Zochor 1934 #2- What is a Indulgence? Is it ok to Indulge? Love is motivated bc of Will

so we're learning the mimer zachar molok from this the memorial cutting of the previous rapper volume 1 page 140 and we're at the towards the bottom of um the page of the first step page uh the eboot it's the last word on the on the third line from the bottom and just to briefly recap that but says that the verse implies that the that that that that amolek a malik his his its worst is the worst enemy and it's such an enemy that attacks you on your tariff so that ever wants to explore because it attacked us on our way out there of means way on our way out of mitzrayim so that wants to explore that and also that the remedy uh to to that is zachar the opening of of the mimer the first word in the in in that verse remember zakhar somehow through remembering memory will be able to destroy this amalek this is this is basically the way he sets up the minor and it's always important abraham and it's important that when you learn my mahasiddha's to know the setup because if you don't you you know you get confused and have questions for example the basic questions that everyone asks when they learn especially my muram not so much tanya is okay you have questions where's my answer if you look into sfas ms and katusa levy and all the polish uh nasiva shalom all those forum right they give you a question and answer a question and answer with a little commentary and explanation in it's totally different there there are questions the beginning and there are no answers for pages usually and if there are answers it's like maybe this maybe that this thought will clarify this it's like intricate and complicated and only at the end of the mimer after you have a clear picture of the body of the mimer do you have a resolve for the questions and what this tells us is and i've said this before but it's very important i'm not sure i've run if you hurt because i say this and this is that khabad hasidis and its mimer form is not about a question and an answer hold on it's not about a question and an answer that's that if you want a question to answer uh you got the wrong study here the whole idea is to to to study divinity godliness in hebrew elokus that's the thrust of the mimer a godly concept that a laboratory at a certain time can you can you uh tell hillary okay he took off his thing so the hill please mute yourself he will so the the um that's the idea of a mimer so that so so the questions and answers become insignificant for our learning and the style that we use i i try to incorporate the two together so that you know for our way of thinking there's a question a discussion and then an answer but the truth of the matter is if you if you you learn a mime around shabbos let's say you go to pharaoh it can go on for a long time without answers to the question and that's with the altar rebecca the founder of the khabad movement who wrote the first my murmur who who said the first memorial for his discourses so it's important to know that nevertheless that's why say so as long as you keep in mind what he asked in the beginning and we'll get back to it hopefully with an answer a resolve at the end that's fine but it's the meat and the potatoes the body of the mimer that's really the inspiration you know the question and answer is it's a nicety you know okay it's a it's a vert on the passion it explains something in the parsha it's fine it it it's good for table conversation for family for friends it's all true but if you're looking for you to be inspired to serve hashem with more vigor and zest and enthusiasm and all that it's not about questions and answers anymore it's about the content of the mind so we're now on page 140 we're beginning now three lines from the bottom the last word the eboot ambole we learned yesterday that there are there is a nation and there's a time when the only solution is those are very important words to remember it's the three last words of be on that line the four last words it's destruction is its betterment it's tikkun as we discussed yesterday that ever introduces now another concept how do you accomplish ridding yourself from amolek it's through revealing what we call oir atsumi essential light and he explains let's see how he explains this concept means internal lighting no that's our plea me panimi is internal sometimes they go together good point you're making they go together but let's see the seven nations they are the seven they correspond to the seven ugly bad middles character traits shahi maklipos those these are the negative forces there and the opposite the zion beats the ducha of the seven holy traits explains just as love from the perspective of kedush of holiness who harassed them top of page 141 who i wrote barely calls it is to love but not to to desire to to will rutzone for godliness [Music] why i thought abba means love look what the rabbit says the next words the ava over abraham what's the root the etymology of the word ava it's of what does ova mean it means will love is not the real definition of the word of it's kind of a colloquial interpretation of the real meaning because the source of the word ava yodi is over and over doesn't mean love what does other mean will and so then why do we call say love ava means what's the association between ava love and not saying he says further look further the who writes a belly cools it's that he desires and wants godliness with nature because godliness is life and goodness and he loves it he wants it he wants to live he wants to have good so he loves it so his love is generated by a rhetoric a strong desire and will i know so the other question is wait a minute how does he know what he wants is life and good says that i'll tell you how vahenu shem is burning billy cools he contemplates he reflects on godliness and on god's greatness vinigash ashley and he feels regis the goodness within godliness what does he mean abraham the thrive shabalikos god hashem is god whether we feel it's good or we don't feel it's good he's god and we know and we believe that what he does is the right thing here what prompts this person is not knowing that god is god even when things are going sour and for me because when things are going sour i don't necessarily want that i don't want it so i don't have ava locus i don't have love for god when when you punish your child they have love for you only later years later they see the significance of the punishment for your betterment but at the time it's a punishment at the time it's tough here we're saying he has a love an ava a a russian he wants this why does he want it because he perceives it to be life and good says that ever this is because the particular reflection of meditation and contemplation that he did at this time is that he that he came to a recognition that this thing is is let's look at the rebels language the [ __ ] that this god is good in other words this is very important he could come to a conclusion using another meditation that this god is god but it's not good for me i still i still understand that he's god but then i would be awed by him because i'm scared or i have reverence or i have respect that's not ava that's era fear or reverence ava means you realize hey this is good stuff this gives me more life that's the connection there ever says between love ava and triggered by russell will which is triggered by a his boldness a meditation a reflection on the goodness within elokus so i made i elaborated here because the rapper says these words and we can easily glance over them and we have to stop and talk it out hey who third line harry who writes abilities because it he it it's he feels it's near gastritis it says near dash he has a reddish that this is the elokus therefore he wants this who writes a local belly course oh thereby says the truth is the kashmir is by naked when one reflects properly now here he has a word one will feel the goodness of godliness intangibility or like we say in america and probably not so too in the bank you could feel it you could touch it you could smell it you could see it the five senses yes edison wouldn't look at you the same with mamas means actually good actually correct there so that ever says just as this is true that when a person meditates now i use the word meditates i don't like it's an english word i mean reflects things deeply and and and i want to i might want to say again that if you don't do this his bonniness and your innocence can help you guide you because he's a big isn't his bonus man and and i'm very proud of him because he's it really worked all his life on his abundance and it it it's very important so you have to be misbinded it doesn't come from just say interpreting the words of show and sitting in the shop as a show and diving which is important his bondingness means reflection you know reflection means that before you start davening whether it be at home or in shul you put your talus over your head you close your eyes you don't close your eyes you block out everything and everyone including people who want you who want an aliyah they shouldn't disturb you at that time because now you're now in this abundance mode now of course you know if you're if you're a god by motion you have obligations but the point is you need to take time somehow where you're able to think about hashem in detail not just hey god you're a great guy you're not going to get anything from me you're not scoring no points and you know and you're not that's that's not going to accomplish what we're talking about here that's a nice thing an important thing his abundance means deep meditation reflection why is god good how can i say god's good my fl had a flat tire on krishnakat and spent three hours in the sun god you're good with you good why'd you make me have a flat oh you got to think about it how did god create the world what does he want with his creation why do i get an email yesterday from a boy 19 year old in lakewood saying he learns electricity yeshiva and he asks me why the most lit fox hates i receive a a very long email from a literature boy i just told you is that good or is that bad and he needs an answer he deserves an answer and i told him come for shabbos to borrow park we'll have all the time in the world we'll bring and talk and we'll work it out hopefully and he says you know he studies and he's done the research and he sees how beautiful it is talking about from the outer rib on and he disagrees with the mushy christian okay but the point is his boldness it doesn't come just from short you know exchanges you know a question and answer i'm sure you you missed my introduction to the shirt but i was saying that is about the content the body of the mimer is where it's at not the questions and answers questions and answers you go you go to others for him holy swear great slurry important safari but this is a different system this is about finding meaning to uh to an issue and for that you need his bondedness so when the rebbe says here his bundle is he like put he says it and you're like you know we read it and then we go by we next next line next word so you just got to know that when he talks about feeling god as you in actuality it takes his abundance so that now says there's also a love for foolishness right we have the yin and yang up and down positive and negative martial rates uh now that ever has only defeated karabikin embellish and write so beautifully look what he says what does it mean to have ava to the umazer that's pretty simple i think but let's see how he says it it's the fact that a person wants material matter because of what appears to be good to him to the mind's eye of the animal drive pretty fancy words but in english simply means it turns on my my my brain that is is oriented at this time for animalistic cravings i now have justification to indulge so it's not you see this it's not that art art is gabaldic it's a form of expression but if you use art to satisfy your nephews that is an unhealthy love and if you use if you use gus mius to satisfy intellectually your our um our animal part and our indulgent part our ugly part is coming from clipper and we call this okay so we're introducing this mimer two concepts there's other love for the goodness of godliness and simultaneously there's an opponent for ava having a will a love and a will for something that's unhealthy that appears to be unhealthy is unhealthy which also comes from god but from god's perspective it's there for us to avoid to challenge to test you know why you have that flat tire on 90 degrees outside to see if you're gonna lose your cool it's a challenge it's a challenge so for my and and that's why you passed the test boy are you strong what have you proven that even such a challenge you are stronger and and you know how to overcome in other words your real self is is is greater but the point is there is what we call ava love for the um for something that opposes the goodness of elokus and what is that the rabbit gives a definition here it is desiring the good within the material so the question is always asked i've been asked many times and probably you have also what is wrong to want you we've discussed it i believe in shira what is wrong to desire the delicious taste of a steak or a good thursday night chunk a hamish a chunk with kegel what's so bad skin and what's the answer if you eat it because you need to survive and and and and that helps you because you're starving after three four hours not eating you take a piece of kishke or coco and you eat it with a bracha you think about the broccoli eat it like a mensch color kavod go ahead on the contrary it needs you it needs you to refine it but if you're only eating to satisfy your taiva that's unhealthy let's continue it's not that now that ever says here another point when we have a love for goshmius for what appears to be good you know it looks good it's enticing it's not that we want to separate ourself moisture from god it's not that a person says hey i don't like you god i don't want any part of you no i do like you and i want to be part of you but what this this thing here looks good tastes good feels good and i want to feel good i want my body to feel good that's why it says it's not that he the this person that we're talking about in this scenario wants to be separate nephron molecules what's the issue here it's just for his goodness for the word it's for his pleasure of watching he wants the pleasure indulge in nephesh habanes let my nephesh obama's have more and more and just get pleasure between me therefore he chooses the material good the rights [Music] and it wants what it considers is good for it and therefore what is this called avraham you honestly remember in morristown you're a behavior why don't you say you're a bahama it's not a nice thing in other words this is your behavior so i remember this never the balchu is specially used to say it's your behavior that's what he's saying here well that's why it's called behemoth because an animal calling your name calling yonda all its entire drive being on their youth is to pleasure his body how can my body have more pleasure and from spirituality and from right me and from spiritual soul matters built to your dars cloud this behemoth has no idea no understanding no perception of spirituality of nephesh this is one type of abba that opposes ava of kedusha said now that ever goes to another step yes so too we find a similar situation when it comes to human traits character i should call in your name where they're all that one has and wants character wise is bodily expression of and all he does his entire life is to emphasize this yes motion redouble can ask you a question at this time can you come up many times i think but um can you help us to understand what's the difference between the term neshama and nephesh okay so in many times like here there's no difference but other times there is basically the summer refers to the nephilim kiss it's a general classification the nephesh who can refer to the nefeshabamis that's one difference that you but again it all depends on the overall content of that particular mimo that particular page with that particular paragraph but that would be a gen just to answer your question that would be a general distinction that you can you can make if not if barring anything else doesn't contradict you follow of what you're learning okay another another another general difference there it says in kabbalah there are five levels in the shambhala nephesh is the lowest the lowest manifestation in a person's soul it's the action-oriented behavior-oriented behavior you don't have to be smart you don't have to feel you have to just do behavior then comes ruach which is emotions not it's not enough to do or better so or also you don't act just by behaving you act with emotions as well feelings then there is nephesh which is which in this scenario of the five that we're discussing the shama represents moach not only do you do behave act and not only do you feel but you also understand so much that's the answer the difference another difference between the summer and nephesh nishama refers to the um the intellectual aspect of the of the person and the the drive in other words what drives the seiko and and and nephesh is the behavior aspect that drives the behavior okay let's continue okay ready yes rebbe just another question yes okay i understand the concept were you talking about because we've talked about this before and and and yeah the rabbit talks about many times about um the nephesh bahamas and with the you know the steak the steak or or the cholesterol but i understand a steak or even a challenge it has it has nutrition i mean you need to eat you need to have a meal every single day right so you can be you can be a glutton or you can elevate it right but something like an but something like an ice cream cone or an entenman's donut or something like that how can how can something like that you're not eating it for nutrition okay wait eating wait wait uh most times you're right but what if you you're starving the story i told you about my father-in-law when he came from australia after a 50-hour trip in the early in the 70s because he had to stop in fiji and in sydney and in hawaii and in san francisco and then new york so it was a very long trip and it came column circus comes into 7 70 2 3 in the morning in those days they weren't dancing outside and everything was quiet he sees one person in 770 rabbi naphtalia stolen may be well who was the russian rabbi in los angeles for since the early 70s and he says maybe you have something to eat i'm so hungry everything's closed you know and he says [Music] it was kind he said i have um i have a loaf of bread but it's not it's stale and old he says oh please give that to me i'll if you don't mind sharing it of course he gives it to him and he takes it and then he's about to go and wash and he says before i washed you have salt i told you this he said salt he says what do you need salt for i have to dip into salt and rabbi stole it he was a buffer he's enough though he was he couldn't believe it like you don't you haven't eaten in 50 hours there's no one around that's all i have and what he wants salt and he didn't say this this is what he was thinking and he said i don't have salt so he gave him back the loaf of bread and he didn't eat it so from here on if you want to know what your shamayim is think about the story and if you want to know if someone is really a holy person think about the story that's all you have to do and you have your answer this isn't this happened it's a fact and this is real and it happened in the 1970s so although it's 50 years later but it didn't happen 500 years ago 200 years ago it happened here this is your mind now why do i say that yay what if it wasn't a loaf of bread what if he had an entrance which we don't need because it's a shield of the bishop we throw but pasta sro or a cake or you know something that you said that uh an ice cream an ice cream at that time an ice cream is like a dry piece of bread no difference because he wasn't eating it for the ice cream don't kid yourself he probably didn't even know what an ice cream is he was eating it because someone gave him something so that after 50 hours he could survive and i want to share with you a personal story and i'm not bragging you know because i wish i would live this way now but when i was a booker in my heyday you know when you're in yeshiva you're in your heyday ask your innocent this was part of our training in chabad it's called the scafia is kafka to subjugate and hold yourself back from titus i never ate potato chips i never drank soda i didn't eat ice cream i didn't need any fancy cakes not that i didn't have it i had it all around me but i held myself back because this was a type i really like it okay when i say i never did it's from when from when i from when i became realized probably 1819 that this is not that uh that a year especially a cluster should hold himself back from cravings this was an active work that we trained ourselves in yeshiva some more some less and it was ongoing it wasn't as though oh three days from now on three months from now i won't have the craving like i told you speaking to a 94 year old man and he says find me a wife i said you got to be kidding you got to be kidding no he wants he wants a wife he wants to be with a woman i'm not saying he's being intimate with the woman but he wants a companion and i understand it in other words there are certain bodily needs that are cravings of the human being that are there every moment until you pass on after 120. so eating a a ice cream you'll need when you're starving and you're not eating it because it's ice cream but because it's something to put in your mouth is not a title but you're right every other time it is a taivo and going back to the steak you say you know the chong you know if you have a choice of a piece of cooked chicken let's let's break it down so we know versus roasted chicken grilled chicken barbecue chicken chinese chicken and then your wife makes you you know in a soup you put some chicken in but it's bland it's just we cooked we all know what chicken are we choosing only a person like my father from romania is thankful every day he has a bite in his mouth surviving eats cake cooked chicken every day of his life i mean when we were growing up it was amazing he just asked what cooked chicken and my grandmother showed him which you know was it was a good cook he didn't care for the fried this and that he just wanted simple chicken he had stomach issues the doctor told him to eat simple food you'll be fine all his life the man can eat 80 years cooked chicken yeah some will say that's ocd right what's my point the nakuda is that yay the taiva begins here here in the mind and the type so if the mind's eye if the perception is hey i'm starving and i want to just eat something oh so i was going to tell you finish that story so i remember once in morristown yes and it was i think hanukkah and we went out to do mr and we spent a lot of time giving out menorahs and everything i came back i was so hungry and someone brought pizza and i didn't eat in those days pizza and i remember saying to myself i'm gonna have a slice of pizza because that is my food if i don't have this pizza i won't have what to eat the rest of the night and i i hadn't eaten so i'm not i'm not you know making myself feel big with this but i'm just telling you that that's that is the yiddish attitude towards towards anything and you know would sometimes ask for a piece of cake grab a marble to show them who was by rebbe and yeshiva that the ravens in crown heights he would ask us to buy him a danish in the morning that's all he had he had a coffee and a danish from probably five six in the morning till 12 12 30. now i'm asking you is that a taiva no it's not a taivo so it all depends on the perspective so definitely i'm not saying when you're hungry it hasn't chunked you don't know that but you could always tell in how you eat it if it's a taiva or if it's for kadusha okay we'll continue tomorrow cairo have another share zyga zone we'll see everyone tomorrow take care bye thank you bye-bye