Rebbetzin Orit Esther Riter - Turn Around Your Life

[Music] good evening ladies my name is Victoria's every cabin is the president of her lot swarm intelligence has a privilege to welcome you here this evening I would like to thank vectorial for hosting this event it's always been the years since we opened the Mesa it's located right beneath this very structure but you want to thank the community for spreading the word about this beautiful mikvah just letting you know that that make eyes open each evening can 832 they love it so spread the word and hope you will use it it is the vision of her socks women's division and better Brielle to continue providing our community with other education and taran Adarsh papa in connection with a mikvah I would like to mention the tireless efforts of Shoshanna Merkin ensuring the success of this program tonight tonight's presentation is dedicated in the merit of Renoir Salima for young is wrong with and enjoy ourselves and Louis knows more about you your name [Music] councilmember Karen cross Louis is a dear friend of mine his last organization in Vittorio due to unforeseen circumstances she was unable to attend this evening she wishes us all well and she hopes to join us in the next woman's event Rebbetzin Arif Esther was born in Brooklyn New York she's a caterer by profession holding a degree from the culinary arts institute when she was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in 2006 she was forced to close her catering company of 15 years despite her incurable illness she found feeling through spiritual empowerment in 2009 she together with her family made aliyah for Muncie to Ramon Beth Shemesh in Israel she began teaching Emunah and went from feeding the body to feeding the soul other trips to America she takes time to share with us for inspirational words of him you know each day the Rebbetzin releases a daily reporting from her popular front platform daily dose of Emunah which I happen to be a big fan thank you I said following the success of her first book she undertook her second work turnaround your emotions the revenant is firstly on a speaking tour and lightning cities across the nation tonight we will learn how to release what holds us back along with a gentle techniques to power our healing process all while turning around our lives without further ado please help me welcome Rebbetzin Crater [Applause] thank you so much second we did - yes well I'm Israeli also have American Israeli so we also do in fact as I think is it in who does 3 there is is it the French I know that yeah yeah somebody does three okay all right okay thank you thank you thank you it's really an honor to be here a pleasure to see new faces faces I've seen before that's this is the first gig since you know I landed yesterday so I'm really looking forward to starting off on the right foot and getting us all to really work together I look at this whole thing as a process as I as I teach I learn and we're all going to grow together God willing we're gonna leave here tonight with hopefully some more tools insights widening of our minds on how to look at our emotions turn positive energy and grow you know of course with emunah first of all i want to definitely pay my do appreciation to Haziq for all the programs i follow from israel all their amazing programs in your community you are so lucky to have a dedicated organization called Haziq that's really has zach and really strengthens the community so really a round of applause gorgeous gorgeous community with dedication and care I want to thank all the sponsors that help to publish my new book turn around your emotions so many women from around the world some gave $5 $10 or more to really help cover the cost to produce the book to inspire me to enable me to be able to continue to write and God willing be as Shelia had a vehicle to help us all grow tonight's class is dedicated amongst all of Haleh ami slave to the complete healing refresh name of Yaakov a slave in Xhosa but as I fashioned Baqarah for him and his family for the huts llaha of the American family who also helped organize and put together tires Li this beautiful evening thank you very much for Shana and she'd just stand as a scoot for class or help a lot too Shem I also want to make a small personal dedication to a family friend who tonight is his yard site a young boy 18 years old who passed away about four years ago tinnitus is yard site a family friend that should stand as a Louie nice Matt Ben Tzion Ben Ezreal Abe may his neshama bask in the divine radiance amongst all the righteous who have departed from this world Ameen that is lots of shim my inspiration comes from seeking out one purpose when I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis 13 years ago I felt my life break apart literally break apart and the only thing that I really knew about multiple sclerosis was the idea of these marathons that they had when I was in public school way back when when I wasn't observant as a young child and I remembered seeing these people in wheelchairs and we would run and we would raise money for them and that's all I knew about I didn't really know very much about it but since then Hashem has opened up my life in such ways that I want to share with you this is one of the reasons that inspiration for writing the series turn around like I said just the the latest turn around your emotions but the first book at all is also it's all about turning around not only are we here to turn around our emotions and turn around our lives but it's the literally turn around in the end of days we are taught but the way that has Shem interacts with us is from the back but we don't turn a gem didn't turn his back on us we turned our back on Hashem this is what hazael our sages teach us we essentially turned our back on Hashem and we are having him look at us from behind and we are looking at him from behind and therefore so much of what we experience in our lives today is from behind literally so the whole idea of the book and the complex process that these books hopefully help us is to learn to turn around our eyes and see things from a different perspective see things from sort of God's perspective so the purpose is to enhance our lives the purpose is to create more positive emotions to strengthen our munna to clarify for ourselves in our brain and our eyes and our doing in our emotions to feel positive energy and it can be done even in today's times where we don't know how we're gonna lift our head up from the pillow every morning many of us I hear from women all around the world we don't know how am I going to lift my head up from the pillow what is someone I on the way here one of the women was saying to me came up with a new concept she said we're living in a time of inflation of emotions and I'm never heard that concept before what does that mean she said we're literally on a negative spiral of inflation where our emotions are literally taking us from one to the next to the next and I keep widening and widening and we're in like this literal literal whirlwind of emotions so the concept is hopefully with the ideas of the book I'm going to be extracting some of them tonight's class we're gonna learn to clear our minds a little bit bring some more inspiration to ourselves God willing there's a postcard and everyone's card hopefully you've seen it the postcard one side just explains a little bit about the book the other side they're coupons here because I don't want to say goodbye at the end of the night tonight and not see you ladies which is why I had everybody sign in if you didn't sign in please do so because we're gonna do a raffle at the end of the evening and we're gonna raffle off a beautiful energy and munna basket for the winner so please make sure you put your name on the little note e thingies and put it in the basket sign in first so we could stay in touch and the idea these coupons is so that you can join one of the programs because it's because you ladies have asked me to create continuous programs to help us all grow in emotional health and in omona I've also put in place an amazing omona journey for women to the Ukraine where we literally penetrate the hearts of the Siddiqui the baal shem tov a Kadosh Rebbe Nachman right after the huggy when we don't know what we're doing with ourselves with all that light and that journey join me it's a beautiful personal adventure five days of the Ukraine we visit all the 10 D king of the the highlight of the Teddy Keane we dance we sing we cry we pray and we really elevate ourselves so that's all that information is on the postcards ok now that I've done all of my little notifications here let's go straight into a quote from the new book the quote is true Jewish healing involves the return of the Jewish soul to its unity with the divine what it really teaches us what we really understand is that healing begins from the place of knowing that there is wholesomeness there was once wholesomeness we all came from a place of wholesomeness and unfortunately through the circumstances of coming down into colludes and coming down into exile we were broken down into pieces if anybody is searching for a wholesome life understands there's only so much Krazy Glue you're going to be able to use to start piecing yourself together because the DNA of our existence is fragmentation its separation and therefore we are on a journey to try to bring ourselves to a place of wholesome knit wholesomeness from where from the subconscious memory that we remember that there is a concept called wholesomeness there is a concept called being one at peace tranquil calm feeling good we remember what it's like to be in Ghana 10 every one of us remembers what it was like to be face to face not turning around face to face with Hashem in direct contact and no matter what we had experienced at that time in GaN Eden we felt Hashem's loving embrace and this is at the core foundation of everything all of our experiences whether it's problems with my neighbor my spouse my children my health my boss it doesn't matter at the core essence of all of healing there's the memory to know that there is an exalted perfected state that we are all trying to nurture and nurse ourselves back to it and it was through my MS listen to how I say it ms it was three that through the journey of discovering the truth of Hashem signature in my life through my illness that I said to myself you know what it says so in the Torah Hashem loves me I want to know where he loves me where does that Shem love me in my pain it says Iman o hibbott song I am with you in your pain in the pain I Shimon slept down to be with us in our pain in in that experience I wanted to know where are you Hashem and Rebbe Nachman actually says the most powerful three words adapt this every single one of you ladies adapt this the three word question every moment of your life Rebbe Nachman says whenever you find yourself in a place of darkness say where are you simple right where are you in fact as you could say where is your glory where's your glory here M you are the exalted creator of the entire world of existence where is your glory when I'm experiencing pain your glory is shut down in the mud the same way and we ask Hashem where are you and when we ask him where are you the inner inner inner inside of us the place as we started off by saying that remembers that we are all one is we remember that we are united gets awakened think about the program that every single one of us we have inside of us we have a program we have a program called soul and every time we distance ourselves from the experience of of uniting with with Hashem on all levels mentally what we say what we feel what we do whenever we separate that separateness causes pain if we were one with Hashem and we remembered one he loves us he's doing everything for our best why would we even experience what we call negative emotions we wouldn't because we would understand that even in this painful elixir that I have to swallow right now there's healing energies to help me heal from this pain that I have wherever it is so at the end of the day what's the most important idea to remember whenever we are in a place of pain is we have to create an energy called dot dot is right here we're talking about energy centers dot is right here in the throat the neck this is dot which means whenever we are in a place of not feeling connected to Hashem we need to use our voice we need to speak out either Lea use our voice mentally in our brain you can communicate to God in your brain you could talk to Hashem have a whole conversation save your vocal cords and talk to him in your head it serves a clearing for you it serves as a balance for you and every centering of your emotions or what's more powerful you use your voice and you say where are you where is your glory I am in pain right now I know this is good but I don't feel the good that's called dot y dot dot is made up of the three letters dull it I in tough when you divide dot you get da tough the knowing da the knowing of what tough tough as we all know is the last letter of that of the Hebrew Olivet right what are you supposed to know what are you supposed to connect to through dot is connect to the end know that you're in the middle and know that there's an end there's an end to this difficulty there's an end to all the exile there's an end to whatever is your experience by the way also for the good when you're going through something that's wonderful you also have to connect two dots because you have to know everything is a wheel everything is a cycle you experiencing something now things might change it might go up and down and up and down and that's the way life is that's essentially what life is so how do I remind myself to connect to dot I have to speak it out I have to speak it out again mentally or physically try not to chew off your husband's ears too much and like I said that's why I gave you option number one talk about it in your mind because Hashem is in your brain he's in your thoughts this is the mission of the Schama right here starts over here it's this whole keto Hashem is right here and it's been discovered and revealed through scientific proof that the strongest energy waves that we Magnet outside is around the brain and the heart it's the strongest energy path comes out of the heart which is why would we feel something strong a person across the room can notice us well and also the way that we think they give it gives a very strong what we call strong energy feels to get really really strong pace energy feels by what we think what is dot dot in simple language when we how do we know what that is we go back to the Torah when was the first time we learned about the word dot anybody can remember when enter that about done yeah duh at Easter Adama Lee Shawn knew that his wife haha I'm so glad he got to know her what only now you get to know her that we get formal introduction before ok you got to know her but that's not what it really means it's not about knowing dot is an intimate knowledge it's the piercing of knowing but competi but really connecting the knowledge with the heart but let me go even further and deeper into that concept dot is about putting together two opposites putting together two complete opposites male and female who doesn't feel to opposites are residing in our home male-female men are right from Mars women for me I didn't write the book but you know it's really that right don't we feel that so at the end of the day we understand that dot is about connecting to things that I'll beat ever from a natural stance it doesn't make sense but man women can live under a roof without having a massive explosion and some of the houses do but at the end really at the end of the day we have to understand that it's about putting together literally creating emerging a harmonious relationship between two polar opposite ideas what are the two polar opposite ideas that I need to work on every moment of my breathing life anybody what right a right yet so Toby etc very good but what about when I'm in a really really tight place and my emotions are I'm gonna scream I'm throwing the blade I could see the frisbee of the plate you it's just whoever hits get out of the way I'm not responsible this is my emotion I need to be you know I need to get it all out they say it's healthy to let go of emotions so here it goes it's on the plate whoever wants to catch my anger catch it on the plate I'm at that moment where I am so infused with anger I can handle the reality of my essence of what I'm dealing with and what is the dot s what self control but how do I get myself to be in control I'm angry what are the two opposites I have to connect to right now then why do i text n side the breathing right I like I like the one they advise right you're supposed to put on a a robe the calming rope so by the time you put on the calming rope you won't feel like throwing a plate only half a plate right you've already broken it what the two polar opposites of what you're supposed to connect to when you are enduring in the middle of an emotional upheaval there's two things you have to remember one I'm in pain don't you can't you don't want to deny know the Munna and tor teaching does not call for repression suppression and deny denial and and and ignorance to ignore no no we have to be honest and wholesome hottish el we have to be honest about our emotions I'm angry right now and I need to say that I am angry that's one what's the opposite of that within the anger I know you're doing something amazing for me right now Hashem can you think of two crazy opposites more than that while I'm experiencing this massive anger spout I need to remember to remind myself and mu not from the wordly heat a man to train myself I must train myself and say that I know you are here with me and you love me I have to remind myself in fact is that's the foundation of my day as I get up in the morning all of my activities need to be founded as I'm preparing eggs and pancakes anybody fresh pancakes for their kids in the morning not me but I just want to know if somebody's out there does it but I mean there's still mothers that exist that do this thing I don't know what it's like we put in like you know the powder and okay anyway so the idea is you create this foundation the foundation is called Hashem you love me on that foundation you go about your day you clean up the sink you take out the garbage get your kids to do it you go ahead and prepare lunch you go out to work you endure you know the bus driver and the supermarket clerk and you interact with your entire essence of your life from the basic foundation emunah you love me everything you're about to serve me on my todays plate agenda it's all from a place of love and that is the way I begin my day every single day reminding myself that is the ground that I walk on it's a ground cold omona but again it requires a lot of training and reminding ourselves all the time step number two once I'm in the place where I kind of am reminding myself that Hashem is in charge he loves me everything he does is for the very best I can ask Hashem to even explain himself to me tell me how is this good has Sherman I want to know it's called holy hoods but by the way according to rubbing Nachman it's called holy hutzpah you're allowed to be holy what's possession I want to know where is the good here that that was my journey I go around my living room I want to know where is it good here I'm not leaving here it's 2:00 in the morning my kids are sleeping and I am very loudly whispering I want to know where isn't good here and I stand there and I wait and I wait and I bang my hand of course like that good exercise and I said I want to know where is it good once I finish that level I have an obligation I have a duty we have a duty as Jewish women and people we must remain loyal to the teaching that God is good when the going gets tough the tough get going we don't walk away we don't walk away from our marriages again we're talking about general right I'm not here to advise anyone what they should do how they should do if I'm saying in general we stick with it we remain loyal through it as much as we can of course under the advisement of a proper of but in general when it comes to Hashem it is a eternal covenant we remain loyal we mean oil - what what do we make loyal to hope - what - I share Avadhuta at the Chanel okay her best seem habit to rattle above I have an obligation I must remain loyal to serve God from a place of true happiness acceptance and love there no clauses there's an expiration date there's no only under certain certain circumstances you have a mess you serve me from your place of a mess on those days that you're in pain and you can't get up from the couch you serve me with love because I love you I put you on the couch I gave you a day off yes you're in pain yes it's painful but you have to know you're gonna find me in your pain as Janice says you're going to find me in your pain you wouldn't have found me going and ShopRite going to target going to Walmart you wouldn't find me so Hashem says I'm telling you on your couch in pain that's where you're gonna find me Mitchum Timmons ahem from there we find Hashem what's the problem the problem is is we have this inner voice in the back of our minds it's called the voice of the nosh the voice of the snake do you know what the snake told Adam le shun do you know what he actually told to us really haha but we don't want to blame the woman so ever say I'll definitely shine right on where our woman's group let's keep women's lib really all up I said it raha before What did he say he said basically to both of them okay we'll be fair he said you know God gave you the entire mouth can you imagine you walk into any one you want in the world and you have a free ticket saying - you can touch everything you can use their stove you can use their we're swimming pool you can dip in the jacuzzi anything you want you could that you have free reign on the entire existence can you imagine how kind Hashem is he gave them everything okay I'm not I'm not I'm not holding back go to Target wipe everything off the shelves go into shop right take every cookie and candy you want kosher everything's kosher got Nathan are you kidding me everything's kosher yeah I was no such thing as anything else take everything do you want this anything you want but one tree one tree and only for six hours wait six out give me a break six hours I'm not telling you wait six hours in traffic I'm not telling you wait six hours in line enjoy the world but in six more hours you'll get one extra treat what does the now Hajj tell them yeah God loves you ah laughing he give you everything but he held back something he didn't really want to give him everything he didn't really want to give you the best of the best he's giving you almost the best do you see where the problem is do you see how all of us are living our lives hearing the nosh saying to us you got it good but there's better go get the better don't worry about the good go get the better God didn't give you everything and this is the way we run our lives we run our lives feeling that we've missed out that has Shem didn't give us everything and yet he tweet we got a promise from him he's giving us everything he gave us everything he gives us everything and will continue to give us everything but we are here to correct that specific consciousness called the snake consciousness snake consciousness means you don't have it really good you don't God is holding back from you and it's from that little opening of the snake that we feel like we're being cheated so when we understand the concept of what we're really here to correct and you to refine it's all here it's all the perception it's all about what I think I'm missing and every time I think I'm missing something I'm in a dark space and what is darkness the word darkness in Hebrew is Hacha switch the letters around scramble them around hush if spells jaha forgot and it says in the Torah when does a person fall into transgression only when Picabo says only when wash dude a spirit of folly of forgetting us forget forgetting is this descends upon a person's mind what it means is that every time we are tempted to go into a place of sin it's only because we are in Xhosa we're in darkness because we forgot that God did give us everything we needed we don't have to sneak our way through try to grab something else change things around now again I know the popping up in some of your minds you're saying but wait a minute but when we have an instruction - fela prayer what's the whole purpose of prayer why do I have to pray if everything that God does is for the very best it's because we have an instruction along with a Munna and the Emunah instruction goes like this you accept today for everything that you have right now take a second and thank gosh um for everything everything that you have the problems the difficulties the challenge is there your coach there your personal coach and training program to become agreat you if I would have succumbed to the the the side effects of MS I would not be here tonight every one of you you should take an initiative at this point and say I this month and naming myself a new tov get a new role what is the new world that everyone's gonna walk out of this room with I am a truth seeker I want everyone to put a garment called a truth seeker seek out the truth of God's wisdom and his guidance and everything that is going on in your life find his message ask him why ask him where he is he asked him where his glory is when you're in pain what is your glory I'm in pain but what about you I'm schlepping you down in my pain too I don't want to schlep you down especially ello when the king is in the field he's right here we're schlepping him to every place we're in in our minds and our you know immoral desires and everything we're slapping him and everything so when we're in a place of difficulty we forget we forget God's goodness if we remembered that the reason why we're going through what we're going through is because we're being coached to become a greater us then we wouldn't be in such pain we wouldn't be in such difficulty in fact the word Deen judgment is equal to the idea of sin soon of being constricted when is a person subject to Deen too difficult and we're in the month where we want to turn these all around literally turn them around when are we in a place of Deen god forbid only when we're not able to clearly see the goodness of Hashem in fact is Dean what it really is is hidden good that's what I say just teach us little judgment is is goodness in a very thick hardened shell how do you break off the shell what did we say from the beginning a few moments ago dot connect connect to the goodness in the darkness remember how do you get out of the Harsha remember Hacha darkness is forgetfulness when you remember are you in forgetfulness and darkness anymore no that is how we essentially take ourselves out of exile so I want to do a little exercise okay it's called the white light meditation it's part of some of the programs that I teach the workshop programs I mentioned before we do a lot of these meditations we do some energy work beautiful beautiful methods that you really can apply to your everyday life I want us to do a very short meditation called the white light meditation so I want everybody to sort of get to a place where they're a little bit in a comfortable position we can all close our eyes and I want you to notice before you close your eyes I want you to notice when I'm going to try to get you through your visualization of closing your eyes to get you to essentially feel this white light called divine glorious endless love energy pay attention where the white light is not allowing we are at where the blockages where is this white light not coming in it's a big indicator of where you have blockages energetically and also of course with omona also with emotions it's the Triple E program Emunah energy emotions they all the same once you work on one you get the benefit of you know having that flow ok so pay attention close your eyes for just a moment and we'll do a quick inversion of this [Music] just close your eyes to take a nice deep breath in through your nose hold for a moment and then breathe out through your mouth and I want you to imagine that there's a funnel sort of like a crown like I had on top of your head and I want you to allow for the light of Hashem love this beautiful white light to begin pouring into this funnel and slowly dripping to the top of your head and allow that white light to sort of massage the top of your scalp and it's drizzly it has a fluid feel to it so let it just drip drop from the top of your head let it just sort of massage your forehead even massage a little bit your eyes all the while just still breathe and allow that white light to descend even lower now into your nose you can breathe in that light allow it to give you a fresh breath of air of love of oxygen to your cells and allow that white light to massage your cheeks [Music] you can even swallow it let it go and massage your mouth you can allow your tongue to drop a little bit from the roof of your mouth and swallow that white light let it develop the vocal cords so that you can really speak your truth articulate articulate your truth and just allow that white light and now descend the shoulders going down your elbows your wrists and your hands your fingers your palms and let that white light now massage your lungs and again just notice where that white light might not allow itself to go down I'd enter into your heart massage the left and the right side of your heart let it continue to descend down massage your internal organs kidneys liver pancreas spleen your intestines as it descends down into your hips massaging your thighs your knees your calves your ankles down to your toes don't forget to bring that white light down to the soles of your feet so you feel steady ground you feel the ground you feel that Hashem is literally all around you holding you up and just breathe allow all that white light inside of you to start radiating around you like a bowl of white clouded energy because that's really who you are you are able of light and you don't have to do anything to create this light it's always there and when you're ready very gently with the consciousness of knowing this white light is there you've observed it you've noticed it and by doing so you've also created this reality of planting it around you more strongly than it was before you can open your eyes I'm gonna let one person tell me their experience anybody want to be brave enough to tell me their experience no brave women in a whole world Beth Camille ah yes throat dot how are you a talker yes but you talk really like really talk [Music] you know really like empty out India you know what this is this is anything out the thoughts it's not just talk it's all this pressure in here all these thoughts all these dreams all these desires while these plans you really speak them out passion with power something needs to still be released there and you can ask Hashem why why why where is it what am i not saying if you went back after the class go back tonight close your eyes again and say what just consciously put it out there say what is there what's there why is it not being released wait for the first thought to come to you that's your answer you might see yourself in third grade with more if God you weren't able to say something to her you might find yourself three days ago standing in front of your neighbor and you holding back a word mm-hmm that's energy work being able to get you know these messages I'm going to tell you even more when you have blockages in your body and this white light is not just a healing meditation but it's an measuring bar meditation it's a diagnosis of what it is where it is what it is that's bothering you when you go back as I just made the suggestion and you close your eyes I want what do we say what's our new garments truth seekers this month we're all wearing a new garment and it says the tag inside doesn't say Kohl's or Saks Fifth Avenue it says true seekers we are truth seekers particularly this month that's all Hashem wants from us is to seek our own truth and come to our truthful place because that's where all the light really is we'd have to create it you just have to unblock it Healing is there go go to a place that had an earthquake god forbid we all heard about this one earthquake hurricane what was it in Florida has Jim should watch over everybody right what was it hurricane go back to that place in six months from now see how the grounds and the earth mother nature quote-unquote is healing the same place of destruction Hashem created this world with healing mechanism already ready in place you don't have to do anything to heal we just have to take away the blockages you have to allow for the light to come through so essentially you go back and you say okay I want to know what's really blocking me here and you work from that point and you say okay what's blocking me and be a truth don't be afraid this is where we get stuck we're afraid I don't know if I really want to know what's there I mean maybe I'll discover my husband's there though ya discover discover let it go then you could go with that anger and you could say you know what I ain't being angry I don't want to have that anger stuck in my throat I don't want it I don't want that lustful desire to sit in my heart if I'm thinking about who knows what I want it That's not me I'm godly I don't want it that's the voter this month depends on the color [Music] neon that means that could very well be that in that place you have a huge opening because you have a huge opening that means it's a really clear place it's indicating to you through that change of color or the the radiance of the of the hue right it's indicating to you what's really there that's good it's also an indication go somewhere else that you don't see that listen we're in a room filled with a lot of energies here right now okay it's kind of hard if anybody wants to get the meditation through audio and really practice it in their own home quietly you can email we have my business cards or they are email and we'll send you a copy of the you know the audio and you can play it play it for yourself I actually have it where I'm speaking it and I have background music to really count and take you through and it's a more long a little bit more of a longer version and use it use it as a tool use it every day this month get to your truth clear yourself up when we look at the word Eucerin you sirum nobody wants you sir you sir means pain you sir means challenges you sir means ow the word your serum comes from the word last seal to remove the purpose of your serum is to shave away the complex emotional parts of us that arcs blocking this light and energy and love of ash m to come through so essentially again what is bad dad is hidden good that's what bad is bad means I'm consciously not aware I forgot I'm in the darkness I forgot that Hashem is here feeding me good of course that's what it is there is no other tree that I should be eating from I have everything I have everything that I need so again I'm going to go back to the question then why Dobbin why does it what's the purpose the purpose is is Shem instructed us you accept today but whatever it is that you could change Hashem gives us a hundred percent open grounds and permission to change but what if I can't change what if something just happened now my car broke down can I change that I can't change it it happens it was in the past that's when you need to just accept surrender and find Hashem is light in it for whatever reason the money went on the car and not on the prescription it's a it's something else like we can come up we know we know the baseline though is remember my baseline the way that I see everything in my life is on the baseline you love me you care about me you want only from my best you're training me to become the best man the golden medals called the Emunah Olympics that's what you want from me once I get that down pat I have to remain loyal to the lessons don't start do it into wood milling and thinking well maybe there is something out and I'm playing punished I'm bad I deserve the bad how many women will come to say you don't know you think I'm a good person you don't know what I've done in my life well you don't know what I've done in my life we all have done things in our lives I mean demons in our closet who it doesn't have I mean we've been here five thousand seven hundred seventy nine years we've been doing this trying to make things right who doesn't have demons we all do open it up bring it up lift it up you're not being punished you're being trained you're being refined you're elevating yourself I'm not just selling you a story this is the way that we're taught in the Torah all the rest of that is all these crucifixions and stuff that's not ours get out of it that doesn't belong to us I'm not telling you there's no consequences of course someone runs a red light of course there's a consequence but the God is not out to get us God we have to get rid of that whole concept we think he's out to get us he's not out to get us he loves us he wants us to correct and get to know him that's what he wants at the end of the day that's what he wants and that's the caja prea that is the basic concept of free will free will is I choose to see Hashem as a mean God forbid out to get me kind of God I don't remember that he's here I'm thinking he's holding something back from me he's not allowing me the best because he's holding back that tree for me or I could say you know what there is something amazing and good here Hashem is creating a reality for me that's building me and then abling me to grow where are the places where we're in pain in our lives do you know where you know we know what the message is if I'm having a difficult time I have to be very specific these are things we learn in the workshops I have to be very specific I got to go to the core if I'm having an issue with my child that my child is for instance not being grateful I have to go and do the research work inside of me and say where am i possibly not grateful in my life the places that I'm experiencing of pain outside are the projections in fact I think it was as if I'm not mistaken it was one of the the physicists or it's either Max Planck or Einstein they're all on one clump for me I'm sorry and please forgive me science and physics I wasn't really a Stowe's classes one of them said that everything that we experience in life is a projection and a shadow of our own self Carl Jung I missed out on both of them I still like you Einstein to some degree and also you the other one but Carl Jung the founder of psychology he said if we only knew we don't need him we have Torah but okay let's give him credit they've done a lot of work at the end of the day he says everything that you're experiencing on the outside is all your own projection of your own shadow that you have now shifted off and given it to someone else if you're experiencing your neighbor net banging on the wall in Israel we get this a lot I love Israel but we get this a lot 2:00 in the morning the neighbor decides it's time to reconstruct the house it's like the construction that they decide to do in the middle of the high like why did you know it's traffic time can't you just schedule it at 3:00 in the morning when nobody's on the street like I don't understand the idea is if I'm experiencing that what am i it's a projection of me so if it's an indicator to me I have my world my freewill is I have to now go inside of me and I have to say to myself okay where is that in me but we're in the blame game right a demolition it's your fault hava it's your fault they say the Nahas fault then they go ahem it's your fault because you created hello that's all we're doing is we're in the blame game we keep passing it and projecting it and projecting it and blaming it it's not there's something there that we need to do something there that we need to refine ourselves in and all Hashem wants is for us to refine ourselves so that when we finally come up after 120 we're in the most glorious state possible and that we don't have to be rolled around again to come back down here and by the way there's not much more rolling we're told we understand all voices of all the rabbis Safari Ashkenazi Hasidic tenma timoni Bihari and everyone what are they all saying and the day's had much may there's no question and of things how many times you think we're going to be rolled around to reincarnate no more we're at the end we have to finish whatever we didn't do way back when that's our job I want to do one more exercise and this is an exercise where this is such an important exercise again it can be made available for you on audio it's an exercise where now that we understand that there are places in our bodies that are stuck by the way a lot of these exercises are in the book at the in the back together with school is of how to also repair various parts of your body and your life but idea but this exercise teaches us how to discover where the stuckness is but also how to take the resources of those areas of our body that are imperfect you know as you are hurting let's just say you stub your toe you feel my whole body's in pain is the whole body in pain no it's just the toe there's a part many parts of your body at that time that are not in pain or in perfect health we forget so this exercise teaches us that there are parts of the body at the same time simultaneously as you're experiencing pain you could resource out into your body finds another place grab the energy from there and pour it into the place of pain you don't need any external it's all there in you okay so one more exercise and then we'll wrap it up okay close your eyes and I'm just gonna introduce to everyone of us just a concept the concept is called stuckness and every person is gonna say something else just think of the word stuckness stuckness oh I'm tired just yeah it's cute you say it in Hebrew Oh a place of being stuck huh stuck I like Jane said dog okay just think of a place where you feel there's just there's no way moving no way moving from this place okay just keep that in your mind close your eyes and I want when I ask the questions internally hear your body answer you back what sensations in your body go with that feeling of being stuck right now if that sensation actually had a voice if it had an image a memory a color what would that be right now [Music] and now I'm going to ask you where in your past did you feel stuck and unable to move or accept something in your life it could be some other something a memory of thought of something you didn't even begin the exercise with and then I'm going to ask you where is this stuck feeling in your body right now where is it how does it feel describe it to yourself is it tight is it tingly stabbing is it hot it's a painful I said Iggy that's your body's interpretation stuck and it's speaking to you understand your body is speaking to you and teaching you about the idea of being stuck and now I'm going to ask you the opposite of stuck find in your body the place in your body where the opposite of stuck lives we're and again it this is just gonna come to as a pop up of an idea if you're thinking about your toe or your knee that's where it is that's the place that doesn't have stuckness in your body and I want you to resource from that place that's the place of wholesomeness where all of hashem is light is there I want you to pull from that place consciously in your mind's eye allow it to radiate from that place anywhere in your body where you felt the stuckness before allow that light in that area to shine and resonate travel to where it needs to travel in your body to the other place that you had that emotion that pain that memory and allow it to begin to just open up that place [Music] and gently when you're ready you can open your eyes and I'm going to let one person again be brave and share their experience [Music] I am so proud of your braveness okay but what was I just want you use you're gonna share as much as you feel comfortable with on live CNN channel 2 Fox News all of them are there so I definitely had a very traumatic loss I'm sorry so was this a female figure that you lost I'm sorry but do you remember losing someone of a female at one you might you love you lost your mother by that so this was sort of also probably just triggering up some stuff from there - okay and in the womb so now it's about giving birth and you're getting having all that energy to be able to rebirth yourself Wow so you should pull that definitely want to pull from that strength of that's where the energy of all newness in fact is in Chinese medicine the whole idea of the wound is called the solar plexus they call it the solar plexus because solar is Sun and that's where a lot of the warmth of our emotions a lot of the newness the birth right shines it radiates newness into our lives so pull from that energy and allow yourself to feel safe and warm and loves beside the showmanship you a lot of what's la ha I'm gonna go over two quick parts and I'm going to refer to the book and then we're gonna wrap up the night actually I'm going to go to page 81 in the book if anybody has it on there laughs that's great and if not I'm just going to refer to it so towards the end of the book I actually talked about a couple of different we talked about the sphero's we talked about the energy centers but at one point before the sphere is I go into ten different systems of the body and we discussed there the possible correlations body emotion analysis so we can understand our bodies the somatic experience of understanding our bodies and what our bodies are telling us so in this particular case I'm referring to page 81 because it talks about the skin anybody who has skin disorders very interesting we notice that a lot of the teenagers have like acne right they have acne on their face anybody ever wonder why we could be you know we can use the natural medical understanding that uh hormonal changes and sweat glands and yet again I'm not I'm not diminishing medical science god forbid but there's other reasons why children of this age seem to suffer from what they call teenage acne whatever have you Oh chocolate that's my friend you can't put chocolate down you'd make my midnight snack everyone knows the daily dose of omona talks about chocolate souffles all the time anybody want to invite me for chocolate cake I am coming in fact as I started putting cocoa in my my coffee now that's how much I love chocolate anyway so we can say it's chocolate we could say it's the French fries and the hamburgers and whatever have you sure the chicken nuggets well we don't feel like cooking we throw them in there whatever and you know we're not gonna talk about that we're good mothers we make fresh pancakes every day but right the days when I had one child maybe you know you know how it is when you have your first child don't touch the baby here and you take that everything sterilized by the time second third fourth I'll take the pass time shove it in their mouth right we all know that right yeah anyways everyone's loved me because everyone does it you know I'm not the only one don't look at me I didn't invent that ever we all do it okay so the skin.if again just referring it to some concept the skin the skin speaks a whole a whole bunch of different languages the skin is about a shield the skin is about the protecting you know shield around us the skin is the is the glorious so to speak downfall of the head of a domination right what happened after he sinned essentially he got downgraded right he was a ball of light at one point we were all auras we didn't have really bodies we were all the balls of light be the the the energy electromagnetic fields and colors that you see today and carolien photography that is how we looked okay we had we were actually this really big massive amount of light very little body more light and essentially what happened was we got downgraded we went from or with olive to or with iein anybody know the gill motley other numerology of ayan versus Olive I in the number 70 Olive is one okay we're going back to math and everybody don't be scared what is 70 minus one if someone was paying attention in kindergarten but I on this okay so 69 69 the gematria the word in the numerology for 69 is young gone you're gone is sorrow how do we know ourselves back from the skin so to speak the garment of the light with olive to the garment of the love the garment were currently include with with the iron which is 70 you have to go through the 69 basically letter you know steps of sorrow but you're the miss yo note those are the miss yo note that's what it is it's a training program that essentially brings us back to be able to reveal that light right everything is about light and understanding and clarity so the skin essentially what it is is it's a reflection first of all of the Illuma an aluminous light that we should be that shines within a person who has for instance we're gonna go back to the teenagers the skin is also representation of our self-image what do people see they don't see my guy nobody sees my kidneys nobody sees my lungs they don't see my internals they see my outer what do they see they see my skin so kids that are looking for themselves they don't know what image to portray to the world so a lot of them have acne these are kids that are looking for the identity they're looking what am I really and they're going through internal turmoil many of them at the teenage years of trying to present themselves to the world but yet they don't really know who they are so therefore they get bloat think about what is acne these are these blown-up red inflamed wounds because they're angry at themselves am i this am i dad what should I show should I show this trying to show that they don't know they're finding themselves on the other hand you find a lot of people who suffer from skin ailments they're people who have undergone possibly abuse they're trying to shield themselves so what happens subconsciously it's called survival brain mode the brain projects this ugliness so then that's their mode of protection you don't want to come next to me I've been confident that person says I've been abused don't come next to me I'm disgusting right they won't they sort of subconsciously portray themselves as don't come close to me by the way that's the same thing for somebody who has a bad body odor or bad mouth smell subconsciously they don't want people coming close to them so they project it out through the body the body here is the emotional sort of stuck area and so the body is a very good listener the body right away is like a good soldier it says oh you're scared let me give you an odor let me give you you know acne let me give you something to protect you by the way weight is the same thing one of the reasons why we isolate ourselves is we can recreate this way a lot of women who have weight issues is because they really want to shield themselves they don't want anyone to really see their rawness so they hide so to speak behind a couple that could be one possibility of course there are others I'm just saying these but that's the way our bodies speak to us I'm gonna go ahead and I'm going to talk about one extra part and then we'll close up I keep saying that right page 86 I talked about the digestive tract a lot of women a lot of people today suffer from digestive issues it's all about churning an idea what can't I process what can't I digest what trauma is sitting there in my stomach that I can't I can't process what is the the idea of the intestines it's about transition the food goes into the intestines looking one way by the time it gets done with the whole intestine track how does it look completely different so digestion is all about transition people have difficulties with transitions they're starting something new we call it a nervous stomach what is a nervous stomach is somebody who has a difficult time adjusting themselves to new environments right it's the transition stomach is also listen to this ladies the stomach junot the stomach is one of the hottest hottest places in the body the acid the stomach acid is so burning it's so hot in fact it's one of the most amazing miracles of the human body is how is it that the stomach acid doesn't burn the stomach lining how does the stomach acid know to burn the food and not burn its own body amazing shows Malibu my second show Smosh the the the idea of a sham amazing creation so the place of the stomach is the place of a lot of intense heat when a person suffers from really holding on into their emotions you know what that heat does the heat blocks away and burns away your intuition everyone thinks their intuition is in their brain what do you say I have a gut feeling you don't just say some gut feeling your gut is your intuition in fact is they recently discovered that the stomach has a second you can't listen to this you have two brains it's called the stomach brain I'm not kidding google it mr. Google will tell you all about it stomach brain there's a brain there's a thinking aspect of you in your stomach when you are heated with emotions that you can't stomach you're nauseated by someone someone gets on my nerves I want to throw up when I see that person I'm not I didn't say that uses an example none of us feel that way right right now got to work on that I know I know we're human condition it's okay but I'm proud of whoever said that because that means they're truthful that's great that's where you start most your healing admit yuck I have this nausea for this person admit it say it don't hide it and then say has chef take it away from me but let it say I know it's here it's inhabiting my stomach but when you can get rid of it you won't believe the intuitive senses that will begin to come up to you should I send my kid to this school or that school get rid of all those horrible feelings you have listen to your own gut you'll be able to once you get rid of the negativity you won't believe the amount of clarity that comes in so instead of having the stomach try to cool itself down from all those heated emotions we need to release it how we said from the beginning of the class God speak about it mentally physically chew off your friend's ear right you can chew off your son your husband's ear too but try I have rock- on him you know he doesn't really understand everything right but it's all about really breaking up what's inside of us so with that I will close up tonight and I will be here for a couple more minutes to sign the books and you know talk to whoever would like some a little bit more insights but at the end of the day I'm hoping that we all have a little bit more insightfulness to embark on the month of lol the month it was so important to turn around our emotions it's so important to just turn around and notice oh it's you you know the best I'm going to end with this I say it again the best thing the best analogy I like to look at when I think about Hashem and my disappointment so to speak in the Shem and I think I have more luck - than Hashem right because if I didn't think that I had more - and more opinion on creation than assume that I wouldn't get upset with him when I hear about something bad happening to someone think about it think about it the fact that I get upset of course again human condition I'm not saying you're not supposed to get upset when you hear a tragedy but one of the things that we have to remember when we hear something difficult is don't we shouldn't make ourselves as if we're better than God we think that we have more rahama oh I was God I would never allow this person to get sick or god forbid I would never have decreed that on that person that person is a good person what did they do to deserve this what does that mean I'm basically saying to God you know what I know how to run the world better than you little bit that's a little bit too holy hurts but don't you think but anyway one of the things one of the best analogies that I like to use to lift myself up from Emunah is like this think about a young child who's rushing into ongoing traffic right what does the mother do she hangs her child out of the street in the mean time the child falls to the ground god forbid may need even shoulder surgery because she literally act the kid out of the street this child mom what kind of a mother are you what kind of a mother are you or you know it's even better I mean hopefully our child children won't be traumatized a child the two-year-old hopefully they're all right let's go here they're not toilet trained they're sitting in the soiled diaper right there in the middle of building a gorgeous Lego tower with the new Legos the the dream of a lifetime they finally got the Legos to stand and they're watching their beautiful creation and the mother goes diaper change and the child is like you're not going to take me away from my Picasso and she has to yank him away and clean him all the while the child thinks you have no respect for me mother I've worked on this Lego all of my life I finally got it to stand were you taking me away from my important endeavor here I'm building the next Trump Tower I'm gonna teach Trump how to build his next Trump Tower with my creation like that or the child being yanked out now in the meantime they're experiencing pain but do they understand that if they would just turn around and see it from the mother's perspective she saved her child's life yes maybe that child needs to go through some painful surgery but she has a life which she would not have had if the mother didn't pull her out of the streets the child would have developed a diaper rash whatever the case may be so we have to understand this is the way we need to turn around our lives we need to see things from a different perspective remember create the foundation of every perception God loves me Hashem loves me and neither did Eva - Delia she loves me so much that he's leaving the higher glory and coming down into the field to be with every single one of us why does house I'll use the Michelle the analogy of a field why can't they say that God is dwelling in our homes or the king is coming and meeting us at Trader Joe's I don't know I'm pulling things out of my why why the fields what happens in a field what happens in a field what happened since meditations I like that I didn't I wasn't actually going there but I like that but I like that that's a new it that's a new way what do you do in the field oh I'm thinking work okay you're into flowers I'm into work I'm into work I'm into you know work in the fields right whoo it's hot out here huh God is meeting me in the fields as I'm working and I'm sweating am I in my glorious clothing ready for a hot sauna did I shower right that's where hashem meets us while we're sweaty or dirty we think that's where hashem meets us right before Rosh Hashanah because he appreciates everything that we do a compassionate eternal unconditional god that loves every one of us remember that every day particularly this month don't ladies don't miss out on every breath of ello it is such a gift this is such a gift Hisham says I'm taking you to court but I'm gonna give you the best lawyers and I'm gonna tell you exactly what you're being tried for and I'm gonna give you the best judge to stand in front of you and with that I want you to go and prepare yourself to stand before me what a grateful gracious unbelievable God we have but as lot hm we should all have a Shanah Tovah or maybe we're fed with a lot of revealed compassion we should come out from the darkness into the light gulab raha meme alia everyone a ticket to err to swell I have to say that but as long as I'm come to me and bet Shemesh I love you all Shanah Tovah move on and stay in touch please stay in touch [Music]