Limited Livelihood

uh we're on page 131 the last paragraph in the eighth mimer chapter one of kuntusamayan and to just recap that ebb is discussing here a very very important philosophical idea that's that's relevant to life and to belief and that is does our avedas hashem does doing of mitzvos make a difference to him to hashem or is it just for our benefit in the language to quote the language of the madrish with sarefe sabrios the purpose is to refine us but he himself hakadosh baruch who doesn't need it this is the discussion so at this point where we're at is that hashem in his very pure essence which we call right now or ensof the infinite ass energy of hashem it doesn't touch him at all hey the last line of the second paragraph agape orange now the river asks in the today into what we're starting today learning today a rhetorical question [Music] explained elsewhere in regard to this verse that avoid the service is for the benefit of govoha who's the one who's exalted hashem so the rabbit's question is the implication is that serving hashem is not only relevant to us but it's also relevant to him so how can you say it's not that way that's his rhetorical question zell begins the answer the retort to the rhetorical question this remark of avatamioni that it's relevant is only that from that aspect of hashem that's called say that which means the progression of hashem's energy as it's catered and fit for the world in other words it's not the essence of hashem okay so heaven you have to know that satan is touchless which we learn every page and see this right every history that's all a reference to an emanation of hashem not the essence so the rabbit says here hillel that the verse hashem implying that it is relevant to hashem what we do our torah mitzvahs it only touches that aspect of god that's gestalt that's already um a a removal from the essence from the orange self that's his answer let's continue vahanu and if you want anything to spell it out where the weirdest avoid the touch the over there the activity of us below of our mitzvahs or the or the opposite whatever we do touches nogaiah it touches from there it starts there and it impacts everything from there as i will we will explain soon avo conversely be oh you didn't serve if we talk about the infinity of hashem's energy that transcends the activity of have no impact crystal clear it he spells it out so now he goes back to the quote that he quoted before from pier kiovos though the uh right why what was the question maisha why does the mishnah tell us that there were 10 generations from you know so for the 10 generations why is that relevant for us to know and it was 15 generations or 13 or seven says to apprise us of next page 133 the fun of to let us know how hashem lengthens his anger all these generations were angry about from the level called the lengthy faces right apayam also comes with that term as we learned earlier himself this is a reference to that aspect of god that's infinite shall remind them of saying [Music] everyone can receive from there guess what even the wicked people this is a very answer why the wicked people prosper and what's their answer that we we have right now on the table that is because it comes from the erecha or in soft aspect of god that doesn't differentiate between good and bad now this is this needs clarity i'm not going to go into it right now unless there ever gets into it but that doesn't make sense i just want to quit i want to clarify one other thing other places in the uh in the tanya and so on he uses the phrase are we are they basically um substituting a different language are we talking about the same thing um in in footnote 183 i believe he he alludes to that uh everyone look back for a moment the tanya on the left-hand side of 180 of a footnote 183. the tanya quotes the kuni zayar ex to explain the zohar who is a hosted he who is benevolent towards his creator i think over there is also the section which that's right so it says the hebrew so you look at that footnote for clarity that that happens to be the section that that barack and i are learning right now in the um awareness and so i i just want to clarify if we're talking about the same thing here and so i mean sounds to stay yeah but sounds like we're talking about the same territory but you're asking we're talking about the same which aspect is the same hillary in your mind meaning meaning the the o-ring self is uh coexistent with the kuchubriku and the or panimi is coexistent with the shrina so when he says here that the uh that the or the kabel the theos from the orange soul through histosolutes could you also say that he's again or again from kuchibriko as opposed to through the shrina well we learned yesterday they get the hinder part of kuchubriho but here we're talking about here we're talking about the second way that the clippers get which is from the makif look look at now look at note at 185 185 it it is it tries to explain how can you say this is my question this is what i think is how could you say that from a place in god that doesn't discern between good and bad the bad should get i mean that seems to be an oxymoron if it's such a high if it's above establish if it transcends establish it's like the most holy you're telling me the most holy gives place for evil yes it sounds like you are oh yes oh oh yes you're right on now you have to understand that so look in 185 because the energy from there descends to the situat from the supernal machi if therefore they can receive it despite the repeated angering of god it is kind of an oxymoron it's a very interesting concept you see let's take for example at a wedding a parent at a wedding is so elated that his son or his daughter is married especially if it's an only child that the muscle really is brought in for an only child but we'll just extend it right you know at that time you're like you don't differentiate between this one and that one everyone's your friend everyone you want to give to everyone you want to dance with i some people are really not your friend and maybe they're your opponents and they come for some reason there is a time and place when the energy of hashem is open to anything and it doesn't discern we call that makif the makif the encompassing energy and klippa gets its nourishment from there so that's what he says here when we say that our activities what we do makes a difference to him capital h we're talking about that aspect of hashem that's um what's the word i'm looking for that is that is groomed and looking for looking for um is looking for uh acceptance uh comfortability a place to be at but that aspect of hashem that doesn't care you're talking to the wall but if you're talking to the wall and and and and the sun is shining the sun's shining what do we need this simple example the sun is shining guess what the sun shines on the garbage as well the smell the filth it's shining so the garbage becomes illuminated because of the sun but it's garbage but the the sun doesn't the sun from its perspective doesn't doesn't shine because there's either garbage or or or nice grass and flowers the sun shines this level of this is what we say moisture is called the ur itself uh the orange self yelling the orange of the infinite light of hashem in its maki state doesn't discern it just shines everyone can get so over there as he says at the end of this paragraph everyone can receive and that's an end and that's an answer why the the the the evil the bad people prosper that's the answer because they they hop around they jump in to an arena where it's open for all and of course they abuse the energy but if you're wondering the question is how can hashem from his perspective allow that the answer is free will let's continue next paragraph yes you just said something said that they abused the energy how did they how do they do that how do they gain how do they do that by uh but by trying to kill you rob you and hurt you how let me ask you how did you smile let's go to our part to the parties that we'll learn now how does ishmael do what yeshmal does against avraham avinu so how zora says that the that the uh the arabs have the bombings have a uh a half of a bridge they don't have a full bris so they have some energy okay but i'm talking in cup philosophically hi ari what how did they how did they do that the answer is they're sucking energy from a place that allows itself to be nourished it's open it's the sun the sun says anyone that wants can benefit from me and now if you're asking why for free will for you and i measure to have free will we have to have it be open to all otherwise we don't have free will you seem lost you understand what that means for you and i for our avoider what we do to make a difference there has to be the the opposite available which means don't do it so hashem gives the a billam to challenge moshe rabbenu okay if if he wouldn't do that or if there wouldn't be arabs all around there it just roll it would be free reign and when meshiah comes and that situation is eliminated so the difference is between good and better free will but i don't want to go into that now right now it's between good and evil okay let's go back to the paragraph yes a question like last week last week we were talking what the rebel was talking about was how a person a yid we were talking about a head that goes off to derek right so how could someone that's a yin how could he still have susan like and we talked about how he had a bris he maybe he did a mitzvah when he was five years old and you know today he's uh i want to say you know he's a horrible you know so i'm saying i see the parallel between that and what we're learning today about about the same the energies meaning like well we're talking about how how can a good person how could someone be a russia and receive all these wonderful braces we learned last week that uh i don't know if the rep is talking about gideon now but i'm saying that he does have brothers for whatever admits was his parent his parents gave him breast milk right right right but you're talking now you're what you're saying is correct but you're talking about from the jews perspective what what what we're learning now and discussing and analyzing is from god's perspective that that's the issue here what tickles god what makes a difference to hashem does he is he impacted or not does what i do or don't do really make a difference or is it all a a a made-up story a mirage a fantasy and that ever says it absolutely makes a difference however it depends what perspective you're coming from there's a perspective where it makes all the difference because that's the hashem he uh invests himself and clothes himself and says from this perspective the way you act makes a difference then there's another there's another simultaneous perspective where from there what we do does not make a difference and it's only because he chooses and wants us to do it we do it that's the question you have to always remember this of course i want you to put on film the question is does he want you to put on film because because it's relevant for you to put on twilight because because it does something for you and automatically for god or is it relevant because he decided and really it makes no it makes no difference now this logically makes no difference but i decided for some uh transcendental reason which we call a taiva a title meaning a a spiritual lust but the word lust here is no good we need to say a spiritual experience that he decides i want so put on film so you and and and and filling becomes the most important in other words like this what is filling admits is more important from the perspective that it makes a difference for us or from the perspective that that's what he wants the answer is from the perspective of what he wants because then it's all about him he wants not it's for me once what the the position that it's for me hill is already a secondary a secondary benefit a secondary position meaning that for himself it it's it doesn't make a difference but just for his for for us he wants it so that's a that's a what we say a lower experience a a lower level a lower perspective the higher perspective is that it's all important because that's what he wants it's all about him and that's the ultimate idea and of actus this is a discussed at the beginning of chapter of the second section the difference between yehuda ilo you've heard those words supernal unity and yahoo and lower unity the difference between shema role the verse shema and the verse barak shame every morning you say this what are you saying is all god all god nothing but god finito means there is a world and there is honor and there is glory and all of that we're going to bring back to god both are very important but there's a difference a fundamental difference in the perspective is it only god and that's it or is there something else that's sub sublimated to god so dr rebb explains that's the difference between the experience of shema israel the first the first verse and the second verse borok shame which is uh second verse the second say saying the prayer of shame which is you know that in tillim there is tillam 137 it says 26 times connected me who do they correspond to connected they correspond to the 26 generations of the hashem created by lama in his universe so how would they sustained through his kindness this is the end of the message and now the red explains the people throughout the first 26 generations would idolize how did they exist through god's kindness so the question is wait a minute we are what and the answer is this is what we're talking about it's called yoni the abundant of hasset there's two things make a note of that so when the when the 26 the people of the 26 first 26 generations who were idolaters and and they and they and they survived and they lived they got their their energy from the which we said earlier doesn't discern the sun shines everyone can benefit. from there the influence is drawn calmly over saying that even to those that desecrate god's will i i they are adopt idolaters the zebra lightness [Music] what does that mean if you follow strict rules of torah moisha they don't deserve any influence they're bad boys why the riser for the torah michochis it comes from wisdom of god and when it comes to the wisdom there are limitations from the trainer's perspective from hospice perspective kindness will be given in a specific way and not in another way in other words if you earn it you get it one way if you if you follow certain dictates you get it one way so in other words from the perspective of chokma there's a difference in the hashpaw in the influence i know cashew noise [Music] and if you don't do it properly like tombstone won't come but those people from the 26th generations after you averaged it although they desecrated the will of hashem this is a phenomenal idea guys a phenomenal idea getting a shame stressed not up here so why why don't we go for it you can get tested it's like it's like on credit what do you mean let me on this let me let me understand and see if you really got it what do you mean uh you get a free gift up front before you activate your account yeah but but but but i don't know but hillary that implies to me that you're going to activate your account properly that's not what we're talking about here here we're talking about idolaters no they're sin so i can't accept your your muscle in in that aspect maybe another aspect if you follow what i'm i'm i'm i'm encountering with right here right so what's going on here what is going on here stop for a moment this is this is a fascinating thought ahri this thought is is is revolutionary you know what it says here the rashtrap is explaining based on the madrish that the the idolaters i mean like in those days in the 21st 26 generations of the from when the world was created right the sinners the people who today you would say are bringing all of this mesh one second one second please into the world they [Music] get rough they're getting a free ride so hillel did touch upon something those words that's what i thought he meant to say and i'll elaborate a free ride when you get a free ride you end up going the wrong way or you end up going into an arab village don't look for free rides you want free rides you're gonna get and yeah the beginning is gonna feel good but at the end it's gonna be a disaster don't look for free rides work however but but but philosophically you know what we're learning is so fascinating it's not alpe torah what does it mean it's not alpha torus the rep explains i'll be torah there's right and wrong and this is also very important think about listen to this the fact that there's discipline there's right and wrong law and order that's cavaldi that's so good that's torah yeah yes there is a realm that hashem wants it's called the title and when he is invested in that realm there's right and wrong and that's the proper way if you if you if you do it if you act improperly and you still are sustained because you're doing your merry way you're getting you're getting this he says raf reset me are humping that's great that you're getting from there but remember it's a free ride what you want to say my yeah i was gonna say i was going to try to come with a couple come up with an analogy like instead of what maybe what else said like they're like riding on the fumes it's like uh the fumes you know something herbs if there's some sort of a process and it gives off like a byproduct which is which you could you could use for something for a little while even learn it probably but this isn't we're not talking here residue of the good we're talking here about a very high exhilarating thrilling experience so it doesn't feel like residue it's not dreads and god and garbage it's it's hot and heavy and great kind of it's like it's like it's like a bus that's driving right and you could either i guess pay and get on the bus or you could you know wait for the bus to drive past and you have a skateboard and you sort of you try to like grab onto the bus you know and like or maybe you know like a bus generates some wind as it goes by and you you try to take advantage of the wind you know uh-huh very good that's good i like you thinking no i'm serious very good that you're coming up and shown that's that's what you need to do when you learn to see this kid sir let's look at the kids sir synopsis you know we learned in this chapter one the nourishment of the negative side how is that aleph ari here you'll see the the kit sir boy hatsune this is what you were referring to the residue it comes from the many contractions on the on the panemias light on the inner energy as it goes through what we call centum contractions what's left over is that residue and you get benefit from it that's the first yellowing number two base may have machi for alien and that's what we're talking about in the latter part of the mimer you get from the super the su the supernova market which is open to everyone you're not getting residue you're getting from a place where says anyone that wants come and take and you can be a bohemian and you still can get okay after 10 generations from adam to new york from new york today which refers to the lengthening of anger or the length in their faces ain't soft next page 135. it refers to the infinity of god that transcends the progressive descent of the energy the aim and over is the activities that we do are not relevant they're not no gay they don't touch it they don't make a difference in it and their influence that they get in that experience isn't based on torah's dictates said it's only because there's abundance of kindness that hashem says i'm giving and you guys can benefit let's go to chapter two [Music] yes what's the amount of energy that from this experience you what they one gets it's called rebuy a lot right it's plenteous plenty the zeal yesterday that's why some of these people have lots of wealth okay why are such people wealthy another basic question mccloud they have so much that there's no calculation that can justify it commercial kosov as it says in koheles and the answer is he quotes us for there are no words no wreck no reckoning no knowledge or wisdom in show meaning in hell excuse the expression they receive without any apparent reckoning again this experience and level is open so if you're going to take from there you're going to get openness but it it it's openness of of hell of i'm using the word hell none of me of of of bed at the end of the day it's gonna it's gonna be used for terrible things i mean i told you that story i'm not gonna repeat all the details but i when i was a buckler in los angeles los angeles and i went on to meet someone to to do with mythaium on friday to put film on so it was on wilshire boulevard i remember like now when cr not crescent heights one black block after i forget now and and um went into someone's office so i usually if he was in i would fill in on with him and one day that one time he says close the door please i can close the door and he pours his heart out to me and he says look at my rings on my hands my fancy city culver city no it wasn't culver city was it was on on wilshire boulevard in l.a in beverly hills yeah yeah right right before before lastianaga anyway and and and he tells me he has her house in hawaii and her house in beverly hills and he blows a chauffeur a big show for any and he says and it's all worthless because my own daughter steals my silverware to barter for drugs so i have to hide the silverware you know so and he was a fine person oh and he and also he was a criminal a criminal lawyer and he won 19 out of 19 cases i remember that so you know he had he had a good from all sides and he was a yid it wasn't he wasn't a frugi not you know not yet hopefully today he is anyway the point is the clipper the clipper gets a lot but there's wealth a lot of wealth but guaranteed at some time if not during your lifetime your kids lifetime not your kids grandkids it's not going to stay there in a healthy way that's what he says over here let's continue it says over there reckoning is called for it is included in the term for thought and second look at note 188 the hebrew term for reckoning consists of similar letters as and is thus related to thought right the letters are the same close to the same hence can be tied to that's what it says over there back to the text in the morning it says expounds i'll possible quote in in bamidbor al khan ye islam come let us make the record reckoning of the of the world i'm sorry the plastic means therefore those who use parables say sorry those who use parables say quote come to hezbollah so the gemara explains not just a locale but come let us make the reckoning of the world let's make an accounting is it was it worth for god to make the world did god get did he make profit on the world did he lose money on the world let's make a reckoning and the show the the loss of a mitzvah have said mitzvah against its gain and then he says and the prophet of a sin against its laws but let's make a let's make an accounting mistress in our vedas profits and losses okay next paragraph says that this has been whom it comes from the wisdom of terror it comes from wisdom and it's what we call the measuring stick from there that um measurements and budgets alcohol has come from there the budget for ghasmis and guess what ari the budget for this all comes from this level of the indian of and this measurement and this and this weights that you measure it includes kindness and judgment which are included be given how much has it and how much guru you know right it's it's a weight it's a measurement how much would you be get of each other each one um and that is how the measurement that's given from this position of khakma of torah being is limited in different ways [Music] for example children in matters of children health and paranosa where is it coming from how much children how much paranosa how much health etc etc do does each one of us get kama t hash po they soy fin how much influence you'll get and in what matters a person's paranosa is decided listen to this i'm rosh hashanah sagamora and so we have another saying man is judged every day every hour it's another rosh hashanah that judgment who i'll be myself it depends on everyone's daily behavior that is the reason why this is the way and how much he gets and in a certain way how he gets it [Music] based on his behavior and the amount allotted to him of khesit and gevorah daily on a certain day and boy the stock market flies up 1500 points you got the right stock you made tremendous amount you sold it and another day the market goes down all the way and your stock sinks all the way down the same person the same hashem what happened over here and the answer is because it's coming from and it's limited and measured depending on what you are each day that's how you trigger one day zero and one day a million one day healthy in cash for children one day not healthy etc the rabbit says he doesn't even want to say it out rashaba doesn't want to say the opposite he says in this gabriel where hesed overpowers that you've got abundance of good or he says god forbid or god forbid otherwise he doesn't even want to say it out we will continue tomorrow this is very very important and this is where the rashad gets into this whole idea of parnosa it's one of the things i told you about when we before we began learning country mayan that he will deal with a very important issue of panosa which we all need and want to understand better and we want to have the key to to to influence hashem that the panason comes stronger because we could all do good things with it so hopefully as we learn this this whole pasha in the mimer about parnosa in in the upcoming chapters it's not just uh one or two pages it's a kind of an extensive explanation discussion from here on it it'll add clarity avi do you have any uh questions or anything you've been you've been too quiet are you robbie ahri i i just want to say first of all it's great to see all you guys i really hope to be back more and more my schedule's a little bit better now a little more flexible um i'm with a new a new company great i had a big will and desire to get on today i think just to hear this particular share that the way you spend your day and where you are affects how a chef looking at you this day so i was thrilled to join hopefully i can get you know continue and really you know start to to make it a regular thing i appreciate it right i could just talk for myself this morning shear that we have is my highlight of the day the energy it and you know for me for me it's not you know the morning uh but it's it's and i i think that i i i see from your participation all of you over the you know days that we learned that it's a highlight and then um even though for you it's the middle of the day but it still is a focus so it's it's it's it's a good you know it's not not too long not too short it's the right amount of time and um we're learning uh you know very important issues not just philosophical issues that are you know not relevant i try as best as possible to bring it back home and see how it's relevant to us and our families and to use that as a guide in our uh of in raising our families it's it's it's with the children and the grandchildren with spouses i mean you know hasidis is not ethereal it's not that's the unfortunately so many people think hasidis is kabbalah which it's not kabbalah is abstract and hasidis is applied that's what i say sometimes i use the word for hasidis applied kabbalah for those that are into kabbalah mysticism i try to tell explain to them that hasidis is applied kabbalah this abstract kabbalah abstract mysticism and applied mysticism and uh it's a whole different orientation and i'm talking now about the the scholar the ideas you you see this is not this is not easy uh this isn't um out of base you know we're going on a ride we're going high we're climbing a ladder and and and it's very healthy to allow yourself to climb up and and and leave the the world that and i'm talking about you know do this and do that okay thank you how about understanding what what's what's behind this do this and do that and this is what has offers and i think we're fortunate to have it and we need to we need to share it with the world it's not enough for us four and five you know to it's it's nice but why aren't 5 000 people learning this today this in the morning and alabachers lit fox fired him you know so we all have our work cut out for us it's only a beginning saigon everyone have a great day take care yes real quickly yes my son my son menachem levy went to crown heights on uh on last wednesday and um he's staying with the andrewsia family they're from the the grandparents are in crown heights the the the friend that he has lives in vermont and schluckles in manchester it's rabbi dolphin so he's learning at the shlokam office every day with his friend just really incredible opportunity for him um and i don't know if you have an opportunity to be going to crown heights this week but just to mention it because if you are able to go and you go you accept them office every day learning for like six seven hours a day it's incredible but for him to see he saw he's seen a lot of people that were friends with crown heights it's a big boost for him but i just want to throw it out okay but let's also make does he want to does he want to come for shoppers to borrow park maybe can arrange no he's going to be going to vermont for for a couple weeks starting this shop so he was he was there for last jobs we had some friends in crown heights that he stayed with for a day and then his family