Humility and positive Embarrassment, how do I achieve it? Levels of Awe - Rabbi Chaim Dalfin #2

what do we see over here so we see over here a phenomenal idea that the a a is a higher level is a deeper level and he calls it so there's a the AL that explains this with a mush the mush of ofous is not the B that the nation has to King but the B that a person has to a or when we talk about the the subservience of a nation of a people to a King it comes from the externality of the king he is the king I'm scared of the king I fear the king then there's something called busher you're embarrassed busha comes from the essence of the person that when you stand in front of a person who's really an exalted refined individual like a god or a god you melt away that melting away has nothing to do that he's dressed in a Royal garments and he sits on a throne no but when you're in the presence of Godless you you're just ODed I don't know if you've had this experience you probably have in your lives meeting you know certain individuals but you know even though I never met re salvic but I've learned so much about him I could just imagine standing in front of him I would be completely odd because here's an individual who was so I'm talking about now I'm not talking just and I'm not talking about that he in other words that he comes he's a grandson of K brisker was a grandson of the great grandson and all of that not talking that's the pedigree oh you know he comes from this Rabbi and talking about he himself as an individual who mastered T in such a way that this was his entire focus and this entire way of thinking Etc it AES you I mean how many times do you do you do you get to meet someone of of of that stature you know and the so and and so everyone has uh God that's why God could be you know I I imagine if you stood in front of laav Aristotle or or or or or Einstein or or bethoven if you know the in in those areas in those areas you're on and you you you completely lose your your presence is completely aold bottle why not because of the because of the pemus of the person right so we're talking about Del calls it here in a fear and all coming from bu busha in this in a healthy way busha not in a a decrepit way in a in a unhealthy way talking about positive busher I I I I told you once and when I was a buer I came into my dormatory room in CR Heights and there was another B at from and I went to sleep tried going to sleep he was standing outside of the dorm it was a narrow Corridor and he was facing the back exit the emergency exit and saying and I'll never forget how I couldn't fall asleep I I was so embarrassed here I'm laying you know I I said a quickish and or even if I didn't say quick I I said but this this this bucker who's my age and he's you know elsewhere and where am I I'm under the under the under the blanket trying to go to sleep I I remember I was very embarrassed you know the bush the bush doesn't come from the it's it's not you know how much information did he know how studied is he how knowledgeable that's not that's not what's creating the busha the bush is coming from Pia so number one one second he said one second number one to to realize to come to this feeling and and understanding it takes on your part A sensitivity that's why we call it YW it's a different category and are two different worlds it's not that is more of totally wrong that's that's what says he says it so briefly but that's the over here that's what he's teaching us is a different category just one more thing and then I let you say at different times people had and others had issues and questions and especially the someone had said something about the's father and the said don't start up with the family of the Zar watch your tongue and he said this to a big Aid who gave a lot of money to the re a who was glued to the Reb but at some point and the said to him with kind of a little you're starting up with the wrong family and he didn't mean it you know hey we're the mafioso we're going to get get back at you is that what he meant what he meant is you're talking here a different category you know so you're right from where you're coming from you don't understand it that's the point if you go about from the vantage point of it won't make any sense is saying that isn't just an enhancement of like I said earlier there's of and there God of lower less and more no is something completely different and that's why he calls it yes yes sir this conversation reminded very much of the dispute between and regarding the starting point in whether it's from recognize the greatness of K or the loneliness of man the loneliness of man being the the the and the greatness of being the the recogniz of the the greatness of who else did you say his brother oh I would say yes or no to what you're saying I'll tell you why because the doesn't mean not the way the way says it I'm not saying it that the TA is not an A T from where is coming from is coming from it's not the loneliness of man he's talking here about it's the loneliness of man the yeah but what's the emphasis the the AL is emphasizing what's the emphas is how how much I owe the a or how great the aester is I'm not I'm not sure that it's nuan it's nuanced I of course it's nuanced but I'm not sure that's theot here that would be a good example here but okay here we're talking about is coming is coming from not Bush because I'm low not because you're low just no because no because the abish is the abish God is God and therefore I'm like embarrassed I I I what what humility it's a form of humility of course the form question is what's causing the humility so is is saying if I understand correctly that the humility is coming because he realizes how low he is is that right what you're saying it's it's it's allowing us in in relationship to's greatness yeah as opposed to is so great and therefore it's my my loneliness given greatness I don't know that not explaining it well okay okay but what about in comparison like like when we we talked about re we talked about this months ago about a mean there's fear of God but we're not talking about fear like you're gonna strike he's gonna strike you down no no we're not talking about fear at all in both scenarios we're not no no no we're talking here about a different category of Y that's why it's called YW meaning it doesn't come from meditating either on God's greatness or how God pervades the world it's there's only God and since there's only God yeah where do I come into the picture over here you know it's like was this way maybe was other they would try to hide their face when they saw the Reb when we were B him we would hide behind people we would say we don't want the Reba to see all of our Schmutz that's inside our head and the it it so it's it's it's a sense you use the word humility yeah it's a form of humility uh maybe I'll see if I can find any good writing in English on this to to show to share go ahead H I just want to add a little postcript to what what we were talking about that that story of that they brought this question as a question of aod to the mag to the mag yes ask him which is the which is the best path to begin your aod the contemplating the Godless of hm or the sh yes so so the the response was he said the contemplating the shiftless of Adam is the is a higher path but very few people can do it so for most of us the beginning of a vot is contemplating the godance of hasem right right but what what what what what I am thinking about Bas is that both and a is not the bat a he's talking about something very different that's all true and it's all holy I I believe he's talking about something deeper he's in other words I would say this is my gut feeling that both and the the their their positions is within and and over here the balat in the in in the section that we're at now he's talking about which is a very different uh category not better or worse just a different category of of remember he says also the words it's called not so in other words my humility is not predicated on on either you know realizing how awesome God is or how low I am cuz that means that the eye still exists in some form he's talking about where there is the the Consciousness has reached a point where there is no eye and and this this is a very hard a you know manasha you want to say something no okay no no just listening okay okay good good conversation deep thought and let's think about it overnight and make sure you can't fall asleep because you're thinking about this have a good day love you all Shalom see you all tomorrow byebye care bye bye