Practical Chasidus w Rabbi Chaim Dalfin - Maamar Choviv 1940 #11

we're on page 277 on the bottom going on to 288 at 78 or did we already go on to 280 78 does anyone remember okay so something that the chef will start the next my mother asked Moshe have said to you guys so he'll do that it's a point and let's let's look finish so that ever here is concluding this idea that's mentioned that her cities from the outer evidence considers to our discuss it is a concept in Kabbalah the Kabbalah says that balaam Otaru precedes automatically the world of chaos precedes the world of normality and this is you know not just a fact but also a purpose what is the purpose of Hasidic explains the purpose of Kabbalah you don't find the explanations to the facts as much you know emphasis there is a lot of verbage and using examples and dialogue to understand basic ideas and coppola and this is a basic idea of kabbalah that tell you proceed stick and is not is not you know kabbalah that you have to dig and find somewhere it's it's all over because it's based on the passage but ages borrow the key as if- over it's a hora Sasa tell you or for you etc so it's it's very clear so did happen the minor says that the purpose of tayo coming before tikkun is because the energy in tell you is much greater than the energy of tequila in the words of kabbalah and facilities the irish they tell you are greater than the either is the ticket although the owners of tell you tumbled down in the terminology of of Cibola casa de s-- na flew wish readers a Kaelin they felt the energy the sparks did it sizes fell below because the vessels of Toyo which took me are called the Calum of tell you were not broad enough to handle the energies of Toyota practically what does that mean that the inspiration was overwhelming it was too much so the recipients were not able to handle it so what happened it was spilled it was wasted it went and had just overflowed and went everywhere concept he didn't bring here but it's brought in other places is that that is how we have then he traces the sparks that we are obligated to refine or to elevate quote Hallows on its axis the elevation of the sparks what do those fires come from we're took them now spiritual sprouts when you eat an apple there is a spark that fell into the Apple from tell you so that's why we eat the apple because on one hand why does a human being have to eat an apple a human being is from the kingdom from the domain of the living of the speaking madaba which is the highest of the four kingdoms of species and the human being requires the Apple to give him sustenance in the apple of somewhere Hillel the Apple is only from the vegetation so it seems to be a downgrade for the human being to have to have to rely on the Apple and the same as for all food and so to the human being has to rely on the animal so this question is asked in custody and the answer is that there is an element that the apples that the vegetation and the animal kingdom have that the human species doesn't have what is that that they come from the shade --is-- they come from a llama tell you and the other Mateos Park fell and it entered their domain and it is the human beings obligation and not just obligation but opportunity to take a brush on the Apple and that's the way you extract that spark and you benefit from it because the shaders in source it's higher than what you have on your own so eating food isn't a second-tier experience but eating food is an opportunity to connect to something greater that is waiting for us to extract it and elevate it so the stories with the bell simply publish the holy baal shem tov when he would take a group with him and he'd go somewhere and they came to of certain places have stopped here he went out and made a brush up I'm watering from a well or whatever or suchlike stories that are told the idea is that there were the percent of realized there's a spark over there that still hasn't been elevated and it's waiting so long for elevation so every one of us has to be cognizant of this that when you walk in the street or you travel or whoever you are you have enough opportunity to extract the sparks or to elevate sparks or in English to spiritualize the experience that this is all part of the notion of a llama title so what we're learning here in the text is that the element to you is the source for the nefesh a palace the source for animalistic tendencies and indulging desires comes from tell you tell you is very very passionate and tell you is very uncontrolled intense energy that's to you tikkun which is the source of the nefesh heavily kiss is regulated organized civil etc naturally someone who experiences civility and tranquility is going to be in a better place right because they don't get themselves into trouble nevertheless the energy the chaos the passion on the average is lacking because the the the domain I just came from a shul right so you know you go with cops banging each other she go in you go out you dive and you say they you know but it there's no fire there's no energy you know I mean it's regular we do it just be if not here a year you want to dive in the early 1800s there's a word Bren which would be in English the passion I think we even had in one of the my mom that we learned that you toward the bread or there's another word in Yiddish the to cook something is - coffee - coffee - coffee and the word coffin is used also someone who is being cooked he's all cooked up so the word is cut and cuts it he cooks himself in this issue in English it doesn't doesn't you know make sense grammatically but English it's you and costs it in them someone who's you know constantly repeating something and explaining it and talking about it the others expression is an oxygen them he cooks it what yeah thank you thank you good very good he it's he's doing it's doing it himself right good so the the necessary kiss is not into stewing into coffee sir it just does its thing on the average what we'll learn and that's tickle comes of all cities and Kabbalah says and that the necessary kiss realizes that it's not adequate so I want I want that passion where do I get that passion Oh Hashem gave me a nefesh I bommies why did he give it to me if he gave it to me just to just to allow the nefesh abdominis to be a Bahama then while he created it seems to be an oxymoron God wants you to be good and holy and he puts enough of her bodies into you which is running the other way why would I shall do that AHA obviously a shams doing it because he wants me to benefit and utilize the nefesh obamas so the nefesh Allah kiss tickle says I'm going to benefit from tell you I've got a benefit from this wild raging passion how I'm going to slip it into my day my domain and I'm gonna serve you a sham in a way that's passionate and then we have the sins oh oh I had of the two talk to each other one is nefesh about this one is not for sure the kiss one is interested in ice cream and pizza and everything else the one's interesting and tighter and mitzvos and learning about me how do you get the two together you have to have the never just say please the never shall see please the human rational logical drive talks the language of both it knows when to talk this way no one thought that way a good mediator is someone who's unbiased if he slanted and has a bias forget it forget it he's already tainted he's he's bought off right if the necessary kiss all the nepeta baubles would sense that the nefesh are ceaseless is his bias has has an inclination to one side more than the other it would say I'm not interested in going using you you're not a fair mediator you're not a real intermediary you have an agenda you could dress it up this way to dress it up this way you're smart you have saeho you can be deceptive but I know that you're already predetermined and free will going back to Peter cultures that we spoke about many times requires unadulterated honest balanced no taking sides I heard a story story I heard a pepper sell that happened during I think the 19 yeah during the 1960's there ever had several secretaries one was called rabbi Nissen Mendell he translated one part of tania and many others were in books of Chabad the philosophy of kebab is his translation I'm not talking about Nissen Miguel but I by Nissen mangale translated the sitter about English sitter I'm talking about mrs. min Bell mr. Mendell was a European Jew who the previous rabbit brought along with him to America as one of the secretaries so his daughter was marrying Alabama Churchill and bearish rapira rabbi Shapiro and Roberta Pierrot said recently young one of his broadcasts he said that rabbi mendel asked the river if he would officiate for I think it was for this for this son of a future song Shapiro I think that's what was and the rebel turned them down now you have to understand that the river and him were like you know very tight very close now there were very few people who spoke to the Redbird regularly there ever was you know learning answering letters and you know he was very busy in and he didn't spill the rabbit didn't speak on the phone I mean basically another havoc office other secretary would call whoever there ever asked him to call and the rebel would be on the line the same time without saying he's on the line and you can hear sometimes in saying yeah uh-huh so you heard a third party sigh Lonnie that was the rebels voice but in general he didn't you speak on the phone so who did he speak to together I wonder who didn't bother to ever speak to beside speaking to them I see them at the front Brandon and when they had private audiences but most of the time who lives back to ok spoke to his wife that's when he came home but what during the day he was there for hours Woodleigh speak too so the secretaries were the ones who he spoke to when he needed to speak to them amongst the secretaries some functioned as more secretarial and some function more as confidants this Nissen Mendell my humble opinion is served more as a confidant him and Rebecca the co because they were senior members secretaries are ready by the previous rather rapid growing a rabbi Klein rabbi Krinsky rabbi Simpson those four secretaries with the rapid secretaries post 1950-51 but the others the other two were still with the previous Trevor in Europe before he came to America and he actually took them along with him to America which is very interesting so this listen Mendell asked the rabbit to officiate for his daughter and their ever said no and the Rebbe said if I do it for your daughter I have to do it for other people because it is not proper and fair and the Rebbe in 1960 a month before my father a month before my father married the rebus said he's not officiating anymore at weddings because he doesn't have the time for it my father missed it by one month and my father went when he went into your feeders were two there ever he's a Trevor I'm here by myself I'm a boy from Romania I survived the war with my parents you know okay wasn't the concentration camp but it was the situation these camps in you know work labor camps in Romania I survived I came to the Babak almost on my own well on my own and to say my parents knew nothing about my baggage and miraculously I ended up at 12 years old 15 years old enough about you ship in there just overlooked I became Alabama chair I'm here in America on my own and and my relatives you know had the Montreal but they weren't Labov eh of many that weren't exactly 100% at that kind you know threw him a hundred percent so he's like as he's on his own so I'm asking you to please and my parents are not coming to the wedding my grandfather was scared to go on the plane he never left there too slowly after he came there to soil 1950 cat can't break the policy because I break the policy for you have to break it to other people but if you will notify rabbit ha become my secretary when you are standing under the hoof I will think about you very powerful words and that's what happened when her father was standing under the foot boat somehow somewhat older of Aqaba Cove and the rebel was from the other side you know 770 the Cooper's right in front its knowledge the the windows right behind the hook the area on the left side is the rebus office so whether he went to the window or not who knows and it's not relevant but what he did say was holy words mouth is I will think about you and I always say that in a way that's either great that's even greater than the rebus actually attendance and and and doing and giving being inside the condition officiating why because for my shovel is greater than deeper as we've been learning the Siddhas but that's my own interpretation so going back to rabbi mendel that ever told them a few years later that I can't I can't do it he thought that ever would make an exception and they never said no now this is to me such a insight into the rebus character as a person not when you get when you when you give when you give a word there's no exceptions especially if you know it's going to create jealousy oh whoa what do you think that I see that would be saying if if the rebel would have given rabid Mandela's daughter Hoopa and condition would have been would officiate they would say ah look a you could bribe him you don't bribe more money you bribe him with friendship you bribed him but this mr. Mendell took dictation he was the rebus person who took the tation all the letters many of the letters in English all the letters in Hebrew most of the letters of many letters he took dictation delayed it was typed up in the hole and the letter you know came to be he wrote up the rebus words something you're talking about someone who was tight tight tight the Reverend needed him in a way you don't mean he needed him to produce and help hidden worldwide he needed someone who was a writer and nevertheless he turns him down why because it would cause jealousy and and and I think about this is I asked myself what I do it what I do is my son or daughter asks me for something and I'm able to do it but yet for some reason if it will be done in the cause jealousy to others forget about two other siblings but the others would I have the guts and the stamina and the honesty to say no now why am I telling you the story and I think it's a it's a powerful story to think about the telling you this because the nefesh has syphilis the nefesh have syphilis if this is the reason I'm telling you okay we know when we say story sometimes we can get lost we go to left field let's get back to the center the knife is our syphilis if it if it's tainted and slanted finished the necessary kids doesn't want to know about it and then average their families doesn't want to know about it because if you're too Pro LA kiss the Bahamas says go go fly a kite if you - it's your - - pop - blow bahamas nephew this kid says you're not fair and I don't want to talk to you so the nephews of syphilis Hester's work strong on keeping a straight line in a balanced line and it's not easy that's the point I'm making it's not easy and that's really someone if you talk about who is about saying you know we know people we call that intellectuals vile save right an intellectual a healthy to let you've got someone just very bright if he or she are very bright but they're but they're not fair their intellect is tainted their intellect already is world their intellect already has an agenda and if their intellect has an agenda that's not pure and if it's not pure how can he be a mediator to be a mediator you have to be able to take yourself out of the situation and present what you feel is the right thing another story I remind myself I met about 20 years ago so the option of a reverend buy of the god I I brought a gentleman with me where the crime wasn't religious and I heard I'd never met them I never met and I never even heard about this this Rebbe and by the Dom but people told me that he's someone that's a special heat and a real spy with Hashem and it's worth going to him happens to be that you know I think he was born or he lived in in Brooklyn I think maybe even Borough Park and and he knew English so that would be great because he can converse with my with the fellow who I brought with me we entered we came to him we got an appointment we gave to him it was five o'clock in the morning we left the Renaissance Hotel over there that large they probably still have it right they're gonna kill you Moshe and we went from there to buy it for God I remember like today and it was quiet outside or so beautiful Shh we're going to a little apartment there a little building we come up because the door opens I don't know who opens the door the door was open what a modest apartment it's like what modesty you know here is this you know special ye'd I'm sure Jews would build him a palace you know and he lived in this second a third-floor apartment anyway I took a look weight of him to come into the dining room took a look at this farm he had a lot of the rebus forum on the first bookshelf it was you know so obvious that was very interesting for me to see and then he came in and and we spoke about different things about marriage raising daughters I have mostly daughters you know about mushiya about Chabad we were going to topic the topic we left that a quarter to 7:00 in the morning we were there an hour and 45 minutes everyone knows to get you know five minutes with the option of a Rebbe is is very difficult you know and but if Hashem I don't know but Hashem wanted it so we were there from five to a quarter to seven so we before we went I said should I write down the names of my family and and the names and and the gob I said no the Rebbe doesn't want that because he doesn't look at that he doesn't want to be impacted at all he wants to talk to the ye'd so soul without knowing in a way who he's talking to because if there's the slightest feeling I know your mother I know your father the house do I know you tact and your your bank account I know but that the that he's already not 100% genuine again I'm not saying others who do know aren't at the saying there's something to admire in that type of approach then while we why like we were there he asked our names and and and just me and the other person he didn't ask me about my parents of my children you know just just names because he wished the Sbrocco after we said the name our names so I'm thinking about it this is well the the importance of staying focused to the mission and not going and not creating any type of agenda whatsoever and that's what the Nathan official syphilis needs to do so that's why I mentioned these stories is because when you talk about this being the intermediary and the mediator remember it has to be pure and if it's not pure it's not it's not genuine it's not good now sometimes you want such a mediator if that's what you want in other words but then it's not a mediator then he's your advocate right you know the difference between an advocate and a mediator a mediator supposed to be fair and square not taking sides an advocate represents you and at times you choose a mediator because you think and you know that he will be an advocate because you know something that he benefits from years before I must tell your 33rd story since tomorrow is the yard side and today is our ailment with not learning tomorrow tomorrow's the yard site and I made a clip it's on Crown Heights that info I made a 15 minute clip about the following person whose yard sinister tomorrow Rabbi Yehuda Kalman Marlowe rabbi Marlowe was the rough in Crown Heights after Rob Zombie's shim McClurkin who was the Roth Russian year who learnt the mabashi past the way I think in 85 they chose three rabbis three rub on them and rub as a best in and rabbi Marla was the head of the best brother Marla was my Rebbe in ninth grade first Pacifica and Ocean Parkway Lubavitch Eve in 1975 I believe and he was my fifth grade English teacher in mathematics so I shared memories as a young teenager that's a because you know everyone else is going to be sharing memories of him as the rough-in cry nice I want to give something different and bring a different perspective so after he passed away rabid model they found in his desk so many checks that were never cashed the if he felt I knew this man if he felt that the check will in any way check guided to one side in any way he would not accept to us what influence right thank you yeah influence right how many that bullet I mean how many rabbis do we know and believe me he needed the money I know that okay his wife kids they could use the money he lived in a in an apartment building in an apartment in a building off Empire Bhuvana Crown Heights which I'm sure was like the option of his apartment and by Avedon okay and he to the the come of the wealthier community people could have built board I'm a nice large house so he was very modest but if he sensed any kind of unfair biased you know he stayed away that's what a real robbers a real it of when it comes to especially monetary law you know or even even the marriage law and divorce law you know you are get out officiate and you I won't you know why because you your grandfather and I were together in your fever you know that attitude that's not authentic and this is and this is not easy because why isn't that easy because when it's obvious and blatant okay but it's the inner it's the it's the innuendos and it's the you know the very refined way of yeah you guys get the point you know what whatever listen you know we're human and that's we we tend to do that I think I remind me the someone who you know supports some of my work there's not my work he supports he supports something anyway so I sent him a book of mine why would I send him a book of mine I mean I know he likes to read then I know he you know isn't but I did send in the book not because he's been so kind and gracious supporting my work I sent in my books I wanted to think more positive towards what I do it's acceptable this isn't evil this isn't bad but imagine when he has to make a decision if he makes a decision that's more favorable towards me in a certain way and if it came because oh you know it's very nice of him to send me a book it's a very delicate and sensitive issue in in in our life and all of this is part of the nefesh of secrets and now you understand why freewill isn't the nephew Josie please you know such femme says I love free will I want free will so it's in the method and that's and that's why the nefesh are secrets although not discussed so much in considers is in a way where it's at more than the nefesh obamas and more than officially kiss why because that's where you see the real man that that's where you see what you're really made of you know Bahamas Bahamas elegantly kiss you're in junior soon you're at the stadium you're at the stadium but where you just walking down the block and you know you're neither here there who are you that that's where as we used to say yes Eva you studied if you're studying you learn while you're while you're while you're on your sea it's not a big deal but if you study and you learn when you're your free time that's where it counts I want to finish their mind monopolist the cops it on their force next up to 78 the caution unofficially kiss invited Amazon says enough it's a bomb use and when the nefesh elite kiss refines a temperature bomb is in the cellar voices fade as the toy you became the dictum that's the practical meaning motion of bringing the energies of tell you into the vessels of tikkun there who are you them sighs Alicia sickness and who is the one to make that happen the intermediary the mediator called inefficiencies and now it includes the begin what he began with in the moment of identity of these self others work that insignificant selling the lover this man was created in the image of a chef says that ever who is the southern were cooking about he summarizes a now you're getting the punchline shall who never saw sickness this is the intellectual soul of a Jew the email issue who shall equal Habibi solo goal the primary thing is beloved is Israel eaten to initially kiss I will have smaller but the beginning how do you start off he called father why liaised are scholars who are very they are you takin official signals the beginning of serving a shell is through the nefesh of sickness and once you you you properly engage the deficit sequence then the experience of the nephew the kids will be all the more old all the more powerful the avakov and therefore the Mishna says after it says first beloved as man it says have even your own beloved are Eden said clay unofficially kiss in other words Hillier to appreciate the nefesh Olo kiss you need to first appreciate the nephrons are syphilis and this again points to the idea how important it is to have your sake whole in tune with what needs to be done with God if your Saint was not there in India then le kiss is meaningless if you're not immense then God your godliness and theta is nothing if someone has mental issues and mental issues you got to get them first normal meaning to say you know and once there and then you deal with their Ruth theists if you have a kid of struggling in sin and mental areas focus on that don't worry about his trillion and his resources the tomb the masseuses will fall into place once a person is settled mentally and feels confident that feels good about themselves Nath Augustus that's the first thing that the Joseph Lee's we tend in the front community one second one second we tend to the from community to to to be overly zealous my kids not putting on killing my kids face they doing this doing that okay what let's look at the source did you give him enough love okay I did well how why what are you doing today about it when's the last time you played golf or or you went to a pizza store a bowling alley well he just took a hike you know but he stopped putting on killing my friend your kid is not here right now he's elsewhere you wanted to put on killing he doesn't know who you are right now so first let him find out who you are and you find out who he is and then believe me you'll be able to talk about filling and he'll probably put on - let me just finish and then I'll take your question or comment so he says they are very what should I add a I've ready the zoo now so we have facilities when the nerf is a syphilis is engaged it causes an alia a great earlier to the net facilities that may abide with him self-immolators asked me to tell you what is that what's the salvia that the overwhelming essential powers of tell you are imported into him shallow minor mckaela mckaela ma'am Ruben the ticket in other words he gets a an abundance of energy unexpected that gives them a high so that's tell you so Nevers are citrus when the right will ultimately give an inspiration to it de Lille kiss that della kids will say wow where did that come from that feels great and it feels passionate and the answers that came from tell you but who filtered it through city's full of hey Mimi are you there very soon Isis that our son Chris Milan big vote it's through this precise activity that the depositions explain to us that the neshamah becomes a Mihalis well so this is listening to this was out the nefesh I by miss foiler might tell you energy then the summer is not on my holiday the my heart listen the summer is not walking if standing it's stagnant but when does it become a Mahalo that hears the words bleep fool at an effing item without limitation limitless when it benefits from the passion so you must have the passion but to get the passion you need an official series did someone want to say something earlier TV checker who was it was a guy it was a guy but there was a guy who was hired by the Shiva to come check your house for a TV no no no we didn't have that no in Subodh in the babish even in the strongest times that's not the approach [Music] and the father says a boy should Myesha you doing this look surely this guy went to Shiva with my father and turban tossed like you know 30 years 40 years before that so he says yeah but I'm here to see you know if you have a TV in the house my father takes that is wallet gives me my 50 says you don't see any TV here right he went home yeah I can't I can't deny that story even if I wanted to its text you know that's that's the way we are that's it yes motion what I just the terminology I make notes of the different terms I don't know like never have serious again what is it the human the human rational drive the intellectual aspect of man okay right and which is right between the nefesh holy kiss the godly soul the neshamah and the nether tsubame switch your you would call the y8 Sahara but as we if I see this it makes a distinction between gate Sahara and nefesh obamas so then Africa bomb Isis I want the left the nephrons are the kisses on the right and the nefesh are sequence is right in between but these are concepts you understand when we act when we use the word right left and center on all these things you understand this is not physical this is all you know in the mind of an idea conceptual and yeah that's right yes both motion yes question so I've been struggling the last number of days since I brought up that example you know the guy you know really Shabbos [Music] but the that whole like of going to shul early like that to me it's like as like zero draw for me in terms of inspiring me 0 0 should be 0 in other words I would be so much more comfortable going to make for early Shabbos morning of learning cities for like 2 hours coffee you know middle Mizuno's get into let's say at 10 o'clock minion doesn't be long long you know then for bringing you know me Shabbos Mincha let me davon later nice shallow shooters you know I don't I'm not anything don't want to be any new rush to end Shabbos but so I'm I'm struggling try to find like where's the balance like what what can I gain what can I gain from what can I gain from his early Shabbos my wife and I Boyd for years did we fight about she she wanted me make early Shabbos she wants when the kids were younger it was crazy I mean now the kids are older so it's not really an issue but just saying that you know I miss I'm asking you what what can you know what can what can I gain from that from thinking of my friends okay so so I understand the question practically you should not change your your way of serving Hashem and the way you described because that speaks to you okay and like I said yesterday day before to your friend the the the Nate's minion and everything else speaks to him however however within your within your avoider Jesus is a resource in general is is lauded so within your an example and so in other words not to rush your darvany not to rush your Shabbos you know but within what you do so I would say to be the quality of Jesus what you don't like about his approach I think is the quantity of his visas but the quality of sleazes is a very very important thing what what do I need the quality to get things done to get things done and not to push those things off so say for example we finish this minor and you say yourself tomorrow I'd like to spend you know I'd like to really review this minor with someone else here and on myself and really and spend the hours on it who is with and and who's going to do it right so you call five people and hopefully you get one and if not I gotta do it myself but yours yours others you're very adamant about accomplished this goal that is a act of sleazes within the confines of your style of king of Shabbos so I think what it's bothering you it sounds to me the reason it's bothering you is because you're saying is I don't want to do Nate's and I don't want to be so rigorous and and and when I'm answering you is you shouldn't want that if that's who you are that's a it's gonna be a contradiction to who you are and and the way you serve our sin and you have no obligation going that route but but in the quality the quality is it is a Pierre Thomas Jesus cuz I'll you know and that's in the element of Jesus now and this motion I have spoken about many times over the years that that most admires and that is that there is something healthy about Jesus and there's something healthy about here's the question how do you know that your chilling out and Shabbos is coming from your nephew surely get so inefficient office it's or remote and most of my students is it coming from the yanks a heart of the ancient place how do you know that you sleep begin in the morning is coming from the good side of the bad side and the truth is we don't know we do know but we pretend we don't know okay and if you detect and if you detect that it's coming from the gates of horror the nefesh obamas you should want to go the other direction as a as a servant of Hashem and this we all know and every I just chose this as an example but it's true in every aspect what is a a servant of a shell what does it anger that she'll be a huset being aspire to be a rich a seventh Russian means that I do what God wants not what I do and that's the heart of Veda but that's what I fight to is that's what I've lady is so Misha now coming to measure the other myself so much and when you say you know that you know you see his Aveda as a disturbed you know like kind of a disturbance to Europe later your attitude should be just the opposite I want to embrace the positive aspect of his advice that without doing it his way but the quality of that that's brought up that's brought to the you described experience to the Torah experience of Jesus that's the way I would have to take it to myself you know and and vice a versa person like him who looks at a person like you who wants to learn a minor or piece of the murder for that matter for two hours and not rush and then go mm and Dobby with with qivana and and you know and everything else as you described there's the quality at the end of the day the nature of a person normally drives them to the way they behave those that are impatient generally talking early and do it and it's over those that have more patience and are going in that way will take more other time and the same is some saying is that the temper of them plays into all of this - all of this that you're that you mentioned you know some people are night people and some people are morning people so yes mm LF you look laws the person who gets up at midnight who gets up early and I could tell you're someone who is a morning person that I'm in love with the morning I mean it's quiet it's clear right but I have some friends who could learn to to 3:00 in the morning who could write the to 3:00 in the morning so what's the difference they function better that way how they deal with governor melons recommendation I don't know but for them you know the night is their morning so I'm never going to you know belittle that unless it becomes a disturbance to showing bias and to community then then it's not good you know if you're gonna you know if you have to be up early to your job I have to be up in the morning early and I'm gonna be up to 3:00 4:00 in the morning every night and I'm gonna be fired for my job not after now so have an issue which on bias and with my kids and family and it's a mess you know so I think it's important to to you know to understand that that that Aveda of that friend of yours is not for you like you said loud and clear we all heard it and understand it but at the same time what's behind the avoid if it's kedusha it's something that you could use in your avoid someone else want to say something about this or anything else yeah and you know yeah and what what I find is sometimes as we go through life I don't know I find sometimes you fluctuate you know there were times I used to dive until 11 o'clock every day I learned through school I hung down that was a period that worked at that time now today I dive in at 5:30 of the Shred mischievous minion why for whatever reason I was that's what I did today the other day 2009 because I have a serious to this so you know and then then their trends you you feel more they fool more patient and at times you feel more agitated and you feel more unrest 'full I think these things also contributes to to the behavior and this is part of a vigor to assessing yourself okay guys have a great Travis book start Sunday please good conversation make the best of it which shop is babushka like your menorah and light it for your whole family community you know I don't think so Hillel because because he was in Baltimore in January January February or December January February was in Baltimore scientism take care and by the way that's 19 that's from 1942 Hillel the mind mat that was in Baltimore was nineteen twenty thirty bye-bye good Travis everything the child's take care of it