vaydata #13- Why is it Dark first and only after light? Real change happens only in this manner

so we're now on the last uh chapter in my book um i don't it's it begins with vegemite okay okay have it okay but we pasted it you know what what what page what page is that on hillel page 216. 216. okay but i do want to explain and the last part of the previous paragraph and i want to re revisit the question that ever asked in the last paragraph which some of you weren't at and it's a very important that we have to ask ourselves every day and that is why did hashem make it that the yetza hara comes to a person at birth and the yeti if only comes to a person at bar mitzvah basmitzvah like we say it ain't fair and we know hashem is all just all righteous all proper so at least if he didn't make the yates of toys at the same time of the yates sahara at least he should make kind of the yates or tafe stronger than the yates or hara and outwardly doesn't seem that way how do we know because as soon as a baby is born it cries as soon as a child understands sweets it wants sweets as soon as we know the the the the high we get from honor and pleasure we we run towards it and so we find throughout our lifetime that kedusha holiness is secondary to to gushmius to material and physical and the question is why so again we have a technical answer because the eight sahara has 13 12 13 years on us right 12 13 years of working away at us and this question is a fundamental question in in in in judaism and yiddish kite and torah so the last paragraph which i really encourage you to to to learn it's not a difficult paragraph to learn um it's more avoda more you know service oriented uh workable uh versus kabbalah and hadith hasidis so thereby explained that the truth is that hashem does give the neshama something special that the sahara doesn't have and he cites the gemara in neither which the balatanya the altered begins his holy saver of tanya we're still in the month of kisslife we just started the tanya tanyabus uh we learned at the end of the third chapter of neither and no we administer i say him referring in this case to the neshama be righteous and don't be wicked i feel a caller elon you should see yourself as bad why what do you mean first of all what does that mean it means in other words not not in the sense of bad i'm evil and bad it means to say i have to be on guard anyone that thinks they don't have to be on guard is making such a mistake okay because the gemara says it it's a gemara it's not qasidas it's not muslim it's not kabbalah it's not tomorrow what does the gomorrah say the commander says that the sage was already at the end of his life and he became like on the last day he had a heretical thought that he became a past and a heretic because a person should never trust and believe in themselves that they are finished and nothing can move them and shatter them and and i just want to digress for a moment that this is so real it really is it just takes a little moment one moment to goof up to mess up and the aids of hurricane at one moment get into you and that moment you lose control and you're messed up and you get messed up now you can do you do chuva it's all true and this doesn't necessarily define you but nevertheless you have to be on guard so the question is is there something that god gives the soul the shambha that if if we were to access accent access it it would protect us from these situations so the answer is yes yes what is it an oath the word also is associated with another hebrew word [Applause] to satiate when the neshama takes this the oath of be righteous and don't be wicked simultaneously it's being imbued with a force and strength to be able to overcome the resilience to overcome is been given to this neshama of every single yid vis-a-vis the oath so outwardly the yetzer hara has 12 or 13 years on us but the truth is that even the yatzahara has just the outward advantage but the inner advantage it doesn't have on the contrary than the neshama has it why did hashem make it in such a way that this that that outwardly the yates or her has its advantage is because of free will if everything were to be handed to us you know there's no free will and we don't appreciate it so hashem says i want you to really get used to goshmias be pampered and spoiled by your parents by your situation and let's see what you're made of let's see how you as a bar mitzvah boy or bass mitzvah girl will now develop into a man a woman in a healthy positive way and now you're on your own which is the essence of barambas mitzvah at the end of the previous chapter the rebbe says that the yater taif can at the end of the day subjugate the yates of horror and he quotes here a concept that we've learned in the past but it's worth repeating he says that there is what we call the world of void tahu the world of void tohu and then there is something called the world of tikkun normalcy look at the last line before we did that we begin the new chapter here the rabbit has slipped in so quietly one word and this word opens for us an explanation the word is akudin i want to see if you remember your homies who remembers where the word i put them appeared in the spotted sheep very good well we have one person who's learning cheetahs properly spotted now without giving you now a share on the difference between akudim nicodem and brudi all three are used in pashas by yatse correct yeah there's an entire discussion in kabbalah and hasidis about this and maybe one day we'll we'll study it but but for now let's just talk about the akudi the spanish spotted says that every here in the name of siddhis and kabbalah the kayak the power and strength mission that's given to the yates or three to be able to subjugate someone that has 13 years on him comes from akudin shall immila look at that word that is above that's greater so let's talk about this we have two forces maisha avrom right toyo and ticket chaos and normalcy you all know we all know these forces are very real there's a day we want to be normal today we want to be abnormal the people you know one of the the jokes that we used to throw around in yeshiva if you're a barbecue you're abnormal when i mean you're abnormal you try to break barriers you don't accept the status quo not in a crazy way although some said it was crazy but anyway breaking out the menorah pursuing this sir like the menorah at the window or light it near the window if you're riding against uh across the the mezuzah and you can see it from the window people will walk by will see the menorah why do you have to put a menorah on the car on top of your car like the story that i shared in my last clip which which i hope you listen to because it's from meisha's and her hometown will met illinois rabbi flinkenstein a brooklyn boy who i know my brother's classmate tells the story of two weeks ago he gets a call from someone rabbi could you help me sure how do i denounce my conversion to christianity you know bad rabbit gets such a call he's excited so he talks to him and he says let's get together and we'll talk we'll talk but he's before he gets over the phone he says sir why are you calling me what happened that you're calling me and he says i'll tell you rabbi i was walking on in my little in wilmette somewhere there i was walking and i saw a car driving around with a manure on top and i'm a jew i grew up jewish i know what a menorah is and when i saw that something hit me so deep inside and i said on the spot i have to denounce my christianity i'm a jew i looked up in the yellow pages for a rabbi and i came across your name and hence i called i'm sure the rest will be history this just happened a week or two ago this this chanukah this didn't happen in 1980 or 1850 this happened in 2021 why how because every year has a kudim sheila my let me tell you the ticket every year has a deep the show yes hello which one of the distinctions is spotted speckled and uh which one is is a kudu akutam i believe it's akutan comes the word akut bound tied it's all in one so there's kudos i think so it's the speckled so i think it's the other one spa so what is that does that mean like one color yeah i think so yeah okay right i'll cope on that i want to go that would make sense it's a beginner of like oneness and truth that's right that's right right but let me just get that exactly let's get to it chaos and normalcy are what we experience daily okay a little more the less the morning you could be normal and in the afternoon you can be tell you and and it and it fluctuates seldom do we find someone who is on one level you know it's very seldom the truth is the truth is us human beings are changing mood changes behavior changes feeling changes sometimes we're chaotic we'll tell you sometimes we're very normal and this is the balance of life how do we balance toyo and thicken you know you see everything that citizen kabbalah if you understand it well you could really you know use it in day-to-day therapy and and and activity and this is toyo unticken it's not the world of toyo means uh you know a world of martians and and and uh people and issues that are you know uh beyond us no the world of toyo means within ourselves when we act in a way that's chaotic we're expressing tell you when we act in a way of ticking we're expressing ticking however this taiyo and tickim challenge each other comes along the web and and therefore in that scenario they ate certain the eights are hurt and the yates are at are at each other's necks and they're going to each other and they're fighting with each other and and it's a mess says siddhis remember you jew you have on the shrama that was been satiated and been given what we call here akudim oneness sheila my limit of a ticket there is a place inside every eid where there tell you and taken as they are different than each other are irrelevant in other words the unbalance and unstable stability of toyo and ticking in this realm of oneness they don't they they're not perceived as two opposing forces but rather two enhancing forces to express oneness so in other words even in the chaos of your life you find god and even in being too normal you find hashem and this isn't aveda this is not something you know you get by by like i've said you know eating pizza or smoking a cigarette which we don't do today or treating alcohol or or dominic this is an avoided this you have to sweat this you have to understand and then you have to implement it it's a hard job but the thing is that we have it and that's the answer the answer to the question how can hashem and why did god give the yatzahara 12 13 years on the yates are tied so the answer is for free will okay free will i hand free will our hair which means you know my friend free will if i don't have something that can i could use that can bring oneness into the world it's not fair it says couple of siddhas you do have you have a kudim there's a spot in your neshama that in that spot if you touch that spot you will transcend the differences and you'll have balance and you'll find that there is positivity to chaos at times and there's positivity to thicken at times and they're not mutually exclusive so yes yes we do know you know a taipei personality a type b most times you know it's like it fluctuates and and and and and and and it goes against the the the style but but through healthy living through tighter living through avoidance the refinement of character a person can come to a point where in every situation of their life they're expressing the akut the the one the binding of of soul to soul so when during the year is the is this open to us the ila open meaning in the sense that it's in public everyone is assured the araka dish is open it's the so every single day of every breathing moment of a person's life they have yehida the question is to access yahida this is an explanation to the last line in the previous paragraph now let's continue no no no no no they don't have to be sorry go ahead i just i learning i looked up the trans translation in the bishop yeah so they translate here as akurem as ringed ones ringed ones uh are speckled ones and tellum are spotted ones i i i don't know if that makes any difference in terms of this last line what what what what is yeah right but ringed ones ringed r-r-i-n-g-e-d yeah what what does that mean uh you guys are uh english majors what does that mean in english [Applause] [Music] i'm guessing it's like around their ankles the circles around the ankles like the bands on the ankles and just okay again but but in in hebrew the word akut means bound representing it's so tight it's so connected it's all one okay let's go on after all this explanation says the previous year why did hashem give preference to the ate sahara why did he introduce him first to first to to man the immigrant milosevic if the answer is so we should get credit for our work our effort he says it would be adequate [Applause] let them come together and let's fight it out let's see who's stronger yet to tell you and let believe me to do this you need a lot of work comes out like a springing lying a jumping line and and kind of forces himself on you a person dominates over him every day like the way to make him sit with secretly shall we know and you have to be careful be shamilam all in a very good type of uh you have to be guarded well okay during war you have to be careful from a camouflaged and disguised enemy which is much worse than an enemy that you see clearly this culture is especially to subjugate and change the harsh middles of the eight sahara silicon valley that i believe great work which kidnaps them with much effort commissions for a long period of time yes i ate [Applause] are very very powerful very you know very difficult right you should be as soft as a stalk the kosher kettles and as hard as cedar carrots this hazal is a is a reference to the eight of 28 is much uh is sorry is soft rakhami soft and intellectual the whole the buddha of attain and the entire words and and are and position of the eights are tied will be divided involves words of of intellect in other words there's logic to its position the words of the wise are heard softly pleasantly you're right he says that that the words of him are are heard pleasantly but inside there is a token a strength a kind of an inner stubbornness that you will not be able to shake me away from my belief in god therefore that's why even someone who by nature is soft can withstand something that is cushioned that is difficult because in other words the inside of someone who we would call a call a softy you know the real healthy soft personality inside is very very strong in other words this isn't this isn't a nebucha this is someone who inside is as strong as it gets outwardly they have a very nice a nice demeanor a soft demeanor outwardly there could be a person who is harsh on the outside but inwardly he is soft or yiddish edel refined this is the yetzer taif so this is very interesting in other words when you look at a person you'll need who outwardly let's say is aggressive so you right away tend to say oh this is a person who's dominated by the yatzahura that what we're learning now is not necessarily they have a harsh outside but inside they're as sweet as honey and vice versa you can have someone who out of the sweetheart and inside there's such a harsh person this is why we call this type of a situation like a disguised camouflaged enemy it's not always what you get what you see is what you get you have to really really pay attention especially in relationships let's go back inside shanking conversely the evil inclination who caution we say it's as hard as a cedar would bow me discussion with kiefenbe sir the yate sahara a very difficult character very uh passionate and aggressive the zelda have finished me this oh don't be listen this is the difference between character and emotions within man and within an animal there'd be this other character within man although a person has strong character they call mock and nevertheless upon them they're guided by the mind they're directed by the mind shalom mind over matter sometimes the sacral the intellect that guides the emotion is guided by will i must have it the willpower is guiding the intellect convincing the intellect i want you this is what i want now you find rationalization and and and justification how to get what i want yeshua rates and possess since he wants this therefore his seiko his rash his logic it tends to inc to find justification to the want or commission in actuality by certain characters have a warped logic and their warped logic their logic will will justify something that is really not healthy but they're driven because the logic hell in that case is subordinate to the will so if they have a will of something unhealthy and very bad that will will overpower the logic and the logic will find justification to support that will if [Music] the truth of what's going on here is the person's will is in in in in full force in math is a circle so the willpower is so strong that it can bend incline force the cycle to do it its way this is a question of a rhetorical question so he says this is the retort nevertheless [Applause] but however the overall idea that intellect does have an impact on the emotions [Applause] of the fact that the character has something that can impact them and uber him not only can it impact them from the outside but inside in that they feel very soft this is all the middles of a human being in comparison he says to the meters of animals that are very very powerful [Applause] is that it's constantly in a mode of will the aimless and nothing will prevent it from getting its will in kane he concludes the kazamo [Applause] and and and make uh have habitual the person to do ways of deception and only only afterwards gives them the age of three which through it by their suicidal milan through the assistance given to it from above the autumn it can it can it can make a difference kevin the kids are up here i do have to finish now because it's becoming a little tail dick here tell you it was overtaking thinking well tomorrow i'm moving over to my son and we'll have my own room there so i'll be able to have quiet more so please forgive me yes just one quick thought before you you go i just noticed that the word and and the rebbe uses the word actually sahara they both have the word term in it that's right it's two different words you know i understand but they both have the word tandem in it a minute but okay okay but abdulme by the way i think is aramaic because in hebrew but i hear what you're saying kevin have a good day we'll see everyone tomorrow as i guess bye-bye bye-bye take care [Music]