Making up for a lost opportunity in a greater way - Igeres HaKodesh 10c - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

so goodday we're learning KES the fourth section of T the letter is the the 10th letter we're on page K we're in middle of the page towards the bottom actually about six seven lines from the bottom and yesterday we explained further that hashem's kindness hashem's that he gives the world and he gives to us is associated with to the observance of of of of mitzvot Commandments and God's law and also the the study of the T today is going to say and what if you didn't observe the Mitzvah and what if you didn't learn TI or you didn't observe all the Mitzvah and and who is no one's perfect so according to what we learned yesterday would seem that the of God is predicated on the Mitzvah and if you're not complete entire Mitzvah the God's is not going to is not going to be bestowed upon you so the AL says you're right and that's why the higher level of that he quoted from the Zar is is there is and there is there's two types of benevolence The Higher One which transcends the world it transcends being generated by the world and by Torah and by everything else is what we tap into when we do chuva so today's discussion is going to be the the greatness of returning of doing chuva that not in other words not only does chuva get you regular CID it gets you transcendental CID which is the only way to be able to correct what you missed on doing and what you were you supposed to do and you didn't and you didn't accomplish let's look inside page KV it's 1 2 3 4 5 6 seven um seven lines Excuse Me From The Bottom the second word on the line the line begins with the word hat tah 1 two 3 four five six seven eight sorry eight lines from the bottom and the word the line the word begins with with the second word what we've said until now is specifically for someone who keeps the Torah and the individual has not deviated to the right or the left look at this even an Iota in English it would be an Iota it literally means the the the a hair breath a thread the person is on the right track mha he doesn't get get fathomed and excited by the right and by the left as far as his observance of T mitz so he doesn't just give up because of a certain situation whether it be cultural or or personal but he stays on the course that would be the English um kind of paraphrasing of the words a nevertheless however someone who did desecrate God's command God forbid which is pretty much all of us since he has deviated the From the Path he he he he deviated for the path causing that the that what he was supposed to accomplish by drawing down from the superal Holiness has been is lacking now and number two not only did he kind of excuse the expression screw up and mess up the situation but but more so he had an opportunity to do something great for God for Torah and he missed the opportunity now you see you would think what's worse listen to this what's worse violating a do a Prohibition God says don't do this or not doing what God says you should do and thereby not drawing down that energy the average person will tell you what's worse is the violation the Los if you guys remember what we learned in the beginning of chapter one of Kan explains just the opposite and he explains that what's even really wor what's worse is not throwing down the higher light because the the the the blemish that's done Visa V violation of prohibitions is workable is fixable it's fixable by what by doing chuva regular chuva but when you're supposed to draw down something and you didn't draw it down it's a lost opportunity so how do you how do you get that back into the world that takes a lot more effort it takes a higher level of truva as he explained in the get Chua now he alludes to this over here too and the AL says he's saying over here that within the context of chuva there's two aspects there's fixing correcting my mistakes you know to recognize you know I'm 40 I'm 50 I'm 60 I'm 70 years old I went through life part of life I made mistakes it's time now to clean up the mistakes right so so to do that change your ways simply change your ways but what about those things that I should have done for God and I didn't do them and they it was a missed opportunity how do I access that that's what he's going to say now let's go further which he could have drawn down from godliness and the infinite light of God he would have drawn down if he just would have kept the fulfilled it like the says there is a a term in the gor these crooked this crookedness this chaos cannot be corrected it's a reference by to certain mitzvas which are which are time Bound for example kashma every day we're supposed to to recite the shma twice a day once in the morning and once at night the morning begins from dawn or or Sunrise right and you have several hours now if you get up later and you say o and you sayma and it's passed a certain time you can't correct it you've missed that time limit for saying shma in the morning you still say but the mitzvah for that morning is passed so the Kaz the Sayes say this is considered a a sin a transgression a crookedness that cannot be corrected there is one way you can there is hope at the end of the day there's light at the end of the tunnel by drawing down such an intense and superal light of that transcends the world we live in it transcends the norm and it doesn't invest itself in the world and this is called turn to page page top of one of 230 it's called the higher level of RA the second level of that we're talking about of kindness because this extends itself in an infin way without limitation and measurement why it's not contracted within the world hovers over above from the beginning of all levels I say till the end Etc so when a person Taps into this higher energy we're going to use the word in English the transcendental level of God right by doing something of action and arous From Below aai or then this superal light Z this one it illuminates and it extends itself within the world and it corrects all the crookedness all the chaos and all of what was given is being given from the superal Holiness that should have been drawn down and its light is renewed and its goodness is renewed with more power more might in a way that's called a new light a new energy and therefore therefore the S say an amazing thing of the place the plateau the mindset the experience we're about to shua someone who returns to God and it doesn't mean someone who ate shrimp and stops eating shrimp it doesn't mean that it means that as well anyone could be the from from of the from the most religious guy but in a certain area he was a transgressor and he becomes a b to shua in that area kazal the say to say the place where that individual reached no one else can reach even you even complete sikim the throws in here a word is on the fourth line which I'm not sure you picked up on it and I want to speak about it he says when a person draws down this transcedental infinite light be why does he emphasize Bea so to understand this you have to know what's have a little background here why is it here's the question why is it that the regular or of hasem of Chua cannot correct a chaos and crookedness that that was done and you need to have a transcedental type of experience in other words in truva itself we're talking that we're talking about two aspects of CH is the normal Chua can deal with things that you could correct and need to correct but there's certain things that that doesn't work for number two that's all on the spectrum of Correction what about the spectrum of the Lost opportunity it's two separate things the spectrum of the Lost opportunity this lower level of chuva has no it's not effective what does chuva mean let's let's let's talk it out chuva means regular chuva I I wasn't supposed to do a b and c and I did it I return I regret I regret for what I did so in that scenario BHA you can correct the situation if you really regret something not if it's a a New Year's Day um resolution that was based on being drunk the night before and 3 days later you're back to yourself no we're not talking about that we're talking about a real resolution inside the heart you really regret what you did and you say I'm not going to do it again because it's disgusting it's wrong you know it's not right I'm not doing it and you really keep to that that's regret real regret remorse that can correct a problem that was done a violation that was done you get a ticket get a violation for speeding you decide I'm not speeding anymore and you don't speed anymore you've corrected what you've done but what about the the the the the the idea that you had an opportunity to put on filling today or to give charity or to help someone walk across the street whatever the Mitzvah is and you don't do it for whatever reason you don't do it right so if you say tomorrow I'm going to put filling on tomorrow and it'll make up for today as well no it won't no it won't put on you have to put on film tomorrow but it's not going to make up for the missed film today because what you missed is missed is gone it was specific for today so here the question is what am I supposed to do I can't just do a regret and a remorse cuz that's not going to change the scenario you understand you hear what I'm saying the scenario the idea of regret and remorse is only useful for cleaning up a mess it has no impact on bringing something that was supposed to come be brought an opportunity and you goofed up and you missed it so one second one second want to finish and then so says in this T and get us that Tru and here he just alludes to it a little bit for that you need to access the higher I'm using the word the transcendental God you need to access something that goes Way Beyond Tit for Tat and he calls it here the super the the encompassing love the or Mak what is this what is this this is tapping into God himself we're at the highest level of God if you're there you're there and but he says and this is what I'm getting to is that itself has to come through action you can't say like this you know listen Hashem I supposed to do a Mitzvah yesterday I didn't get I didn't do it for whatever reason I'm going to do today a Mitzvah so with so much potency so much passion and so much energy that it's going to outshine any Mitzvah I've ever done so kind of here you're going to the you're going beyond the norm so says yeah but you have to do it in action just thinking about it and feeling it and you know philosophizing and all of that don't do it it h the the the transcendental energy that you give to the Mitzvah and that God reciprocates needs to come through your action be and if you and if you're lacking in if that's lacking in your my it's not going to come as well yes s what do you want to say so I had two two thoughts about this what and I'm not sure that um they work together or they they don't but that so you missed an opportunity to bring down a specific core Yesterday by by neglecting to do a specific mitah yesterday so today you have to do beyond the minimum beyond the regular what you missed yesterday but to do extra and or comes down there's an ore before it's put into packets okay there's a before it comes into the specific of this Mitzvah or that Mitzvah there's there's a a general or and so you missed specifically doing something yesterday you're not going to get that back but what you can do is draw down this General ore that is not put into specific packets of that particular Mitzvah but you're bringing additional light to the world here below that would not other have otherwise have been if you had just done the basics of the mites So you you're asking me or you're making a statement no it's my yeah that's how I understood right right right right so you you're understanding correctly if I if I heard you and I think I did and understand what you're saying I I just want to add and make sure that or that light that you're drawing down now Visa the transcendental approach okay it it's not there to just compensate what you missed the compensation of what you missed is automatic automatically included I think this is what you're saying in yes it's undifferentiated yes so it's it's all encompassing right but but but but if if I understand Dr saying correctly is that guess what when you tap into that what you missed will be fulfilled as well I I believe so oh yes otherwise it's an oxymoron I'm drawing down uh you know Transcendence and yet there's a hole in in the pie it doesn't work that way Transcendence means it fills all of the gaps including that what what I missed if I've got a power tool it has a battery pack I'm using it as a drill right now but I can switch that out the battery pack will also working as a saw yeah the battery pack is undifferentiated but once I click that in now I've got it all right right that's what that's that's the way that I yeah now what that was the first thing understand it you said you wanted you make two points that was the no the two was that it's got to be your actions have to be more than your basic Baseline I'm doing all the M ass say that come my way to there has to be something extra in it in your in your doing above and beyond maybe yeah now so I'm glad you mentioned means beyond the law right there is law do this don't do that and then there is beyond so there too is there when we say go beyond the letter of the law there's two ways of doing that too one way is go beyond the letter of the Lord because God becomes happy and God wants that that is not ra that's still ra is do it because of God not because you make God happy you see anytime you attach any Reon and any explanation to the performance of a Mitzvah and study of Torah that's a limitation it's a great level it's like Moshe it's like saying I'm giving charity why am I giving charity so one level is I'm giving charity because I want to cleanse myself from my my stick oh that's a pretty okay a higher level is I'm giving charity because there's someone that has a need it's the right thing to do fine that's a re there's a reason in other words if there wouldn't be someone in need he wouldn't give a third level of Charity is charity is what God wants I don't know why I don't know how I don't know when Hashem says give to TOA is the right thing to do so I submit to God's to God not just to God's will but to God God's Will and God that is the most pristine aspect again which I which I'm using the word the trans transcendental relationship between yourself and hasem torz there is no string attached so again going back to your example is with the the the um right why should I go beyond the L why I'm Han is coming up soon right you get a nice little manora you can get a beautiful silver manora and to beautify the Mitzvah well there are people that do that and they you know they want to I you to use the word show off some want to show off others they don't want to show off but they kind of feel by doing that they have more of God they they cornered God in the corner look what I got for you God a silver manura it's worth $5,000 I didn't spend this on U on a golf cart or whatever a membership at a club you know I'm using it for a Mitzvah okay it's it's it's beautiful but it still there's a self orientation there it's ra it's it's so y this maybe also Taps into your question at the end of the sh yesterday about the itself there's two ways of doing either for literally for the sake of there's a body needs to be buried there's not not even a question and if I have any way of being able to do it or or pay for it or physically you know uh dig the grave I stop my work and I do it if I'm a you know there's no one else going to do it he's a Jew he lost he passed on no relatives no friends it's called benevolence sh of Truth the most pristine truthful Act of benevolence no strings attach so again some people they make a a kind a campaign out ofal this is what we have to train ourselves as we learn that don't don't box yourself in into a certain certain category in other words you know who I am I'm someone that whatever this a situation where there's no one there around to bury I go and bury him I go and help bury him it's it's genuine it's the it right but if you make this who you are and and to the to the exclusion of everything else then that itself is not genuine it's it's it's not the ultimate of of being genuine and and and truthful because you're making a um a colorfulness a definition of this act of kindness when we talk about ra when we talk about the level of abundant here we're looking to connect to hem for today it's fine tomorrow guess what it is feeding someone in a soup kitchen fine the third day it's helping put on helping my child with their mathematic homework there it's the same there should be no difference that's why people I remember when theas and people would say you know yeah Rabbi hears a check and how about no that that's not for me I said the same God that tell you gives a check for to the same God tells you about and guess what the one who puts Onin and says I'm I'm connecting through that but charity is not my thing it's just as much not God in other words don't weigh the Mitzvah all the Mitzvah are God's Mitzvah and they're all holy and they're all important and we need to Endeavor to do all the Mitzvah you know sometimes we're better at some than others and that's life and that's what we work on and that's what we work through improving we're going to stop here and we'll tomorrow mem have a great day