Why did I become a Baal Teshuva? - You have the truth, just reveal it - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

so the day we're learning of the father Our Father Hashem us comfort and console us and bring the giula so we should be on Dish above already according to all opinions anyway we're going to learn today chapter 25 the next three for sure which example finish it but in a way chapter 25 is a summary it's a conclusion and a summary of what began in chapter 18. so I want to refresh your memories and go back okay the balatonya his his theme and thesis and this safer in this section of the safer called morim the Prototype is is the pain in the the potential man and thou tebra believes wholeheartedly that every single Yeet can be an abandon me if he or she just wants to be abandoning now it sounds very very Rosy and easy but it takes a lot of work and Dalton's point is we're created to work and if we work and we understand what we need to work on we can accomplish this either for a minute either for a day either for an hour either for a year whatever those are all the quantity is secondary to the Quality are you obeying any type of a person that that's the issue and how do you become obeying the like individual so the first 18 the first 17 chapters or better set from chapter 9 through um 17. the altered explained to us what he what he mentions from the Gomorrah on the first in the first chapter of Tanya the first page that there are five categories two kinds of Sadiq him around like two types of wicked people obeying any of someone's in the middle that's a gamara that's a Camaro so from chapter nine to chapter 17 he he explains those five categories particularly from chapter 12 through 17 five chapters he talks about the beginning those are the five chapters designated to the beginning okay and his first thought is that in order to reach the state of Benin you need to use And he contends as he says in chapter 12 and 17 everyone has everyone has a head a brain on in his head God created every man with a brain and therefore if you apply your Seiko your brain if you if you if you just be thoughtful that we are humans not animals and things like that such thoughts you will succeed and mind over matter and therefore you will be able to control the urges of the heart but this approach requires mindfulness work of the Mind it doesn't come just from dancing and singing and crying and things like that it requires mindfulness no a person can say you know what I'm not an intellectual type of a guy I'm not a person who you know focuses so much on the mind I'm more action-oriented or I'm a a feeling of a lovely feeling deeply type of guy I like to feel like the love I like the hug if that talks to me but this this is not who I am so therefore if you make that argument hello then you could you could conclude that you are terrible is telling me that I am potential man to improve myself in every way shape or form but you're using the method the tool of Seiko of moax and therefore there's no plight to me so your whole Feast is in Tanya doesn't apply to me I can't be a pain in thee I'm governed by my animalistic cravings and you're telling me how can I can contain those Cravings Yoni is by using the Mind think who are you what are you what's your purpose I I don't relate to that I don't understand it I don't want to understand that you know so if that's the case the whole the whole Theory and Tanya doesn't apply to me says doubt that I've been no no no no no sorry chap for you and many others or better set for everyone else there's another way of accessing the pain in me and that he began teaching Us in chapter 18. and from 18 to 25 is the altareba's second suggestion how to become a baby and that is not that you have to create the situation you have to reveal the situation you have to reveal Who You Are and when you reveal who you are and what we have inside us what's it called remember those words the innate hidden love that's inherent within every Eid that he has she has for Hashem for God Almighty when you reveal that not you create it the first type of of love for God according to the altenebo needs to be created and if you're weak in that area you can't create it says even if you're weak in that area I have another suggestion and that is reveal Who You Are be truthful to yourself you have it inside you don't have to create it so your argument listen to this emotion your argument is I'm not an intellectual I ca I don't know how to do this mind over matter because I don't use my mind I act with my heart emotions says doubt that but that's fine you don't have to be a an intellectual you have to be yourself you have something in your heart not in your mind in your heart that innately loves God reveal that get the diamond out of your heart so that's the second approach of coming to kikare tire is near you in every single way as we're going to conclude today because all of this is explaining the tagline of Tanya which is on the cover page the title page even before chapter one the Posse for the Terrace near you say so the first question is oh really oh really I don't think so I think sleeping and eating and everything else is much closer to me than Tyra mitzvahs I got her schlep myself to shoot I gotta go to a ship it's you know like I've said it over and over even the biggest stigers you know which tigers are they call them literacy yeshivas guys are sitting away and learning far a few far and few can say that they enjoy learning more than eating ice cream or five of you could say they enjoyed God that they then they enjoy other types of indulgences I I I I'll make a bet with you I'm willing to put money on that because I've heard it from them but they're striking away they're striking away because they're in operational Behavior mode and this is what they have to do and this is even what they want to do but this is not who they are the Olympus test for for one to know whether this is who they are is when you don't have it how much do you miss it the story I've told you and it's it's worth saying again because it's relevant Edition all of a sudden the chief Rabbi of Montreal a student development who knew Shas word for word I I saw it myself I saw him myself quoting the Morris ever line by line word for word I'm not exaggerating it's it's it's a it's a a once in a lifetime gift and he was gifted with this he was the bohren the tester who tested to get into being you had to know they say 300 pages of Gamora by heart and who tested them Rabbi herschbrook you need to you needed to have someone No Sleep who knows much more than 300 to test Boys on 300 pages suspicious buff we don't need the fast is over everyone left true everyone runs the home to eat it's hungry 24 hours didn't eat and he's sitting there with a Gomorrah and he's learning and his wife and she comes in and she says to him his name was that's the the Galician way of saying come home already kimchi behind um you need to eat breakfast and he looks up at her and he says I heard this from his son so I'm not making this up his son told me this his son lives in Borough Park he told me the story one of his sons so he said his father looked up at his mother and he said a day that cannot have learned the commodity because of station but he's not going to learn for half a day or whatever right so you missed your regular amount of gamara that you have to learn I took a day you're not allowed to eat till you finish the quota that you learn every day you find me such a Jew this guy's starving it's 24 hours hungry and for him he was more hungry for learning to come out of that eating eating big deal and he was a human being and he had a Gates of her if I may say so look you know it was a very special person maybe it wasn't I don't know anyway that's not relevant so the alternator the altered in in chapter 18 through 25 says I know that you have cravings I know that we are regular people even from the most holy people Everyone is a person with a yeah yet if you reveal what you have inside yourself that diamond that nashama again the words of the altar ever the Adam was a Terrace you could make Torah mitzvah's close to you even closer than goshmias so that the verse in the Titanic is true not a Bubba Meister not us not a fairy tale it's like we read in the player again but really but really come on I said you got to be kidding if God Almighty wrote it put it in the table it's exactly true but how so he says reveal Who You Are the fact that you don't that you have the goshness material matter is more important to you is because you're not living your truth Live Your Truth what's the truth that I'm Aid and I have in the summer and my name is Hashem more than anything else this is the theme of 18 through 25. so now in chapter 25 on page for the Tanya the algebra concludes this thought let's learn insight Peter Cafe chapter 25. and this will explain the verse that the Tanya is based on Quotev is this thing is this thing referring to Torah is close to you it's very close to you to do something behavioral mode no problem just do listen to speak pretty easy in my heart of hearts it's close to me this was this is what he wrangled with and when it seeks to explain in the Tanya and not only is it is it close to you but it's very close to you so that's the alternative so this is like this chapter begins with like and now I'm going to answer the question that I asked in the title page which is we brought the verse look at the words here they are so sweet that flavor would say sweet sweet Shepherd sweet IE sweetie and every ace at every time and every moment every hour every moment every hour every minute Beyond shall other it's within the hand of man with the ability of man within the ability of man and within a person's Maisha domain to remove the spirit of and forgetfulness meet here boy from within released and to remember to arouse the love for God Hashem Terrace you see that's the word terrorists that have been emphasizing which is latent hidden and latent before they die surely Bill vovite within the Jew's heart believe some Suffolk these four if we could memorize these two and a half lines and think of every day for a moment it would help us a lot now you noticed out there ever said something interesting he says it's within a man's ability and with a man's domain and forgetfulness was why is he mentioning forgotten on this what causes us to save or what we call the rustus the spirit of family right we learned that early in Tanya the issue she's she's taught me dark yet she goes astray from the ways of modesty and because the spirit of family of nonsense and she can convince herself that this is okay and she goes and secludes herself if she's a suspected of seclusion and having an affair with another man Etc right so that's what is the ultimate baby when you learn Tanya every word is precise forgetfulness and this is a very important point and that is that that was saying like this whether it's the spirit of folly the stuff that comes to you and convinces you that doing this and this transgression is not a big deal that and convinces you with arguments a Salesman he eats her as a Salesman with nonsense but yet convincing so that's one like a used car salesman right that's one aspect then there is shikha even if it's if if you're at a point where you don't allow the Yates of her to convince you we come up with the excuse and that's why I like it so much this word sheikha I forgot those two words I forgot have gotten us with such trouble so many times I forgot I forgot I forgot that you can't park your car on Monday even my daughter called me she gave her the Cardwell away someday you can park wherever you want she forgot she forgot to move the car and she had a ticket for 35 for parking on Monday she can feed the meter I forgot yeah you forgot but big you gotta you got a ticket so Chico says down to them whether it's the got to you or whether it's the forgetfulness that got to you it's not an excuse because you have the ability at any moment to awaken your love for Hashem do you understand without them ever thinking imagine a person many we know we know millions of people you know who are not involved in Jesus Christ just doubt that ever no no no no no no no no they're forgetting or they're allowing the stuff to get to them but as soon as they wake up from their forgetfulness they'll be in love with God to remove the negativity and be positive and drama saying hello that's who the jewel is that's who the Eid is really and and and the greatest proof to this Habra is the Bali chuva all the Bali children right how is it someone that you know wasn't raised in a in a from way of Taylor mixes and all of a sudden they they become about Yeshua and so some will argue well this Rabbi said this I went to Rahim I went to everyone has you know at the end of the day it takes you the willingness to go to the class and it takes your willingness and openness to say let me check it out so that initial that initial nikuda comes from your essence no one so it's important point there sometimes we think oh he or she forced me to come to ashir I'll give you an example in Borough part over there right I know someone he read his name is a dying a big town a real in a he happened whose yard said is next week so it's good to mention things from him he would give a share in Borough Park I'm 46 years in the show that I had my Mitzvah Rabbi Elio Simpson the original Rashad student who was the love Baba shirov and he would give a share there and this was the seventh 1975 to 79 80 those years were very electric electric fire years between Sacramento labavage I don't want to go into other details now we've spoken about it I've written about it anyway and and a lot of people were were curious because there's a lot of normal people people didn't have an ax to grind and who loved the Babbage but yet they had these issues that they're hearing about so NW Khan was the master so they here he's in borrowed back every Thursday night teaching Tanya they felt they would go in so one of these people who's a Belzer question who actually Bells had a shoe in Crown Heights and he learned over there and then they gotten there and he knew probably the oil and others in the Bible from there so now when he moved over to borrow prep when there was the mass migration from chronix to borrow part in the 60s and 70s he moved over and this year he goes into this year and uh he can't believe it there's a man with a short jacket he doesn't wear any strible it doesn't have any payus he does not wearing a long record a long coat the frock and he's teaching like you know what and he listens and he hears Millions and he hears tighter and he's Blown Away then he comes back the next week one week he happens to walk out from the sheerness gentleman and his Bell's accustomed and another Bell's accustomed who he knew from Crown Heights to kailu it's passing by he's walking down the steps from the school going out of the sheer in middle of Shield you have to leave and this other one meets and he says you want to see something special go in he says what's there he says there's a laborator teaching Tanya he says I'm a Belser we don't learn Tanya but yeah I'm saying like what's he says trust me go in he went in and he never left 40 years this other gentleman who I know came probably the biggest talmud of your Khan outside of us students he never missed a sheer he ever from bringing you always saw him you'll see pictures you always see him there so you'll say like this how did he get turned on and he I'm not talking about about the sugar from a sin from a transgression to Nevada but I'm talking about someone who didn't learn see this really and all of a sudden he starts learning hasidus and there's no turning back so you'll say it was because of this first Belzer who he respected who's a dying and if he says it's worth going in he goes in so my I'm explaining to you that that's true but you if that's the external reason how he came to walk into the sheer but if his nishama wasn't there if his love for Hashem vis-a-vis in this case has said this wouldn't be there he could go in and it wouldn't be anything he would listen and go back come out and never come back and how many people do we all know that come to a great year or a great talk and they say wow wow wow you never see him again you know there's another that could I don't want to go into it but you know we have to train ourselves to be more paninious not just to say wow wow wow wow what what you know we're saying yes what do you got what do you have from wow wow wow besides wow wow what are you doing about the wow nothing so consider this premius is take the wow and make it part of your life so that comes because your nishama is there your love for Hashem in this case is inside it's just a matter you didn't know because you went to Belle's yeshivas they didn't teach you this they didn't teach you Tanya for sure and all that and you're a wonderful question but as far as the learning of hasidis that wasn't part of your upbringing so you don't know so he's about juva see this hey who's gonna think about a rabbi I love with a big beard and a bells in the players in this tribal as about the sugar that about the sugar I'm about to shoot I ate Franks and hamburgers at McDonald's but he and they came about to shoot but he he only ate three exchange with 25 but shade him and each was fighting with the other and all that right he's also about the shovel because he never learned a World Series you understand I doubt that I'd be hearing Tanya says whether this type of Belcher for that type of balsuver remember that it's all about either the ruach still gets to you or you forget who you are and who are we we are people that are a nation that Hashem has installed instead still within us a in the summer that has an innate love for Hashem now access it so the accessing takes this Rabbi and the Sea and this and this tape everyone in a different way and I think this is a very important message to convey especially to relatives and people who are not yet you know aware of their National and the way to bring them to Terror Mitzvahs and to the that it's yours it's not I'm creating something you have that just unleash it and this is what the outlet gets at in this chapter we're gonna stop here because I have another shear and we'll continue tomorrow have a great day bye