Shaarei Teshuva 1:21 & 22 with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] foreign [Music] welcome everyone welcome home to torah this is the the shah truva khabura for women welcome back and i encourage you to look at the view or listen to the previous shireen i want to remind everybody that this is in the uh is dedicated towards the refusal of yeshua pinto whose hebrew name is yeshua joseph ben zachary and i want to mention specifically because we're going to quote him tonight we're going to quote him tonight okay in the safari ah he gave a um he gave some insight into a gemara that bazrat hashem we will reach and use and in the merit of us using his torah or least us learning torah it would go towards the benefit of his refuge okay so we are actually on the sixth principle we're going to be dealing we're still in short aleph this is chapter i shouldn't say chapters paragraph 21 and 22 okay and we're going to deal with the concept called shame now shame has a bad name right it's a very sounds like it's a very bad thing however keep in mind that the jewish people have three attributes three holy attributes and what are they to be a rahmanut to have mercy towards others within your heart to be a baishan which is to have shame well it has to be a positive thing and we'll talk about the positive side of it and the third thing is called the gomer one who does kind uh acts through charity and and through other means towards uh towards the needy towards people okay so let's deal now we're going to deal with shame okay and it's called busha so he begins by talking about this sixth principle hashishi that is what it's called and the first verse we're going to bring is a verse we spoke about a few weeks ago and it's in jeremiah 31 18. so it's really the latter part of the verse we already discussed the earlier part of the verse which i'll just repeat anyway for after my return i have completely changed my mind and after i have been brought to know myself i smote upon my thigh now this has to do with chuva of course but the latter part is what we're going to deal with tonight today i was ashamed yeah i stood confounded for i bore the reproach of my youth now i don't really like that translation let's go to the hebrew boshti i get that part i would call that a shame the i would i would call that humiliated okay but this is from the um rashi site by the way khabad that translated it as confounded but humiliated is a i i believe is a better translation for i carried the reproach the the anger or the again this is also more to do with um an embarrassment of my youth how do they oh here uh the the safer that we're using translates it like this i was ashamed and humiliated for i bore the disgrace of my youth so what does this have to do with what we spoke about two weeks ago we we brought the verse so the comment here mentions after returning that's the first part of the verse i became remorseful and that was we talked about kharata that was an important part of of chuva and after becoming known meaning that the word was out that i had sinned it became public knowledge i slapped my thigh in anguish that was the first part so the verse describes the thought of the pentenant person the person doing truva who says that in addition to performing the basic steps of truva that was in the first part of the verse that was the basic steps but he became deeply remorseful and publicly expressed his pain in the clause cited here meaning in the latter part of the verse the person's adding this sense of shame he felt shame on account of the sin itself and this is the additional principle trooper we're going to talk about okay so now we're going to talk about the the actual this part of the chuva process he says so the the penitent right the person doing chuva the sinner he is extremely ashamed he's yo for what la voor averos for his transgression of the sin in front of human beings can you imagine we're talking about it has to do with a godly sense right do you sin to whom to god and yet this is a reality people are ashamed when other when you when uh if other people found out that you sinned right it hurts your ego it hurts your honor it hurts right you're ashamed maybe you're just ashamed so it's a it's a fact the very fact that we are ashamed when other people know about it right the sense of humiliation this khalem which is the other word used in the verse we use in benching by the way so you kind of this again he uses humiliation which i i think is a better translation if you like i guess you perceive and you really think you know you recognize that other people have um have recognized that you transgressed in private right to something you did in private and then right if you if you even if you transgressed in private but if you knew that other people would know about it you would feel extremely humiliated and shamed so how can it be that you don't feel ashamed in front of hashem that's like it's crazy what we give more honor to people than to god you know what unfortunately yes it's we right our god is invisible and if we're not god conscious if we're not living with god in our lives it would be very hard to think that oh my god i sinned and i affected or i um i rebelled or like i spit in god's face so to speak right how can how can it be that we're not thinking like that i want to tell you secret about judaism every single seeming ritual ritual seems to be very dry right you walk back and forth three steps when you pray you have to move your lips you have to wash your hands you have to put on your your your right arm first when you put on a shirt right when you get in the shower you have to wash your head first right when you go to the bathroom you have to use one one arm not the other right when you wipe yourself what is all this you know what it all is it's that we walk with god all the time and everything has to do with bringing god consciousness into our daily life into every action every moment that we move any one of our muscles so if you're really conscious god conscious how could you really not know you're sitting against god but in the meantime most of us are not even those that claim like myself that i am am i really am i really most of the day am i really okay let's see so he asked a question then how can we not be ashamed before hashem who does what who fills the entire earth and knows the most hidden secrets right he can see anywhere in the most hidden room right someone would go to a room inside of a room inside of a room and think they can sin because then god wouldn't see them that's not our god that's some imaginary i don't know what it is but it's maybe inside of worship but it's certainly not god so he says it is for no other reason other than it is for no other reason then that the presence of hashem is far from his consciousness it must be that he's not thinking about god now in hebrew let me just say what it is because the word consciousness is actually your kidneys it's because hashem is distant from your kidneys no from your consciousness what do the kidneys do the every organ has a special um has a special attribute and the kidneys is the seat of good counsel and as we know i mean maybe i'm not a doctor i don't really know this but i've been told that the kidney is like a filter right it's able to filter the the toxins the the the poisons and um and maybe i'm raw maybe it's also liver but anyway the the kidney is something that is where reason sits okay so that's called consciousness where while the presence of human beings is part of his conscience in other words we're not we're not so conscious about god but yet we're more concerned about human beings than what they think of us and that's just the fact i mean they talk about peer pressure with kids you know as we grow up we're going from you know infancy until adulthood there's a whole bunch of years in between and peer pressure i don't know if that's the word but there's it's going to play a lot in our becoming responsible adults whether we act foolishly or irresponsibly or dangerously and and do things that could actually you know ruin our entire lives so what we what we it's obviously a main part if it especially during this developmental period of our lives called adolescence where we have to really know what's right and not given to peer pressure but nevertheless we grow up even if we didn't give in to peer pressure with good parenting good schooling right good religious education where we know what's right still it has a major effect on our lives what people think of us so the bottom line is al kane ye vosh minh ibrahim we are embarrassed because of other human beings other creatures um created beings the la yavos minibar east brock and unfortunately we're not so god conscious and we're not really concerned about what god thinks of us and that's the wrong thing obviously so we're going to talk about this tonight what the proper sense of shame should be okay so there's a famous gemara in broncos 28 b and this is rabbi okay i'm going to bring the beginning and the end i'm going to skip the middle but he was deathly ill and he was on his deathbed and his students came to him and they asked him our teacher and please give us a blessing being a blessing okay that's what you do right your your teacher is on his deathbed what else did we learn we always learned that the best time to give rebuke is on your deathbed so this you don't see it as rebuked but we're going to see it as rebuke and that he his he said they said give us a blessing he said may it be his will may it be god's will that the fear of heaven shall be upon you like the fear of flesh and blood this is cryptic because what are you talking about i mean even the students were puzzled that the fear of heaven should be just like the way we fear human beings a little bit um presumptuous i mean come on a better blend they said was that is that is that it that's the broccoli you're gonna give us not something beyond them shouldn't we also have more fear of god than we have of human beings and yet all you're giving us is a blessing that we should fear god like we fear human beings on the same level so he said to them if only a person would reach that level meaning they were probably or maybe they were probably below that level this is rebuked he says know that when one commits transgression you know what he says to himself i hope no one sees me imagine if i hope no one sees me well if one is so concerned about avoiding shame before god as he is before man he will never sin halal if that was only the case now the problem here is it's the same rabbi yochanan ben zakai that actually said that everything is the hands of heaven except for the fear of god so one second how can he be blessing them as if it should be coming from god that god should instill with them a certain fear of heaven it's it's it actually goes against his own teaching i hope this is crystal clear i'm going to crystallize a little bit the same person who just gave them a blessing that from heaven they should end up with a certain fear of let's say a higher level of fear than they have now but of course they would have expected him to save in a higher level okay we'll deal with that but instead he only mentioned that they should have this seemingly lower level of fear again if they had even a lesser level so that's a a step up very nice so the gamora there's a comment on this which i wanted to read to you okay so it goes like this the question is asked in the back of the gemara in the commentary how can it be that he's blessing them with fear of god when he already said it's not in the hands of heaven if you're giving a blessing the blessing should be so the answer they give is like this what he was saying to them in a way of tokah in a way of rebuke that they should do this that mamela if they had that level then they would actually get help from heaven in other words it's not coming from heaven but if you initiate something down below so then hashem will help you as we know there's this concept and whatever way you want to walk in god will lead you and that's what that's what he was saying it says in gamora shabbos if you come to purify yourself you will become purified with the help of god so it is in the hands of god a little bit the assistance but the real work is down here in this world okay so it's not a contradiction so but what are we saying that even the even some of the greatest people the students of rubio and ben zakai were human beings right we're not angels and they were on whatever level they run he thought he needs to give them the rebuke they wanted to they wanted him to bless them now the previous rabbis they all ask teach us the way of life give us some departing words on how we can really make the best out of our life and this is what he tells them that it should come from heaven that there will be assistance but you basically it's up to you because i teach you that everything is in the hands of god except or except the fear of god so it's not a contradiction but that was an interesting gemara nevertheless and we'll see where he goes with this there is a um comment here there is a comment here at the very bottom in the in the shogun it's actually if you've ever heard my share on the six constant misses so i do suggest and i'll put this rather shabby nader i'll put a comment down below with a um i think it's called like a a link to the playlist okay there's a playlist and the six constant misses are based on this verse shvita hashem le negritami king king david said in psalms 16 8 he says you want to get god consciousness constantly because king david says i have placed the lord before me constantly shaviti hashem le negde tummy now this is uh a lot to say about it but i'll tell you in short because the first halacha out of the shocking arc you can see behind me those big books that's the shocking arc the very first law the very first law the remo adds this idea that basically i'll tell you what yosef cairo he begins the shogun arc by saying one should strengthen themselves like a line to get up in the morning to serve your creator so that it is he who awakens the dawn in other words you should awaken the dawn don't let the sun wake you up get up before the dawn now this is very nice because this was written in spot and this is the shocking arc for to surround right where it's warmer atmosphere but the ramall in europe far east uh north northeastern europe right in poland right this is cold can you imagine in i don't know pick a month december january february maybe it's like washington state right where you're gonna get up at the five o'clock in the morning you gotta be crazy right unless you have to make the donuts right time to make the donuts or the bagels okay so he says at least don't delay don't be late right they they're diving within three hours of sunrise try to get there within three hours you know like a normal human being no i'm kidding because really the best way is to do uh nate hama to darwin at the crack of dawn but at least don't be late don't go beyond the time that everyone else is praying because it's so important to pray with a minion so women get your husbands up kick him out of bed and say get get get to the minion okay and the room all adds why listen this verse i have set the lord before me constantly it's a major principle it's like a clal gadol anyone who wants to be a righteous person should have this because they're basically walking with god you're walking before god and you should be aware that your own movements when you're sitting and doing things with your own family in your own home right we're quite relaxed we say things we make things with movements with our mouth you know we expel gas who knows whatever we do with our family members is one thing but if you were standing before the king of kings you wouldn't do such a thing so he compares the idea of when you're at home and you're comfortable with family and friends you act one way when you're in front of a porn executive or a king you act a terribly different way so the truth is we we have to realize that hashem is watching us all the time and we have to be cognizant of the fact that the king of kings the holy one blessed be he his glory fills the entire earth and he's standing over watching you at all times even if you were the most innermost rooms in a room inside of a room inside of a room with the lights off god still sees you and we have a verse from jeremiah 23 24 it says like this but this starimah the man hid in the most innermost rooms you think i don't see him hello my vesa right is it not that i um fill the entire universe the heavens and the earth then it talks about being mocked which is interesting because if we're going to do mitzvahs there are people who don't appreciate a jew doing a mitzvah they just don't appreciate it you ever you know you're at an airport and you it's just the way it works out you know you have to you didn't dive in at home because you're going to miss your flight you got to get the three hours earlier so you didn't dive with the minion and now you're in an airport waiting to board the flight so you have this 20 minute window whatever it is and you're pulling it to fill in you stand behind a wall and some kind of a little crevice and you're trying to dive in and some anti-semite comes over you and starts up with you who needs it we're a jew who doesn't really appreciate the fact that you're putting on to fill in he's kind of staring at you you never saw the feeling in his life whatever it is the um the shocking arc says like this one should not be ashamed because of people who mock him in the service of god and should go modestly so this idea of being modest meaning like if you're in the airport you don't just stand like in the i guess that hallway where everyone's moving through move to the side move near the wall you know unless it's the only place you have a minion okay sometimes it happens like that okay but you get the idea to try to be modest but don't be ashamed so again there's a sense of shame that could be negative and we're talking about the sense of shame this could be a motivation towards doing chuva properly as as as as akai rabban yokan benzikai blessed his own students crazy that your level of fear of god should be like the way you fear human beings right halloween if only you were so okay we're not one um chapter 20 not chapter uh did i skip this let me just read the bottom here on um before we get to paragraph 22. so mention the shaken arrow and the verse which we just read uh i have set before hashemi always again it's psalms 16 8 is a fundamental concept of the torah and of the spiritual levels in of the righteous who walk before god for a person's manner of sitting his movements and his activities are not the same when he's alone at home as when he's in the presence of a great king and his speech and freedom and expression are not the same either when he's with his household as relatives as when he's seated with the king so certainly when a person takes to heart that the great king the holy one blessed be he whose glory fills the world is standing over him and observing his actions he will immediately be overtaken by fear and submissiveness out of all of hashem blessed be he and will be bashful before him that is the healthy uh concept of shame i think that's a better word bashful okay okay paragraph 20 yeah how does that relate to are um you know that that you're looking at what you're doing in front of other people is more important than what you're doing as as hashem because like you know i'm dying of thirst and there's a uh non-kosher place that i have to go in and get some something to drink okay what is maritime there's different ways to express it let's use the way you're using it first so what's the problem what i do let's say i'm doing something i know is right but it appears wrong so is it affecting me their their their negative eye on me or am i setting a certain standard where they're going to think it's permissible then i'm going to be responsible for their sin so i'm really thirsty i need to get a drink and the only thing around is a mcdonald's so that if someone sees this religious jew walking into mcdonald's they may think it's permissible and go into mcdonald's and order something else besides a drink so that's one aspect of married iron right that's one aspect the other i idea is that you will god forbid the person would put like an evil eye on you right he'll he'll judge you unfavorably okay i'm not sure that is really the term of maritime i think the first example i gave is more but there is thing called the evil eye okay and i don't think mars iron is that translation but uh it's called right so that's i don't know if i want to discuss it right now although i have some insights into it maybe maybe it is proper let's do it why don't you want you know jealousy that comes from a negative place the iron hera comes from jealousy so we shouldn't arouse jealousy in other people right it actually the eye has a lot of power i mean there's so much in the mystical world that we're not aware of but we put up gates we let's just talk about bill and billam praised the jewish people because they had no windows facing other windows or the windows didn't doorways didn't face doorways there's a certain sense of privacy that a modesty let's call either modesty or privacy i don't know at this point the difference but in terms of the conversation we're having but you don't want to arouse jealousy in others so if you're very rich you should live a modest lifestyle uh give a lot of charity right but if you're if you're arousing others people's attention through let's say your gaudiness you're you're um you know you're such a nice car where nobody else can afford it such a nice house whenever you can afford it with the clothes you wear so you know extravagant and it's like it's i don't know it's beyond you know what i mean like real so this is this is a very negative trait you're arousing jealousy you may not be aware but you should hopefully you will come to wherever before you get damaged right you're causing damage to yourself because it's just part of human nature right so gates are good right having a gator on your property is a good thing right to have privacy you know the neighbor who's getting divorced he sees how lovey-dovey and everybody's like uh happy in your home you don't you don't need that negative energy it's emanating from the eye right it's the uh and it can actually have some in this world physical damage so you want to guard against that now i say the best way to guard against that is to have a good eye like abraham always look on the bright side of life okay okay so basically you can counter that negativity through positivity and i believe that i i believe it from personal experience i believe it from the things i've read but again that doesn't mean you don't need to protect yourself you still need to protect stuff with a good fence and modest lifestyle but nevertheless whenever there's negativity around you you and it's not easy there's constantly being tested how are we going to how are we going to react okay so with positivity is the best antidote to someone else's negativity okay uh when i was growing up right rochelle i mean we said you know good guys finished last right good guys finish last you know what i came aft and i was like trying to be a cool kid you know i was like probably very popular very cool but you know what i realized bro hashem good guys finish first nah and you know what um nerds it's like the whole world is everything in the world is the backwards nerds are the coolest right okay i'm on my pens here i've got my pens here i put them in my pocket here you go right what do i have i really care you know i think it's the best what do you need attention for you have to wear the coolest jeans you got to cool you know the coolest haircut you know with the waves and who knows what the chook the you know i mean i have to look like i was presley i'm never gonna sing like him anyway anyway so being a nerd like it's only what god wants you know what i mean like do i really care do i have to keep up with joneses do i have to have the fanciest the best of everything if i can afford it i might as well just get something that can just uh get me from point a to point b because rather shim okay i don't know if i answered your question marit ayan because it has different levels right um [Music] okay so let's go to paragraph 22. the ha madre el yona bizet now the ultimate level of this we're going to call it an attitude of bashfulness and i like the word bashfulness what's the ultimate level that you feel this humiliation before hashem want to count the fact that you sinned you rebelled the indian haklima now the definition the concept of klima which we said is humiliation which happens just keep in mind the verse that we used um [Music] where it's in in jeremiah 31 18 the ashamed came first busheh and then the climax and then right so there's going to be an order so to here mentions that this definition of humiliation it's here gasha babusha fishtanos panoff what it does this humiliation it causes a feeling of shame a real sense of shame you perceive the shame but that it actually will change the color of one thing one's face meaning when you humiliate somebody now i don't know some people turn red some people turn white i guess it depends on the level of humiliation but that is a sense of death it's called murder right it's like it's like murder right so we have to make sure we don't do that to others but if you feel that so the next level a higher level of of busha beyond busha beyond um being bashful is much worse is humiliation now there's a verse in exodus chapter 20 verse 7 it says moses said to the people fear not for god has come in order to exalt you in order that his all should be upon your faces that you shall not sin so what we're seeing is that having these levels from busha to a possible level of humiliation we'll have to see the hebrew here and it does use the word clima here is what is is a tool that would hopefully prevent you from sinning listen to this listen to the words in order that his all should be upon your faces and in hebrew we say let's just get to the verse um i was looking at the wrong verse okay um but now we'll stay in hebrew allah most said to the people do not fear right in order for god to exalt you boy in order for all to be upon your faces so you will not sin rashi says by the way of the fact that you saw that he is feared and dreaded you will know that there's none besides him and you will fear him so there's some aspect that will be like you can read someone's face right if you can see their face you know that they're humiliated or do you know that they have this awe that it's going to cause somebody not to sin uh where are we going with this listen to this the the comment down below mentions that when god's presence was at mount sinai it was revealed in mount sinai this is the statement that god that moses makes so basically the idea so that all of him of god shall be upon your faces so that you shall not sin how is all upon one face how does what is what does it mean all is on someone's face so the gamora nadarium explains this refers to the characteristic of being susceptible to shame and this isn't a positive character trait and since the verse concludes so that you shall not sin we learn that the trait of bashfulness brings a person to a lofty attribute of of fear of sin so this can be healthy right this is a positive thing again to any extreme could be dangerous um so the he explains the verse a little bit now and kista kalima paninu this in jeremiah 5151 now what does it say says we are ashamed for we heard reproach right there was tokhaka or there was um you know tragedy that came so we were ashamed embarrassed has covered our faces embarrassment has covered our faces so this is in jeremiah 51 51 right we were ashamed because we heard this reproach kista clima then what covered our faces kalima humiliation covered our faces for strangers have come upon the sanctuaries of the house of the lord okay so what do we learn from that the komakom tira klima niskarit akhra busha you always hear the klima comes after busha bhusha comes first and then klima why a terra minabusha because it's a higher level it's more intense shame so there's another example he brings down in ezekiel 36 32 not for your sake do i do it says the lord may it be known to you be ashamed and confounded really be ashamed and humiliated for your ways so we see already in tokah in that the word busho comes before the word klima and another example i think we did this morning 31 18 that was uh the first verse we brought and that we already said clearly that um right both were experienced but the busha is on a lower level or comes first and then later you have the humiliation now the rabino yoda explained already that the person doing true but should feel ashamed of his sins but he now adds another reason that a person should feel embarrassed you know how patient hashem is he's so patient and you know he could have struck us down with lightning right he could have taken it out immediately he he's so patient he waits why do you think he waits because he wants us to do truva he wants us to return he loves us so much right so the make the basic statement here is when a person sins he observes that hashem passes over his sin okay well marichlo he's patient and he doesn't patient he doesn't punish him immediately he's not going to treat you right away measure for measure right that's the whole goal when god finally gives you a a a a message of measure for measure it's because you didn't get it right he wants you to do truth on your own okay but if you don't get the message you don't get the insight you don't have the inner feeling of shame embarrassment uh hurt towards what you did to hashem not that hashem is affected but that you should feel that you're rebelling and that's a sin then he'll send you the message so he's very patient he really wants you to come to this on your own he doesn't punish you immediately and that he's not treated him according to his transgressions nor paid him yet according to his deeds joseph bush but yet the sense of embarrassment in the heart will increase further the person will end up saying oh my god i did all this and he didn't even take it out on me yet right imagine this hello if you would sin that's not the word sin you would affect negatively a a human king he would say off with your head right if someone rebels against a earthly king and he doesn't say off with your head but he forgives you right so of course you would have um what would your reaction be against this earthly king you would certainly be embarrassed before him he had every right to take away your house and take everything away from you because you sin so grievously and he didn't every time you saw him you owe him your whole life you would feel so embarrassed so just try to imagine that's the way hashem is he is patient he doesn't take it out on you and yet he could have immediately and he didn't so now roberto yon is going to show that shame and humiliation actually gains atonement the act the the the movement of having this uh emotion of shame and humiliation is actually part of the para as part of the atonement process itself it says in ezekiel 16 63 not for your sake do i do it did we read this already not for your sake do i do it says the lord may it be known to you be ashamed and confounded again the same order for for your ways of house of israel so the um translation here is pretty much the same you know i'll read it anyway in order to remember to be and be ashamed and so that you no longer did i read the right one yeah um and so that you no longer have an excuse because of your humiliation when i forgive you for all that you have done this is a this is a different verse i don't think uh 1663 i didn't um i didn't read it properly la mantis crew oh boys okay that's the verse in order you remember and be ashamed and so that you no longer have an excuse because of your humiliation and god says when i forgive you for all that you have done so you know what ghazal tells us in brachas 12 b which is an amazing gemara because we have to ask the question what does it mean that if one commits this is the name of rabbah barca na saba he said if someone commits an act of transgression and is ashamed of it all of his sins are forgiven one second i understand that if i commit one sin and that i'm ashamed and i do chuva for it i get it that that sin should be forgiven but that's not what it says i read it again one who commits an act of transgression and is ashamed of it all get it a-l-l all of his sins are forgiven and this is where rabbi yeshua pinto comes in he explains shame is a sign that one truly despises his transgressions and that shame has the power to atone for his actions as it says in ezekiel 16 63 and that was the verse we just read but i want to mention that i use the word born again and i don't use it loosely whoever uses it got it from us we describe the idea when someone is humiliated it changes the color of their face it could be red or gray right you know someone like just goes pale right but usually it's red and we compare that to murder so it's as if you died and were born again and through your death not someone else's death okay through your death you're atoned for your sins okay that is one of the ideas we speak about the different levels of chuva sometimes simple true can work sometimes you have to pass through yom kippur sometimes you have to go through suffering and sometimes even death and the do you hear what i'm saying that the blood rushing to your face the act of feeling the true emotion of shame and humiliation is like experiencing death i think you i can even see somebody saying i could have died i could have died right i felt like dying but if you just think about what i'm saying that you did die and you were born again and resurrected you hear what i'm saying okay i don't get carried away but you understand that the idea is is real okay now we have um a story about king saul now king saul it's very interesting that um he was the king and he said that there should be no sorceress there right it's one of the six thirteen commandments these witches should not be around they should be killed whatever but he wanted to raise the dead of samuel and he goes to a sorceress how does he go he has to go incognito he has to go in the skies right because if the the witch knew this was the guy that had basically the big the signs all over town saying wanted dead or alive right you know which is gonna oh yeah i'm gonna help you raise the dead like i don't know what you're talking about so in um chapter one of samuel i mean sorry uh first samuel chapter 28 15 he says he says himself i am in great distress god has turned away from me and doesn't answer me anymore neither through the prophets nor in dreams so i called upon you and to inform you what i should do he's going to go to the war with the philistines now in when you go to war the king would consult the uranus the original was the magical breastplate of the koen guttel and you would ask are we going to win should we go to war whatever anyway it was only restricted to that but that was one of the things you would do when you go to war so it would actually be expected that he would ask the origin but in verse 15 he doesn't say that he says god doesn't answer me anymore neither through prophets nor in dreams why didn't he mention the origin well guess what he should have because if you go back to verse six he actually mentions it he actually says and it says in so inquired of the lord and the lord did not answer neither by dreams nor by the origin nor by the prophets so how many verses later and now he's talking to saul himself and doesn't mention that this theory of tomb didn't answer him do you know why why would he leave that important information out i mean you read this many times and never noticed oh the difference between verse 6 and verse 15 when he's actually talking to samuel the prophet after he raised them from the dead i want you to answer me you know maybe you have the answer right the um no dreams were able to help me and no prophets were able to help me but what about the order of tommy he actually mentioned it even the original didn't help me do you remember that he killed the koenig of noah king david was on the run and the people helped him right the the um the konim of nov helped him gave him the um the loaves the bread the showbreads the left of upon him which were holy and he gave him a goliath sword and um he had them killed he had the conan killed so if he would say to samuel who's basically in the world of emmett's the world of truth you know the origin didn't answer me so then what would this samuel say well why didn't it answer you and so you'd say well i killed i killed them all so what do we see he was ashamed there was a sense of shame he couldn't even mention the urine vittum meme six verses later to samuel himself that sense of shame is what saved him and brought him to the world to come right unbelievable if you read where we at now let's read the gemara then let's just go through it a little bit i just have all my pages in crazy order maybe i don't have a gamer on this and yeah it's in 12 b 12 b so i believe it's in brothers 12 b i just got to find the pages and here we are it was really the same that same gemara that we mentioned about if one commits one act and they're ashamed of it all of his uh transgressions are forgiven so how do i start this um i'll just start reading here and samuel said to saul why have you angered me to bring me up and saul said i'm very pained the philistines are waging war against me and god removed himself from me and answers me no more neither by the hands of the prophets nor by dreams and i call you to tell me what to do saul says that he consulted prophets and dreams but he did not mention the fact that he would consult the or invetu mean and it didn't answer him why because he killed the residents of nov the city of priests because of his transgression saul was ashamed to consult the orovitomi which was accomplished by means of a priest you had to go to a priest you're going to go to a priest and say am i going to win the war a night after you killed all the kohanim the kimura concludes from where this derived that soul how do we know saul was pardoned by heaven by god because it says in this is really crazy right in first samuel 28 19 you know what samuel says remember samuel saul raised him from the dead and samuel says back to him tomorrow you and your sons will be with me now let me ask you something is that a good tidings or not such good tidings i'm dead and i'm telling you you're going to be joining me tomorrow well guess what that was good tidings why is it so good tidings because saul was really off he was maybe not deserving i'm not the one to say but the talmud the torah the torah itself tells us that samuel says you're going to join me what does it mean join where i am in the garden of eden in heaven you're going to be in the same room with me you have a good place waiting for you okay so because of his humiliation because of his shame of the fact that he just we couldn't even come to mention that he would consult the orient that alone i mean you may not see it in the verse but if you meditate on enough you realize this is like a big red light staring at you he mentions it in verse 6 and he doesn't mention it all in verse 15 and samuel says all your sins are forgiven because of the about of uh busha that you had okay let's go on where are we at i have low history of vitumin so saul did not mention that god did not answer them through the of tombi because he was ashamed to mention the ormond of the tomb since he had killed the the priests more you're going to be with me and that means the same enclosure in the garden of eden okay ravoni revenue yonah now discusses how a person can reach this level of truva shouldn't we want to know how we can reach this the yaas madre sabusa that a person can attain this level of being ashamed of his sins before hashem be hit bo date right we all know what that word if you didn't know what that word meant well shame on you it's boday that's with hebrew for isolation when you have to go into your you know be dude be dude man right maybe the hebrew speakers already know it be dude that's when you you find out you have to be tested for corona and you have to wait for your test to come in you have to go and isolate yourself isolation so the best thing to do is to isolate yourself lakshov big doulas hashem and seclude yourself by thinking about how great hashem is the kamaraba hamamura is and how great and evil you did by rebelling against what god god had told you and you should constantly remind yourself that hashem sees all of your actions again clayotov is your kidneys but that he observes all of your conscience right he even knows right how often we have really wacky ideas about sinning in our in our head and broke hashem we're able to calm ourselves and think straight but he knows he knows all of our thoughts but sorry for macho and he sees into our own thoughts um okay so that is the sixth principle and uh there's rashem next week we'll start with the seventh principle in paragraph 23. any questions at this point no okay so let me just sign off you're not you're muted you're muted is this what you're referring to when you talk about the six um standing principles oh no no the six constant misses is based on the idea that king david said there happen to be six of our 613 that are constant one can fulfill by rochelle that you can fulfill these every waking moment okay and i i suggest listening to them and learning about them uh knowing right faith in hashem not to believe in other gods that god is one loving god fearing god and not to stray after your eyes these are six of the 613 mitzvahs and if you have god consciousness bizarre hashem these misses if you're aware of them you could be fully fulfilling them every moment and you will be rewarded the reward is unbelievable the the brings them down and the mishna brewer and he's not the only one this is ravnak weinberg's um uh discussion basically his discussions but it's brought from the safer right we're talking about a very ancient source and he brings it from earlier sources this is jewish wisdom right you need to be god conscious and you could be getting reward all the time for it right not that we're doing it for the reward but we're doing it to have an intimate relationship with god which he wants to have with us and why not why live 120 years on this planet and waste our time away no matter what you do if you're going fishing or bird watching or bicycling you could be fulfilling these mixes it's not just learning color 24 7 that someone would be fulfilling these mitzvas but it's everything you do while you're sitting in the house right doing whatever you do belching whatever whatever you do you can be serving hashem right how you communicate with people how you communicate with your sons your daughters your parents your your your equals whatever how whatever you do is should be godly should be with the knowing that god is watching you that god wants this relationship with you why not fulfill them all the time at least during your waking hours and i i bizarre i will put a link to the playlist in the description box below subscribe to sham we'll see you all next week have a fantastic week and a great life [Music] is