Intellectual Emotions is expressed through Torah study - Igeres haTeshuva 9 - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

we're holding cha the 10th chapter on page sadic Tess I'm sorry we're holding chapter 9 on page 196 here comes to answer a question and the question is that in the last chapter in chapter 8 Al introduced to us for the first time in his Trea on chuva what chuva is the higher level of chuva in the early part of this Trea we said there's CH and chw lower chuva and higher chuva as represented by the two letters hey of the UT k v k chuva ELO is alluded to by the second hay by the first hay of the Y and the last hey is chuata and most of the discussion was about the CH because that's more kind of that's relevant to us if if anything you know we're we deal with truth in a in a more simple way practical way but thees said that Chu t not only but also when a person does certain transgression certain AA a sin they also cause damage to the first he being separated from the yud yud he V he so normally TR is we have to rectify and and repair the separation of the last he from the three letters when it comes to says you have to rectify by bring return bring back this this the first hay to the yud what is the hay beina the yud is the ha is beina the and the last is this is in the language of the the holy last chapter8 says how do you do that you do it by learning with a and with a and love so Masha this seems to be something that is straightforward but the truth is it's not straightforward because to learn for the sake of T being permeated with a true awe for God and a true love for God is a flut and toot and experience it's it's heavy stuff but that's what it is then the Al said in the name of the Z that that's the idea of beina why beina because the word Bina is is based n guess what in the word Bina you have Ben Bina is the son Ben of the ud in the cave not not is not the son of the VK it's the son of the utk this is what it says in the Zoya now comes chapter [Music] n and the AL starts with the words to the clarification of the idea when you read those words you have to ask yourself what is bothering him that needs clarification you see when you learn this you got to stop right there what's beer when I say be when one says let me clarify something to you wait a minute Masha what's not clear that needs clarification I'll tell you what's not clear when you say Bina you say Ben yut the son of yut and we're talking about learning to with AA and aren't AA and mid emotions and iser where are emotions which letter of the UT k v represents the the emotions the V not the K so says I don't understand it makes no sense you're telling me it's Bina which is the hay but yet we're talking about what we're talking about aan learning ter with aan yes H that permutation of the shame of of the word Bina did he bring that before did I miss it uh I I I think you missed it I don't know if you were at the last year um but it was I believe in the last year somewhere um oh boy we have to find it now here somewhere it's okay well I'll look for it look for it in the previous look for it in yeah just one second just one second here yeah look look above just at the end towards the end of P like a few lines from the end of chapter eight so he's giving you the citation it is to study love the of God Almighty Etc H you with me did you find it in the Tanya or not you have a Tanya anyway it's right there the EU okay the EU Ben you it's right there anyway it's right there three four lines before chapter nine I see the E the E the E Ben yut Bina it is Ben Ben yut which is Bina so it's right there okay so this is what he begins now in chapter n clarifying what seems to be reconciling the contradiction between AA and Y being MOS the emotions and Bina which is the hey which is intellect let's learn inside to clarify this as it says in the Holy Zoya and another part called within the in various places throughout the you'll find this idea that be is the is the K the this the the idea being that beina is the upper the higher level of CHA which is the mother bird crouches over the chicks what through meditating on God's greatness in a deep way with depth of mind and The Offspring The Birth from the the spirit of the meditation is something that we call Int ual emotions first time we've had this idea so clearly the is an acronym and love intellectual ones I I'll explain soon and very well explained as the verse says you should to love God your God why this is from the verse because God gives you life in other words this the the t is saying you know why you should love God because he he keeps you alive he gives you life in other words there's a reason associated with the feeling and it's not enough the natural love that's concealed and hidden and latent in a Jew's heart it's not adequate just to have that well I'm going to explain let me just read a few little more so also with the of of fear and tremble or embarrassment is known so even there whether it be fear for God whether it be trembl for God whether it be more of an inner feeling you're not scared but you're embarrassed out of the reverence of God right says when you understand why this should be so you have a reason it makes sense then the quality of your fear and awe and embarassment is very different much greater so what we're pointing to here let me just for a moment say it outwardly Yi what we're pointing to here is not the natural feeling of love and a love and fear that we have kind of instinctively right you come into to a and and it'ser there's kind of an instinctive you know feeling of of awe you come people are dancing there's an instinctive feeling of joy we're not talking about that that is AA andan it's called natural love and fear says here here the higher level of Chua means identify with an emotion that is stimulated and created by the mind and it's within the mind it's a feeling in the heart but the feeling in the heart is expressing mind intellect rational a reason so just to to elaborate for another minute when when we do something because it feels good I'm saying something in Tyra a Mitzvah you visit someone in a hospital you give someone a ride but it's PR dedicated on the feeling that's more ATIV natural a when we understand the reason for it and we understand it well the quality of that love that favor or that fear and awe is significantly different of another category than the love and fear that's expressed natur that's what he's saying here and that's how he answer the question right the question was V is mid how how is it be because we're not talking about MOS just as mid we're talking about the mother bird crouches over the chicks and creates the chicks the chicks are a result of the mother bird in other words the chicks are demonstrative of SE not the chicks are demonstrative of mid sure the application is a Mida but what what lies in this mid that's what he says here so that's why H it's it is beina it is Hew it is the first he because we're not talking about a feeling of the heart that's natural we're talking about an intellectual feeling a rational feeling so what guides that feeling is only the intellect and rationale and bereft of that you wouldn't have the feeling and mind you this also AB is a reason why sometimes we are dull we are rigid we are stale we are we don't feel you know why because we don't understand and this by the way is a in h you learn other with some of the guys here also this is a is is one of the differences between the kabad system and other system the kabad system is looking for the Mida to be animated and to be kind created by and to be felt in theid should be feeling okay here's talking about in the context of Bina but I'm putting them all together for a moment the three components of the Mind should be the lifeline of the maida that's very different than saying it feels good I'm OD it's all true it's all important but there isn't there the depth of understanding and I don't mean just you know knowing that 1 plus one is two really understanding it deeply understanding it so that the maida is a very very rich qualitative Mida the other systems the Polish Hungarian like Citizen and even breast all of that is more predicated on the Mida as a Mida itself and I know that breast argues their ker I'm not going to go into that because I disagree with it it's just you know uh whatever just discussion just to say who who's higher who's lower but practically speaking look at a bre look at a then you see a vast difference you're talking about you know they're both very special and holy and important but but the the approach is totally different who's learning breast is the way we learn these chapters in Tanya I I know some of the breast liver leaders and great people you know and it's but it's a whole different system of of of of of of learning theas right and this is Al alludes to it over here says that this is what we call not let's continue the primary concept of love for Hashem is the cleaving of spirit to Spirit kissing from the kisses of the mouth Etc what's the proof from that verse what is a kiss a kiss is the emission of what's in the heart what's in the ruach of course the physical kiss is a physical kiss and it feels good but that's just the feeling a true kiss imagine someone you haven't seen a friend in 20 30 years and you kiss each other and hug each other it's not just a kiss it's what the kiss represents it's the spirit hey we go way back we we we sat and spoke together drank together smooz together hung out together we're buddy buddies that's what's emitted in a true Nika when you when you when the Godly kiss as expressed by the human in the context of a a Jewish experience is the ultimate of a deep understanding a deep appreciation for each other I that's the's reason for bringing this here and this is why it says right you should love with all your heart all your soul with all your might refers to all parts of the Soul intellect and emotions and their garments their instruments thought speech and action to attach all of these to connect yourid your emotions which is as God is compassionate so you be compassionate connect your intellect to God's intellect and God's wisdom who this is specifically Torah not just to read words of Torah but to be to deep de to delve deeply into the thoughts of for Torah connects itself to God's wisdom to your thought connected God's thought your speech to the word of God this refers to it says I will place my words in your mouth and my words will be placed in on your in your lips in your mouth so we see that the idea of should be connected to through then there's action the act of giving to enliven the spirit of the downtrodden as it says six days God made the right each of the days corresponds to another M another and each of the days we connect that as it's known elsewhere we're on top of first line of P test when we do this that we connect our to in the aforementioned ways this is creates is the the cleaving the clinging the attachment of the spirit of man to to the spirit of God in the ultimate Way of connection of cleaving of and unity when it comes from that perspective of loving God right this by the way I don't remember being being explained elsewhere in T it's the first time I think in t that I've seen an explanation on we've seen an explanation on of course in the first chapters of T the two hearts and all that we also learned about the idea of ble vo going Beyond The Pale you know Adam the Transcendent experience what about this is the section here in actually explains and he says means every aspect of your soul your and so those five elements which comprises men makes men tick all of that you shall love God with all your mind not just with all your money and not just with all your heart but with all of your neish with all of your mind your intellect you have to love God with all your intellect your intellect has to also be inspired by Hashem to Hashem and so to the mid and so to the okay so when we're talking about the ne we were talking you know months ago about the ne does that go into this category what we're talking about now yes and no in other words what he's saying is that all of man the SE the mid so it's not just I'm glad you brought it's a good question very good I'm glad you remembered that we're talking about in the classical way that you mentioned refers to only here he's saying that your your mid your mid your emotions and your thought speech and action so here he's including in not just but all aspects let's continue third line now remember we're learning we're talking talking about issues of you know transgressions constantly the number one issue that the AL deals with in is masturbation it's very very important you see it almost in every chapter out of all the a which one does he like hype on and does he Focus and and it's it's and the reason is because that's the Human Condition You Understand Al with all of his such a big sadic and such a great Soul he understands that a human he understands Humanity he understands that this is a natural thing for a human being so that's why he spends so much time in the get Tru that's why one second H that's why it's so important to learn especially during the month of el when we're doing chuva because here the really talks about this issue my rash in Los Angeles who who knew knows RAB his his you know love was and when he spoke about get us the TRU he was a different man than when he spoke about the first section the second section of T surely the fourth section if you you know him you know he's someone who took things very seriously and this is a part of life that people especially Servants of God especially they took it very seriously so they wanted to understand and the Al I think you could say is definitely from all the Rebus to articulate in these 12 chapters in such great detail how to deal with this issue spiritually find me another safer that uses so much in talking about and it's tick you know you'll find in in holy from all the They mention a ver and they go on they don't you know and they'll even mention the piece of Z which letter you've blemished by doing that sin but that's it Dr doesn't just mention letters of the Z doesn't just mention the amount of fasts he explains why this amount of fasts and what if you can't do it and then what and everything is done with in great articulation yes H I was just going to comment that this is also a central theme of the in of PR that returning returning very constantly the pag bre right others as well but uh but but um they really emphasize it like we're doing here right right okay surely if you if someone did worse is immorality forbidden relations right masturbation is yourself but then there is God forbid you know there's immorality um or other prohib intimate acts whether they be biblical or I just want to say that you know sometimes we say I don't want to go into this but you know for two women to have relations Is it a Biblical prohibition no is a rinic Prohibition probably and even if it's not so I'm just saying that people throw out Loosely well you know gay a gay couple you know involves another things Etc but what about two women so when we learn in kazal the words of the rabbis even are more stringent it could be it could be I'm not I'm not giving H rulings here but in concept I'm sharing the idea and concept yet technically you didn't violate anything if if it's two women right lesbians maybe technically you didn't violate anything but then there is the spirit of the law that might be even worse I'm just saying this is concept that when some the ran say that the ran talks about yeah yeah everyone talk yeah of course I'm just say I'm just sharing this not a I'm just saying sometimes people argue with you you know like it's the same thing with a concubine okay a pish I have a wife and I have a pish if it was good for a and later on why can't I have a pish today and some have and some have argued that today you know that I remember we spoke about 20 30 years ago there was there was that whole there was a whole discussion people were having potion concubines the fire them technically right they can have more than one why you know all of that I'm just so then there the concept of again even if it's not a rinic Prohibition but if in in Ash's tradition the m has been not to do that then even if you could technically play the game of a a concubine having a concubine you're not you shouldn't do that so I when I see these words and just reminds me to of the greater issue let's continue now these sins these transgressions of masturbation of of immorality and prohibited relations where did they touch where did they make a blemish in the brain in the brain that's why how do you Rectify that who the you need to learn t t is the antidote for these AAS why to because TOA is wisdom comes from the hashem's wisdom so since the drop of Sean comes from the father's brain as already explained in chapter two of T so when you engage in activity that involves the drop of semen in any of the prohibited ways as aformentioned ways the way to corrected is through the opposite positive holy way of intellect which is learning T that's why not giving s not going to nursing homes learning is the that's what it says this is what's written there if someone and according to he obligated to die what should he do he won what should he do that he shouldn't die and he should live if he was accustomed to learn just one page until now he should now learn two pages double the amount if you would learn only one chapter of mnas he should now learn two chapters double the effort that's the ticken for this AA and you will live that's what it says in even though you committed those sins why do you have to double your effort because says it's like the example we gave when you do a sin it's the Rope that's being separated you're reattaching the Rope when you reattach a rope that was cut it's not enough to make one knot you have to make two knots so it stands stronger the place of the knot where you you was separated it was torn now you make a knot twice so what's the anal anal analogy of that that you learn T twice as much as you learned before for this sin to in the spiritual aspect of the Rope of our inheritance with Hashem who's our inheritance when we sever that we have to double the efforts this is what the verse says through kindness benevolence and Truth sin will be forgiven when says refers to bias B the sin of the House of there was a story a story in tanak with B what they did sins so it says there in tanak they won't be forgiven through sacrifices and through presence even B will be forgiven so this this is the AL explanation at the way to gain Chua for the worst of the sins from masturbation to Pro to immorality to prohibited relations biblical or reic is through doubling your efforts in learning T clear clear so we know what we have to do thank you Al for giving us in one chapter a direct answer we'll see you tomorrow have a great day bye-bye very good