Truth: How to attain it - Doing what G-d wants, not what I want - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

uh we are on page the bottom of the page in Tanya chapter 41 the AL here speaks about when you DAV and you learn I want to continue because yesterday we elaborated orally let's learn now more text okay it's it's the third word from the on the last line before we turn the page the third word from the end line as it says in the now we're on top of 118 what does it say in GH theas the souls Delight in the pl in the pleasure that they have in comprehending God and because because of that they're Incorporated in the light of hem that is the ganaden experience when you have this deep understanding of Hashem because now you're free from a body and the inhibitions of the mind and in G is able to perceive Hashem in its most pure form and a way that brings pleasure to the soul right we're in ganen we're not in a body we're in ganen now and because of that there's what we call hisus inclusivity inclusivity into what this is why established in the morning BR before before before in other words in the BR qu God the soul that you gave me ET and you will remove from me my soul now here D is asking a question without telling us he's asking a question but he's implying a question why is it relevant to us to know every morning that Hashem will return to us our the the purpose of know that is that we have a soul right that that's the purpose to tell us the before is about the body this is the way simple on explain the sequence of the blessings is about the Goof excuse me the theim the crevices and the cracks and the openings we thank AEM for those that need to be open to remain open those that need to be closed should be closed at the proper time so that's a a blessing for the body for the goof the next the next the next is for the soul that put within us where did came from okay but the last part and you will take this away from me and then you'll return to me seems to be Superfluous it it doesn't add seeming ly to the Thanksgiving we need to give and we give every morning for the soul that he gave us for that would be adequate to say you gave us a soul it comes from a b c d Olive B that's the Al's indirect question in these two lines he he he he's I say indirect because he implies v v means implies a response an answer so when you see V you have to ask yourself what's bothering him and what I told you is what's bothering him I heard this from my teacher and this is the way simple says the Al and you see the word after on the fourth line after the first word is clar clar is usually either a complete answer or a retort to a rhetorical question and in this case it's a rhetor to rhetorical question CL what does clar mean the meaning of the of and why it's necessary to be said let's continue since you God blew Within Me and in the future you will take it away from me therefore now while I'm alive I dedicate I give it over and I return to you now not in 120 years but now let's say 60 years old I don't know how old you are whatever now you're being your as you live in your body how and with true through when you as we explained yesterday you take give away your because you're in in in inspired with and with a and love and everything else so it's now that you're giving it over so so so therefore it makes sense that we say in other words what's the just like when after physically we return our to right that's we give it up back back you go to your Source right so to now while we're alive we need to D with that same intensity and passion of that's the bat's retort to his rhetorical question and that and now it makes sense this is why K added the words even though it seems to be superflous it it is the shot clear do you all get it a you understand yes yes okay if not ask me I'll explain again I'll try try to say the different way okay so now brings understanding it understanding it and doing it are are two different things that's why you have shabas puts a lot of emphasis on the shabas is a time for daving with greater Cav you don't got to do carpool you're going to don't got to go to the office you know shabas is should be and if someone bothers you shabas don't pay attention with with degree and with respect shabus is your day okay let's go on as he says to you God my soul exalts itself lifts itself up through me through ey binding my thoughts to your thoughts God my speech to your words through the words of prayer that's the way we accomplish this Union we say blessed are you means direct of right we don't say blessed are you but in third person when we make a it's like I'm talking to you when I see you on the screen and you see me it's direct contact that's called direct says specifically this binding and Union applies when we say direct as we say blessed are you we don't say who we say blessed are you similar says here here's a period after here finishes the idea of this it's with this prep with this preparation of that we have to we begin morning prayer morning with this preparation that's the way you should begin learning she a set she immediately after this is brought down refers to learning after if you can if you don't have to rush out then you should try to make it you know that's why many shs they say houses or in you know they some say a short one line two lines of it's to be what it says in immediately after prayer there should be Torah study kava that's the reason for it by the way one of the reasons but this Union and this SN it's not enough just in the morning is it in middle of the day you're at work you're at the computer you're home you're gardening your whatever you want to sit down and learn a she before you begin this this which is calling the is calling for our to before begin learning is necessary even during the day as it's known the primary preparation we know you're supposed to learn for the sake of as we mentioned several times it's a when is it means when does it prevent one if one did not do it that way they haven't fulfilled their obligation that's called says by Ordinary People by sikim there sikim is it's like you said it's easy I understand it but to implement so are implementing see that is will be making us common today and he has you mine regular average person doesn't have this m neish feeling every moment or every day and all that nevertheless there are times when it's you must have a thought that I'm doing it forem and he gives the example he gives two examples get when you write a get a divorce contract divorce bill and when you write a you need to know I'm writing again to separate two people and their names if you don't have that in mind when you write the get the get is invalid cuz it's missing and the so same same thing say for Torah right when I'm sure you've been at you've written letters the theer wants you to say not wants you says with you or tells you to say shame for the purpose of the sanctity of the Torah cuz that's that's what that's and if you don't you have to redo the letter cuz it's missing therefore it's adequate to say in the beginning of writing of the thereby I'm writing or for in the case of the get for the sake of writing the get for his name and her name so what do we see clearly that even in middle of the day when it comes to certain Mitzvah if they must have the to mount to what is calling know it's a spiritual in learning and when it comes to MIT certain MIT it's a particular so now he has he makes another point when you learn many hours consecutively so you're on you're on the track you're learning so in the beginning right you need to reflect on this that we mentioned here he says we talk about want think uh practical tips down in this chapter right here gives you practical tips every hour at least let's say you learning for five hours five times during the hour one per hour you need to stop and reflect I'm learning for the sake it's I'm learning hashem's ta and I'm I'm being M and eff to Hashem that's that's what he says here in Tanya chapter one I didn't write it why AB the question is why why isn't excuse me why isn't having thisav at the beginning of your learning of five hours for the next five hours adequate why must you do it um every hour says and this is interesting this is a real real interesting approach every hour of learning there is a new drawing down of godliness from from the upper to the lower and what you draw down the earlier hour it returns to its source we'll skip the bracket right they go back every hour what you do during their [Applause] hour goes up and now it's new next hour why every hour there is a different combination of of God's name briefly you got the word a two letters alive BAS how many combinations could you make two so 2 * 2 is four B Alive Alive B right three letters Mak six two makes four three makes six so four letters should make 24 four four letters can be combined in 24 different ways but the alter says you're only 12 so some explain some expl lame because the k v k the two hes are the Same by the way by the way is the rebba rejects that and he he he he says that's not a good explanation because this is not just a numbers game the 2ks represent two different things the K and the K so what are you playing it's not mathematics here it's not a game of numbers so to tell but but the AL does say it okay does say it I don't want to go into that now but what's the idea I want to get to the point the point is that the combination of letters cre create energy the the letters of hashem's name so each hour there's a newu there's a new combination so what you did in hour one is not good for hour two and hour two is not good for three and so on and so forth that's why each hour you need to have a new a new of M that's what he says here in very interesting and he says every hour there's one combination the 12 combinations of God's name corresponding to 12 hours of the day he says as it's known at night we have that's the 12 second set of 12 and the first set of 12 is says like this what we're talking about having thisav of says you know what the kavana must consist of if it's it to be right and and to do its job to elevate to extract the The Godly spark that's within the the Mitzvah and the Torah and the davening that you're doing to extract it back to its source for one purpose to make God a pleasantry to make God feel good nothing else not to make myself feel good I want God to smile why do I want him to smile cuz he wants he says he wants to smile now you don't want to smile you want to be upset you want to have an up noose I'll give you an up noose whatever you want so the whole kavana is as we me as we said the joy of the king when his only son returns to him but say him in when he leaves captivity top of page n and prison Canal as we said in chapter 31 and I think we will can relate to it anyone that has a child in the army or a friend's child right or some you know and they return home after not hearing for two three weeks and you don't know if he's alive that feeling is the greatest feeling of pleasure of of Happiness says the when you're able to take the N that Hashem gave you and return it to its right place every hour with that thought to make him happy that's the greatest Sim and you'll notice the AL says here one changed in the the way he said it in chapter 31 in chapter 31 when he brings this mush he emphasizes the Sim of the Ben the joy of this King's son that the King's son has Joy being reunited with his father here he doesn't say look at the last line he doesn't say here he's talking about a different emphasis than the this the same mus but he's emphasizing not the joy of the King's son that he's returned he United with the King but the the joy of the King to his son and it's a different emphasis and and and and why is he emphasizing the joy of the king versus The King's son because here it's all about him in 31 which is the chapters of you know being happy and not melancholy and depression and sadness and all that we're talking about ourselves the psychology what's going on so we emphasized the Ben Mel how my feeling here we're not talking talking about that it's t it's for the B but the emphasis is what is M all about Mish is about him not about me and this a very important point because a lot of people who are interested in Mish you know are and and and that whole a but at the end of the day the focus comes from them I no that's what ising over here that when we talk about this that is said is so hard to implement the first thing you have to remember it's not about you that's why that's why's perspective even if you're not ready if you do what he wants then you're you're making him happy him ah you don't feel it and you don't and you're not in the mood on and on and on who cares who cares it's not about you it's not about me it's not about us it's about him and Hashem says when you extract the NIT from the GM and you make a br over an apple like and when you give someone a ride in your car and when you help someone with your scalpel and all that you've extracted the NIT in that gashi and returned it to its right source and that's what he says I want why how those are all addons ad junks niceties that's what we're learning let's continue top of page after the period Top Line this look how he says three words it's all the same root word Ms so what is he saying this is truthful that's the the way you're supposed to read it it is truthful with the truth of all truths it's the absolute emis we can I mean again I don't like saying it's not for us to say but remember we learned in Chapter 13 there's there's there and there's EMS and there's em there's three levels of EMS maybe he alludes to these three here I don't know the Reb father probably has an Insight on it but we do see that he says the words so for and he adds in other words completely absolutely this is truth this is em to the because God wants it and God says I become happy that's that's the em and this applies to every Jew at every moment and at every time this comes from as he said earlier in the chapter and earlier chapters from the natural latent love that's an inheritance from our ancestors now the here it's not enough to have this only because coming from the latent hidden natural love that a Jew has has his heart never once more and that's why it's you need to set times and you see what it says here that's what I was telling you before before is a shabas you just set times when you have time to reflect and to meditate to meditate to reflect and to contemplate on God's greatness to comprehend to develop not natural love and fear for God but intellectual love and fear God in other words this idea of M should permeate your mind as well and this is the whole ofab and this is the difference between kabad and KAG where kabad demands is right here chapter 41 last few lines is says it's not adequate everything I've said till now which comes from the latent love and you reveal it I'm looking you to I I'm looking for you also to generate a similar feeling in your in your in through your mind through his bonness wants us to to understand that this should resonate within us this also using the facilities the faculties of the mind which will lead to what we call an not just an a tiv natural love and fear but also an intellectual intellectually generated love and fear and then he says means and maybe just maybe God will grant you that feeling Etc canal and that this will be explained more elaborately from 43 through 51 six seven different ways of aasem tremendous insights and coming up and very Al is going to take us into his apples eye but for now you see how he structures it so beautifully so beautifully structured and then understands we're humans we're frail and we we we try to meditate we try to understand we learn and and everything but sometimes it don't go maybe Hashem will give you that gift kind of and say okay you've tried and I'm I'm I'm I'm giving you uh a taste of that intellectual a so that's your answer is Sir you weren't expecting this this morning but ala really I think addresses your uh point in the beginning of this year tomorrow we're going to start chapter 42 have a great day everyone if you have any questions send them to me online okay aome sh I'm glad I didn't miss it okay I didn't I didn't know you were there but I'm glad that you're there need stay safe and all the best okay great great great Z everyone byebye have a great day take care