Practical Chasidus w Rabbi Chaim Dalfin - Mamar B'Sha Shikdimu 1949 #1

course then there was a commando race in that neighborhood I don't know if the two are connected okay guys that's their show malika one of the Sham I didn't mean to I didn't mean to be rude and interrupt your conversation but we're only gonna learn half of this mindler because the you know most of the first half is never gonna show us the other half is not as relevant Oh such a global minor we won't finish it by Shoeless so this is on page towards the end the page 316 in the safer and if you have the copies everything most essential two copies right you have the copies the only yeah hope you had a great Shabbos we had a nice Shabbos my granddaughter son of Louis and daughter came the first time after they had the baby so it was it nice and more people that more people are those are coming to the minion The Fool that are the big foot that I normally go to is open for some reason no showers this morning I don't know why it's more hygienic to take a shower but the no showers clean spotless and to having three men get on I think every day industry so things are opening that desert inside and then there in the mikveh I mean it's it's funny but it's they have X's on where you're not allowed to sit I think one person you know the bench can fit four people they only have one spot per bench and they have the benches numbered and you're trying to keep social distancing in the mix so so you know it is what it is and then but our dear governor here make governor como is opening the beaches for Memorial Day next weekend I believe in two weekends whatever so that's very important you know very very important so hopefully hello hopefully he'll allow other things to open up that will you know a lot of people to be more you know you know more if you're opening for beaches hopefully you could open up for other things anyway we hit a little cities let's go base at McDowell reached in the 5s was the first night of foodstuffs intense let me just tell you parenthetically that every year she was our rabbit would come down a 3:00 a.m. right we're up the first night it was her up all night so he would come down three a.m. and he would say I'm exhausted this without a million beforehand normally in lapavitsas are by the tradition from the Rabbit Hash a bond that we know of is that there was a million a song a preparatory song that was sung before the minor and the invent they sang by there ever was it was called that stuff and again you know you know the in there and a difficult birth no I'll remind myself I just said that last night but she'll should this but I forgot now anyway there was always a dig in to create I'm talking I'm explaining that the way a layman sees it an average person to create an aura an ambience of meditation and going into another place and then when the rather said the Hasidic Hasidim believed that he's God's Word is coming through his throat just like by Moshe obey me this is a basic belief in kebab in in authentic real Chabad cinema verite strongly the sinner spoke through the throat quarts of mix it up baby whoo that's a kozelka that's not that's not the sickness right so what one of you guys have neuter your thing please so so - so - in in Habad we believe that it could be other questions believe that - as well regarding their revenues taurah i don't know you have to ask them but in the Babich this was a belief so how do you how do you get to this to this place because of her it's a place of real calmness and holiness and spirituality and vacating all the physical and material needs and only wanting ruthless so the nitin which was usually what was always a meditative slow about type of Nichkhun was the introduction to the mind Maha siddhis that they represent so Luis night for whatever reason the revit came right into 7/7 came down he was upstairs in his room for ticking I guess and three o'clock he came down and he started a minor without a naked he never explained himself but possibly it's because it's just night and it's mountains later it's like then the energy is so holy so powerful that you don't even need a to communicate the word of a shell so this Mimer was labeled and i used the word labeled because this Mimer was actually said that written years before because the previous forever in the late 1940s was not saying her Sidis saying my Martin because he was ill a stroke and mass he had various conditions and he Benny and it was it was difficult for him to speak and he spoke like a stroke patient nevertheless what he did was he wanted Hasidim and Gidon to learn for citizen for every young tip so he chose a minor that he said thirty years before poor so whatever and he gave it to the rebel and the rebel should add footnotes and these footnotes for example and that you see in the bottom these are from their ever the first set of footnotes not what's below the second line the below the second line is just the Hebrew translation of Yiddish words or Aramaic words in our text now the rapper by doing this I'm giving you a whole introduction to have an understanding by the rather by doing this made the free the crab is more my Miriam I'm gonna use a word that you know Labov occurs wouldn't like but I'm gonna use it because it's I think it's relevant and true he made it more respectful now what do I mean it made it more respectful very good 1940s there was great antagonism against the feeder Kadapa and I'm not gonna go into it I've written extensively about it if you're interested if you read read what I wrote but basically the good alien Roger severs didn't accept his approach in 1941 at 2:45 he came out with a call from Messiah and it was addressed as my outer which over me out then Magilla immediate Hoover will bring immediate all the redemption so he didn't were falling by the side leaving Judaism the Saito's were going into the ocean the triple were being put into the drawer and Jews as you all know maybe some of our great-grandparents as well they just you know did it had a difficult time seeing God and the Holocaust and all that and the rebus felt he needs to be my Kazakh to strengthen their more learned at the toughen and the common language for many these people was give this man a them were greenhorns they just came to the country in the 20s and 30s and they still spoke give it fluently and that was the natural language the first language anyway so he he had a journal called how clear padishah published not under his name he hired an editor who I think originally came from New Haven who travel on the train once a week I believe he would sit with the 52 caliber he would take dictation they would discuss what should go into the journal it was a monthly not a weekly and it came out for four years or so and one of the themes there was to encourage the toughen and Messiah and that the Holocaust is only birth pangs heavily Messiah before the baby is born it's very very hard and very painful so we're going through the painful state and as soon as that fish himself comes and he he called that and he said the way to bring end the pain and begin the Gullah is to is to do chuhwa so the slogan that he coined and it was a slow it was then publicized by people that you heard of but Zalman schaeffler slain Makarova and and many others who did clandestine work for the feed the cadaver in Brooklyn putting up posters in Orthodox and conservative synagogues and they tell the story and I heard it from Arabs Amish after himself I heard it from him I believe and he remembers when him and his good friend of a Weingarten who's Allah but Allah Pavich our family today they were buffer in the 770 and they went around they put in a show 15th Avenue and 48th Street still stands and they put up on the some posters or stickers whatever the out there the other way out to the truth ax and the guy by the president whoever caught them and they chased them out of the shul and naturally tore down the signs and then wanted to you know really give it to them so Salma said that he went to revi Simpson who was philipovich er irrelevant Borough Park he went the he went to he ran to his house a few blocks away and he hid under a bed so that they shouldn't find them so blew out Telugu Lily out till the trooper was was a main main call at the time but why am I telling you this because who the the establishment the Orthodox establishment with which consisted of many literature upon him as well were very uncomfortable you know maybe this will lead to a a depression and and and people will become you know upset that they don't that that this didn't this won't be fulfilled and they and they were against it and there were other issues I mean other issues so the fee that could ever really not only physically wasn't well but but you know he had a lot of pressure so one of the other one of the other accusations was that he wasn't very well versed in the Talmud and its commentaries and in the Litvak world but we've discussed many times if you know Talmud your or something if you don't know town but if you don't know good morning the first thing you know and you can't go like this and like that like that you know you know and you can't open your mouth you know in the morning and you're really you know you know Kabul you know see this you know muster that's small change you got to know the crime brigade I'm gonna shake up you know all the classical things we learn in yeshiva so they accuse the free the Culebra of being ignorant in those areas and I've heard this from reliable sources so the three that could ever do about it and it wasn't true because a person like rabbi yitzhak runner available girl his brother was a student that from 1941 through the 40s with the Frieda cadaver and he told me himself he firsthand the three could ever was was a big time of huffin in gomorrah and he said they didn't they Shiva they once saw how from through a window they saw somehow that he had the mothers open in the first in and he was very knowledgeable but that wasn't the word on the street and especially the lift and the establishment so what did the feat he could ever do one of the things that he did was he told our ever who was a genius a tater all of Tina he told them to insert footnotes into his acidic discourses which they laughed at because you know they said let's say there certain discourses that they're ever oh I forgot in this journal of a clear value sure there was always a - of Sidis in Yiddish that he had written years before and he put it in and it's if so and it was it was always very very down-to-earth for the simple people one of these my mom let's say started with the parity of is a copy of the Mahalo oiler a copy of the son of Mahalo says to the three decrepit Tirpitz a copy of means a he'll been Mahalo Mahalo means praise that even the heel even the lowest cuz the heel if you kicked the heel doesn't hurt really as much if he does he kicked the head on the hand so even the lowest part of the body where there isn't so much life force in in a town in a concrete way in a revealed way a Kavya for the word a keV been Mahalo will give praise to a Shannon Mahalo with the root word Hillel praise that even though even though even the the right so that ever was saying to the simple people you guys people think you're simple you can give praise and you will give praise to our share my son loves that so they took that as like okay playing with words you're you know you're stripping the shop and they belittled his interpretation that's just one example and there are other examples so that ever did what the fleet could have did he told the revered to to put references to his my mahram and to show that it's rooted in the most complicated parts of gomorrah and and kabbalah and the first and everything else that's why certain murim you see the footnotes are from the red book because that was one of the objectives there were different objectives because in general in a mind Maha siddhis open up a minor from the repair shop or the Frida crabber or at either a billion you don't have Mara McComas you don't have references the cemetery care at references to the out the rebus memory but you know that was his own that was so the point being that well this is the moment that were learning so this minor 419 thats that says it was it's the date given is the first night of Shor's 1949 it wasn't said then the Frieda Cabot wanted it to be relevant to the people too in 1949 so he labeled it he titled it with this date but the truth it was from a much earlier year is there is it clear what I said now if you have any questions before I continue okay because in 1949 so during the 1940s most of the years he didn't say facilities but he wanted Hassidim to have a moment to learn for that Shabbos and that Yom Tov he wanted it to be fresh right he was like just like you guys send out I get the living to the Irishman's living Jewish right you want to have something for Shabbos to read so they're ever wanted for sitting to have a minor facilities to hearing about the youngters the minor was either said or written could be in the 1920s or 30s I don't have I don't have right now that information tell you exactly when this was said but it was said earlier and there's a set of my mom that we don't have that we don't have right now that probably will show tell us exactly when the mine was from but I could tell it from the 1920s or 30s the previous the previous rebus said it's like it's it's Lewis is coming up 1949 it's 1949 I'm not well to say oh right um I'm er I want Peter hasidim to learn a minder so he chose a minor he chose one of his my mom that he either said or wrote 20 or 30 years earlier he gave it to the rabbit to add notes and then it was published and distributed one second which is that clear okay yes mostly male the fact this is the non-jews from the Barbican family Oh your wife is related to be young to be able to sigalas I didn't know that I didn't know that and the young nobleman is a big ninny I know what metaphor Salima take you for me up on me any other questions before we begin okay Michelle said did we install that the mother says like this try and be sure the time when they even prefaced nozzle additional we will do before we will understand both she should be molested the cake six hundred thousand angels my lucky Hanukkah their phobias throughout every single year the cross rule ahem basic sorry and they tied two crowns to every year ever connected I said one corresponding to we will do for them saying NASA therefore connect Alicia and one corresponding traditional end of this section of the Dimauro Mahina a materialism minor maschmann from the beginning of this statement Miami doesn't mean the - it is the saying of the facade it implies that she does actually that the fact that I said that the six hundred thousand eleven came and they tied crowns sorry face abyss will have Dominus Alicia it was because of what what reason why do we get this this gift these gifts because we preface nasibi furnish now that's the implication from the first part of the facade simultaneously Oh Messiah my my man if you look at the end of the same of gizelle Marsha the implication is that magical ahem basic sorting the fact they could die they were given two crowns who connected her Beijing Union it's not because of one issue they're professing rather it's because of NASA one vanish McHugh absent themselves for life doctor forget who loved us to be still had the dumber and not necessarily wasn't given because of the preface it should be borne a son is my therapist says you only it seems like there's a contradiction here in the favela why were they given the crowns the first part of the puzzle is why cleaner because he D mu hit Dima they said set first nice and then this one wow you got a lot of credit for that what am I gonna get what am I giving you us credit to crowns okay look look at the end it says one was given specifically for NASA and one was giving furnish now has nothing to do with demo before the continue got to make sure you know the question because the whole mind is about this everyone understand or and or or it's not clear okay that's that's that's what it that's what the end of the statement implies in other words even let me I'll say better even motion if we did not to preface not said before this my right you right we you know we breakfast pass telephone instrument right say we didn't do that would we still get a crown according to the the last part of the Fazal the answer is yes in other words the fact that we the fact that we we said NASA we will do wow you deserve you're gonna do it a chef wants you deserve a crown the fact that we said Nesmith itself you deserve a crown we're going to understand the data if he's ever proud independent of of the issue that we we happen to say NASA before Nisshin uh so that's a right that's that's the implication from the last section of the Khazar the first section of the Fazal says clearly that you get that we got the ground because he will not sell initially because of the preface ii meaning to say if we would have not preface burrows we wouldn't get grounds even though we're doing what our San Juans and we are understanding what our sim wants but if you know if you're not ready to to say first I'm gonna do and only afterwards I'm gonna understand you don't deserve grass clear mostly yes hey bring got it okay viton the e Lubas feel like the mo for if the reason of receiving the crowns is because of the hugged Ummah of the preface sing for your totally astrak-- cancer their heart how many crowns should you get for preface e 1 not 2 if the issue if the virtual motion is the is is that you guys were ready to say we're going to act even though we don't understand so you get it you get a brownie points for that a crown why 2 crowns so for the first if for the first part of the statement you should really only get one for the second Yoda if in the second part you get - why - because now some there are two things I will learn the Tarot that's number one and I will understand the Tara I'll learn to tell you in other words even if I don't understand that you want me to do it I'm ready to do it you want to do mrs. I don't understand it or and another thing is not only you're going to do the action I'm going to study and understand it okay so two separate things so the rebus says the Fazal it's not only a a contradiction in in which is the issue here that cause the crowns that's one issue one question why did we get crowns because of learning and doing or because of preface it that's one question and and and as I said - as a side the rebus says if if the issue was pressing we should have only gotten one crown not - and and yet we got to say he wants understand this let's go further we he made up residence at door - Oh an issue maja comparative he brings a an example that's compared that we can compare to the preface thing of non-serif inissia machine of omission we find clearly the Mishnah brothers from a diverse a ghazal the our sages say no more cut no passage in familia why do we preface the portion of smile and bow and thereafter know that before the next section which is called the higher in Samoa theta cos out today she acaba all of Omaha's a Mayan pilla the outcast the Kabul all of oil mitzvahs in order you should first receive the yoke of a Shem upon yourself and only afterwards the oak the yoke of mitzvah Civ of grievances this is what the fans I'll say in the demo Imbros that's why we say first Shema and the naphtha which is about accepting God called Kabbalah soil and then we'll hire someone at this woman's recession itself for him and all that is about oil mitzvahs accepting the mitzvahs this is Adam Orion brothers the third Oklahomans wheeler Indian Kabbalah serial month of Shaban Baba so what was that so the rabbit brings this good Martin brothers has a Dogma as an example to understand our issue what's our issue professing versus no professing just doing and learning and that ever says that we find in gazelle regarding Shema that the Casals say why was mine Valhalla twice manga after before Voyager Maya because without accepting Hashem as the Mela which we call Kabbalah soil then the mitzvos Mitzvah observance is meaningless if you do mitzvahs and you don't have couple of soil your Mitzvah is not a mitzvah I don't mean amid so technically I'm not talking about that who are you worshiping who are you doing for yourself who means you're who's that go find better things to do for yourself go work out in the gym face go go run go play golf go go go make business you know there's only one reason why because Hashem said so Kabbalah say that's what couple of soil comes first Shimada what we're after and only afterwards for hire in Somalia that's what so the rebus says just as the good mothers the good mother says that Kabul sale precedes precedes mitzvahs so to the hidden at the time of Martin Torah they prefaced the idea of Kabbalah sale before before before understanding NASA called the militia yes surely yes what right not says Kabbalist an excellent sorrowful heaven kilo eating in couple of soil markers remain below so that ever as the style isn't a citizen to buy Miran and we it's good that we see it over now he brought us to facades one about versus Bashar shaked EMU number two about from the demographers he asked his questions he gave a general introduction and now starts the what we call the bulk of the minor and as usual he'll get back to these other issues later on first he introduces now a divine thought that's the bulk of a minor for cities so what is it she says to understand all of the above we have to understand what is kept all of sale now of course you say what everyone's concerned except God is God just wait let's see how I see this Chabad understand what it means to accept the shell so that's his first question but sort of Tila first we must comprehend the Indian couple the same IFAs remind MacLeod what is the overall give accepting the yoke of heaven before I say observe payment in everything that he decrees we do the Africa and only afterwards caballes oil mistress do we accept the mistress soup roti which is individual put on pillow put on a mezuzah respective parents all those things already details so first you have to have the overall acceptance only afterwards are the details relevant so holding in Kabul mo who see if I forgot cobwebs a dosa this is the idea of accept my kingship my kingdom a kingship and on the afterwards accept my decrees well that if muscle take for example because mom Lisa Maasai MELAS when we crown a king in a tailored sniffle Aqaba little Maha sorry first we need to we need to at least accept our shams yoke chisel Union half thought oh this is the idea of the coronation right the word I thought her is a popular word in Habad lingo and fab of language it's the coronation of the king maha monthien I say because SM uncle's the fact that we crown our sham with a crowd of kingship we eaten you'll need are we actually crown us in and we put that crown on him and that is called kosterow the coronation the Africa only after we crown a setlist king McCollum's inner-self we receive his decrees the father Sergiy exert labor whatever he decrees and says okay minor as another statement brought all my mouth the King says okar Torah is there a minute amount can be ripped up ripped out pulled out normally a mountain cannot be ripped out but if a sham says I want the to leave its place it's going to happen like we've just seen with what happened the last few months etc etc so on my mouth remember this phrase it's a beautiful phrase I'm a monk Oh the King says Oh Carter the Tudor Dussehra Mathura means a higher a mountain of carbons Akita to remove so what does that mean that only if you have a monkey only if you accept a shell as a melon then the mount you can even be removed so who declare the Cibola so next few words this is due to the power that I Eve obtains when he has a Kabbalah side accepts the yoke of a shell when the ye'd accepts the yoke of a sham he can do anything because it's a sham working through him but you got to be ready to accept the yoke over Duke because it is using this muscle of the king how a king becomes a king through the crown the coronation you've and Umberto speech this Hilo's explain to us how it is in our life and rupiahs the keel assertively of kabbalah cellmark Ozias butter he ever got Kabbalah film it's his first you have to accept the yoke of heaven blessed be he and only afterwards the yoke of mitzvahs as el-shabazz bodacious this is why the the the the what I wrote the bottle of hosted a lady's bid me and I mr. Salahi enumerates the business that I'm BOM isn't the only one who who numerated the mitzvahs the Battle of his village had his own set and version of numerator mitzvahs he named mitzvos a laziness Emily careful the midst of a better similar careful in the mind of the husband mrs. Proteus you hear that he does not include a lady I am God your God has a specific mitzvah if someone asks you is Alicia Sherman of kefir is that a mitzvah according to the bottle it is not a mitzvah rather look further the liaised the missus are lately who Mitchell cibola Selma who sees what Oh since the midst of it I am God your God is them is the lips of accepting the yoke of a sham how the end of the halal mistress proteins it is not included amongst the detailed business came he meets McLaurys it's a general mixer how Kayla says Coulomb that incorporates everything so you need it it's not it's not proper to be the Mitzvah because it's beyond a mitzvah at Scarborough sale it's the father of all mitzvahs unless he according to the ballet lovers the dailies is a mitzvah cold-call that amid Cirque lolis it's not a mr. Prentice the he honey sin is clayey and this Mitzvah clothes this general miss over 19 gives quiet voice strength and mind I'll key in my mrs. Proteus in order to be to fulfill the mr. properties so you're having a hard day during a certain Mitzvah don't think that it's the Mitzvah that you're struggling with it's really the couple of soil that you don't have that day or you don't have enough of it and that's why you're struggling with the myths of brokers behaviors this is a this is a abide 180 degree turn the way we think so this one I'm showing you that when you learn see this your whole way of thinking changes an old person when they're struggling with an it's what they say I can relate to this Mitzvah I don't understand all the details in that's right oh I don't understand right then it gives you a hard time and comes along see this and says that's only a symptom what's really going on here it's about your relationship with a shell that's the monster to that to something not complete in your Kabbalah soil Wow it's like the paradigm shift it's not as a paradigm shift it's not about the detail and I'm telling you how true this is just think about it our lives and what we see going down when someone has a breakdown in them in the midst whatever the Mitzvah is and whoever the person is young gold whatever if you focus just on the symptom you're not going to correct the problem you have to find the core what's really bothering the person what is the person really saying so what we're learning the moment here there's an issue that the person is grappling with Cabello soil the same is true let's say in you know marriage and relationships be it you know spousal you know marriage or children and parents teenagers or employer employees it's not the details that's the problem it's the overall fundamental you cite the foundation that's the issue you know and and I don't mean this to anyone here anyone there that lists the general ideas please understand when I was growing up I told you this once but it's worth repeating now when I was growing up my you know we were a Holocaust family you know what I'm saying was a lot of tension okay parents a grandparents you know this was this was you know how the cost was very much alive in our family and many families especially in the greater you know New York area it was very palpable it wasn't you know we weren't yet Americanized okay he knows tension and emotion and sometimes then and you know my father worked two jobs for many years and and to bring home panacea and paid tuition and everything else worked very very hard very hard I told you that you know sometimes I remember him coming five minutes before Shabbos lift pension including the 18 minutes and my heart was pounding is my father gonna be home on time because he for a while he was he was driving a taxi and the traffic from Manhattan back to Brooklyn Friday afternoon is horrendous and we knew and that was a good time you know Bertram later you know he he sold that and and he went into another business and he did well it was very nice and but growing up with you know the Holocaust tension the parents attention it's very very emotional takes a lot big toll on you okay so so and as children you you know you form ideas and feelings and if it's true in every family their way so so sometimes my father out of you know like with my mother that I mean it was a lot of pressure and it was not my mother really my grandmother it was my father versus my great-grandmother my grandmother was a was a powerhouse a powerhouse a real a real polish lady with tremendous highest she saved my mother and her mother by running the way to the Kremlin she got that to Russia she got to the Kremlin you know a little this little tiny lady you saw her you would think like you know who is this what is this like a little dinner and there were issues of that was set in the house that if you took them seriously they were disastrous I don't want I don't want to go into details and my grandmother would like jump up from her chair as she sometimes hear this and she would say how can you say that God cries would you say that God's upset that's it's it's like and she and he didn't mean it it was like not a game but it was it was just emotions why am I saying this because the the the details that go on even a family life are all associated with something greater and in every situation you know and if you if you deal with what's greater you'll have better results I'm not saying everything is gonna be the way you want it to be because it won't and if you have that that expectation you better stop because you're gonna be very disappointed and it's not easy to stop because you're a parent or you're a boss or you're a wife or your husband whatever the situation is so the rabbit says here so they'll show you how you could take this idea here in the minor they bring from the bottle of his good day ladies that unless he I share belly careful is a mitzvah khloe's and that and and he doesn't enumerate it as one of the 613 mixes because it's not a detail it's the foundation that runs through and is V is the basis for every Mitzvah I am God your God and unless you accept fully that I am God your God and therefore Kabbalah sale the other things become not important or sometimes they are important sometimes not important and this is the theme of the rest of this minor this idea the overall commitment versus the details and you know in our lives this is something that I wanted yesterday i'ma from the either I accept a Shem well you accept a shell really why are you having a problem with this particular Mitzvah it's uncomfortable I don't understand that I disagree but it's not about the Mitzvah it's about are you ready and willing to submit 100% not 99.9 one hundred to a shell and that's a tough job like I've told you how many days Rosh Hashanah to how many days in tipper one most miners shouldn't you have two days for Yom Kippur and one for cisterna since we asked you for give us a banking away of fasting is much more difficult than just Rosh Hashanah and the answer is no because her son is about commitment and submission and for that you need two days and you're and you're asking for forgiveness is meaningless if you don't submit only after you submit does asking for forgiveness means something but if you don't submit to the other person or in this case that call there's vertical then you're asking for forgiveness is baloney it's nothing it's totally nothing because you can't accept God as God you don't really accept him as dad and that's a tough job to be able and willing to put myself aside completely that you need two things for sailing away where's your Sunnah is much tougher then yom kippur it's tougher damn Kippur ya gonna get me Esther fast we understood nothing about that you know the physical talking about the spiritual the mindset Hillel the mindset of Rosh Hashanah is a much more difficult one because it demands so much more to pardon a - Emma - King and how do we correlate in the King not keep doing the mitzvot detailed mid serve through the general mitzvot that he's my king Rebbe salivated the rug would always teach us students this this idea that's brought in from the alter rebbe Iran and Sabbath facilities and you could see that he he lived with this idea it wasn't just as obedient he understood the childhood cause ya know by virtue Muhammad in caslava CH my permission but of my share Billy Leesburg was his Malamud that he said it was Allah by virtue he taught him verses razor sana the core anoxia in Yiddish in Russia leaders coronation is quartered not here but the waste our Vedic said it and his real literally this was beautiful the Carter not yet from their Mela the coronation of the king and that and salvation stayed with that all his life as a neutron as a brisker but he saw that the outer Epis in Antonella what take take your singles please well he'll lose ask you something I'm sorry what what time is it now guys I don't know the time okay okay dad listen tomorrow I can't make it I have an appointment I have to do something so we're gonna learn Tuesday okay zag isn't yes motion you know I wish I had to hear to ask I have a lot of questions to ask but now it's 60 that's when my cup my naturally you know when I was 15 and 10 I don't in met me maybe she told me that on the it was it was sudden issue I guess it was some legal issue I maybe I don't know to get out you know but but just think you're you know you're middle of a war she's running away with a little child and and you know I'm saying it's a IIIi was in in Russia in Moscow this that I passed by the KGB senticles on Lubyanka Street I saw the building fact I took it in a video I might have publicized it already so I can I can feel the vibes of the the opponent and yeah this little lady got to the Kremlin that's what I heard that's who I remember you know I don't details I don't remember and I don't know if he even said details what why you asked why I Moshe if I wish I would know believe me more than you want to I want to know there's so many things I want and I went to my i went to my my mother and grandmothers city where they were born and married and in in Poland you know it was you know but I have so many questions you know tremendous my brother always says that you know my grandfather without his beard my grandmother and the family just keeping the faith that being Froome and then they already got gotten eaten that you no beard no beard Aaron got anything you don't mean they pass all the hunters are right but it's we we don't I don't understand you don't I can relate it but I can hear it but what they went through no you should go through very spa yeah yeah yeah and that and and and a place and I'll tell you and I'll tell you something and seeing that not only me my siblings seeing this faith in this and these people was like it solidified our being religious regardless of anything else you can't you can't tear it out it's in its inside it's impossible you know and and my and and and and but if a sham that we have been able to trip to give it over to the next generation and and I see from the grandchildren of different siblings you know some get a little modern but everyone is thrilled really thrilled you know the certain things and and this is why parents even of Bali chuva as you're no longer about Suva you know you're ready 10 15 20 30 years from and all that you need to do things and say things and live with things that will make it solid rock solid by the next generations that this is what they this is what they continue with and if they ask a question well you weren't this way when you were a teenager which is one of the basic questions that teenagers of Bali Trueba ask so one thing is to say I made a mistake I made a mistake or I didn't know any better I really didn't know any better you know and even if there's a person who rebelled in their youth they rebelled they also didn't know better and maybe that issues in your season it may be that issues with friends you know we have to be honest I'm not I'm not suggesting we we put our dirty laundry out to our kids and grandkids I'm not saying that but at the same time honesty is the best policy and you know whether it's rebellion whether it's your stake saved you know and and you you you share with them but now that we know better now that I know better and now that I know that I made a mistake no I'm sharing with you I'm not hiding it and this lifestyle of potato mitzvahs and from kite is the best type of lifestyle in in so many ways not just it religiously but look at the whole soccer commuting again I know this criticism but people who you know worked so hard make quite a bit of money you know give a lot of sadaqa tremendous and facet the Festivus is tremendous and they you know they didn't go to Harvard they didn't go to Columbia I'm not saying that's not the reason you should go you shouldn't go to take the from kite idea you know and if if we can instill this in our kids they'll be alright again well they'll be as Romanesque acidic as you want them to be I don't know that has to come from them that we cannot that that has to come from them but the core issue of the leaf into a bursting and knowing that he is the ABE estate he's got and I have someone to turn to that you could that you could and we need to instill in the young generation and the rest the rest is all gravy on the you know on the on the funder meet you know it's it's extras okay I have to get ready for the avenues Uyghurs won't everyone take care bye-bye see you too Tuesday Tuesday