"Return to Me, and I Will Return to You," with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] Shalom Alim everybody welcome back to the I madash welcome home to Torah a very very warm welcome home to Torah first we want to pray for am Israel for the protection Hashem should protect all of us especially the soldiers and uh also the families that are um at most risk in the north uh as you know we use the CLE car as the basis for this discussion the outline for the discussion you can find on the inside the description box below you can find a link and we encourage you to follow along in order to learn Hebrew even if you're not going to learn it like slowly slowly but at least try to follow it as best you can um as Rabbi brewitz and some of the other shim on our classes have discussed the idea especially right now before rashash that we have this famous expression through doing repentance prayer and of course giving of your time or your money or your resources to help people they those things areer they can remove the evil decree and so I just want to mention we are over 30% around 30% of our um campaign at the time of the holidays in order for us to facilitate and give out the charity that's necessary for people we're helping widows we're helping W well not just widows W widows that have small children and orphans people who are disabled uh people actually have their bread winner in the hospital and of course we're also helping a lot of people who are displaced so in the description box below on our website you'll find the link in which you could uh participate okay so we're in par Nim and that means we're in Chapter 30 verse 11 of Deuteronomy and these are really famous verses and I just want to give a little bit of an introduction because we're not going to be talking about Torah I mean listen to this it says in Deuteronomy 30: 11-14 this commandment which I command you today is not concealed from you nor is it far away he it's not hidden from you he and it's not far from you now there are many commentators Rashi included if you look at Rashi down on Source number one that this is talking about the Torah because the V says you don't it's not in heaven who's going to say who's going to go up to heaven for us and bring it down or who's going to go beyond the sea and um you know fetch it for us so we can fulfill it but rather it's very close to you it's in your mouth and in your heart so that you may fulfill it the Hebrew is actually so beautiful he lore it's not over the end of the sea and but rather it's so we're going to discuss this as I mentioned already there are commentators that says oh the word Mitzvah is singular what is it talking about is it a particular Mitzvah so some means the whole Torah however we're going to take the other opin for tonight's discussion that it's talking about chuva we're in as you all know an V Le the king is in the field right God forgave us for the sin of the golden calf on the first of el he said to Moses come up you'll receive the second tablets it was exactly 40 Days Later which is Yum kipur the day of forgiveness we knew we were forgiven and the zodiac sign for El is the Virgo Virgo implies that you're like a virgin meaning I'm going to renew my relationship as if nothing ever happened forget it forget about it didn't happen so with that in mind we're going to use the truva aspect of what this Mitzvah is regarding these verses so the clear like I said it's on page so it's 781 at the top of the page where it says DK sheni who me we're talking about its CH the statement says this Mitzvah that God is giving us is it a particular Mitzvah according to the clear and many others you know how we know it's talking about CH all you have to do is examine verses 1 through 10 of verse of chapter 30 and you will see that it's talking about Shu listen to what it says in look at number two in the sourcery 30:2 and you will return to the Lord it says you're going to return we're going to return physically to the land and that means we have returned to Hashem as well and we did chuva how else we going to get back to the land verse 10 again when you obey the Lord your God and when you return to the Lord so verses in chapter 31-1 are talking about CH then when verse 11 pops up and it says this commandment just think it's obviously talking about the same subject matter as the first 10 verses so we're going with that go back into the Hebrew it says it's actually not hidden from you that's how we're translating nif late it's not hidden from you and if it's not hidden from you actually it's quite known to you there is no excuse to say basically the excuse could have been well I didn't know the God right what did the other religion say there's no way to get to the father he's way too there but the Jew like just instinctively knows you do something wrong you fix it we're here to make a tun on ourselves and the world we're likee to the Nations but we have to first fix ourselves so there's no excuse to think even to think that God doesn't accept uh the cha of the Sinners you the Jewish people know about chva more than all the nations just think about what Christianity says right they say we can't do it I'm I'm going to say the words they say but we don't believe that that you need to go through somebody else in order to get to heaven we are isra yes we go straight to God okay and We Know It And listen to this there is a mid if you look on the English short sheet you look in number three on page two this measure says there were things that were cre created before the world now we have a counter a famous counter missionary in our room here right and so one of the things they say right these missionaries these they say well they quote the new test Testament what they called that so it says something like um before the world was the word like they're actually hello we have a Zohar right the Zohar says God looked into the Torah and created the world so of course the Torah was created created before the world the Throne of Glory listen to the seven things that were created before the world number one the Throne of Glory number two the Torah the word the temple the Heavenly Temple because Yim has two y right there's a there's a y there which implies plural there's two Jerusalem there's a Heavenly Jerusalem and there's an Earthly Jerusalem and their muan they muan let's leave it like that and what else the ancestors of the world we're talking about something I have no idea and number five is Israel Israel we were created before the world was created the name of the Messiah and number seven truva so let's just try to imagine before the world was created without all the chaos with all without all the noise without all the disturbances and distractions you had Israel and you had repentance so we the Jewish people knew repentance intimately alone in the world right before the world we knew we knew repentance intimately uh the Mish brings down two verses referring to um how do you know that Israel was created before the world so it says in Psalms 742 remember your congregation this is davik speaking to God which you acquired of old you acquired from Kim is like primortals created and another verse uh regarding repentance how do we know repentance was before the world it says in Psalms King David chapter 90 verse 2 and 3 before the mountains were born before the world was created Hashem already said you return Humanity to Contrition and say repent you Mortals T and that human being should already have this concept of repentance going back into to the clear what do we see exactly what we just said that is that both these entities what we call the Jewish people and this concept of chva preceded the world if that's if that's the case so when God created chuva this concept of repent you already existed as a nation but also as individuals and if the nations would require which apparently they do this um you know edging on to do chuva you know what anve was a perfect example yonah was supposed to go and speak to the Nations do you know why he was hesitant he ran away he didn't want to go the whale the whatever the big fish swallowed him up what was he thinking that the Jewish people I've been going to the Jewish people and telling them to do trua and they're not listening to me I'm going to go to the E goam and they're going to listen he knew they were going to listen and that would look really bad for the Jews how did he know they were going to listen the leader the leader of nve the king of nve was none other than pharaoh if you look at the the the Hebrew text the song of the sea the whole story of the of it says everybody except one everybody meaning he himself Pharaoh himself was saved and so he knew the god of Israel he knew the god of Israel so he's in inve if yonah would have come and said hey the god of Israel says to do cha this guy would have said all my people you better get in line because I know this guy he don't play he don't play around okay so so here you have this case where the non-jews had to be Ned into doing you don't need as much it's not required to to edge you on so much because you guys know what truva is that the whole secret of chuva it's intimate to you and it's revealed to you already from then meaning from primordial times before the world was even created the the verse says it's not hidden from you it's not in heaven lore that you're going to say who's going to go after for us and to the heavens and is going to take it for us by saying that what we're going to say what God doesn't need us to go into his Temple and to trample his Courtyards anyone who's a sinner or even bitter of spirit who's going to go up to heaven and ask from Hashem basically if he's going to accept TR from us we already know we're intimate with trva we know that hem will accept our tra this is a either fundamental principle or a secret that is well known to every Jew every Jew knows that truva is accessible the clear continues or perhaps it's referring to what was reset earlier in verse two God says you're going to return all the way up until God now if you're going to say and I think we all have a certain sense of I'm going to say low self-esteem shame perhaps who are we if you're going to say when it says it means if you're going to think mistakenly if you might say this but it's a mistake to say it if my sins they are so off they they perverted to the point that hashem's presence is went up from below that's where we are we're in the right we're Sinners and he had enough of us so he went up no longer involved in our world if you would say such a thing so okay what's it going to help I'm going to go and make every effort to be right to try to fix myself to be a more decent human being but what's it all worth he's Gone Gone With the Wind no no remnant of him that's a big mistake that's how we think I'm the one and it's true I'm the one who caused Hashem to depart from this world so he's even further up I have to go even further to to have a relationship with him I want to mention before we go on if you look in number five on the source sheet in Mal 3:7 from the days of your fathers you have departed from my laws and have not kept them God says return to me and I'll return to you in Hebrew so it's it's it's say symbiotic relationship is that the word it's not just about me returning when I return He also returns okay I have a friend his last name is shivu and it's based on this his last name not first name and so go back into the clear we ask this question it's like going to take a great effort I have to go up to the heavens and and come back to him if that's the case Nowa has two meanings it either means hidden as we've been using or it's amazing and wondrous so if that's the case then I'm really amazed I'm really a wonderment what it means the how am they ever going to return to this to the spirit of hem that's why it says it's not hidden from you see the word and is the same root but it has different meanings it's not hidden from you even from you it's not either hidden or it's not too hard it's not a a wonderment that this you can actually do tra all the way to hasem it's not required that you go all the way it's m miraculous you don't have to you don't have to make the effort to go all the way all you have to do is make the effort you have to prepare your heart open your heart to return and then what happens then Hashem will turn around and he will return to you like we saw in I'll just read it again God says you return to me and I will return to you all you have to do is begin the little bit and then we go to the next paragraph As the verse says it's not too far from you since K tell us in gamor Yuma 86b you'll see this on number four in thei basically you have a question how do you know you're about to sha how do you know that you accomplished right so the first opinion is R Yehuda and he basically says that the same thing came to you and you separated from it you didn't do it you might have done it the first time that's when you sinned and then it comes again to you and you don't sin that's how you know you're about CH but then he comes back and he clarifies Isa by the way I just want to make sureo Isa we're going to mean it's just an example okay so let's go through it slowly how do you know you you've accomplished your ch that certain circumstance right you're passing by that pizza store with a pepperoni and it just smells so could and the first time unfortunately you went in so now you're you you have to do cha second time you walk by you hold your nose and you go by or you walk to the other side of the street or you just make sure you don't walk in whatever it is you don't do the same mistake again demonstrates or he actually goes into more detail and he says meaning the same uh desires the same place is and the same woman this is just an example to clarify the situation we can all use our imaginations to understand what that means now the big question is like this does it really mean what he just said I'm going to give you you some insight when it says it's like spoon feeding you guys a little bit where where did the sin take place it took place in the heart in the mind that's where it started and therefore when it says H we're going to see how the CLE car is going to describe in the heart we're going to cleanse our hearts now if you thought it meant the same situation all like lined up exactly same woman same place same opportunity if you like all the windows closed yeah if you thought that you had to buy a ticket back to Hawaii or wherever it was that you were maana with that particular woman or you did that particular sin you might think oh my God I have to go back over the sea to do it again cuz I was there the first time you're going to give up all hope of ever doing true of it because you're going to realize there's no way I'm going to be able to fix it to go all the way whether it's time money uh to be in that same place that I originally sinned in perhaps even time has passed people will give up any hope of doing ch so don't be mistaken it doesn't mean that everything has to line up that's why it says in it's not like what you were thinking but rather the P says this matter is close to you it's where what do we mean by now we're not like any of those religions they go and they have to go into a booth and talk to a person we talk to Hashem the Vio takes Place between us you know the word is actually right prayer actually means self inspection reflecting on yourself and examining your own self that is what teila is just so you know you don't want to get stopped by the police where it says ple on the side that's like heavy investigation felony investigation perhaps so think about is really investigating yourself it's self-reflective and what about what does it mean in your heart hopefully when we do the wrong thing we have what we call Kata regret these are the main ingredients in cha admission you know in the 12-step programs you all know about 12-step programs I admit that I am powerless over something I admit I have a problem without going to that first step there's no way you can you can be healed right you know about 12-step programs this is step one admission to yourself number two here you have regret okay there's no change without regret if you're happy and you're content and you're satisfied with your behavior even though everyone around you isn't then you uh you need medication I mean you really need that you need help so it would be enough you it's not far from you it's close to you in your mouth and in your hearts and this should be enough remember we're talking about has to be in the same place where did the sin take place within your your system you know you hear these ideas like it resonates and meditation people you you know to just be like at peace with yourself you know that you upset somebody I mean you went through it in your head did I didn't I was it me was it them dot dot dot you have to take every night before you go to sleep who did I wrong okay here you go have to take you want a business to prosper you take stock if you have no idea what's selling what's not selling how you going to be have a successful business well you have to think of yourself you Jews have to think of yourself as a business and you want it to succeed you take stock what works what doesn't work what am I doing right what am I doing wrong every night before you go to sleep in the 12-step program they make a heavy duty I think it's like two steps you know making a a chart making a list of my mistakes and then going about and figuring out how to fix them so here you have it was the heart that perverted or was perversed for you it's the very same place the heart that made the mistakes it's the very same place the heart where the tikun and the chuva is going to happen and what does rebbi nman say famously if you can break it it can be right if it can be broken it can surely be fixed there is never any giving up of hope there's any there's no despair in this world now we understand what it means in the same place right the same place means the heart don't think that when it says the same woman rather it's these words are Aramaic it's basically saying was just use an example it's just for clarification purposes the prime idea of doing TR is not dependent on anything external like that woman or the the pepperoni pizza not to equate women with pepperoni pizza but anything that you desire a lot so it's it comes from the inside the says there are some that say regarding this idea of repentance which means like this regarding this idea of repentance from the aspect that Hashem is so high he really is so high and that um this Chua seems to be just like beyond our imagination I mean how can it be it's so maybe even separate from him because he either it's hidden from him or it's just too beyond our imagination well guess what think about like this any any husband who divorces his wife this is this is a a man divorces his wife it's a mitzvah for him to marry her again provided she didn't get remarried so once she remarries he cannot take her back okay so this is kind of like our relationship with hasem we have Ten Commandments there's five on each tablet and they all match up one matches with six two matches with seven I'm not going to go through them all but number two is do not have any other gods and number seven is do not commit adultery so we committed adultery with God in a certain sense when we were maana with other gods okay that's how we're going to view this every any husband who divorces his wife he shouldn't take her after she was remarried she was married to another person how can the king who is so mighty Ram V Hashem is a m r v how can he who's so mighty and all great so big and so high how can he ever come close to the people who sinned we turned away from him we went and we worshiped other gods which is more than just worship we were zanu we were basically in a relationship in intimacy with other gods we're now going to look at it from our perspective who are we low it's not hidden from you Al now keep this in mind we are created in the image of God we're unbelievable human beings however we have two sides to us we have a spiritual side and we have a physical side so we are physical beings look what it says in Psalms 10314 you'll see this a number seven he knows our creation King David he knows he's talking to God he knows our creation he remembers that we are dust Z he knows that we have all these Temptations not the Angels the Angels don't have any free will the Torah is not for them the Torah is for human beings that have fa fault um you know we um we we make mistakes the angels Don't Make Mistakes we have we make business we have Tas they don't have any of that from the fact that we are partially physical and then it says in in coelis that's Ecclesiastes 7:2 look at number seven for there's no righteous man on Earth who does not who does good and Sins not nobody is is perfect we all make mistakes and hasem created us and he knows that then the Creator himself who's more fitting who's more Roy who's more fitting it's a logical outcome of course he's going to re accept your tra maybe that's exactly why it says you don't have to be so righteous it's not in heaven you're down here on Earth right the Torah is not found or Tru is not found by the uh host of heavenly Angels but only in you you human being may we are born from the I usually use the word soil here I'll use the word dirt I mean we were created from the Dust no from our aspect yes Hashem is allmighty and all great very high but he will accept our Tru that he created us he knows who we are I want to go on to part two since we're basically in this is the last class for a while could be the last class until after the hug so in Deuteronomy chapter 16:30 akos these are a lot of the laws that have to do with yum kipur in the temple and how the K what he did for is he was an intermediary to a certain extent in the temple to atone for the Jewish people and it says for on that day he shall affect atonement you notice it's a capital h e it's not the co it's Hashem is affecting atonement for you to cleanse you before the Lord you shall be cleansed from all your sins so in the Hebrew and then the important words I want you to see is hasem now when we say what does that mean in front of it can also mean before right you get in line in Israel you want to make sure that you're before somebody everyone knows where where you're holding so I need right I'm before you it could mean not just before physically in front of but before prior so basically read it like this before God cleanses you you have to cleanse yourself let's look at it like that at least let's the clear is implying that let's look at the clear it's the other side of the page 515 through 516 do you understand it's we say the day itself cleanses you for sure it does but but if you do nothing you don't do truva you don't do any action to repair your character how's it going to cleanse you it only cleanses those who have repented in guruma look at number nine on the S sheet 85b I underlined two things I only want to look at the two underline it says the Yon for atones for sins when it companied with repentance so we discussed this in the morning Shear it's not so simple but the next underlined part says yam does not atone until you appease the other person so to a certain extent there's going to be sins between you and God and there's going to be sins between you and man so there's also heavier sins and there's lighter sins so it could be that the the um the that scapegoat the goat that goes out it could be that even on yum Kip for the lighter sins that you don't do chuva for it could be that that would have an effectual atonement if even if you didn't do chuva but what we're going to see is the difference between the individual and the nation and that's going to play a huge part in the way we look at other Jews so the cleard with that in mind the cleard says hasem before God atones for you before God cleanses you the person is required to what to cleanse themselves mik from right A through Z Soup To Nuts from the bottom of your foot to the top of your head from all of the impurity of the sin that you made that's why it says we don't know how to translate it before the Lord your God meaning time time before Oh guys we're going to learn the Zar he the cleard says I greater than this I found in the Zohar on verse 1932 again we're in Leviticus 19:32 look at number 10 you shall rise before a as we know every bus in Israel if you read if you if you get a chance to ride the bus right right before an older person you have to stand up usually it's the front seats or maybe one by the door but the idea is that when you see an older person you have to give them your seat you have to stand up for them there's a lot ofas you can see in Rashi on there it's not so simple exactly what where and how basically there is an opinion that only someone who has acquired wisdom WID them right first to Great wise men and not guilty of transgression meaning stand up for righteous people not necessarily stand up for for uh for not so righteous people um so let's try to concentrate we have a lot of music we have a simp somebody donated to ER and they're making a big party so means L that's we saw and the verse is before right when he when when that older person is within within you know 68 feet of you you stand up already now even though that's what the verse implies that's a there's a deeper meaning that a person has to stand up meaning they have to wake up from their sleep we're all sleeping we have to become really truly woke not like they they use that work woke word in America that sorry to say we don't understand but woke to be truly awake to return to hem so do it quickly and before before rash before Yip now is the time to to become to become purified through tra and once you cleanse yourself Hashem finishes the job then you'll become completely clean through the atonement process the clear continues so there's a continuous warning there's he's going to come and warn us again regarding this idea of chuva within the innermost part of your being your heart that part of you is before God that thing that is within the control or handed over to your heart only Hashem knows nobody else knows but we have to be careful you know what it's like a chameleon a hypocrite hypocrite right a a chameleon they change colors depends right what does it say in the New Testament we have a I mentioned we have a famous counter missionary here I think Paul says you know when I go to these people I act like that when I go to them I act like that okay soim they hypocrites so what do they do they fast a lot they increase all kinds of afflictions upon themselves they pray a lot so the people with hold of them as oh yeah they're so righteous and it's similar to what it says in Mish Proverbs 30:12 that they U they want to appear as if they are pure look on the last page Proverbs 30:12 a generation that is pure in its own eyes but is not cleansed of its means it's filth right it's still very dirty on the inside that's why the verse says you should cleanse yourself before God because only God knows um you should do trva before hasem only he knows okay the lastor Yuma which we already we looked at but we looked at it very quickly um what are what are we going to be atoned for Hashem he'll forgive us for the sins we did against him very easily he's not bother human beings he's more concerned about when you upset another human being and that other human being could hold the resentment God's not going to hold the resentment but the human being will let's look what it says that's what you're going to be cleans from very nice but when it comes to human interaction and real sins are are have taken place so that's going to be a problem okay NE now you have to understand this is going to be about Unity how do we view ourselves as Jews individually I'm just I happen to practice Judaism on whatever level I'm on or I'm part of the Jewish Nation through all their ups and downs now we deal with a lot of converts and we tell them look I get it you see the truth you think this is true you can go ahead and live on your own as a as but you want to convert that means you're joining the Jewish people with all our warts with all our sins with all the stuff we go through and we're persecuted people they want to kill us you sure you want to join us and you know what they do they do they make that decision it's crazy right so what does it say over here in Leviticus chapter 16:33 and he shall effect atonement upon the holy of holies and he shall affect atonement on the tent of meetings and he's going to affect atonement on the Jewish people upon all the people of the congregation but listen to the Hebrew the so what does that imply okay the only time is when we are united to become United when we somehow shoulder we take responsibility we feel an obligation to serve Hashem then Hashem will receive our repent our CH and not at a time where we are divided where our hearts are not together the way the world works is here you go my first okay I owe you 100o that on y the custom is that we go around or maybe before already in El by the time before rashash for sure during the 10 days of chuva what are we doing we're going around to the people that we think we might have harmed if we really are are sorry and we ask for forgiveness everyone's asking from each other well guess what happens we're human beings you know what happens the next day we forget about it what forget about it but what did Moses do on the day following yam kipur he gathered all the people remember in parous yro where yro sees Moses judging all the people and he says Moses crazy my daughter is married to you you know she get never gets to see you and I think you you're spending too much time you know why don't you work out a a system for the you know the J the Judiciary make uh judges so what day was that look at number 13 this is parti right the yaka Moshe kadas B Israel he he gathered everyone together look at Rashi he send them on the day after yam kipur now the clear explains why yum so we had this idea that we sinned for the golden calf we sinned and then eventually we were forgiven there's a whole series a timeline so in the 17th of thas that's when we worship the golden calf and the luas were broken 40 days he prayed for us Moses prayed for us and on the first of el God says I forgive them come up and 40 Days Later was yam kipur the day after yam kipur that he Moses then tells everybody now you have to all have to give reach deep down in your pockets give to the temple to the Tabernacle but you cannot give stolen goods you're talking about giving to the temple so they were going to give some of their own stuff how can you give your stuff you don't know if it's yours maybe someone else has a claim on it so here's the time anybody has a problem they have a suffix they have a question if they're the owner so how could when did this ever happen I mean we're talking about we just left Egypt people were stealing and people were having questions of ownership yeah remember that mishna two people bend down to pick up a Talis and each one says the Talis is mine the other one says the Talis is mine and they have to swear guess what happened at the sea a lot of gold washed up and people bent over it to pick up the gold and imagine two people bending over at the same time each one thinking they got it first so they said this is in doubt I don't know if it's mine I don't know if it's yours we can't donate it so the day after yam Kipper when God said to Moses Moses said to the people you have to donate anybody who had any question of ownership had to come forth and so that was the deal then so it was the day after yam kipur but what is it that you had such Shalom on yum kipur everyone just loved each other and now it's the next day you're about to go back to work you're about to go back to the nut whatever they call it the nitty-gritty the the Geral wheel what's it called the rat race the rat you know what this is a way to extend Shalom have court you think of court is a dreaded day I have to go to court well not a Jewish court because the Jewish Court's only going to really work today anyway when two people agree to go to court and whatever the outcome is will be be so it's called peace you're trying to bring peace so this was a way to extend the peace from yum kipur and bring it in bringing it into the rest of the year look how the clear expresses it we are and like three lines up from the bottom four lines up from the bottom which say so the day after Yip Moses gathered everyone together in order to create peace friendship amongst each other having like one unified nation in order that should extend to the rest of the year right we already said that the angels have no problems it's the it's the human beings you know you do business you have to write a contract right away ah have to have this in the can't have that in the contract let's change the conditions right as soon as you're dealing with other people you're going to have tests trials tribulations and possible arguments that's why Moses sat down to judge the people the day foll the whole idea is to bring everyone together in unity and this way we can end eventually enter the land of Israel uh in peace but basically the idea is to create that structure for peace the last few lines what do we call Y it's called Shabbat Shabbat it's actually called shabas of shabas now in Hala it means it's not it's not greater than Shabbat right so you basically have uh like alot so Shabbat has seven alot so let's just go through it the the levels you have three on a weekday three alot on a weekday on Roes which is the next level up you got four talking you have five alot y r is six and then shabas is seven so it's called shabas of chabas you may think it's higher than shabas but it's not but what is unique about it there is going to be a um a lesson here to be taught as the CLE says so onur you're not doing business and you're basically sitting and that's a great reason for peace remember we said when people are involved in business you get in fights or get in uh arguments or let's say tension right well guess what it's called shabas of shabas it's actually a double says the keita so in Yer you have a double type of resting I'm going to ask leor for the word hya but understand from before I asked her that every human being has I think hya here is talking about noise agitation and distraction Anda sometime of movement which is external and internal we're all in involved with either distractions or noises I like the word agitation externally and internally externally so obviously when you're working you're you're using Machinery whatever you're using your arms your legs you're using your body you're using all kinds of vessels that's the external what about the P so obviously on the inside so internally and I like this expression you are what you eat what you eat and drink turns into your blood and that blood then turns into your flesh I mean eventually into your organs and your flesh it be you are what you eat you're eventually going to become you whatever it is you put inside your body and so since your body is ultimately um affected by what you eat this is your tyan you to be careful what you eat because that can arous certain Tyas but what happens on chabas on a regular chabas the only thing on chabas truth is really is a peaceful thing on the inside but at least on chabas you're only resting on the outside but on this particular day cuz you're fasting then you're really because there's nothing that's turning into like we eat beautifully on I hope right another nobody's forcing you nobody's forcing you right to eat really good food on shabas so but still it's heavy and it's going to turn into your blood which again it says the neish that's your lower there's five levels of your soul the lowest level of your soul is your neish which is in the blood so that's probably where all the tias come from so on on yam Kipper you're not eating and you're not drinking a on yum Kipper there is no eating or drinking that's according to the CLE car why it's called a double shabas there's a shabas on the external there's a shabas on the internal and with that I just want to wish everybody really mamish I enjoyed learning with you this year I hope you'll all come back next year um it really helps me when you're all here and we discuss things afterwards uh we really are praying not only for ourselves right it says if you pray for others you will be answered first we're not doing it because we're trying to be answered we really are concerned about the Jewish Nation uh we're in Israel see but there's a lot of shearing people watch from rabbis all over the world but we're here man we're here and we're experiencing and what do we have going on downstairs simp there's a t there's such joy and I I don't know how we're all going to you know live up to whatever Hashem wants us on simply store this year because it's going to be very emotional for many of us on many levels so hopefully uh God will guide us how we're going to celebrate in a real celebratory fashion at the same time whatever growth we need to go through it's even hard to describe we have no idea it's like the unknown but we do know that what they did they turned one of our most what's the word our most joyous days into a day of mourning and we pray every morning in the sh before zra that Hashem will turn our morning into back into Joy so that's what we're looking forward to and with that I wish everyone not just a good chabas but a sh you should all be written inscribe in The Book of Life immediately as sikim and if not we're on this together bonim will experience this through the 10 days of trva and come out on the other side Victorious amen [Music] go oh