What Happened Yud Beis Tammuz 40 years ago?

I've got um tell you based on wills tough shinpei you lazy chemo Thomas so I'll share a story that happened 40 years ago to the year 1980 this happened in 1980 with me and another closet and hopefully it'll be a little inspiration for you budget gimmick Thomas the Haggadah EULA of the Frieda Kariba and as the Frieda caliber said it isn't only for him personally but for any year that's called mache in Israel but the name Israel 1980 youth based Thomas the rabbit Doublemint at 3:15 in the afternoon and that's my recollection and I've administered with a lever upstairs in the small small basement downstairs the lights were turned off it was already summer the camps were in action the buckram were already count going around leaflets in the Americas Ruth is going before going after the council isn't camp and it was very quiet through the middle of the week I finished opening and I walked down the stairs to the base method to the main hall with their ever far brain and I see a ye'd sitting on a bench and learning I think he was learning Tania was learning something of looking into a safer and I hadn't seen this year before I went over to him and I said Shalom Aleichem and introduced myself and asked him what's his name and he said David Skolnick and right away I could tell he's a Russian get a lead from Russia a hostage from Russia and I started to speak to him and it was very exciting to speak to him my recollection is he was blind on one eye and as I'm speaking to him and listening the art of listening especially listening to a faucet the Noldor closet to take it all in he's telling me about you best Thomas about those days that he himself experienced in in Russia in 1927 and and the years after and the machinist nefesh and the hardships and everything that we read about hear about in our circles and then he tells me I want to tell you something he says you know I leave the clock about I came out of Russia I wrote that ever years ago like letter and then I wanted to you see this and that ever wrote back to me a letter addressing me her avec la sit Rep so and so above it with all kinds of accolades and titles and and praises so when I went into you feeders I said to their ever ever I am not no big lava faucet I'm no big shriyak I know be going I'm a very simple heat this was the attitude of great to see them and a great not burning in our circles in the Bhavik no one made of himself a big Rajskub a hog as we say a big big shot and rabbi and scholar and thinker this and that this is American stick as my great uncle elemental foot the first would say so he said to the river he expressed himself you feel it if Phyllis knit if feel a snit I don't feel any of these accolades and titles that you wrote about me and that ever looked at him with his sharp blue eyes and he said to him and these are the words that I'll never forget that the Rev David Coleman told me 40 years ago youth based on was in 770 that ever said to him feeling is neat cane Moo's you must not have to feel it isn't obligatory that you feel if you feel you feel if you don't feel it you don't feel but if exotic their ever bestows upon you certain accolades and titles it is the reality you do feel it you don't feel it it's irrelevant and those five words left an impression and a deep message for the rest about my life and what does that get the job done get the sleep has done help another yeet you do feel it that's extra credit you don't feel it it makes no difference it shouldn't detract an iota from your sleepless from your mission the same that dove it started to talk to me in Tanya I was learning to see this at a time that was a Morristown and we were talking see this and it was very enjoyable to hear the way he understood to see this because being a student of made of three bullet of yokan you know they would trade a certain way they are certain Mahalo he was a yield from Russia and he had a very different approach to the element see this in a very good mock and he told me that he had a hovel in El Tesoro another Russian did rebel from Aaron Haines from the same family could be Becca Haynes a brother and he said marette enough see this amateur arises if related and we we tear yourself apart we rip ourselves apart like lions in shock and and and and and I remember thinking you know this idea of risk Arizer it's brought down that the mother says this cutter I said the passion of learning tighter and we always know that the literature there into the risk of the ricer and you can see even today on clips online whereas she to receivers are sitting at a wedding and kisana and they're talking learning the mother and then just and everything else and they're tearing each other apart and they use and do before spaces give birth you don't understand anything mister straight up you know this is a certain style I've written about this in the literature world certain with the summer house him where it's an onion to within theta to to rip yourself apart it's not because you seek to humiliate the other person to embarrass the other person on the contrary it's the greatest cover that data if you are massage sick if you're involved in that approach the trader called mister that ice so this adult : ik told me how he and Avram chain of Romano pain like tear each other apart Chaitanya so the reminding me of this risk of their eyes out in Inca siddhis so this is a story that happened 40 years ago it becomes more important because this past a kiss slave I was in the Moscow and in Poland in Poland in Warsaw I went there for a wedding of a rebel Tsar's daughter to a good friend of Mines the Sun the moisture will and spiritually offend in Portland and in for Maine and it was it was like from heaven sent I didn't think I was gonna go and didn't want to go oh boy I went and I got to taste and to actually see the place with the free the cannabis said the famous my mother so critters after a SOHO i'm malik 1927 that famous put and cut the moment that the river has it that referred to and it's not just the place that we said to my mat the whole room the whole environment the whole pool of gaelic the whole happenings I still could feel almost a hundred years later the Frida kadapa being there and all the details what would took place in conjunction with that my mer subsequently his arrest of test 57 and then the arrest for youth page gibble Thomas to release from from from Haifa haha him from death to life on gimble Thomas and then finally advanced behemoth almost ACOG annually ultimate redemption we was Friedman spared his life and he was allowed to leave custody mother a hard labor camp etc so here it's 40 years later and you think about what we're experiencing now and how the world is a middle of changing and one can save themselves well this change will mean we need to make changes in our life in our you dish' life in our city life in a way that accepts the modernity of the world accepts the the know of the the new approach to many things and we learn from the free decrepit and our death that feeling is lit Camus whether you understand that you don't understand though you feel or you don't feel the bottom line is see this kebab is eternal with the outer depe and there are billion - taught us and teach us is loyal and void is eternal and there are no changes and then the code that there's no changes if the quintessential in the code or point of what lapavitsas abides all about there are no changes you don't feel it on the contrary you feel otherwise because we're going through an epidemic and the entire economy is turning sour and and people are running this way running that way so what so what is this the first time in our history not it not only history Jewish sisters is the first time in our the Babbage our Habad history that we've experienced hardships we're used to this this for us should be bread and butter soba Mela what do we need to do what do we need to do for your basic game Oh Thomas tough shinpei we need to practice and implement feeling isn't it Camus we need to do my civic oil but that obey him what our habit teaches today what does it teach Elvis is royal loving another year the same rep garbage cornet who's talking to a 20 at 18 to 20 year old blocker how old was I 1980 yeah Lacombe 1920 whatever an American and he is a bow machinist nefesh and I'm a Yankee Doodle he took the time and we spoke I remember now from 3:30 till 6 o'clock I remember looking at the clock and 770 was dark and quiet it was a very austere feeling being a 770 like no one else around only this older hussa there myself and I'm just taking it all in taking it all in listening to him listening to him and curling in every verdict and every word that he said that happens talking to us every single day that I am are teaching us the three decayed biscotti Allah kept Yiddish kite alive and the results we see now when I was in Russia this December this key slave it was like woman he is super you couldn't believe what we saw caution stores mean yawning children's programs Labov each left big time who planted that that seed was planted by the three the Culebra and the rabbit told even the hosted like a of the Maspeth who dabble for hours and learn to see this and everything else and the famous words of the free decrepitude a you ain't the toast and touch bar mr. miner if you involve yourself and tonight you shall pay strappin in teaching children are doing things for you they should kill their love your mind well night knit and if not if you do other every other holy activity you're on your own you're a good person you're a great closet but you're not mine it's a hard vote it it's a hard pill to swallow aren't we the rebels or we or are we on our own they never taught and teaches us what to do we need to have the bittle we need to have the humility to put ourselves aside keep shooting and do what he instructs neighbors should help that from dissipated gimel thomas we should have the harder gula keep shooting that rebellion we'll come back together with me she said Kano and take us out of this bitter goalless and we'll do our evade the daily with the highest with a vitality and a zest at an enthusiasm and we'll understand and and and know that nothing has changed it's all fit so nice it's all external that's a change has changed but the premia is the same and it's the same out there and it's the same free that could happen in the same but ever the same the able stir nothing has changed but I am where I am which would be safer to the ghoulish lamer taken from a yard mom is beautiful I may like a dish or maybe on me