Sensation or Emotion?

three in the morning now walking across the hallway upstairs where the bedrooms are they've got the big fluffy carpet this is important later for the story that it's a fluffy carpet and I'm walking and my kid was playing Legos earlier in the day you know I'm going you're cringing already you're wincing you see trigger warning okay and I'm walking across the carpet and and there's that moment you just know you just stepped on a Lego and there's nothing you could do and it feels like an hour it's a millisecond but it feels like an hour time stops and you know there's nothing you're gonna feel that pain and you feel it and you scream out that's pain that's pain that's an automatic stimulus response that's a reflex there's no judgement that you didn't think about it you didn't interpret it there's nothing going on intellectually it's just it's neurological bad pain now a second after that I bury my face in my hands and I say why does stuff like this always happen to me [Music] that's the suffering that self-inflicted that's the judgment that's the story I tell myself about the pain so I can't control the response when I feel the pain which again is not a feeling like an emotion it's a feeling like a sensation like I feel hungry I feel tired but what I get to do is choose my interpretation so I read a victim script about it why does stuff like this always happened to me now I'm sad but I make myself sad I chose to take the pain stimulus and tell myself a story about how I'm the Navajo how I'm the loser I'm pathetic I'm the main character and my own tragedy so here's here's here's the news pain and pleasure are not this same as joy and sadness to the extent like we said before you can be in pain and be happy and I didn't mention this but conversely it reasons it's it's reasonable to say and we actually know this who those of us who've experienced it have you ever ate the whole cheesecake at 3:00 in the morning because you thought it would make you feel better right you can be experiencing pleasure and be profoundly sad so they don't go together you can be in pain and be happy and you can be feeling pleasure and be sad Society told us they're interchangeable they're the same thing so what do we do when we're not feeling joy when we're not happy we fill ourselves with more and more and more pleasure with this cruel lie that we brought into that there's some amount of pleasure that will someday equate will amount to joy and it's a lie because there's no critical mass there's no tipping point there is no amount of pleasure that will ever equal one iota of joy and conversely and conversely not people not that people like to hear this but there's no amount of pain that has to equal sadness I do not have to choose the emotion of sadness as a response to my pain you