Rosh Hashanah: Are We Being Hypocrites? What's It All About?

one of the main problems I think people have coming into Rosh Hashanah and the high holidays is that how can I possibly stand in the show and pray for many hours and with Grace account sincerity and yet soon after Rosh hashan I'm going to back back to my same ways how can I face myself and not be something like a religious hypocrite I'm trying so hard but in reality I'm not really like that and the person is faced with this and inner struggle what am I going to do to stand there and be honest with myself as if I really play with such intention and such devotion during the rest of the year I think we can answer it with a marshall with a certain parallel a hustle and color have just finished shaver boxes and the cousin decides after the next morning he turns around and says to his his color his new bride I'm going out and she says then what time will you be back be back about seven o'clock she says goodbye to him he leaves the door as soon as the door closes she Dives for the phone takes the phone and quickly calls up on mum mum please tell me how do you make your fabulous soup tell me how to make the soup and she takes a recipe from my mom then she calls a sister who makes wonderful ice cream and she calls her aunt who makes a wonderful potato cool and she calls all different people she's decided to make a gourmet meal for her husband and she works on it for hours and hours she's spending a lot of time on it it takes about four or five hours and by the time it comes to three o'clock in the afternoon she decides to make the house kosher the Pacer she makes everything beautiful she buys some flowers she makes her home absolutely beautiful then takes about an hour from five to six to get ready by 6 30 she's sitting down waiting and her husband walks in and smells immediately what a wonderful smell what's going on in this house what a beautiful smell she says please sit down I put something together put something together put the hours to put it together he sits down and she feels the soup out he takes one sip of the soup and he says my word my mother never ever made soup like this this is fabulous absolutely fabulous the chicken is wonderful that took the vegetables the ice everything is absolutely wonderful at the end of the meal she's sitting there smiling away and he looks at her and he puts his hands on his head and he goes oh this is married life and he's delighted she looks at him and she says what do you mean this is married life he turns out this is how it's going to be every night now I'm going to come back and this is how the house is going to be this is going to be a beautiful meal she looks at him squarely and she says one minute my dear husband of one week let me tell you something quite and she has three points which she wants to make to him the first point is my dear husband I must tell you if I could I would always provide a meal like this for you but I don't know if I'll be able to but you should know if I really could I would want to make for you every time a beautiful meal like this she turns around and she says you know I must be honest with you this took me quite some time to put it together but I thought to myself as I was putting it together if this is how we begin the marriage then I hope I think after one or two years maybe maybe something will be left from the way I started that was maybe only a night and the tablecloth maybe only the flowers on the table but I thought to myself at least let's start in the right way like so I think that's fair comment and she's now decomposing herself and she turns around in the system as well as isn't my dear husband you know I love you very much we've only been married a week but I must tell you something I must be honest with you it could be that one day you'll come in and my children is over my eyes and the house is a mess and nothing's prepared and you'll turn around to me and say to me well what's for supper I'll say well tuna fish and you open the can there's nothing to eat at all but do me a favor she said I said to him do me a favor remember me like this remember me like I am now don't remember me and when when the house is a mess there's nothing to you do me a favor remember me like this isn't this really what we're turning around to the almighty and saying to him when he comes I'm saying to you God if I could I would always pray to you like this I don't know if I'd be able to sometimes I lazy sometimes I'm tired sometimes I don't have the strength to pray to you properly but if I could I would always pray to you like this is really the point of starting the young in such a way if we start off in this way maybe by the time it comes to PESA maybe something will be left something will be left in my prayer maybe something will be staying like this and that's a beautiful point and then we keep on crying out to the almighty and keep them saying to them please remember us for good remember me like this remember me like I'm trying like I'm trying so don't remember me when I really haven't got the strength or the energy or the ability to down and pray to you properly remember me like this and maybe in reality it's something like a day on Parade if I could I would always pray like this and please I hope something will be left and please Hashem please remember me like this don't remember me when I don't pray properly I wish you all success and happiness in mentorship and Hashem to look at our prayers and accept them as they are and their members in this way