Maamar Lecha Amar 1940 #1- Open your heart during Elul and exert effort through Chasidus

so we begin this elves man fresh with uh a feeling of both chuva anila deity vidai de lee as well as abu lahaya and vidler if you listen to my clip aleph lamin ello is a yiddish acronym for once again i heard that from the venerable closet who shared the uh the what sounds like a kind of a joke but really the way to get through ellen was with a good luck because chuva is best with hayan because makes a person be more honest with themselves now the mind we're going to learn we learned it once but some of you a didn't learn it some of you might have forgotten it and number three and most importantly it's always good to review and i was fortunate enough to review part of it to but by heart this shabbos for the four sims that i'm celebrating my father's 85th birthday is today beizella may live and be well byron hill next layman should have a great uh great life and i just published um a book on his life i don't have it with me now called surviving romanian holocaust life story of robert dolphin um so it's a history of the dolphin family for 200 years pretty much in romania that we know of i would say and uh you know all about his life a little bit about my mother and the the holocaust surviving um the trans mystery uh holocaust in buchavina came from boca vina and the hasidic courts they belong to uh pretty much vishnuts beyond a little bit my grandmother's side was beyond and um how he came to erich's row in without anything with his parents you know his brother and sister and then went to iwa baba to yeshiva how he got the issue he was miraculous yeshiva and from there he went over to the 1958 and was in 770 and worked and married in 1960 and uh this calf came out in 1961 and the rest is history as they say so it should be a nice read not just for family but uh for someone who wants to see what the what we call the greenhorn and either the greener the greener the greener is an expression about someone who comes to this country uh penniless and shirtless and my father literally came to this country that way if not for a soccer huster named getzel burger whose name is on the buildings in maya sharon and gaoula on the uh dushinsky hasidis buildings you will see his name getzelburger and also on the buildings of the shul um that jew was on the same boat coming to america when my father was coming minnesota and uh my father's money was stolen from him and that he had didn't trust the kosheros on the on the ship so uh getzel burger noticed the way he davened with kavanagh with integrity and he approached him and he said um who are you what are you i see that you're a real you know a real year of shamayim and all that and my father told him his story briefly and so he said he would give him some money as long as he went to see the sapphire when he comes to america if getzelberger was a jesus he lived in london actually so my father agreed and uh he he gave him some food and whatever anyway that's how he got to america welcome to our presentation here at the wall street library thank you for inviting me uh i don't know who's presenting the belgento library so please uh shut it down anyway the kids are this is the story and today's 85th birthday and other symphonies uh in the family and other issues so barak hashem i was able to say part of this minor that we're about to start learning now let me tell you the history look at the keppel look at the heading of this mimer it says uh with the help of hashem the whale shlishi the night to the third day which means monday night with nayer of regis hashanah before he rosh hashanah tough the hebrew year tufts in aleph in english it was 1940 september 30th it was monday night september 30th 1940 82 years ago approximately rosh hashanah that year was thursday so this was monday night tuesday night was that of rosh hashanah so that's why he writes leo swishy left me which was the next night right tuesday night um tuesday night uh is arab and wednesday night was already 19 registered chanel of 1940. this is seven days or so after the previews that ever moved into 770 on the 21st of ello which was uh last week or so last week of august upset of september like september first the second the friday crabber cafal of ello moved into 770. that was the hanukkah sabayas and the first mimer that he said on a yomtiv or a shabbos there it seems like is this mimer that we're about to learn so you have to put this mimer one second in in the background with the background that was said during the holocaust right the holocaust started the september 39th this is september 40. and he just moved into 770 he was already pretty much you know paralyzed confined to a to a wheelchair that's why they chose the building 770. those that been there know that there's an elevator between there's an elevator going from the basement all the way to the third floor they specifically chose such a house which luckily they found a beautiful large house and property that had an elevator because defeat the cadet what would it do during the week in 1941 42 these years he would he he would use the elevator to come down to say a merchandise on monday night or tuesday or end tuesdays throughout the year and the elevator made it possible uh on shabbos and yamcha when he came down to san maimur they would carry him down and i heard from someone who was a student he told me exactly who were the four people that carried the wheelchair from the second floor to the first floor where did he actually say the mimer it was called the copy not the cabinet where was the cabinet the room in which our river had his yakida's room and met with people privately that room before that ever came that ever came in june of 1941 right they were talking about september 1940. so until that ever came and he moved in with his rabbits in hayabushka in the initially they slept in that room then they moved out to an apartment but before that the room was the room in where the frida kaderbah would say hasidis both on shabbos yamchev and during the week and it was called the cabinet the cabinet i don't know why he did it that way i could just surmise upstairs was you know there was the the the rabbitson and the old rabbits and rabbits in stannis they had a nurse you know it was probably a little more difficult to accommodate people they did it when they they had to uh you know for the suda for the meals khasidam would go upstairs all the hasidim but it was a very limited and the bakram were not allowed in the students it was you know it was very very limited but but downstairs in the cabinet it was more open to the public but she wanted to say ask something yeah i have my look yeah from when we learned the mimer last time i have a note here that says that lil shlishi is a special night to say a mimer in within yeah and that this armor is such a miner maybe grab a dog could you maybe share yeah at the moment about that yeah yeah the um it's not leo shlishi you should correct your notes it's the third night of sliches in other words in khabad the third the third sliches it's called lael gimbal the slichest the third night to sliches so in khabad we say as much as shabbos is the first night monday morning is the second day tuesday morning is the third so the kabaddra bayim would say uh my mahasidis on the third night going to of the third day of srikhas which would be in this case monday night why that is i don't believe we know some say maybe it's the birth of the market i don't know i don't know um but that was a a special time so the previous rabbit following in tradition of his predecessors said a mimer specifically leo and why he did why they didn't include or he didn't include it that you know it's james gibbel i don't know but it's not again the the previous rabbit throughout that year 1940 41 40 he's the same mimer every either monday night or tuesday night i heard this from rabbi label groener but that has nothing to do with the third night of slichest the third night of sliches we look back at the discourses of the rabbayim and we see specifically that they set a mimer on that night so there was something significant that they celebrated that night slichest wise and again i don't know what the cause was but it was during sliches that they said that mimer and that's what you're referring to thank you very much for i wanted to say that i forgot and you reminded me now let's go into the text yes yes you were saying that that the ref the rabbit didn't live in 770 they took an apartment close to 770. no if we came he just came so they his room his bedroom was the room in which he later it was his office his private office so but what i said was that same room before it came was where the previous survivor said khasidis said to my marum this miner that we are about to learn was set in that room it was said in the rebels room in 770 on the main floor when you walk in you walk up the steps 770 and to the left is the rebber's room that's where this miner was said this was not said in the previous rebels apartment or his private room upstairs on the second floor he would come down to the mate to this room that's where he said this not only during the week when he set a mimer during the week but also on shabbos and yamcha i don't know why but that's the way it was i i gave you a possible reason after a while i don't again i don't know why that ev and his wife moved out and they moved to an apartment and they moved to uh uh to uh uh new york avenue and brooklyn the corner building that's where they moved and it's understandable i mean you know this is a school you know this is uh coming in and out so they're not going into his room but you know it's not a sense of privacy i imagine that's that's why he moved out but in the beginning he had nowhere to live so that's where he lived okay so this mimer is from tehillim capitol have zion psalm 27 which we began saying shabbos the first day of rashford says again was a a a man on the run people wanted to always destroy him and kill him and he always is thanking hashem for being saved so middle of this psalm which we read now during these days it says to me on my liby doublet says to me my heart talks to me back true funny what does my heart say my heart says search the face of god the heart is telling david search for god for the face and then responds as poneko hashem and i will do that i will search for you god that's what it says on this verse says for you for your mission my heart says so and so for you god and for your mission god my heart says i should bak you so not only me as an individual king david but all jews should search for the face of god and ashi continues and i listen to my heart and what do i do and the verse continues your face god i will search that's one comment of rashi another comment in rashi itself another comment to me my heart says in your place boy lily b my heart comes as your substitute kind of lay my cane and tells me so and so well it seems like it's a repetitious comment so there ever right away asks what is what is the saying what does it mean number one what does it mean my heart is doing this for you and doing a mission for you god like what's the significance of that interpretation does somehow the verse become clearer because of what rashi says it doesn't seem that way and rashi doesn't just throw make a comment if there's nothing to add so the rapper's first question is what's the additional insight that rashi gives number two the second question over yesterday morris is a wonder more needs clarification and that is please whoever's uh com it's not you please mute yourself i hear noise over you say hippoly ombre more wondrous it says reclaim her boy and lie leave me lame arcane in your place my heart comes to me to say so what does that mean in your place totally tell it like doesn't even doesn't make sense in a way so but ashley says that so these are the two questions very basically what does rashi want what does it actually mean yes mute yourself please yes where are we i'm just uh just opening this up page eight the first mimer the fifth line the middle of the line so the first thing that ever focuses on is the words of da vida which means search and he says that the word bakasha has two meanings to search and to to plead trina's it refers to prayer to davening with great awake arousing greatness shaney the second insight of bakasho it's to search but not just search like you look for hummus with great exhaustion you should invest yourself to find the face of god to the point where you're exhausted great you know bother it really makes you schritz so when you're not feeling says that but this is the idea of feel of prayers which is called the service of the heart but where you not just the service of the heart and left field the service of the heart in your heart and what who do you use to do the search of the heart the tool is called imhalav with the heart and yet she says in hearts in heart in the heart and number two omit them hearts and with the heart in other words both the tool that you need to use to search for god's punishment his face which later will explain refer to the panemias when you want to when hashem wants you to find the inner aspect of of god the way to do that is you need a tool an instrument it doesn't say you should use your head your feet it says your heart your heart is the instrument to find penis and right here without elaborating it's a powerful message you want to find the premiums of god open up your heart and we had many discussions about that last year is to remember about the heart being traded and clogged so at least we know that this is a goal it's not enough just to intellectualize god and it's not enough to do what god wants which is of course the bottom line if you want to be inspired and you want to be on fire and you want to be and you want to and you want that others to you know see this and be inspired and and you need to use your heart you need to open your heart how we're going to learn later in the mimer different methods but that's the key that's the answer and don't allow you know don't allow other um possibilities as answers because this is the answer everything else is beating around the bush and creating an imaginable answer and that's not the answer so of course putting on filling one time with a yi is is the most important thing but if you want that heat if that yield wants to feel inspired and feel motivated to do it again and again and again there needs to be avoid the ship to live and that's why it's not adequate just to stop with one time you need to do it again and again and again until your heart opens up like i told my daughter this weekend when you died in shabbos and you say a cup it's a halal and you you close your eyes for a moment and and and you know what you're saying that you think about what you're saying and you think about your relationship you should melt on the spot if you're only a human being you should melt on the spot it and if not that means you're not you're not getting you're not going in you're just not opening up enough you need to open up and the way to open up is to put aside everything else and know that it's about you and i caught this bar for it's only about god as and you are his instrument and therefore you have an opportunity and the tanya is full of meditative thoughts on all of these ideas to help us um push aside the callousness and jadedness that creates a heart like a rock a cold heart where a person feels completely not involved and again this also doesn't mean you're necessarily only dancing and singing that's a death and clapping it's definitely a good beginning but it needs to really penetrate and go in deep inside otherwise it's been proven in the scene over and over that dancing and singing and also doesn't have an everlasting impact and david melech is looking to find the peninus of hashem on a constant basis because otherwise he wouldn't be able to exist with having people chase you who want to kill you you can't exist you can't move and let's let's take it in our life forget about you know killing us i mean everyone we have enough anti-semitism all over we know that but i'm talking about personally when you feel stuck whether it's from the family whether it's parnosa whether it's the community you feel stuck and it makes you sick and you get stress and anxiety and you start taking blood pressure pills it's not a joke right so the answer is to somehow open up your heart and you'll find such um such the word in english that i like using is it will be a cathartic experience it will be an experience where you feel i feel free i feel like i'm breathing air like you know you guys probably went out a little bit during the three the summer the vacation you got some fresh air more trees and all that you know the same is when you die that's why avoid the satwila is a mainstay in hasidic judaism of the balshem and this month hello says one should um one should they should increase they're dabbing over the learning this month because this is the month of three months the month of june the month of treatment let's go back to the text so therefore that ever says not only is it enough that you that you um [Music] that the way to get the benemius is with the heart is in the heart but it has to be with the heart and he's going to explain that the calling you know available is khan and la shem the entire idea yes sir of davening is to plead to god lahatsaliyah please make me successful baba idosa in in my service the happiest villain say to find havana tava could understand the good comprehension bahasa galic is comprehending god i don't want to comprehend how the stock market works that i need for panosa i'm interested in understanding you god how do you operate how did you how do you make this world where are you how can you be here and not be here or not be here openly are you here or not here what did you use to create the world these are concepts that need havana and this and this is specifically a tool that has uses is not enough to say i believe do you understand what you're saying do you deeply understand so there ever says during davenink you need to plea to hashem open my cup and i could tell you that many times especially when i was in yeshiva you know thinking about these things you're constantly i felt stuck i could not understand you know everyone god gives every one of us a certain type of cup i turn around i see someone else in the basement who's such a deeper thinker and understand and he and he gets it and i don't get it it doesn't mean i wasn't a more studious than him but as far as the as far as the cup right so that ever says here we have to be dabbing i should be successful to find havana taivo that i should understand well hassan galicia's godly concept you know you go into a yeshiva world they want to understand that they want to understand the peace of gamora and that's part of godliness the tata but they were talking about hasag means the way hashem operates the inner makings of hashem so a person dives to hashem please help my cup help my head understand you better number two you plead to hashem that you find success in finding the proper tikkunim the pro proper rectification processes in regard to your garments of of the soul known as thought speech and action of the clerical in the faculties of the soul the seiko referring to the mind of meters and the emotions in other words we all know that we aren't perfect we goofed up this way in that way and it's the time available it's time now to make a tickle to clean up your act you have to dive into hashem to find the right tikkun for the particular issue that you're talking about and that's also not an easy thing because if you clean up your act with the wrong broom or the wrong map the for the floor stays still jersey and the sponge doesn't work so therefore you need to ask hashem hashem grace me that the tickle that i use and i find for my particular issue should be the right one and how do we find that we'll talk about either this mime or another mimer but that's what's one of the things we have to down for that that ever says when it says bakshi funny when david says when his heart tells and dove it search well and and and with a lot of effort and energy for hashem it refers to two things again one thing understanding god two finding the right tikunim for your makshava dibramaiser [Music] jose all these two things are included in what we mean the service of the heart inixiv it says saudi from my flesh exalica i will perceive [Music] from the combination of his body and his soul he sees godliness we have a soul and we have a body when you combine them the the verse says from my own meat my own flesh my own body i perceive god so the number says it's not just a body it's a soul within a body the time alright so if that's the case why does it say it should have said um who you think is closer to god godliness flesh or soul soul so the verse should have said um [Music] the reason why it says for my flesh i don't perceive godliness this is part of the the question the primary aspect of man is the soul and not the body the other will call him the governor's and when you combine [Music] is referring to the bodies who busted on and refers to the flesh of men ovals but in truth the primary driving aspect of a person is the soul so the question is why does it say episode now comes the answer ah is the answer to the question ah however ombro it says for my flesh specifically i perceive godliness we but the first is telling us you need to have ria tangible you have to see god in the most tangible way and that is denoted by the flesh because abram the eyes see these physical eyes are see it's mukash there is let's go further you'll see in a second let's continue yes there are two types of singing who the future what do you mean he understands into the future he knows by acting this way today this will be the result is that called ruin or is that ria i understand mind's eye that's what we call today the mind's eye let's continue this means the person sees with his mind as adobe hanoi the future the thing that will be in the future be telling me before it's born before it happens and this type of seeing hebrews it's through the scene of the mind's eye this is what we call a spiritual seeing then there is a second type of seeing vaccines idiot gosh miss it's actual physical seeing these two sings although both come through the combination of soul and body and he explains the shame is just as physical seeing he be other is a man kashina [Applause] body and the person is physically alive for flesh right so in other words it both in the in the number one ria and the number two area it it requires a combination of soul and body one second continue and just like this this intellectual scene he miss is mainly from the perspective of the soul [Music] all idea of logic and and and a lot of logic is so true regarding the physical scene being impossible with your physical eyes it's from the perspective of the soul it is the nephesh it comes from there so what's this point this is part of a rhetorical remark which is although there are two right although there are two aspects soul and body and either of the two both intellectual seeing the mind's eye and the physical seeing of the physical with your eyes requires a soul and body if you don't have a soul of rom your eyes can be opened but it sees nothing well you know that unfortunately and so too if you have your eyes open and you don't use your seiko you could be looking the people look at things and they come up with the most crooked things to what they see and to explain and justify you and i are looking at the same thing and one person sees that normally another person sees it worked why because something is in their nephesh that isn't exactly exact so what do we see from this that both types of riya require what require soul and body so if that's the case what's the difference says that ever further the hosa initiates these two types of seeing has number one the intellectual one but number two mukha is the tangible one miss khao kim bi there's a difference in their association there's a difference in the content of what they see is the intellectuals although it filters itself through man's intellect man's brain the hosa nevertheless it's more associated yeah more with the soul we call that more of a soul experience versus the second type of tangible scene although it requires also comprehension of understanding something properly so then you know what your physical eye sees because then nevertheless it associates itself more with the body so the cancer the kitchen will stop here the kid so that ever saying is you're right both type of ears both type of seeing requires both soul and body but one's to the goof is more one's association to the body is more i.e the physical seeing and ones and the intellectual seeing is more mesiakis it's more associated with the soul so now so so how does that answer how did i answer the question um right yeah listen what was the question it should have said menachem and what's the answer the answer is going to say i think a little further but i'll tell you it tells you now the answer is that we want the comprehension of godliness the perception of eloka to be so powerful that that the body that the physical eyes the body see god and frankly when will that be when mashiach comes when mashiach comes here at my shirt it's not only i'll understand oh god sent me and i learned about mashiach and now i know no no your physical eyes as soon as they'll wake up in the morning when the shia comes and look outside you'll say i see mashiach [Music] see this teaches us that's the objective of learning citizens that that godliness should be so uh palpable in our life as though we see the sun and the moon and the cars and everything else that's how we under see god through our physical lives today so the sydney would say eli your diet david says right eli a dietitian if i would know you god hey yes if i would be more godly would say not if ilio died if when you learn to see this you could be you are your dietitian and you will be here yes and guess what if you learn siddhis and you're still not you need to remorse this right the famous work there are three things if you drank alcohol and you're not sicker you need to drink more it's impossible to drink and drink a drink and not be shaker i'm not suggesting you do that but you're saying that you know alcohol right and the same they say if you learn siddhis and you're still a behaver that means you haven't learned enough see this and you asked anderson why i made that comment because there's much fear about rama lipscore so zion used to always say that a marathon you're a behemoth i mean but never surely kiss but here he spoke to the buccaneer you know and we all are behaviors so how do you get rid of the behemoth you need to learn more citizens and marxists and to honor me with your head and there's no one in my life i sort of girl khan it was you know the paradigm of learning citizens understanding citizens and i told you that one for brendan and for driving 70th birthday he took his knuckle and he went like this the whole group of bahrain knocking maybe he drank a little mosque and he says until this physical brain will not understand god you need to still you need to learn more and that's he saying it coach gain us so therefore we know what our job is and there's no question when you learn citizens and you learn more see this and you learn again and again and again you become you become more you become more you become you know gosh is is is less meaningful to you and you become more always get abled it's a good word to remember it's a hideous word meaning refined angel through learning siddhis yeah you're thinking about siddhis you know thinking about how does god create the world why does it create the world where do i fit in what is going on over here you know my mother save and all these thoughts you know we're used to just we're used to my show he says you know the practical the bottom line that's absolutely true but in order to get the right bottom line you have to think your your brain has to be plugged in the right way because we see many people have a bottom line that leads to left field why because their thinking pattern and what they think about is not it's not really course it's not god rewired it's rewired very good thank you very good that's exactly what i'm saying we have to rewire our cup and that's why it's important to spend time thinking see this and learning to see this not like some say what are you you know silas we need to know how to act to put on finland and the mezuzah and help you who needs panosa that's all true but but knowing that these russian citizens the babbage system from the past many of them who i knew my own father-in-law they had such genuine obviously so for for another yid it's because they were look they were trained this way i'm not saying they're the only ones and i'm not saying that literally not i'm not i'm not making political statements i'm just saying that the learning of siddhis versus muslim muslims another approach muslims are more practical are you clean are you on time do you procrastinate do you get angry are you happy okay very important not to maybe make light of really a bit that's not that's not that's not what we're talking about learning to see this and think you can see this because all of that is about am i am i this who cares who you are put yourself aside stop thinking about yourself think about hashem just hashem think about hashem day in day out and you'll see you won't become you'll become less angry you won't look very much covered you won't you won't scream at your kids and your wife and you and and and hold on hold over hulu why because you'll say yourself wait is this a good is this god is this what i'm learning in the morning i see this sicklies mukshi's you know and and not to walk away saying hey i'll never get there or i'm a hypocrite that's from the clipper that's when the nephew obama's in the age of order no we know the challenges they're real they confront us every day in front of our face from all sides they want to eat us up and destroy us so it's normal it's normal to have these issues what's not normal is to be able to be refined that's not normal and that's why when you learn citizen you think see this and you live with hasidis a little bit gets in a little bit gets in a little bit a little bit and that's why when when when when the altered saw that there's a decree from heaven on his citizen he's thought maybe i should stop so he asked his teachers and they said no once you started you should give more and more and more like the muscle of the melech whose only son was never so sick and he had to take the the jewel crown the crown jewel looked around from the crown and he had to take it and dissolve it and make a potion from it and keep it into the put into the mouth of his son maybe a drop will get in the right way and that will save his life you understand one drop of sidness now could save the life of your great great son and a grandson in a hundred years standing there with his gun on the field in gaza inaza whatever and and needs protection and it reminds himself that he remembers his great his grandfather learning siddhis shabbos morning before he went to shul or after he went to schultz i mean you know it's it's it's you cannot you cannot underestimate that so this is the aveda so sometimes we learn my murder they're difficult concepts we try to explain as best as possible but the objective is to have a good understanding of the a bister and to be involved in his avoider see everyone tomorrow have a great day shalom bye [Music]