Ohr lArba 1940 #13- Why don't I feel G-dly after I meditate on G-dliness - bc I'm coarse, unrefined

so we're on page uh 166 in the mimer brazil chapter six facebook a lot about also what we're sorry we're at the bottom of 165. we we we we're the bottom line mikhail malcolm you're right i'm sorry okay 165 mccombo it's very common but if they are chambered villa by those that invest themselves we call that those it indavating we call those individuals hashem have you heard the term i have them the singular is ay vade plural is of dim the rapper refers to them over here or if they hashem in chabad there is a one moment there is a a buzzword that the heirs of the laboratory perk up he is an oyvate when you say that about a lababatcher booker or young man or older i mean someone who spends a lot of time dabbing concentrate concentrating much and dominating yes masha yeah what so what's the difference because i've heard this before and i just forgot and i know there is a significant difference in lavabitch between the versus an ovid and an evid your yeah yes and no that that's chapter 15 and tanya the altar ever there says inevit is in in present tense is someone who no no chapter 15 dr ebba says the difference between god's servant and lawyer not his servant it's a gomorrah and the gomorrah says the difference between doing something 100 times or 101 times that's not that's not what you're referring to no it's not an evident and i've never i've never heard i i don't recall such a difference i i i think i think what you're referring to is the difference between a oyvate and a mosquito so i i don't know you get me get me a reference on that i would love to you know see it because i don't know evan means a servant which does avoid her i don't i don't remember but anyway the word ayurvedic is there has great significance the greatest respect in khabad is for someone who's an ayurveda not someone who's a mosquito moscow meaning someone who is very strong in understanding the deep ideas of hasidus that in khabad as much as it's uh you know wow it's at the end of the day not as great as an avid because someone who can spend time hours dabbing focused and darvening and and expressing ava and davening it's it's something of a different level so that you should just know those terms in the chabad lexicon i don't know if you saw but you really should be reading a book i wrote called uh lubavitch speak alibaba speak is a dictionary of chabad colloquialisms and uh words and expressions i wrote it specifically to bring people into the lebanese culture who didn't grow up with lebanese culture so you if you're if a person is interested in that they would know what's being referred to when you use a certain word so this is an example when you say the word ovate in another community literally for sure and even other hasidis communities it does not have the same meaning as it has in chabad it has a great meaning but it's a very different meaning what i just told you the meaning of the word evidence is not the meaning of that word the way it's in literature communication not even others so that's an example of a of a word used in this culture that has a specific meaning and and so the book has the the word the transliteration of the word and the meaning what we mean with it's the that word usage in the in the chabad world so for example another word is an adam he is a human what does that mean every person is another in the babbage see them would say adam he is a wholesome person whose muslim who's complete in various in many in in in all areas that are necessary to be a godly person in in torah in avodah in the gina maybe you know he's muslim that was the particular word that they would say about a certain hostage oh he's an odom you ask a guy in ponovich what does that mean he's going to tell you it means that he's a person a human being has something so i'm just saying this you know their their every culture has its words and i'm sure in the literature culture they are let's say the word steigen right what the word schteigen means in the litvis world is very different than the chabad world in the chabad world we don't even we barely use the world schteigen we barely use it in fact because the literature turned the word stagging into what they mean by steigin i would say that khabad it and the word steigen in khabar is looked down upon so if you go to a a chabad bar mitzvah and you were asked to speak and you say this by mitzvah boy he stinks in learning the laboratories in that crowd if they're not laughing at you they'll drop their heads and like it's like come on here's a little baba it's your boy so in other words it's the word schteigen the the way it's become used in the literature culture in the chabad culture it's i'm going to say it's disgusting it's it's not where it's at do you understand this it's apostles right mr said it's not befitting yeah but but let's let's turn around you know we have to be honest you know this is not you know i'm better than you look at the delicious cult culture that word is kedushantara yeah yeah in the literature in the literature culture the works diagon is not considered guyva that's the norm and if someone's really striking and learning that that's a value that's a virtue same word two cultures two different meanings opposite of each other right but it has to do with what the entire literature culture has been built into finding it around right fine fine but i'm saying and and and so how would you say it in the chabad in the chabad he learns so you know i'm just saying that as you as you as you learn and you grow and you you inculcate and all that you know and i'm sure uh it's in in the bustner culture there must be some words that that have a particular meaning there that you don't have in chabad and and and of course in the literature world et cetera et cetera so i'm just i don't think we have our own lexicon but we don't you don't hear people say styke you don't you right i don't think that we have a reflection because that wasn't that wasn't it wasn't the european i think that very much is a lichfish that's like that's the goal that's the that's what you're shooting for to be a steigen entire it's what you hear all the time but not uh we you don't hear that in boston yeah yeah okay anyway i i'm just saying so when we say here i've from the bottom of page 165 on the ramps so that's why i got off on this because he says we find that by many people who are if they hashem so a regular person reading this will say if they're hashem means someone who serves god big deal i mean you know okay but really darwin's in chabad or even hashem it means this person and this group of people they're in their own class and let's continue [Music] next page 166 although they they they exert diligence harvey much diligence because requires reflection and meditation his bonus that's true avoider in the in in the chabad context his bonanus and he comprehends and he understands and comprehends betraying very well the idea that he's contemplating about umi spoil bin michael to the point where he understands now in his he he is impacted in his mind but emmaus the example i've given in the past to repeat this you think about how much you like your wife and you think about how much garbage in your house stinks when it's full and you say it's disgusting you say you know what my wife is tired i'm going to take out the garbage and put it into the bin you understand i mean this is a silly example but you understand that it's not right to leave the garbage in the house and have your wife take it out or slip so from understanding it goes to a place in the brain in the moa which we call hispailus the emotionalism in the brain meaning i have other in other words oh when you take out the garbage are you feeling love for your wife if you are you're out of your mind [Laughter] what you're feeling is i'm doing the right thing so there is a mint a feeling there is a his pilot but it's not a spilowed bellev spiral bellevue is a heart palpitation okay he's spiraled but mayak is not a heart palpitation it's a brain movement i want to make sure you you you understand this is this clear or you want me to elaborate more on this the difference between an emotion of the heart and a spineless so the rabbit says when you die and you think of let's say about the concept of how hashem created the creates the world ex nilo yeshmiah hashem is here and yet he's distant because if he's too much here he overwhelms us but you think about this idea you understand it so it goes from a place of understanding to a place of a spilot that causes you to say up here i want more of this of this godliness i don't feel yet godliness like israel said you know i don't feel the pain of the other person but i understand that there's pain here and i understand that pain is real i don't have it yet the uh i think the best verse unison to describe this is in to heal him i believe it's chapter end of chapter 74 where david says the closeness of god is good for me so siddha says in this four words there are three steps there is elokim god one number two is kirvas elokim the closeness of god that's already the way you're close to god or god is close to you that's already a departure from pure god into what we call here the emotionalism within the brain the the notion that god can be close in other words god being close of god being distant is already a notion there is something that precedes that is god not closeness and not distance god himself atmos essence so there is elokim says elokim then he says kirvas elokim the closeness of god and then he says li tov it's good for me in other words we have three steps you could be at the place of just god you could then come to the idea that god is close and then finally i want god lee that's the heart that's the heart palpitation and you should know that these three steps are true in every aspect of life if you could break down almost everything or everything into these three stages right a spouse taurus says marriage marriage is correct i need a spouse right like the bachelor of uh in the babbage when they told him to go find the he went to the masjid don't go here there and knock on the door and a girl opened the door and he said i'm evil oh a girl and he ran the other way he knew the idea of marriage because the terror speaks about the marriage and mercedes conduction was all about marriage when it came to reality and he opened the door and he saw a girl he ran away because you know he's not supposed to meet girls and talk to girls and then she runs the other way but wait a minute you're going there for marriage it doesn't register because there is elo kim there is marriage and then there is the concept of kier vasilo kim and finally keva selokim litov and these three steps are three worlds and if you think about it and i want you maybe shabbos to think about this this idea because i think it's very important it's it's it's so it's the way we interact with ourselves and and spouses and children and families and friends and sure than everybody where you could be someone's you know someone you become their acquaintance and then your friend three steps another an acquaintance and a friend let's continue so there ever says here that although you meditate well on the idea and you have this emotionalism on in the head the imna it does not result in a feeling of the heart vahci what's the reason he is because your soul your nephesh is bound to corporeality sleeping eating and other pleasures you're you're you're one with those those got you you're in their web shame gimme sorry these are what we refer to as the three ministers of paris which prevent feeling god in the heart that's the answer issa brought it up the other day regarding the suicide the pain and all that we spoke about it so practically why is it we could learn and learn to learn and learn and we can feel dull like a stone the answer is because we're still mikusher to achilla and the rabbit said before they seek his abdomen anger meaning you know unpro inappropriate emotional behaviors my mates are in order to get out of this limitation this also requires the neck when we spoke that comes from the air of the heart then going through the throat here we go abram this is your field music coil sound and he says it's brought down that coil sound voice arouses the in inner intent believe that it should be also felt in the heart so practically speaking coil can you go back for a second can we speak about that point you just made a person could be learning all day yet they're cold as a stone now unfortunately i feel like i see that all the time and let me ask you you see it you see it in others or you see it yourself too that's a good question so all right so so i i would have to say that i feel it in others i see it in so many different circumstances and circles and i just feel i just it's a natural visceral reaction that i have that i see like someone and then and and i so so so maisha i won't i won't elaborate but i i'll just say that i see this in myself if i can gravitate to food in automatic or to the sleeping and automatic um then then i am part of this issue that the rebbe says here so what am i why am i expecting how can i expect to feel hashem to love hashem to fear hashem if that's not in my dna yet and what's in my dna is eating sleeping and then pleasures [Music] so so when you say you see it in others i think you're you're it's yes looking at others you know may might be easier than finding ourselves and again i'm not i'm not here to point the finger at you i'm just saying when's the last time a person gave a they gave away their bed gave away their food completely not knowing not knowing where they're gonna sleep if someone doesn't have a bed remember but even in bet chemistry i remember there were certain people who asked where they could sleep and no one was going to give them a bed i mean doesn't that tell you that the culture again assuming they're safe not not if they're dangerous but if they're safe and and maybe that's part of the equation not maybe it is but the the the the the the self is so strong that's what the devil is talking about here mikusharan look at the word that he uses he used the word he is not sure second and the second line his consciousness means you're tied up you're completely tied up to khumrim isn't just material gotcha abuse whom it means corporeality you come into a shoe you have a kiku without sugar and it's four days old and then you have a good piece of cake which one are you choosing we know what we're choosing why because it tastes better now someone who's truly truly nama kusha to goshmias the whole idea of tasting better taste and worse should make no difference to molesties that's hadik who can make you who them and really is at a level which we're not so who of who are we fooling so when when you talk about moisture you see so many people that can that learn and their hearts like a stone that ever saying that it begins in the person themselves in that there is a blockage that harmony is brings to a person and again whether it's it's it's it's a gila dia sleeping other pleasures those pleasures are a blockage and unless you unplug that blockage you can't i don't know i i guess i'm not i'm not right now i'm not completely related to what you're saying because to me i see people all the time who they're like will use the you know they're learning a lot it could be a person it's like a person's a rosh shiva and could be that they're not into gosh myth so much it could be that they mamas only make kiddish on grape juice okay but i see them and i see how they look i see how they carry themselves and it's just to me it exudes coldness and i think it's like like that it was only that's always been such a turn off for me yeah i didn't hear well i didn't hear one word you said it exudes what coldness coldness oldness oldness like who would want to be attracted but like i don't me i don't i don't get it i don't understand but but my shirt i know what you're saying but mike i think you are looking in this issue and i've heard it from you you know several times i believe i understand what you're saying you're looking at the chinese of this thing which is fine it's the you're looking at the outside we are analyzing the inside we're not so it's a different analysis so i'm not saying what you're saying is wrong but that's not that's not the discussion here i mean i have no problem discussing that issue you know with you um but that's not what we're talking about here when you're talking about you know people who are cold so they're you know they have a temper that's cold that's a different well i see it sort of as i see it a little bit deeper than just the template but but if i could throw in and i don't want to get the discussion too far off yeah because i have to go to another sheer go ahead so i i think that intellectualism for people is often an escape from the difficulty of dealing um in a more deeper way with emotionalism meaning that um it's hard dealing with emotions um emotions it's a difficult work and as i said i'm speaking as one who has difficulty feeling the penalty who wants to feel the pain of another but you know for for even our own experiences the the the painful ones sometimes the escape could very easily be to take on an intellectual approach to life and an intellectual approach to um to learning that sets up a a wall so to speak that i don't have to deal with emotions i just put everything in the context of how do i understand this rationally how do i understand this intellectually and i don't have to um feel the emotions it gets in the deep philosophy we used to study in in philosophy secular philosophy why do people enjoy uh you know going to tragedies or watching tragedies why do some people not but there's a a tevla of i don't want to experience emotions and so by being intellectual i and that's not necessarily a cognitive process it could be a subconscious process of i don't need to deal with it i'm not affected by it i i analyze everything from a rational and intellectual perspective or from a dollar perspective you can say you know in the right but around the learning but this discussion that you you you just took it's not what we're talking about here i mean you can you can extrapolate but that that's not what we're talking about here we're talking about here is a person who is blaming very well an idea and he wants to feel and why doesn't he feel it's a different motion do you understand it's a very different it's a very different it's not it's not what you presented it's talking about a different person who is an avid who wants to feel warm and loving and emotional and he can't now i'm not saying that that that what israe said has no so anyway listen i i i would love to talk more and we're going to have to continue monday um because um we do have to finish this mimer but um i do have to go with shabbos so i'll be at the oil this weekend it's hashem with a group from potomac maryland leading the chabeton someone from chicago's flying in someone from florida so they should help that um all that all the hashposts that the abused and then we're gonna be at his is in his facility should um as the rabbit himself our head would say by it should impact me and those that hear what i say so i'm i'm asking for the same broker so if i'll be whatever i say should impact me first meaning to say i should live with what i'm saying and the listeners but uh we'll have you all in mind amen and hopefully i'll see you tomorrow he's in new york he's not far from the oil he's in london five towns so he says he wants to see me with his girls so hopefully we'll see him towards uh you know late afternoon for a few minutes and um we'll say lehigh keep you guys in mind then everyone have a great shopping see everyone on fridays