Rav Moshe Weinberger - Melaveh Malka

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Hoshi rabona look of a room purveyors someone somebody once told me that the hella gay vision is lucielle I know that the hella gay vision was with the see them and they were doing here he could I don't know it might have been simplest IRA I'm not sure when it was but there was a record a dance and the Haley originally was dancing in a an unusual way he was dipping all the way down and then standing up and dipping far down to the ground and standing up and afterwards some of the older four see the master Rebbe what type of a dance was that now we began with yom kippur in rending Neela the Helga richness said I straighten yourself lifting me out to meet our roomie Matthias the last mission in you listening me automate arm or me me Tijeras is that corn officials as well lift me me me sewers or me the fiftieth mataira McPhee's sur la sha by me McPhee Silesia so the richness said that I was thinking when I looked at the seed them when I looked at all of you there is nurse said I understood that Jews themselves are are shams mikvah McPhee so I shed the Jewish people are they're very slow in victory in this world I have no words to thank you my wife and I were talking you after half-dollar I came here IV asked me to come he's helped some of our Catherine Sewell helped he saved lives in our shul and I came out sucker otário I mr. by Mitzvah in shul a Sheva brachot sensual and off roof and I'm going to have to do a lot of damage control but I felt that I was doing at this a toy though the Weinberg is coming to help I'll be with thee with the shadows I'll shred him you sir I feel that I spent Shabbos titling in a mixer that chef has the most beautiful mixer I ever saw in my life you Nick Fisher la sha titling and shoes have every reason to hide it in their homes and their basements crying angry blaming the system the schools the world the president whatever it is and instead the waters came together like when the waters will come mine your bass Hashem will come by the best I make this the waters came from all over the world our broken world our broken world nickfear seller said that for my wife and I this has been an absolutely astonishing experience and I'm thinking the whole time I wish this one was here and I'm thinking about this miss book of mine I wish was here and if only if only this miss I had this 15 years ago when something happened in our family by a relative my mind is going through so many phases and name who need to be titled in this Mixel that avi and this family of cash and nav she has created once things began I was expecting to spend the entire Shabbos crying but then it turns out that there was a lot of funny stuff going on too and I had an opportunity to deliver for that I enjoyed myself and I see that the element Joy's a little bit in most of the diffuser so let me share with you something that happened to my wife and I some of you might have heard this from me around 20 years ago we was I hated to go through shall I to visit our daughter in seminary and one of the balla bottom had an apartment that he was kind enough to allow us to use for the Shabbos to be over there and he told us that when we get the apartment we should go upstairs to such-and-such there's a neighbor upstairs and the neighbor will help us to take care of everything for Shabbos in the apartment to get ready so my wife went upstairs to speak to this woman who turns out she was abolished Ruth a very sweet and special woman who shared the following story of my wife she said that she was determined to learn Ifrit she wanted to speak at that time they were still Jews Newsline that spoke Hebrew so she wanted to learn to speak hear it and she went to open and she was with dictionaries in Detroit now it turns out that she was having a problem in her apartment those of you are from Aris all know that they have certain buggies that are known fondly near to sur les jeux Kim now these are like super cockroaches mutations from another planet they're this big they jump they fly they're harmless but they're very very intimidating it's become part of Israeli culture as a trooper OSHA also it's part of Israeli culture juke him now so she had an infestation in her apartment of juking of cakra Israeli cockroaches so she wanted to call an exterminator and she looked up in the dictionary somehow it came to the word Kyra Kim bug is insects and that's the word she came up with but she made a little bit of a mistake she called an exterminator and she said to the exterminator Denis hastily by yeah I have a problem I'll translate I know there were guys here from start miss I'll translate yes Lee bhaiya Verret muhabba yeah what's the problem she says yes Lee tirade dim al hamra peasant she made a little bit of a mistake instead of cleric instead of bug she said car a dim which means ultra-orthodox Jews he hasted sorry dear melon repressor on my balcony I have juice so the guy says as grad Madrid Sami Manny like so you know I'm an exterminator what do you want from me so she says yes lamb I beg you like him he like didn't to have many many children these carry them so this guy's not religious but he says baa show me Aisling they loved him and she thinks he's crazy yeah he says both gosh muh lamb I bet you loved him she goes Baruch Hashem Siegel's house macho Sami Manny she says I nice Oh Nate go Tom I hate them I hate the karadian so he says I kneel over Havel Tom look you up Piaf hug I don't love them but you have to learn to live with them so she says I thought you and it's a shot they thought UNIX terminators I am so what do you want him not to sell me many a leadership tell over Tyrol Tom I want you to come kill them he says listen lady anyhoo D Carradine money hoody money as oh hey sexually she was laughing realized there was a mistake well Hashemi I saw no corrida Muhammad % Obama ba ba hadisha na ba Hashem we have Jewish children in my parents generation they didn't see for many years to his children and now that I SEM has blessed us with them we're not quite sure what to do when things go well but when they don't we're not quite sure what to do and we feel lost and there are families where words are spoken that are worse than anything that an exterminator could possibly come up with and there are classrooms or words are spoken that are worse than any chemical dispensed by an exterminator so I want to give a broth now this broth is going to take a couple of minutes but it's all abruptly I'm not here to explain anything you heard some fantastic people tell me if a common professionals I'm not explaining anything I'm just dreaming of something and all I'm thinking about since this Shabbos began and I'm diving up diving again I'm looking over if the Shabbos to looked over the paper with the names and I don't know these children I know many children that are going through pain including some of my own so I shaded the earth before by Kabbalah Shabbos so what I'm saying now is if a terrorist Vila I'm darkening out well because I believe this is a way to have a democracy matoi though for this Chavez most of us now are trying to figure out how we're gonna make good on the afikomen z-- how this custom-developed exactly I'm not sure I don't mean the afikomen that we have but as far as the presence and the gifts and so on I don't remember getting from My Father except the a Sequoia to buy gifts for the children now there are two kinds of gifts listen carefully I once heard in the name of a certain time with Holcomb who said that he often traveled to Europe he was away from home and he found it in Vienna with his a beautiful beautiful Yiddish Aquila he found it over there there are very very beautiful stories for children's clothing and he has some girls at home and he realized that he would spend a great deal of time going to one store to the next trying to find a nice dress for the comma and a nice a nice blouse for Allah and he would go from place to place and was hard for him to choose and finally he would pick something for this child another one for this little girl and he was always thinking maybe the next door there was something nicer or will my broccoli ever get the dress that was second place that I would have liked to have given her also because if I could have a give her everything I would clean out all the stores but I can't afford so the question about the gifts that haven't been delivered that haven't been given so it's mostly Shabbos and there's a Eid that we're waiting for he makes cameo appearances in our lives Elian RV and we heard all this how this the Neva that every single one of you lives with on your lips about hey Steve live all of us are born into a born a male voice on the Deena Valley on RV is to bring back that which is lost we even find in Halawa when you open up mister Bava metzia places brings at the beginning they mean if you hey Munna if there's such a thing day I'm gonna pass you over leo but is the mission of I'm at Zion but yeah you wonder how she believes have certain things that are waiting there were certain things that are in limbo and they are waiting until nobody comes until somehow the truth will be revealed to start there things in her that we don't understand and take you Tish BIA tyrunt's they were waiting filly are nosy there's so many things in our lives that we don't understand and when we open the door italiano v we're waiting for him to bring back all that's Lewis and all that's missing did the hey steal a volvo saab underlay bottom elevation because you and i know that the greatest present in the world that you and I are waiting for is the return of our children each and every one of them and you know that it the greatest gift that you and I can give our children is our love and everybody here like myself and I shared with some of the Kaveri by 90 shoppers last night you know that there are certain words that you wish you had said to the child ten years ago that now we're a little bit smarter we're learning there are certain feelings that perhaps I should have shared certain things I could have given to the child and now my heart is broken why didn't I tell her that just like so many times I've Sattler Elena by a shiver and I'm sitting with a son or a daughter who had 40 50 60 years to tell a father or mother I'm sorry I love you I never told you how much you mean to me and now suddenly the parrot is no longer here but it wasn't sudden there are words that we don't give that we should there are feelings that we don't show that we that we should there's love that's waiting and it's held back for all different reasons and vengeance suddenly suddenly more sudden than the passing Lelaina of a parent suddenly the child is not coming home and were opening the door for leonova to bring back that child just like Robledo agus was gonna says that the union of like a tonic him and there outside the house is a yankie Lavigne who was standing by the door waiting in the night where is your service Sadiq where is my son and lighting a candle by the door so maybe I used about Sadiq will see that here you have her father and mother who love you come home to us we're sorry we here we love you he wants you to come home no strings attached this kunai aloofness can I love mine is Bayes based plus means nothing just come home so what happens to all the the love that we didn't give the words that we didn't say somebody that converts from the highlig Age of its era Bianca Lisbon to the base jankis he says the unit Layla Simran he heard Mustafa from his father the musci lawyer where he heard it from lamal abou coitus the deigning of laila she moorim is a night of guarding a night of watching is that when you sit at this a the painting of well paisa and the alien avi coming well pacer is that through this time of the year a Jew was able to ascend to a place in his and moon and her emunah that every single mr. that you wanted to do every word that you wanted the davin that you didn't davon every show of love that you didn't give to our 70 a child everything that the children wanted to say to us our children love us but they're so disabled by the world that we're living in that they can't share those feelings just when you think you're angry at you that POW listening for you what happens to those words that were not said soul ale Shimura means that the violin plays tell the mov in charge Dalian ovulate is B Lael Shimon Athenian that having obviously a mother if he's watching these words he's guarding these emotions he's guarding these things I think back now when I was raising the children why didn't they take that child someplace on her own on his own war why was I so selfish why did I get so caught up with my Union and saving Claudia Sorel my own children wanted me because words they took the oldest one who was giving us her problem and ten people told me I think you should take her at me someplace so I took her out somewhere and I'm still patting myself on the back for that one outing or to throw a ball or a little bit around with my son and I remember thinking that I need to do more but I'll do it later I'll do it sometime and I never did it address I didn't buy the kiss that I didn't give the words I didn't share his emotional he gives of a father who entrusts gives the child a package a bag of gold coins and the child is a child and he walks with this and he's looking at this coin and he drops this when he's looking at this he drops another one by the time he's a little bit down the road he's lost most of the coins and what's he going to tell his father so there's boots it says that he's going and he and he comes around someplace he walks finally goes home and his father is standing there with all of the coins and his father said I was following you and I was picking up the coins as you drop them waiting to return them to you because they're yours ever I give you a broker don't forget for a moment every good feeling every trailer anything that you feel that I white didn't I I should have I could have what happened to me if I would have it would be like this which we've talking with all Shabbos not to make yourselves crazy with these much service these not shoulders comfortless that you're after but they come every single thing that was not given is going to be given everything is being held by Leon Ozzie nothing has been lost by one feeling that one thought has been lost the children that during this time they're on a leave of absence from you this kite and their college thing to do missus the housing to learn what's gonna happen with all the mid system amiss what's going to happen with all the black Kumar what's gonna happen all the chakras in the middle cos what's gonna happen to them the barium is guarding them everything is being kept at the novice going behind every child and picking up everything of the child drops along the way nothing is lost samus coffee ballet lies we just lame day so I miss coffee ballet Louise because thr Ivanov see some of you know this is no old you know this means of course it means many many things which lie my my left is Jim's cash Kenosha but we're in a mixer now this craters condition right here I'll discovery balelo the caste Sahaba now she means that most of you have lost many nights of sleep im a skrub you ballet lice for what reason because because ta shall have a NAVSEA I'm waiting for my e beloved to return home because she shall have a now she be costly blame it's all says he's lost he's lost I don't know where he is right now I don't know where she is right now who couldn't measure that something that wasn't maybe I didn't hear spoken about with everything that we're doing with the children and the RV's Mahalo but South go Soph the child is away tonight where is the child what's he doing is she safe I'm a scurvy ballet Lois I'm not talking about the other sky and not talking about whether he took his children with him is he safe as your lives I had a parent last week was telling me I don't know if he's gonna be like I'm waiting to hear a phone call from a policeman I waited to get a knock on the door I Muscovy by Leila's because she shall have announced the caste lemon sauce if all those nice that you've stayed up waiting for the one you love waiting for him or her to come home the lamb it's awesome I don't know where a site of about Schrock him it says in plastic I Dre around looking in the streets over a crevice in the marketplace - walking about looking I shall have enough she has anybody seen my child and who is your child the pasta girls are your father IOC a naive Hyuna my child is the most beautiful one in the world my beloved in AI of China so cuz I'll have many passata me what it means to have eyes like a Yana like a dove and one of these Casals in ite item means that when the bird the little bird is taken away the mother doesn't leave the sheriff doesn't leave the curve that place that Lu placed it that they live in a type of a nest in there whatever the mother doesn't leave the scientists have explanations that the mother smells the scent of the little one and is staying there until the child until the little bird comes back because I'll say that the Jewish people remain if you is shall I him we refuse to leave you shall I him because we're waiting for that I Vader to be returned to us this cleaner we're waiting for our marks disc and also let's see I'm a naive young mother's you hear me across the map it Celia me the mothers that are waiting for their is to return the mothers who know that this child is the one with the most beautiful eyes and that those children alone need to come back and right now they don't know how but if they find their way and they will find their way back that when they find their way back is because of the mothers who refuse to leave the nest is because of the parents are miserable a lice because there's two ivanov see is because of our dear friend and Savior V who never ever gave up for a moment who stands by you shall I who goes around through this rocky material Avis of our lives looking for kids and thinking of ways to bring them back to us but all of these are there and being kept all of our feelings all of the words and we're going to have the opportunity all of us to give back to the children what they needed and for them to give us and for us to hear from them the words that we so desperately wanted to hear as well Shanker I want to end then share with you a personal story I told many years ago in shul so hold it just think that happened from that that I found a family member because of this story this story that I told my parents our Hungarian survivors my mother comes from a place called Mongkok she probably heard of my father comes from a place called Olga well Hashem they're alive and well and I have this close to visit them almost every day and spend time with them should be Museum for many more years my father was all the songs I told me that after the Mahama many of the Hungarian Jews a large percentage of the survivors came to Budapest because there there was an office of highest and in the office they have lists of names people would come and sign up to say a kleppner I'm still alive and they would write the name from this in this city and every day Jews would look to find somebody a friend a relative so my father once told us this by the Seder he said there was a big street over there in Budapest and all they did all day long thousands of Jews would walk up and down this long wide Boulevard looking in every face to see a piss somebody to find someone that they knew my father but he knew he already had heard what happened to his parents um they were on the transport Auschwitz never he knew already what happened to most of them is Sparky but there was one brother but he was hoping was still alive and he went every day to the office in highest to check to look for the name Yitzhak Weinberger who in the family my father called it's and it wasn't there and my father just said all day long morning till night every now that I meet somebody that I would know we would hug we'd cry writer looking Fiat su she says one day is in the highest office and he's going over the papers why I'm digger Weinberger why because I was going there's nothing and then somebody goes walks in over there somebody from long for my father's town oh you're alive you're alive hug each other that this person was my uncle's close friend so my father said is it soon as it's two alive do you know where it su is so he says to my father much to my father's marker Matsui says I'm sorry to tell you I was together with itsu they're in a forced labor and we were together and something happened and there was a tumult and they took it so away with a few other people on the side and they were shot my father said that when he heard that he didn't want to live anymore I didn't know what to do that was the last hope that he had in the world maybe if su is still alive so he said he left the office and he continued his march but he didn't now only for an hour two of the day he had nothing else to do and he would walk up and down the boulevard now he told us this task by this Seder my father said that one day he's walking there he's not really looking so much anymore to see but in the corner from the corner of his eye he sees a familiar limp because my uncle had a limp my father sees from the corner of his eye and he looks and at the same time my uncle from a distance so my father and my father screamed it so when he seen March and they ran then everybody was soaked to other people and they ran they were hugging each other and my uncle sitting by the Seder with us and the two of them are crying and they very rarely would cry my uncle's no longer in the world they would never de really didn't cry they're not from these emotional types which is a little bit different than many Hungarians and they didn't let go of each other all of those years and I of China and I heard that story as a child when I told it in school there was a an old relative of my father that turned out to have a son a stepson in the neighborhood that was diving in the shul and she said this much you will itsu is my mesh pocket and it turns out we had a reunion but that's family that I didn't even know but when I thought about that story afterwards I imagined what's it going to be like when Michele comes everybody has their own picture what's it going to be like my picture was painted by my father and my uncle he bought a Mac I'm like I'm that's the picture that was painted and I imagine all of us being on some wide street someplace and we're walking because the world is crazy I savor the bush walk him in the rural areas and we're going around him looking then there'll be that child from the corner of the eye and it's going to be tomorrow it's going to be very soon the child that's limping a little bit from his struggle in this world and then it's gonna be a try sorrow rifka moisture Rommel and that day of a hayseed live almost upon a blade one of my advice sir when all who was lost is going to be returned with all the love that we wanted they'd given me want to give will be able to be received and will be able to receive it back from our children but now I know this something else is going to happen there's going to be a shot at walking behind each of them now he's going to be there holding the hands of our children and saying if I kick look over there's your mother over there there's your father they miss you go back the time has come to be United ever the time has come for all of us to be reunited with our children to be reunited with the berry color lawmen to be united with each other to be united with of Malcolm Yeshiva with the goulash serve I meet this from heavy emmanuel main of our main [Applause]