative stuff and you can truly learn some good things but anyway i'll get to that shortly so when you learn from every person you you will truly be wise for his wisdom will lead him to recognize hashem again when when carver conquers his evil inclination he's truly a strong man and his strength is rooted in the fear of hashem when one is happy with his lot he's truly a rich person for he knows the emptiness of materialism and the value of serving hashem it is permitted to take pride in these forms of wisdom strength and wealth because they are actually forms of contemplating and knowing hashem so i want to mention i hope i have the right page here i have to find it okay i have it right here one who receives a letter from a king is proud even if the messengers are dressed in ragged and dirty clothes likewise one should be ready to learn torah and grow spiritually from his contact with all people just right you don't everybody's a messenger everybody you know everyone's creating the image of god and there's something you can learn from everybody so who cares how they're dressed from a sinner a transgression who transgresses with excitement and joy is often willing to place himself in danger in order to achieve his goal one can derive from very important lessons some very important lessons on how to serve god with passion and dedication right you see uh i don't know a bank robber and he takes six months just to map out and figure out a perfect plan right you can learn something from him right he's so dedicated he's going to put his life on the line and he's super hyper concentrating so may you know we're not talking about how to rob a bank we're talking about how to be super focused and and passionate king david captured this idea with the words from my enemies i became wise regarding your commandments this is in psalms 119 98. what does it mean for my enemies i became wise regarding your commandments so this commentary says this offers some insight into a puzzling comment of rashis everyone knows when it says love on garthy the word ghati is the same letters as taryag when i was with lovin i kept or i observed i guarded the 613 commandments that's what rashi says we got it from the medrash what does it mean he says when i so joined with lavon fulfilling the 613 mitzvahs i didn't learn from his evil ways meaning i learned but not anything evil i learned about his passion i learned about business whatever it was i needed to learn but when it came to evil it didn't affect me which is not so easy to do in this in this world that we're in but guess what this is seemingly in an arrogant claim that i kept it all however from someone as humble as yaakov can you imagine we're talking about yaakov very humble person so mayor shapiro explained that yaakov actually did speak with great humility right when he says garthy i kept all the mitzvahs this is actually true humility meaning although i kept them i didn't learn from lavan's evils ways as i could have or should have had i followed the advice of the sages which i did right i would have adopted lavin's passion for evil and channeled it into serving god in other words we have an evil inclination and we can turn that around and serve hashem with it i know it sounds crazy right but that god gave us two to two hearts right it says if you have this passion for blood you like i don't know maybe you'll be a murderer i don't know you just like to smash people's skulls i don't know what it is but you can actually control it and become a mohel or ashokhet ashokan is a ritual slaughter of animals right you love blood i don't know it just can't get out of your head so do something creative and healthy for some people it's healthy some people it's not so healthy i get it um take and channel those passions that you have for something good you love making money just i don't know you know what go to work for a yeshiva to raise money right or a hospital figure out a way right or you know if you really believe in a new invention go and become you know a fundraiser for a startup right to change the world to make the world a better place so don't do it for your own selfish you know aggrandizement to make yourself some rich you know magnet that everyone knows is rich walk humbly with your god and anyway so that is tonight's lesson i actually wanted to finish up with 26 just to not to get out of the way but um let's say like this bring it into perspective because really it's more related to paragraph 27 but it's only two lines so let's do it anyway so he says yet there's another reason why humility is including the principles of true though right someone who's about to someone who is coming back in trouba is further required to acquire this actual attribute of humility because what the person needs to do is to get rid of the character traits that caused his soul to sin right he wants to remove this from his soul these attributes that caused him to sin and motivated him to commit these defiant acts and that's where we're gonna begin next week on paragraph 27 he's going to go into the depths of let's say haughtiness because that's the opposite of humility and that is the reason for many of our sins in other words you want to get to the root of various sins it usually comes down to something to do with the ego something to do with haughtiness and we'll pick that up next week misrat hashem okay so i hope you enjoyed tonight's uh today's lesson and we will continue next week with dr sham again if you're interested in joining us you can find the whatsapp number in the description box below and we will send you more information about how to join the zoom call anyway looking forward to hanukkah looking forward to next week and uh all the best have a great life [Music] is