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Tanya #12 LSD, Alcohol and G-dly Soul - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin
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So today we're learning today uh the
second chapter of Tanya on page of Pedic
base
so
introduced to us the nephe chabamis
okay the the the the what we call the
animal Drive the animal soul that every
single Jew has
where it comes from what its Tendencies
are and things like that
but he
he owes us now he owes us nothing but he
said that
rights
that every Yeet has in the name of the
Ariza Spanish two Souls
the Netflix of the kiss so now pay the
base this is the chapter in Tanya which
introduces and teaches us about the
nephe Hashem is the nephish how they
kiss and let's see what he says painting
base
Royal in the second soul that a Jew has
it's a part of God from above
truly it's truly a part of God this is
job
this isn't the altered it's a posse in
Tanakh but the altarebe is the word and
and when I say ads if you look into this
which I think Hillel has used in
learning Tanya and others they give you
the source that in different
in simply cabola
there's also the language there mamish
but the the phrase the way it comes out
here in Tanya that I believe is unique
to the altered in other words
in that exact sentence I I think is the
altered
um own original way of putting it what
does mamish mean
so mamish means
literal actual truly
and the question is what is
that this the shama they never shall
they kissed that every Yeet has
is is truly part of God of course
what I would think it's not part of God
you're telling me it's
a part of God godliness
within us
so what does the word mama said it's
it's it seems superfluous
so the the Babbage should obey him in
the my mother and siddis explain and
that have been particular
explained that the word mamish comes
with the word Mama shoot
Mama should be as you can feel
tangibility it's tangible
and the altariba starts off the chapter
right from the beginning
from GetGo he tells you he should know
this nishama that we have
it's not some kind of spiritual entity
that we have
and that's what it and that's where it
remains no
In classical Jewish literature if you
think about Soul energy
and
it is
novelty
is that this
becomes tangible
that's an awesome insight
it becomes my moshe's dick my mushes
dick is kind of a Yiddish play on the
word
mama's dick
what is my mushrooms dick means you can
touch it you can actually touch the soul
you can feel soul
and that that begs a question how can I
feel so
and I'm not talking about you know uh
Force
false um fantasies
without naming names of people who you
know thought they could touch the soul
and let others to believe that they
could touch the soul and it was a bunch
of knowledge guys because they lived
with with [ __ ] and and and they did
sins you can't touch the soul if you're
living with sin you're doing sins George
nanjew it doesn't work that way
it doesn't
now can God do anything God can do
anything if God wants the biggest sinner
to feel godliness as a an inspirational
thing he could do that but that's not
what we're talking about from our
perspective
if you're not in touch with God then you
don't live God's life and for a yeet
means a life of terror you're not
touching your soul you know you're
touching your own public
your puppet means your own belly button
your own yes your own Giver your own
taiva
and unfortunately we've had this and we
have to we have to we have to stop it
really
I'm into this portion now because I'm
researching someone and and a lot of
that and it's amazing how there's an
expression in Hebrew Yiddish did you
ever hear that expression Islam
Isla means the world Gala means a Dodo a
dummy right a Golem
I love Gala the world is a dummy
people are sold the bill of nonsense and
not not a Skype because the guy has a
beard or a big yabaker or payus or this
or that
you want to feel God mamish it doesn't
come from sleeping around it just
doesn't
sorry
and it doesn't come from taking LSD
either
it doesn't
it doesn't work
it's your it's you want to get high get
high but don't tell me it's God it's you
and your indulgences yes militia
you're not talking about the pain are
you
I would say the biggest part of it but
that's not what I'm talking about but
it's a part of it
okay well again if some if someone wants
a little lechayam to Daven talk it
better okay but to make an institution
and say like this the only way you could
stop and look how they didn't dance the
Friday night to the to the to the
Thriller is if you if you'll get
yourself sicker and sugar before that's
clipper
if a person
you know happens to like a drink no
problem it's his own individual thing
what I'm saying is the moments we're
talking about The Mamas
foreign
and you know and and some of us grew up
in that the 60s and the 70s and that
period where anything sold well any
Rabbi Any teacher I mean yesterday I was
I was looking at some videos of Timothy
Leary you know the LSD Guru of the 60s
60s it's amazing how a person who's so
intelligent I think it was a Harvard
Harvard Professor or you know
um and and the ilk of people
you know intelligent people
how they how they
sold their themselves and sold others to
believe that you could feel God
I would love to ask and see and I guess
I can't and if anyone any of you know
where I could I want to know what they
did when they had a trip I'd like to
know how many women how many women did
they live with when they were having a
trip
how much narrow strike did they do at
the time I'd love to know that is there
anything I'm available I'd love to see
it
you know
I know I don't know I mean there's
plenty of there's plenty of documentary
evidence of that whole era and uh and
the licentiousness of it and and so on
you know okay okay so I know I saw them
you know they all had Yates like
everyone has a yay Sahara but I saw them
and I saw them learn and I saw them cry
and I saw the way they were careful with
their eyes
you know that to me is a yeed that's
trying trying to feel dimamish
trying
he doesn't eat much he doesn't sleep
much he doesn't indulge much he gives
away of himself I I saw it I saw I lift
I lived it I'm not that I'm not that
young you know I didn't see people 150
200 years ago but I saw such a hidden
and I look at these others and it's like
a joke
it really is a joke it's all about self
and ego
this is not momish it's so far from
Amish
at the same time what is the alternative
saying here
that the nisham that Hashem gives every
Eid
if it cannot be experienced in my
moshood intangibility
you're still not in touch with your soul
and that's why it's so humbling when you
relearn painted base every year and
Tanya you say
like I told you a friend of mine has a
nice expression when's the last time
I've had a love affair with my nepheally
kiss
thank you
it's like when have I had this feeling
of love for necessarily kiss that I I
can't move without this necessary kiss
and and it's a great question and it
makes us think and it makes us humble
because
you gotta scratch your head
much to remember the last time you've
had an officially kiss experience and
that's without that is saying
that we should know the first thing we
have to know is that we have this
potential because if you don't and know
that you have the potential that not
only do you have an ashama but that your
nashama is mamish
then you and the nashama are apart and
you'll never be able to be a Godly
person a holy person a Jewish person
how that will develop and how that takes
place he continues later but right from
the outset of painting Bays I think it's
important to kind of stop and underline
that this these words with nephe Hashem
Israel he looked
which of these words here is the khidush
of the outer Reba in his Tanya in his
Chabad hasidis it's the word mamash
so first that's that's an important I
want you to think about as as we
continue yes Maisha
forgive me I'm sorry
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this kiddish admonishes I mean again now
going back to what you said before if I
would have heard
foreign father
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so I'm thinking about that yeah so I'm
asking myself still again what is the
mamish
no problem no problem when you put
filing on in the morning do you feel
Hashem in your tune putting on your arm
yes or no
mamash means that the the physical
tangible act of putting on filling on my
arm you feel like God is on your own
and that's the that's the that's without
saying that that's the that's what we
need to get to
otherwise it remains a spiritual idea so
you could learn pay the climate base and
you can and do everything else but if
it's you in your gosh means don't feel
God
you only understand it intellectually
and even if you have it in the heart but
you don't feel it in your arms and in
your feet and in your drawing and in
your medicine and everything else we're
doing
then we haven't yet experienced
means in the mama shoot in the goshness
and that's
by the way you came in a late Meister
but I don't know if you heard but the
helical is a possum Eve in job
scripturally wise
their concept the the all of all of of
is full of these Concepts
no no no no Maisha you need to hear the
beginning of this year okay okay I I
can't repeat it now you got to listen to
the beginning of this year is the
hiddish of the altareba the way phrases
it here even if you find the word
bombish into a certain Kabbalah safer
that you could see a safer she wouldn't
be safe in in see this move address I
believe believe he brings over the
source I forget now the name of the
safer he does bring a swords but the
phraseology here is unique let's
continue
commercial customs
yes
you know the universe
yes and that
three uh three Elemental level uh
letters
for the the
um and the shin and the Alice
uh are called the mother letters that
can give birth to all the other letters
and it says further there that the men
each one rules like one dimension and
the Alice
sort of
uh balances okay
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the world that existed before our world
and that the uh
that shattered into Shira said Caleb
and that uh
when uh when Hashem recreated the order
of creation and the the order of the
zeros that we have now
the
letters uh mentioned and Olive
became the foundation for the the the
Youth of the A and the bus but which
orders our world so it's like a an
underlying template so one of the things
I hear in the word mamish in some
element that sort of pre-exists the the
is a order and structure of our creation
and maybe of our being
okay but but what I was explaining was
just the opposite that mamish means that
Mama shoot not
not the the origin I mean you could say
that it's uh
uh uh the very sort of deepest tangible
levels of creation
um okay the deepest places that that the
human psych connect
yeah I I wanted to uh I wanted to speak
a little personally when you were
talking about LSD before you know I
think um you know I I have had some
experiences with psychedelic drugs and
some of which I highly value in my life
and some of which I'm I'm I'm uh I think
I look at very destructive the one thing
I value
is that that there is a sense
in the Psychedelic experiences that
you're sort of transported out of the
narrow world of our existence and the
narrow categories of our mind and you're
able to see sort of uh patterns of
connection and unity that are that are
beyond our normal what we can normally
grasp
and so they kind of changed the the
sense of what mama is available at
I think the problem
s and the way I look at it as an
addiction counselor is that you think
that the momentous of it is in the drug
rather than that that is that it's sort
of you have had an opportunity a
Transcendent moment to uh to see the
underlying momentous of existed okay uh
at another Point either public or
private I would love to continue
dialogue with you on this because and I
I I I it's very important for me to to
hear since you shared with us that you
personally had that that experience so
um you know it's just hard for me you
know and again I'm coming from my
background
Yeshiva you know uh sheltered the
background of course
um to to truly uh see that someone can
can can can
genuinely be more Godly by taking
um
a drug and for that matter alcohol you
know
um
it it feels to me and and believe me you
know in Yeshiva we had I had plenty of
time to to drink alcohol to say look I
am you know so I didn't have my LSD but
I had my luchaim and and at the end of
the day it's it's like it's not it's not
who I am it's it's in in um on the
outside uh
Force kind of creating a situation
and uh together with that we know Hazel
said
when you consume wine secret comes out
and the implication is
that the wine is a trigger to bring out
the true sight of person the true secret
of man
however
that gazal does not say
is who you are on the contrary it says
something from the outside is coming in
to you so if that's the same scenario in
in psychedelic drugs and things like
that
um then there is a parallel but even if
there is a
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position
okay okay okay okay okay
I think that when people get trapped in
drugs that they they sort of a spot uh
ascribe the power the mamashes to the
drug as opposed to right
it's how it sort of uh
had a fault for you to see things
differently right right okay okay there
is I have to find it but I I came across
a letter from the red but in the last
several years on one of the WhatsApp
groups or something like that that
ever wrote about this in English about
this idea
can we take you know these drug
producing experience to have experiences
uh would be something worthwhile to
maybe read together at some point so
when I get it maybe I'll share it with
everyone
yeah you know I certainly I
am effective on it yes yes
you know I also wanted to sort of honor
and acknowledge the Nuance of what
what you know what that
what that I did with
uh right I I I I I hear you moisha
it's just just chime and just say that
is fascinating because you know I know
that for for us for Purim
I've had some extremely meaningful
moments on Purim deep into the night
I'm talking about like at the Purim
student and then into it
I don't
we know unfortunately this in many cases
where you know people don't know how to
hold their alcohol and it's not just
they don't know how to hold their
alcohol but they're all scarf it's like
so you know completely the opposite of
what's supposed to be but at the same
time I myself have experienced many many
points of very very meaningful like
basically getting the point of for
bringing and really really
getting pretty deep in places that uh
during the rest of the year I'm not able
to access and and as I said earlier if
it leads to that and it's kosher and
holy
then you know that it's the right page
but if it leads to you know what Halo
mentioned before and things like that
then and it's true with with puramina if
someone you know gets intoxicated and
becomes vulgar and disgusting and and
and hits people it's wrong I'm sorry
it's not it's not Purim it's Clipper
okay it's nonsense so so
um it's a very fine line you know and
that's why I I I I I I I
uh I I said from the beginning I'd love
to kind of know because I wish I was
listening to Leary and others I would
love to know what did they do you know
they thought they took a cube of LSD
okay what happened I said some people
were looking at their fingernails for
seven hours what else happened
you know I wouldn't know what happened
you know
when I saw the swinging of men and women
you know that you know at uh what's it
called Woodstock and and things like
that you know it just seems to me it's
leaning and and you know on clothing
Etc it just seems to be leading 32 to a
place where it's uh not God and not
Tighter and not healthy you know what
I'm saying
um if but but if it's not that way and
someone can truly can truly tell me in
words in the right that
and another thing and that it lasts I
don't even Laugh In other words will you
coming out of the trip
will you be a better person a better
yeed with more love and more obviously
and and someone could say you know I
don't recognize him what happened oh he
had a trip yesterday and all of a sudden
he's a new person like it says in capola
by the way with the spiritual
impregnation Eber out that ever brings
it later in chapter 14 and Tanya
right so what's Igbo a spiritual
impregnation Hashem says Issa
you did something very special for me
I'm going to give you a present I'm
going to impregnate you with the show
soul of the balshev
for how long three hours
[Laughter]
three hours
and in those three hours
you say this is not the issue that I
know this is someone he's like a
belshantive
three hours go by the baby is out you
know you know you're no longer pregnant
that's it you know but during those
three hours what what what we see in you
and what did you see yourself something
very different so if that's an
experience that a person had when he
went on an LSD trip Etc psychedelic drug
script and all that okay we we could we
could talk about it again I'm not I'm
not making other decisions I'm just
saying we could we could talk about you
know the validity of such a thing but
but again we're totally off topic over
here but you know uh one second
eat what
I'm not saying you remember talking
about Woodstock right yes
I I don't believe I never heard that
before really your father was there and
he told you that okay
it was there and he said he didn't miss
he didn't miss a trailer that's right
okay that that's a good design that's a
as long as long as they weren't uh
inappropriate exposure of of of of
people when they made the minion
hopefully they they went to a side but
anyway
that we're learning here in Tanya
because it's a tarnish here
so in in a way in a way and I I
understand what a person like Salma
Schechter and Company they wanted to see
if they can experience
in in this experience I understand what
they wanted to do you know
the question is whether is that the only
way you can experience the mamish
and another question even if I
experience it under the influence of
psychological drugs or vodka or any
other you know addiction it's not who
you are
because when you go back to the basement
you go back to your business and you and
you know it's again you're confronted
with a taiva with the Indulgence with an
Assyrian
what happened what happened to the
experience what happened to the
experience
so mamish means this answer is Maisha
this is what you were asking momish
means if in your day-to-day routine you
feel godliness you feel the Shama
to I've said it hundreds of times to
feel the soul then the shama in base
Madras in basaknesses
Purim
it's not a it's not a big deal whatever
it is but
it's it's workable it's possible it's
feasible
but when you're when you're on the road
and you're dealing with all kinds of
challenges and all kinds of times
and to feel Hashem there that's the and
the story that my friend my good friend
told me
we called me one Wednesday to thank me
for learning with them Tanya so I said
them why are you calling me tomorrow I'm
supposed to see you to learn once a week
we learned in Midtown Manhattan he says
I'll tell you why
because I came out of business meeting
and he was in the insurance business and
I had an ethical question and I didn't
know what to do and it hit me
what would the pain in me say because we
were learning about debating
and he says that sensitivity came
because we're learning Tanya about the
pain in these I want to thank you
that's an example an example of mamish
he's in business it's in Midtown
Manhattan it's 12 in the afternoon it's
hustle bustle New York City right even
though he's in a high high Riser and all
that
but the mind says I don't decide this
question based on what I want
it's what does God want what does how is
the pain in me what is the answer
teaches that a person an average person
should behave how should it be that's
how I make the decision
that's the moment I'm talking about
and for that
it's like that ever writes in egress
kadish that episode today we're after
the period that we need alcohol we'll
see them see them Hilo mentioned see
them
they used alcohol vodka as a means to
avoid the sashem
and you want to say goes back to the
base I make this wine whatever right the
devil writes there and the Bible should
see them took a lot of mashins Russia
it's cold and they were they were able
to hold the drink it was Coca-Cola for
them nevertheless after drinking a lot
of Coca-Cola they get a stomach ache
with and with my skin you get
intoxicated you get chicken
so the devil writes
today he says after we had the previous
web share with us Sid this and bring
cities to America and open up Yiddish
kite for for the world in the 40s and
all of that it's like we're after he
says and you don't need it anymore
and you know when we when when Sid them
heard this they were like in a way
outraged like how can you take away from
us a messiah
for 150 years
sit down
and go out and do what they need to do
comes along
and says
no no that's period is finished
now you have to be intoxicated from from
the title succeeders that my
father-in-law taught the world is shared
with the world and said this becomes The
Replacements of Hopkins
I I think I told I told you this is a
good story
that's a beautiful teaching a better
teaching but I want to share one more
story that's even I think a better
teaching 1963-62.
1962 a certain laborator don't want to
say the name very prominent big Tom
McCallum got married
to another to a pro in a prominent
family in Crown Heights
at the this his his future father-in-law
was the son-in-law by accident not going
to say more than that you can figure it
out
so
of and these Alibaba to 770
and they're saying well it's enough roof
and they're they're happy for their
friends going under the khupan
and they took a lot of lakaya and the
some of them were hutzpadik
to the Hasidic rebbe
you know like uh you know
could be pretty uh I don't have to tell
you
someone let the rabbit know our rabbit
and he lambasted
forgiveness but more importantly that
was the time when when he came out and
he said no more than four lechange
at fabrangers
four little kalishkes four little cups
not four
cups like this eight ounce little
higher yeah it's a massage
we're not going to strip you from saying
should be playing The Killers just
played a little okay
and like this was an edict and that
bespoke very strongly about it then you
know
bahram that ever says wow we can't drink
anymore
what's gonna be what it ever said as I
use this okay
this is in New York
Sunday in yerushalayim
of Joel Khan's father his name was
Robert full Khan called foyer Khan Folia
is refile
he learned in the Bible she was born in
1895 he was a husted with a pedigree you
know with their obey him this is Schmitz
they say you know the the Pinnacle of
kabbad
and that's what he grew up with you know
saying is part of learning cities and
being missing the Snapfish everything
else
so there was a yid he passed away last
year I knew him Shalom laid eisenbach
right and they say throw a rock up in
yerushalayim Atlanta's not on a cat but
it lands in an eisenbach
there's thousands of icebox in Jerusalem
there's an old traditional family of
yerushalayim and it came from Europe but
you know anyway
so he told me this he himself told me a
story with him
he already at that time became you know
uh not he was a barbershop but he you
know he took off either xiaomi Lafourche
and he put a instead of the up path he
put the hat hat down the bent down hat
he became like the rabbit the the you
know the rebel wears a hat down the
pre-decredible wore a hat up the devil
was wears a hat down he you know so he
was a Hazel hussard as we say of the
river
so he meets Folia Khan there better fall
he meets him and you're lying there
somewhere and he says
Folia
you heard
the rabbit is
how can
what do you think about it in other
words
he was like being choked he's like a a
hot liberature saying Heim is part of
his his lifestyle and here it is
dry turkey
so Folia Khan says to him say chemistry
you know what that means in English it
can't be
you got it wrong you never heard that
from the rabbit cannot be how can Villa
Baba should have been New York in 1962
changed something of the Bible just see
them for 150 years it doesn't it don't
work we have a traditional Mercedes
so he says that before they pull you
I'm telling you that's what the rabbit
said and all the heavens storming and
tumbling and it's it's the big news
laid a little bit of fall found out from
his Sandra bio that the devil did say it
I was enamored with the story when he
told me this Sid was like
but I wanted to go to the
I wanted to go to the source so let me
fall passed away over the years
Kingston Avenue this is already when he
was getting older
didn't have as much patience
and he knew with me you know like I
enjoyed going into details and really
getting to the Core
so I stopped him on the street
and I mentioned this story to him
briefly not the way I'm telling it to
you
and he got a little agitated on what a
little agitated
and and and he said to me like
did I put this Gazette and he said um he
kind of acknowledged that it's true
and that his father he didn't say it you
know he didn't elaborate but yes his
father initially had a hard time
swallowing it but that's the way it is
but he you know I I kind of he was
walking with a buck or two and I put him
on the spot
I didn't mean to put him on the spot but
you know that was the only scenario like
I happened to beat him in the street
so I know the story is true I know the
story is true
so what I'm saying is
the one that put him how can I say put
an end unfortunately didn't put it in
because people don't listen you know
what I'm saying but he attempted he
attempted
and he put the perspective and you
should know today in the yeshivas Maisha
has you know boys
Yeshiva others Yeshiva
even when the Hebrew I see a lot of
Hebrew are careful I sat with 770 bokram
I think I put it on YouTube for two
hours or so three hours before bringing
I couldn't get the silicon and I was
talking about just before I said before
playing so we could sing get into it and
it was it was it was uh I I couldn't
believe it these are 22 year old guys
770 in my time
in my time we would be saying look I am
and then really and I had to I have to
kind of you know not force them but
encourage them over and over so what I
see is
I hope that it's because they're careful
to keep the Rebus evict not because
they're just lazy or not into it because
you know the difference between
indifference
and and difference in apathy versus you
know uh it's not healthy for me or
umbrella from and I don't want to do it
or I'm keeping the rebels Xerox called
by the way in Chabad it's called the
xada you hear the word gazer and Chabad
which means decree it's not referring to
when evil decree from God God forbid to
destroy a city or something it's
referring to not drinking more to former
Hayes
guys you gotta for playing you this
morning we start with Tanya we end up
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everyone great day shalom
yeah we are playing without vodka well
said
take care Shalom bye