Invest Yourself not be just a Participant - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

we're learning Tanya Pedic test Zion we're on page Huff Bays were at the Fifth Line after the word hanau which is the first word with the period and the alternative is explaining a certain type of feeling that's cut called like an intellectual feeling within the heart so it's cold it's a cold feeling it's not a warm feeling of the heart says that nevertheless if a person will will develop this that's adequate for it to for the beginning to be considered an over Deli came in the sense of going Beyond his limitations let's learn inside Fifth Line Hillel Zeiss the second word on the Fifth Line the illaz and because of this he will grab he will embrace the whole even after she'll Embrace Hashem with his entire heart and soul um very much so the high note through Kim of time mixed with the Fulfillment of the Mitzvahs the mystery shopping action speech and thought she he has circus videos which also includes the comprehension of Toyota as the canals we mentioned earlier again I point out to you that these words are new to the Tanya over here when you don't find them earlier in Tanya and the way we don't even find them later means the recesses fullness it comes from the word funa to understand Libra in the heart so it's like three words which are contradictory initially right Libra is the heart truna implies the Mind well which is it is in the heart was in the mind recesses well if it's in the heart it should be revealed begoing not not talumus so this is indeed very accurate in using these words because he is talking about not a revealed type of love if he's talking about a revealed love he would not use these words because it's be his goggle sleeper and here he's teaching us that even if it's not a heartfelt love for Hashem but it's only a type of a love that's in the heart but that that feeling senses its intellect so it's a cold love it's it's more of a kind of not a rule I don't want to say robotic love but it's a guided love you know a free love of the heart is a very different type of a love than an Intel intellectual intellectual love a free love of the heart is is is is is just passion full of passion I'm not talking about a misplaced one in others but within in a healthy way When You observe or you experience this love and that love it's like night and day it's like someone was telling me yesterday that someone was writing a review on my on my book or on on the Schecter so I I transcribed the interview I did I did a pretty much a two-hour interview with him in Boulder in 2010. so I transcribed it because I wanted it to be in writing for those that won't listen to it on YouTube or whatever the case there should be a record of the in writing because the rebel always said I grew up with the river saying and I heard it over and over whatever is in print is for Doros is for eternities for Generations so I wanted this interview that I did with him to be for Generations so I transcribed it was a lot of work but I did it so the person was reviewing my book one of the people so he he um he want he said okay but I really want to uh listen to the actual interview so it's online so he tells me yesterday listening to the interview and seeing you and Zalman in the interview is like night and day to the what's in the transcription it there's no comparison why because when you listen and you see the facial movement and the body movements and the wings and the move you know and everything else it's alive listen it's alive as much as communicated in in a video and in a clip you know that it doesn't compare to actually being in the room that's that's a that's a that's the deepest if you know when there's face-to-face contact but nevertheless if you compare watching it compared to to reading it it's two different things and I'm using that maybe as an example to explain myself the difference between an avid and a year within what we call the rep the his galutalev it's it's it's in the heart very much warm and passionate compared to what he says over here and Ava and era and Ava beta lumos Libre and and we Define that as a as a cold love a cold love in the heart where the the reason we call it cold is because the mind the circle that leads the thought that generates the feeling is very much dominant in the heart so what type of Love Is that a very guided one and a very sterile one and guess what many times that's the that's the maximum we reach we don't reach a he's a Ava bus Libre which is very different it's a very different you know it we always talk about you know how we we walk around with a facade and we're guarded and all of that the same is over here for a person to allow their emotions to to flow to be free it's it's a big avoida it's a big advisor and doubt that ever says that even when the even when you don't so so when you when it comes to serving Hashem for obeying the knee who's looking to break the nature right as we discussed in the last few or him you would think that breaking of nature is created through the free flow emotion and if you don't have the free flow emotion so then the breaking of nature is not sincere says doubted them in chapter 16 wrong even if you break your nature just with a A Sterile love that's adequate it's adequate and your avoid is considered you're a servant of God you're obeying as a servant of God so that's a that's a great Solace for a person who's who's you know looking to connect and is working on himself and you know so know like this to say that it's that we we shouldn't look for more we should because that's what we learned in chapter 14 that's of rum in other words should a person allow themselves to be uncontrolled by the mind and let the emotions flow ultimate the answer is yes you should you should work towards that but since the the average person I.E the pain in the does doesn't succeed in that area so doubt that ever says here don't worry you're still a good baby yes my for about the cold sterile love does that mean that if we if we work through a situation and we achieve the results but the but the method we use I don't know like it's a cold sterile so to speak but we achieved the results of breaking the nature breaking one's nature is that what you're saying yes yeah that's what that's what the ultimate that's what the alternate is saying that that is considered an an avoidance yes I love what like I told you take me out the garbage I gave you a very concrete example you do something you don't like doing I gave you the example of taking out the garbage for your wife but yeah whatever it is do something that you don't you know because as a husband and wife it's in you know of of of of of feelings and love and all that right and and but we think not the garbage that's not what you feel the average normal person right so I gave you a very kind of uh about a but it's true in in everything yeah let's say working right there are days I'll tell you my own work probably you have the same thing or sometimes you just not motivated you don't have a feeling and you don't but you do it because either you need to do it because of parnosa or you need to occupy yourself but today you don't want to draw you're not inspired so when you're inspired when you're inspired you you gravitate to the to to to drop to to painting and drawing and writing and whatever not in a way that you have to force yourself and convince yourself and prove to yourself but it it's you it's like and if I don't do it I feel I feel empty I feel empty why do you feel empty why don't you take a day of relaxation and walk on on over there on a yarcon or whatever it's called they are then and just walk and get some nice air and but that doesn't fulfill me what fulfills me is is is is is the work that I do it it really so that level of inspiration would be considered in the language of Kanye the his Galo sleeper the hearts reveal the emotions are are flowing in other words the heart is in its natural habitat but there are many times it's not that way so do you do but yet you do it so there are two types of reasons why you do it one is it's only bottom line it's only I have to make the money because I got to feed my family I gotta pay my bills so I do it but I hate doing what I'm doing then there's a level in between in other words that what I just said now is my sin do it the first level of the heart flowing is his gallery is there anything in between thousand episodes here in 16 there is there is an intellectual type of a love for the heart we're you're doing it not just because you have to make the partnership once you sit down and you do it you start liking it like and get more so you say yourself I'm just talking from own experience when I will go to my computer and open up my file and put my fingers to the keyboard and start looking at what I wrote yesterday a day before and what I learned and thought about and what I went to sleep was hmm something starts growing on you and you get more into it so I don't have that burning passion at the moment to write I don't have the need to write because I have to pay a bill I have something in between taluma sleeper is called it's it it's it has the intellectual orientation the reason driven orientation but was in the heart within the heart and what I'm what I'm what I was saying earlier is that you could see a difference in the quality a song from a musician right so you could see the difference between a song that's composed that's made that comes straight from the heart with those flowing emotions and passion or or a a song that's written because you need to write songs to pay your bills and that's what everyone knows you I've run the songwriter the composer and there's something in between I was talking about what's in between so I hope these examples I've given you are helpful let's continue and he says and his heart and his mind and his mouth and his heart are equal he fulfills what he feels in his mouth whatever he resolves in this recesses of the heart the high knew and in this case the judge potatoes Hashem he comes to conclusion a conclusion to learn God's data have to say he desires and he puts effort into it night and day defeated and so the hands and all other organ limbs he does his his limbs fulfill what he resolved in the cold intellect within the intellectual intellect within the heart and the next word is key over here people glance over it but abiola pointed it out that I shared with you miss La Besh has been myself this intellectual love invests itself in my sin I see motion in the case of paying bills doing what you have to like you said earlier I I break my nature if the breaking of nature is just bottom line without any sense of intellect the breaking of the nature you'll see in a moment that there's an issue let me continue I want to tell you what that issue is not that heaven tells us he says investing by myself the highest and hear the words Le particola Ayla to make the Torah missus fly upwards as though it's as though you you were involved in the study of Taylor doing mistress with love and fear in actuality is godlessly there's a rule we're going to learn about it more in chapter 40 in Tanya but for now the rule desire account says he said I don't know if you ever studied this or hurt does that besides Tanya brings it all kind of missiles without Avenger like life do not fly upwards they don't Ascend you know why upwards we means we mean the world of of spirituality of God of Brokenness when you want to get into the world of you have to come there like a rookni you can't come there as a human a gosh a materialistic individual like the famous vert is the Frida Kareem is one of his teachers said to him before he went to sleep every night foreign yehudib who did the son of tame a sense keeper Kyrie as Calamity because rewrite get up like a lion lashes returned to do the will of God right get up jump out of your bed and go serve Hashem diving and start your day would say maybe even the support how could you how could you get up like a lion if you go to sleep like a lion but if you go to sleep like a horse you ain't getting up like a lion you're getting up like a horse what does that mean a horse is tired and sluggish and dry you know a horse a lion is roaring you want to get up with a roar losses then you have to go to sleep like a lion if you go to sleep like a like a a deadhead excuse the expression the rock and roll group whatever they call the deadheads I'm saying if person goes to sleep you know to completely like he falls asleep deadheads are not known for their sleepiness for me that's why I took it back but the point is if you don't go to sleep like a lion you're not getting up tomorrow like a lion so if you want to get up tomorrow go around this completely different in the morning you have to really prep the night before shall I meet uh whatever else right why am I saying this the desire that cutter says that that um in order for them to to get to the right place they need to be they need to be they need to they need to they need to fly up there how do they fly how the answer is they need to be yeah they need to have what's the word optimize you know actually they have to have the oxidization whatever the English word is of spirituality when you want to enter a world of spirituality I'm talking about a Torah a god-given real spirituality you can't come in there with your ugly clothes and your ugly Persona and everything else it ain't gonna work and even if it's not ugly if you cut you think you can get in there just being the kashmi no that doesn't mean to say so all of a sudden I'm going to be an angel I'm gonna fast and not eat no but you have to become more refined more nucleus when you become more refined then your Terra mitzvahs will Ascend upwards that's the outfit I'd be here in the chapter that this funa is the gateway to making your Torah mitzvah's if you just do it because I'm breaking my nature bottom line but there's no rookness associated with it you yourself are doing a great thing but you're breaking your nature the problem is that in order for that to get to the right place it still needs oxygen of spirituality and what is that this tuna the least is this tuna if you don't have this fullness if you turn a Mitzvahs doesn't have any inspiration okay so here let's let's get let's make it a little clearer yeah if you tell your mistress has no inspiration so yes you gotta put that thing in the morning you don't you want to sleep in till 9 10. you got up six seven you see you broke your nature you your happiness from you thrive from trying to sleep in the morning you're a nikers or vice versa and you break your habit there's only one problem if it's not inspired if it's not it has no emotions and feelings there then it cannot ultimately get to the right place says the altered so that's why when you have this what we call eBay that is enough to help your thyroid mitzvah's Ayla fly upward and the out there and that's why downtown uses the word mislabeshit implies in clothing investing it's not like it stands from the outside and it happens automatically no this it even even this intellectual cold love in the heart is invested in the third mid-swiss and it makes it upward now why that is we're going to learn in a moment let's continue and he says in the brackets um the feelings that you have in this even in this cold intellectual love is that the fates of the sheikha which is with desire and passion and yearning and longing that's felt in the heart but now Hashem that in your soul is thirsty for God that is now it's like you have This free-flowing Love high heel sins what leads to this feeling it's this intellectual love in the heart you see he it leads I may be awesome to study tires in between the zoo and if not for the fact that you would meditate on it like you wouldn't you wouldn't be involved in Terror element you play golf instead you'd surf the Internet you'd watch television and and TV all day and night or play soccer why because your bodily needs or you'd eat all day or sleep all day your bodily needs with are closer to you thanis and looked out the devil says in the brackets the god in whom they well it's a counter argument what if he's a massmut he loves to learn and learn to learn learn that's all he knows bit Tivoli that's his nature but this line and this blows away everyone anyone Apple became is my friends a benign loves his body more naturally than learning that's why he's a baby he's not a Sonic but Sadiq has transformed himself to the point where learning diving and doing Mitzvahs he loves more then taking care of his body and the story I told you is Rabbi hers from the receiver of Montreal and the great Thomas a student in the hospital Yeshiva it's Tish above you're not supposed to learn the the Camara during the day but you see your name only things that are relevant to Tish above Tish above is over everyone goes home to break the fast everyone's hundreds of 24 hour fast and he's there he's pouring his head into a piece of gamori's learning and learning that his wife comes and says the first name was Kim in a high mass and polish gotta come on to eat Pinterest Kim behind the whole basement there's no one around only Rabbi hurstbrook is learning totally you know princess he says it's his wife or his wife was wilster what do you want kimah him come home you gotta eat he says Essen I took was melanches a day that you didn't yet learn your regular Gamora Shear you're not allowed to eat or I'll rephrase it eating isn't important I am eating I am eating from me learning gamarazini for you my dear wife eating is after a whole day of not eating you're hungry you eat but for me you know what eating is learning tomorrow so you can imagine you know and I'm not saying he was at Sonic was a very good person fine person and everything else but I'm saying for him and I know this person I'm telling you I knew him I saw him in action and I say that that story is 100 true this man was totally in love with with the gamara I'm telling you there was nothing else in his life besides a Gamora Dr never says here in the brackets that for the average pain in the it's not so and for the average bending knee as much as he wants to break his nature his nature still dominates and therefore unless you use the intellect that fuels the heart even though it's cold you're gonna drift back to your natural self which is bodily needs and and and think about people you're around and know in the past and the present how many people do you really know that you could say that you know they're learning and their Mitzvahs is who is that's all that's all they care that's that's their life that gives them physical uh stability you know it I I think I was talking to a friend in in the opposite on the river became ill in 1992 it was a question who locked himself up in his room and he didn't come out for two years or three years ultimately passed away that's what I heard you know it's it's in a negative but in other words he took his Reba's illness so serious that he couldn't eat and sleep and basically he went into a depression now I'm not suggesting that it's no good but think about the you know let's see you know covet right I talked about coven we've discussed this hey has covered made a change besides working at home instead of an office I was still spending fifty thousand dollars on a wedding you know I was still hasn't really made a change or did it just make a change temporarily so you shouldn't die and get sick so we did all the stuff now that we feel we're back to the norm in other words it didn't really really make change it's a temporary thing in other words yeah maybe a global but our personal lives are we now different people because of this terrible thing well this thing that Hashem brought to the world so that's what drama is saying here in order for a yeet to experience true title Mitzvahs they need to fuel their title mitzvahs with understanding of God as it impacts a feeling of the heart and otherwise you're going to revert back and that's an answer measure to what we spoke about in the first year we had to cut a little when you I remember I never forget we told me there are a lot of people here that are stale they do it like robots there's no highest I remember that that's now six years ago so I this drama gives us tells us here why that is because there isn't at least this Hashem they said come to shulong kind make this minion give this Sedaka it's all about the foil and and apps at the end what enthusiasm issue yes but the question is why and how why isn't there an enthusiasm and how do I motivate them but says exactly if you the and the enthusiasm comes when it's fueled by understanding how important it is so that triggers the heart to get start moving in some level and that creates that the action from the heart is animated more or less having it I have a sheer now so limited tomorrow hopefully we can finish the painting because I deserved thank you bye-bye bye bye