Shaar HaBitachon Lesson 44 with Rabbi Shais Taub

we are in the middle of chapter seven i think uh last night did we start chapter seven last night yeah all right and we spoke about the mafside things that have a bad effect on battalion that are detrimental to the talking and basically what we're talking about was i mean i chose to use the the term cognitive limitations where a person's worldview is sort of immature and whether it's because they haven't learned about hashem or they haven't learned enough toyota in general or because they have a narrow-minded view of life remember that's what we spoke about last night these things all make it really hard to develop ones by talking and now what we're going to speak about tonight bezos hashem is more about developing that worldview and i guess sort of like expanding one's mind in order to get better and better at better sort of a an evolution or a development of the mind that goes hand in hand with working the batok and muscle so let's continue here uh the main principle of the matter regarding the more one knows about hashem the more batakin one is able to have in him also faith in hashem's protective care and his bountiful abounding providence and and his goodness one has to know all of these things and how does one know them by by learning them in order to to have proper batokin so uh i mean what we're essentially describing here is that don't think that the talking is just intuitive don't think that either you were born with it and you have it as a talent and you have this innate pitakin or you don't that's not how it works of course there's an innate capacity for batokin which is you know that's they didn't of the the godly soul we have that but you have to develop it and developing the token is developing a certain cognitive capacity it's a mental development he's going to explain he's going to explain how it's really it's it's mental maturity a child talking about an infant at the beginning of his life he trusts in his mother's chest that he nurses from a nursing baby like it says you secured me at my mother's bosom so what does that mean he trusts in it i mean he's not so sophisticated to to articulate it as trust but the point is where does he look to when when he needs his needs met when he's hungry this is this is to him that's what takes care of him the kasha taxact but when his perception grows stronger when he matures meishev now he transfers his trust to his mother's attention so before it was very very concrete his mother's muslim that's what was taken care of now it's more it's it's it's his mother and it's it's not just mother it's mother's attention her attentiveness kamehameha like it says she surely i have stilled and quieted my soul like a weaned child with its mother my soul is with me like a weaned child okay the child who's not nursing anymore so now instead of thinking you know the of his of mommy in a very concrete way uh he thinks of her in more of a conceptual way but still he's been talking is in mommy that mommy's going to go out and buy him whatever it is that he needs okay now we're thinking that's very childish yeah it is childish he's describing a child but it's a step above having been talking in his mother's bosom this is at least he has been talking in mommy's going to go to the store and buy you groceries okay it's at least a little bit more advanced than the previous world view okay now let's let's keep going we're gonna we're gonna follow a progression when his intellect matures even more vireyaki al-aviv and he starts to notice how his mother relates to his father may she betray ela now he transfers his trust to his father because then he realized when his mother went out for groceries she asked his father if she could borrow the credit card so ah that's that's where might be talking should be it's almost you know it reminds me of avraham avino right trying to figure out what's what's the ultimate power you know that's worthy of of worship is it the sun is it the moon right okay vikashak goofy when his body matures and he becomes adept at supporting himself through labor or trade and the like so now he's able to work for himself you know he's like eight years old and can send him to the coal mines now now he transfers his batokin to his own power and his own plans because of his ignorance about all that preceded of hashem's benevolent governance in other words he still doesn't have the hashem peace okay he graduated from thinking it was his mother's bosom then he thought it was his mother's ability to go out and you know take care of him then he realized oh maybe it's my father then he says no actually it's me because i go out and i work and i have a job and that's how i you know that that's what takes care of me it's still a very immature world view but he's he's in the right he's he's going the right direction okay let's let's not stop see a lot of people have arrested development they worked their way up they weaned you know but they didn't get much further than than weaning and they're they're stuck somewhere in the process as far as where they place their batokin the omro he had a neighbor who was a skilled scribe vahaya misparnis mishkar si frusay and he supported himself from practicing his his craft his art by the way somebody told me i don't know if there's any arabic speakers here that the term uh ma here say from all here is actually a lotion of passage from to hillary chinese somebody the word ma here doesn't mean quick quick or swift in this possibility it actually means expert safer here means an expert scribe and somebody told me that ma here in arabic means expert anyways i don't know if anybody can corroborate that or do a little google search while we're uh learning but uh yeah just interesting trivia i don't know you know that crevice levels was written in arabic originally yeah everyone everyone knows that yeah we do know that it was originally written in arabic what you've been chibin very good of ramaba of ramaba sitting in the bullpen we're going to bring them out a little bit later tonight hashem but that's right you've been tuban was the one who translated um rebecca's shadow talking or the whole slavavis from arabic into russian kurdish we spoke about that in lesson one very good amelia so he said to him one day one day the pious man said to his neighbor the expert scribe he said to them like how are things what's up i'm a light told him bit taif pretty good but yadi shleimer as long as my hand is intact hear what happened he says how you doing he says hey pretty good as long as my hand is intact remember because he was an expert scribe so he needed to have his hand know about the guy who went to the doctor he says doctor after the operation will i be able to play the piano doctor says yes certainly you will he says oh that's great because can't play the piano now okay i don't know if i told that well uh totally okay doctor after the operation will i be able to play the piano yes absolutely oh great because i don't know how to play the piano now tell it better that time okay so the the the pious guy asks this neighbor he said hey how are things like hey as long as my hand is in good shape everything's absolutely fine that's what we call famous last words well the head of hayem hahu on that very evening negro yoday he shattered his arm shattered it shattered the lake costs of bashar yamamov and he never rode again the rest of his life his life the hoyas and this was his punishment from hashem for having placed his trust in his arm so this is an example of a person who's still stuck at that phase of development where he graduated from thinking security comes from his mother's bosom and then he thought security comes from his mother's ability shot to shop for him then he thought it was from his father's ability to pay the bills when his mother shops for him and then he thought it was from his ability to earn a living well that's where that safer mall here was he thought his security in life came from his ability to write yeah and by the way in case you want to be negative and say oh this was a scary bad mean story this guy thought his hand was his security and god punished him by shattering his hand i just want to mention it doesn't say the guy died of starvation because he couldn't make a living anymore maybe he went on and he was very successful but just not through his hand the point is he thought without his hand he can't make a living okay so now he doesn't have his hand but maybe he still made a living he doesn't say whether that happened or didn't happen my point is hashem wasn't taking away the guy's livelihood hashem was just pointing out to him the error that that's not how his livelihood was coming to him yet if a person obtains his livelihood through other individuals he transfers his trust to them and comes to rely on them still going up the ladder right oh maybe we shouldn't worship the sun maybe we should worship the moon right okay he's still working through the elevator's auto ladder so it's not me it's my boss who pays me to do this skill so then therefore my talking is in my boss now how is this different than the previous stage he no longer relies on his own skill he's relying on the the person who pays him to do the skill the table of onan points out that uh he thinks that even if he loses the skill so the boss is going to be so benevolent he's going to continue to to take care of him right and we all know how um how well that works out when you think that after the uh after the company uses you to the point of exhaustion and can't extract any more labor from you go see whether you can rely on their benevolence all right yeah anyway but let's keep going because he's not done yet but when his intellect matures even further and he sees their deficiencies the deficiencies of these things that he's been trusting in and their need for the creator that people the people he's been trusting in actually all need the creator yoshi love that is going to transfer his talking to the creator and then he will rely on him on hashem in matters beyond his control and in which he has no alternative but to surrender to the divine decree kameh for instance yarita sangashamim al-azriyah the rain falling on the crops the leeches or the sailing of the seas or crossing parched deserts with no water uva or the outbreak of floods foil hadev or the outbreak of pestilence and all sorts of things that people have no control over whatsoever commissioner like it says at the time of their distress they they cry arise and save us they cry to hashem which would be the appropriate thing because no human power is going to help you there now he finally got it he he realizes he's got a trust on our shout but we're not done yet we're not done yet we're going to keep going next stage of development is if he matures even further in his understanding of reality he's going to start trusting in hashem also in matters over which he does have some control see first he he relied on hashem what can you do there's no choice you got to rely on hashem then he's going to realize hold on a second i can declare unconditional surrender a lot earlier you know i don't have to hit rock bottom and be painfully reminded of my powerlessness i can recognize my powerlessness at an earlier stage kame havas hated for instance earning a livelihood by dangerous means or in exhausting occupations so there you have somewhat of a control over whether you take such a job but he's going to say hold on a second what do i need it for i need to endanger myself in order to make a living no hashem can take care of me and i don't have to do crazy work janihan live and he'll leave aside these means of making a living trusting that hashem will provide him with an easier occupation by which to earn a living all right wow he's getting better let's see let's see he's going to keep growing though if his concept of hashem grows develops even further yahshua betrays he's going to trust in hashem in all matters hakasha mayhem the demanding difficult things and the easy things even in the easy things you don't have to say oh when life gets really difficult then hashems may ace in the hole then i'll rely on it even with the easy stuff you can rely on hashem yakavan bisasuke bohen la veda solikin valeeshmi mitzvasov and his aim in employing them will be to serve hashem and fulfill his commandments david lavonnen explains that his trust is not just that hashem can find him an easier way of making a living but that even when he has an easy job he has to put his head completely into it no he's been talking is that he can have a job and he's only doing that job because that's the way that hashem wants to sustain him meaning to say he doesn't have to put his mind deeply into it vikasa kakarossi is when his conception matures further with an appreciation with an appreciation of hashem's concern for his creatures he will accept in his heart and with his tongue outwardly and inwardly whatever hashem decrees for him you hear what he's saying here the next stage is that not only is he going to only bring his requests to hashem but he gets to the point where he doesn't even need to make requests because whatever hashem picks for him he knows is good you choose you choose whatever you think is good for me he'll be happy with whatever hashem brings him whether death or life poverty or wealth health or illness he won't desire anything other than whatever hashem wants for him he won't want anything other than what hashem wants for him the nim sir el hualakim he will totally give himself over to hashem um and he will give over his soul and his body to hashem's judgment the yagbar inyan al-inyan and he won't prefer one matter over another zulus and he won't choose meaning he won't want to be in any other situation than the situation he's in right now when it comes to worldly matters now obviously when it comes to spiritual matters he can be discontent because he can say i'm not enough of a mensch i'm not doing enough for hashem i want to be better than i am currently but when it comes to material things whatever it is right now is perfect i don't want to be in any different situation than the one i'm in right now kamehameha like one of the people with bataking said i never got up in one situation i never woke up in the morning being in one situation visa and desired to be in another situation i never got up and woke up and my life was one way and i said hey you know what i wish i were waking up with my life being different than it is that's been talking that's been talking we got to the point where not only he goes to hashem with all of his requests but at this point he doesn't even need to make requests because whatever hashem is choosing for me i know is better than anything i could dream of you know the balchamptov says about the possibility summit as it says until david malik says shivisi of isla negri summit i have placed the lord before me at all times that means god consciousness i'm always god conscious so he says shava means equal hain valav that yes and no meaning positive or the negative having or they're not having shaving loy is equal to him in in material things so how do you know srivisi available placed the lord before me at all times meaning i am thoroughly god conscious being god conscious the opposite of what self-conscious right self-consciousness self-obsession self-centeredness that's the opposite of being god-centered so if you're self-centered then heinvilav are not shoving light if you're self-centered then your life is constantly fluctuating up and down because depending on the service that you think you're getting from the universe whether you're being treated the way you want to be treated or you're not being treated the way you want to be treated so this is going to set your emotions up and down and fluctuating according to the service you think you're getting that's if you're self-centered but if you're god-centered shivisi availa negli summit have placed hashem before me at all times my entire focus is god consciousness then hain valav shavin lai whether you eat yummy food or not yummy food these are the examples that the basham dev gives he gives two examples actually says whether you eat yummy food or not yummy food whether people compliment you or insult you makes no difference meaning meaning emotionally it's not going to make my day based on the treatment that i'm getting whatever hashem brings me it's perfect so this is what one of the bait kim said i never woke up in the morning and said if my life were a little different than it is right now sure would be a lot better i never thought that way now you're going to say well i have thought that way i thought it this morning okay fine so now this is why we're learning it today this is why you learned this right now so that tomorrow you can try to not say that and if tomorrow doesn't work you try the day after tomorrow and you can drive the day after tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow ibra morgan you keep trying until we can finally get up in the morning and say hashem made the ami i'm really actually giving thanks real acknowledgement real gratitude which is whatever you have in store for me it's beautiful i just want to show up and be present for it all right that's why this moment is called the present because hashem's giving you a present and we have to give him our presence okay that is not the end of chapter seven there's still more and we still haven't reached the top of the ladder of development but we're gonna hold off there for tonight and continue amirza hashem tomorrow night oh somebody has a question here hold on a second aha here's the question i'm going to read the question out loud i'm not going to say who wrote i don't even know who wrote it but you keep asking us so i'll tell you because i keep asking you hey what's up how you guys doing so i'll tell you bonkers i'm doing okay i thought you were going to say as long as my hand is good you knew not to say that okay well actually i'm doing okay frustrated that in life we don't get to a plateau where we've made it not after marriage not after kids why is the shalom bias journey still having ups and downs and challenging so sometimes when does it get easier bar hashem felt like sharing things okay you're so right you're so right when do we get to rest when do we ever get to rest i'm going to tell you what the laba should ever said regarding parshas vayeshev the name vayeshev means resting settling the yesh of yankev the madhush talks about yankev after everything he went through he had to run away from home because his brother wanted to murder him his twin brother wanted to murder him and then he goes to he works for his father-in-law his father-in-law rips him off and after everything that happened in vietnam he just wanted to settle down and then his beloved son gets thrown in a pit and sold into slavery right he could never rest and the medler says hashem is telling him you want to rest in the next world you'll rest so that everyone spoke about this but the fact there's just no rest it just it never ends it never ends so someone wrote in the chat when we die okay yeah i mean if you want to be morbid you want to rest you can rest when you're dead all right but i want to be a little bit more uplifting than that and not just to make people feel good but for the sake of actually being accurate we need mashiach because enough already enough already it's like the whack-a-mole game you're pounding down these little things gus when we get one thing settled in life something else pops up that's the nature of gullus and it's insanity and that's why we need mashiach and then we can finally rest we're not going to have all these issues cropping up constantly in life but then you're going to say to me but hold on isn't it good that we should always have challenge and then we have to overcome it and then we push back against it and then we grow yeah 100 right but there are different kinds of challenge look even in inaudible they go from one strength to the next but that's a positive way of not having rest so we need rest from our troubles no question we need meshiach now and then if you want to have growth you want to have constant development it can be all in a positive way of getting to know hashem more and more and more and more just as hashem is infinite so progress that we can make in getting to know hashem is infinite and that's the answer to that question very much piquetsa nimrodz okay fine so that's where we're gonna work that's where we're going to stop for tonight with chapter seven we'll continue message him tomorrow night