What is Teshuva? Is it possible for me? Joy at end of Yom Kippur - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

it's out of almost out of yipper right shab so the spends a lot of time on this concept of CH it's based on the believe before God shall you purify yourself Yer is the day when we when we come face to face with Hashem so you might say what do you mean and P don't come face to face with don't come face every every every yum every Jewish Festival has its energy and if you mix the energies you mi you're mixing B with Kasha with salt and pepper and sugar and it tastes horrible you have to compartmentalize and know exactly what's what so what is the the days of Chua cha today by many today is what they call um right today is the the closest Monday or Thursday to Yum is called since Yumer is Monday today is the Thursday before so today for example in sh in the morning we're normally the AL sell for excuse me $3 to5 today it sold for $50 and two individuals were bidding against each other and then they I guess worked it out were and but the point is why so much more money from $3 to5 to $50 the answer is because today give and it's it's there's a special energy and let me tell you if in 1929 was in Brownsville New York in Brownsville Brooklyn for rosashana originally when he came September 13 12th to 13th to America to visit he came to to the Pier to The Manhattan and he was taken from there to burrow Park where I live there was aab of R Simpson he just bought a new house and he was dedicating the Sho and he had three floors on one of the kabad videos America's no different or something like that you could see the actual house in 1934 A Fire devastated the house burnt the house and it was no longer there but in 1929 it was and the Reb came there so the Reb was there for about uh about two weeks a week and a half to two weeks but for R he went to the the neighborhood which was called Yim shim sh America the the Jerusalem of America right which was which was Brownsville in the 1920s and 30s Brownsville had hundreds of stea and and in addition in addition to that large shoes it was it was Mish like and there was aage there the r actually was a but I guess Founders were people who came from kabad uh lineage so that's where he was for now to walk from Brownsville doesn't have water around around you have to walk all the way to canari which is a far walk so the re didn't onum you know between daving and and and the sud and saying a m and all that there was no time for that so he he said he wants to go to he went he said he wants to see water I I think that was m and additionally on this day I I don't mean this day today whenever you give was that year 1929 he get he went again to do the T so today is a a very very special day for for CH and it's part of the Chua then we have shabas shabas is shabas Chua and then we have Sunday which is AR yum Kipper which is a special day on its own you're supposed to eat twice as much and then we have yum Kipper so you see how almost almost every day you know there's something special in you made cha you know in a way it's like Ros finished Sunday night that's great for people that work they can start at work Monday got a full week of work through Friday here in America and then uh Sunday Sunday and then Monday okay the truth is there's a whole going on here there's a whole going on with chuva what does it mean to do chuva what does it mean to do chuva I think I want to propose chuva means very simple chuva take one issue in your life one issue and say to yourself This is the issue that I want to think about regret and change and for the upcoming year I I I don't want to have that anymore I don't want to deal with it I don't want to I I you know I want to forget it but in a cleansing way anything anything more than that for us today is too much now I'm not talking now about the pra practical side you know do this or don't do this no talking about in feeling what we're learning about in Tanya inish inish you know you know how easy it is to be upset with others around us it is so easy and and you have a right you have a right sometimes you have a right and it's very very hard to to change your feelings it's very hard so when when the come you know it's like I I I was dialoguing with some yesterday and the person [Music] says so I was going to do something for them and and I said but if I do that that means I'm letting other people know about about you in whatever situation it is the person says I've lost my shame so it doesn't bother me and the person was saying that from a good way in other words I used to care what other people say about me I used to care about how other people perceive me now I don't now of course that attitude can can be a very devastating attitude where a person says I'll do what I want and everyone else can go somewhere not talking about that we're talking about where a person comes to realize that Hashem is in control you know I uh recently someone who I know know a successful business person like overnight for whatever reason he he uh you know he the business the business and his Partners it changed overnight like you would think someone who was so successful and so in control and all that how could it be how could it be because the world is like a an egg on top it's round on top sometimes you're on top sometimes you're on the bottom sometimes you're to the right sometimes to the left and as long as you know that it's revolving and you hold on is an expression of is either a Yiddish or Russian word for door knob the door knob it means holding on to the re to the but I'm just I'm using it a little more expansive for cl you have to hold on to the ab and you have you have to you have to ask AEM to give you the to be able to overcome But first you have to really want to overcome you know a lot of people say a lot of people say I tried this issue in Chua I tried this and it doesn't go my friend it doesn't go because usually cuz you really didn't you really don't want that you say you want it but you really don't want it if you really want it you wouldn't you wouldn't do it you wouldn't you understand it's the r the R so what I'm getting at is that Chua this CH and shab CH and today you giv me the Chua is to return to yourself who is the real person who are we you know and the answer is on the that gave us the is pure pure pure pure all the poll pollution pollutive items that gather onto the these 10 days we we we we say hey throughout the year I allowed myself to have these pollutants to get to me but now away you blow them off I want to go back to my pure self and when you go back to your pure self hey it's such a cathartic experience you feel great you feel like a mil million bucks number two you realize that there's an another expression yish I like this expression we are small people mean small mention or men right small today they would use the vernacular we're small dudes we're not a dude we're a small person you know it's Gish it's like it's like you know and you say this you know there some that say what I just said in Hebrew and in the words and you know right um in the after you blow the in the you say right and you say that that says it's either there before we like a like a broken um Earth Earth earthwear pottery Vel yeah vessel but Pottery Pottery right whyis AI whyis y said k a vessel it's not just a vessel it's a certain type of vessel earthway why it's m that's right but also is very strong you make AIS in in a k kilm you know it's made with fire so a regular K in the a regular vessel it's easier to break it shatters but and we and and you all know that the way to you can't caser so easily right glass you can caser and then this you can caser metal wood but kis so kis represents tough tough so here is a person who is tough and the same person we realize is it shatters disintegrates the the greatest the greatest can fall and fall and fall sometimes you see such a great person who has say Dementia or Alzheimer's they forget their learning and they don't know who they are they don't know who you are I mean your heart like right he's 70 75 years old and look what's happened you know what I'm saying it it it it it it it's painful and at the same time it should humble humble us that you know there's no there's no guarantees here I don't care how much tell you know and how from you are and how much you do Hashem is the babos and we're very very infantile and this is why we say these ideas Nota to make us feel bad but just to to to wake us up we have to wake up or someone who was so wealthy and all of a sudden he loses you know many people I remember I met someone who was very successful and and he tells me selling life insurance I say I thought you were in diamonds I and I didn't say you were very successful and he says um it all it all what in Hebrew we say m i don't Hebrew bankrupt good one day you have it all and I've seen this by rabbis and they own this K house and this property and doing this and this and all of a sudden the bank sleps one this way and sleps ones that way and at the end you you come out with good my point is you need to constantly ask to please help you help your family help your kids your grandkids and to come with a humility so the humility aspect that we have an opportunity to identify with especially and yer is Le Hashem it's before God it's you and Hashem the relationship there's no one to look at you know put your Talus over your head and if you want to dive them with tears dive them with tears if you want to dive them with joy dive them with joy if you want to dive them with your eyes with your hand it's it's your private moment it's this is it there's that's it the IL comes the fifth F we're locked in you can't go anywhere we're talking about the you're locked means a lock is open the whole time you're locked with hem eye to eye there's no bluffing here there is no room for bluffing cuz you're standing eye to eye with God he's looking right into your eyes you're looking into eyes what are you going to be a liar now how low can you be you've been lying all your life and all your year and now you're going to lie too so to yourself be and say Hashem I've been a liar I've been a cheat I've been a you know and and and I've done good things but compared to what I could do like we learned in Chapter 30 it's nothing that's nothing this is not mus this isus wants a person to be not mus em em be honest and that's the idea when you Lear you understand that there's no shame there's no guilt all of that is out the window it's between so that's the I wanted to share with you of today and shabas and Sunday and and and and Monday and of course kabad we end the Yum with the Napoleon's March right right why do we end and I remember that e would get up on his chair he got up on his chair he and he was on a platform so everyone the 5,000 people in the sh can see him but that wasn't he got up on the chair Mish like like a king and his Talis was falling to the right and the left and he pulled it back I saw it and everyone and he he was patching by this song and the place was electrified he walked in that though those 10 minutes or so that this was happening 5 10 minutes you had to you had to be a another person when you came out it was just it was energy you know if you think the carb energy is great which it is it's h hundredfold more okay go to say and even today that that was physically not there but the still continue it's it's calic so we end the Y we end the first segment of Tish which is or right through yipper or next week starts from the day after yum Kipper we start uh Sim suus and S but right now we're in the we're in the or so how do you conclude or with the ultimate Sim Napoleon's March that we were we are victorious we blow the sh for the and we we're singing This n of sim saying to ourselves and hasem and everyone in the world we won the war and again not I'm this great guy W the war no I invested and I davened and I fasted and I cried and I gave and you know and everything else that we we do go the extra mile that said us you made Chua then we we we we come out with a song a song shall and again if someone can't dance because they're heart or their feet you stand in your place and you you clap and you you have a a a happy P you know what I'm saying you participate any way you can you know and I'm sure even if shs most they probably don't do that um but nevertheless there should be this of sim after the the theer and not because I can now eat I'm starving that's not why you should be happy you should be happy because you had spent 10 days in intense I feel many years I don't know if all years but I I feel a heavy from the the 10 days it it's like it's a it weighs on you you know more or less it weighs on you so I want you'll say here again I'm oh I'm so happy I'm glad these 10 days are finished that's not what we mean th this is an opportunity that we have now a real great opportunity to show what we're really made of you know when we're dancing and we're singing and the sucus and everything else and there's full F and there friends and the simp and it's kind of easier to go along with the flow but during the 10 days that where it's intense to find that s that's that's a greater so all of this comes out at the end of Y um I do want to learn this Monday not Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday if you're able to if you all aren't able to on Thursday let me know but if you're able to um a half an hour if you're able to I'd love to learn this with you teach you Tanya next chapter any comments questions yes yes yes you yeah I think I can do it next Thursday next Thursday great anyway everyone a good my pleasure and our pleasure and everyone should have a good year Z ders bye