Practical Chasidus w R' Chaim Dalfin - Maamar Vata Titzave 1981 #4

brutha we are safe from my mother but look at volume six we are at chapter six is that right Moshe six paragraph six Zion we're in Lyon vote vote oh yeah could you lower it down the screen a little more I want to see I want to see Tuvia and y'all need you everybody show them those are there everyone's here okay let's continue okay guys let's go the Union who I want to finish this feeling you know the idea is I'm gonna do sir oh yeah we're talking about the faith that a Jew has he buddy friends whom I said not sales there it is in a manner that he has self-sacrifice for his faith who bigger barrel moon estimates I did Simon Schama primarily this refers to the level of a moon that we explain to Levis burning love yeah second line above this refers to the Emunah from the perspective of the essence of the show so there moon amit sadh say surya Bosley has the Emunah that's only is referred to that the soul sees right we spoke about the faith coming from seeing and the faith coming from the essence they says the Emunah from seeing Adam Sheba take of God low though it's very powerful skip the brackets week old mucker nevertheless keep in Shambala shelah him it's not sebum since the faith I told you this by heart yesterday so I'm just reading at insight since the faith is caused by something me suggestion oh yeah it's caused because he sees God the inner shooter a maximum she'll see it's not associated with his essence in the mukesh am sure now shells a so it's not absolute that he will have self-sacrifice if your faith comes from any level of understanding including a deep understanding as though you see the issue is clear to you it's wonderful but it still doesn't mean jump into the fire the sastra look at the Israeli belief information I shall make them una bella cosa better surely and the Emunah we're a Jew is ready to jump into the fire for God do whatever it is for our sham and never give aways is his faith and then display it it comes from when one's and Munna is ingrained in their essence and it comes from their essence it doesn't come because they perceive God in any way shape or form the Lehane look at the last words of this paragraph every lousy is percussive element it is impossible to deny God you know there is I accept God listen to this Yuda I accept an amide imide an ela for now huh and then there is a fairly poor I cannot deny topia the idea of not being able to die is much deeper in the person than the idea is I acknowledge you God I acknowledge you God Mode an elephant never comes from a perception from an idea from a clarity that's great right when you wake up in the morning when you wake up in the morning you open your eyes you save money because oh I realize I'm alive that's already a realization there is something even beyond the realization and that is you are God because your body is here so and if you're any of you that's who made you God have cookies Burcu so something that someone told me he was he lived a brand said of the sweater mreb he lived in Marin and there was a hustle if a bar closer just London mikasa wherever and he took care of him was an older man he moved Terrance's frog he lived in America it came from Russia move to America and then he went back there to throw the best they passed away they're too strong so he this said the slogan grandson who took care of him because he was an old man he told me that when he sit next to his bed then when to get up in the morning he would like jump out he says I'm alive it's like I'm alive that's it the sensation Boas that you're alive is even deeper than the sensation of Mulder that's what we're talking about here and it's from that perspective I can't deny God why can't that cuz I'm not myself who who do I belong to I belong to a seven so even if I want to deny him god forbid I can't it just doesn't go it doesn't work that's the deepest level of Macias nefesh where you're so bound you're so connected it says it's as though your freewill has been stripped from you although it hasn't but the you're better said your freewill is so impersonal that it feels as though you can't move to the right of the left and you have to again and and and you display your faith next paragraph well peace that yes well if I am what yeah yes yes yes very good very good well these are yes Olivia Marshak of entrusted by my man and this will explain what we went to the mind the motion who Ryan mayhem Moshe is the faithful shepherd skip the bracket parentheses who gamba the Galilean strokes at the hold or the previous rabbit his discourse emphasizes it doesn't only apply to motion applies to every Jewish leader who is analogous to Moshe Rabbeinu in every generation and he says the is lucid emotion to behold our Tehama customer said muna these Jewish leaders they support the Emunah within every Jew she young EE citizen efforts that we Jews should stand strong with self-sacrifice became afraid of menses the localization Lisa's own father said muna the fact that moisture feeds the Emunah skip the parentheses a nation experienced OH - bellicose by giving a Jew that's real deep knowledge of God in God so I say I they say boy I wanna be yes we learned earlier mostly causes the faith of a Jew to be internalized it's Moses accomplishment right that's why you need a motion you'll need emotion knocks into our head that faith is deep within us not just a superficial possession I used to don't see beholder Mycoskie my mundo and the fact that the leaders of the generation they support the Emunah of in every generation within those Jews of the generation who said melodious throaty a boy from the visitors nefesh they not know what does it mean the internalization of faith that the faith should be ready to have bacillus nefesh if the faith is not ready to receive its nefesh there's something lacking there was a hustler driver from recent revival of my yard who I knew was one of my must be him and he would say he was one of the people who who made a confident with the previous eleven that do-or-die they're going to spread you the sky in Russia after Stalin shut everything down so he would say a famous line hero he say any Jew and any questions he was talking with his friends look I see them is that any hustle that's not ready to allow themselves to be slaughtered by the neck is not a real question you imagine I mean that's at that time at that time in Russia in the 20s and 30s that was the mission you know this is no there's no in fact it's either you're ready to be slaughtered and with God's help you won't be slaughtered or you're not really connected you're a great guy you're a great shoe and everything but if you're not ready that's what he would say to them so don't tell me you learn a lot of Taylor and you doubt me for hours and you give a lot of Seductor are you willing to go on the front lines many many people will do all kinds of great things but then I will he took on the great one of the front lines it's scary we don't want to do that so maecenas nefesh that ever said say what does why should I pay to do he gives a Jew the Emunah in an internalized way to the point that if it should be that you need to see the snare fish you're ready to stand up to the challenge without any issue at all that's an amazing accomplishment that we we we get from OSHA if we allow ourselves to be Moses men if you don't want to be moshus man no problem you're on your own if you go and you sign up to the to the Peace Corps of Moshe Rabbeinu and you say I'm dedicated to you because you represent others Burkle's will and as a sadiq and as I read their and as a leader and I know that your directive is coming from on high then you're in a very very special space spot space okay everyone's good and everyone's fine but this is a very different idea that's what we're learning let's continue pious women it could be that I met him this is in France I'm on the gospel based on this we could say the primary idea yoni of Moshe up there you'll be the faithful separated is that he feeds the faith itself not that he he makes faith being real faith you hear that you though he makes a muna be quality and muna in other words there's there's second great sec ramona and his first choice at muna moshe rabbeinu makes it possible for their mothers by a jew to be first choice cynics waves sam moon until a doctor but she beats other Gilliam's kept the parentheses elevator that's a Montezuma the faith should not be only superficial but rather from the essence possession but he said modulus at one of the premiers and the fact that Michelle brings this choicest and muna in internally into the internal aspect of the Jew who take some is there it's a result from the from this truth under father's eminence well it's because he sustains faith itself in other words for faith to be in the jewel internalized way the faith that's to be quality a faith mostly finally if the faith is not quality a bit quality be even when it's goes deep into the Jew it's not gonna have the result of being ready to stand in the front because the the content the quality of the of the faith is not the ultimate quality its choice B versus choice with its tier 2 versus tier 1 so that's what that ever says here what is much should I pay to do he order a and Munna in other words when we 20 say listen to this in Kazan when the rabbi's the sages say Moses called the loyal Shepherd heroic Araya mayhem we've all heard that normally what that means is that why is he called why is he called the loyal separate because he takes care of us the Sheep he's concerned about us he's concerned about the the flock well the learning now is another interpretation of deeper interpretation he's called the loyal of the faithful Shepherd because he Shepherds faith with faith to be the ultimate faith it's not referring to us it's referring to the Munna roh-roh riah mahem nur he is the riah the shepherd of faith not for us but for faith itself that faith and that the Emunah should be that quality of a Munna what Boaz are you found are you unless fear where are you no no I'm saying yoga my men said you understand this idea you have a goal or or not I'd want to make sure you everyone understands right right riah manner the right Aramaic surah translated the papal Shepherd but you think riot mana he's the Shepherd of faith itself right nauseous right yeah that's what the rebus says it over here and although this is the nuance that he adds and my memory you don't find this is not the normal way it's explained in in Kazan and even if a citizen motion right took it this is not the regular way this is the finish a novelty that we get the rebus said in 1981 and we're learning it now that he is the ryr of faith he is he makes faith into faith if you think if you think about this it's such a and and we saw this with the Rebbe I wanted to tell you thousands and thousands of people came from all kinds of people and wrote that in the spoke and you could say that not only did he give a Jew encouragement and build a Jew and help you know but he brought out the deepest and best within the Jew because he brought out the deepest and best of what faith is of what Jewishness is but till there ever we kind of we kind of understood Jews this is a page of the murder and a page of the sinners or a beer - no you're no beard there episode no it's not about your beard over it's not about your your black Camaro or your give that's all very important and there's obligations and this I love this absolutely but it's the quality the quality needs to be the one that's totally got that is that is a unique a unique aspect and again it came in different forms it came I just read yesterday a thirteen-year-old boy from a fula wrote to the rapper that he's having a Bar Mitzvah and you going back probably for 5060 years and he asks for a broker for his Bar Mitzvah and then he also has to read the question why don't you come tear up this row and that's a question that many people ask but this thirteen year old on his own wrote this and the revit answered and usually a Bar Mitzvah boy the letter that which the rebel responded giving a brother to a Bar Mitzvah boy was a standard letter that he that he that he signed his name to you know but it was pretty much a standard brother here there is an additional PS and there ever said take for example he says a doctor or another professional if he parks himself and placed himself in a place where he's not needed he's wasting his knowledge he's wasting his abilities a person needs to put themselves where they'll be used most will their book be needed most where they can make the biggest difference that's all there ever says it explained he doesn't say about himself but the answer is understood that it you know being in America he felt that again I don't know when what they felt that he is able to give most of himself to Jews and Judaism being there I think he was referring to because he said this to other rabbis the famous story the young gizzle rabbi it's on a living Torah gem video where he wanted to make Ali I retire to his congregation in America and he said the rabbit asked him and so where you think you settling they said well you know shall I am right if you're gonna make ugly already too you know and after you retire most people want to beautiful I am if you can afford the real estate even to rent the place there anyway so so the rebus says really it or shall I in whose what are you gonna do here wasn't lying all I'm gonna teach him the distances really they just have so many teachers you think that need you as a teacher and they're ever said to him what about you know going to Tel Aviv what about going to another neighborhood another area another city where you are more needed okay he didn't listen you know he wasn't a faucet you know he did what he had to do what he wanted to do and years later his son and his son says over everything I'm telling you son says my father had a miserable time here or shall I am because no one looked at him no one called in him every time they can Harry is teaching you know and there's many tell me the Salman forget about Tom greet real family to the humming everyone stinks in Hebrew English French Russian you name it you got a teacher so who's looking at you so he was miserable and it was the only after he decided to move I think to Tel Aviv or in another city where he found himself teaching any and he found happiness so the son you know said that the rep is worst my father were so precise and accurate this is the secret here on online so why am I saying this because we're learning here about the quad Sadiq forever emotion Rubino builds faith itself in order for the faith to be properly applied it needs to be that quality of faith so when one had an experience of either writing they've communicated to the river or or or meeting with them or alerted a learning his Torah and identifying with his message as as it sadiq it's a way of it's a way of of making the right choice you make the choice you have free will right the rabbit didn't tell that person you can't do anything could stop at me could everyone is free will you just remember that everyone has free will because that's where Shem says is most essential for Humanity and especially for the Jewish people they have lyrics of sheep free will no one's gonna tell you you can't make the choice but someone who is smart who doesn't want to have Taurus or have less surgeries and have more happiness and go why why go the crooked way and here this is an expression of how most of us gauge the rough included at the can skank life why do you go on the crooked path is you can go straight you you want to get to a certain place right so why do you have to go this way that way this way is exact in and out and have police give you tickets and they crashes and make Pahoa going to the paddles just go the straight way right what do we know that if I thought it might be a longer way but you'll get there quicker because it's a straight way you go on the freeway you don't have the red lights yeah there are traffic jams but it's the freeway right you go through the lights oh yes so you do have that today the the ways and then and the Google Maps and it takes you right and left but but just know it's happened that I tried that one sitting up in the very air you know I went from some Arab villages and luckily you know I made it through I have no idea what I'm going from following a machine instead why did I do that because I was on the road back and there was on this road I forget which what number there was such traffic I said I ain't waiting this traffic and I made a u-turn of the road and put on the GPS and followed it and lose that I know it took me through Arab villages I have no idea where what I really have until today but all I saw was Arabs so sometimes a shortcut is not the answer in it's so so and so when it's not I tell someone you know you're thinking of living in Jerusalem he's telling you maybe you should go to Tel Aviv or somewhere else use your cup use your seho and and understand that it's the quality of a muna that is building in you to be able to do that and this is where we as Jews need to identify with tradition let's continue okay he says okay now that self-assemble epiphany is the dice are they giving scratches after that's ensemble well PA Ashley he says the possession of a tennis shoes from his natural point listen to this is a phenomenon the those generations where the seriousness right Chanukah poor in Holocaust Russia those generations that required actual self-sacrifice look what it says in the Machine F is the poem he score yes I skipped the the leaders of the Jewish people at a time they supported us I'm one of the associates they gave the Jews of the time the collapse the strength to go forward with self-sacrifice this gathering in the right manner are using my shots my Wow the idea of the faith being the the you know the real faith it expressed itself more than in mice himself well I am self as the giving up Monica but she decide that's in the summer it can is go side ever since let's repeal this is also big novelty when you have to display Macias nefesh in actuality it's greater than all torque and old philosophy so therefore when the Jews in Russia and the Jews during the Holocaust and during the Spanish Inquisition and Purim and Hanukkah and all those times when we had to display mysterious nefesh that level of self-sacrifice is even greater than the munna that motion himself asks because then one of the motion self has is still yet in ideology form in philosophy form it's not in the trenches when you got to put those boots on and marching those boots in the Smiths those boots are made for walking and walking all over you hey you guys know that song probably right how do I know that song because an eighth cradle of Barbra Jean Shiva English teacher brought in a movie that played that and look how it still hasn't left my brain that's the impact oh look I'm so mad I'm on the 60 and this was when I was let's say 10 11th grade I was 18 or so it's still in your cup that's how music has an impact and visual things remember remember be careful what you hear and care for what you see because it ain't going out till your eyes closed and you go Six Feet Under anyway not to make anyone feel bad because we're living forever right the lobos's say we're living tonight a hundred and twenty to one hundred and eighty machinist is coming and we're gonna live forever but you might be a short time of death because you have to resurrect from the earth and come out but anyway the point being the point being all kidding aside is that Messina's nefesh is the greatest thing and that's why the rebel of the soldiers and the and and and and the foolish people from the right and the left and including from many Orthodox groups and from groups you know they had complaints and and the Rebbe loved and sent Hanukkah money and sent disgust even to go to the fronts to dance put on tefillin give a doughnut to soldiers standing in Lebanon or you know on the border over there or wherever else why because it's a machinist nefesh Matteo you're sitting you rely on your city of Borough Park your city wherever he Los Angeles and you're a big talker I want to see you go out to the front with a gun with boots and a trench coat and and you know a face your enemy and and hide and what they should say you know and then you know and it comes so close to tanake al god forbid know that so so machinist nefesh is is the business is the highest form of commitment Russia now doesn't mean to say we all of us should put ourselves in in in you know on the front no cuz a we're not made for it physically be that's not our role but we have to understand that those people that are on the front and I don't mean just physically fighting but those people who are investing in the Jewish people they are by bringing Eden back to you described and and and teaching and and and and and showing kindness and putting themselves aside those people are are the Macedo staffers people and the rebel says here in the minor in a way they have even more emunah that most himself big motion of Bengal the leader the one who who makes it possible for us to display this yet who displays that in actuality the people the poem Amish this is what we learned there you do a chapter six seven now it's know shabby citizens report tell Mr Cook I'll call you slow who hates an important all Jews important have bussiness nefesh tribe machinist nefesh The Chronicle didn't see this narrative chronicler race the democracy of one of it Natasha um but if they had it - Arizona but conversely to the citizen efficient of Haman's times pouring plates the before you saw all Jews had it please Olivia must move on - Ramesh - a monthly circle pathetically she betrayed it says a marriage that Mordecai was equivalent in his generation it was equal sorry to Moshe during his generation God says Appaloosa the nation of the hold up even though majors extensions the elite generation so what makes Mordechai more special Nicole mark of Issa and magnets and Mordechai and shuffled the data Commission the data for yesterday might what's the answer wise mortified singled out shahe mindless to mortify hayehudi who sure hired ray an eminence have called you sociable daily it was because this individual Mordechai in his generation he was obviously known to everyone he is the leader so in other words yes there are other leaders during other generations but you don't know about them but here was one man that everyone knew bazookas Richard I am not comparable to Moshe she himseif docile call you socially who brought this level of das to every junior generation can move of Gambas Asher David so moisture nickeled idea right excessive man and it says that Moses generation was called the generation of knowledge Dorthea why because he brought das he brought knowledge to Jewish people in this generation skip the brackets yes lemma we might say validation maybe by my master cost of the medicine work-related circulation but data our ever saying this he's saying the fact that my father-in-law brings the measures that Mordecai and this generation is equal to motion his generation are you days that possible how my mother's have dinner locks away he made it the same ruling about himself my father-in-law by quoting it he was kind of alluding to himself they're ever saying that the previous left-right that what you are I am a Hamner begin we that he is the loyal Shepard in a revealed waste of coal are shared or that's a heavy statement on the I read but can say that but that's what he says that's it you can you know it's saying you're the shrines of ice black on white that's right here that's nice Peter yes Olivia cash or any other we could explain the couldn't the connection to the postage for after that safa epithelium advisor Peters about service means so first we explain the the meaning of Allah the sovereign Shamu share whom Akasha Mahabad me so it is Marina Bay know that connects and binds Jews i de shoes on for a second them because he sustains the faith within the jewel well I was in a Vienna if there isn't that this course my father only explains cigar a useful beholder even that all also the leaders of any generation McCarthy Emma said one of the Slocum a mortify sophisticates a mother show you smile just like Mordecai who supported the faith of Jews llama close up to stand strong believer that a team is just learning ten signatures well I was invited Peters because it's my mind and after this he explains the meaning of the oil the olives being crushed round grinded well possession motion the garlic penis hammer these throw the fact that my shirt feels the ultimate level of godliness in a Jew called the Illuminati the more source of light who be equalized in Susa delay sebas mana goes it's through his extension and goggles later will be a slow player publishing official ahem he arose within them the bussiness nefesh Shia days there will be equal who eat can give me an Simon Schama through this it's the main revelation he ok let's continue because it let's go on to let's go on to know I want to go to test the he may our course of cosel's the Qibla hood we quoted earlier a verse the Jewish people received right during Purim capella you again they share a halo losses we accepted upon ourselves what we began when Moshe when at sensitiveness Boas right losses McGovern bisman Solarian s reported losses McGovern does mine shall I flee at the nest reported yesterday but the master cousin by Miami the pizza boy hood the measure la salute you may or may escape of my Chanel button tied up this idea that the measure says we accept it upon ourselves during pouring what we what we began accepting where the turtle was given in hearts tonight who gamma V parsec us of it so so according to the simple text while peace a busy yes possession of America's rate as people might feel about anti to stay on I'm skipping this part it's too complicated that's the next paragraph or you know then you know disaster you Sirois that's why I told I told small that this my mer you know to learn it every every every page in every line it's it's it's complicated but but we will just learn what's this next paragraph is is the smack and understandable okay cool climate hey well you know this is the paragraph before paragraph ten before I should ok you have it for Indian Bizet you have it now in you busy okay the sesh hame savour team is a shame the goggles the fact that we Jews are brokenhearted because we're in golos gum - yes l'm horribly but gosh mr. burdock is even though they have lots of material and spiritual matter nevertheless their meat they're missing the soul which is Masyaf which and wearing goggles who kid it's a me I meet this girl F will be so because the true will of every Jew should you know the goose will you kill early cuz every Jew really wants that godliness should be apparent I wanna feel and see God and I don't see it in my yacht and I don't see it in my bowling alley and I don't see it in my shoe so I am down I know that you know you're providing for me and it's all good but where is Hashem why are we in goes but I just said you and it could snag a lad summit seriously until that this idea that he wants the person that you want God to be a parent touches his essence exodus you see for the hangings a ship is Monaco those eight male give really cools the fact that godliness is not a parry during goals God commercially was mana bias as it was when the temple would the base--emitter stood over flat look at the next brackets very important to both wrath kitchen is very busy particularly when you contemplate on the puzzle on the saint of the rabbi Shammai Rahzel quote listen to this call me Chalet if that base I make this be your mouth whoever has not seen and witnessed the rebuilding of the temple of the base of meekness during his days ha days there ke lunesta fiamma's it's as though it's been destroyed during your lifetime that's not classy this stuff Kabbalah it's not Musa oh that's a hassle o manasa 46 you know show me it's your show me and a Madras Dylan maybe we say that we will not not exactly that level about that language for that concept so one second so here it is we have everything you have gosh we have real fears but the persons bothered where where's this where's the Messiah where's the steamers and ghosts and he says the Casal support me cuz I'll say that if I don't see the rebuilding of the base of meters during my lifetime it's as though it was destroyed now not 2,000 years ago powerful continuing he may say ice money says that at this thought itself is that in God's insult Raceland he becomes look at the others words in gansan means totally to trace old shook up shook up shake-and-bake shook up he's so taken he's so moved cautious and then because his brain grinded welcome dressed totally crushed what it's the sun's out that tremors is beautiful it's great Netanyahu one Trump is here but the bad by papal bulls everything is great party time no he says the streamers and goals I can't sleep at night I can't eat I'm oh man I can't think properly that's called a GaN sensit result so very beautiful Yiddish words remember those words in gansan totally completely sheet result shook up the God Cohiba darkest night was be I said even if he's at a very high level she made a slur give really close that godliness apparent by this poor fellow big Duke must have given up his mind of the buyers let's do this let's say he himself is Holy Roller big topic and he has godliness apparent of his like Nicole monkey nevertheless means should the whole Asylum a made of Yui the fact that throughout the world there isn't this revelation Mooka it proves Chicago Gilliam and actually that what he has who given mudball is a limited experience you can't have complete revelation if the world around you doesn't have complete revelation okay you can be and may assure him and get Lula and a ballpark and learn and dove in and be surrounded you're but you're you're fooling yourself if the world around you is not inspired to God you are lacking but you said that I have my hot mikvah and I have my hot salt and I have my my comforts and I have my rabbis and my classes what do you mean I'm not goes oh you're only one little part of the equation you're such a little infertile part of the equation what about going out to Manhattan the scene what's going on or to Tel Aviv and see what's going on no no I'm sitting at it it may have started a pool of the chairman of Barclays word or Los Angeles I you don't have real revelation you have a little tiny bit and you can convince yourself and live in a big fantasy and you know my friends you all know very well if you have that attitude it's not you it's your kids and if not your kids your grandkids and I can give you hundreds of examples of big rabbis and unfortunately their kids marry Klien charter and I don't go on and on okay if I told you the names you freaking you're laughing it happened to red well I'll tell you what happened and it's continued to happen Ruthie you cannot roofing this is not this is this this didn't begin in America I am studying Poland I'm studying with my own ancestors you can't imagine what was going down there the the assimilation starting in the 20s the pole today was their rebellion you know occasionally when they weren't married so they took off their beards they threw away the yarmulke they threw the stapler and they became secular so for them they wouldn't marry a non-jew okay they had a limit but from where they were coming my great-grandfather had a beard kissed his belly button right all of his kids took off their beards now some some written not all some remain from some didn't remain who's saying what was going on and then he said this happened in every family I read her an account of dr. rabbi Hillel Seidman who says pre-war Europe he says there wasn't a family that there wasn't as an expression Hebrew ain't biased I sure ain't some mace there isn't the home where there isn't one at least one dead person what does he mean doesn't mean that he means spiritually better they left the fold that's the expression Poland guerre I'm son of Alexander you're talking about a seat great for citizen with everything else and in Russia with the lip Fox for sure I mean and Sluggo can hear all over there was you know I'm just saying that so for someone to say I want to sit in my little corner you play you're playing with fire you you're being so selfish because it's going to come back against you I'm telling you it is it's just a matter of crime and we and we see it so rather than the get out and in court look take away from your trying and learning and go out to a kibbutz talk to them about tour admits is talk to them about Hashem reach out invite them and you don't have to be a little barbecue for this you have to be a hustle for this you have to be a Jew that's concerned about what we're learning right here what are we learning right here we're learning right that if even though you yourself are inspired but the fact that the whole world doesn't have that inspiration that shows that your inspiration is a limited one will continue tomorrow yes yes about the situation that I got a text this morning but my cousin in LA 70 Texas said she got an email from our uncle of mutual on Gorda that about a year and a half ago the uncle he had a he's on the he's on the the ducks and you were so lines he's okay he has a daughter that had a baby and we only found out about a year and a half axes so we don't know if it's a boy or girl he barely right my daughter had a baby Mazel Tov buh-buh-buh-buh now we know it happened like a year and a half ago because the lawyer told us something that we shouldn't have known but we know that but it took him a year and a half for the this big rabbi and about my uncle to admit that his daughter had a child with another woman okay and nobody knew nobody went through the bridge nobody went to the Prince nobody from the family went to the bridge these kids are out in San Diego you know saying it's like he to be here to have for him to come clean no they knew doctor didn't touch you actually had the baby with another woman whatever we have to finish her the thing I said to help reach out and not blame anybody and just continue reaching out will continue tomorrow's I deserve that