Tanya Igeres haTeshuva 1e- Teshuva from Love, not selfish love but G-dly love - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

so we're learning Tanya and we are on pagead taught us yesterday his idea of what CH is which is to quote the the biblical mitvah of CH is forsaking sin that's it you don't need any more stuffings no gravy you just got to do one thing you got to say from today on I'm not going to commit this sin anymore now it's not only as we explained yesterday that you won't do this sin but that you won't re re against God regardless of what sin it is so say until now you didn't you didn't um you didn't behave nicely you behave nicely to people to your spouse and all of a sudden today you wake up and you want to really say something nasty says that that any sin its core element is rebellion Merida PR oil those famous cidic words the rejection of the Yoke so Chua means to do the opposite cab I accept you as my God I do chuva not only for this part particular sin but for all sins cuz the the the underlying principle of all sins is rebellion this is what we learned yesterday let's now go back to the text Page s Al and it's seven lines or eight lines from the bottom the last word on the line the it follows a period the the r when he numer when he he talks about Chua and the SM SM is an accur from Mitzvah when they mention the Mitzvah of chv they don't include fasting now we all know that the fast day the six fast days a year but particularly y ker and Tish the fast day fasting represents tra not eating is reducing your blood flow and your your your k your strength and the idea is that normally we use our K our power to do what we do including to do things that are not spiritually healthy for us they're called transgressions so when you fast you are you are painting yourself you are reducing the ability to use [Music] energy to OPP God but the r doesn't mention that what does the AL say why is he making this point he says and therefore continuing his his point therefore the r and the SM when they mention the Mitzvah of Chua they don't include ESS fasting because fasting is not a prerequisite for chuva that's the point so someone asks you Vu if someone tells you I didn't fast yipper but I did chuv on Wednesday on Tuesday today guess what that's possible it's possible to do Chua today and say I resolve today to never again and to to sin and today you genuine about it you're genuine about it you did CH I when it comes y Kipper maybe you go back to your old ways well then you didn't do chuva but until from now toer you did chuva you see chuva this is a question that people ask or should ask if I make a resolution right this whole thing of making H resolutions and I don't keep my resolutions are they valid or in in inic terms is it valid chuva the answer is if at the moment you were entirely sincere about it it's valid and guess what if you were unless something comes from the outside you yourself won't commit that again if you're really sincere here the fact that somehow something later happens we look at that as an outside interference to who you truly are that's messing you up that's disturbing you that's causing you to sin so the AL says here that is why the r and the do not mention ESS at all Miss B now when we're talking about a sin that the tah says if you do this sin they'll be excision cus or execution through the bzd M bezdim you would think there you really need to have a tick right what's one of the methods of ticking tius fasting but the ra the r doesn't mention that continue what does he [Music] mention confession I have sinned I confess and I request forgiveness says as it says in the T what does it say in the t quote they will confess their sins Etc so sees a source for including v as part of CHA but again not as a substitute for so we have three things let's let's itemize let's itemize Masha we have biblical CH is promising to yourself I won't commit the sin again then we have V confession which expresses regret for the past which is an important element to enhance the Chua to complete the chuva to complete the tick for what I did in the past because even if you make velv if you make this decision right I won't sin again the fact isn't the past I've sinned there's a stain there's a Mark H it needs to be cleaned up so the AL says the ra therefore includes it by using VI confession confession V means I conf confess to what I did in the past confession is not I confess to not doing it in the future that's not called confession V is is about the past and the does include that but he doesn't include ESS and this will be a little clearer as we continue let's continue now asks a rhetorical question question because of y there's a called y there's a a verse in y it says return with to me with all of your heart with fasting and tears what's the question a what's the question what's the implication the implication is that shuu return to Chua with fasting is fasting is dears so seemingly that verse in y contradicts we just said a line ago that fasting is not part of truva so the rebuts his own rhetorical question what does the verse in refer to this is to no a future decree upon you Shen that might have been decreed and you need to have fasting in tears to an know that decree to clean up to rinse away the sin of the generation this is talking about over there that there's going to be AA of locust and um so y says that the way this Gaza won't come is if you do fasting and crying so D is saying like this don't mix the two up the reason why in y we find fasting and tears at a necessary method of chuva it's not for Chua it's to for another matter called a decree now these are two separate things in other words like y when we say that a person you you will be punished for your sin Hashem says in the if you do this and this you violate this you get this punishment is that a decree no it's not a decree it's it's reward and Punishment for a decree is something very different a decree is be it to you as a single person as as an individual or to the community there's something greater outside of the norm called the decree that that will come about upon you if you don't act properly that's a separate idea and for that tears crying and ESS and fasting is helpful so says don't mix the two it's true it does say so in y but it's referring to a decree and your our punishments for our sins is not a decree it's our sins okay this is the reason why why we when it comes to any situation we don't want a sah a problem of magnitude to impact the community the Jewish Community we fast right that's the whole idea today right the Ron make many times half day fasts what does it say m eser that Esther hamala knew about this decree so she called for a fast so we see that when it comes to a for the community like in Esther's time for the Jewish people she called for a fast so that's why so is saying this is the reason we're fasting so this point being that fasting is not an integral part of juva that's what that's that's the point out the episod V is confession is fasting isn't so that Al asks another rhetorical question what about what's written in the books of muser and amongst the the the first of those for where it says the in Turn the Page to top of 182 and those for it says there it mentions all kinds of fasts that are necessary now is Sir here he's added a word that he hasn't said before means you take upon yourself torturous measures painful measures to pain yourself when it comes to such sins that one has done which involves exision or execution by bz someone who wastes seed intentionally not accidentally intentionally masturbation intentional masturbation Etc where we know there is what we call death Heavenly death and the law and the law and and its law is similar to exision in regard to this wasting seed so we get we we find that the way to do chuva for that is through fasting and you pleasured yourself through masturbation now pain yourself that's the idea you pleasured yourself now pain yourself so asks and it's a Ser serious business how do you you know I thought that's not part of truva the idea of Tinus we said was when there's AA or there you know on theur or on the yid you know but it's the concept of AA TOA here we're talking about a sin a person pleasured himself through wasting seed okay that was an individual thing I want to do cha for that the seed is Holy I want to do CH say fine sounds pretty easy but it's it's rough stuff okay but the point the question of the AL is that that seems to be not necessary for Chua for things that arein and yet we find here that it is so answers H this is his rebuttal this is his his response it gives over here I think three or four rebuttals one is that is to save yourself from a Heavenly punishment God forbid there's something called you sh not that you bring upon yourself you see in the question stage what was the question I explained right you pleasured yourself through this method now pay yourself says no you you're you're painting yourself is ridiculous from heaven for that type of a sin you'll get and that are going to be hurtful to your body so his point being that we don't find a method of Chua that involves your um active fasting and painting yourself as a method of chuva Hashem when Hashem brings person or when punishment when you sorry pain you him on a person and Hashem tells you to fast that's coming from him that's to oriented and like we said in one of the first classes in someone suffers you know you see them suffering so much plain and they say I needed this to cleanse myself that's from God no one no one is is actively looking to to inser themselves a an illness to be ill that's against the but if a person receives that from Hashem a believer in to knows that this is for my best right so the AL is saying don't bring AR don't bring proof from from your own uh painting yourself and punishing yourself as a a way of chuva it has nothing to do with chuva if God brings it upon you it's it's Incorporated in chuva that's the one response another rebuttal remember we're talking about that when we commit a sin we leave a stain and a mark now that stain and that Mark is on enough is on on our neish until we remove it like I've said my doubt says forsaking the sin making a resolution I won't do it from here on but my friends you did it before so you got to stain you got to you got to take care of it if you want complete Kapur so Del says if you want complete kapora you want to you want to um for the word you want to hurry up you want to rush up thear then these methods of Tinus and Sig are acceptable another reut okay and the third Point makes like this in order to achieve true you hear this AB the ultimate of truva is out of love a not out of fear you know hey I fear that when after 120 years and my soul returns to Hashem it's going to have to go through what we call geh spiritual Purgatory Torah purgatory and you know and we say Kadesh 11 months to help us protect from the and all that and I'm really fearful I want to really do chuva that's called chuva TR from Fear says the ultimate is TR TR out of love not out of fear I want to have the relationship I want to be connected Ed to hasem and because I want the relationship I love God so much I want to have him in my life I want to be clean so says here that why sometimes is Tinus and Sig necessary to remind a person that your chuva needs to be chuva Chua out of love not Chu out of out of fear and with this we conclude the first chapter in The Cha and again all of this that we just learned is a sidebar in other words all of this is not the chapter one is I can't emphasize how important it is to to to think about that and to understand it of course this chapter has a lot of lot of in it and you know it's not that no one disagrees with the AL but he is a place in his own right so I'm not worried about that but what what we take away from from this chapter here is that that you have to to go into chuva with Chua you know because you know we're not perfect we have a past we have baggage everyone and a true sh is worried is concerned you want you want those stains to be removed now the question is why because you're afraid they're going to give you a Schmitz a smack a patch that's a very very uh as we would say in Yesa a very Mish attitude a very muser attitude now I want to I want to say for the record not to belittle a a real wants his neish to be pure and and nice and beautiful F and be returned to Hashem the way Hashem gave it to us but the question is the attitude the attitude is in other words is it my selfish is it my my ego that needs it or is this what God wants that's the difference CH is I want to be Hashem you gave me my soul so it's yours I want to have that connection to have that connection I need to have need to be clean otherwise a stain right you come into you come into a respectable person's office you come into your office whether it be is's a doctor meeting with people you want to have a pleasant smell you want to have pleasant Quorum you you you want you know you people come sometimes to a professional and you know and it's not that way and it's it it it it says something so if you're doing it because it's your you know you want to be on the charts and you want to be listed as the 10 most best doctors in your field and you want to have G and ego from it and it concerns you that's Tru a CH but TR says at the end here we're looking for CH TR Falls in line with his whole theme of of of because remember it's about creating the bond the Caba soil versus the pra soil and I think that's uh something that we could think about and learn about and tomorrow we will start chapter 2 yes Yi don't hear you Yi don't hear you don't hear you not working okay tomorrow you you'll ask Z is it because of me can someone no okay have a great day everyone