Is it possible to learn all day & yet have unhealthy urges? Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

oh we're on page 36 and Tanya and what we learned until now is a very important point and that is that by the beginning the the potential man that the altariba teaches us and Tanya is us that we can be complete and thought speech in action nevertheless in the heart the urges are still there and it's very important to know this and it's important for everyone to know this not only someone who's working or someone who's really is not religious but even the most religious person with the biggest beard and the biggest but they tell you around everything else they also are not Sadiq him so they need to know that there's something there and be on guard at the same time know that your potential is so great that you can actually perfect yourself in thought speech and action in action to do only what's right and speaks the talk only was proper and even the thinking which is which is constant right a person's always thinking as soon as something inappropriate enters your mind you push it away as we learned in chapter 12. in today's section of what we're going to learn today mits Hashem ba talks about another kind of abandoning basically in Tanya he speaks about three to four different types of baby and and we'll recap that in the next few CL today or tomorrow but debating they talks about today is the one that I just event I just identified someone is learning Tata yaim of the Lila day and night now here Maisha you would think if you're in the basement all day and if you're in school all day and if you're only learning a davening and and and doing good things what do you mean there's there's an urge in my heart that's lodged there and as soon as I open up the the the lid it jumps out I'm learning the Dominique I'm not working I'm not on the street corners right so let's look so this is what the outlet identifies today as another type of banana okay let's look what he says we're now on page 36 and we are on the fourth line the three words from the end the f foreign [Music] someone who desires the Toyota of God the tone of God and he any any and he's diligent about its study day and night and the other ads I've run the word leshma he learns it for the sake of title he's not learning to get a degree to get Smita to be a rabbi no no no he's learning because this is God's Terror and that's a very high level by the way Maisha to learn Tyra to be a rabbi a great thing right but if that's your agenda it's an agenda you know they would they were the barber and my father-in-law included that didn't want to get smika and my father-in-law was I tell you a pretty good Jew a Pious Jew he never got smika the rabbit spoke about getting smika when he already passed Congressman stage because the river felt that it in today's world having the uh the PHD after your name is very helpful right and I can tell you that firsthand and I don't want to digress but I will for a second only that if I had a PhD after my name I could get into any University and touch thousands of more people and I was encouraged by Dr Rabbi Dr Metzger laborator who was at Stern College a a professor and and he told me and your position and at your age in your life are you talking this about 15 years ago get yourself the PHD I'm I'm telling you the red but when he spoke about not going to college didn't mean you right and I've seen and I didn't for whatever reason but I I see and I see today that because I don't have that PhD after my name you know you can't get into certain doors they're they're professors around the country who I'm in touch with because of my writing and they'd love to have me lecture for the students but I the policy is you need that Ma with that PhD after your name from a reputable College not from the rabbinical College of Morristown or from um you know Chappelle's Chappelle's Yeshiva degree ain't gonna get you anywhere no if it it might get you it might get you what diploma you want I know I know I know but but but but Yoni I know about I know but I know about that too but first of all it ends and it's false and it makes it worse I don't want to go into it I know all about it is it okay and and it's it took so my point is learn English small is not for the PHD okay imagine velve was here wearing his surgeon doctor white uniform and you know he he learned to be whether it's Eureka whatever you got your degree from available I want to be a doctor because I want to help people what thank you that so he wants to be a doctor just to help people then there is I want to be a doctor because I need a partner I need to bring home foods for my and I can also help people and I like medicine so there are all kosher reasons but there is an agenda I'm not saying this about you available I don't know why you became a doctor and I don't want to know right now but then the good thing is there's learn English mom for the sake of the the subject matter itself and does learning malishma most Trader that is learned is not leshma okay if you think it is you better wipe your eyes and drink a good cup of coffee and wake up okay now that every here look what the outer never says let's go back to the text this individual that I'm talking about says he learns night day and night wow and Le Shema he learns it for the sake of Tita so if anyone can be exotic it would be someone like him look what the out that ever says now here comes the whammy this is not yet proof that the evil the bed within his heart has been lodged at all from his from its place still there Ella it could be on the and Ella yohaliers but rather it could be it it is that the essence the medus the character of this individual was learning day and night who be talking it's in its full potency and it's a full strength in its place and therefore it can come out at any point could you imagine Rock the differences that by this individual His Garment supports which in action shall never shall bombings of the animal Drive Aina must slaps him don't invest themselves in the mind in the mouth in the heart because God gives dominion and power with the heart Heaven you've been learning Tanya for many years I have a question didn't we learn on the other side of this page that the reason why this type of being in these seemingly is able to overcome is because God stands to his right we had a whole thing about what does it say over here why is he able to overcome because the mind has power over the heart make up your mind what's the reason two different reasons so the explanation is I heard the same it's very simple on the first side of this chapter 13 we're talking about another type of abandoning we're talking about obeying knee who isn't learning all day we're talking about he's out on the street he's working like all like all of us pretty much right over there our heads already a little messed up so our heads don't have the power to overcome the heart because we've been warped in our Moab but if you wanna if you're on the right Trap God will stand to your right and help you out so that's why on first in the first page of painting gimbal dramas uses the reason of Hashem or Israel what's this type of abandoning someone who's learning day and night with schmuck so over here guess what Maya foreign work and and this difference Hebrew is a very important difference for Outlook what's the what am I referring to someone who's already been messed up in the Maya a little bit less a little more you know there's only one solution God help me and stand next to me and give me the character overcome because if I go with my mind my mind's gonna lead me to accept the dictates of the Yates but if you're someone who's in the Yeshiva World or in that Arena and you're learning Tyra especially with Shema then has not messed up it's indeed you're learning terrorism or learning even day and night not even terrorismo but you're in that realm your mock so someone is learning if then they can ease more easier access their their mind to control their heart and this is what we when we when we talked ourselves family and friends and others and when you especially do Outreach to bring people back together you have to know where are they coming from and I go back to that countries that we learned together how important it is and maybe it's worthwhile for everyone to relearn it slowly on their own but the previous letter writes there in order to succeed with a student you must know their background and if you don't know their background you will never succeed with that student that's without them ever saying here if it's a pain in the you have to know the background of debating of this guy who's a potential benign if he's the type that he's already been um exposed okay he's been exposed and by the way who hasn't been exposed fine but if he's the type that's not been exposed or he's transformed himself where he's learning so much that he he forgot all the stuyat all the stupidity and and Folly of his Youth and now he's like a guy who came out of Mayor sharing with whatever panovic whatever they whatever they think they they create these pure individuals which as I said think they create because I ain't convinced that that's what they actually create but I have to tell you this this this anecdote joke or maybe it actually happened because I just have to tell you I said the ones to say again they sent the Baja from the Babbage I mean 100 years ago in the city of they told them the mashpia comes over and says Yanko it's time for you to to get married okay you go to here and here you'll knock on the door and you meet someone you meet you you go there you'll meet someone your ankle goes then you listen you don't ask shylus you don't ask questions you just do what the mashpia says he goes to the door he knocks on the door and the girl who's supposed to meet with him meet him comes to the door he sees the girl he says I am eagle a girl and he runs the other way that's the type of Buckingham that happened with bobbage 100 plus years ago believe me I'm not saying all the burger went that way they weren't but they were such as well totally you know you have to meet for marriage who are you gonna meet uh a stick a wall are you learning about a girl and about a woman and all the details and he knew shot backwards and forwards when it comes to meeting him he runs the other way why I it's a girl because the truth didn't register because by him his mayak was totally elsewhere and I know it's very hard very hard to imagine that there is such a person on Earth but there is says someone who lose title is schmuck their their mind has not been adulterated their mind is pure and therefore for such a type of being in the the advice is not that God should help him overpower the tivus this guy has the ability to use his mind because his mind is pure and overcome let's go further Avi we're on page 36 about 10 locks down second word on the line never surely kiss God be sold that lodges itself in the brain as we learned in chapter 9 Michelle Katana dominates over the small City everybody have both referring to the limbs of the body coulomb all of them she yielded um so that they become a garment and a chariot to the three garments she slapsa of thought speech and actions but as far as the very essence and character of The Godly Soul within man meaning The Meadows of the person Angels it does not have control control and Dominion as from the from the perspective of the urge and the essence only because God will sleep bye when is there a kind of complete control when there is palpable love that's revealed in the Heart by this upon him at select times other similar times addresses the following if you're telling me during diving he feels this way so wait a minute so valuables are throwing down and we're not calling them assadic remember who we talking about here obeying me so make up your mind this is what the outside is going to address now what I'm saying now make up your mind you're telling me during diving his Essence his character is so connected to God as like as though there's no bad inside and there's no urge so why isn't he a topic look what he says and even during the opening Aina it's that he's able to control his urges Levant that alone oh that itself that only that I'm sorry could received as it's written yaakov right when one Rises one fourth right but if God passes by the church Jason wants to go out passes the shoe yaakov wants to go out we have that Madras so we understand when one Rises the other one Falls and when one Rises the other one Falls now there's another writes here and I want to point out to you how every word in Tanya including Huli means Etc with a a a a dash right who means Etc why does Fountain ever put in Hulu here you have to ask yourself that question because the gazelle continues it says okay in other words when yaakov Rises Ace of Falls when Ace of Rises yaakov Falls so why doesn't he include the rest of the Ghazal and that's what the altareba alludes to with the Huli with the ETC but he doesn't write it why doesn't he write it because what's relevant here in Tanya is not the second part of the Ghazal what's relevant is that even after you fall you can get up that's why he ends in other words what's relevant is the the come hey guy you fell you have a taiva you have an urge don't make a big deal about it come get up rise you know who you are you're a star you made a mistake you fell into uh tiger and that's we have to train ourselves not to become morbid and and ups and uh uh you know despondent because we fell that's it down to them shall never surely Kiss Me Sam that says but look what he says the never shall the kids strengthens himself who Miss garbage and overpowers I'll never shall buy me so with enough Buddhist which is cut the concept of what's associated with the the attribute of Bina Liz binding how how do you have the power how does this abandoned me he didn't goof up in thought speech and action he goofed up it's during baby trila but somehow that feeler I'm sorry the Fila makes him so strong Maisha that when he's diving in his fire I asked you the question we spoke about this example yayini's famous five-year example but it's a good example how can it be that you should bath and well and then go thrust by the Kiddush how could that be that Maisha Myers if you have a good davening and your own throat then you're all in an ecstatic state of prayer and all of a sudden the Kiddush comes you're like a behem how could it be what's the answer but right that's the fact the facts are on the ground what's the what's the answer wait that during diving the only reason why I had this great topic is because I over my nephew Shirley kissed my Godly soul is so powerful that it overpowers enough but as far as my very core Essence and urge it's a Raging Bull that wants to Fresh away wants to indulge and be a glutton my mashpied abuel told us to tell a story of two great see them Tel Aviv I know about both of them I don't want to say the names but they were Rashad tell me them of the Rashad and the Rayas and they lived into the Rapids period so he would he said that one said at a wedding he he was there the but the the waiter passed by so one of the one of the hasidim didn't even realize she passed by the other one said come here put down a nice portion in front of me he liked the eating and it's true he did like eating it he was bulky you know it's not is this a sin it's not a sin you're hungry it's it's it you're at a wedding you have something to eat especially in those days in the 1940s or 50s 40s but nevertheless you could see that that type of foreign that there was some urge left that's what the alternate was saying here she never surely kissed The Godly Soul misameters because during davening we meditate on God's greatness the infinite Godzilla Hashem and we give birth to a very passionate and strong love for God can each behaves like the flame fire the whole money should believe by in the right ventricle the Earth is Molly and then we subjugate that's exactly what happens that's the answer to the question that's the answer how is it motion that you're able to because during davening you're controlling yourself so it looks like when the kids is gonna come you're not gonna press and you're not gonna go crazy right that's the way it looks like during diving because during diving you meditated of godliness and you think about Hashem so awesome so great when is fresh and come into the picture like the whole thing is contrary to to being a glutton and Etc look at the words now fourth line from the bottom lay this bottle knee it has not been and no totally in a baby in other words in its core it's there Ella it's a dick where has it been Patel the gun they completely unknown by an individual we call it Sadiq Channel Barbarian foreign [Applause] is not complete it's incomplete it's not absolute look at this mushroom it's a beautiful mushroom a beautiful example it's like a person who's asleep we're going on to page you test he can get up he gets up and he and he wakes up from his sleep right during the time of sleeping everything is Rosy and dandy I was so tired and wasn't feeling well last night I went to sleep animated down I feel better right you go to sleep you got up sleep's the best one maybe the best one of the best things remedies get a good night's sleep you're in a bad mood go to sleep you'll get it don't talk about it at night you know you had a hard day at work you had a hard day in the family you had some kind of dispute with your wife just go to sleep keep your mouth shut and go to sleep and tomorrow you'll wake up you'll be able to you know it'll be less even if the issue is still there says the outlet but using this as a muscle car rabbit the large bed that's in a baby it's like it's asleep even when your heart is burning with a burning fire of love for God others but after it is possible it comes back to haunt you so don't take it for granted below he answers now of rum the question one of the questions that he asked in the first page of Tanya how can rabba call himself abandon if we know he's at Sadiq never stopped the Torah never stopped coming out of his mouth means his mouth begins to from learning and he desired God's tail again below a day and night the face of the shaking which three words meaning such a passionate desire and and and and want for for God Vanessa showcase your fostering and he had a soul of thirst for God with a tremendous love Kim like the time of David beneath that's why rabba thought he was like abandoning all day remember what we said in chapter 12 during diving you're on fire rapper state of being 24 7 was like it's happening all day so it appeared to that book his ability why would rather have to conclude that he's exotic obey me there's there's a minute pain in the heat there's a half hour banging knee 20 minutes of pain in the knee during supernaturally and and and then there's a bending of color young because all day his mindset is banging he like meaning I'm in love with God foreign in other words abandonedly begins with a minute pain in me a minute pain in the knee a 20 minute pain in the a five hour baby and a 24 7 banging me but it's all banging me let me just finish and I'll take your question and as the same to say she is only I wish that one with diving all day why the answer is it doesn't mean you have to dab an old day you have to go out to the fields you have to go down to Tel Aviv and do business you have to run away from these stupid scars of rockets right but your attitude and everything is barely like so to spell your diving over there you're gonna have to have anything all day someone gazelle if only we had the opportunity to thousand all day literally it is what it means but in a more figurative way it means we should adapt the attitude of davening throughout our day when we're selling products or in the center of the Americas in the stores Etc I'm actually what you want to say is this so this reference to rabba here in this in chapter 13. does this now bring us back to the very beginning chapter one yes where where's this is it Robin says I for example in the vanity and then set up by a2m Mastery and I make it possible for anyone to live yes and and without the web is he's answering the question there was a question that the Elton ever asked on that how can rabba make the mistake and think that he's obeying me when he didn't stop learning for a moment he was excited so the autonomous answer is he could have made the mistake you're right he wasn't Sonic but because of beta knee is one that eradicates the feelings of of of of of it has only a has only a love for God rabbit saw himself as a full day baby but not exotic a Sadiq has transformed no this is the point but Sonic doesn't have it's not just he has an urge and he transforms it he doesn't have the urge because in the state of being of being a savic there's only good whereas the vanity always has the urge but I control the urge even during diving will continue tomorrow Mr sham have a great day Shalom bye well thank you