Tanya Igeres haTeshuva 1c- Why does G-d make one suffer? Clean Soul- RC Dalfin

so we're continuing to get Chua we're still on page 180 the AL here really gives us an insight into Chua and he changes our Paradigm how to think about Shuba he changes our Paradigm how to think about what a MIT say is what a MIT is you know when you learn these things and I'm learning it with you you know more be I say more not you know top level IUN because means you know analytical and deep and very detailed there is the re's explanations on the get Chua that are very lengthy after the Reb's mother passed away in rebbit the Reb dedicated months upon months in explaining a gachua and they printed a a a small booklet just of aach Chua not the not not the other sections of Tanya and the had it in the back of a sitter when the re came into a faan he always brought his sitter with him when he came to DAV of course he had a sitter but even at of faan why did he need a sitter out of faan do you guys know because when it was time to finish the fa and to make an after blessing he would open up a sitter and read from the sitter the after blessing and he was teaching us that this who for sure Knew by heart the the and you look inside the S you know these are things that I grew up with these are things that I saw and without you know anyone making a big deal about them you know he just asked the question why does he need a sitter because a ye do from a sitter even theab doav from a sitter so in the back of that sitter for months he had this cess of aach Chua which he expounded every fa almost every fa at great great length so some of the commentary that I'm I'm sharing with you is based on that but there's much more I'm just giving you the full gamut that in case you do want to explore it you should know it's available and it's it's it's amazing because as you know from learning Tanya even though Tanya is considered the mo the the magnum opus of but it's still brevity compared to other later writings ofus of let's say the Reber rashab the fifth Reber of shom be everything begins in Tanya so for example in chapter 48 and 49 when we speak about or chapter 20 42 he mentions it he just mentions it it doesn't really it gives maybe a line or two you look into his writings of the bat Pages upon Pages upon Pages where he elaborates on the ideas but it all begins from the fundamental safer the Bible of and the same is true here with chuva CH is the gor particular we spoke about yesterday which speaks all about y the day yipper then you go to the r r has H CH and you have all the other commentaries on cha and finally you come to the and you have about Chua there and then comes along and he writes his own Treatise called and as I explained in the past classes that he did this seemingly because in other words let me just one more in other words is is not teaching you you want to learn open the ra this is this not this is not why in his book of does he include a full section of Chua you have to ask yourself that question right 12 chapters on Chua the answer is since his theme is to perfect ourselves to better ourselves I.E to become potential B you need to do chuva and you need to know what chuva is and not convince yourself that you're doing chuva when you're really not doing chuva you know what you're doing you're pushing your own horn you know the previous Reba would say in the name of his ancestor I think the second rebba that be I've seen a Yara what's a Yara a Yara an evil inclination wants you to do evil and bad to rebel against God that we know how it looks and it feels all of us right but I've never seen you SE what is a what is a oh you know you know what a is second I know you know not because you are convinces himself that through his beard and pis and STL and white shirt and whatever else he's doing he's a holy guy he's better than others that's that's AAR comes in different forms and the said that asov was a hunter a murderer we know what a murderer is boy do we know now right but October 7th but he said I never saw an asov dressed in a stral with a Becka shirt when you learn this section in the G Chua we will wake up and start realizing more about our own yes iser forget it may not slay people with a bow and arrow but he can do it with his words and the previous reab says he can do it with his nose he talking you're talking about someone with a friend and you're and you're talking beautifully and lording the person and the person your friend looks at you goes doesn't say word you killed them you killed them more than stabbing him just with the movement of the nose the previous says that so there's so when you learn this Tanya this section of Tanya it's relevant to the ban it's relevant to to improving ourselves okay we're up to now the part where the AL talks about the the um the third section of the Brer in Yuma that's P I believe where the the Bry says there for MIT say if you didn't do what you're supposed to you need to do CH and then you're pardoned if you desecrated a l don't do something and you did it Tru is not adequate you need to wait for yipper and do Chua Vis yipper in addition to chuva you need the day of Y Kipper for atonement for lessi for violating lessi and today we're going to learn about the third category but I so I want you to please look inside page 180 it's eight lines or so eight nine lines from the bottom one line before there's a dot it says this is just continuing finishing yesterday's thought which we didn't learn inside I want to say it now I I I I spoke this out orally one should not derive any lency God forbid regarding the the the doing of positive Commandments and specifically regarding talo and I think I don't know if it was is or someone else or maybe H one of you guys asked whether the kazal that if you if you miss this man if you miss kishma it's it's considered a transgression you cannot correct so one of you asked if that applies to every MIT say so again I discussed that with some people and the answer is yes and the kazal have another phrase which supports it you're supposed to to bring a carbon the Torah says bring a carbon for one night and one day what if the night and the day pass the Kaz say it time has passed bot the carbon is a old too bad because what you needed to bring down viav the carbon you missed that opportunity you could bring another carbon and get and do another bringing down growing down of energy and life but this carbon you missed so although theal expressed their severe language refers to missing it also applies to other MIT but I want to go back to the text I just wanted to answer that question on the contrary listen to this Hashem V you know V means V means he gave allowance for the prohibition of idolatry if you worshiped an idol Hashem says there's a way of doing chuva and I'm allowing you to to make it up although idolatry is amongst the Mitzvah the negative Commandments which isn't isn't just you you need a tick him the punishment of which isus exision the for the four M bzden the four death sentences attributed by by the B given by the B say that when it comes to idolatry although normally that should be the punishment velv right but V they found a way an allowance where you could Shape Up make it up do chuva and you won't get those punishment but theow V look at this they didn't make allowance Al you hear that why if you ask someone AB if you ask study of Torah I think AB you met you maybe you're the one who asked that question the study of Torah every moment right right I it's one of the three mitzah that are possible that's right that's Del I brought in chapter one of Tanya nevertheless the opportunity of what was supposed to be drawn down to the world in the world through your learning of T you missed it one moment two moments three moments whatever it is that moment is gone and K say that's not from y That's from kazal the sages they didn't give allowance the question is why why for idolatry could you imagine bowing down to a Buddha if you know what a Buddha is and you know what you're doing not if you were a a lost soul and you ended up in you know in in in in in in India and you bow down to Buddhas and you really don't know what you're doing you ain't getting punished you're talking about someone who knows what idolatry is and knows what a Buddha is and knows what they're doing and they want to engage they engage in that activity that's by the way I'm not saying that even that if you even if you didn't know there's no level of Chua there is but we're talking about in this context right because Al says not say a stain was made even if you don't know what you're really doing the fact is the Act was done and since the ACT was done a stain was created a blemish was created that need you need to do tra for that you need to be you need to be talking that and there are ways of beinging that for example theb writes in his letters to people who say they missed let's say a day putting on so theb tells them to learn and to encourage other people to put on as a ticken for their own missing no so you so let's say let's say you realize oh when I was 17 I didn't put on filling and you want to be Mak in that you can how go out and put on and by you bringing the MIT ofin to others including to 17y olds that's a ticket for your own 70-year-old missing fill that idea right so for for gave an allowance but when it comes to that's a very puzzling statement and a very harsh statement but based on what the AL is teaching us over here on the first page of it makes sense and the rule is the issue is those were his words earlier the energy the light is lacking T so we have to remember I want to repeat this because this is the the essence of the point here the the difference between tick and or drawing down light light the Mitzvah no tick can create that energy that light that needed to be done through the Mitzvah the Chu that the AL that that the M says for for for for not doing the MIT say you need to do Chua he pointed out to us in the P that's for the Rebellion part in other words when not doing the or violating the Lo and and and even the third part of that has of BZ there's a common theme called Rebellion I rebelled for that you need to do tra for that for that you need to do chva please mute yourself I beg you please for that you need to do truva for that you need to truth so remember there's three in the here there's the when we do a mix I say we draw down energy that particular Mitzvah at that particular time for that there's no makeup either you do it or you don't it's either either you got it or you missed that opportunity the fact that tomorrow not fill it's another day it's another brownie point but yesterday's brownie point you missed and bar was asking me about that yesterday B asked the question good question ain't right there's nothing that stands in the way of chuva how do you reconcile the to so I explained based on what it says here the is regarding the Rebellion that you rebelled against hem that you didn't put on today but does not draw down the light the light was missed the energy is didn't come then there is the second category of there you need TI and today we're going to learn now regarding the third category mentioned in Yuma we're here you need kapara let's look inside to see what kapar is girdle yourself up and hold strong cuz it's a tough tough part of the Bryson okay but we're all men m so we can do it let's do it let's go further what if a person desecrated Al one that the punishment of which is exision C is B and the death sentence given by basin like a and other things over there CH doing CH and the second aspect of celebrating yipper doing yipper toing they keep you hanging in other words you you're you're kind of out of all you know negativity you did Chua you did your own Kipper but you still are not scot-free that's the idea of hanging to punishment that God gives a person suffering let's say suffering Mar cleanses away that sin and you're clean pretty tough in other words just take it a face value it face value and by the way sometimes NE you hear a person who's suffering you know and he wants to already die because he's suffering so hard his body is suffering from illness and right I've heard about people some of which I knew they accepted and they said I needed to go through suffering cleanses and of course those the says in quoted in chapter 26 in t those that accepted accept that it's it's like the sun coming out they're on a very high level but here in the mishna in yum here in the Miss yum M the Miss Yuma talks about not just to sikim I want to make that clear here the M was talking about to every single person that if a person desecrated a certain negative Commandment that it's punish that it's its punishment is who Mrs bezin the only way to get out of that trap is through go and it doesn't mean suffering that you bring upon yourself you put your your feet into hot water to burn your you know your your feet you want to to do such stick we called that in Yesa we used to call that like in other words cut it out or I'm going to roll in snow or put honey on me so bees can bite me you know or go into a store and humiliate myself when you go into a grocery you say do you sell nails and screws the guy looks at you are you out of your mind and why did they do that to humiliate yourself that we called in Yeshiva excuse the expression meaning stupidity of of of those who think that they'll become closer to God through humiliating themselves you don't need to you don't need to do those type of stick to be humiliated just realize how low you are how great you could be and how insignificant your your there is and how much more there is and you should be humbled and broken and frustrated and go further but anyway look now the parentheses p what does it mean now the p is not from the Mish the the P is from the AL very important words suffering that cleanses is G om it's the end the conclusion of the kapar it's not that hey God do me a favor give me a few uh patch give me a few lashes and I'll take the lashes and I'll you know feel uncomfortable and then I'm scotf free no no no no no you have to do Chua number one you have to go through yum Kipper number two and to have the final atonement for the AA that you did that that that brought that that would bring aboutus who Miss that's addition here now the question is how does the AL know that so the AL himself says the word cap again in English we translate it right what do we translate the word kapar Yer forgiveness says it has another meaning which is washing out cleansing out rinsing out you have to cleanse yourish K doesn't only mean atonement and forgiveness foress the word Kap alludes to what needs to be cleansed the let me just read the rest of this parth is from the term rinsing it rinses out the dirt of the of the sin that's on your neish and this is important to talk about for a a few minutes when we do an AA you know Yi was trained in classical yes you know you do basically you did a sin Hashem says don't do it and you did it and that's true the B C added a deeper insight into what a sin is and the AL explained it at Great length through through the system ofab and what is that that a means comes from another word missing it doesn't just mean a sin it means lacking missing when you do a sin when you do a AA you're lacking a bond you're missing a bond that you had with Hashem and now it you removed it from yourself and you're missing that Bond says the AL for certain sins you need kapar to be to be to conclude the chuva and the Yer why because you need to restore your soul the nefes the soul is the driving force where everything comes from the neish and when you when you do a sin you've dislodged the neish the neish who who is used to being wholesome right on the sh what have you done you have dislodged it and and you've and you've brought the neish into a place which is very uncomfortable for itself that's why what is the yeah what is the other word for sin for hate a right when we were kids right why you doing an a the word a was used in in the Yeshiva World at the time probably today as well and at home no one said did you do a we didn't use that word did you do an AA why you doing an a right I'm sure you heard that in Yesa as a boy on a what does the word AA mean so we translated what h a AA means sin wrong that's not the meaning of the word is what's the meaning of the word a to trans to pass over transf what transfer transgress to trans transgress where you trans you're moving the energy from the soul from the neish from its place elsewhere you're going from In classical H gar shabas you transfer an object from from this from the private domain to the public domain that's what happens when you doing a the energy of AEM as it's lodged in your neish is supposed to be in this area of Kad and You by doing an AA transfer it over to kipa to negativity that's a problem what is the answer for these type of aus only for these here you must have a process in which it's going to return and bring back your Nish to its proper place and because you put upon yourself Visa this this type of an AA such a big schutz he like I told you yesterday here it's not enough just to put it in your in your washing machine you need to go to a commercial place and if that's not enough you have to go to a Kil and right using a metaphor using a parable an example so this is a heavy stain a damaging stain and one that is sitting on your soul sitting in your soul and you want to get rid of it this is what says in the Mish let me just read the last line as it says I will remember you how with the rod shave it P P for sins and plagues because of their sins next page top of and we finish here today this is the conclusion of the in Yuma and what does it say The Who says God Hashem I will remember you by giving you these plagues and Rob for this type of a city now it's important to always end on a positive note so I don't want to end it with the year today till next Monday because I know that you won't be able to sleep the next four days you'll be very concerned about this issue so I want I want I want you to have shabus I want you to be able to rest andjoy so therefore we need to end with something positive and what is that and that is is that when you learn this mishna this Bryson and you conclude it with this severe uh you know antidote and it's it's heavy it's Troublesome it's uncomfortable so a Believer a a ye who's a m a Believer knows that it's for their best and it's important to to know what classical traditional yish K is you know and mus and and today we live in this world where anyone says whatever they want you know that's all good for uh you know Pastime you know instead of drinking a beer at the seven at seventh inning stretch we we'll engage in that activity but for us who are students of TAA and and and and people who are learning and have families it's important to understand that this is classical yish kite this is tradition and why is that yeah you have to believe what do you have to believe that you got you got to be you're held accountable this isn't just like you do whatever you want and it's important to know that the previous Reb writes in a mimer that if bringing to mind such things will prevent you from doing such sins it's all worth it that's not theic way that's not you know the elevated way you shouldn't not be doing a sin you shouldn't be sinning because you might get hit with a rod or burn or or or have to go through suffering but say you can't hold yourself back and you say to yourself hey I don't want to suffer and I believe in Tyra and because of that you prevent yourself from doing that particular sin that you know the the sages say suffering will be needed and you stop yourself from doing it says the previous even though it's it's not genuine go for it but the bottom line is not doing breaking God's will simultaneously this idea that he mentioned so briefly so briefly the word over here remember Hashem entrusted us Hashem entrusted us with a neish a and we want to have a clean we want to have a happy Nish so before you engage before we engage in ask yourself is it worth it is it worth it the pristine soul that God gave me that can do so much and helps me so much why do I want to take that and put it into excuse the expression but it's the Al's expression I think chapter 46 in a toilet bowl that's what Al says in chapter 46 if you forgot he said it's like taking the head of a king and stuffing it into a toilet why do you want to do that the answer is if I'm cant no I don't want to do that oh you're not cant you need a wake up call say go to learn a mimer talk to a and then you wake up you'll wake up last night I had to tear myself away from a faan at 1 1:00 in the morning a Jew from kabad was here for a Sim and he grew up in communist Russia and chernovitz his name is Rabbi vetki I think he has a a son in in in Europe as well if you listened and heard his story what he was sharing today's generation and the room was full of young not Laur there were some laes but mostly you know the bar Park crowd them and they were sitting there like this they couldn't believe what they're hearing and he knew the ribit and he told over stories that he saw as a boy with the ribb I'll tell you one story I'm like my head is still spinning one day ribnitz was they they were in chernovitz chit is not far from chit the was a so he would come I think once a month or once a week I forget maybe once a month to chitz and when he came he stayed with the there and those vet's father he he was cuz he knew that these people were very you know religious and fr and honest one day he says he'd like to go to the Haler R's C rer the rer and he's buried in sadur sadur right the sad re and movement Yan s but he's buried okay and this person M he was a little boy 10 12 14 it was a young young boy and he he he went along with his brothers his father was sitting in jail at the time in lenrad in Petersburg in the same jail that the previous Reb sat known as the so his father wasn't around he sat 6 years there at M foot of us sat nine years not just there but other places too he was sent for hard labor in Siberia anyway so the a few of the adults of the labers AC they came to to sadur it was in the winter full of snow no one knows where the Cav is no one know cuz the Nazis this is this is 1952 50 52 53 those years Nazis had bombed everything no no Stones were standing everything and everything is now covered with snow a go they met a go there and go said oh thead the tadik you want to go to the tadik he shows them the place but he doesn't know where the Cav is cuz it's covered with snow the starts going around like this the areir he stops and he says here is the Cav he told me he saw this with his own eyes he told us he told 100 people yesterday in Shu last night this story he lays down on the snow his hand and feet stretched out and he starts sobbing and crying and and he gets up and he lays down again again sobbing and crying gets up and then lays down a third time and these labes never saw such a thing kabad we don't do that and and and like and when he gets up he says to the children to vety and his brothers I didn't know your father I don't know your father so I can't help him in other words they wanted a br that he should get out get out of jail and survive and he said he couldn't do that but he says you children you know your father pray here at the sadik's C now I'm asking you and there's more and more but you know so on one end you'll say well this is the ret re was he was a BAL he was a miracle maker and that's true but there's a lesson for us you know and what's the lesson for us that if you're genuine and you mean it and and and you're you're connected then you you you you you Hashem lets your nees come out that's what I'm getting at that the nees the soul the Jewish Soul the Jewish the wants to be pure it doesn't want to have the Schmutz on it when we do sin when we do have vus we're blocking it we're putting you know obstacles in its way why why why why do we want to do that it's ridiculous it's an obstacle course you know so everyone as we go into chabas and we conclude this section of get Chua we have to remember that the wants to be clean and the idea of K even the cap of suffering which cleanses is to bring back the neish to its pure State and and if a person knows listen to this that their time is up and they're returning to shmay you know what I'm saying and they know that they're going back with a clean neish they're going believe me they're going into heaven in in a very peaceful way and it and it brings them like rski says in his book you know when he was able to do uh not regression therapy uh hypnosis and he was able to bring back the cancer patient to the he the hypnotic state of when the boy when he was a child in in in Milwaukee and the Green Pastures or wherever else tski argued that for those the time that he wasn't the hypnotic State the pain of the cancer wasn't there that's what he that's what he said and that's what he wrote and I can understand it not from you know the therapeutic and medical way because I'm not in that field and don't know that field but based on what it says here in T and this idea that I'm sharing with you that when you when you come to a place that you know that your NE is is cleansed and pure that time the pain dissipates the pain you know it it might look painful you know and for us at the outside it's very painful I remember my own father-in-law was passing on that last half hour of his life you know the heart was it was failing was you know a half hour hour of of pain it's very hard to to see it's very hard to be around but a person who's living in that reality and the reality is my neish is pure I'm going back with a pure neish Hashem gave me a pure Soul un wrinkled unstained unsoiled and I'm bringing it back to Hashem it it's it's not an issue the main thing is we should live in a body which we'll talk about in one of the next J how the AL here does another 180 degree um positioning of his concept for the purpose of bringing out that there is chuva and there's complete chuva and he begins with complete chuva because he wants us to know that chuva can be complete and that every person has the ability to experience complete chuva not just partial chuva but complete chuva have a great chabas everyone with everyone mon love you all take care byebye