Role Playing Vs. Playing Your Role- Rabbi Yisrael field

the holidays don't always coincide with what we're reading in the torah for example pesach is nowhere near the stories of ethios mitzrayim when we read it in the weekly portion yet it says that we need to read about midbar right before schwarz and the question is why what is the connection between parashat has been by midbar and shibuya that we need to make sure we'll we'll create a double parsha beforehand whatever the setup is going to be we have to read about midbar right before she lewis if you open up parties by me but you'll see right away that the first thing it discussed is the jews being counted in the desert and rashi's bothered in so many are we just counted why are we counting ourselves again and he gives the answer he explains to show how important the jewish people are to hashem and i think this is the reason why we have to read it right before shoeless everyone is going to have a kabbalah satoru an acceptance of torah and someone might think ah it's not so important i'm just a simple person no akash who comes and counts you he counts you again right before we receive the torah to show that you are important just like the jews in the time of the torah and that's why we need to have amidbar right before shivuas it's like the way i like to envision is like an army we're referred to the army of hashem several times throughout the torah in an army of the people the paratroopers you have the first front lines you have the intelligence to the people getting coffee for those who are in intelligence but everyone needs to play their role without this person or that person there's no army yes there's different roles some get more limelight than others but they're all just as important there's a fine line between role playing and playing a role role play means you're given a script and you got to go out and act in a certain way playing a role means you understand you have a portion and you're going to do your portion to the best of your ability we're not supposed to be role players actors we're not supposed to be given a script and everyone has to try the same way and who's the best wins we're supposed to roll we're supposed to play our role to say hashem gave you a certain set of skills and you're supposed to take that and play it beautifully and that's what hashem is looking for and he wants to count you with your set of skills before we can have a kabbalah satora there's two gemaras that seemingly are so similar but there's a huge difference between them after we after 120 we're going to be tested by chris brooke who's going to ask us a bunch of questions see how our life went and they all both gemara the good martial shabbos since then engine agree on what the questions are but they disagree on the order the gemara child says the first question you're going to be asked is were you honest in business well the second question is what did you set aside time to learn but the gemaran sun engine has the same two first two but swapped did you set aside time to learn and then were you honestly business well which one is it so the marshall gives such a beautiful answer he explains they're both correct it matters who you are if you were a person who was supposed to sit and learn all day so that's your first question and then the second question was were you honest in business but if you were a person who's supposed to go out to business your first question is were you honest in business and then did you set aside time for learning they're both super important but it's a customized question based off your skill set and that is what cabal satoru is all about we all need to give our portion hashem's counting on us literally and saying that you are important but you have to show up with your role and hashem is judging you and looking and expecting of you based off your individual skill set so as we prepare ourselves for shibuyas this year we should think about what do i have to bring what could i offer because we all need to negotiate we all need to camp together each one of us bringing our role playing our role to accept the torah everyone have a fantastic yantif an amazing kabala satora