Shaarei Teshuva 1:2-3 with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] so in the art scroll version it's page seven on the two lines down you'll see a large bet so we're in paragraph two in the feldheym edition it's probably somewhere near the first or second pages but you'll find a bet signifying the second paragraph so i want to welcome everyone who is now live with us as well as those who are joining us later on camera recording the da this is something you should know okay the roberto yonah is continuing to show us how hashem guides right we spoke about this last week how important chuva is to god because he instilled in the creation this whole concept i mention the word shabbos or shabbat if you're a svardi the word shabbat shav is to return so in the blueprint of creation he put in this concept of return to who you really are who truly truly are and therefore the world was built by you know six days and the cream let's say the the sea the the climax the the pinnacle of creation of shabbos he even created truth before he created the world that's how embedded in the world shuva is so you should know how much god wants the sinner to repent so it's it's such a gift and if god forbid we would turn away or even delay because that's going to be the theme for today not just turn away but give up this gift that was given to us and therefore every moment that we delay is catastrophic okay so let's see he says and you should know that the whole time that a sinner whenever he or she is yet from the word delaying whenever they delay to do repentance from their sin allah is in his implication of heaviness they translated here as it's not really heavy here but um that when a sinner delays repenting his sin sorry the punishment own show because it's um that the he says it's much worse every day that passes right the ownish own show is bad mode becomes heavier the punishment becomes more weighty more of a presence and every day that passes that we don't take advantage of doing chuva kihuyo daya kiyotsaka he's claiming that we all know that a sinner knows so this is a very fascinating concept it must be that we know it deep inside that what we do what we're doing is wrong and that there is a punishment and hashem's fury hashem is upset the word ketzel he he translated as fury i would perhaps doesn't matter anger some type of very negative um ex emotion seemingly is coming out from hashem against us because of the sin that we do the question is is it the fury is coming up because the sin or the very fact that we're not taking advantage of the opportunity to do truva and i think the latter is more in key and you'll see that it's hashem is upset that we're not using the gift that he gave us because yeah created a safe haven for us to flee to flee to but guess what we don't we don't take advantage of the actual haven itself i i like the word let's see the news to flee like you have a irae miklot right the um the inadvertent murderer we're not even calling a murderer although he he did murder somebody it was it was out of negligence right it couldn't be a class a premeditated murder we're talking about a negligent murder and they call it what is the word they use today manslaughter right it's a case of manslaughter what happens here's a chance to flee to run to quickly go to this place it's called an eerie miklot a city of refuge so that's the idea here god created for us and out and we're not taking advantage advantage of it if we're not going to do trouba the truth itself is the haven the oy made benirdo the hino berato what we're doing is we're standing firm in our rebellion in other words it's not belittling the sin i'm not saying it's a small thing but in comparison to the opportunity that god gave us to do tuba it is small however big or small the original sin i'm going to use that word we all know what i mean this the original sin that we did pales in comparison to the opportunity that god gave us to do truva and that we're i'm gonna say spitting in his face so to speak but god forbid that we're not taking advantage of it we're standing and keeping ourselves in within our evil ubiado let's say it's within our ability ubiado means in his hand in the person's ability will be a dull let's say to get out the word means like upheaval craziness right this situation we're in is he calls it upheaval but it's such an uncomfortable it should be uncomfortable right we know we're aware that we said if we if we're not aware that we sinned that's a problem that's going to be a problem in itself and we're going to talk about the difference between a talmud and an ame haaretz someone who is ignorant versus someone who has some basis of knowledge of jewish law and they're not even afraid they're not trembling there's no fear because of god's anger fear or a wrath or anger can you imagine you're you're where you did something wrong you're uncomfortable you're in a state of an upheaval and yet you're not doing anything about it and you know that it's just getting worse and worse therefore his evil is very great this is the the emphasis on this chapter by let's look at the comment in the art school anyway the evil of ignoring the opportunity to repent imagine that goes beyond the evil of whatever sin he committed that's why i said it pales in comparison to the original sin that you committed in the first place by showing what that you're not at all concerned or afraid of being punished and this is what increases hashem's anger against the person now what we're about to see and witness is a mashal an analogy and we're going to have to make this real okay we're going to have to try to use our imagination when khazal give us a mashall we're supposed to enter into it this is the reality and then we have to find out what's the message of the story so we're now on page eight on the art scroll i don't know whatever version you have but we're basically in the second part of the second uh paragraph the amro rabbenu rabbosenu zachronolo raha allah regarding this very idea that we just spoke about and it's brought down in the medrashenkoheles that's ecclesiastes this is going to be analogous to a group of thieves now they're no longer freely running around you know where they are the king lock them up where they belong right they're in prison they dug a escape route a tunnel pier to the alvaro and they broke through and they escaped what happened remained one one i would call him a fool for this for the for the purposes here one of them didn't escape he stayed behind what was he thinking okay listen in the in today it might be different but in the old days you got to get out of there but today you might say listen don't they know my family they're going to eventually catch me there's all kinds of um security cameras everywhere i'll eventually get caught and i'll only get a double punishment but think back a thousand years and perhaps we're talking about much more than that because the magician co-ellis which is going back much further but anyway the the shar the the rabino yona brings it so at least it was relevant even in his time that if you remain behind you were worse than a fool we're going to find out what happens to this guy who stayed behind so like i said today you might have a good justification for not fleeing but we'll try to put our heads into the medrash the warden came right the guys who's in charge he comes and he saw hamachterit khatura he saw this tunnel that was dug by ishahu o danu atsur and he finds one guy in this empty cell now you might hold the guy responsible why didn't you know this digging took place over a long period of time why didn't you call out maybe he's guilty of something but on another hand we would think okay you have rock manute on the guy right he didn't escape no why would the warden be furious why would he be furious so the the mattress goes on and we're gonna explain he had an opportunity to flee and he didn't so perhaps he wasn't taking this idea of this punishment so seriously he didn't understand he's gonna rot and die in prison right today people rarely die in rotten prison i mean they have you know prisoner exchanges they have early you know good uh what they call good uh character um good behavior leniencies there's all kind of covet they let everyone go so it's very difficult to understand why he didn't flee other than things we can make up on our head like i said perhaps he's worried about his family if they ever caught if they didn't even catch him god forbid maybe his family would be held responsible but you don't know whether to be kind to this guy and give him rahmanut or to be strict well this warden the yakoto the mateu remember this is a mashal it's an analogy so we have to get into the analogy he hits him with his staff amerlo he says to him is a very difficult word two words to translate but it basically meant means you're a miserable person you're you're hapless you i'm making this date very difficult for you or this is a very difficult day for you you have no luck hello you have don't you have this opening this escape route this tunnel that's was dug out it's right in front of you how is it that you did not quickly try to escape by your soul or for you for the sake of your life to the warden it didn't make any sense and therefore it must be this person doesn't really understand the severity of being in jail and therefore he'll never learn like what's the point i know there's a big question in today's society what is the point of jail uh prison is it acting in a way of just a punishment someone did something wrong therefore we just punish him or is it a concept of rehabilitation to get somebody to change their habits to to help them when they're finally released not to come back to jail right there's a question in many societies what's the purpose so in judaism we don't even have prisons right there's no such thing even debtor's prison doesn't exist you would end up being sold as a slave if none of your family came to assist you which was hashem that would have happened and then you would never have been sold as a slave but even a slave is not a prison it's you're you're treated quite nicely okay but uh um let's think about this for a second what really upset him let's see the comment because the comment here will really help us understand the prisoners failure to take advantage of the opportunity to escape shows that he's not disturbed by being imprisoned listen the words job at least in most cases to make it unbearable i'm not saying that every prisoner should want to escape but it almost doesn't make sense that if the opportunity is there he didn't take advantage of it there's you know some screw is loose or his whole being there is just a total waste of time because he's never going to learn that this is something you're supposed to think is bad you end up you're gonna end up being there again right i love jail i i you know and there are people that are so messed up unfortunately that they know they're not gonna make it on the outside and they're already preparing a life a life of prison i anyway one might wonder though what did he do to deserve a beating because really it's it's odd right i mean as as a warden i would say well this guy gets special privileges he didn't escape why he actually followed the law while his fellows committed a crime in other words it's another crime to escape right if you commit murder within prison the person who committed murder should basically get more years added to his so any crime you should be uh punished for but he followed the law so why is he being punished the answer is that the warden does not beat him as a punishment for remaining behind so he's not hitting him for what we originally thought well you're you're stupid or something like that no he beats him in order to awaken him from his apathetics stupor remember we're talking about a mashal so we have to get into this the mindset here and it's going to bring me to an idea of what rav noah weinberg always spoke about the jewish people as a whole as a sleeping giant so don't let me off the hook i want to speak about that but i want to only speak about that when i finish this paragraph no respecting self-respecting person is able to remain in prison when the doors opened before him the only explanation for why the prisoner did not escape is that he had actually given up hope of ever leaving prison and resuming a productive life so this is the the the guard or the warden feels i need to waken this person up he's spending time in prison the prisons system or the prison experience is supposed to change this person to never want to come back and to leave and get a job or self-respecting job somehow change his behavior so such a numb person will not react to anything except harsh blows now we're going to take what we call the nimshot right there's a michal an analogy and then we have to apply it in our lives so we will get to that point and it doesn't sound very nice what we're going to be saying about our own lives okay so be careful that's why we want to make sure to take advantage of this haven that hashem is going to grant us through this chuva process and not come not be numb okay not be numb to be aware that hashem gave us the greatest gift and that was to do juva so not only is this person very numb he's not a he's not reacting to anything except his harsh blows it's actually an act of mercy to beat him until he comes to his senses so it's going to be very hard for us to swallow if we take the nim shaw but in the meantime should i speak about should i speak now about the roshiva so he spoke you know ravnoch weinberg started isha torah that wasn't his first yeshiva it was his fifth yeshiva and he claims that he never would have started ishitara had the other ones failed obviously if they would have succeeded then asiator would never have existed so there were always issues i'm not privy to all the issues but i know that in the beginning he went to certain golem in binet brock in irish israel and he said ah in the 60s late 60s i want to open a yeshiva for balichuva and you know what their response was what's the point what do you mean what's the point he says nobody's going to be interested people are you know they're having fun their campuses who knows what people are living their lives and they're not going to be they're not going to be interested in judaism now i think this is a sad tale about whoever these gedolin were the roshi would never mention their names to me anyway um but he wouldn't have said golem if they weren't so for me it's really hard to imagine but he said we are a sleeping giant what does a sleeping giant represent the power the koach the not just to put the potential really of the jewish people have been i'm going to say inactive inactive for like 2 000 years of course there were patches i think the word today is embers right there were always groups of people that's why we're here because people kept us alive and they knew it was worth living for and it was worth dying for but when we get complacent like jews in america especially during the last you know 50 70 80 years and i'm i'm sure he's talking about all really jews all across the world there's it's we're a sleeping giant and we're going to see a verse that describes it pretty much to the t so one of the rosh shiva's idea was i want to create an army to awaken the fromer people meaning the people who are religious their whole lives they need to be awoken because they're the sleeping giant in other words the jewish people as a whole are sleeping if we reach our potential mashiach would be here the base of mintas would be built right we know the statement and we're now in the nine days that for every generation that the the temple is not rebuilt it's actually that generation like ours it's and i don't need to laugh i'm it's nervousness right that we are responsible as if we destroyed it now that's a very heavy pill okay but that is our potential our potential is to change the entire universe to change the world and we're not doing it okay so the truth is we do have to start with ourselves we can't just go out and change the world we really have to work on ourselves and our families and let the light shine and this is what this class this series is all about and hopefully it'll make an impact on omnistral let me just read the next paragraph and then maybe i'll still speak about reverence weinberg's idea of the sleeping giant similarly a sinner is imprisoned by his desires and habits okay what does it mean he's imprisoned so we have to imagine that's what the sinner he's actually imprisoned and i'm going to speak about another gomorrah that's not mentioned here but it's i think it'll make it a little bit livid it'll make it uh more real and and you know the trouba that we do is really our passage to freedom you know what i might as well mention it a little bit now why is it it always i didn't say bothered me but i always wondered why is it that so many of our mitzvot have some recollection some memorialization some idea of remembering that we were slaves in egypt we were in bondage and some of it doesn't really make sense if you think about it okay so you have a mezuzah okay you know or to fill in okay so somehow or another you do these mixes in order to remember that we were in egypt there's so many misses friday night we make kiddish right zeke let's see at mitzrayim right you make a maka you make a fence on your roof and almost so many mitzvahs not just suckers not just rosh hashanah all these so many mitzvahs are all connected to remembering you were a slave you were in bondage because we really are even 3 300 some years later god wanted us to know this is how he created the world he gave us a paradigm example of how we need to live our lives and get out of bondage and that was the the egyptian experience this is bondage you do a sin okay i'm not condoning it i'm saying the worst thing is that you don't do anything to get out of it chuva is such a gift god gave it to you take advantage this is your escape route as this comment goes on he can gain release from the shackles of his yatzahara and escape hashem's wrath by taking his situation to heart and repenting that's all he has to do however if however he does not have the sensibility the sensitivity to feel remorse for his sin he invites heavenly affliction that is hashem that's the word and staff in the the mashallah which he will not be able to ignore that which is what will finally get you to move and propel you to do truva i'll tell you during the um it was 1980 and maybe it was 1990. i was going to say 1989. well i i tell you true i don't remember exactly if it was 89.90 or i think it was 90. there was a a gulf war yeah okay so it was the end of 89 beginning it was january of 90 and uh there were tilim t lim were these rockets that were being sent by from iraq onto israel and of course there were miracles and whatnot but the idea was that the roshiva said what does god want from you he wants us to be unified and that's why he's sending these right he wants us to do chuva and to get rid of what we're in the midst of right we're responsible for the destruction of the temple only through only through unity now there's two ways to go about it right either we don't do anything towards unity then hashem will act and send these teliem which cause us to cry out and unify which we did okay every jew doesn't matter what color stripe or you know sect or you know custom we were unified we were sitting in bomb shelters together so with such unity that's what god wanted no he wants us on our own to do it so if we do it we can bypass we can escape we can circumvent the wrath the wrath is only like here if you don't take advantage to do the truva to do what needs to be done to bring about a change so then hashem will make it happen which is a nice promise but it's it's not always easy going okay so that is pretty much uh what we call a paragraph two paragraph three is like this you know what maybe i'll speak about the sleeping giant a little bit more you know let's continue when i finish paragraph three we'll talk about it this is paragraph three below it's a very strong statement that means that we're all amihares we think we're such big time he says you don't find this delay of doing trueva except by the ignorant masses right i guess we're not because we all do delay in some way i shouldn't speak for everybody i'm speaking for myself so we don't find this except for who's in america and ame is what we usually consider someone who is ignorant but it doesn't just have to be ignorant if god forbid you don't respect torah scholars it puts you in that same category you're not respecting of torah now i want you to if you want you can look this verse up in isaiah 56 10. it's it's just referring to those who are sleeping sleeping um they're basically daydreaming right this is the sleeping giant you think about daydreaming yeah let's look it up um i said it's 5610 i'll read it in english their watchmen are all blind they do not comprehend they are all dumb dogs who cannot bark who doze off and lie down and love to sleep okay you can read the rest you can see what's happening here they're not doing truva because they're sleeping so the ammares you can understand below yeshivu el livam they're not placing on their heart or they're not responding with their heart they're numb they're sleeping they have either no wisdom they have no dot below now nor wisdom to do something quickly in order to escape by their lives the aish mayhem basically the word is to be alienated um you have another word you rejected basically there's amongst them that feel it's a feeling of rejection or alienation from god and they don't believe they don't trust they don't imagine what is going to be the punishment for the sin again what sin are we talking about are we talking about the sin the original sin that the person did that they're required to do or are we talking about the sin of not doing chuba that itself is a sin meaning it's missing the mark it is such a tragic end by not taking advantage of truva and the comment here brings that one of the 13 principles of our faith written and we know in the rambam is to believe in reward and punishment right you have to know and someone who believes the world is hef-care basically doesn't believe in hashem or maybe he believes that hashem created the world then left he doesn't have a relationship with god i'll just read his words it is one of the 13 principles of faith that hashem rewards those who observe his commandments and punishes those who transgress them a person who denies this principle is a heretic and has abandoned hashem this kind of person will obviously not do teshuva okay i do want to cut i do want to read the comment down below which is actually now but i think let's finish this paragraph and we'll go back to it the last thing we said so hazal telus in gamora broncos if you saw a look i'd like to call him righteous but we're talking about someone who's well learned and righteous how righteous can he be you saw him do a sin at night that's what it says if you actually saw tamikacom someone who knows better do a sin at night but we're talking about someone who's righteous don't think don't imagine the following day that he is still a sinner because in truth he repented this is an amazing statement i want to go through that gamora with you in some of the remaining time um and i have another interesting zohar to share with you about sin and chuva let's just can let's just read the very last comment on page nine in the art scroll sometimes a person descends into heresy not because of intellectual doubts but simply because of his many sins meaning i think the person feels there's no hope i've sinned i've sinned or maybe i'll be a hypocrite or i enjoy it still so much so maybe it's not intellectual he's reluctant reluctant to face the idea that his actions have consequences and he will be punished for them he's not willing to face that fact because that would force him to admit his errors and change his lifestyle so maybe it's because he's so arrogant he's so full of himself he therefore chooses to deny the principle of reward as we would in punishment as that provides him in his him an excuse to continue on this path thus it is not heresy that causes him to sin now this is like a logical argument it's not the heresy that causes him to sin but his desire to continue to sin that leads him to heresy so there are different types of people that we see sinning sometimes they're pure evil right we spoke about tom hawking verses and um and we're going to see you if you see that you assume we'll have to ask the question why did it say at night and why are we so sure that he did he repented we have to ask that question because it really doesn't make sense right we have to ask the question of course there's an answer um so we have a tomahawk only of amaretts but if like i have family that's not so religious and they tell me they went out to eat something that's straight you know what i say i hope you enjoy it because that means that there are mumula tayavon a mummer of the tayvo means someone who is only basing his sin on his desires as opposed to someone who's someone who is doing it with such abandonment of god right he's not saying i hate god or i'm rebelling against god he may be but he's not saying he's not acting on that he's just following his their desires so on a certain level that's a lesser sin by the way if someone is only acting out of their desires as opposed to someone who intellectually doesn't believe in god and therefore is sitting out right so what is this about the talmud so the gemura mentions interestingly okay i'll just read it in hebrew first time debate rabbi ishmael that was taught in the baked midrash of ishmael if you see a torah scholar avar of ira balila who committed a transgression at night remember we have to ask why at night the following day don't think bad thoughts that he's evil shema also teshuva shamma hashem of the goats what do you mean maybe you really mean perhaps is that what you mean no el avaday dying absolute certainty that he also teshuva now there is a caveat here hani milay when are these things referred to but the volume should be gufo when he when it involves property other people's property somebody else but the mona when involves money until he actually returns the actual money itself okay so we're going to focus on the first part i have a comment here in the gamora that i'm going to read to you guys let's see where is it there it is okay the enyako which comments on the god it does so i'll read it like this it was mentioned in the bay midrash of ruby ishmael regarding someone who committed a a um a crime a transgression at night so the question says it was specifically at night because night time is beser it's like a code word for in private if it was during the day it means it was revealed so that it tells you about the person that he knows it's wrong if atomic hacum knows it's wrong the fact that he's a talaqa and he's speaks about true all the time he's learning to all the time that that's there's hope because he did something in private shows that he knows it's wrong just happened to be only one person that saw him that's why it was done at night and that gives the symbolism of for sure he was going to be doing chuva as loya beyond then you're not supposed to think the following day that he um that he's so evil okay so the idea was that he did it in private most likely his true would also be done in private but if he didn't average during the day and outright in in front of everybody that's called that is much more severe it's a desecration of god's name so what would be required would would be a chuva that's done in in in public in order to repent for a true a sin that's that involves hashem requires a much greater public effort let's say like that okay the birkat aron mentioned that see the talmud is supposed to be an example he's like a sign for everyone to follow the kenya because people learn from him and then they do so if that's the case when he sins only by himself let's say let me read it sorry when he sins in public it's not just sitting on his head his sin is basically going to cause other people to sin as well allegorium in kane if that's the case when he does chuva in private in secret okay if he's going to return meaning in private in secret it's true that's going to help him do truva on his own private level but when he causes such a disturbance such a public display is i'm going to use the word almost he doesn't say almost he says that there there is no fixing but we'll say there's almost no fixing because people don't know he has to do such truth in public okay so that's that gamer that i wanted to share with you there's something i shared last night in the class that i gave over on the six constant mitzvahs the mitzvah of fearing hashem so when we talk about fearing hashem and i think this is very apropos for the corona era era the gamora says like this [Applause] there's a thing called a tefila shove it means a uh a prayer in vain okay let me just give you an idea when we talk about fearing god it's basically you shouldn't fear other things you have to fear god but we are so fearful in this world in oldham that is similar i just want to explain there's there's six constant mixes if you don't know if you're not familiar with them you can listen to the series that i'm giving on six constant misses one is to know there's a god that there are no other gods that god is one that's the first three where do you find these in the first page of the mishnah brewer in the shock where it says i shall place hashem before me always the very first how do you do it so the hover time says that the safer brings these six mitzvahs down and i just mentioned the first three happens to be the first three parallel to the second three and that's to love god to fear god and not to follow after your heart and your eyes so number one and number four are parallel to know there's a god to love god i'm not going to give over this year now i wanted to mention about fear because fear is is parallel to you shall have no other gods when it says we shall hate and not have any other gods it's not only idol worship it's that we think ourselves as god we think ourselves as all-powerful and our ego gets in the way and we rely on certain things about ourselves and our own abilities when we have to realize that everything comes from hashem so you shouldn't have any other gods is relating to this external powers that we attribute power to and most of the time it's ourselves and so fearing god is parallel because you shouldn't hear anything else but god so unfortunately we do we fear all these other things and that gives them power and that's what i want to talk about and why am i talking about that because i think this is very prime when it talks about sin and the need to do chuva and how we can be awoke i like that word i think it's a very popular word today woke we can be woke in the real way in the true way because we are part of the sleeping giant if we only know the the gift that god gave us kochuva and we take advantage of it and we don't have to suffer the warden coming and knocking this with the stick in the case of the masha'all where god forbid hashem saying unify or deutsche we don't have to we can bypass that we could um okay we could bypass it so basically i mentioned about someone coming into a city and they see smoke coming out of some houses and if he says oh i pray that it's not my house well you can't do that the gemara says the mission actually says it it's called to feel a shove a worthless prayer because it either is or it ain't there's no way around it you can't pray for something in the past you can only pray for something in the future right okay so you could pray that if anybody i know anybody i don't know it needs uh needs a refuha uh needs assistance needs a salvation they should find it the the the the the salah people should get there quickly whatever is involved in future right but to say i hope i pray was not my house it's it's a it's like it's like using god's name in vain it's like an oath that's that's uh in vain you can't pray in vain so okay this is um the gemara actually says if someone's walking on the way and they heard a scream they can't they shouldn't say i pray that it's not my house fine so the tape the sages taught about an incident involving hillel the elder who's coming on the road when he heard a scream in the city and he didn't say i pray that it's not he said i'm certain that the scream is not coming from my house that's with vaday not shema he was sure and that's what he said i'm certain it's not coming from my house and regarding him in psalms 112 verse 7 he shall not be afraid of evil tidings his start his heart is steadfast trusting in the lord meaning from just rumors from things are not look when there's evil facing you you know you heard that there's a tsunami on the way in you have to run for high ground right you have every right to be afraid right when you hear of riots in a city you have to lock your door whenever it's not just a rumor when something's real so here we're talking about rumors from evil tidings you shouldn't fear the nakhon libo but his heart should be established in trust of the lord rather said i'm gonna i'm gonna skip that part they basically explained that you can learn this drush backwards and forward and we're not gonna go there there was this is the important part there was a student walking behind ruby ishmael he was walking with him and rabushmel the son of rubiosi in the marketplace of zion review was afraid he was afraid and you know what he said to him you're a sinner the sin is being afraid or he was afraid because of sins that he did i'm not going to answer that right away because i think there's two ways to look at it but rabbi ishmael did call him a sinner just because he noticed on his face or some fear and he told them a verse it says the transgressors in zion this is isaiah 33 14 the transgressors in zion are afraid it says like this now the student how did he respond he says no it's it isn't it say in proverbs michele 28 14 happy praiseworthy is the man who is always in fear rabbi ishmael says that verse is only referring to things that have to do with heaven only when it comes to things that have to do with the torah then you know if you can just imagine the brisker rav who or any any great tamil khakim he's afraid he didn't say right so he'll say it again or someone who's very careful about doing mitzvahs he'll be afraid that perhaps it's not perfect right so the any you know the truth is even you're true learning to review you need to review your true learning you have to be afraid that you're going to forget it so when it comes to torah you have every right to have this awe or fear i'm going to use the word all cause that's really what i mean but anyway some trepidation god forbid you would lose it the reason i brought this in i told you this is zohar the mikhta mel yahoo brings the zohan rabbi destler he says he clarifies it even further that i read in hebrew that when we experience fear in this world it's only an illusion it's only imagination that it's created within the mind of man to to create this fear from some type of danger in this world even that that danger does not exist what really exists is the sin maybe the sin that we did so if we're fearful if we have anxieties it could be it could be i'm not saying that it is it could be related to sin that we did and we should try to find out what it is in deutsche he says even though it's all illusion that we're afraid of something in this world the truth is it's something deep in our hearts of a person who's afraid because of his sin what the truth is this is hard to swallow the truth is that that that fear that we feel we're the the satan of the it's a hara we'll see switches it but really we're taking it out in this world as a fear of something in this world but the truth is that it's the inner fear of what we will experience in gehenna the punishment gehenna of what we call the punish the ultimate punishment is actually being fulfilled within each and every man's heart when a person sins his soul knows deep in the soul he knows the punishment is is basically expected right it's like anticipated and it's filled with fear now if you can get your head into this you will find that you probably have things to do true before for i mean hopefully we're we're into meditation and prayer and the vegas hashem and we don't have any of this we have what we're going to call a um a nephesh a shaolin bina show where mama should peace with our souls but and we're mama she have to wake us hashem but we may experience this at some point in our life someone listening to this tape some listen to this recording listen to what he says basically even the word yatsar it's an inclination it's something the word also could mean to create right it it creates the yetz to to create a substitute right the real fear in the metaphysical spiritual world is the fear of gehenna from the sin but it comes out in phobias and types of fears of hazel but and in place of the real pachada which is against the sin which is what we were talking about today he enters a different kind of pakhan just a superficial i'm going to use the word superficial but um i really mean things have to do with this world the charles show lopagam if you were complete in your soul perfect in your soul without any blemish you wouldn't have any fear at all the hadabek you would have a full clean cleaving a intimate relationship completely with hashem you would have nothing to fear and then look at psalms chapter 1 18 verse 6 hashem right the lord is with me i shall not fear what can man do to me okay so i thought this was really apropos because when we think about the sleeping giant we're not even aware this is what's really going on inside of us this is what the zohar says this is what um we read in he brings it down right what greater moosa could you get than this that we are sleeping if we only were aware we could just wake ourselves up from the slumber those things that we imagine are coming after us it's rms doesn't mean they're not right i think there's a whole joke about different people are paranoid but i say paranoid jews live longer okay but just because you're paranoid doesn't mean someone's not following you either right i'm sure you've heard that expression so you have to be careful right you we just be normal find the golden means check your do your own find out if you're exaggerating some of these phobias today everybody's going crazy with the corona there's nobody knows anything and that's going to be the truth we have to follow or seemingly follow the regulations as best we can and the science is constantly changing okay i'm not saying not to but a lot of it is causing a great amount of anxiety that shouldn't be there so we have to figure out how to deal with this and i'm just reaching out to my my fellow human beings i'm with you i i get it there's some you know many of the people are immune deficient right they have whether they're older whether they had pre-existing conditions of other sorts or they're just more likely whether because of vitamin d anxiety but the fear itself i'm going to tell you anxiety and fear lower your immune system find a way to get right with god right he's giving you this opportunity to chuva take advantage the escape route is there don't wallow in prison you don't have to and that's my message for tonight and now we'll open up to questions [Music] is