Rosh Hashanah: Shame - The Way to Repentance - Rabbi Dovid Goldwasser

it's hard to get the feeling that the coming human nor I am represent to all of us we all want to do teshuva everybody everybody in the world there isn't anyone who does not feel I want to become better I want to become stronger I want to do more mitzvot there are certain of a road certain bad things I want to stay away from there is not a Jew in the entire world that does not want to become better the only thing is we have to know how do we achieve it I said last year I want to be better was I not much better I don't know I said the year before I want to be better am I better than two years ago I don't know I hope I didn't slip so how is it that I motivate myself to become better how is it that I understand that I want to pray better I want to dive in better I want to learn better I want to do a better has said I want to listen elder Erica meme I want to listen to the great said he came better and followed their words how do I do it that is what basically I believe Rosh Hashanah is all about in Yom Kippur it's about the motivation of myself being able all of us individually being able to do teshuva so how do we do it how do I make sure that this year is different that this is the year that's going to make the difference that I'm going to be so fair for everything good and I can actually become different not the same like it is every year it's an interesting thing ksama Vanya said Sadiq LaRocca cicuta again Elena it's good to be Megan all of all of us all the whole world so he said an interesting thing there was a man he was going together with another fellow and he was travelling between towns he was on the road and it started raining and hailing and it was cold and they were afraid they would make it through the night maybe it's gonna be the elements are too strong they will perish they'll die all of a sudden a carriage comes along carriage a man on the top of the carriage of the big hood on and underneath it's a compartment where you can say he pulls to the side of the road then he says to them coming in would you like to come on the carriage it's a bad night raining and pouring huh are you kidding this is like Matano that came from heaven Shem just sent us this of course we want to go in so they go inside to open the door they go in the carriage one sits down on one side a little bench and the other sits down on the other side not bad no rain no hail no win there inside nice cozy and warm all of a sudden the man taps his leg there is something in the middle in the middle where they're sitting they look down a little bit of light comes into the window and they see it's orange it's a place for a mace with an Oran coughing already it wasn't the same trip any boy there they're together with the are on may theme sitting there okay but still they don't have to have the rain they don't have to have the wind they don't have the hell it's still dry everything is good they're sitting there everything's going along good all of a sudden they see that the mint then if star begins moving he's moving around he starts getting up oh no no what's going on they're both screaming the wagon driver hears something going on and they begin to tell him shove that fall shove go back go back down the wagon driver says wait wait wait wait reg hold on for a minute everything is ok there was a guy just like you that wanted to come in he was very tired he was a sojourner so I told him to come in he says do you mind if I lie down he said I'm not sure that you want to lie down but if you want to you could so he lied down it was nice in there what is it some about you says the whole year we get a ride it's a ride we're riding all um I said all of us and I thought that ìiím we're riding along and we take a ride sometimes it's a nice ride sometimes not so nice sometimes there's a few things in the road but we still take the ride then all of a sudden it comes to be Rosh Hashanah it comes to be the Amaze Leah called Baraka meme and all of a sudden we all have heat on Ruth we all have inspiration and we begin to get excited and we understand that it's the time we're going to say just in a few days all of the retardant soaked and all the things that we're going to read about the day of judgement me yeah all the things that we're going to learn key Vacarro ed Robertson Otaka chief tow that we all going under the shavette the shave it that Hashem counts us in all the days in all the years they had are counted so a person gets excited we get nervous we get a little bit upset when they start saying that V joy we all get a little upset but then after a while the younger ìiím pass shove be everything be quiet everything is gonna be good once again everything is going to be nice Seska comma vadia that a person has to learn from the entire idea of the UM the Rhoyne not to lose the inspiration not to lose the excitement to carry it with us from the first day of Elul Rosh Hashanah continuing on until way way past Sukkot in the year but how do we do it so here is a suggestion and I'd like to read to you a Rambam it's a Rambam who codifies the laws of shofar and it's in the first paragraph - debate omec - how you talk in Barrow Shoshanna be chauffeured akkad they used to blow the chauffeur one chauffeur which they had sewed throat minute studying and from either side there was two trumpets okay I'll show from my rear the chauffeur would blow long maharaja road maquettes road but the hot sytrus they would blow short sham its Vata yom be shofar because the main Mitzvah is shofar very interesting there it says that an individual should have a tremendous heat or root from hearing the shofar that they take all of the lessons that were supposed to learn they inspire themselves they get excited they understand what it is to do chuva they understand what i have to bear in mind that goes on during these days times sulfur writes the following bucket sites royce with coal shofar hurry oh but HUD sites royce the trumpets were Kolchak or hurry you it sounded rush a tables it has the head letters the acronym of boosha boosha embarrassment shame I got to have shame like we say in the video hurry Aniela funakichi flee male Busha off Lima I'm like a vessel filled with shame and embarrassment that's what we say by this Lee code so what does it mean it means that in order for a person to understand that maybe we have to do teshuva we got to have a little bit of shame not a lot but a little bit of embarrassment if I went and I did that Vader if I did something wrong and I never felt bad about it so I'll never come to really doing teshuva I'll do a little tissue Bob because I realized that it's the time of DIN and I have to do something so I'll hit my heart I will try I'll say the V joy but will I feel it not unless a person hits the slightest bit of embarrassment and that embarrassment is the thing that we have to work on all of us that we walk in a sham watches us no matter where we're at no matter how hidden we are behad rated RM that Hashem sees us and from that I have to understand that there are things that I'm not proud of things that went on in the past I'm not proud of I hurried through the Telos I'm not proud of it one day I said something to my mother and maybe I shouldn't have said it it was too harsh and I'm not proud of that I'm embarrassed my mother she gave to me birth she woke up in the middle of the night she gave to me the bottle she changed me she cared she went without food to give me food and now I went and I spoke against her I spoke words that were not nice I got to be embarrassed this is the way that we have to go in this world I did something that maybe was a mitzvah that I didn't put enough cavanaugh into I have to be a little bit embarrassed that's the way that we have to approach it it will approach it in that way so listen to this any person that has guilt or embarrassment if they have Busha so it says the following any Busha that a person has over any Avira more clean I'll call Ivana top that the person is forgiven for all of their ave wrote that means not only for the veyron that i was embarrassed about that I didn't speak to my mother nicely and I'm embarrassed about it I'm forgiven for that I am forgiven for all the other wrote that I did only thing that I have to do is to be embarrassed to be a little bit shame I'm sorry how did I do that I always wondered how does a person come to embarrassment and in fact it's a lock ah if somebody comes in so we know in order to touch your wine that you'll be able to use it it has to be someone who has emunah it has to be someone who is show me Shabbat if they touch your wine it's not lavage ow you cannot use it however we learn in your idea that if the person would be embarrassed if they would see an atom cashews and they would not be McHale Shabbat in front of him they wouldn't do anything wrong then you can trust it why because they have Busha they have embarrassment they do feel for something the only thing is they haven't worked to be embarrassed in front of a sham but in front of an atom casual they are afraid so if they're smoking the cigarette unless Shabab Kozma Shalom and all of a sudden they see you walking down the street and I'm casual and they say whoa they put the cigarette behind their back and they hide it don't worry if they touch your wine so great is the element of Busha so great is the element of shame that they understand that mulling low I'll call a bolo table that they get Mahela for all of their RV rows for all of them it's an amazing thing furthermore let me give one step further by Amish well I'll show no more here Gaston e la la so see why did you raise me up to disturb me he was upset he was already in the other world so she well said to show why you raised me up why did you do that Joe said to him ah Salima oh please I didn't raise you up from the dead for no reason I had a good reason why because I BIG's are who police team they'll come in be the police team are after me the path the Felicia Maher getting me nervous that they may overrun me Bello Kim sir male I and a Shamus turned away Hashem to Valentina sham did not answer me did not answer me out beyond the vm gamba hallo boat I tried to ask in the beam I tried that's the profits of I should go to war if I'm gonna win or not I asked in Columbus I made all types of different poulos to find out the answer the crawler Carlo da Niemeyer said I had to raise you up from the other side to know what should i do should I go to war shouldn't go to war I have to ask so there's a great question Rashi says why did it of course we know show lamella should have asked what in order to know whether to go to war or not we're in Matua me just ask should I go to war or not and it will light up and the way the person will know directly from uh Shem the answer is no he was not going to get an answer because he killed out no Eric on him because he did something that he shouldn't have done he was not going to be answered so he was embarrassed to bring it up he didn't say I went to consult to ARIMA to him and they didn't answer me I got no answer whatsoever because of his own embarrassment that is unreal because of that we learned in oil bathe hoof I'll evolve there it says yachts Tabasco vu Umrah Bahia Shem he is the chosen one of our Shem and in fact it was given to him the answer Baksh well uh nobody told him mehar October now for a me tomorrow you are all together with me I'm gonna be Oakland on Emmy mimicking sassy you are together with me in my confine why because he had Busha because he was afraid he was ashamed so how do you get us how does a person get ashamed it's a brazen world it's the world that a person could say anything that they want at any time and you're allowed to get away with anything and people will do it in the straight like it says in the Mishnah everybody knows in at times it Nishioka it says that the young people will spit in the face of this k name it says a lot of things will happen there's no Busia who cares who cares what happens today I'll say whatever I want to whomever I want so it's interesting thing I went to Miami and there was a Rob who was in northern Florida and he wanted that I should come to say Asher you're beautiful so I flew into this place and there was a fellow picked me up it was three hours until this she were started she says Robbie I would like to take you to the museum I have with the dough I brought a few sorry but no no it's quick I just want to show you some amazing Museum just a little bit I could not talk this guy out of going to the museum no matter what he took me the museum and I went I went with him short thing it's a big big Union to make another Jew happy if I'll be miss American to go the museum should be a cappella so I took him in the museum it's a hands-on experience I went down and there was exhibit you go in each exhibit the first exhibit you go in by yourself and it's in front of a mirror they close the door and you stand in front of the mirror open the door you go to the next when you go around then after about 20 minutes you come to the end and at the end on the other side I hear what I'm coming to the end people are screaming with laughter people are having the time of their lives they cannot stop laughing they bent over what is it the last room that you go to is a two-way mirror when you look in that first room the people went into the mirror they can see from the other side what the people are doing do you know what a person does in front of the mirror don't let your mind go you can't imagine people making faces they're doing all kinds of funny things right and then the other person is watching and everybody's laughing and I'm standing there crying not that I did anything in front of the mirror but I began to think to myself I enroll Oz in Shabazz Muhammad al-abbas a predictive in the eye sees the ear that hears and all of our my seem are written down in the safer I began to think to myself how clear it is from that then a person never knows Busha that means that sometimes I have to understand that I need to take some shame and put it into my life I need to think about it I need to worry about what exactly am i doing and how is it going to be perceived how embarrassed we are we say one word we said something to another individual it didn't come out right and then I say I'm so embarrassed I could just I won't say that word why because of Busha it is so so embarrassing to us I can't even take it I'm too nervous about the whole thing how interesting column abend Panetta Maryborough beam ke lo hago if a person embarrasses another individual in public so we see how great is embarrassment if we only have a little bit of embarrassment over something that we have done or over the past year that is unbelievable because is the key it is the muffed out to a person having complete Mithila what else can you do immediately to get such Mithila very few things me give you one more example we know that at the time the erin was nervous to approach the MIS pea irenna Cohen was embarrassed he was nervous to go to the Miss Bell so Michelle Ribeiro said Erin what's going on here La Motta bouche why are you embarrassed why are you afraid that you're the coin you're supposed to go to these baths of course you should go look out the bush why are you afraid so the reason was everybody knows when Aaron went so he pictured that the miss bath was like an eagle he had a part in the eggless of whatever he did he had to do it but still he had a part when he came there he pictured it he saw the agel in front of him and he recoiled he went back how can I do it say go I'm reminded of my formula of a road what did mushroom a no tell him Lacock Novato because of that you were chosen why so the before him tell us the reason is is because he was embarrassed because he saw the a go because he remembered the old thing that he did and he was shamed over it that is specifically why he was the one that was chosen to be the chef see boar for bnei yisrael that's an unbelievable thing of a person we'll think about it how an individual is able to see certain things and be able to approach it even if they're embarrassed now I will tell you something an interesting thing we should overcome that embarrassment to doom it's vote even if one time we were upset even if one time we did something and we messed up in the middle don't be embarrassed it's a mitzvah you go right to it and you do it a very interesting thing happened someone who's in Queens a very big singing star very big singing star I asked and I'm going to tell you what took what the South was they came to me from Israel a family of about eight people to the dining room they came to my dining room they had a special need that they wanted to tell me about there is a girl lo elena boyko beta-cell who Nina needs a kidney and they brought her they sat there and I began to talk with them none of them religious and I began to tell them we got to do something some money had to be raised said to be taken care of and so forth and I made a whole plan how to do it with all of them with the family and and they said thank you very much and they were gonna call me I did not take anyone's number they don't call me I began to make plans I began to do things nobody called me I figured what it she doesn't eat it she doesn't need it but they came they don't need it well I was crying there I was crying a young woman needs a kidney like that a girl not too I didn't understand it two months later I get a call I would like to come to your house with my family I didn't cop it's the same family they came back all of them back in the dining room and I said but tell me you were here we were supposed to start right away what happened no no no no we came and we saw that you're Dottie and we knew you wouldn't help us that wouldn't help you I love anybody I will help anybody that's not matter to me who it is and any one will help anyone there's not qualifications of who to help however we called the same person again and he said I told you to go to Goa sir you didn't go through a gold one yes we did but he's done so what does that have to do with it go back to him and he pushed him they should go back I want to tell you what a kiddush Hashem was the girls from the Beit Yaakov took her back and forth for dialysis the trip was 45 minutes because she was very tired afterwards they got a huge car and they set up a pillow and a blanket like a bed with a sheet in the back they constantly took him back and forth they brought her food they saw to her they visited her they did everything finally the was a kidney that was available we needed money so I called somebody from Queens a big star he was not always from we're not always religious and I said would like to make a concert and I would like you to be the person that would sing he told me the Rob is calling I'll do it immediately we set up I didn't realize the place that they had gotten was a nightclub ok nightclub but wasn't a nightclub on that night revered oh don't worry it wasn't I said it was a nightclub but on that night it was only for our use so I go he picked me up he came in from Queens picked me up and this Kohath the star he goes and he asked me the address it told me address we get out he sees the building master Shia he sees the building he puts his head against the wall I cannot go in I said why he told me I used to play in this club and it wasn't right I'm embarrassed to go inside to this club I said what you have to I cannot when I see this club I see everything that it represents I told him what we just learned when our of the coin came and he saw the meets bath and he saw the a go and he said I can't do it I can't go any further it's impossible it reminds me of something well sharavino said Lacock Nakata that's the reason why you were chosen to go in I told him you're chosen you go in you're met Akane you will rectify all the the tikkun for everything that was done in the past will be tonight he went in and I tell you the truth if you ever saw somebody that had to force themselves I'm standing by the door he had to force himself force himself to walk in the door is a hozeva Chava he goes in all I can tell you that when he's saying a certain song about Emunah everybody was moved to tears everybody everybody that night enough money was raised the young woman got her kidney the whole family made a su da da da they wrote about you do doc Ranaut they called me hat see ma la I told them I'm not hot see I'm Charlene but okay they went back the whole family and every once in a while I get a regard to them that's bullsháá that is what a person is able to feel the embarrassment another another interesting example what happened by Yeshua scholarship a lo keem miss Alice began other merkava they did a big Avera they got one little Mitzvah that they had to observe don't eat from the ate saudade one Mitzvah everybody says if I wouldn't be Jewish so I only have seven bits up and they know I'm not a problem it would be a cinch you find me some people that are able to watch this sheva mitzvos bnei know I can oh I'll tell you it's not so simple to find okay so one Mitzvah and unfortunately they didn't do it so what happened so they heard a sham they heard a sham coming into GaN he was walking they heard him approaching like Hebei are dumb beasts o myth national who came all the macabre they went to hide they went down hi you know arrayed they had underneath the table they're hiding from a Shem oh no good rubella Micaiah said what was it it was they had great Busia they had great embarrassment she's le carré that is the main idea of the chuva Hibou shamaness eight remaining back ayah says the fact that they went and they were embarrassed that in itself was Chava do you ever wonder why they were able to live did you ever wonder what happened with them that even kyon did teshuva that's what happens when a person is able to gain a little bit of inspiration to be embarrassed and what was it Hashem made for them remember from the leaves they were able to cover themselves because they realized that when they were without clothing so why was it from the tree so the before him say because the Taccone came in rectifying that are sin in being mythic and Avera the way to do it was by using the leaves from that tree which would now mean that they would have the tea cone for what they did wrong this is something that if a person realizes the depth of what bush is if they realize the depth of all the things that a sham wishes us to understand about our lives in this world then it is on a much much different level I was a boy in yeshiva yeshiva knees Flatbush and I remember there used to be a guy that would come in every day I would say his name but I'll say his name I mean so Carla talked he used to come in a shopping bag guy whatever a man from the streets the older man and there would be a coupon it would be a pushing on the wall from her be mayor ballin s he would come in in the middle of a seder everybody would be learning nicely while learning and he would come in with some coins all of a sudden he would start to shake and he would start to tremble and he would start yelling to look and everybody would begin laughing every day because he was putting the money in he disturbed the whole Seder and everybody it was like a matinee everybody was laughing in the afternoon because he was putting on this whole thing he meant it he meant it one day there was a a rough that came in from nearby he came in to premium huh and afterwards he stayed to learn he saw this Jaime come in and start with stuck and shaking and yelling and he saw the guys laughing after Jaime left he came up and he clapped he said you know it's interesting we laughing at him right now after 120 years we'll go up to shibaemon gun Adan and will stand between all the great study came in Russian CID Conneaut and who knows who will be laughing at who at that point our life in this world is to help to understand each of us what does it mean what does it mean that a person should be able to hold their head high when somebody says a sham no but God no goes on though and they mean it I don't mean goes all new he probably stole I never stole anything he borrowed OFI I never said a word said anything he's odd no you think I'm deceitful person huh Lots no I'm the serious person in the world I never tell jokes there are people I guess like it's a unified video for everybody so I have to be made about there for other people myself I'm only maybe one of the things there the other things but none of it says hey Adam Osamu not only I got to worry about your shampoo but every Avira that starts with an olive internet I mean know that into whatever I shall go they wrote that start with a given with a dollar but hey I don't even want to think about it but Bush no we are embarrassed when I see that I get embarrassed when I see that I shake because I'm ashamed I know I did something I'm not gonna say didn't do anything I did do it Who am I gonna say I didn't do it it's a big mixer to say that we did do it you Madame they cut a damn right he did a varus awesome said a Dom you ate from date Sadat you know what he said a healthy I ate well it's a load I'm gonna eat more he says I ate and I'm gonna eat more I did that there I'm gonna do it again so you know what it's like I don't know if they had this when you were in school they said a truant officer if you cut school right you ditch school and you're in the pizza shop or somewhere so the officer came and said uh young man where are you from which school he had to say okay come with me you got into trouble right so what if the truant officer comes there he sees him in a pizza shop and he says okay yosef tell me what are you doing there she says officer I tell you the truth I'm cutting school right now and next Wednesday with a cut school again huh how could he do such a thing it's an impossibility but it says that beret olam loved what he said that I Shem loved what he said so how could it be you know the reason because Adam knew himself he confessed and he said I know that I might do it again that is he is sewed into chuva I know that I didn't Avira I know that I did something wrong and I'm afraid that I may repeat it that is something that's beautiful that is something when a person can admit that they did something wrong we also say Bose knew McCallum we are embarrassed from every nation so the Great Manchester Russia Sheba of Segel's if it's illegally brought fast a question what does it be emotionally : we're worse than any nation we're not worse we're not maybe the nations don't like us but we're not worse I'm you surround me calm Kakaako Barrett's who is like cloud yourself where is this such guy said where is this such learning where is this such care about the world where there's such loyal citizens where are there people that worry about a sham where are there people that worry about mankind and humankind in establishing truth injustice and everything where's our people like Claudius or L where's our people that are so downtrodden with all the current situations and politically and so forth and sanctions against eretz yisrael cosmic Sholem all the where is there a nation like lies out there isn't there isn't any none could compare but we say motion McCollum so what the Manchester receiver said is that sometimes a person picks up things from the outside world and from the outside world we have to be embarrassed Bost McCollum I pick up a little bit over here I pick up a little bit over there and in the meantime I get a little bit nervous because maybe it is worn off on me the outside world the beauty the beauty of Torah anytime the beauty of Torah anytime is that it gets to every place in the world and it is able to offset brush no McCollum because people around the world they could see all kinds of things on the internet all kinds of things 8 Sadat's toys Marah but what did they watch they watch urine they watch every kind of shoe on every possible minion on every Yom Tov on every myths on every possible in janosh kappa that's the unreal thing so we don't have to say Bush to me : because they save us from that it's a difficult thing for us to know but even in the way that a person may know that perhaps I could be better if we listen to people around the world and we take from them and we realize what people go through certain hardships then we feel a lot different about our own other da I would like to give you just two examples just two very simple examples there is a person that I saw he was learning in the Beit Midrash he was learning so I walked over to him and he said to me could I ask you some words that I don't understand I said sure could you tell me this word he asked me a word in the Mishnah and I told him what it means he said could you tell me this word and I told him that I came back in the same beit midrash seven hours later and the guy was sitting there as soon as I can't says I I don't want to bother you Rebbe and he meant it I felt so bad who could I ask you another couple what was that word then he writes it as that word I said I'm sorry could you tell me were you here since I came in in the afternoon he says yes I said you stayed here all the time he said it was it okay this was okay you're holding up the world I said okay the world is on your shoulders and I thought to myself he has a problem with translating a few words in a Mishnah in he sits for seven hours uninterrupted goldwasser hold on for a second it's article did you sit seven hours maybe you could touch the whole thing up maybe you know the whole minute maybe you know the whole Gemara did you sit seven hours no Cebu sure I understand it I know what they're going through that's an unbelievable thing it's mchavez it obligates us there's a woman that comes to me Shabbat morning before Dominick before Tila she said I have a question for you I want to know if I did something wrong if I have to do teshuva I said you don't have to tell me what you did you don't you save me joy to a sham you're not to tell me no no I have to say she said I know I'm not doing something right and I'm embarrassed about this is an older woman older woman I said okay she said before I come in - fela I do the whole thing in less than a kodesh I pray the whole thing in Hebrew when I come in to pray together with everybody I do it in English because I don't understand the Hebrew am i doing a nivara I say to myself who can even imagine this woman she's actually Dominik twice sometimes you know comes on Kippur and you start looking through the bouncer how many pages left and this lady is vomiting twice two three load that's the whole thing Shukria masaf everything twice and she's asking me it's Ana Vera you know I took my sitter that morning I promise you I prayed like I never prayed before I don't like in everybody this is what she did this is unreal one more one more I must tell you how you could become embarrassed they invited me there is an international organization for people that do not have the gift of hearing to hear they invited me to be the speaker and I came there were many people not a lot of from but many that were religious many others came from around the world for various questions various gazook that they needed all types of things they came for everybody had their own reasons and I was to give a sh a or to everyone together with a interpreter and all the people are supposed to come it's a few minutes before thousand people walking around few minutes before my shear the head of the Convention says hey excuse me a rabbi goldwasser I said yes she says I'm sorry to tell you this evening we have an advocate an advocate from for the deaf community in Washington this man advocates for the needs of the deaf he is a very important speaker and everyone will want to hear him unfortunately rabbi we had no choice but we had to schedule him the same time as you so please forgive us it's very important I know because you're a big rabbi you'll understand right you'll understand and you'll you'll be okay that's it fine they gave to me a little room they gave the Advocate a huge room in a convention hall huge hotel magnificent I'm there and the interpreters standing there they give me a nice podium and there are five people in the room okay it's not the comments it's quality not quite at the I said figure good excellent we have already I'm assuming we could say barakaatuh Mazzone there a problem mean Jana we know God but we got that all of a sudden a few more people came then a few more people came then a group came in another group they changed my room so people didn't know where I was the good head of the convention didn't bother to tell him where to show you it was then they began to find out there were so many people that crowded into the room I cannot tell you what a key discussion is the head of the convention came back in by oh boy yeah I got nervous when I saw him he said rabbi I was afraid what he's gonna tell me next he said there's a little difficulty with the room it doesn't going big enough so we want to switch it to a different room went to a different room filled up from front to the back filled filled people came to learn to her not me they came to learn Torah people from all over the world from France and from Italy from everywhere they came in just to learn from Israel all over I gave this year and I'm ready to such beautiful giant giant men and women it's unreal however as I began there were two women that were sitting in the front and the two women are playing some kind of a game like this I don't mind if somebody reads a you have a say for a book I don't mind the people knit in the middle of this year I don't mind whatever people doesn't matter but this kind of a thing I can't take it is too much so you know you don't need to have a PhD in psychology when you try to ignore something you zero in right on them right I tried to ignore it and it's got the irony muscare hey yo I couldn't ignore it and I got so then I tried to turn a little bit like this way you know look at them and then go like this back and forth back and forth finally I said boy I ol um I got a challenge here please it's a Nissan I prayed this morning loli they Nissan I said you gave me help me help me beam it's got there help me that I should be strong so Hashem helped me I gave this your it was the most incredible thing and the the the interpreter kept saying please wrap I slowed now you're talking too fast please little and the people it was unreal they're asking at several times they were able to ask questions at the end everybody was able to come up whoever wanted to ask a question is a lie it's uh they were able to walk up and a lot of people asked unbelievable questions what do they do for shofar on Rosh Hashanah how they you'd say the Mitzvah another person asked me they're in I think there came from France and they don't have possibilities for shidou him what would I suggest that they should do to facilitate she do him for them another person asked me a question that in their local community there's a very good school for their children that are hearing impaired Lowell a no how her the problem is that there's no Judaism for them is it worth while to come to move to the United States or a different country where there is a school and uproot the children from this school and have to learn a new language all kinds of things and the people waiting in line at the end of the line I see the two women you know the ones like this I see the two women so I figured oh hey /m I'm gonna have what to say to these people you know you got to say it the right time okay yeah a semi-circle you got to know when to give Musa I see them coming up everybody else was gone and then I see that the older woman has her hand on the arm of the younger girl and she's walking and the older woman is looking straight ahead with her eyes closed Busha they come and stand in front of me the younger girl said Rebbe we came to ask you a few questions we missed a couple of things in this year you see my mother is not only deaf but she is also blind and the way that I have of talking to her is by signing on her hand we weren't able to get everything and we have a few questions that we would like to ask you these people their level that I bought a session in I at that moment looking at these giants and I came I felt like I was on the ground I felt like how could I even stand there to talk to such people to talk to such people that are standing burro Michelle Elam how high they are in the world and I answered their questions and we went back and forth and I I cannot tell you they asked me I should give to them abraca when they asked me for bra then I lost it I have to tell you the truth I could not hold it all together I lost my composure the only way I could gain it back as I said I will give you a bra at first you'll give to me a bra they both blessed me I made them both the girl as well I walked out CBS TV or whoever they are were there about this incredible convention ya rabbi rabbi please come the head of the guide please please come could you please be interviewed after I went through that experience that kiddush Hashem of a mother and her daughter who does not see and that's not here the only thing I could do is held up my hands to them and said I'm sorry after what I just experienced I don't have any words left and I left we in Claudius Tyrell we have such as the hood we got unbelievable merits all of us every one of us everyone here in the collage orotava with their elasti astrov and everyone in the whole class or wherever you're going to view this South Africa and Australia in London in Switzerland in California in Mexico City and I don't know any heat map in serie or sarajevo or Morocco or Iran or Persia or Tashkent it doesn't matter where Mika I'm who you all go yeah her parents let us have a little bit of Busha a little bit of shame and let us have a lot of pride as we go forward to the Yamuna Roy and we should all be blessed with bravado aha with blessing and success in Ruth Neeson and gosh meais we should have a refill me mission intervals we should happen awesome it's a Beretta all the children should go on the right Derek Sholem bias she'd okay mr. Otto vote everybody in class L should have everything that they want Shalom in Eretz Israel and there's a sham we should hear this year the pomade Michels it came to be in favor of your may not on me