How to Humble Myself: Are you Working Hard? Rabbi Chaim Dalfin

so we're learning Kanye Chapter 30 Pedic lamid we are on page uh 76 the altered here is continuing his opening thought of chapter 29 how do you get rid of Tim to malev clogging jading of the heart which causes us not to feel to have the kavana and the feeling when doing the Mitzvah especially when davening and that's necessary to have necessary if you want to have similar you need to have simple so this is what he discussed in 29 he gave us several suggestions now in chapter 30 he has another suggestion and the the suggestion that he begins with is the idea of humbling yourself simply by considering not being judgmental because you don't you don't know uh the situation you don't know where he's at and therefore it says it's not just a game pretend but you really saw you your feeling should be that you're humble before call Adam even a calcium and as well as the David says that means that picky of his beliefs and wants a person to have this Heritage this feeling which initially initially it seems uh perplexing because why should you have why should you feel humble before a cow should be column and we discussed that yesterday so now the altered is getting to a point where not after telling us that you're not challenged with those issues for example if he's a young economy she sits in the corners and sees all kinds of tivers and you sit at home and work and sit in your office so how can you compare yourself to him that even even if you're also sitting on the corners and you're not fathomed and he is fathomed by the divers it's because you're cold-blooded and he's hot blooded so these were the arguments the positions that ever watched suggest that you should cut think about before you pass judgment so he's the middle of he's a middle of solidifying the argument that being judgmental is wrong that doesn't get me that doesn't yet mean that you should feel as you're on the same level as a council to college there's three things listen to this there's not being judgmental there's feeling that he and I are equal you know you don't have to be drug you could you could not be judgmental but still you believe you're better than better than him to yourself so the second stage is not to feel that way and the third stage is in the third stages that you actually realize that you're lower than him and that doubted up is going to explain towards the end of the chapter so there's a very methodical progression in the peric people learned this chapter fajitas and they don't know from their highest they think it's all one thing about being not being judgmental it's wrong it's not the shot there's a progression here the first part of the chapter is not about not being judgmental the second parts not only not being judgmental but being equal right he I'm not better than him I'm on the same level as him and because why we'll see soon and then there's even a more humbling feeling which is that he's even better than I the calcium column is Sir the low life has one up on me and that we're going to learn at the end that's the structure of chapter 30 in Tanya now let's learn inside page 76 um after the period about seven lines down to the top and middle of the page 76 Virginia foreign it's truthfully a very very great War muhammadullah and a mighty War whoever is on iPhone I don't know who's behind it but please mute yourself to shatter okay uh okay no problem it's a a Great and Mighty uh battle to shatter your your Yates that burns like fire in the Hubble like a flame fired Hashem because you have fear of God um says to wage war and a mighty War not just you know militia a little uh it's not a big deal but a real it's like it's an assayon what what um you know he said yesterday when Hillel shared with us the examples from his his that's uh that's a Muhammad Suma here is Issa you were in there but oh you saw this year someone who who um you know who who has a tiger has a tiger for for children as long as he was married he controlled himself his wife passed on he felt he wouldn't control himself wouldn't be able to so he he resigned from being a teacher ready and he came to Hilo for for help and advice and all that I mean and and that's a everyone has their titles Dr Pepper says I don't have to tell you everybody that knows you know for me eating is is back from from not eating you know and more than I need to and all that it's a real ISM and then everyone has their their tivus so you have to realize that the Muhammad is a Muhammad Suma it's a big war it's not just you know two little people playing with the sleeve slings on your block this is the enemy continue madrigo say therefore every person based on where is his place where you are physically your location and all that um and your spiritual level Hashem in regard to service of God Lee scale you have to weigh yourself we're not you know on a thing on a scale but weigh yourself spiritually believe him and check yourself out abroad Hashem you are a servant of God and you're looking is there and this fellow is a council of a cow and you're saying look uh I'm not going to be judgmental him I'm not going to judge him but to myself I know that you know I'm I'm doubting I'm learning I'm doing mitzvahs and he's not says but wait a minute I want you the supposedly you're with Hashem I want you to make check yourself out make a real husband between you and the wall and no one else not your wife not your kids not your Rabbi not your friends you yourself make a husband look at the words Hashem if you're such a servant of God but in the same manner uh that with a with a Great War but Venezuelan because in the good things that you do in other words you're diving I want you to think about whether you from in your good developing are really deafening with great Cavanagh and that you it's a and you feel struggle to think more the words and to meditate more and all that this morning and this guy went to play golf in the morning so who's better I didn't go to play golf says down to that but but so you haven't did you really die did you exert as much energy in fighting the Yates Sahara doesn't want to act upon in darbening as he has to fight the Yates of her and not to look what he's not supposed to no let's go further keep going now is going to give us three examples in the chapter Torah Tila and sadoka three examples the first one is trilo okay when it comes to prayer davening abroad with focus and concentration Hashem to pour out your heart before sin who can say here that they export their heart out before God's grace he just found out two days 48 Hours WWE now the sleepless Sleepless leak is for those that say sleepers and there's Yom Kippur you're diving out of my head like without my friends and I we were on the chat group chat you know about Slickers I said my friends however I would have Cavani in the suicus that I said last week I'm not poo pooing anyone to say sleepers I'm just saying you have to ask yourself did you pour your heart out to Hashem or you just went along with the minion and you have all the excuses you're a Gaba you're a rabbi you're a congregant you're from you all want to make the minion all the excuses but one thing is you didn't do this we didn't we didn't pour our heart out means to pour your heart out as though there is a I'm going to use a mustafort a knife at your neck it was a very famous reason I mentioned this name to you many times he was an older must be of mine you know not in Shiva but in the community and he would say about big city in Russia who everyone will say oh disgusted oh he's great this cousins would say the following if he didn't go to the srita he's a little man what does it mean he didn't go to the street if he was not ready to do or die for Yiddish guide and fighting communism and stalining and the KGB then all of us learning and all this nothing is nothing it's a clinical it's little change it's nothing and I always think about it because it's so true it's so true so in Russia it was you know are you ready to to go and talk to children to go to a little hey there or to open a Mitzvah when they're gonna shoot you'll kill you take you into Siberia you'll never see your family again we don't have that let's see this level we don't have that issue today but we have other issues getting up early not for having a love affair with your pillow darling with cavana okay we have when you eat you see it and we have so many you know so we we oh those guys are Russia and he's a stagger how is he eat does he eat like a yeet how did you sleep does you sleep like you know there were people they were eating who wouldn't cover their feet when they slept you know why instead of body shouldn't get heated up and they might have a an external emission accidentally at night no do you do that do I do that oh we say Christmas should I meet them you're a big star what's your that's what Dalton's referring to here the alternative here is really laying it into us to Humble us and and he's saying you're critical of a cow ship a column who has tyvis in front of his eyes and you think you're better because you're not even Hashem and you're darkening says are you doubting again the words here are very important do you pour out your heart proportion by the way I don't mean only with tears and and and and and the frustration and now for Hashem I'm talking about even unhappiness simple as a true because I'm sorry to say you know I saw the Slickers program at the karlberg shoe uh matzo Shabbos you know two three four in the morning and they're going strong it's it's just seeing it on the screen is is uplifting but at the same time yeah it's easier when you put the green is leading leading sounds like a little bit and there's a whole concert right right around him and all have right there and this little baba juice and the shrine look and the Slit Fox and there's this and there's that and everyone's together it's one no question about it on the other hand they have a but take a yeet who's by himself in their little Shield little show he doesn't have Yahoo the green he doesn't have a band he doesn't have 300 people it's not two in the morning you know what I'm saying you don't have all the Sidekicks no and he davins with great cavana Slickers and pours his heart out I don't know maybe he's on a higher level than all of that okay you know it reminds me when I was a bit seven stuck in one year and uh Rabbi Pharaoh asked me to to lead the Slickers and I did I came into Sleek who's thinking there's going to be a hundred people in the shoot you know up over there on doleave and I came in and we barely made a million 10 15 people and here they have crying dolphin you know I'm saying to myself I have to wait sir I have to not stand there and and and and and you know knock myself out because if I'm doing sleep because I'm gonna try to do it right the first Slickers that's right that's right you have 10 15 people the karma shul down the road probably had 200 people uh the the other rapper hey was opened them you know and it's called this and an hour to do the barbecue have barely had a meeting you know but that's the avoid the the avoida is it's a personal thing even if you're about about Philip foreign then it could it it's quite possible that your feeler is better than all the other dealers right it says to him you know the story he says I want you to blow Shaffer in my shoe measure bushing down about something sure and he gave him the covenants of hashemptive which there are in Chabad we the the instructed about okay out to learn cavanas it's a mimer I read through it quickly before having the second day even though I wasn't about to care but nevertheless and that's a minus about six seven pages and explains in detail what sound is it's right so so the percent of gave represents I think the cavanas he wrote him down and now he comes to uh to the basement foreign and he gets up there and he loses he looks for his paper and he doesn't have his paper he lost his paper so he says oh yeah I didn't memorize the cavanas how am I gonna blow the Shafer The Bachelor says to him blow the Schaefer and the bachelor tells you to blow you blow cavanas here come on is there you blow and he blows the Schaefer with such a broken heart of this he's so shattered that he didn't have the cavanas of the belshemtiv that the bashemtev wanted him to think about during the Schaefer blowing in his shoe imagine Bush and he lost her and the shempt have said to him after davening this year the Schaefer blowing was the best ever that you blew so he said why is because until now you are reading a script you were thinking a script and this year you blew from your heart and that's the best way about that Hashem to pour your heart out before Shem there is no script to this okay if anyone tells you that there is there it's wrong it doesn't mean you shouldn't learn to come on this but this you know technicality you know like you know by the by the I've said this is by the Ahmed what does it says it it's as though and and every normal Regular Show has that but but if it's just a shavichi and the Ahmed and it's not a shavichi in the heart it's like it says you know here we have to bow here we have to stand you remember your days when you started some of you and you got the English instruction pal stand up down I'm sure at that time you thought that this is nuts it's like but you're going with the program but now I'm gonna say here you have to cry push the button cry I come to fabrina sometimes and say sing this sing bad things and I said what am I a jukebox you're putting in five cents five dollars and you're gonna scratch the button my button thousand say this thousand sing that it don't work that way either I steal it or I don't and if I don't I ain't singing it for you I could sing it for you but it's meaningless I live the pen of the Soul swung to the soul so if you're not inspired if you're not aspired to sing this particular niggan but you know what do we say in Hebrew the foolish World Island you have to sing this song at this time because the congregation knows this music and they don't know another music that you might choose out the Debbie here says between you and Hashem there's no place for that when you're in a shoe and you know whether you're getting paid to be the bulk feel or not getting paid or you're performing or you're leading okay you have a choice don't go over to the open if you want to dive them with your kavana and you know on the other hand if they need you to go over you have a nice voice and you're doing the Mitzvah to help them why not why not so you're lacking your carvana okay you stay longer afterwards and cry your heart out then or before you come to school but don't don't take away the the pleasure of people who like your voice to you know anyway let's go on I just threw in a few sidebars here since we are in the um ask yourself whether you're exerting your yourself in davening by pouring your heart out to Hashem with all of your colleges look at the words now ish you know fish means till your soul ceases ends Yani have you ever seen someone diving and he he he's so um it's ecstatic it is darkening that he faints was once a closet in 1958 Sim Costa my father was there when he came to America Israel via France to America for the first time the rabbit taught a new Negan for 10 years from 1954 to 1964 simca's type in the morning about four or five in the morning after Apophis he went upstairs he had you know we made Kiddush whatever and then he came or he didn't I don't know he came back down he stood at the exit right before the exit of 770. the small part of the base of matters on a box on a milk crate box and he taught a new and the condition was and he gave him and the condition was that you should take an increase in the learning of hasidus for 10 years for whatever he stopped various people say say different reasons but in 1958 he taught and didn't call the shamil's you know the yay [Music] today [Music] foreign [Music] 1958. during the fabre English the simple Stanford bring it the night after that ever requested they sing the together so that everyone can become proficient and then they and they did and then later through the year there were periods when they sang the Negan at fabrangis because remember most people didn't know the before or didn't know it correctly and the never taught it correctly in fact the Frida Kadabra they tried singing the song in the 1940s and if I bring him with the previous rabbit and the previous level said you're singing it incorrectly and when my um son-in-law will come I guess this was in 1940 yet uh or maybe it was in Europe still when it would come he will teach you no but not you're probably America uh he will teach you correctly the Negan well he taught it in 1958 public but and so then because it was new people still didn't know the naked properly so they would sing it for Fabregas my father describes my father was says he stood two three feet from the Rambo he says he he thought his soul is expiring he said if you stood there and and the rapper sang the whole he said you thought he thought he's not his soul will expire from the the sweetness and the depth of the nigging coming out of the tadik's mouth that's how powerful and I heard similar from the beginning of course was there anyway one time during the year of I guess 58 59 they sang the Negan this is on a tape you you can hear it and that ever sang it by himself again at the fibration and there was a Horseman you know the dukman family his grandfather saying that High part so High that his voice snapped he couldn't go any further right remember Solomon was a Russian lead he said listen to this he thought that I ever fainted and you hear him saying the tape foreign fainted and a minute later the rabbit continued singing mitsui hanafish in of the Soul where where the soul I think they used the word in English of rum is the word rapture now they use that word rapture it's it's used right right but I'm not sure it's you it might be a Christian I think it has a Christian uh Source I don't know I have the the Rapture I said I don't know I don't know if it's uh but that's the idea yes Maisha you sit in the transition the exhaustion of the Soul exhaustion okay okay but to me exhaustion has like this you know to me extortion has like a negative this is not a negative this is so positive Yani that you're so one through the davening that you pour your heart out your your heart expires from from Love you understand myself what yeah right the soul wants to leave the body correct so but it's positive not okay whatever the word is what what is the body experience yeah okay whatever that's we all know what we're talking about let's continue and that causes you not like you say to have the out-of-body experience and go have a take a hike but the wage war with your body on your Netflix Obama is again it's an ownership that prevent you from having Cabana and you wage war a mighty wall of to destroy them and to shatter them like dust is already been prepared through chakras you have a great chakras when it comes minkle time you're going to have this feeling too not only should you experience this level of Michiana fish before the happening but even during The Happening against Buster to exert yourself with exertion of soul and exertion of Flesh which causes a common video because it says later on in chapter 42. closely again foreign and whoever didn't reach this experience hasn't reached an iota of of comparing yourself to the person who has the burning tiger so in other words the personalized the burning taiva is in surmeira watch your eyes I am hot blooded and all that right fine and you no show me show me that you have the same passion for God in your darling you don't so who are you to talk and who are you to think you're better second example definition of few minutes on your bench this is part of trilo the hope is eating when's the last time you stopped for two minutes before you put the food in your mouth and you thought about the brother and you you became ecstatic with God that you're about to make a blessing during the breakfast of birkasanen and benefiting from from food items and Mitzvahs surely are you doing the missile for the sake of the mitzvah now that goes to the example of Torah learning the same thing is to learn more than your natural tendency based on your nature and your habit fighting your body who doesn't have the zit's place says Yeshiva you got a lot of spookus you got a lot of pins you know where so sit still and learn and don't move no I can't I got an ADHD I got this I got that all the excuses so you learn a little bit but that's it I can't learn anymore okay and you're coming and you're looking at this guy who can't fight against Sahara on the street corners and you're sitting in the basement and you can't sit more than a certain amount of time because you got to answer your pants foreign but but I learned a little bit about the river says even if you learn a little more than your natural tendency next page that doesn't compare to the burning passion and lust that this guy has you're complaining that he's a baldiva he's a grub young he's a course guy he's an animal and you are not you're what you are because not in the Lost side in the positive side but you learn it a little a little bit who cares a little bit that's infantile foreign right we said earlier someone who has this lust and passions called a Russians if you don't overcome I look at the author of his words and we'll stop here and continue tomorrow what's the difference whether you don't wage war when it comes to preventing yourself from bad from Evil sir may Rob or whether you don't exert effort into positive unsafe time everything is the command of the king the Holy One who is United I'm going to explain tomorrow these three terms but the bottom line that I've been saying here is fella wake up and smell the coffee your avoida your avoida excuse me stinks okay foreign is meager you are no better than the one who can't control this yet Sahara with the time is in front of the eyes what we're going to learn later on is that you're worse cause he's sitting on the street corners that's his place of work that's where the tigers are for right he didn't choose that job he was put there you choose where to learn to win a David and you don't exert yourself so who is worse you were him [Applause] better than I do learns more than I do and is a much better person than I am however this person causing me travel more they refuse to help me out when I need help and it's causing me trauma not that I'm looking down at this person but you know it's still causing me drama so I'm being judgmental that way thank you um without hearing and seeing and understanding the other person's perspective it's unfair for me to make a statement all I can say is that don't because don't look at yours aveda's Hashem compared to him you focus on your hello hello is better than his is better than mine I recognize that okay but it doesn't I'm saying that it I need some help and of course it's lack of help is supposed to be traveling that's what I'm saying okay I'm that I'm not sending his motorcycle leave a voice note on uh your wife's uh WhatsApp and we'll go that way okay okay thank you okay to see everyone tomorrow take care bye bye all right