Maamar Ze 1929 #3- Why is it important to detail my past year during Rosh Hashana?

good morning uh we're learning page 34 and felix olive of this my modern milo cotton it's a moment that the frida kareva in brownsville this second night of reisha shona and we're in middle of [Music] has been talking about details of the court case the judgment the madin and one of the more important the kudus that he put a lot of time in talking about is the limous huss and that a person shouldn't be bashful and shameful to be malamates hosts and himself in front of the melech because that's what we do anyway in the prayers he doesn't say that directly in the mind but he refers to it to to who who are our ancestors to talk well about us and help us in judgment so we too should bring hussom to the table and this also brings to mind the idea that a yid needs to have for a moment i want to talk about this because it's an important overall issue for yiddish kite for toyota of siddishkait there were people always who did things to gather in their storage box i'll give you an example as a famous individual i don't know if we know his name who was a jester he used to go around making jokes and making people laugh during the bellshentos time so there were those who looked at him as a lightweight and a buckland and someone who wasted time his own time in other people's time and the story is that the balshemptev said about him this the merits that he has few others have because he brought happiness to many jews and let's go now 200 years later there was an individual maybe some of his relatives are here in the school or definitely miami um nelson fellaing was his name from montreal i don't know if there's a family named felix right the fellas two brothers so one was nusselt nelson was an individual who outwardly you know would make people laugh a lot that he would make sometimes things that seem to be silly but he really got the job done so he could you know on rosh hashanah he can go to a store owner he lived in canada montreal and somehow make a light and get the store owner who was jewish who had a shop opened on rosh hashanah to close the store because he felt comfortable with him so a person like that you know has a lot of sim because not only do you have your own merit of what you do that's good you get others to do good and feel good and you get part of that credit and the same as with let's say a writer myself shalom we've written maybe some of you written when someone reads your work and is inspired in whatever way you get part of that credit and it's not i want to i want to make it clear it's not like you should be seeking that that's not that's not a jewish thing forget about hasidis you know someone who's i'm trying to gather all these credits these brownie points so that after 120 you know god will look at me favorably that's not a it's not a yiddish way to to go about title mitzvahs but nevertheless when you do things that are legit and sincere and and they and they come and they and as a result many others do good things it's a great host for you so when it comes to yay madin when it comes the day of judgment all that comes with you and what we're learning is in a way you have a right to you know to mention it you know to think about it you know it's a very this is very uh i'm i'm i'm spending some time on it because it's very unhabard to talk this way right what do we talk about in the in most my moral bitter and bitter and bitter and this level of bitter means nullification how you're nothing and you're a bigger nothing that's all you know you hear khabad you go into other circles you hear how great you are i told you you know what rabbi told me about the difference between rabbi kai and musatos and myself and others for him and then is the difference between schlemos building man orbital nullification of man so bad you you hear bitterly and also when our rabbit became rebbe in 1950 51 there was really the bittle the bittle to the rebel was never seen before to a rebel to a chabad you always had individuals in every by every rebel who had great humility but this level of humility with the commoner the commoner not the big husset the common husset is so dedicated to his rabbit to sadik to his leader that uh it was a kiddush and and and the proof is that there are people who had a problem with it the old folk the older generation the ones from the rabbi rashad and the previous rapper they weren't used to it because by the previous rabbi him the elder hasidim had more standing in a sense like that ever consulted with them spoke to them they spoke to him by hour but that in a sense in a sense stopped it it's too it's it's a whole clinton it'll be a whole class to discuss this it's an important point so i'm just leaving it for food for thought but this idea of of bitter became so prominent and the last 70 years we're living with that bitter so every masjid every teacher of kabbalah you can hear it from them over and over and over and some truly live it others don't but some do so here in the mimer when the rabbit talks about okay it's the previous river said in to uh to to you know to to jews who were not you know not used to kind of chabad lingo and and then concepts but nevertheless when you learn it today 70 80 years later 80 plus years later it tells you here about being using the sim using your merits to go to back for you on the yay madin so how do you reconcile the two if you tell this to if you say this to your average bad talmud guaranteed they'll say oh this is not this is uh they what they call the snap the shame isis you know stuff of the lit fox this is not her bad way of thinking that's what it says in the moment you're stressing the positives here what do you mean well you could get caught up from rosh hashanah with the negative yeah i did or you could go on the positive part focusing on the positives yeah but still but but still uh do you do you recall before learning this my mirror like the way we're learning it that this idea that i should i should kind of bring up all the good points that i did in my life on rosh hashanah that's what i should think about i was like you know when you get someone start a child off you give them candy you give them these type of things so this is a positive way okay okay okay okay i'm going to do more good deeds right i understand but i'm saying that if it's in a mercedes it's part of siddhas it's not an end it's not against it's part of habad and as you say there's a perspective and but but i'm saying even more i'm saying that not only is when you start a kid off i'm saying you're not a kid you're an adult you're a husset you're 60 70 80 years and you learn such a mimer it it it tells you that you know when he give a maya magnufish when the water is up to here when the water is up to here hey use anything that will get you to continue by the way there ever the freedom is famous well there he says also phenomenal thing he says there that when it comes to sur mera when it comes to holding yourself back from something that is no good the frida kahre says that you should use even gaiver conceit to get you to stop doing that it's very very rare that he says he says it there when it comes to our saito when it comes to doing good over there he says hello you shouldn't use guyva you shouldn't use conceit you know you know who i am when it comes to doing things that are wrong you should you should employ even gyver to hold your back and that's not us in a muslim that's not a muslim that's in a mercedes so what i'm saying is that like you said you have to have the perspective because but if someone will if you say this to someone who who you know they'll say this is a snapdish of isis this is a coming out of muslims for him you know what i hear that when he [Music] yeah was right i know i know yeah so here is more contemporaries younger of rebel you know yeah so it's like what do you hear it's the coronation of the king or the way robbie salvatrix of yahshua salvation used to say the karnataki he used to say he spoke either superb real universe heint is that caller from them kenneth nazis coronation the coronation of the king so i've and that's what you see in most my mother i'm just saying that you know it's important to know that there's a time and place for everything and you could be a big cousin and sometimes you need to use your sim it's all right it's all right that's all i'm saying i'm just saying that it's important to focus in on what the rep is saying as a as a way of serving hashem and it's also important character wise and mental health and all that sometimes we you know talking about the correlation of the king and the people and all that hey not everyone's there and you need to work with the people including students in the yeshiva you need to build them and make them feel good and when you do that then they can appreciate the bitter and the you understand sometimes they we go right for the top right for the top you know relax relax i think the crowding of the king makes you feel better than judgment day i i'm not suggesting that you dwell on judgment day i'm not suggesting but first of all this is the mind that we're learning so what you're gonna you're gonna shove it under the rug what are you saying you're i could hear you saying sure a little louder please i was just i was gonna say like it's like enumerating your good qualities so in a way technically speaking that's that's that's much more uh guidance so to speak than being like oh i'm not being the king and just come in the restaurant like that there's a little bit of an idea to enumerate your qualities and enumerate your whatever right i just heard something this week that you just triggered my mind i want to share with you it's this has not been public so this is a new story with rebuild as you can see i'm very you know interested in in sharing things that i learned from him and heard about him so here someone told me this week there was a very famous philosopher a woman named rand anyone know who i'm talking about i forget her first name uh probably the last hundred years anyway what was her philosophy that think about yourself it's all about yourself how do you get to be more of a better eye this this is her and but you know she argues her point philosophically okay so you know for a bachelor in yeshiva for haba student to to to read these type of books is uh you know the eq the heresy the equivalent of what they call in what they called a hundred years ago haskallah you know you you humanitarianism you know which was not acceptable that you in in the hasidic world in the in the torah world it was it was a big problem because everyone was into that the isms were very powerful and one of them was humanitarianism through haskala the enlightenment movement anyway so she came up with this philosophy so this this the barbecue buffer in 770 had a great desire to read very bright and he always had a struggle you know what to read what is what is acceptable what's not he was close to the oil and he was invited home to his house for a meal he comes in and he sees on the kitchen table the same book that he's reading from this lady rant i can't believe it now that y'all didn't read english you know so obviously it was his wife's his wife leia khan khan his wife was reading it i don't ask me why but he that was an eye-opener and so when he at the meal he said to rabbi you know i want to i want to share something personally that i'm reading the book that i saw on on the table that your wife's reading so says i i know nothing about it i've never read it i don't i you know like tell me what's what's it about so he tells him what her philosophy is does not tell him not to stop reading it he didn't do that he says let's let's talk out her philosophy and let me show you how habakkuk has those good parts of our philosophy and those parts that are heresy and ridiculous and contrary to god's desire of a yid i'll show you why it's not for a jew and he and he with his genius mind explained to this very curious bright student what i just told you for the next 30 years he stopped reading non-jewish books of such nature without rabiel saying don't read it this is terrible this is heresy you're a nice foreign fighter this means like you're a bum you're an outcast didn't say a word he said tell me about the philosophy and let's talk about it and i'll show you with which things are the philosophy hasidis does support and which things it doesn't and then you know and you decide so you you know you mentioned this this thing it just triggered this to me that there's a positive each and a good teacher and a good parent is able to assess in their child and in their students when they need positive reinforcement and when they need a pat on the back and all of that mark and i were talking about this in the car people people need compliments yeah that's the way human nature is and huh no no and no but and the certain people that needed more than others and khabar siddhas gives room for both i mean i've had you know disagreement or with with some hasidic jews about to see them you know that that they're too much putting you know kind of when someone does something they don't recognize it and they put it down it's not it's not it's not it's not healthy it's not healthy you know privately you call someone aside and you discuss it and you say you know maybe pushing the envelope and and yourself so much is is not necessary and really doesn't make you look better you know and you're really greater than that so the same thing is you mentioned that i've ever mentioned the idea of coronation of the king yeah incarnation of the king no what am i doing with this coronation of the king what am i doing with it you need to you need to it has to come down to a bottom line where i i improve and i change and i okay let's continue now what dogma page 39. yes i'm just saying so nationally comes from bitter i suppose comes from thinking about [Music] what i'm saying is what that ever is saying is that you can even think about yo mardin and all that it also comes from bitter it depends what it depends how you think about the day of judgment that you did but yes traditionally i would agree with you traditionally i agree with you the person thinks about your mother it's he's thinking about ego and what's going to be with my my my hide you know what i'm saying but it's not saying that i just want a point i i go back to this and say whatever whatever issue we're tackling if you're coming from a chabad perspective you have to remember it's a chabad perspective and therefore what are the talents the foundational teachings of khabad it cannot be outside of khabar and yet and frankly i don't want to go into this right now i say you want to be modern be modern no problem but it's not bad if you can find in chabad room for modernity no problem but you got to prove it you got to prove it in these in these books these four in these 200 years if you can document in the altar no problem if not no problem you're the best you're great but don't tell me that's khabad there is a system that that bayern shared yes elio sorry i would like to offer a different way of thinking of what you said until now okay please we're looking at in terms of black and white according to the way not according to the way but here's the thing let's think about it differently when you're running a business and you look on your balance sheet there's not just earnings there's not just income there's income is expenses right and both of them are vital for the business expenses sometimes are good even to grow to grow the business when you're investing in okay so instead of like looking at it as good and bad and judgment day it's not judgment day like oh my god he's going to kill me today no it's not that way it's like you auditing yourself to see where you're standing and when you know where you're standing you know where to go from this point on are you where you think you are are you where you want to be or not that is the idea of uh doing a little bit booking so and if you find that you are not in where you're supposed to be or where you want to be it's not a bad thing it's just a course correction okay i found out that i'm not in the right place now i know where to progress if you don't have a goal how you gonna reach it so i'm thinking it's more like of a self-contemplation about where i'm at where i'm going where i've been it's not positive or negative it's just what it is okay so why is that why is that different than what i said because it's not different it's different than the perception of like oh this is bad this is not good this is good this is we we are labeling things too much and once we label these things we are empty [Music] it's not all egotistical it's not at all uh for the benefit of oneself it's just that a person's actually taking numbers and making adding up the numbers right i i i i agree with both of you all what i was saying is that what abram said before is the way people in the world think about these issues that's all so it's it's we're all really saying the same thing but but you know he echoed the way you know you hear oh yo madin one thing comes into mind another thing comes to mind that's all and uh and what you're saying is the way we reconcile it and the way i see this teaches us how to look at it let's continue so we're 39 three lines we'll understand this is and there are issues that you never considered they were wrong because of justifications hasibo the first cause the first reason is simply you don't know the facts you don't have the information you don't have the data called ignorance they're people that don't do certain mitzvos because they're not knowledgeable they're ignorant they send a starkville they became they became very coarse my face need the grace guide from legend film now you see the rebels addressing the people who don't even don't know the greatness of putting on a parent film when the hard cut from hillary shoppers and the seriousness of desecrating shabbat so my call is the suit is eating forbidden foods family purity a woman before having relations goes to a mikveh that was very sharp and that ebb is talking to a certain crowd in brownsville he's saying um there are difficulties and there's troubles with kids and you know and all that um check out your family purity vapes the second issue is hakrido's apathy the cow kite the cold is the kapathi that's caused by being uh involved in work work work the whole they will see but that's why you forget about even great transgressions you did earlier in the year when that are forbidden and you let it go by and and because you don't know that this is forbidden and this is muther and this is permissible you have a little or a sense of war for god you don't have much of that they had a single slave and you don't make your heart pay attention abraham but the prosecutors oven they add salt and pepper to the transgressions and they they they heighten them and they say you know what he did on this day oh they the time is the fear shyness and they have all kinds of arguments but take for example someone calls the court to the judgment right they take a little thing i remember when we were from california 1980s we had a cabaret house in a residential area and there was a court case so this this lawyer is non-jewish irish you know tall handsome hair slicked back he gets up in a high san francisco high riser and he's going to say why khabar has no right to the parking and why khaba should not be giving up permission to have a cabanas and he says they have a hundred people coming to synagogue friday nights and the cars you can't imagine they stuff up all the streets trust me if i got a minion friday night i was a happy camper and most of my chevrolet lived in the areas they didn't drive on shabbos so maybe i had one or two people who came by car and they knew they came from a time and place where they parked three blocks away because they didn't want anyone to see that he came by car right but we barely had a minion and he said straight lie out lie with a straight face now my lawyer made made make minced meat out of him by ship by you know and everyone saw that he's lying but that's what he did he took uh he took what was possibly a transgression you know via a violation of the parking places which the judge said that they belong more to chabad because the constitution protects religion than to then the swim than the the soccer moms and the swim meets we have more access according to the united states constitution to those parking places but regardless and we won the case but hashem three to zero was returned over and we won we had it and all that but the point i'm saying is you take a little lie and you blow it up oh you think right that's what it says here they come along these prosecutors and they take something we did on this and this thursday you know seven months ago and they said you know what this guy did it's outrageous that's what we're saying over here let's continue yeah and they say even if you're gonna find merit i will get the godless they say you know you want to let this guy get away with it because he has other merits but listen the sin that he did not only impacted him personally so maybe for him you can find merit why why we should give him a pass but his transgression caused other people to transgress that's called mahdi sarab because when a person thinks about all this the situation in all honesty it's between him and hashem and he looks at myself in the mirror everyone knows who knows the situation is all the arguments that are going to be brought against you the titan is it for yourself and you you bring to mind all the issues that they will say why you're guilty of a divinity i'm alarming scores and then you bring to mind all the issues that are meritorious for your side and within the depth of your heart you you you think about the truth as though you're standing before a judge and when you realize that the judgment will probably be that i'm guilty and the only thing is my pleading my request well we know mulcain who which we say that our our father our king is but if he is blessed and elevated exalted he opens his hands to accept those that return that want to return the zellw of shatteredness of broken heart at this point the screaming of a deep inside screaming coming from the depth of your heart little boy you realize it's up to me my lip is the illuminati is close to the spark so every single year needs to arouse as the kurdish level the point of his heart the essence of assad allah and will is to plead to hashem have mercy on my soul and the souls of my family through the great trilogy top of page 41. he's repeating them at the same point but now in front of a judge and you know it's relevant to yourself to your what's going to be with you you return to hashem um through complete repentance and i'll call it verbally table show them over and everything that you did that was no good in the past you accept upon yourself the yoke of hashem for the future so we'll stop here but the last point over here is a very nageya that's an ace in la milo remember that it's a time an auspicious time okay heaven continue learning on your own