Simcha #15 - You can't have true joy if ego is operative - Your enemies are Ego & Pride - Be Humble

okay so we're now on page 125 in the miami if this is from simcha 1938 and we're holding the vanova this is three about 10 11 lines from the top the fourth word the line begins with the words ana of mikhail adam and the fourth word is vanava do you have it i've run 11 last 11 lines down yeah one two three four five six seven eight nine ten eleven sorry twelve lines down twelve lines down the fourth word vanova zoo yeah yes and you understand you have it right yeah and this another that we discussed yesterday which is the idea of the bitter astomy the sense of obliterating self even awareness of self he cleaves up it it is the vessel and the cause for it says in the torah devarim you shall serve your enemies and if you recall back way in the beginning of minor two months ago when we began learning what was the one of the questions that the previous side ever asked why such a strong punishment if i lack simcha automatically i'm going to serve my enemies says that yeah because you know what type of enemies we're talking about not people with guns vegas i'm talking about conceit and boasting of spirit bragging i'm showing off they will come to haunt you shaheem or even the another they are the opponents of another of humility the honor of who laid nishbur a person who's modest has a contrite heart from the fact the pen for oolai hexir babadoseri maybe just maybe he's missing something in his abode of hashem in the service of god and all he needs to do is develop them from concealment to revelation shuffle he is constantly in a mode of humility questioning himself in uh saha coil did i do everything masha hoya but you're the losses did i do everything that was possible for me to do but this is someone abraham who is a modest person he's always questioning himself con conversely if how about the person who's the master of conceit who commits svaruzan he's constantly satisfied mikhail asherosa with whatever he's done it's the best i can't do any better you know me wow i worked so hard i gave it my best that's the attitude of a bulgava the hain so too someone who has the boasting of spirit bragging sham he's aware of the self and the awareness of self drives him to feel i'm important and therefore i'm looking for satisfaction wherever it is when i feel satisfaction i jump for joy why do i jump for joy because my ego has been satiated there's another point it doesn't say here it says other other elsewhere young sin that the unoff the modest person is he's satisfied with the little that he has whereas the balgaiver there's never enough he never has enough and the previous but we learned that years ago in our urim says that he's even has that attitude towards his own family will he will hoard things for himself to the detriment of his family his wife his kids et cetera et cetera it could be a wife to the husband i'm saying the person who is this type of a belgiva that it feels i need it for myself i need it for myself there's not enough so i give you bare bones unfortunately this sometimes can lead to a very very serious um issue to the point of a breakdown in a family and in relationships but let's go back to the text says that ever and although these attitudes that we are sharing here says that could be very refined like that example of the rabbi for 50 years you didn't hear a word out of him you thought that he is mr super holy right it's very refined it's very private alone but if one has that gaiver inside it can god forbid lead to lipo barrage to fall into complete bad god forbid meaning to say it can lead a person of rome to go astray and this you should know you know sometimes we say wait a minute here was a person who was religious and fruit for so many years and all of a sudden now he's making a left turn and he's not any longer what's going on and people always ask that right one of the one of the answers there are different answers different ideas is this that he never was comfortable in his own skin as far as him being about guyver being bottle being humble i saw this i i saw this uh years ago when i would eat with by arab khan my mashpir after the rebbe's fabregas and there was they they would rub yoil and and students would review what the rebbe said and i i generally listened because that i didn't remember as well as they did but i could tell you that these people that came these bakarim several of them they aren't religious today and i could tell and i and i i would no and i saw then sitting there now 30 years ago or more 40 years ago 40 years ago 35 years ago a long time ago that they were such bargainers they were such ego-driven the way they carried themselves the way they spoke and even if they are religious they're not that sense of commitment is not there anymore you know again even if they're technically religious and i said then that what i see here is not something i want and i'm so happy and glad that i don't have their mind and their memories that i'm only a listener here not a participant in actually repeating the rebbe's words because what i saw is disgusting guyva leads a person to the worst things to the worst things both in relationship between man and man and between man and god that's what the rebel says here look at the words look at the words cover your holy show them they can god forbid if you haven't worked out you're refined guyva it can lead god forbid lipo bara gummer to do actual evil rahman islam the river employs the words god forbid because it's very serious evil that's a heavy statement the zelda sieve and the rebbe has a very beautiful commentary on a possible verse in genesis embraces and his concubine or shema what was her name a neighbor um says the rebbe that the word ruma is comprised of two words