Tanya #30 Why are Baalei Teshuva greater than Tzaddikim - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

so today we continue learning uh Patrick Zion and yesterday we had a very important discussion which will sure have everlasting uh results and impact on ourselves and others regarding the regarding the way we we understand ourselves understand the world we live in and understand the the richness of Yiddish kite of Taira because the richness of theta is not and this is what I concluded with yesterday and I start with today is not to think that where someone so much better and special and it's not shyaked to me it's not applicable to me that is a fallacy and for so many years and became an apostate the at the end of his life what does that show it shows that a person shouldn't trust in themselves without trusting in hakodesh Ballroom and this has been constantly proven it's not it's not a novelty but this is part of what we were learning yesterday especially in our discussion and talking about the issues of elevating elevating um goshmias all kinds of material matter and situations you have to be on guard you don't have to be uh a muser a musernik to say that you could be a hasid and you have to know the reality it's important to know that it's important to know that hasidus doesn't mean that you throw away the um technicalities and nuances of Jewish law on the contrary I heard from venerable how these were the baby chicks in them but I heard from them how they were so meticulous about this issue that we discussed yesterday but even as single be before you're married not to not to have improper thoughts and to work on averting your your mind from such thoughts surely not to look at things that are that was a big avoid now go say that the Chabad boys and girls today you know they'll laugh at you I'm talking about probably a majority really we're concerned about the sea teams and see kids and thrilling and it's all very important indeed it is as we discussed the other day what about the avoid the panemias one's own inner Africa you know the river at the end of the first moment that he said which we look see as kind of the mission for the generation okay that my boss legani 1951 and if you if you learn and listen to the rapper's words and it's online you can listen to it the rapper says we need to leave our Godless which we discussed before mashia should come and we should get be finished with this Exile and then the rabbit threw in a few small words you know that some people had need to take the wax out of their ears to hear it but he said it said the goal is happening those are the rabbit's words The galot Happening the inner goals you know if you don't take out the goal of sapnimi you can have all the revelations and all the manifestations and all the Fascinations and you can be totally unmoved so see them took these ideas of the altarebe here in a very serious way in a very very serious way now the difference between acciderman was that see them celebrated it with a simcha and and and and the more litfish waves not the way was to be more far crashed you know more what's the word you know you know more tense about it more tense more tense you know it's like I I I I I I I I thought about something inappropriate I saw something appropriate am I gonna burn a vague that's it you know I so see them also realized that I saw something was folks something not properly and all that but what can we do about it with simcha and we go on and and and and we're gonna do a juvenile and I pointed out to you the altered episode the bottom of page 22 yes I said yes what does it mean a person should return it means you have to do sugar if you don't do true verb guess what you're still a la Fusion mercavo you're still a garment and a chariot for clipper now one way instead of doing truth is saying oh and this and this day on March 15 1975 I was at a protest at Evanston University or at Columbia or at Brooklyn or Berkeley and um I was smoking dope and hanging out girls and doing terrible things that's not the type of Truth we're talking about because you don't have to uh enumerate you know this particular detail of your sin this particular detail when you do a close Decatur a paradigm shift as it says the Paradigm Shift of destitution the nonsense that I did in the past and every one of us I won't do again because that's not who I am that that wipes it all away but that has to be done that has to be done if not it's just adding adding adding up a building on a foundation that is very slippery and can crush and fall and this is a balance you know and I'm sure different teachers and rabbis and movements have different approaches to this issue but I would think that overall the the especially the message of Sid this in particular and it says here and Tanya you learn Tanya and if you conclude to Tanya that to to do chewable for a Vegas for your transgressions is an important you got to re learn the safer you haven't learned that you don't know what you're talking about at the same time to to to say oh it's terrible and I'm a lost cause you're also making the same exact mistake either extreme is wrong and when you learn the Tanya it guides you and gives you a Derek like the rambam writes in Hillcrest day it's a balanced way to be a to be uh to be happy to be excited and to deal with the issues to deal with so let's continue now Patriot base fourth fifth line three words from the end machine came in my holoca students conversely when we're dealing with prohibited Foods things that are forbidden that are not kosher and prohibited relationships bills means relationships sexual nature Michelle is Clippers at the maze legomni they come and and and and and and and our symbol of the three complete negative Clippers they are forbidden and bound remember we learned yesterday the word Usher means for Usher from it's bound connected to who be there could sign him to the hands of the extraneous forces I.E the Clippers Lee ilum for eternity and we cannot Elevate them you know who can look next on they don't ascend from their place of and death will be absorbed they'll be swallowed for eternity commission cursive as the verse says the spirit of contamination I will I will get rid of from the from the from the Earth so at that time Hashem when mashiach comes we'll do us a big favor is Sir he'll get rid of the tumor Ori there is another way how we can get rid of doing hardcore sins that are connected to the shoulders foreign that intentional transgressions sins become because of this intense juvenile is like merits like mitzvahs in actuality what type of is this is what a chuva coming from the great intense love you have for Hashem from the depth of your heart now he's going to give us adjectives to express this truth or this love and a desire and A Soulful thirst longing with someone he adds even a fourth adjective with some obnoxious and his soul is thirsty La Hashem to be with God as though he finds himself in a tired in a land in a tired land with Shia and in a in a land where there is no water like in a desert and from there he says I am thirsty give me give me God I want you since what's the reason why now why is it that this type of true for me ever is powerful enough to erase completely sins hardcore sins gives us a logical reason is Sir it starts since until this moment my soul was in a place of thirst and death sin is death for a Jew and that's where I found myself I did a hardcore sit es this is the other side of holiness and which is so far and distant from the continents of Hashem to the ultimate degree so sins that's where I was Village ice therefore now that I realize there is a God and all that somehow enough not sure but yes it is the person's soul is so much more thirsty foreign the place are standing are at can't stand over there so here before we go further we have a very very important concept that I'm introduces here it's really it's really a fascinating concept okay let's let's go back you look into the Gamora before see this the mother says if you did sins bishek this is the chuva accidentally this is the children you did since been amazing you did intentional sins the gamara says the Juve is and if you don't and if you only do true in other words God the bridge is crumbling the hurricane is coming the the race the war is coming um I'll do whatever it is I'll give you everything I have I'm all yours that's true for me here that's not true for me album that's true for out of fear what's trooping me Apple simply Super Mario is I love you I love you Hashem I'm not it has nothing to do with what you're going to do for me and not do for me I love you and a very rudimentary level two for me Apple when a year the mother says the mother and Yuma Mission you might believe the Mr says when you do True For Me Abba even your sins that you did intentionally you know exactly what you're doing not like most balichuva that didn't know what they're doing because they weren't educated we're talking about people who knew what Shabbos is in the new what causes and they said I don't care anymore I don't believe in this stuff and they broke Shoppers and they ate today and all that right so let's just for a moment I want to make it clear we're not talking about most people over our history who didn't know you know just because you said I went to a town of Torah and I know no no that's not called no ink yeah I go play soccer I know I go and play football I know you really know the Maneuvers that the the coaches and the players do and they in their practice and then on the field you have no idea we watch a football game we go to a game right we see them looking and talking what's going on but I know I know that they know so when someone says I went to commentora and my teacher taught me about Sabbath and about Shabbos and about this that's called knowing that's called a a superficial idea that that you heard of Shabbos you don't really know so when we talk about doing a sin knowing god like he knows his master um and he intends on rebelling against him okay that's an exception there are such situations foreign such sins that you know you're you knew better and you truly know the power of true for Miyavi is it can atone for that and not only for atone for it to be considered like a show gig an accidental sin NASA like it becomes like merits like Mitzvahs wow now what's the logic that's a kazow but what is the logic that you ever ask yourself I'm not the first one to teach you this you've learned this many times over the years gives us a logic I'm not saying there aren't others ideas but here he says and that's why I'm speaking about it at length now terebus says you know why you get this extra credit gift from God that your intentional sins become like mistress it's because you're coming from a place of pain you come to a place of thirst and when a ye when God sees that a yeet comes from a place of pain and thirst and from there from there he does chuva Hashem says that's the highest that's the best and all this stuff he came and all these rabbis and all these students who grew up ffbs and all that it's very very nice but it doesn't have that virtue now it doesn't mean they can't attain that without doing a sin that's another discussion how does a ffb a from from birth attack how does he get the mile of chuva we have to discuss that at another time but what we understand is that the quality of chupa when you're coming from a place of Sia with Sal Marvis pain agony and you understand I wasted I wasted my life and I did some stupid things and and and from there you say I don't want it anymore and I want only you God because I love you and now I understand how precious you are what an assume is and what I am Hashem says if that's the case then then listen to this now then your Aveda your intentional sin is a trigger for the highest form of love for God and that's why you credited yes you understand this is what it says what I'm telling you now that's why you're credited that a intentional sin is considered like a mitzvah because when you do a Mitzvah right it's when you do a regular mitzvah you love Hashem you do the Mitzvah right when you do this true verb what's triggering you to do the truth or the sin is tricking you to do this but the pain is written that means that that the the pain becomes the stepping stone for the highest form of truva and that's why it's considered a mitzvah and this is a in a way it's an oxymoron it makes no sense sin should be the impetus for the greatest trueva for tuba Me Abba but that's exactly what we're saying so now someone might ask a question an obvious question okay so let me send hahaha let me sin if don't have this value and virtue of and only Bali chuba too I want to be about Cuba to be about sugar I got to do a good good sin a good good you know let me go out today and do a good sin and by the way there are people over the centuries who thought that way convincing themselves they're doing it for the cause for the global Jewish world and they're based it on a is Pincus and I've already written and explained that that is ridiculous because you have to be an Elizabeth to live that reality and if you're not an Israel satanic but you have a lust for women and Allah and a Lust For ego and all of that you're no Israel so what you're what you are convincing yourself and concocting is all you that's not what we're talking let's do some stupidity that's simply a person who's misguided but for the average person with the Elton saying here is this is a to me this is such a opportunistic reality for every need to be you know in other words embrace your sin embrace your past not reject your past how do I embrace it by doing truth so you say to yourself why let me ask you something sitting there in your room you're thinking I'm 50 or 60 years old whatever why why did God not make me know what I know now why did it take me you know 20 years 30 years why for the same matter he could have woke me up earlier what's one of the answers one of the answers God knows exactly what he wants and he and he says your soul your nashama is going to get a gift a gift you don't kind of gift that for some reason for some time you go through that period and now he says Ah you now do chuva and you'll be even greater and higher and anything else and everyone else to go and begin with say I want this recipe in this course of action you're not allowed to you're not allowed to but once High Hashem plans it that way and makes it happen that way together with your free will and everything else that's the situation on the ground so to ask why did Hashem make it that way first of all sometimes you could you could you can see you can really reflect back and understand today I am who I am and the family I have and and everything that I'm doing for you this guide came sometimes you could say because I went through this and and that's what the outer lab is saying here he's saying that look at the words I want you to see the words because this I'm not making this up he says he's like this is until now I've been this this place of death and thirst Village that word losise is key and therefore [Music] foreign even a sin of of biosaurus you know what that was saying it's amazing forbidden relationships biosaurus which average kid the college campus didn't have BSN service come on gotta be kidding okay says we'll wipe it out that's what he says and if you think trivia means I have to be a flute and tooting that they may have shot him in a corner in in his shoe no you come to a point where what I did is wrong I don't want to be there and I realized the mistake and I love you Hashem for giving me the opportunity that's trooping me out now there's levels of Troopa miyaba but yes I don't know if it's an exact same question maybe it is a question it's interesting I um one of the things that I think about sometimes is that um in our family so why did why did the Curtis broccoli make it let's say like why was I the one of my siblings to make the decision to learn more about you districts I'm going to embrace my guitar too too yeah my siblings were raised in the same home you know who in one case like you know one of them is only 15 months younger than me and I ask all the time why what why I mean when I look and I look on the horizon line as far as I can see in my family I can't find another I know I can't find another from relative and it's uh you mean like in the left you mean like in the last hundred years or so yeah correct correct uh because uh I don't think about it I I think about a lot to say that why why me why why why me what why not why not my siblings why not you know so I'm sure just yeah so I I I hear you and and in Kabbalah it it speaks a little bit about this idea of nourishing from the AIDS of that it's a high and and their soul issues I think I told you once there's a discussion in the arizal about siblings this is it exactly what you're talking about and over there the Carrillo speaks about the concept of sibling rivalry and he says you know why the sibling rivalry because each is trying to nourish from the same branch so each is trying to slap more highest if you if you extend that concept I think again possibly possibly you know can't say for sure because these are capitalistic mystical realities kabbalistically there's also such a thing that one sibling got more of the eight Sacrament than the other and that's why that sibling will become the from one of the from you know they're the one that stands out more but I want to tell you that the river shop and the Philadelphia and my father always repeats it because my father comes from a vision it's home and he ended up in Lubavitch and Chabad as a 13 year old boy and there's this role and the Yeshiva looked and he always says that the Deborah shop said whoever ends up learning and tell him and I and I would extend that whoever becomes a laborator it has to do within the shama it's a big Swiss it's not something you know you know it's not something you can say oh I know why again at times you could say I know why I'm not saying it's impossible so when you ask yourself that question Misha then a shop says it's a source it's a school stick you understand my hands when you look into Kabbalah and talks about the Russian food and all that but you know because it wasn't the approach of The Liberation and other Sadi came even to to go in this uh uh you know why we that's not yes if you want to explore we have spotted but you have to explore and you have to come to you understand I'm not so I don't I'm not poo pooing you know these mystical ideas and and responses but that has to come from a person so if you were to sit down and learn how these out and you're and then oh you say wow hmm and you and you feel that this is talking to you come on come on you know what I'm saying did say that it's a source that you ended up in the Bible Yeshiva and my father always says that because rationally my his my ancestors his ancestors are like 200 years business where's he coming to the public to see this well the answer is he wasn't he was he met a whole story he met the the nation but they broke out because he made an announcement for someone in the mabarat in the camps in the Tanya and he spoke in the Romanian and the guy didn't know Romanian he asked my father for do me a favor and after my father speaks in Romanian to them it makes an announcement he says what can I do for you so he says the malama told them in the Romania that when it comes there to Israel we should go to Yeshiva which and he also wants to see a navi because he learned entertain about another so the guy tells him you want to see enough and you want to go to Yeshiva go to somewhere benebra he ends up coming to the neighborhood knocks on the door because and the guy says little boy get out of here before I break your bones you're out of your mind and he says no no no no really I was told as a a navi here and and the guy you know says I'm telling you you're gonna get pets for me and the a third time and then he says okay I'll agree to ask the the because the person the person who you say is enough whether he'll see you and my father says no no no no now my father starts telling him what to do and he says to him when you only talk to him and say my father says Aaron Dalton that's my father's first name is here from Romania and he wants to see you so he says okay I promise I'll go back and tell him that and he goes in and tells him I don't doubt him for Romania is here and the haza says let him come in after three attempts and being threatened by the God by the shamish comes in in a case he doesn't say you know here's the navi I saw the Navi on and on and the rest is history the rest of the story I'll tell you another time because I have another sheer now but the point is it's from heaven have a have a great day we'll see everyone tomorrow Shalom bye good day