Returning to the Garden: How We Heal the World | Basi Legani 5721#1

the yeshiva.net we're going to begin learning today a mimer by the laboratory bossie lagani toffshin khof alef as you see in the headline this mimer was said by the lava chereba on friday night the year five seven two one which would be 1961. of course as you know yuchmat the tenth of schwart is the art set of his father-in-law the rebel ayats the sixth laboratory rabbi yosevich who passed away he was born in 1880 and he passed away 1950 in new york the reber ayats published a mimer for that shabbos which would ultimately be the be the day that he passed away he gave it a mimer to learn on that champions of the yard side of his grandmother rabbits in rivka and that would be the day of his estalcus the mimer begins with the pasak and shihashirim chapter five basilagani kala so each year on uchvat villa bhavachiraba his son-in-law would always say discourse on basilagani the mimer twice friday night and matsuya shabas friday night after mayrav the first basilagani and then the rebbe said in mimer again with much more explanation elaboration and elucidation so we're now going to begin this mimer bossy ligand is a metaphor for the relation between hashem and the jewish people using employing the metaphor of anil doy divided lee the groom and the bride who are deeply connected to each other she says boss i came to my garden in the garden of my sister the bride the isabella meadows the madrid says lagani the word legani my garden also means lignuni gnuni is a huppah canopy that they would erect for hassan and akala where they would get married and they would spend the beginning of their marriage together consolidating the relationship and beginning their life together as a young couple that was called the gnuni was a special kuppas hassan a special canopy that was built for the hassan and kala so hashem says basilagani i came to my garden i came to gnuni i came to my canopy la makamshaya ikri bakhila it was mine because this was the place where my essence was always present initially the myself because during the creation of the world the essence of the shrine was but was in this world in the lowest world the lowest component of reality our physical reality this is where the essence we ignore so hashem says i'm not coming to a guard and i'm not coming to achopa basila ghani i'm coming back to my own my own place i'm returning to the place where i was in the beginning where i was initially but as we will see i was expelled it's just as a result of the various sins the was removed up up higher and higher to the seventh heaven and then the madrid says there were seven sadiq who brought this back down until maestra the seventh the seventh beloved the madrid says and he brought it down back to the earth so the day maisha puts up the mishkan hashem says finally i came back i was always here this was my garden this was my place where i was iker was but then there were seven big sins beginning with the eight sadas the madrid continues six ones afterwards and each time the became more aloof less accessible less connected to the human condition which means there became a greater dissonance in the human being between who he is and who he really is right hashem asks adam right after the eight sadasa ayaka where are you who are you where are you in other words there is when you're disconnected from the shrine it means you're disconnected from your deeper deeper self so that misalignment continued and continued so the goes up another heaven and another which is of course metaphoric it becomes more distant you know you become more distant from yourself and it grows and it grows and it grows i mean we all understand what that means in our lives and then seven said they can begin to bring the shrine down into the world avraham the major says levi kahas amram and then the sec the seventh one is maisha it's not just them individually them as leaders as teachers as mentors inspire a new awareness and moisture is the seventh and he finally brings it down to the earth which means making it tangible real concrete that a person could really integrate himself all parts of himself or herself completely it becomes it becomes tangible in a person's life that's what it means he brings it down to the earth and that's basilagani i came not for the first time i came back to my garden my gnuni my hope this was always my place right moshe was the mishkan which was the michigan islam muhammad writes your hashim when he builds the basa mikdash he writes to hashem but this is a metaphor for the for the for the day that he that maisha built the mishkan i come to my gani my garden why is it mine because it used to be mine but i was so to speak expelled and now at last the seventh sadiq brings the shrine back down to the earth and and that bringing it down to the earth is obviously a revolutionary moment in the sense that there could be a full when you're integrated with all the parts of yourself the shrina and you become connected so brings down the so you have different stages this is mutton turn and each one matan today came down yeah but then there's a hetego the jew's sin and the calf and again the shin i will dwell among and through this it can also exist in the mishkan and in the rest of the world so the mishkan is not just the place the shrine comes into the mission wants to dwell in every single person and every single heart when it dwells in the heart then it can also fill the mishkan and then it could fill the world in other words if there's no personal change you can't change the world if i'm not ready to open up my heart to the shrine so it's not like you build a building and the shrine comes in there it begins but has to be beside among the people and then it can also fill the shrine in the world transformation always begins internally in my my attitude my perspective how i live my consciousness is the divine flow in the mishkan its concept was to transform the lies and the insanity of um means the other side of kadusa to transform the sheker into kesher and into karish the mishkan was built says vasila mishkan right crush him crush him our beams crush him is the same ice like sheker and kesha sheker is a lie kasha is a knot and karish is a beam like the krush him of the mishkan so he says david of the mishkan was not just to bring back it was to transform the distortions that allow the shrine to be expelled initially in other words once the shrine left you can't just bring it back you have to heal and in that sense it becomes a much deeper relationship because the relationship that comes after brokenness is always a deeper relationship because it has to deal with the brokenness it's not just you go back to the innocence of stage one stage three has to be deeper than stage one because you have to work through stage two so he says when they build the mishkan they have to kind of build a mishka and let the shrine come back the way he was in the beginning of the creation you have to work through yeah it's like somebody who's in recovery they have to work through their their distortions their their traumas their wounds their scars to bring in the light over there i have to work through my stuff yeah if i'm dealing with anger or dealing with with with fears or insecurity or whatever it is negativity toxicity i have to be able to work it through to open myself up to the shrine so in a way it's a deeper it's a deeper relationship so he says you have to the michigan was built from beams from quran to transform the sheker the lie and the insanity of sin which is always insanity the gemara says in say to another there's always a certain element of insanity a folly that takes over a person before your sin which is really a wonderful observation in other words they didn't feel that a normal person a real normal person is not capable of hate because why would you want to separate from yourself but a person sometimes is not themselves it's called you have to take the sheker and the turn it into catcher into a deeper connection the shaker becomes a kesha and becomes a cherish this was also the concept of the carbonus in the miktash what's the carbon is the sacrifices how is that connected to the shrine behemoth the word carbon comes from the word kirov close adam kayak the physical animal wasn't just you bringing a physical animal to the basamektus it's the person bringing clothes all their faculties their talents their hush their senses their resources aligning yourself with your divine aligning yourself with the core yeah bucker oh you're saying buckers yeah they say and every person has their own animal that they have to that they have to be macariff so carbon is really kirov again this doesn't just start in the home of the mishkan and you bring animals there it starts inside you have to transform your own insanity of um unholiness into which is holy insanity the gomorrah in service says that shmobizuk used to dance at a wedding very very ecstatically and and observers said he's embarrassing all the all the sages and then when he passed away he saw that there was a pillar of fire separating between him and everybody else at the funeral the good morning service design so he said ahani lei stu se le sava the stus the insanity of this old man is what helped him you know he was complimenting the fact that he was so uninhibited at the wedding is really what set him apart so that's like you take the insanity in a destructive way and you turn it into insanity in a in a holy way it's in the holy way means that i'm not i i don't live in my brain i have the ability to be uninhibited to be able to transcend the structures of my brain a person needs to bring close his own animal song by daisy nasa's scripture then the physical animal could indeed go up to god in the bay samitos literally and that includes the whole world in other words the base of the behemoth was metaphorical was a paradigm for what we ought to do with all the physical objects of the world but it begins with your own inner animal it says me cam carbon so grammatically it should have said adam mekem ki yakriff carbon a person from among you will bring a carbon you don't say a person who will bring a carbon from among you so the shot is adam kiyakiri of mekam carbon the beginning of a carbon is internal mechanic from yourself within every person ultimately affects the whole world that it becomes a home for hashem and this fulfills the ultimate purpose of creation madrid says in a few places like he says in footnote eight that the purpose of creation was hashem wanted a deer he wanted a home in the lowest reality in the meaning in our world in the lowest world this is where he wanted a dwelling place this is where we bring godliness in and it begins with with my own into my own darkness and into my own toxicity and into my own issues and skeletons and into my own animals so that's where i bring in the deer and then as a domino effect you immediately you radiate that it's like when the rock falls in the water and then there's a ripple effect that continues and continues and the butterfly effect you know and then somebody sneezes in wuhan and the whole world is on lockdown that's the modern butterfly effect there's an interesting there's an interesting mitzvah it's known as pigel it's a very strange mitzvah piggle is that learned about it a few times piggle is that if a cayenne is doing the avodah and in the middle of the avodah he communicates or he even thinks a coina member just thinks that he's going to eat the carbon in the wrong time or in the wrong place it disqualifies the carbon it's a unique thing he didn't do anything wrong he did everything right he's slaughtering or he's sprinkling the blood yeah or he's receiving the blood or he's bringing the blood to the masb in the middle yeah let's say this carbon you had to eat till the evening or you had you had today and tonight and tomorrow and i'm to eat it you know in two days my my cousin is coming we'll have a party i'm going to eat it outside of the basement i'll eat outside of your salon the carbon is disqualified it's called piggle and you're not going to eat it huh according to many should just make sure he had a thought imam shout out thought and it's a it's a strange thing like uh uh why would a cayenne do that like once and then he had the kaina to tell you that he did it so this was asked this question why would the client why would the client do this yeah yeah yeah i'm a cayenne i take your carbon i'm like let's say you know there's a thousand dollar cow you bought for your carbon and then oh sorry i had a thought that i'm going to eat it in a week the whole thing is possible yeah he says well like why would why why would a person do this what he wants to yeah so some say he pushed hannah he had a personal vendetta against somebody yeah but that but then he has to go tell him he has to go tell him that he did it the mama schmalzek and the question is he is before you have to pay i brushed i i i stole your thousand dollars so it says and smarter my soul wants of art um i think that i saw something in a few places that fascinating thing how piggle happened sometimes a person brought a carbon let's say a person did a sin people do and he brings a carbon for kapara but it wasn't genuine he buys his goat he buys his sheep he brings it as an offering but it's just you know here's the animal slaughter the animal and i got it for 100 bucks but internally there was no change like this yeah the checklist you give an animal so the client experienced a makshava of pickle it came into him and then the cayenne told them the queen told them that yeah something is wrong so you see from here and pickle is a very power it's a very big suggestion like it was like a it was a serious thing because and so now we understand because hashem right away says the basal doesn't begin in a home it doesn't begin in a in a building in a in a sanctuary it begins in your heart that's where it begins adam kayak the physical animal is the manifestation of that but it's not the beginning and the end of that that's the ritual it could be very ritualistic and empty and devoid you brought an animal you were here it's a kappar so that's when piggle happened and then the client picks up on it that's the parameter the client says i'm so sorry i don't know what happened to me nothing happened to him something happened to you i'm just a mirror because in a place where there's kedusha these things everybody everything is sensitive the antennas the antennas pick up everything you know sometimes they tell me this mic picks up everything so if somebody if somebody sneezes everybody's going to hear you have to go over the mic pic of the antenna if the mic picks up in the basement everything gets detected you can't hide you know your therapist's office you can hide but unless he's a really good therapist he's like a cayenne but if not there's uh it gets picked up so there's pickle some safe even adds that's why they had these concertos in the basement the livium were there they would play music every day he says if this happened they started to play music to be made of the person and then when he was ready they can redo the carbon because very often yeah yeah yeah it was piggle it was pickle yeah what's bigger there's nothing to do you're not gonna eat it you burn it there's nothing to do it's like an oyster so he says that's where they would play the music and music has a very deep power you know to to stir the heartstrings of a person's soul and that's when everything everything came back but it's a very interesting thing about this pickle thing they say somebody once has the up thereof it would be of rumors how can a carbon be my happier it seems like a very strange thing because um let's say somebody worshipped idolatry by mistake was mcconnell shampoos okay so you bring an animal and that's it you bring an animal so the doctor officer says i know he didn't just bring an animal i'll explain to you how it worked off and he gave a muscle of a person named he said sure desecrated shabbos by mistake comes down shabbos morning and you know he goes he makes his eggs he puts on the fire etc to make his armor champa's morning then he realizes it was shabbos or his wife comes and says okay so sunday he goes to bring a carbon she comes to you as shalaya and there's a place to buy a car it goes to the sheep you know to the store and palm room was in his city was known as you know he sat in misra he got mafta every other week she she he was a man he had all the milos he comes to the store and the person in the store yankel says uh what are you doing here i said i need a sheep he said why you became a shepherd you shalom carbon cantos really the bomb on what happened shabbos shabbos shabbos really okay he's here's a hundred shekel 200 shekel here's your sheep nope the violin tells his friend yeah abraham is here you heard what happened with the obama goes on the whatsapps what's up so the bomb room came and here mama starts walking to shape he needs directions to the basement so he asks a kid how do you get to the harabayas what are you doing what do you need with a sheep oh you did up something interesting i know you're shall i am a children a mischievous so he gives him the wrong directions so now he's walking down the pathways that you know you can get lost he's walking down the pathways in the wrong direction with the sheep they know nobody sees him with a sheep they see him usually you know with tamid with khasid they don't see him with the sheep then the sheep of course runs away sheep already feels going through amram is chasing the sheep he says the whole year of shalom comes out is chasing the sheep until he finally finds his way to the basement so adapter of says then he comes with some victors what are you doing here so he says at that point [Laughter] he was already atoned and if he not then tucker was piggle in other words he had to work through some he had to become vulnerable yeah yeah because i'll peep shot that's what tyson suggests that he was taking revenge or or of somebody which is many other things but this was a very easy fast way yeah of course of course so it's yeah so that's why some say that actually but it's such a strange thing like why would a client like i mean you have an issue with somebody so figure it out i mean what about you also you're abusing your position you're a coyote-based amiktas it's like you can't abuse your position i mean if people find that this client is doing it regularly you know if half the world he can't be a client anymore you can't they would they would they would send them out you can't you can mix in let's say you have a personal issue with somebody so there's a way of working it out you can start disqualifying as carbonus if you don't like the people but uh but according to this shot it's much makes much more sense the kayan was just a parameter of what's going on to affect this avoider of bringing the shrine back one must go in and become part of what's called civil sasham when the jewish people leave mitzrayim they're called so called civilization all the troops the army all the members the legions of hashem's army yeah and throughout you'll say lutsava right sava of this one like they were legions like troops they were called like huh let's see some very common yeah very common in hamesh how they rested how they dwelled when they journeyed throughout the midwest at the golem but it's first introduced in parish's boy that they release so in the mirror basilagani see this myme basilagani is based on the basilagani that te rebe's father-in-law the rabbi rayats published for the yard side of his grandmother which was tough shinyu in 1950. it was a miami that included 20 chapters and for that shabbos he published five and then the next 15 would be published the next few weeks but that shabbos morning he passed away 1950 yurchavat so every year yatra rebel would say a mimer that was based on that miami basilagani of his father-in-law the year of his yardstick because he gave it out to learn and that day imamish passed away ursula so he says he explains in the mind in the last encounters the word has three meanings of each person has a fixed time on earth sovereign means a fixed time as mana negates that's one element of tsava the second salve is melancholine ratzen vyayfi sava which is like a shape syvian is your shape your model like the civilian of somebody is the character that must actually says the it's also desire savvy is desire and yoifi beauty which is basically the full structure of something so indiana is scarless which represents integration the gemara says in rosh hashanah and the messiah with their consent everything that was created including every nisham they had to agree god did not force anyone or anything to be created every neshama agrees to its journey every creation agrees and desires yes i'm in nobody was forced right which is very powerful idea basically we have chosen our lives so you're not a victim of it but what about the other of the extreme that the other person is should all live and be well and that a person goes out with their hands open so it's against his will right the soul naturally it's hard for it to come down to this world because of its tremendous the tremendous spiritual radiance that it has in heaven right so there's an element of balkan meaning that it knows that this is the mission god wants but there's something difficult for it so we say but this is hashem once again it's not so simple not so simple so that's also means that he created them with their full structure with their full beauty taiwan says over there it's beauty rashi says did most the full structure that they were that they uh they were wholesome complete shall we unite scholars beauty is always when there is like a symphony of voices a symphony of colors a mosaic a tapestry that's what gives something beauty the synthesis so the jews leave mitzrayim they're called sivas hashem because through these three things they fulfill the purpose of making adira in this world khmer baruch as my father-in-law the rebel explains in the mind after he explains in chapter 10 the first two meanings of the word salvation allah in chapter 11 of his miami-bassilagani he begins to explain the third interpretation which is the main interpretation of sava as part of an army showing which is actually the primary element in avoiding atma the first meaning of saba that everything has a fixed time is a condition and avoid you have to know this but it's not avoid itself i know the avoid itself is not to have a fixed time the void of terror mitzvos has to be in time and a space and nature of the world as is known the various stories that mitzvahs have to be done in a time in a space teva but it's not the essence of our voice it doesn't know how it is not that we worship the clock it's just that you have to know terror mitzvahs there's this man krishna there's this montfiller there's this man shabbos this is everything has its time everything has its space it's a tonight it's a condition for our vader but that's not avoid there is not we worship the clock we don't worship the clock we worship god but avoid this hashem happens within a fixed time of fake space a fixed nature that's yeah we're not making a checklist of you know like we spoke on shabbos not avoid it's a preparation for the avoider before davening that result says you should say that you accept on yourself the mitzvah of afterlife because that's the preparation for today you begin your day with avas israel now usual said before you darwin you should say harini mitzvah that's the beginning it's the catalyst it's the foundation to be able to realize that you're integrated you're part of a whole that's the beauty of a jew that you're integrated as a mosaic we're all limbs of one body we're all notes of one symphony so that's the hakhanath in vietnam as the mimer explains that the different souls have different distinct contributions there are those they are the minds of the jewish people they're bali saga they are the ones with great comprehension there are those who are the masters of secret then you their power is the simplicity claudius role is a body we have the head we have the hearts we have the arms of the jewish people and we have the legs of the jewish people we have the abdomen of the jewish people we have the liver of the jewish people every every neshama has its unique contribution to the to the living organism of knesset's israel and one has to recognize that you can't function without the love and the connection to every other part of your body we don't amputate god forbid any part of the body because there is that integration israel so the vibration for avoiding hashem is to integrate yourself with the jewish people those are the first two interpretations of sava one is you have to recognize time space nature structure avoid this hashem must be even the most creative person consistency is the soil upon which creativity can blossom without consistency without bringing things into specific times into specific spaces and recognizing the structures of nature available is going to become elusive chaotic inconsistent you know sometimes spiritual artists have a hard time with it so that's that's that's a preparation for white hashem the second element of sava is what the integration the synthesis understanding that you're part of a whole the connection with others but then he says but the third interpretation that's not only a preparation for the veda that is that you're part of hashem's army yurtsava kabbala you accept upon yourself the yoke of malchus and this is the focus in this eleventh chapter of of the original business of the yachts we focuses on this primary element of civis hashem that they are part of an army at sava mila shanghai which is therefore what he's going to be focused on you see this mime is from aleph every year your mother would focus on another chapter of the basilagani so tough aleph which was the first yard set of his father he focused on ice aleph and each year he would focus on another ice like study it and teach it and explain it so tough all of 1961 was because that's where they published it for this year because tough shampoos again in order to explain what is the meaning of sivis hashem you're in the army of hashem she explains that that suffered by a jew were called sivis hashem in parishes by is connected to one of the names of hashem which is known as the name of siva's it's one of the seven names of hashem that inaudible 15 there are seven names of hashem that it's forbidden to erase generally the list is uttakevafke which is pronounced as adna al of dalai nunyut then you have kale you have la kim you have uh eloika you have um shindal dude and you have zvoice there's one of the seven names and you have those are usually the the seven names that are not is one of the seven names the analogy race it's an isr to erase that's a good question why do people say it's voice and that's vodkas people say it's wrong huh okay we'll soon see it's a good question so this is part of the seven names that are not erased the inaudible there's a lot of other names you know we call it but these are what's called pseudo names like so to speak nicknames but the names that are ain't in mexican it's an issue to erase are the shabbat so he says in their mind that when we call jews hashem it's connected to the name because all the faculties in the summer come from la maila meaning they come from the way they are in hashem it's an expression in tanya that our ten faculties evolve from hashem's ten spheres the human being is carved in the image of hashem so everything that exists within us is a reflection of the same quality or characteristic the way it exists by hasha it doesn't just begin in me and in you and in us it evolves from the way this quality exists and hashem we god is also in an army yeah he's called zvoice hashem is also called hashem he's right we say into hill in many places hashem is called hashem we say every day hashem he's called hashem the guard the god who is the leader of an army who is part of an army so it begins with hashem and then it's mirrored and reflected and evolves within the human soul as well to some degree every person some degree person there's something unique about the jewish connection that's hashem so it reflects that's why the mimer says it's not just we're called civilization it's a reflection of hashem's name um very interesting amara that the named savages only emerged through the prophets niskarshan's voice you'll never find the name of hashem's voice all the other names you'll have in hamas all the other names kim all of them are there hashem calls himself a yeah there's a mukhlaikus about aleph hey uday is that one of the shemas but there's all in humash the the names you never have in homos ever it only comes out in the niveam and in the soviet into hilum you have a lot right hashem [Music] we just said in the morning the last prophets like the last they use constantly its voice so it seems as as history develops the words the name becomes more more pronounced the gemara for a says khanna of course the mother of shmuel the husband of elkanah so it says vatider neder she made a promise vatimer hashem's voice so revelation said that from the day hashem created the world there was no man no person who called hashem's voice until khanna khanna was the first one to give hashem this name it's a fascinating idea so khanna who lived already she lived during the time she lived not not in the time anymore of my shin yeshua was the mother of shema who would be the one who would coronate shoal as king so you're dealing a few hundred years after the jews are in eritrea he would coordinate also david as a king this is already a few centuries after artistrol nobody ever called hashem's voice you don't have that name in today in today it says that we are called we are called we are that salva of hashem but not the voice so this is a name that only comes out first by hannah and then the naveem adopted so that's very interesting huh since you mentioned it how was it that uh that shrew was allowed to uh inaugurate someone that wasn't from yehuda well it's a good question but hashem is the one who told him to do it yeah so that's that's even a better question you mean why did hashem want show it's supposed to be the kings i thought was supposed to be from yehuda i wanted to ask you this question before but you could you can put it aside me i can ask you later but i forgot to ask you now okay now it's an interesting question to look at so that was the award that was the first time that the voice is by hannah and then the vm adopted that's why when you when you read the vmix of him you have a lot hashem is called hashem this is that song um just three names but he also put some swords but that's only to hillary to hillary is part of the suvim so in the vehemence of him you have it and in the later naveem you have it even more so that means this is something that happens later in jewish history and yet already in humash were called sivis hashem and he connects it with the fact that hashem is called swiss is a little bit of a paradox here first you tell me that our name sivis hashem is connected to hashem's name's voice but hashem's name is only comes out later we're called civil sashamari in the time of martial he says that's true jews are called sivas hashem at the time of um is when the world reached the same perfection that it was in the beginning of creation greater than it was after the sin of the calf and in the time of the prophets when they use the name szvoyas where they have to fix the kata eagle but before the category they're certainly jews are in a very very elevated state so certainly the name sivis hashem doesn't only apply to later the time of the naveem it exists already then that's what the human says they went out of mitzrayims is not self-contained it's like a brief it's it's a it's a toefl it's hashem in other words it's subservient to the name of yud kevke hashem is not called hashem is called the jews are hashem they are the army of hashem but sways is not a self-contained independent name later the times of the navy and zvayas now assumes its own identity so when we're called sivis hashem in the time of moshe sivayas then doesn't have its own name even when we're called sivois it's chivas who are part of hashem part of kevafke that shiva is is bottle it's it's subservient it's like a prefix it's a prelude to hawaii it's later it's will become so to speak a its own special noun its own shame at some one of the seven names we have to say what's the difference between these two stages and soyuz does the army the way there by the cheese mastering where it's hashem's voice is not yet its own name and then later from khan and on she is the first one to introduce this concept called tsvois as a proper noun it becomes one of hashem's names even though it's never mentioned in torah and hummus you'll never have hashem's name it's voice and this will all help us understand what it means that a jew is part of this sava when we leave mitzrayim as a nation we're called sevis hashem to be able to fulfill the purpose of ultimately making adira building a mishkan bringing the shrine down bringing the shrine down into the earth should we go another few minutes go till 11. okay go another few minutes till 11. say that is that fine in order to understand this he continues it's a fascinating madrish the mentor says in madrid hashem says you want to know my name my name is always defined by my actions and when i battle with the wicked that's when i'm called to voice meaning i don't have a name i don't have my own name my actions define me and therefore my names change they fluctuate based on my actions when i'm in the mode of battle of conflict with the issue trying to weed out wickedness from the world that's what i'm called salience right which he didn't do right right he didn't do just want to see a lot of he didn't do that show did not do that and that's what he was taken out right yeah he was told by small tucker yeah so this is the madras just to call dimensions in parish mice and uh maisha asked hashem what's your name i'm going to come to the jewish people and they're going to say um who's this god who sent you imar alayam what should i say so the madrid says that hashem actually so the bossic says hashem said it means i will be the one who will be i will be who i will be okay so the media you want to know my name i don't have one name of him my name is whatever i'm doing at the time sometimes i'll be called kels sometimes i'll be called spice i'll be called alakim something i'll be called hashem when i'm judging i'm called ali kim when i'm battling i'm called savoys when i have patience despite man's sins and distortions i'm called shindala dude when i have compassion i'm called hashem hashem is compassion that's what aya means the man says i will be what i will be means i will always be something else whatever i am then that becomes my name that's that's what you that's what you that's what you should explain to them that's one interpretation of the madrid so what would this mean this would mean that names essentially right are quite alien in other words you want to know my name i'm sorry i don't have a name what i'm doing right you can define me that becomes my name because it says my say it means it's not my inner core it's something that's interchangeable based on the action so yesterday i have one name today i have another name tomorrow i have another name so it's not me it's not the me that is unchangeable it's not the me that's the essence it's based on the action the name is completely external yeah you're right based on different actions indeed which means basically that at the same time you're this and that and that because there's so many different mice well there's obviously a connection between who you are and what to do but you do but you can't reduce the essence to yeah so your fighter today your lover huh yeah yeah today you're builder a destroyer it's not the answer nobody's saying it changes there's no miscaller that's what he's telling moshe like i can't give you a name i'm sorry depends on this depends on the minute depends on the minute you know i'm this i'm that and that and they're all the real real based on the actions yeah yeah the name reduces you to one particular feature um to employ kabbalistic terminology they talk about the names reflecting spheres what are spheres spheres are specific characteristics generally the kabbalah speaks about ten spheres hashem has been his hesed his gurus deferes his nets malcolm's these are ten characteristics ten features that are defined as benevolence generosity guru is disciplined to pharisees empathy natsuki's victory hide this submission right your sight is bonding malchus is royalty is conception being has comprehension das is application kessler is will or pleasure i'm just giving the uh a loose translation of these commission one of the great kabbalistic works comes from a man named rabbi yosev geektilia he says in 21. so the mimer quotes the sharia arabia as we deal with where he says shashank you see the seven names of hashem that we don't erase are basically corresponding to the seven meters kale is kesat eli kim is gura utke wafkee is tifares nets you saw it is which some people include in the list the rama doesn't but some including the list is kesar so what's the idea here that the name is a is a certain sphere which is a certain characteristic when hashem is so to speak in the mode of gevorah so he's ali kim when he's in the mode of malchus he's adna when he's in the mode of his so this represents the idea of the female based on my actions how i'm being channeled but he says but let's take a look at the mattress a little deeper the metric doesn't say i don't have a name and just look at what i'm doing and then you can go he says and then and you could define that as a name he says what's a knee a knee who's a knee and he's not what you're doing and he is i so based on my actions i assume that name so he says that's why this madrid is really teaching us a very subtle paradox on one hand it seems like the name is completely alien to me when you say a ani ani means me my core my essence like precedes hashem so the managers could have just said hashem told me to listen i am nameless my eye has no name it can't be captured by a particular feature or identity or definition or characteristic however i do different actions and you could speak about the actions you could speak about the mice but ani i am nameless that's not what he tells me he says assumes this identity my amne my essential eye which transcends names which transcends characteristics assumes this name but that's a paradox because the names are always changing because the actions are always changing and that knee is essential nonetheless that's the kiddish and that's the very profound paradox that the madrid is conveying here that even though you would think the activities are always changing and therefore the names are always changing so the name doesn't apply to one knee the name is completely external nonetheless that becomes something that so to speak captures the ani now this is not such a small paradox this paradox essentially as we will see is one of the most powerfully loaded and difficult subjects that are discussed throughout the literature of kabbalah and hasidahs nistir and siddhas especially because it really boils down to a very profound question and that is can there be a relationship with the essence of hashem that is completely transcendent and nameless you see we live in the world of definitions we live in a world of names how much do the names of god relate to the aniya vasa or maybe there's no connection remains completely aloof completely sublime completely removed all we can discuss or articulate or have a relationship with are the various actions is that true or maybe there's something deeper than that that's the paradox he's addressing here with the luffy massage and nikra and it's not just a philosophical question about the relationship of pure infinity to the finite world but it's also a very deep question that's very relevant and very emotional and very s it affects our entire approach to avoid this hashem into our life because the question is can my identity connect to the essence of reality or there's no way that can happen does a relationship with hashem ultimately require for me to transcend identity for identity to cease to be because in the world of definition there's no ani i need transcends definition or can my identity which is based on characteristics and definitions and descriptions relate to the essence can it be a channel for the infinite and this has many ramifications how we understand yiddish and how we understand our vedas hashem and it also affects relationships between people can i really have a relationship with you in your essence or can our relationship only exist on a level of names which means i know your name not just i know your physical name nagemya yankel iron muttel but i know your name means i have a perception of your reality there is the way i could connect to your name which means the part of you that can be experienced by me and the part of you that's experienced by me is external to you that's what a name is or i could actually connect to you can i even connect to me could my eye connect to my real eye because the way i perceive myself is through a conceptualized eye can my conceptualized can my conceptualized eye become attuned to my essential eye which is beyond conceptualization the way i think of myself is already my name it's the way how i appreciate who i am it's the way i define myself in terms the way i conceptualize who i am it's a story i tell myself about myself but who am i for real that's ani that's the paradox that this madrix is conveying and as we will see generally there are three streams of consciousness three approaches that the laboratory is going to be addressing there's the approach that's very often discussed in kabbalah specifically by ramosa cordovero the ramak and ariza rabbits reclusion two great capitalists of the 16th century there's the approach of the balshemptiv that we're going to be discussing and then there's the approach of the altireba the balatanya who tried to synthesize and integrate these two other approaches as we will see in the continuation of the mimer so this really becomes opens up a vista to one of the profoundest suggests one of the profoundest discussions in kabbalah and siddhas about the relationship between the undefined ultimate truth the essence of everything which transcends everything and a world of definitions of identity of struggle of fluctuations in which mortal man lives and can there be an ultimate fusion between the two as we will continue in the next year this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyoshiva.net donate