Rising through Life's Challenges - Rabbi Fischel Schachter speaking for CHAZAQ!

thank you very much everyone for for coming everyone that's here tonight the de - a lot of them before we were even born in this world because Martin said to us beret alum said to us you're gonna meet X amount of people in the course of your lives and you're going to have an effect on X amount of people and they're gonna have an effect on you and that's gonna be true when you're in your youth and it's going to be true in your adolescence and it's gonna be true as a young young father and a young mother that's not ashamed everyone over here kind of those that weren't already young mothers and young fathers about your children that's a shame grandchildren but at every point in our lives there are no random appointments there is a reason that beret alum put us there and a college bar who is going to say to us you beam a fasiq the next person that person is my physique the next person there's a there's a there's a very complicated network of gazook which is based on each and every one of us doing what we have to do and the truth is that we see this before we are born when a baby is in its mother's womb so there's a angel there's a mallow that comes and the mother gives the child of flesh in that flash we basically see the entire we see all of our lives we see we see more than that we say me so floral I'm out so far what does that mean from the beginning of the world until the end that sounds pretty scary beginning of the world until the end sounds like I tell Kim jong-eun pulls the button hi and you believed me when I said we're stopping and lukela tests what does that mean til the end of the world the end of the world because I'll say that the baby in the mother's womb sees me soft well I'm at sofa it doesn't mean in terms of gloom and doom it doesn't mean in terms of destruction it means that the world has a plan there's a beginning and an end to the world and as we would understand that from higher scene I until Michelle tilde basically crushes built and there's a plan and in that plan we may have strained of course but really if you believe in hazardous hadith in the straying of course is also on course and we're there and things have to connect I was once driving with someone and he was following one of the navigating programs and it took us on a massage Street it was actually in ancestral and he said he's convinced and I have no idea this is true and app and I found out that someone actually made that charge silvano was true that some of these navigate navigating programs they'll take you a little bit of course so you pass through certain stores which those stores pay a commission for and I want you to see certain advertisements again don't sue me I've no idea of this Joanna so I was saying to associate not going of course you're going according to course they're not taking you of course they have a very precise course for you it's good you're going off course where you would like to don't have to show us this is two points but they have a different husband while you have to go while you made a right instead of the left but if you look at a map it looks like you could have done a little bit better because they wanted you to drug by certain stores in our lives sometimes it looks like we're going off course we have what we would imagine we want our life to be we imagine you know as a child when we're gonna get married and we imagine when we're gonna have children when we're gonna have granted all figured out until the nursing home right but although most people don't pick their nursing homes when they're young they say be nice to your children because they're the ones that pick your nursing homes but we kind of we kind of have a vision we young kind of have a vision for our life and for very few people does life follow that vision and really what our we have to do is to we believe in barea lemon we believe in haha it's that we're not of course there's a reason that the boreal Amma wants us here so hug our is wandering around and she's lost tourists the Kumar says she's lost now she tells us what does it mean she's lost that she went after Gillooly base severe that she went back to the idol worship of her father's house how do you know that for the means may be lost means lost going North instead of South may be lost means you know I 95 North instead of South which is a very bad mistake to make being that North takes you to the tip of Maine itself takes you to the bottom of the Florida Keys and the answer is and many of them the first should say it that in the Torah there's nothing called lost it can't be lost because God's vision is over everything he sees everything how can you be lost he knows exactly where you are it's like a mother puts a child to play in a little yard and the yard is gated in and the mother is watching and the kid goes from this sliding pond to the little private yard the mother is watching from the porch at one point the child a little toddler may think he or she is lost but the mother is watching the child the whole time mother knows exactly what the childhood Berea alum knows exactly where we are he knows where we are physically knows where we are emotionally and sometimes he sends us because he different places for reasons that we may or may not understand that we have to be there and that's really what I think physic with a Q is I think about how Q goes right it's round and then it drops down a little bit there's even a little thing that comes up depending and how you your second grade teacher told you to spell Q it's that and you're gonna say this is a strange-looking circle I said no it's not it's holding the lollipop what's a little hook at the bottom that's to give you a good grip on it in in in in our world it looks like we're gonna go okay we're going from here to here it'll take me this amount of time Sulli there's this long stick and we're dropping right through this wasn't supposed to happen I supposed to get a mortgage on my house this she Duke was supposed to go through what is going on over here I'm supposed to get this job my boss like me what happened why did he tell me one day that you know I would love to have you but you know we can't afford it well what what happened I supposed to be such a beautiful young t'v and I sat down to the Seder table got into this fight this meaningless fight why in the second thing is that you know my grandmother said maybe you find something cells to spend you know how clasper showed me no one q but we don't want you something like that Bo a alum knows exactly where you are he knows exactly where you're supposed to be and yeah maybe does want you in front of a certain store but it's not of course the navigating process is not making a mistake the navigating process knows exactly where it's sending you today was some say the art said of a mayor Belen s but I want to go a little bit later there was a rabbi in Lodge Poland his name was rapidly o Khayyam my soul's the lodger of and you lived in Poland a very very difficult time lived in the time where anti-semitism was taking on a whole new meaning after World War one people understood a whole different meaning and anti-semitism until that time the world really believed that no one hated us it's just they wanted to convince us to join their religion the Crusades and nothing to do with hating Jews it just they wanted us to see the truth right see the whatever Spanish Inquisition had nothing to do with hating us as Jews no just have to do it King Ferdinand and they wanted to Turk oedema and although you know they were one of us to see the light so to speak so of course the Haskalah the Enlightenment said if he would only drop religion and wouldn't look like a Jew that would be the end of anti-semitism then a strange thing happened in Europe to world toward world war one had the whole period of the Renaissance know the last thing you want is a history lesson it's almost as good as grammar but basically there was a revolution against religion so oh oh if there's a revolution against religion and if the church no longer runs countries and even in Europe there's some level of separation of church and state that should be good for Jews right that should be the end of hatred to Jews and suddenly a new kind of hatred swept into the air Hitler didn't hate Jews for religious reasons he didn't really have a good reason for hating Jews other than there was a Jewish doctor that treated his mother or maybe saved him that wolfen happens when you do someone a favor he hates you wolf and said had a grandfather used to help everyone helped everybody and if somebody heard him he would look to help him and the herd once and my grandmother told you know were you going to help that guy cuz he didn't do you a favor we have to go help him stay home it's late it's raining but deer doesn't maybe suddenly the religious anti-semitism right in late 1800s Early 1900s was replaced with what kind of anti-semitism I hate you because you're Jewish it doesn't necessarily have to do a few religion and I think it was Rothschild to said Lord war child has said that it's not my probably wine as beautiful sure and honest it explains a bit but basically he said it's not my religion that you hate it's my nose that you hate and the larger I've lived in this time anti-semitism in Poland was beyond the imagination a lot of it had to do with the fact that there was a feudal system that the local landowners ran rib basically controlled their territory there was a very weak federal government in the form of a king and there was no middle class in Poland there was the nobility they rode around on horses and they had these long long swords don't really figure out why they were so long and they were the Knights and they had to clunk around on this heavy armor a whole day which makes you very very upset because it gets very hot it did not have any internal air-conditioning and sometimes they ran out of wars you know they have to come up with more so you had the nobility and you had the peasants and the peasants worked on the farms for literally pennies and whatever pennies they made you know they spent it in the tavern that was owned by the landowner when they came home without any money and their wife would yell at them they would beat up their wives it was a certain kind of a culture there wasn't a middle class the only middle class were the Jews Jews were not allowed to own land and Jews were restricted from many of the many of the ways of making Prentice on one of the ways that Jews made pronounce was if nobleman a wanted to lend money with interest in nobleman be you technically weren't allowed to do that now they lend money with interest but if the Jew is in the middle you can and also the nobleman's would send the Jew to collect the rent from the peasants so if the peasant who was paying something like 30 or 40 or 50 or 70 percent interest you know the Jew came banging on his door simply he was getting a pittance but he was working for the nobleman obviously the hatred to the jews increased then you had World War one where it was Unleashed and we don't understand the world war one is not studied because it's so dwarfed by world war two if you're under the fifty thousand Jews lost they're alive me I'm not saying Jews and just human life in general World War one was an insane war war just there was going nowhere no one had the courage to stop it but they were there were there were total Jewish Jewish little villages throughout Europe that were totally uprooted and the Jews were thrusted into the cities after World War one and there was not enough place for them and you were in the way you were in the way of the regular poll and they were in the way they didn't want to be there but they were in the way and the anti-semitism simmered simmered higher and here ee-ah Haim is the rub of lodge and so after World War one and he's dealing with hundreds of thousands of refugees and he was a great scholar a great Tom McLoughlin and at one point in his life he said God listen I didn't make World War one I didn't create the political climate you did so clearly you want me to do what I have to do and what he did was he closed his Gemara and he closed the shelf in Iraq and he went out there and did whatever he could that the literally hundreds of thousands of women in Manila slung sham protect us all there were widows and orphans had a place to live and he provided for them for mourning tonight and never stopped and never stopped and went to the rich and argued with the government very often at risk to his own life it's one of the great scholars of that time as a crime eisah who was the grand rava Vilna no small bowel hazard in his own right and he met rebellion and her claim Eleazer gave him his say free says this is my scholarly work the accuser and rubella yoke I am looked at and he said I'll bring you my scholarly work I'll bring you my work he's it really never that you wrote a safer very good I'd love to see it a great guy and he came back with six huge bags of receipts of IOUs that he owed every single rich Jew in the whole world because he borrowed money to be able to pay and he was breaking his back to tried to pay it back he says what should I tell you this is my scholarly safe the only thing I can tell you is I can almost guarantee you that there are hundreds if not thousands of widows and orphans that did not die of hunger because I keep borrowing and selling and borrowing and trying to support and going after people now clay miser took the the bag of receipts and he kissed it he said what a safer and he began to cry and he said who knows who's safer whose work is not going to be mark our children Shania and I want to tell you the clay miser himself was an unbelievable Volquez is beyond imagination who he was was a man that came to Vilna where acclaim Iser lived and he wanted to get into the Jewish Hospital there was a Jewish Hospital which was built because Jews weren't allowed into the other aspect and they told him you know that it's hard enough for the keeper the doctors to keep up with the workload over here you can't come from the outside and come you know me so he began to cry they told you get a letter from the rabbi you can come so it took him a few days he got to the rabbi's house and he couldn't get in he couldn't get into the house that was blocked he ran around the back he was desperate what doesn't one do for a child and he ran up the back and jumped in through a back window whatever climbers were sitting there and deep in thought by a table and he looked at him like what are you doing not a good in the wrong time zone to be a burglar supposed to it late at night he said Rebbe I beg of you please I beg of you please know that story there's a rabbi was sitting at learning three a.m. and all of a sudden through the skylight he sees two feet dangling and he sees this guy drops now he's wearing a ski mask over his face unfortunately it was showing also and he goes oh no he goes and there he didn't think the rabbi was up at 3 a.m. and he's holding a sack and the Raval he takes off his ski mask and he says ma yeah how are you nice of you to drop in like this can I help you it goes why are you here he goes rabbi I came because I had a child I had a question he does yeah what's your question because how do you get out sir kind wiser turns around and his name comes in through the window and he's there and he says - what are you doing here she says ran by my son is dying I need a letter for you to get him into the hospital finalizar sits down and pens a letter he asks him he inquires about the condition of the child and he pens a very very complicated and letter and gives it to him and says go he says you know go out the same way you came in let's understand why he jumps back out is crawling around he sees a huge crowd he says what's going on over here why doesn't she just crowd any one's waiting to see the rabble I says you didn't hear today is the funeral the rabble eyes only daughter that passed away she was 12 years old and he was sitting over there reflecting on you know what on the tragedy that just took place and this man climbed it and instead of telling him wherever he would anyone normal person would have told him at that given time he said it's a God sent him over here God sent him at this moment or climbers relator they asked him before the funeral of your daughter gone through bid no one ever should be tested he said to me to heal viewed it there was God's nekoma Velen there was God who came to console the mourners that's how he viewed it see you see whatever crime eyes were saved all these she brought he told him to come to villain on his responsibility and my father was amongst them and they went from there to Shanghai and they were rescued and saved China is there was no small bow hesed but he looked at your belly oh I am the rabbi of lodge and he looked at his bag of receipts the way the rabbi came out and said this is my safer this is my scholarly work and if my misery began to cry and he said who knows who's safer is mark more casual who knows who's safer is more precious in shinai so rebel yokai in saris follows it says ischaemic nasedo kabir casa en la casa unison Asha Norton Locke so when do we say that we say that in the shamone sra of mustafa right onion onion tea everyone came to jerusalem ishke madness Yayoi the person according to whatever he was able to bring key burkas a shamanic ella NOS unlock new yokai him said like this you know how God gives us he gives us based on our ability to give there has to be a system and you have something as a heating system the water comes into the boiler has to go out the other side and if there's a clog and the water is not coming out the other side the boiler is supposed to shut off automatically because if it does not shut off Romano the Sun it could explode God says I'm willing to give you need to give everybody but in order for me to give you you have to consider yourself a conduit of Baraka and it goes through you through someone else and that includes money in a closed minakata nephesh it includes a covered hadass and includes in Karthik I am thoroughly okay I am touched ishka madness yada every person the way he gives kabir cosecha malik on us a lot that's how a Shem can give you in a similar vein the caduceus lady says what are the Kohanim say Cole Savar what's Karl have a car like this like this civil the way you are willing to bench someone else that's how I am willing to to dance you kalanjiam by their hardcore names of course you're not supposed to look at the Kohanim right anyone peaked when they were little underneath to tell it you can tell me the truth a little bit right so if you peaked then you saw the car name have their hands out like this have your fingers maybe the the back of there and the palm of their hands is toward the front toward the crowd the back of their hands is toward their faces why so kaduche on TV the head look up at each other says because when you're taking you go like this say every country has their own salute right something like this something like this you know come give me when you're taking you go like this please can I have tell me when you're giving you're going like this so if the Kahane says I want Brock give me give me give me Meeny that doesn't stimulate praha what stimulates baraja like this God give me so I can pass it on and that is the source of all Baraka coal silver cook you know III spoke today to a very good friend of mine Alex Goldman wonderful wonderful mental health professional he was explaining to me there are people that live from the outside in they somehow feel externally something would be different my life would be different if I only had a better car my life would be different if I had a prettier wife my life would be different if I had a different husband my life would be different if I had only had a nicer house I had a better job it doesn't end and there are some people that live in the inside out the outside is neutral but we pray to God let me be in the mood where I have the patience for the people around me because that is the McCord has simpler right PTSD post-traumatic stress disorder people go through a trauma how do you get someone out of a trauma we are all naturally attract attached to our traumatic track from traumatic memories sorry I went tissue right and in our mind we create psychological experiences and really what we want to do is we have to choose where we give our energy to if a person went through a terrible trauma person was walking home at night it's laying there were footsteps behind you right I had a friend of mine lives somewhere in the outskirts of Jerusalem and an Arab chased him with a knife really chased him with a knife and he wound up hiding behind some kind of a garbage can and somehow he is saved he saved himself but the fear was awesome he said the next couple of weeks went out of his mind he would walk he would jump jump scream yeah every time somebody was behind him it's petrified out of his wits so the person that helped him out of it said look you're reliving the fear of that moment imagine someone's behind you someone's behind you and you turn around and oh there's a guy chasing over tonight it's not a very good feeling you read about into the papers you don't want to be there you want to read about it the paper the next morning so he says good but every time I walk on the street I feel the same thing now the story they say two people lived on the Lower East Side they just moved in and one says Lower East Side and had been full of crime not necessarily true and his persons they lived it for a long time and this guy comes home late at night his wife says don't go home so late and and and and and and he comes home very very late at night and as he comes home late at night he walks in and he feels somebody's following him in the big apartment building it's petrified someone's following me in this apartment building and he walks into an elevator and the guy the guy walks in behind him in the elevator and he was once told you don't turn around you don't turn around you don't make eye contact with that person because if you make eye contact with that person you're in trouble and he's like standing the whole time in the elevator and he says okay it's just my imagination he doesn't mean me he's going off someplace else he doesn't mean me and you're standing there and you're shivering and you walk out and he follows you outside you take one more turn toward your apartment he takes the turn behind you one more turn maybe till now was a coincidence but if I turn left that means he's after me he turns left the guy turns left he says listen the best defense is a good offense and he turns around and there's mother-in-law falls to the floor oh sorry maybe he wanted to do it but you know and didn't really want to do it he said I I was coming to you for dinner to this day he's apologizing to her although the post-trauma of that particular thing I think that's like they're using that for other anyway but really he explained later that he had this fear of being mugged the robbed and the Arab that was chasing him and therefore in his in his mind this is this is uh I change the details are a little slower I don't identify the person you can imagine how bad the real details are but person who goes through a trauma lives in a terrible terrible fear why because in our mind we play out the whole thing what happens is there's a tremendous amount of energy a person relives a trauma and all of a sudden he starts sweating and his heart starts racing and all of the the physical factors that come into play physiological factors that come into play are happening as if it's really how because what we think in our mind is real and in this very micro sim it says what you have to do is you have to reverse the energy you can't just make it disappear you have to take that energy and say boreal I'm okay I'm not the same person after a certain experience let me use the experience to help people let me use the experience to do something major on behalf of my family you have to you can't just sit back and do nothing because then you're going to be a prisoner of your own thoughts and that's what we have to do in life and if you go through an experience and we relive it can lead to depression to hopelessness to self-judgment Kosovars all the Kohan has to take to put the thing and and send advisor continue it on push it further I always say the story I read once there was a young 17 year old boy he was interning on a ship off Hawaii and then came Pearl Harbor and there's a family it's written up this to the whole night he saw horrible things he saw the Japanese bombed the American ships so smoke he saw bodies in the water so people burning and oil and and and whole night he was ferrying back and forth on a little ship dragging people burning people out of the water and afterwards he was going out of his mind he really revisions the whole thing and a psychiatrist or a therapist told him how come that night you weren't frightened how are you able to run back and forth he said I'd have time to think I had to save people says who say should stop saving people so he joins he joins an ambulance thing in an inn and he goes up the ranks and it becomes a very serious you know emergency medical technician that paramedic and he says I had to I realized I had to continue saving and we had we have to do that in our own life we can do that in our own shell and values we can do that emotionally to take our lives and to use it for the right thing and what happens at that point is your life begins to change you begin to think and in my mind I can control things in my mind I can change things I can convert powers to bracha convert powers to blessing I remember once I was sitting on the airplane and this fellow was sitting next to me it's always like you know great sixteen hour shoot off you know I didn't read well he came at a bunch of plastic bags that were crinkling and crackling and I was like oh no no no 16 hours then he asked the stewardess for a coffee you know some people just drink a coffee some people like slurp you know but in your ear I can't explain it and I said okay I take this I just can't take sitting next to this person ugly on my mind just the way he was sitting he took out his bag of potato chip it was like every every bite was a crunch that sent turbulence throughout the flight you know made the captain put on the seat board of the seat belt likes to complain about cranking with his potato chips the way he was eating it for 16 hours and then he looks at me he says rubbish after you know as a kid I used to love to listen to your stories I still do it's amazing it's very interesting the whole trip I didn't hear him slurp anymore I'm in here break the potato chips anyway what happened he must have stopped or in my mind I stopped roll of some the negative energy turned positive a lot of what goes on in our life is in our own heart it's it's it's it's in our own mind it's not in someone else's mind it's where we are remember once first got married lived in apartment there's a landlord he went crazy if the bulb was on the bulb was on in the hole he had to close the light in the hall and wife's going back and forth with strollers how much do you think he's saved when that lightbulb was close to 90 cents a year he's running out of his mark when we finished I talked to Rabb her some dispute about he wants us to fix something that broke in the apartment or whatever and I went to ask a rabbi and the rabbi told me you know he's such a broken person all he sees is darkness he sees the whole world taking advantage of I know but I have to live with him he says you have to live with him you're leaving he says no I said he refused to pay him says pay him buy a big Vaz of flowers and a card and say thank you so much for giving me a home giving me a home you know if I was late for a rental one it's a broken person well he sees his darkness and I did it did he appreciate it maybe a little I don't know but it changed me more important than that to change the way I am thinking when I became a landlord I felt like saying could you close out like why why of course no twenty thousand a year let it be light and our experiences in life we can either try to change someone else or we can try to change ourselves and that's what the days of spirit are on there are about the days of spirit home there are zeroed in on us changing ourselves mostly banal before the days of math and Torah says why you see aldo amish pehota emotional Dane who reminded every single person let me tell you what you dreamt about before you were born let me tell you let me tell what your purpose is in life and all of a sudden monster of a nose set up did the ghoul in he set up where everyone had this this was situated around the Beth hammock - around the Mishkan I first motion said of the Jews going to accept this to go where they're supposed to go Simpson I promise you they will not only did they accept it they had their own natural sense or we belong here you belong here I belong there really imagine the show I do not take their seat III remember once I came into a show to a to old men were fighting over their seat it was an old wooden bench and there was enough space on this band for 30 people I sit here I sit there and the god I had to come out with chalk and he made this line you could sit too late you could sit till here stop fine why because they went through their whole lives this way defending their turf if we can learn to take that emotion turn it around and we must be a Baraka to someone else so much of a new I just told every single yet let me tell you why you're down here on this world let me tell you why you have to go through your trauma to be able to convert that trauma Tubbataha let me tell you why you have to meet and all of a sudden when I shem set up to the garland anyone ran to it they had no problem going to where they had to go it was automatic was an actual sense of feeling great this is where I want to be and eventually when mashiac is going to come we're going to understand this is where we're going to be and what the days of spirit Rohmer is is it every single day reflects a different emotion in our life the first week is the week of has said the second week is a week of the Buddha and then there's the intermingling and really whatever's going to happen to you throughout the entire year whatever emotional mix is in your life we are paving the way through the days of spirit on there so that should be know rob was one of the great the owning of all times probably one of the most clever people in the last hundredth century you understood hundred years understood the cloudy soul is all about give you an example someone showed me a story today once came to him they want him to sign at econo that all people in the initial arrium that by Dero to buy apartments for their children you cannot buy more than a one-bedroom apartment so he refused to sign on they said why people can't afford the apartments know what's going on people who have children can't he said you know it's going to happen people are gonna buy a two-bedroom apartment like they did till now but when you come to collect for a poor orphan girl they're gonna say no I can't go against Takenaga give money for more than a one bedroom apartment that's what people are gonna use the tech enough for he said trust me you can't force it down people's throats you have to change the person not you not build a gate so the the travina rough is home one day and a little boy knocks on his door Shabbat afternoon normally you knock on someone's door SH about have to know very lightly because that person is sleeping the children are playing outside this kid max louder louder louder it's like the thing if you don't put on your seat belt you know goes louder louder louder a lot a lot or a lot of Atilla Jules your ears I find the kid goes the rabbit comes running what's the matter because Shabbat afternoon is an emergency he goes no no why are you banging on the door cuz you didn't answer my first man he says did occur to you that maybe the rabbi is sleeping Oh rabbis don't sleep Shabbat afternoon okay so she mean it all said he never went to sleep afterwards about afternoon that's the kid things the kisses what's the matter kid says I have the big test on Sunday and Friday our teacher said we have a big test and I said I can't take the test because my father is not home for Shabbat and I have no one to study with so I cannot take the test I have no one to study the teacher said this kid was obviously worth his money so teacher no it's not an excuse you have to take the test but no one is thirty what gives I'm excused it was just talking with me go to a rabbi he knew clearly well the teacher said it rhetorically and he went to the rabbi of the town my teacher said I should come to the rabbi in the town it's really what this kid needed was a good I don't want to say what right but the chavita offers about to say you know little boy you know good well it's not your teacher mint go home he said to himself two things he said first of all he kind of scans his life what he went through in his life Siberia you can't imagine lost children in the war he said it never ever happened never ever happened that someone asked him to learn with him and he said no a second of all if I say no to this child now he's not going to remember he grows up the circumstances of why I would say no it's gonna remember he asked the rabbi to learn with him the rabbi said no told brought the child insanity we're gonna learn and he learned with him yeah you know how long four hours I think the kids gonna ask the rabbi again delivered when he walked out he said I'm gonna call your teacher and ask how you did on the test and that Robina Rob said this girl Marah but I learned to thin I must have learned as many hairs as there are in my beard that is how many times I learned this camera in my life but the fiddle Shem the insights that I was that I Meredith in this game might have the depth of my understanding I never had before you know why because I had every reason to say leave me alone you don't say that sometimes of course right you know when you're on the phone don't tell anyone right around the phone hi what's doing and then the family member comes anything excuse me one second Lainey hello oh yeah what's you know we took a little different to our family honor oh yeah Custer schlub not just somebody maybe I don't know someone someone does then she beat her up said I wanted to slam the door in him and I I said I can't I can't God made this appointment he's gonna grow up it's going to be different and that's why I sat down to learn with you and that kid grew up to be I have no idea but the rabbi said the insights that I had I never had those moments where it's hard for us to connect come on leave me alone and we say God you made this appointment those are moments that open up Baraka very very deep within us we miss it most of us miss it and as I go the person said to the man who works in City Hall how many people work there he said about 20% we most of us miss our lives we get so angry we miss the barakah so I'll conclude with this it's a great robber of Braverman yerushalayim his wife Rabbinate brah Vernon the older woman she's very sick she falls into a coma it looks like it's all over and suddenly to the shock of the doctors who wrote her off and they're really summoned clever Tanisha and the family was there yet sup unless she get up for years she was pretty much limited to the wheelchair now she was able to kind of get up and move around and start walking around life like they asked her what happened the story goes it's brought down under safe from its father simcha from absorbers times she says you know I had a dream one of those again huh yeah I was up there said your time came let's go years are up all right it's up its up she's not a young lady know something said yeah go back there what happened you don't want me no no let me tell you what that this goes back to late 1930s the there's a pogrom going on tillery's firing down on the old you souvenirs align and she's having a baby at night babies and wars they don't know it's coincide your schedules she's in shared setting hospital and the nurses doctors running then command the chaos that's going on if he wants in a wild crash windows breaking she's holding her baby next there is a little baby just a baby in a bayonet in a bayonet base in it and there's no mother where's the mother mother had the baby and as they were transferring her from one room to the other something exploded on the street and she was hit by shrapnel she's fighting for a life there was no food in your salon there there was no baby formula there was that baby at a very little chance of survival and this is bravoman said on her own my own babe my own nourishment was very limited I didn't of ID enough to feed my own baby but I made a decision right there and then I said boa Alam if you put this baby next to me I'm going to nurse both babies and the doctor said to her that's very beautiful you may be endangering your own child she said I'm going to nurse birthday God shouldn't have put the baby next to me there and she did both babies survived and did the mother and it's a million they told her Nana you gave that baby life we're giving you life it doesn't necessarily happen only after 120 years and it doesn't have to happen under such dramatic and trauma this story happens every single day in our lives there's someone next to us that we would rather not deal with and instead we say sure let's do it you have a minute chorus and then there was a braja that is revealed within us that we could have never even imagined it could possibly attain or reach thank you very much [Music] [Applause]